#also my extensive sensory issues i hate the sensation of food in my body and im also prescribed laxatives so. yeah. take that as you will

[rigormortisangel]

"but if youre skinny why do you have an eating disorder" those two things are not related

[myrakeshblog-blog]

pc dreams

Here is some information about some common dream images to get you started:

Dreams with Animals:

Animals pop up everywhere in our lives and, in turn, in our dreams. The subject of what animals mean in our dreams is as large as the number of animals there are to pc-dreams about. Wild animals usually symbolize a sense of power or perhaps even a feeling of being out of control and domestic animals can mean the opposite a feeling of being "trained" or out of control. I could probably write ten pages in the impact of animals on dream interpretation alone. However, for this post, I will try to stick to addressing only a few of the most common.

The appearance of a lion in your dream usually symbolizes a feeling of raw strength, pride, power, or kingship. If you are the lion or the lion is your ally these symbols are most likely referring to something within yourself. Do you feel powerful and strong? If the Lion is attacking you or someone you know takes on the appearance of a lion, the your subconscious might be trying to draw your attention to a danger that your conscious mind has yet to recognize. Look at what else is going on in your dream or at the person taking on the dream shape and then take a closer look at what aspect of your life you think they are pointing to.

A dog appearing in your dream usually signifies exactly what dogs stand for, devotion and faithfulness. Did you have a dream about your husband playing with a dog? If you did, you probably feel pretty secure in your relationship. Unless of course, you hate dogs... then you have a whole different issue!

Cats are know for their mysterious nature, their independence, and their leisurely comfortable life. Wouldn't it be great to live the life of a cat? Lying around on comfortable chairs, then eating food prepared for you by your man servant before sunning yourself at a window with a beautiful view while you enjoy a nap? If your dreaming about cats, the image of the cat in your dream could be referring to just that. You could either be seeking or relaxed cat-like life or you are enjoying the fact that you already have it.

Dreams about Falling:

Falling dreams are a very common occurrence in dreams and one of those most talked about. While these dreams are usually scary, they may not always mean something. The body goes through cycles all night long, cycling between several different phases. As the body transcends into a deeper state of sleep, the complete relaxation of the body can often feel like falling. Many of have even experienced this sensation as we first drift off to sleep at night and it's quite common for your body to respond to this feeling with a reflexive jump that wakes you from sleep. That jump was the body's effort to try to protect itself from the impact it was expecting to come at the end of the imaginary falling sensation.

However, falling in a dream can also reveal something significant about your life. This type of dream most commonly occurs when a person feels like they have failed at something or when they feel overwhelmed by the their current circumstances. If you are having trouble sleeping due to common dreams of falling try sleeping with a pillow or other cushion pressed against your feet at night. The sensory stimulation to the soles of your feet will give your body the sensation of security and stability and has been known to drastically reduce the occurrence of falling dreams.

Dreams about a House or Apartment:

Dreaming about a house or apartment is almost as big a subject as animals. But, dwellings of some sort show up in most dreams so it is definitely worth covering some of their possible meanings here.

* Dreams being at home - Home is where you go to feel safe and comfortable. If you are in your own house or apartment you may be going there unconsciously to give your mind the opportunity to work through some difficult or chaotic activities that are happening in the outside world.

* Dreams about an unfamiliar house - These houses usually represent some aspect of you and can often be looked at as a physical extension of yourself. As you look at this house consider how it might relate to where you are in life right now. A big house may be trying to telling that you should expand your horizons. If you have taken on a big project that you are worried about being able to keep up with, you may dream about living in a mansions but being stressed about the maintenance of it.

* Building a house - dreams about building a house could be you're looking for more security in your life or expand on the life's foundation which you have already laid. This is a great time to start thinking about your future, your subconscious is already trying to tell you what you want and it will be easier to get in touch with that and decide your next big move.

