#also love how Team Hell No was involved jgfkdjfdks oof the angst between those two will break my heart every time

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This got a little long so I sent it in a separate Ask, Friendo Chase. One of the MANY angst-y ideas that my brain threw up for the Kane quote ~ “For the first time in my life, I am afraid of me…” ~

Team Hell No is at the height of their popularity and Kane couldn’t be happier. Yes, he was back under a mask. But it cradled the fractured pieces of his mind together enough that he could enjoy life. Kane could laugh and joke without someone getting hurt to cause it. Everything was rainbows, long walks on the beach and puppy dogs for the Big Red Machine. However, the other shoe always drops when Kane’s life seems to be brightening up.

And it did. 

The other shoe being the sudden loss of his father, Paul Bearer. Kane doesn’t remember where or what he was doing when he received the news. It wasn’t like it’s shown in the movies. Kane didn’t immediately drop to his knees and sob for the man who guided him through years of his life. No. Instead, he finds himself standing in Dr Shelby’s office. Pacing back and forth in front of a window as the therapist remains seated at his desk. There is an exceedingly small number of people that Kane would trust in a moment of crisis and, if he’s being honest, he never thought that a doctor of any kind would be on that list. 

Neither of them speak for a long time. Kane’s mind is too cloudy to think of anything coherent and Dr Shelby allows him the quiet space. In the weeks of working with Kane and Daniel Bryan; he’s learnt that the older man still holds much of the trauma from his younger life and needed a certain approach. Surprisingly, Kane is the first one to speak between them. 

“I’m.. scared.” “About what?” 

Again, Dr Shelby watches and waits patiently from the other side of his desk as Kane moves to look out of the window. There’s nothing memorable out there, but it provides enough of an excuse that Kane doesn’t need to look at the doctor whilst speaking. He never was good with eye-contact. 

“This…” 

Kane gives up trying to piece that sentence together. His head falls forward to rest against the cool window; mentally searching for the right words as his skin prickles with a too-familiar heat. The one that has burned inside of Kane since the fire of his childhood. 

“For the first time in my life, I am afraid of me… I had achieved some form of normalcy and I had control of the monster, but now… I don’t know what it’s going to do. I-I don’t know anything anymore…”

~ ~ ~ (And that's all I got) <3 - Mitch

MIIITTTTTTTTCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

M I T C H

IM EATING COOKIES AND NEARLY CRYING BUT ALSO GRINNING GFKLD;KFJGDFLS U HECKER

YOU ABSOLUTE HECKER ILY (platonically) the a n g s t is so g o o d but god d a m n does it hit so hard poor man jfkdjgdfs he cant be happy for more than five seconds before an angst gremlin like you or me or even the universe itself decides ya know what your going back to misery have fun <3

i will be reading this over and over again many times in the near future friendo

(lmao im re-reading it while responding to the damn ask itself)