#also nea: handles mana as gently as he can even with the rage still eating him up

[dreamsaflame]

nea "i am coming to Destroy(kill) you, my mana" campbell, an exhibition

(aka, tfw clown runs in the family)

what if it's been 35 years since we last saw and held each other and you're crying and even i'm being caught up in the emotion and despite everything i've missed you terribly?

what if you were crying tears of blood and i gently wiped them away?

what if you no longer remembered your name nor your (our) original face and instead of dealing with that feeling, i just smiled the pain away?

what if some black order finder jerks knock you to the ground and it alarmed me so much i cried out your name?

what if you said some bullshit about how you're gone forever, and i remembered you smiling innocently (back when we were still happy), and it pissed me off, but i still smile through the anger?

what if i sensed the ark activating to take you away and i had to run just to see (and threaten) you one last time?

what if i made sure the last image you see of me is me smiling gently and reaching back for you, as though we were still mirrors of each other?