Dreams about Flying:

Flying Dreams are one of the most common dreams. Almost everyone experiences a dream that involves flying at least once in their life while some dream about flying nightly. There has been a lot of speculation over the years about why we experience flying dreams so commonly. Some cultures even believe that individuals who are highly attuned to their spiritual side can have out of body experiences during sleep, and these dreams are actually memories of your spirit projecting itself and exploring during the night.

Dreams tend to show us our fears and hopes. So it is first important to consider how you felt during your dream about flying. If you felt happy or joyful during this dream, it may be reflecting a recent transcendence in your life. You've recently overcome a difficult situation or successfully gotten past an event that was worrying you. In these cases, the dream is reminded you to rejoice and enjoy your moment of victory. Your dream may also be drawing from a general feeling of peace and happiness in your life that has been ongoing for a while. If this is the case, congratulations!

Relax and enjoy the sites as your dream takes you exploring. If you experience a feeling of fear during you flying dream your mind maybe attempting to give itself an inner exposure therapy treatment. This type of treatment, often used by psychiatrists to treat individuals with severe phobias focuses around confronting your fear. In this case you may likely have a fear of heights, falling (see more about falling above), or even vertigo (the sense of being dizzy). While these dreams can often be disturbing there is a way to overcome them. Dreams about fears will cease once you have faced the fear and successfully negotiated the dream. Find a mantra that's meaningful to you, such as "In my dreams I have wings, and can control my flight and go where I choose, no harm can come to me." and repeat this to yourself as you are falling asleep each night. In this was you can control the outcome of your dream and turn the feeling of fear to a feeling of joy as you embrace the experience and grow past it.

Dreams about Death:

The interpretation of dreams about death is highly subjective depending on the the dreamers personal feeling about death and their religious beliefs. Often time, people dream about death in the process of coming to terms with their own mortality. If the dream includes a feeling of fear or anxiety, your subconscious mind may be trying to tell you that you need to come to terms with your own mortality. Life is a gift, but it's only temporary and, as many people believe, only a stepping stone to the next life. Whether the next life for you is eternity in heaven or rebirth to live life again, your body knows that you need to be comfortable with the idea that you are not going to stay in this life forever.

Once you come to terms with this fact, your dreams may evolve into dreams, that still include death, but are now based around the celebration of a good life and happy memories. If you've reached this stage in your death dreams, congratulations! You're subconscious is recognizing you and celebrating your own spiritual growth.

If you dream about a loved one dying, you may literally be afraid of their inevitable death or you might be experiencing a feeling of insecurity. Perhaps you're afraid that you're spouse is going to leave you or you children are about to move out of the house or head off to college. On a happier note, if the person you are dreaming about has recently made a change and eliminated a particular personality trait that you disliked, you might be celebrating it's passing from your life.

And remember, no matter what the old wives tales might tell you. If you die in your dream you don't die in life. Don't let your fear of death wake up up and stop you from moving forward to fully see what your dream is trying to tell you.

Dreams about Water:

Water is frequently considered a symbol for your emotions when it is present in a dream. Most people can tell exactly your dream water is symbolizing simply by remember how you felt during the dream when you looked at the water in question. Here are some hints when considering your water dreams.

* Large Bodies of Water - Oceans and seas usually represent our vast and complex emotional mind. A stormy sea may represent a feeling of turmoil while a sunny sailboat trip can signify a feeling of freedom and the ability to explore your own feelings without restraint.

[sui-senka]

