#also my energy began to drain when I started working on the reapers outfit so.. that's it looks kinda eh

[skullzy20]

Made a ref of my SOT sona specifically for Artfight but I put too much effort into it to not post it here

Scar mapping w info under cut, warning for nudity (not explicit)

[starrywonn]

grim reaper! jisung

not requested

a/n: i finished watching goblin (ik i’m two years late,,,,) but yea i got inspired!!! it’s loosely based on it though. i was going to upload this on halloween but i was super busy zzz. @uravityskz  @jisungdotjpg  @wolfcity18 also thank you @justkpopjokes  for beta-ing this fic :”)))

pairing: han/reader

genre: fluff, angst

scenario type: bulletpoint

word count: 5.4k

warnings: death, description of a car accident

jisung was a grim reaper but he didn’t carry a scythe or wear a hooded cloak

but he was always tempted to do it during halloween after he found out that’s what mortals thought the grim reaper looked like

he appeared to be like any other person but his aura was otherworldly

not necessarily good or bad, he just didn’t feel human

in this world, although jisung was a grim reaper, he didn’t have a place in the divine realms to stay in and he experienced hunger and fatigue like a mortal

because this role was a punishment

a punishment for the grave sins that he had committed in his past life

as part of that punishment, he couldn’t remember what he did to deserve it

but he never really dwelled on it

jisung didn’t earn any money from collecting souls but he managed to get by on the money he took from the table during wakes

he needed a place to live in and considering his situation, he had to look for a housemate to share the rent with

coincidentally, your housemate had recently left, leaving you to pay the entire rent by yourself

so you put up an advertisement online in hopes of getting a new housemate

you received an offer almost immediately and a meet up was quickly arranged for the next day

you went to sleep that night, relieved that your housemate problem was solved

the next morning, you woke up early to tidy your home

you quite liked the way the house looked

it was rather simple but felt homely nonetheless

it wasn’t long before your doorbell started ringing

you put away the last few things and opened the door

you were met with a boy dressed in all black

“hi, i’m y/n! you must be jisung”

you put out your hand for him to shake but he never shook it??

he just continued to look at you and paid no mind to your outstretched hand

you awkwardly retracted your hand and continued

“let me show you around”

as you walked around the house and made small talk with jisung, you began to realise how compatible your personalities were

he came off a little cold at first but he was actually quite funny

and jisung made a comment on how he liked the simplicity of the house which made you go :D

your previous housemate didn’t really like it so this was a bonus!!!

you accepted his offer and he moved in in no time

jisung was a really great housemate and friend

every other morning, he would prepare breakfast and you would chat with him

it was kind of mindless chatter but on the days that you guys had time, the conversations would get pretty deep and emotional

jisung was always on the listening end, giving you advice wise beyond his years

but throughout all these conversations, he never seemed to bring up anything regarding himself

ever

it struck you as a little odd but you brushed it off as him being uncomfortable with sharing about himself

it still kind of hurt though

one of the days, the conversation got to family

you figured that you should try to get to know jisung at least a little more

“hey jisung…”

“yea?”

“how’s your family doing?”

for a short moment, he dropped his collected facade

jisung’s eyes suddenly held a sort of wistfulness to them

his reply was a quiet one

“i don’t have one”

“oh. i’m sorry for asking”

“it’s alright”

you cleared your throat, “i’ll go and wash the dishes”

you packed up the table and left jisung to his own thoughts for the rest of the day

after that, it became rather awkward with jisung and you couldn’t bear making eye contact with him

jisung just pretended nothing happened and continued talking to you as per usual

you were a little taken aback

but still, you were thankful

you couldn’t be awkward with him

he was living in the same house for heaven’s sake

even after a few days, jisung still felt that you were a little distant after that whole talk so he invited you out on a picnic

he said that he would bring everything and all that you needed to do was get ready by 9am on saturday

you obviously couldn’t turn down the offer of free food so you agreed to go

jisung’s face just lit up when you told him your answer

it lowkey made you feel all fuzzy inside seeing his reaction

and within a blink of an eye, it was the day of the picnic

you decided to put on your favourite outfit because you have to look good ;)

when you came out of your room, jisung was sitting on the sofa, picnic basket in hand

he was wearing a black flannel over a bright yellow shirt and jeans

you’d never really seen jisung dress down like this nor with such bright colours

he was always in black or grey so all the more, the colour seemed to stand out

“let’s go, y/n!!”

