#also my immune system is in the dumps atm

[shachaai]

Because I am infinitely curious and in awe of your writing I'd love to ask: what's your favourite thing that you've written, and why?

(Hope you're well!)

It took me a little while of thinking about it and it's probably a cop-out, but I don't have a favourite. I think I'm 'between loves' at the moment, and I'm certainly experiencing a little disconnect with a lot of own works, but, uh, I guess I really feel that I just don't have any one work that people can read and go 'yes, this is Shacha'.

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

1/2 i have anxiety especially over my health. In fact last night I was very afraid of dying. I heard of a girl in my city dying of an illness. Apparently my parent’s workmate’s daughter has it too. And when I spoke to my parents about my anxiety I was told they were near a boy who had it while in hospital the other night. (Both my sisters have been sick so I’ve dread that all week).

2/2 Plus my sister has a headache and Mum said she has a higher temp & headache and fever are symptoms. Im so scared. I can’t go to the doctors every time I have a headache. What do I do to distract myself from this anxiety? My parents only got annoyed at me :( I’m sorry this isn’t even bi related but idk who to talk to atm and your advice is good. And maybe it just helps to have someone to talk to

Anxious anon again. Just want to say sorry I hope it was okay to ask that. I do not want to be dumping my issues on everyone else. I just wanted some advice. I know it’s not related to being lgbt+ and I understand if it’s too much for you to answer. I know you’re not experts so I understand you can only do your best to help. Thanks

It sounds like a very common issue that people with anxiety disorders can experience. You are thinking of a scenario that’s very unlikely to happen to you but your anxiety makes you think it’s gonna happen for sure and at the end of it you are convinced of the worst possible outcome.

Also anxiety and other mental health issues can cause physical pains (such as headache) as well. It’s much more likely your headache comes from your anxiety than from a deadly disease. Also headache and fever are symptoms for many infections, most commonly the flu which can be easily treated and its not dangerous for people who are otherwise healthy. Really only small children, elderly people, pregnant people and those with a weak immune system are in the risk group - everyone else will go through the flu symptoms and their body will fight it off (fever is actually a good thing because that’s how your body kills the virus). A bit of Ibuprofen or other painkillers can help reduce the pain and lower the temperature if it gets too high (it shouldn’t be over 40°C - of it does go above that then definitly go see a doctor). So if you experience any of these symptoms, try not to think of “what’s the worst that could happen” but try to go “what’s the most likely thing to happen”. Most likely it’s just a flu and that’s easy to handle and something almost everybody has had at least once in their life.

Of course iof this is a recurring issue (you being afraid of getting sick) then you should probably try to talk to a therapist and yes, also a doctor to check out your body.

Maddie

[majorshiraharu]

This turned into a bit of a rant, but boy I'm just really tired, in pain and exhausted and needed to vent for a sec so my brain will maybe let me sleep cause it's now almost 2 am and I've been awake for like 24 hours straight thanks to my inflamed chest trying to murder me when I sleep 🤦‍♀️

Apartment roommate life is a nice break from the toxic and horrible/abusive home life, but also I live with 3 man children and I hate it 🙃 like I spent I whole day in urgent care last week, been really ill and in a shit load of pain. I have to somehow take care of myself, my dog (including his training class which I've fallen behind on thanks to getting sick) and 3 twats who think because I don't have a job I can "just clean up the place". I've taken out the trash, done all the dishes every day, cleaned the kitchen after they use it every time because no one knows how to clean anything and they just burn food and then dump the dirt in the sink. They leave plastic, cardboard and random trash on the ground, like plz I have a doggo, who I'm very proud of for not eating anything random they leave on the floor. Like my dog is cleaner and more well mannered then my roommates. Also trying to get them to pay me back for the stuff I had to buy cause after we spent 4+ hours at the store only after we rang up everything did they mention they didn't have the money to pay and so now I got $50 to last me the rest of the month which is just great. I've barely gotten sleep because I'm in so much pain and I'm sleeping on a stiff couch that is making my chest pain worse, my CPAP machine got a recall for causing lung problems so even the few hours sleep I get are horrible quality. I woke up at 4 am cause I couldn't breathe and kept coughing, felt like I was drowning in my own body :( and then I spent the whole day cleaning up after the messes they made. I even wrote post it notes and stuck them everywhere with what to do and they ignore them. I'm immune compromised and am on now another heavy hitting immunosuppressant, I already got really sick from one of them cause he failed to tell me he was sick and it triggered my immune system to start killing me again. I don't think I'm asking for much, just some people who can use two brain cells and friggin clean up after themselves. One of them doesn't have a job either and they're not ill, they just hate job interviews and don't want to work retail atm. I almost died the other day again and somehow I'm the only one who's capable of cleaning up stuff. At least my dog has been a great boy, he hogs my couch and threw me out of bed last night lol but he's tasking a lot more and seems to be happier being out of our family life. I love my dog 💙

Anyway that's my small rant for the night because I've been up since 4am and somehow it's 1am already and I probably won't be sleeping past 5am since my chest pain gets too bad and then I get to spend my day cleaning up more crap that isn't mine while trying and failing to take care of myself because not even my doctor's care at this point and I'm too exhausted to keep fighting them and/or my insurance.