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amberjazmyn · 4 months ago

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you can always cry in front of me🫶

pairing : esteban ocon x fem!ocon reader

summary : esteban's teenage sister, celine, seventeen, graduates high school and leaves for university all in the same week. this outlines the difficulty that esteban goes through in the prospect of his little sister being so far away

warnings : older brother x esteban, tears, fluff, angst (?), wise teenage sister, sibling anxiety

a/n : this is a rewrite which i've done a few times before but i just love it so much and wanted to write it for esteban after writing it for other fandoms!

𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯

yawning and stretching almost dramatically, i called out of my brother's office, "...estie, i'm off to bed, goodnight!" i shut down my laptop after finally finishing and handing in an essay for my history class

an essay that guaranteed me graduating, raising up from my desk chair in esteban's office and leaving. turning off the lights and closing the door i left.

"oh, are you now?" esteban responds back, standing up from the couch as i smiled

it was just currently esteban and me home since over the weekend, our parents went on a little getaway just the two of them. which worked out because i wanted some time together with esteban before i graduate and leave france for university. which meant it was a lot less louder and a lot more tranquil and chill.

"yep, i've handed in that history essay that i had been given an extension for until today so, i think i'm ready for bed!" i yawn once again and again stretching my arms up high which meant that i should have expected estie to jab at my exposed tummy

and he did, making me squeal, my arms came down within seconds as i smacked his hands away, the both of us giggling, "good job cel. i'm proud of you, very proud. but, if you're going to bed, i think big bro will follow on as i'm also knackered!" estie smiled as he played with my hair and i nodded my head - he had already brushed his teeth, which meant he just had to go upstairs and fall asleep

"okie-dokie, well, i still need to brush my teeth and sort some other stuff out so, i'll be upstairs in my room in a few minutes," i smile softly as estie nods his head, pulling me closer to him as i smile and hug him tightly as he kisses my head then treads up the stairs and into his bedroom

"goodnight petite étoile little star," estie mumbles as he ruffles his hair, i smile as i watch him walk upstairs, disappearing off into the depths of his room

when i'm comforted that he is in his room, i just take that as my moment to lean against the kitchen island and take a breather. it was coming up to 11:50 pm meaning that i was now counting down the minutes until it was the dawn of my graduation day for high school and then my university moving day. both mum and dad told me about their worries about me graduating and leaving for university on the same day after i had originally planned to do it later on in the weeks after. but, i honestly think i just got in too over my head and mum nor dad thought to argue or try to sway my decision to go back to my original decision. i guess in my mind when i decided to move in on the same day as graduation, i didn't take into account how mum, dad and esteban would react since they all seemed pretty content with my original idea, i didn't take into account how their reactions would change if i decided to change my leaving date. i mean, after telling mum, she kind of came around with my idea of moving to nursing school in new york, usa in the same day since it was only a 6hr flight to and from both ways. and it also seemed as though dad also got used to the idea as well after i promised him that i'd bring little reminders of the family with them so i wouldn't forget them. making him happy and forgive me for changing up on him so last minute. elijah, alessandra and madelyne, three of our cousins who was with us when i announced i was leaving france, wasn't pleased that i was leaving after i had promised them that last time i saw them that they still had ages after my graduation to see me before i left. however, like mum and dad, they slightly forgave me after i had them both watch me pack at least three of elijah's stuffed teddies, three of alessandra's oversized hoodies (that were from me and estie's girlfriend) and three of madelyne's squishmallows so they knew i'd never forget them both. but, in regards to how esteban reacted, that's a whole different story and part of the reason why mum and dad were all staying in a hotel over the weekend.