you struggled to keep up with him as he made his way to the nearby park

the weather was perfect for a picnic

it was like something out of a drama

jisung had already found a spot under a large tree and laid down the picnic mat by the time you got there

he plonked himself down and he patted the spot next to him

you sat next to him, admiring the sight that greeted you

the flowers were in full bloom, children were running about the park with their parents smiling fondly at their antics

the two of you laid down together, taking in everything

it wasn’t before long jisung suggested cloud gazing while munching on sandwiches

“that looks like a cat”

“oh! that one looks like a house”

“that one looks like a really dramatic face you’d make when it’s your turn to wash the dishes”

“shut up, y/n”

as you rattled off about the shape of clouds, jisung glanced over to you

a large grin was plastered on your face as you eagerly pointed at the sky

suddenly, jisung’s vision blurred

a vision played before him like a movie

a person walking through a traditional garden was in front of his eyes

bright orange leaves fluttered down trees as a laugh escaped the person’s lips

they bore a striking resemblance to you, only dressed in a white hanbok instead of the cute clothes you would usually sport

the questions bombarded him endlessly

was this you in a past life? why could he see this? when was this?

he was literally shaken back to his senses

“jisung? are you okay? what happened?”

when jisung looked up, he saw you back in your usual outfit, worry written all over your face

he was no longer in the field but in the park

“ah! it’s nothing. i just got a little dizzy”

“do you want to go home?”

jisung smiled

“it’s okay! let’s stay here a little longer”

“okay…. if you say so”

for the rest of the picnic, jisung became much more quiet, only occasionally saying a word or two

“say, y/n, do you believe in reincarnation?”

you pursed your lips

“not really? maybe a bit.”

“would you mind if i talked about it?”

“no, not at all”

jisung sat up

“they say that we have 4 lives. the first is for sowing the seeds, the second for watering the crops, the third for reaping the harvest, the fourth is for consuming the harvest”

“that’s quite interesting. which life do you think you’re in right now?”

jisung furrowed his brows, “i think my second? what about you?”

“i don’t know, jisung. perhaps my second or third?”

the sun was now setting and the sky was painted in varying hues of pink, blue and orange

realising the time, the two of you quickly packed up and left

that night, you tossed and turned about your bed

jisung’s words were still on your mind

which life were you in?

from those few words alone, your thoughts branched out

what was your past life? that was if you had any

what were you then? did you still look the same? how did this whole reincarnation thing work?

with these questions still lingering in your mind, you fell into an uneasy slumber

when you woke up the next day, jisung had already left the house

a note was on the table

“sorry, got called back into work. breakfast is in the fridge.” was written in his messy scrawl

you opened the fridge and reheated the breakfast he had made

you put on some music and got back to doing your own things

you were a busy person with errands to run after all

when you got back home, jisung still wasn’t home

it was night and you began to brew two cups of tea

one for yourself and one for jisung

you actually didn’t really like tea before jisung brewed a cup for you

he took his tea seriously

like really seriously

he would take out thermometers and timers to brew his tea

but it paid off

his tea always tasted amazing

and that’s how you grew to love tea

you began trying new teas and sharing them with jisung every sunday

it kind of became a weekly thing for you guys to share tea

and so, that night, you sat the dining table, waiting for jisung with the two cups of tea 

he finally came back at about 11pm

the tea had already gone cold and his face looked drained of energy so, you left him to his own devices

you washed the cups and went to sleep

those hours alone stretched into days and days stretched into weeks

jisung’s early departures and late returns became more and more frequent

he was now always at work

it was yet another sunday night

alone

it was only now you realised how quiet the house was without him

the silence wasn’t exactly unwelcomed but it just felt…. 

empty

you thought of all the conversations over breakfast that you had with jisung

all the little things he would do for you and you likewise

his boisterous laugh, his insightful comments, his cute little smiles

....

