#also my sooper sekrit way of tagging it is just by tagging it 'hyperion heights'

[justmilah]

As some, most, or even all of you know, I adore season 7 of OUAT. I know it isn’t everyone’s cup of tea, which is why I do my best to tag it in a way that it won’t get past the strongest anti-7′s filters.

But there are some parts of it that takes some thought to reconcile.

Admittedly, and perhaps obviously, I am biased toward Milah. Yes, she’s dead, but I see her influence all over season seven’s Hook. (I’m sorry, I can’t call him Nook. That’s an e-reader I once spent too much money on, not an alternate version of character I love.) And for me, neither is fake. They are both fictional characters I adore, but anyhoo, I digress.

There have been two points in the Hook story line I had some issue resolving with myself, and yet at the end of it, both resolutions wound up back at, perhaps not surprisingly, Milah. Or at least, Milah by proxy.

The first is the white elephant. On the surface, it makes sense. Killian handing something over that would ensure his own happiness for the sake of a child. But just below that, it doesn’t make sense. He’s spent so long without his daughter, why give her up for a woman and child he barely knows?

The second is Weaver. Basically his entire characterization this entire season. And I get that there’s more likely some wibbly wobbly plotty wotty reason we haven’t been clued on for why he isn’t a prick to Rogers, but five season previously makes it hard for me to swallow. (Yes, I fully realize and accept that he’s his own character outside of Rogers’ story. But for the sake of my sanity right here, he...isn’t. And so I won’t be tagging him when I post this.)

So what do these two seemingly unrelated things have in common?

Actually, no, it’s technically not Milah, but Baelfire. (By proxy, remember?)

With the white elephant, there is the obvious Milah connection, but it’s still more to do with Baelfire. Killian is one whose moral compass always tries to point in the right direction. Granted, it doesn’t always succeed, but we see the needle trying it’s hardest with Ursula and, more relevantly, with Baelfire. Lucy is the grandchild of the boy I believe he feels he might have wronged the most. (I contend the younger Liam is a tie or close second in his eyes, but that can of feels is for another post entirely.) Lucy is the great-grandchild of the woman this version of Killian Jones never fully got over. Lucy is the daughter of the man he’d come to know and respect as a friend. While not ideal, ensuring that this little girl, too young to survive on her own, would be placed with her mother when the curse was cast, was his way of attempting to begin to make it up to the boy he’d handed over to who is pretty much the epitome of a man-child. And he knows at this point that his beloved Alice is a capable woman, and it hurts, so much, that they can’t be together in this curse, but he maybe also hopes they’ll find a way.

So how does this help me reconcile Weaver?

Lucy is Henry is Baelfire. In the most round about way, this is it.

Weaver was the one who gave Killian the elephant. I’m not saying it was meant to be a test, but he would figure out pretty quick what happened and why. Even if he doesn’t know what happened between Baelfire and Hook aboard the Jolly Roger, you know, those two scenes that still leaves me tempted to buy Half Baked Ben and Jerry’s to sob into every time I make a fanvid, he would still make the connection to his son. Because even if, in his mind, that line goes up to Milah, it still passes through his son. And one of the things I adored most about Rumple in the beginning was how everything he did, he did for Bae. Essentially, the first curse was cast because of his desire to find his son. 

So he understands, he knows, that desire to do everything in his power to be with his child again. And he gives Killian the opportunity to have this with his daughter. And he fully expects Captain Hook to do what he’s expected to do here.

Only, when Weaver is awoken, that isn’t what happened at all. His great-grandchild is safe with her mother while the daughter of his once-enemy is living on the streets and under his sort of employ?

The way I am able to reconcile several seasons of not being able to tolerate this particular character and yet suddenly I can is 1) the several decades he spent with Belle (though that wasn't enough initially and so) 2) the recognition of what it was that Rogers had done. And I fully recognize I might be proven so wrong by the season's end with this last one. (Heck, maybe even in the next episode or two, who knows.) Basically, until I am given a legitimate 'canon' reason for why Weaver can be trusted (because for me it's been seasons since he could be, even with a wife he loves) this is the reason I choose to believe.

So yes, pretty much, even as I adore this season, there are still those moments where I need to 'reach' for something for me to grasp onto, to be able to make sense of.

And also, I'm still not over how one of the two main hobbies he has was one of the things Milah was known for. (That drawing of her was behind the scenes confirmed to be a self portrait :D And Neal/Baelfire had gotten his own artistic abilities from his mother, according to Killian.) And in between reconciling, I'm also sobbing that he was likely taught by Milah and he's passing this skill on to his daughter, and I'm not okay don't touch me.