since i am esteban's younger sister (and only sibling), growing up until now i was the little girl he always wanted to keep next to him. i was his little best friend and i loved hanging out with him whilst i grew up, i still do love hanging out with him. however, now that i'm older, it's time for me to spread my wings and, like estie's former teammate, danny ric once said, enjoy the butterflies. and i unfortunately can't do that and stay in france at the same time. and, throughout my life, i always believed that my brother was fearless and was never afraid of anything. especially when it's considered how fast he drives for a living. however, one day, completely accidentally, when i should have been asleep and not walking around the house late at night, i eavesdropped on a conversation between mum, dad and esteban. i heard them talking and they were randomly discussing fears. and i just heard esteban whisper out a heartbreaker, "i'm scared of someone taking celine away from me in the same way i was taken away from her. or even just seeing her leave the house. i can't lose her, i just can't mum and dad." and that was when i realised why esteban was the way he was around me and why it was so difficult to the rest of our family. so, when i told him that instead of leaving for university during the next couple of weeks but on the same day, he actually, legitimately, refused to speak to me. for a whole three days and it almost killed the both of us because we missed each other so much and we don't even go a day without talking to each other.

now that it's been a couple of weeks since esteban and i were not talking for those specific three days, i fully understood and acknowledged his fears about me leaving home for university. and that was because i wasn't just leaving home but also the country for university that made his fears heighten even more. and that was why esteban and i were at home whilst mum and dad were at a hotel for the weekend, because esteban wanted to spend some alone time with me before leaving and, in all honesty, it felt nice just being at home with esteban and no one else but our dogs. even though i have been missing mum and dad, it has been refreshing to just hear esteban's nosies all day every day whilst i've been doing last-minute chores and errands before graduation and university without having to hear the clashes of mum and dad's noises. speaking of universities, when i was picking them out my original plan was not to leave france or europe at all. my original plan was to either study at the university of paris and move in with family friends, the university of london or the university of milan for their nursing school degrees. but, that dream died when i didn't get accepted into the university of london and was put on the waitlist for the university of milan. i was miraculously given an offer at the university of paris, however, because i was a bit silly one night, i jokingly applied to a nursing school in new york city, usa. and then a couple of days later got accpeted into their degree and with the encouragement of both mum, dad and believe it or not, daniel ricciardo and mick schumacher, i took that nyc nursing school's offer, declining the university of paris' offer. which is the reason why i will be on a six-hour flight tomorrow rather than a standard hour or so drive to the university of paris.

after i had taken my very long breather and seemed relaxed finally, i was walking back down the hallway to my room when what i thought i heard was a noise from esteban's room stopped me. it was ten minutes to midnight and normally, esteban would 110% be fast asleep right now, especially when he said he was tired when i first said goodnight to him. so there shouldn't be any other reason for him to be awake and making noise. at first, though, i did try to ignore it and play it off as the tv and walk back to my room, however, the closer i got to my room, the closer the noise was getting and, in all honesty, it did concern me if i was truthful.

and it was then that i realised that the noise coming from esteban's room wasn't the tv and it clearly wasn't mum or dad since they weren't here. so, i decided to snoop and be investigative, by the time i had reached esteban's bedroom door, it was slightly open a fraction. even then, i still placed my hands on the door and pressed my ear against it even though i could hear it without doing that. the noise was definitely coming from inside the room but, if it wasn't the tv then it was esteban? no, esteban wasn't crying, was he?

"---estie?" i whispered slightly, opening the door and slightly startled when i saw that instead of sleeping, esteban was crying

"cel?" esteban sat up quickly, sniffling and wiping his tears that i could now see very clearly via the light from the hallway as i felt my heart shatter

sure, i had maybe seen estie cry a couple of times before but, even then, it was never full on streams, only like a couple here and there. so, this wasn't normal for me to see, especially this late at night.