you missed him

it felt weird to say it but your heart ached when thinking about jisung and how much you just wanted to spend time with him

you pushed aside those thoughts and continued to sip your tea

it was already 10pm

“screw it, let’s just wait for jisung until he gets back. it can’t hurt right?” you thought to yourself

earlier that particular night, jisung was assigned to go to a different district

there was going to be a huge accident and the batch there needed help

he waited patiently at a nearby cafe with a colleague

everyone assigned had three to four name cards

jisung flipped through his name cards

kang woochan, age 35, born 12 april 1983, cause of death: cardiac arrest

lee jiyoon, age 34, born 27 october 1984, cause of death: cardiac arrest

kang hara, age 13, born 5 september 2005, cause of death: cardiac arrest

kang sungmin, age 9, born 19 august 2009, cause of death: cardiac arrest

he grimaced

it was always hard to take the souls of families together

jisung glanced outside

it was stormy out today

cars zoomed past, spraying a mist of water onto the pavement, much to the annoyance of the pedestrians

many came into the cafe get a warm drink and shelter themselves from the onslaught of rain

it was like a safe haven for them

they all sat around, chattering away and enjoying the warm ambience, blissfully unaware of the disaster about to occur

jisung’s colleague gave him a stiff nod

he put on his hat and walked out of the cafe

jisung soon followed suit

when the grim reapers wore their hats, they would disappear from the human eye and would only be visible to supernatural beings, those who could see ghosts and, most importantly, the souls of the dead

jisung walked over to the group of grim reapers and greeted them

they were given a quick briefing as they waited

after that, they lined up in a single row facing the main road

it wasn’t before long the accident took place

a car ran a red light; its driver in his mid-20s

he seemed overworked, with dark eyebags and drooping eyelids

in his haze of exhaustion, he pressed on the accelerator instead of the brake and crashed head-on with another car

the drivers behind slammed their brakes but they were too late and ran straight into the cars in front

a bus was also headed towards the site of the accident

the driver swerved away from the mess of metal and bodies, only to crash into a street light

people in the streets screamed, some even fainting

bystanders frantically dialled for the ambulances as others rushed up to help

jisung shook his head

it was always heartbreaking to see such accidents happen

all because of an avoidable mistake, so many lost their lives

but this was in the grim reaper’s job description so many of them had become numb to it

jisung walked up to the family he was assigned to

the girl was in a state of distress, spotting her limp body in the silver family car

her mother comforted her, but jisung heard the pain behind her soothing voice

jisung tapped their shoulders to get their attention

the family turned around and expected jisung to tell them that it was just a dream, an illusion, that they were not really dead

he couldn’t do anything but to follow protocol

he quickly read out their birthdays and names and asked for their confirmation

they all nodded nervously

“please, follow me,” jisung said as he beckoned them

the family of 4 was led into a simple kitchen

jisung gestured towards the seats around the table before beginning to prepare the tea

the family took their seats, chattering amongst themselves when suddenly, the boy asked jisung a question

“mister, what’s going to happen to us?”

an uncomfortable silence befell the room

jisung was a little shocked that the young boy would ask him, a relatively intimidating grim reaper he would like to think himself as so but he answered nonetheless

“you’re going to drink this tea i’m making right now, then you’ll leave through the door which you came in,” he explained calmly, “don’t worry kiddo, nothing bad is going to happen”

the boy looked satisfied with the answer, immediately continuing to talk to his family

the tea was done soon after

jisung took out the coasters for the cups of tea and served them

“this tea will help you forget what happened in this life. drink it before it gets cold”

they all drank the tea, the mother more eagerly than the others

jisung raised an eyebrow at her but said nothing

they finished their cups of tea and thanked jisung before leaving

jisung washed the cups and checked the time

it was nearing 10pm

he sighed

he finished the last of his cleaning and went home

opening the door, he was greeted by you seated at the table with two cups, your hands wrapped around one

you were looking out the window dismally

but the thudding sound of a bag bring thrown on the floor drew your attention

it was none other than han. ji. sung.

this was seriously the last straw

you stood up

“if you’re always going to come back this late, at least send me a text. i don’t want to wait for nothing,” you said bitterly

“you don’t have to wait for me y’know,” jisung replied guiltily

“this sounds so cliche and stupid but i really thought sunday nights were our thing”

“ou- our thing?”