Part 2 of determining my type

Why I see myself as INxP, as opposed to something else. So essentially; as you've figured out I'm talking about INFP and INTP. Initially - I tested as INFP and ENFP, then I tested as INFJ and everything else went downhill from there and I tested as everything else. (I basically had an existential crisis - No joke) My current profile type of 16personalities is INTP. Both types share 2 functions in common - Auxiliary Ne and Tertiary Si. @mbti-notes defines auxiliary Extroverted intuition as: "Auxiliary Ne (INxP): Dominant Ti and Fi have a tendency to be far too narrow in their judgments because of possessing overly individualistic beliefs and values, so Ne should be used to explore and visualize a greater range of ideas about what is possible in order to expand knowledge about the world beyond the personal. When a person struggles with developing the Ne function, they struggle between wanting to preserve individual freedom and independence versus recognizing the need to change and improve one’s relationship to the world. Without healthy Ne, INxPs often make unrealistic judgments that are implicitly marred by bias or self-centeredness because they cannot see beyond their own limited conceptualizations. Repressing Ne: closed-minded and unimaginative, tendency towards pessimism, lazy or apathetic or passive, unable to consider alternative possibilities, cannot make good progress in life (though you desperately want to) Overindulging Ne: impractical and unrealistic, unable to tell the difference between fantasy and reality, tendency to idealize and ignore signs of danger, cannot face negative consequences, prone to being addicted to mental stimulation, too easily distracted to learn in depth Healthy Ti-Ne: Your main goal is to understand cause and effect with precision so that you can prevent problems, fix inaccuracies, and avoid causing problems. Ne should help you mentally manipulate variables and visualize a variety of solutions so that you can better calculate which solution is most likely to lead to the best outcome. You prioritize the need to explore conceptual knowledge in order to find solutions that can maximize improvement and progress. Healthy Fi-Ne: Your main goal is to understand the depth of human experience so that you can always maintain personal and moral integrity in your value system. Ne should help you visualize different possibilities for realizing human potential so that you can approach human problems with more flexibility and imagination. You prioritize the need to explore conceptual knowledge in order to find interesting ways to foster personal growth and well-being." Here's more from the INTP and INFP pages: "INFPs’ Auxiliary Function: Extraverted Intuition (Ne) INFPs use Extraverted Intuition (Ne) as their auxiliary function. Ne can function either perceptively or expressively. The verbal expression of Ne amounts to something like “brainstorming aloud.” When orating, NPs may not always seem to “have a point” as they haphazardly move from one idea to the next. Even ideas that seem inwardly cogent to the INFP may suddenly sound incoherent when they attempt to convey them through their Ne. In its receptive role, Ne prompts INFPs to gather information. Ne does not merely gather overt information as Se does. Se is more straightforward, involving a direct apprehension of information through one or more of the primary senses. Ne is different in that it goes beyond or looks behind sense data. This allows INFPs to discern otherwise hidden patterns, possibilities, and potentials. Their Ne is constantly scanning for relationships or patterns within a pool of facts or experiences. INFPs commonly employ the receptive side of their Ne in activities such as reading, researching, and conversing with others. They enjoy asking questions that allow them to gain insight or knowledge from others, often making INFPs good facilitators of conversation. Its extraverted nature makes Ne more divergent, extensive, and open-ended than its introverted cousin, Ni. Ni is more intensive and convergent, conferring a greater sense of conviction and closure. Once Ni has done its work, INJs are more apt to feel there is a single correct solution. NPs, on the other hand, because of the divergent nature of Ne, seem to disposed to multiplying rather than reducing the number of options or possibilities. INFPs also use their Ne to sniff out intriguing possibilities. They commonly enjoy and assume the role of wanderer or seeker. Rarely do they know in advance exactly what they are seeking, which is partly why they find operating in Ne mode so exhilarating. Ne involves a sense of blind anticipation and expectation, of not knowing who or what will manifest next in their life journey. Ne also confers an open-mindedness. It helps INFPs see truth on both sides of an issue without forming unwarranted judgments or premature conclusions, including an openness to alternative or Bohemian lifestyles. INFPs are among those most likely to suddenly become vegetarians, join a commune, or decide to live out of the back of a van. They often fancy the notion of a “raw” or organic lifestyle. Like INTPs, INFPs have a love-hate relationship with their Ne. They love the fact that it helps them remain