"are you okay estie?" i questioned softly as i walked further slowly into the room, closing the door behind me, the light now no longer spotlighting esteban's face as he sniffled again

"ah-yeah, i'm fine cel. why aren't you asleep, i thought you said you'd be going to bed before me?" i sighed quietly as i heard esteban lie and then attempt to dodge my question by asking me a question as i tilted my head, sighing - everyone knew my brother was a crier but, i just had never seen it until now so he never felt like he had to hide it

"seriously estie, what's wrong?" i mutter softly, inching closer and closer to the king-size bed, esteban huffing again

"you're getting older and you're becoming a big girl, cel..." he tried to explain when his emotions overwhelmed him and tears waterfalled down his face, and once again he tried to hide them which led me to crawl onto the bed, crawling over to hug him

"...oh, you can always cry in front of me, estie," i whisper as i hug him, my body facing his face as his lips tremble as he pulls me closer to him as i hug him as tightly as physically possible

"i know i can, it's just that i'm scared, cel," esteban trailed off as his voice was muffled by my shoulder which led me to release a small chuckle that also came out as a disguisable shudder

"so am i... why did i accept that nyc nursing school's offer when i had paris' right there and why did i think it was smart of me to leave hours after graduating when my original plan was anything but moving on that quickly?" i whispered softly as my breathing started to shake ever so slightly as i rested my head against esteban's chest

"oh, cel, if there is any blame for you studying in nyc, it is for sure mine, mum's, dad's, daniel's and mick's fault. we shouldn't have encouraged you to study in new york if you didn't want to. we just thought it was a funny idea since you did apply for that new york nursing school originally as a little joke, not thinking you'd get accepted. and, the reason why you thought it was smart to decide to leave hours after graduating was that you got in too over your head but there was no way that mum, dad nor i could change your mind so we didn't try to. and also, we didn't want you to change your mind over something you seemed at the time so sure and unafraid of. and in all honesty, whilst i've never been this anxious about anything in my life before this, i could not be any prouder of who my petite étoile has grown up to be," he spoke softly, sitting the both of us up as i rested in his lap area as his arms were placed around the back of me in a protective manner as i smiled softly

"thanks, estie, that means a lot. just, how are our cousins going to react? i mean, i know they did technically "forgive me" by making me promise them i'd take their jackets, squishmallows and stuffed teddy bears to uni, all they're going to see of me tomorrow is me graduate and then within hours, they're farewelling me at home and the airport and won't be seeing me until who knows when and right now, they're with their parents whilst mum and dad are at a hotel without any other time to hang out with me before i go and it's--"

"--oh cel, it's okay darling! trust me, i've never cried as hard as the day i cried when i went to go ask dad for advice on how to deal with your little sister leaving home for the first time, only to remember that he's the youngest so i can't just ask him for help in regards to how to deal with the youngest sibling cause he was the youngest sibling. however, i quickly realised that, you would be fine and that i just needed to trust that if anything were to happen, that i'd call you, make sure you're okay and that i'd catch the earliest flight and fly to new york to get you and bring you home safely. you can always trust in knowing that no matter what happens, no matter if something bad happens, i am going to fly over and i'm going to get you and we'll fly back home together, okay?" esteban stresses, letting me know that he was being serious as i nodded my head

smiling as he kissed my hair, felt comforted by esteban's promise of him coming to get me if anything bad was to happen, "thanks, estie!" i let out a small yawn as he smiled and looked at me with his puffy, teary face, i pouted before realising my eyes were getting droopy

"you tired cel?" he mumbled as i nodded my head as he smiled, letting out a small laugh

"mhm," i incoherently mumbled as he laid us both down in our previous position and placed the blanket over the both of us

"you can sleep with me tonight then!" he whispered as i smiled, feeling my eyes finally close as i then fell asleep, esteban falling asleep minutes later

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hours later, even though it felt like i had only been asleep for five minutes, i woke up to see esteban no longer in the spot he was last night. making me slightly panic, i try to focus so i could figure out any and all noise from the house so i could figure out where he was. that was when i could finally hear esteban's voice as he tried to calm down our (my) two dogs, elise and marie . making me smile and giggle, i immediately sat up from my laying down position in esteban's bed and rushed down the hallway and down the stairs so i could eat breakfast with him before it was time to be shipped away with mum and flavy, esteban's girlfriend so i could get ready for my high school graduation.

obviously, esteban and the doggos had heard me speed down the hallway and down the stairs as they were already down there before i could even hit the middle of the staircase. both dogs, elise and marie, were whining and fighting over who got the coveted first pat, like always. and, of course, it was sweet little marie, who was getting the coveted first pat (which unfortuantely made elise a little sad and maybe a little bit salty). whilst elise then got a pat straight after even though she was still being a bit salty and very dramatic about it.