“yes! OUR thing, jisung. so send a goddamn text if you aren’t coming back home!”

jisung flinched

your tone was cutting, a huge difference from your usual soft, melodious voice

“you seriously don’t have to wait for me. i’d much rather you get some sleep. why’d you wait for me anyway?”

all of a sudden, you were overwhelmed by your emotions 

“i’ve been waiting for you so that we can at least spend a little bit of time together. after that picnic, i never really saw you anymore. do you even know how worried i was? i care for you, jisung! hell, i might even care for you as more than a friend!”

the words slipped out of your mouth without a second thought

you prayed hard that they would be drowned out by the rain as your face turned a deep shade of red

but jisung heard those words as clear as day

and he felt the same way

when he saw your gleaming smile, he would melt

when he saw you bummed out, he had the sudden urge to wrap you in a hug and tell you everything would be fine

sometimes, he wanted to pepper your face with a million kisses and tell you how stunning you were

he liked you so much his heart could burst

the only thing he could do was to confess and spill what he had been holding back

“i like you too,”

jisung walked over and engulfed you in a hug

in an instant, he was transported to another world

he was looking at a mirror, but the person that stared back at him wasn’t him

it was your doppelganger dressed in a fiery red hanbok

you were informed that the prince was waiting for you outside by a maid

the moment you heard that, your eyes widened and you quickly exited the room

the prince was dressed in navy blue

his eyes fell upon you and he gave you a small smile

the scene changed

you were now in the palace garden, the prince now walking beside you

jisung had never seen this place but felt as if he had walked here hundreds of times before

as the white flowers fluttered down, the prince complained about the sheer amount of things he had to study

a smile tugged at your lips

you offered a few words of comfort before he was pulled away to study yet again

you sent him a gleaming smile when he glanced back you

the scene changed again

you were now lying on a bed, coughing furiously into a handkerchief

different shades of red stained the pure white cloth

your body felt like it weighed a thousand tons

the prince was weeping by your bed, his hands grabbing yours

you gently squeezed his hands

your voice was now soft, weakened by illness

“i’m sorry you have to see this, your highness.”

“don’t be sorry, my love. if anything, i should be the one that’s sorry. i couldn’t protect you.”

“you did the best you could, your highness. thank you for that”

“but my best wasn’t enough! look at you”

the prince began to sob harder

“i’m just grateful for every moment we’ve spent together. i love you very much”

you squeezed his hand tightly one last time as your vision faded to black

jisung got a hold of himself and realised he was still hugging you

he stepped back, a smile plastered on his face

you grabbed his hands

“does this make us a thing?”

you internally facepalm

he just confessed his feelings for you and you confessed your feelings too???? what an idiot

jisung’s face turned a cherry red

“i guess it does”

“then we still on for our tea session?”

jisung nodded

you returned to the kitchen to brew more tea

you were just smiling like an idiot the whole time

you didn’t expect jisung to reciprocate your feelings for him

but he did

meanwhile, jisung thought of the visions he had

they seemed to be part of the same narrative

was the prince him?

if he was, was he prepared for the consequences that came with knowing his past?

he’d heard of grim reapers going mad after knowing slivers of their pasts

they would seek out the truth at any cost

but wasn’t not knowing a better choice?

it was no doubt the safer choice

many grim reapers moved on to their next life after completing their sentences, never knowing a thing about the past

he buried his head into his hands and sighed

it had been a roller coaster of a day

it was probably for the best that he forget about it and move on

you came back with the tea and it was that moment it fully hit him that you were now his s/o???

the person he’d been crushing on for like the longest time???? now his partner?????