open-minded, to see the bigger picture, and to see the value of different options or perspectives. INFPs also enjoy the sense of adventure, expectancy, and wonderment toward life’s mysteries that their Ne confers, of not knowing who or what will manifest next in their life journey. But living with Ne also has its challenges. For one, it can make it difficult for INFPs to arrive at firm conclusions or make important decisions. It often seems that at the very moment they are feeling good about a given conclusion or decision, their Ne steps in and causes them to start doubting it again. This has obvious implications for INFPs who are trying to find their niche in the world. It can cause them to feel discouraged and restless, worried that they may never find what they are looking for. They may feel frustrated by their seeming lack of progress toward anything substantial. INFPs’ Tertiary Function: Introverted Sensing (Si) Unlike, Ne or Se, Introverted Sensing (Si) is a conservative function. It involves a strong attachment to past precedent—to the routine, familiar, and predictable. Those with Si in their functional stack often eat a relatively bland or at least consistent diet. Since Si types “eat to live” rather than “live to eat,” they are less likely to overeat or consider themselves “foodies” than Se types. Si types are not only conservative with regard to their diet, but with respect to the material world in general. They are less apt to lather on make-up or concern themselves with current styles and fashions, opting for a more “natural” and less embellished appearance. Many INFPs end up as vegetarians, eat organic or whole foods, and sport a bohemian lifestyle. Like other Si types, they have less of a need for novel physical pleasures, lavish surroundings, or material comforts. This tendency toward material conservationism can also be seen in the creative and artistic approaches of NP types. Their approach often entails creative reuse or recombination of (Ne) existing resources (Si) to make something new. While this commonly involves the use of organic or natural materials, they are also known to supply their creative projects with items from thrift shops or garage sales. A most overlooked feature of Si is its perception of internal bodily sensations—the body as felt and experienced from within. More than any other function, Si perceives a raw and basic sense of “being” that exists apart from thought or outward stimuli. Historically, Eastern philosophical and religious traditions have done a better job exploring this aspect of human experience than those of the West. This dimension of Si is engaged during activities that direct attention to one’s internal bodily state, such as yoga, Tai-Chi, or meditation. INFPs interested in exploring this element of Si may find great delight and benefit from these sorts of practices." AND INTPs’ Auxiliary Function: Extraverted Intuition (Ne) INTPs use Extraverted Intuition (Ne) as their auxiliary function. Ne can function either perceptively or expressively. The verbal expression of Ne amounts to something like “brainstorming aloud.” When orating, INTPs may not always seem to “have a point” as they haphazardly drift from one idea to the next. Even ideas that seem inwardly logical and sensible INTPs may suddenly sound incoherent when they attempt to convey them through their Ne. In its receptive role, Ne prompts INTPs to gather information. Ne does not merely gather sensory information as Se does. Rather, it goes beyond or looks behind sense data, allowing INTPs to discern otherwise hidden patterns, possibilities, and potentials. Their Ne is constantly scanning for relationships or patterns within a pool of facts, ideas or experiences. INTPs commonly use this receptive side of their Ne in activities such as reading, researching, and conversation. They enjoy asking questions that allow them to gain insight or knowledge from others, making INTPs good facilitators of conversation. INTPs may also use their Ne to sniff out intriguing possibilities. They commonly enjoy and assume the role of wanderer or seeker, rarely knowing in advance exactly what they are seeking. Ne also confers an open-mindedness, helping INTPs see truth on both sides of an issue without forming unwarranted judgments or premature conclusions. More specifically, their Ne can be seen as contributing to their openness to alternative or Bohemian lifestyles. INTPs are those most likely to suddenly become vegetarians, join a commune, or decide to live out of the back of a van. They are drawn to the idea and challenges of an unconventional lifestyle. Like other NPs, INTPs often have a love-hate relationship with their Ne. They love the fact that it helps them remain open-minded and grasp the bigger picture. But living with Ne also has its challenges. For one, it can make it difficult for INTPs to arrive at firm conclusions or make important decisions. It often seems that at the very moment they are feeling good about a given conclusion or decision, their Ne steps in and causes them to start doubting it again. This has obvious implications for INTPs who are trying to find their niche in the world. This can leave them feeling discouraged and restless, worried that they may never find what