"good morning cel, was thinking that i'd have to come upstairs to wake you up, if not get elise and marie to do it for me *giggles*. you want to have breakfast with your big brother before mum and flavy snatch you away whilst dad holds down the fort for everyone else?" esteban chuckled as he pulled me in for a hug which i had reached out for from the second to last step which made me giggle as i held onto him tightly as he then pulled me away from the staircase

"morning estie and yes, i would love to have breakfast with you before i'm snatched away *giggles*. how'd you sleep by the way? i hope i wasn't too much of a bother since i'm no longer a little girl," i smiled shyly as i had now been placed on the floor so we could go make our breakfast together as esteban rolled his eyes at my concern about me bothering him cause i slept in his bed last night

"that's amazing to hear and, cel, i slept wonderfully thank you very much and you were not a bother at all. i don't care how old you get, if you ever need comfort at night, you can always come in and i'll always be there as will flavy, okay?" esteban made me know that he didn't mind that i slept with him as i nodded my head and smiled

"okay then, whatever you say estie. anyway, what time are mum and dad coming home anyway? i was hoping to see them before i leave with mum and flavy," i muttered as esteban and i put together a four-berry and yoghurt smoothie quite quickly

"umm, good question cel, i think mum said they're coming back at 12 so you'll have at least a good twenty minutes with them as mum said that she has flavy pick you up at around 12:20 or 12:30 at the latest. she also said though that our cousins are coming over as well so, you'll get to see them as well," esteban smiled as our smoothies were now blended as i nodded my head, simutaneously pouring my smoothie into my coveted "smoothie bowel bowel" whilst esteban just started drinking his from one of the wireless protable blenders that we have

"oh, okay, nice! i'll have quite a while with mum and dad, more than i thought i would then. and, that's amazing that we'll have elijah, alessandra and madelyne with us as well! well, whilst we wait on them, could we, i don't know, hang upstairs in your room and watch netflix for a bit?" i proposed as esteban smiled and nodded his head

"of course, we can cel. let's bring up marie and elise too, we'll eat our breakfast at the same time and then we'll deal with it afterwards," esteban smiled his award-winning smile with a wink as i giggled and nodded my head in excitement as we then made our way up to the bedroom with the two dogs

we had made it upstairs and closed the door so it was just esteban, me and our two dogs as we all congregated on the bed. however, it seemed as if esteban knew exactly why i wanted this time together before mum and dad with our cousins came home.

"so, what's going on in that head of yours celine marie ocon?" dad smiles as we both hop onto the bed after placing our smoothies on the bedside tables as i smirk

"i was gonna ask you the same question, estie bestie" i giggle as esteban giggles too but i could tell he was serious as i sigh, my body deflating against his pillow

"come on celine, what's wrong, bug?" masking his own concerns with his "big brother voice" even though i knew he was having trouble with his own emotions as well as they bubbled inside of him as i sighed and decided it was probably best to tell him about my existential crisis

"fine, just am-am i really sure i'm doing the right thing by moving to new york so quickly after graduating? i mean, university doesn't start until, what, three weeks from today? why am i leaving now when it's still way too early to leave?" i question as esteban sighs as his lip trembles, meaning he was about to cry but held it back for my sake (even though i did tell him last night that he can always cry in front of me)

"celine, you have done the right thing, absolutely you have. even though it doesn't feel like it, it's the right thing to do. you feel like you're being selfish don't you?" esteban, once again, just seemed to be able to read my mind as i nodded my head slowly as he gently smiled

"yeah, how-how did you know that esteban?" i muttered, how did he know that's what i felt?

