#also my closest friend is ghosting me suddenly I might actually redacted… hm

[monaut]

It’s always one thing after another wtf

-my mom finally found her little brother after 20 years of looking for him (using private investigators and everything) but the reason she found him…. Is bc he now needs to urgently get his leg amputated but he doesn’t have health insurance or money so he finally came crawling back so now we need to quickly raise funds for him (none of us have money) and now we all need to emotionally and financially deal with a mentally disturbed physically huge and strong man in pain who can no longer coherently speak

-I only have maybe 6k or 7k saved (FML exchange rate…) and already told these two girls I would move in with them in New York… I was counting on getting and using CNY money from my parents but now all our money needs to go to my uncle so T___T I need to back out but I feel so bad and it’s such a good place too I don’t want to back out 😭

-the whole reason I left j*pan is to move to new yuck but now I think the responsible thing to do is live at home, get some random job at target or something (bc I don’t have a car so I can’t drive to any work locations so I can only work in my unwalkable suburb ^___^) and save all my minimum wage + savings to help pay for my uncle’s stuff

-my uncle needs a caretaker so my mom would need to quit her job to do that… (I can’t do it bc my uncle and I don’t speak the same language) but my mom is 60 so she’ll never be able to get hired again if she quits so from now on I have to be the breadwinner of this family oh my fucking God… I always knew this day would come but I didn’t know it would come so soon and so early in my nonexistent career???

What the hell why did I quit my job and move home everything is going as WRONG as possible I wished I stayed in Japan wtf 😭😭😭