#also paris is hunter biden coded and its not gonna feel the same writing about him after the election :(

[paingoes]

Would you consider any of the characters in destroyer/other series to be self inserts? If not, how did you come up with the characters?

hiii thanks for the ask!!!! omg ummmm

for some reason im finding this to be a really difficult question to answer? which is annoying me cause i HAVE thought about it a lot and i think the answer ive had in the past is that delta is who i would have related to when i was younger and paris is who i really relate to now.

that’s a bit of an oversimplification honestly. delta was conceptualized first, probably when i was around 16-ish, and i really enjoyed imagining hurt/comfort scenarios w him. i think that was partially as a coping mechanism and it was something that brought me a lot of comfort. i dont think we actually share a lot of traits though.

paris was conceived for the story just these past couple months and its kind of insane how much ive grown attached to him? again i think it’d be a stretch to say he’s a self insert and yet i do feel i put a lot of myself into him. i think its the way his world is always ending and how stressed out and panicky and self destructive he is. i find it cathartic to write his freakouts cause secretly i want to to freak out too.

they are both constantly in survival mode and i think i related to delta more in situations where i was younger and had less autonomy and so i just had to put up with it. i think i relate to paris more as an adult because now my life is mine to ruin.

haha this got weirdly personal! i guess the answer is i dont see either of them as necessarily self inserts but they do represent different parts of me :)