"because celine, you're my younger sister and i'm your older brother. you've been in my life way before flavy and our cousins to the point that i think it's normal that i'm able to understand your brain a lot more than our cousins because our brains are wired the exact same whereas honestly, our cousins don't and neither do our parents. it's okay to feel selfish, trust me, i know that you feel like that because that's how i felt every time i did anything with motorsports and formula one. or simply just having to leave you alone since mum and dad were always focused on me. but, why is it that you feel selfish for going to new york?" esteban was really trying to hatch my brain out and, honestly, i appreciated it a lot more than i would have at elijah, alessandra and madelyne's ages (because i would have honestly found it absolutely terrifying that esteban could read the things i thought about)

"because, i-i feel like i'm not gonna see elijah, alessandra and madelyne grow up. i'll be gone for like, three, maybe four years. they're gonna absolutely hate the crap out of me when i come home because they'll all be older and different people to what they are now. i'm being selfish because i'm leaving france which means i won't be seeing them every weekend as i promised them. they still have small slithers of hope that i changed my mind and will be at paris, they still believe that the nyc nursing school was a joke. esteban, i'm graduating and then leaving for new york today. who knows how they'll react when i leave and when you guys come home, they'll probably, i don't know, destroy my bedroom because they'll be mad that i really wasn't going to paris university..." i trailed off as i was getting heated and today was the one day i didn't want to feel any stress - at least not now anyway as it was still way too early to feel stressed

"celine, bug, your cousins are not going to hate you and once again, you are not being selfish for leaving france for new york. and they will absolutely not destroy your bedroom because you "lied to them" or because of anything. you didn't do anything wrong, you told them you were wanting to go to nyc instead of paris even though you got offered a spot at the latter and whilst it took them a while, they still understood and forgave you. and even though they knew that because you'd be in new york, that you couldn't come home every weekend, you still told them that if you were to study at paris that you'd be home every weekend. you then explained again that because you weren't going to study at paris that you couldn't be home every weekend. i distinctly remember the conversation because i was in the kitchen with daniel and mick when we accidentally overheard the conversation. and even they can vouch and say that the kids aren't gonna hate you. besides, if you really don't like it at the nyc nursing school and the long-distance part of the degree, i'm sure you could leave and you could inform paris university that you want to retake their offer and then you can study there so you can come home during the holidays and weekends. do they even offer the exact degree at any of our universities though?" esteban then questioned as i giggled but felt my heart warm at him saying that our cousins wouldn't hate me for it

"that's why i chose the one in nyc, kind of. they're really well known to be the best university in that specific degree but, i guess i could if i wanted to, leave nyc and go to paris if i want to be a couple of hours rather than, you know, a good six hours and a whole ocean away..." i trailed off as esteban smiled when i noticed he was starting to get emotional just like he did last night

"...you okay estie?" i then questioned as i noticed how watery his eyes had become by the sudden click of a finger

"yeah, just, still can't believe my baby sister is graduating high school today, that's all," he chuckled as he sniffled, blinking quickly to eliminate his tears

however, esteban wasn't as subtle as he likes to think he is when it comes to him getting emotional and trying to hide his tears away from me like he is with his teammates. a tear slithers down his face before that was when i turned to flavy's bedside table, grabbing a box of tissues that resided there

handing one to him, i asked him again if he was okay, "you sure you're okay estie?" i watched as he smiled small as he grabbed the tissue out of my hand, rolling it into his own before bringing it up to his cheeks to wipe the tears away that were now waterfalling down his cheeks

"no-no, i'm really not cel..." esteban trailed off as he took in a shaky breath, his eyes and fingers focused on the tissue that he was mucking around with and then wiping his tears as i felt deflated but, at least i got esteban to stop lying to me

