#also my temperature is currently 37.5°C

[witch-from-a-block-of-flats]

Get ready for some fever talk. I'm still sick and I'm looking closer at our duos from Link Click.

Li Tianxi and Li Tianchen have powers that complement each other. Which makes sense, they are siblings, they shared a trumatic past, they care deeply for each other - all those things make a good narrative point to give the two people similar powers or powers that work well when paired.

Lu Guang and Cheng Xiaoshi also have powers that complement each other. But when we look at them from the distance, before the show began... they kinda are just some random dudes? Like it would be more logical if Cheng Xioshi and Qio Ling developed a pair of abilites. Why these two people who met "randomly" during casual basketball play have powers that look like they were designed to work together? Did they have their powers during their first meeting or something happened during their vacation trip? Did the fate itself decided brought them together? How poeticly beautiful and tragic that would be.

Like a red string connecting soulmates, powers of time manipulation tie fates of two people together, forcing them to make tough decisions, sacrifices and question their own morals and rules. If they change something they might destroy their present, a small good deed may lead to tragedy. Remaining a viewer also doesn't look good. Are they going to let all these innocent people suffer when they are able to change it? Because they are afraid of consequences of their own actions? Because they don't want to feel responsilbe?

Fate and Destiny are watching them, laughing at them. They gave them illusion of a choice.

[fractallogic]

Okay self, here’s the plan for tomorrow

Bagel and cream cheese, banana, yogurt for breakfast. Minimally banana and yogurt.

Take the trash out the second you throw the banana peel away because it smells SO FUCKING BAD for some reason. Doesn’t matter that it’s not even half full. Get that out of the house. Disgusting. (Also this is why I fucking hate having the laundry in the garage. It smells like gas fumes and garbage. In the summer it’s hot as fuck, and in the winter it’s freezing cold. It’s full of spiders. WHY CANT WE HAVE THE LAUNDRY INSIDE THE HOUSE)

Read something?? Downstairs?? Not too hot??

It is supposed to be NINETY FIVE degrees tomorrow and 96 the day after, like 37.5 C.

Today it was like 87 degrees outside, 82 upstairs, and 77 downstairs because the AC in my house is a goddamn fucking joke. Well, downstairs it’s fine. In my bedroom it’s fine (it’s currently cranked down to 66!). In literally any other place in the upstairs, it is hot as balls. I miss Tucson.

I was so hot and cranky after writing today and I thought I was going to barf during (a very normal and air-conditioned) yoga because I was so overheated. I think my meds make me more sensitive to heat, which is incredibly annoying, because the COLD makes EVERYTHING HURT, so now apparently I have to be at EXACTLY THE RIGHT TEMPERATURE or I’ll DIE

On one hand, campus is closed to everyone without keycard access (not me!!), so I could hypothetically go to campus and do work in my office, until my south-facing window gets too hot… but what if everyone being gone due to holiday means that they don’t turn the AC on either???

Well, anyway, eat lunch before you go anywhere if you’re hungry after breakfast—shin ramen + corn + egg

Do something somewhere at some point. Maybe email other prof and say we’re not doing the grant. She doesn’t have to know that it’s because I’m now too psychically tortured by the prospect of getting yelled at by multiple people for doing things at the last minute and therefore haven’t put an ounce of work into it. And it’s also because if I have the chance to get a job paying six figures instead while doing less work than i would as a postdoc, I’m gonna put my effort into that. Duh.

Idk we can just read more. Tannen’s gender and discourse isn’t gonna read itself before it’s due back at the library.

We should write up the stats for the paper too. That will be sort of relatively easy.

Dinner at some point: the warm chickpea salad thing

Take a walk. Or take one in the morning before it’s hot as balls. Idk. But take a walk. It’s important.

Now is when we have to lounge in front of the TV or play video games or something

Don’t open the window to keep the house as quiet as possible for Artemis

At 10:30 turn off video games and watch 2 sitcom episodes (JUST TWO) and have some dessert if you want some

Shower. Bed. This again. But earlier. Please.