just thinking about it made his heart flutter

the largest smile spread across his face

you caught sight of it and for the first time you could say what you thought

“you look so cute, smiling like that”

jisung’s face just turned 100000x redder congrats

you laugh

the rest of the night was like a breath of fresh air

many more nights were spent like this, in the company of jisung

it ranged from stargazing to cuddles on the couch while binging tv series

jisung seemed to loosen up a lot more after the two of you got together

he was more open to skinship with you but still avoided other people like the plague

and by more open, i mean literally clinging onto you

whenever you were together, the boy was always holding you in some way

it was pretty endearing

but the situation was a slightly different story for jisung

he loved having skinship with you

it was just that every time he touched you, flashes of your past came back

he’s gotten better at tuning them out as time passed

now, the only problem was the plain white envelope that sat on jisung’s desk

it was addressed to him

you couldn’t see the logo on it but jisung could

‘grim reapers’ association (korea)’

jisung pursed his lips

the association never sent letters

he waited till you were away and carefully tore open the envelope

in it was a letter that read:

‘dear mr han jisung, you have been summoned for a disciplinary hearing. it will be held on december 20, 2018 at 1.25pm at the court of reapers.’

everything has a price, including your relationship with jisung

the day of the hearing came

jisung entered the court dressed in a black suit and tie

the board of directors sat along the long table that was in the middle of the room

jisung bowed and took a seat

“mr. han, you have been called in for misuse of your powers. we will begin with some questions,” said the woman seated at the centre of the table

“is your housemate, y/n l/n, aware of your true identity as a grim reaper?”

“to my knowledge, no, they do not”

the woman nodded stiffly and continued, “as you understand, it is a grave offence for you to use your powers that have been gifted to you by the divinity for your own personal gain, especially on mortals. if there are any justifications for your actions, please state them now.”

jisung grimaced

“no, i do not have any.”

“if that is the case, according to section 372a in the penal code, you are hereby suspended for one and half years for misuse of divine powers. however, since it is your first offence, the suspension has been reduced to one year. in addition, you are not allowed to have contact with y/n l/n for the next year so as to not risk the revelation of your identity. you are dismissed.”

he bowed once more and exited the court

how could he suddenly leave you?? what kind of excuse could he give??

jisung furrowed his brows, deep in thought

an idea popped into his head

it wasn’t the best but it had to do

jisung pulled out his phone and quickly typed

jisung [1.45pm]: hey baby are you home right now??

y/n [1.49pm]: yep

jisung [1.50pm]: ok great i got off work early see you at home

he slipped his phone back into his pocket and sat on a wooden bench

burying his face into his hands, he sighed

it might be stupid but he had no other choice

he hailed a cab and got on

jisung arrived home soon after

“y/n, i have some news”

“ooo what is it??”

“i was offered an overseas posting but i don’t know if i should take it. the pay might be better but i don’t want to leave you”

“it’s ok!! i think you should take it!! if it’s not too far, i might be able to move with you too!”

jisung’s eyes widened but he quickly reverted to his normal expression

“it’s in australia and for two years…  i don’t want you to leave everything you have here behind just for me,” jisung smiled, “i’ll send you loads of texts and skype you a lot ok?? i’ll even send some snail mail!!”

you paused, mulling over his proposal

he seemed keen on the posting and you weren’t exactly in the position to refuse him the opportunity

“that sounds good. but let me help you pack ok??”

“sure!”

jisung sent his confirmation to his office and the two of you began packing

after about a week of packing (and searching for a new house mate for yourself), jisung was at the departure hall, preparing himself for his trip to australia

jisung didn’t need to fly to australia, he could just teleport but you didn’t know that

“i’m really going to miss you yknow?”

“i know baby. i’ll make sure to skype you every day”

you embraced him tightly

“i love you so much”

pink tinted jisung’s cheeks

“i love you too but i gotta go or i’ll miss my flight!”