"...why? is it because i'm leaving or is it bigger than that?" i questioned, hoping desperately that he wasn't having a cloud of anxiety weight over him like when i was younger

"i-i don't know cel. i think it is primarily that you're leaving but, i think i need to talk to mum and dad a bit more maybe," he sniffled, grabbing another tissue from the box that was now balancing in the middle of us as the dogs were resting slightly in front of it, marie's nose nearly touching the kleenex box

"please, don't cry too much estie. otherwise, you won't have any by the time i graduate, say my speech and then leave for university," i chuckled, trying to make the mood a lot lighter and, it worked

esteban chuckled as he scrunched up the tissues (of which were three that he used) in his hands and chucked them into the bin that was strategically placed behind him

"well, haha, very funny celine but, that is true. if i keep on crying, i won't have enough for tonight's graduation," he smiled as he then proceeded to pull me in for a hug as i rested in his lap, just like last night, the tissue box falling to the ground, neither of us bothered to pick it up

we then stayed silent for a few moments before deciding to actually press play on the movie that we had chosen to watch before we had this deep conversation that was obviously very much needed.

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finally, me and esteban's movie had finished just in time to hear mum, dad and flavy's cars haul it up the driveway. both of us were excited, esteban and me (and marie and elise) ran down the hallway and down the stairs to meet them as it has felt like ages since we had last seen them when really, it had literally been forty-eight hours, maybe less than.

esteban and i giggled as we heard the small squeals of our cousins elijah, alessandra and madelyne at their excitement of coming over and visiting their big cousins. our mum and dad and esteban's girlfriend, flavy, not too far behind. mum's voice telling them all to calm down.

"---hey, hey, eli, aless and maddy, calm down. i don't think estie and cel would like to be welcomed with you guys yelling, alright?" i could only giggle lovingly at mum telling my cousins off, imagining them just nodding their heads, madelyne's beautiful puppy eyes that they were taught by quite honestly everyone apart from mum and dad trying to win her over

"okay aunty sabrina, we'll be quiet," elijah spoke up as my heart melted - i forgot how much i'm gonna miss that kids voice when i leave

"thank you, darling, now, let's go see estie and cel before flavy and aunty sabrina take cel out so she can be ready for graduation!" mum cheered which made the kids all excited as they refrained from being so loud

esteban had since washed his face so it wasn't so red and puffy and as if he had just cried whilst i took a shot of cold water and then some strawberry chewing gum to refresh my breath so it didn't smell rank or death-like.

opening the door, esteban smiled brightly as he and mum hugged, before he moved onto our dad whilst i hugged mum. as we then moved to mum (me) and flavy (esteban). the youngins straight away running underneath to tackle me in a ocon cousin hug. another thing i was going to miss after leaving.

"--ahh, hey kidlets! i missed you so much!" i squealed as for the first time in ages, it was elijah who first smashed straight into my stomach before alessandra wriggled her way through as well as i picked her up, whilst madelyne resorted to just keeping her arms wrapped around my waist

"we missed you more cuzzy!" elijah squealed lovingly as i smiled at my little boy who, like me, was so much like our daddy (the cousins uncle)

"how long will you be here before flavy and aunty sabrina take you out for the day?" madelyne asked lovingly, pushing her head further into my chest as i smiled at the girl who was a perfect mixture of her parents

"until 12:20 or 12:30 at the latest. i've got a few good minutes with you three before aunty sabrina, flavy and i have to leave so don't worry bubbas," i cooed as mum and dad had since come back into the house and closed the door, looking up i realised that they were watching me with the cousins as i smiled, shaking my head with a small giggle

"yay! can we play with the dogs?" alessandra then scrambles out as she tries to release herself from my grip which makes me giggle as i let her let me go