they are looking for. They may feel frustrated by their seeming lack of progress toward anything substantial. The fact is that INTPs desperately want to produce something of lasting worth or value, but they also want to ensure they get it right. They don’t want to leave any stone unturned before arriving at a conclusion. While INTPs typically enjoy this quest for truth, there comes a point when they begin to feel the pressures of life impinging on them. Questions about careers and relationships loom large as they enter their late twenties and thirties. This can be frustrating to INTPs as they feel like life is requiring them to make decisions long before they are ready. As is true of all IN types, they feel that life would be far better if they weren’t forced to consider practical concerns. INTPs’ Tertiary Function: Introverted Sensing (Si) Unlike Ne (or Se), INTPs’ tertiary function, Introverted Sensing (Si), is a conservative function. It involves an attachment to past experiences and past precedent—to the routine, familiar, and predictable. Types with Si in their functional stack, including INTPs, tend to eat a fairly routine or consistent diet, “eating to live” rather than “living to eat.” Si types are not only conservative with regard to their diet, but with respect to the material world in general. They tend to be savers rather than spenders, seeing excessive material consumption as unnecessary, or perhaps even immoral. Like other Si types, INTPs also have a diminished need for novel physical pleasures, lavish surroundings, or material comforts. They are minimalists to the core, relatively unconcerned with their physical surroundings. An often overlooked role of Si is its perception of internal bodily sensations—the body as felt and experienced from within. Perhaps more than any other function, it provides access to the raw and basic sense of “being” that exists apart from thought or outward stimuli. Historically, Eastern philosophical and religious traditions have done a much better job exploring this dimension than those of the West. This feature of Si is brought to the fore during activities requiring close attention to one’s internal bodily state, such as yoga, Tai-Chi, meditation, or various relaxation techniques. INTPs interested in exploring this element of Si may find great delight and benefit from these sorts of practices. They are especially useful in developing the body awareness necessary to relax and control anxiety." Why do I think I've got this function? - I tend to be broad end expansive with my ideas and I tend to be imaginative too. My humour tends to be a good indicator of this as I tend to be silly, random and a bit crazy, also thinking in analogies as well eg. thinking that those jet-firey things that they have in chinese takeaway stores that cook food are basically holes where they have baby dragons living underneath that cook food when they're needed. An example of this would be when a teacher asked me to create method of solving world poverty to improve everyone else's lives and I was thinking on the go - changing and vocalising my ideas out loud as I went along. It was something that I named horribly ("The warehouse of crap" doesn't sound that appealing, I know) but it was basically a UN funded cornucopia-thing in Antarctica where every country sent their best employees from every job sector to work there and work together to improve humanity in short and long-term ways. It makes sense to me as my way thinking tends to be chaotic, jumping from one way or another and whenever I have a discussion in a humanities/english class - I just feel ideas ebbing and flowing all the time - and I forget half of them too. Sometimes I go off tangent when I'm talking to someone cuz there's so many ideas in my head. It makes sense for me that it's auxiliary (ne) as I first evaluate any incoming info with what feels right to me by using my emotions or thinking (nitpicking stuff to see any conflicts/whatever) , THEN I'll go crazy and expand upon my ideas/concepts that arise from this function - eg. prosthetics that have mechanical stuff within them that essentially act as replacements for lost bone/tissue/nerve that are responsive and reactive to the user and made from high-quality polymer, (very sci-fi - esque) as opposed to what we have now. This makes me ME as I'm horrendously indecisive as a person because I feel the idea first - then I expand on every possibility ever - then I take ages to come back down to earth again. Si could most likely be my tertiary as when I was younger my mum (she's an ISXP) would get super annoyed at me for not appreciating the beauty of scenery whilst on a train or the colour scheme of clothing. What mattered to me was getting from A to B vs beautiful stuff. (hence the less of need for "excessive material consumption" or "lavish surroundings") Si is also described as "attachment to past experiences" which summarises my desire for nostalgia; old songs and watching old movies for the hell of it - because I love them a lot and they evoke fun memories from when I first saw them. eg. Rewatching disney movies when I have nothing better to do. Ok - as I'm doing this, this is turning out more and more of a mess so Eeeerrrrr..... next post I guess?!?!?!?