you yelped in surprise and let go of him, hurrying him to the entrance of the hall

jisung showed the guards his papers and they let him through

lugging all his things, he turned to wave you goodbye

you waved back eagerly and watched as he disappeared among the hordes of people

without jisung, you couldn’t afford the rent

thank goodness a friend of a friend needed an apartment

your new house mate, seulgi, was set to move in the day after so you had to get home to clear out the rest of jisung’s stuff

this few days weren’t going to be easy so you steeled yourself for them

jisung landed in sydney several hours later

his friend, chan had been relocated here about five years ago 

they were close back when chan was still in korea and kept in touch even after he left

so chan was more than happy to house jisung for the two years

chan was nearing 500 years so 2 years was essentially 2 weeks for him

the association would continue to send jisung’s assignments to him

so he would have to teleport back and forth australia and korea for each one

but he would do anything for you

the first three months without you were excruciating for jisung

he would find something funny, look up and try to show it to you but you weren’t there

once, chan came home and jisung accidentally said “welcome home baby” out of force of habit 

chan wouldn’t stop teasing him for weeks after that

of course, as agreed, you would skype almost every night

but it wasn’t the same as seeing each other in real life

but you’d have to deal with it

you would share about your days

and sometimes chan would pop by and say hi

it was a little weird at first but you got used to it

it was actually quite endearing

your life just became work, eat and sleep

no more spontaneous dates or movie nights

it was boring so you were especially grateful for those few minutes when you skyped him

you had to say though life in your house was different without jisung around

it wasn’t that seulgi was bad she just looked very intimidating so you didn’t really talk to her

you rarely saw her around anyways

you were okay with that because that meant you got the house to yourself

things on jisung’s side were slightly different

he was busy, getting new assignments every other week

he just recieved his new set of cards

this was by far the thickest

he slowly sifted through them, sorting them out by days

the names were meaningless to him, just another person he had to send to the afterlife

but one name seemed familiar

he rubbed his eyes

it couldn’t be

upon closer inspection, he realised everything, from the name to birthday matched yours

it really couldn’t be

you were so young, you had so much to do in the world

this must have been a mistake

this might not even be you

there were so many people with the same name

it couldn’t be you

jisung laid on his bed, staring at the ceiling as his phone rang

you were probably calling him

he gulped, wiping away the tears that had pooled up in his eyes

he couldn’t worry you, especially not now

his finger met with the cool glass and he picked up the call

words passed between the two of you easily, as always

but you couldn’t help but to feel that jisung’s tone was a little sentimental, eyes glossing over once in a while

“is there something wrong?”

jisung shook his head, “it’s fine, nothing happened. don’t worry about me”

all that statement did was worry you more but you didn’t press

the calls between you became even more frequent, jisung checking in almost every other hour

but you couldn’t talk for long because you had more and more assignments piling up

your texts were reduced to a short ‘sorry, busy’

your boss nitpicked everything you did, pointing out mistakes that weren’t even there

it frustrated you to no end, but still, you tried your best to correct your mistakes and submit a better piece of work

you were missing meals just to finish up more work

somehow, when you finished one assignment, ten more took its place

you even had to come back on the weekends

it was sunday, the last day of the week and hopefully the last day you’d have to deal with this

you rushed about, looking for different people for different opinions and information

your chest began hurting but you ignored it

it had been happening quite often recently

you briskly walked to your boss’ office

your vision blurred and blackened but you continued on

you knocked on the open door and entered the office

“could you please help me check the proposal? i would really like your opinion on it”

but your boss remained focused on the laptop in front of him, paying you no mind

you cleared your throat and spoke a little louder

still no response

you were about to try again when a familiar voice read out your name and birthday

“can you confirm?”

the voice was shaky, full of sorrow and melancholy

you whipped around and faced jisung, dressed in all black

“it’s ok baby, i’ll explain everything. just follow me”

he held your hand as tenderly as ever and guided you through the door and into the kitchen

he gestured towards the seat and began preparing some tea

information flooded you, jisung rambling about everything from how he was a grim reaper to why he moved to australia

jisung gently placed the teacup in front of you

“this cup of tea makes you forget what happened in this life. don’t worry, i made it the way you like it”

you paused, words heavy in your mouth

“doesn’t that mean i’ll forget about you?”

jisung nodded stiffly

your hand trembled as it reached for the cup, your vision marred with tears

“it’s alright baby. just drink the tea and go through the door. don’t worry about me.”

you lifted the cup to your lips and gulped it down

the chair screeched as you got up

immediately, you embraced jisung

“i’m really gonna miss you”

“i’ll miss you too but don’t worry baby, we’ll definitely meet again in the next life”

you reluctantly left jisung’s side and, after taking one last look at him, walked into a bright light