"of course, we can aless... speaking of the dogs, where are they? can you see marie and elise? where are they, you three?" i cheekily questioned just to make it a game for the three (mainly madelyne really but, it seemed as though the older two also joined in) even though both marie and elise were standing right in front of us

"they're in front of us, cel!" madelyne babbled as i gave a shocked look, dramatically looking everywhere but in front of me where marie and elise were

"where, madelyne? i don't see them! elijah, alessandra, can you see them?" i played as my little cousin just started to hysterically laugh and squeal, thinking the game i was playing was the most hilarious thing in the world as the other two played along so as to not ruin it for madelyne

"they're right there cel, they're right in front of you!" madelyne speaks up again in roars of laughter and her baby voice but this time with her finger pointing as i then (with some over dramatics) noticed and found the dogs

"oh my gosh, madelyne! what a fantastic investigator you are! you found marie and elise! how did i not see them right in front of me?" i gasped as madelyne (and now the older two along with mum, dad and esteban) hysterically giggled again

"because your blind sometimes!" alessandra then giggled out as i looked at her in mock shock and offence

"that is it, alessandra ocon, come here you cheeky little girl! and i'm also going to get you little maddy mads!"

this was when i started to chase my little cousins around the lounge room as elijah, mum, dad and esteban watched on as the little girls' heartwarming and electrifying giggles filled the room i was chasing them in.

five minutes later and a sneak attack on the mini ocon, we were now resting on the couch absolutely out of breath but still in a heap of giggles. man didn't think i could hear so much laughter come out of my little cousin but, here we are nearly an hour later.

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12:30 came and went and so did my time with flavy and mum as we got me all done up and ready for my graduation. i was already dressed in my white dress and had my hair and makeup all done. it was now coming to the time when my nerves started to kick in. i wasn't worried about my speech as i forced myself to memorise it, i was worried about the after-graduation ceremony as that was when i was going to be leaving straight away to nyc. my bags were already packed and had been the entire week, all i needed to do was to make sure they were placed in my range rover (alongside everything else i'd be taking) that i'd be driving and leaving at the airport whilst mum, dad, esteban, elijah, alessandra and madelyne drove in their car behind whilst daniel and mick also drove their cars behind to say goodbye to me at the airport. however, after i had another pep talk with esteban and then with daniel, my nerves seemed to slip away.

it then seemed like a thousand years until the students with the last name "o" started to be called out even though it's the fifteenth letter of the alphabet. ocon, i wonder how wrong they're gonna pronounce my easy-to-pronounce last name again after five years of being at this school. every awards night, every school function where i was being called upon, they always mispronounced my last name, which you wouldn't think would happen since my last name is french as is basically every other pupil at this damn school. except for the assistant principal who of course is american and has a harsh accent which then makes everyone's last names sound weird and incomprehensible and hard to understand. one year, our american assistant principal went to pronounce my last name and then just gave up and just screamed out "celine" since i am the only student with that name for some reason, i am the only one in my graduating year with my name. so, let's hope that they've finally given themselves some lessons in not just french last names but also pronunciation and for the sake of it being my graduation, learnt how to say my not-so-hard-to-pronounce last name.

my name was about to get called out, let's just cross our fingers and pray. to the angels, saints and the formula one gods that they finally get my last name right.

"our next graduate is also our major de promotion who you'll be hearing from at the end of the night. celine ocon," mrs dupont, the principal of my high school announced - i smiled as i climbed up the stairs to collect my high school diploma as i celebrated that they finally pronounced my last name correctly

however, as i was told to stay on stage for a little longer than all the other students for some photos as the first in class, that was when i noticed the loud screams coming from the far left corner of the auditorium in which the graduation was being held. immediately, i knew it was my family, dad, mum, esteban, danny ric, mick schumi and then my three cousins. and all of them were screaming congratulations at me as my heart warmed at hearing it.

the graduation ceremony seemed as if it was going on forever until the major de promotion was announced. which everyone knew was me as it had already been mentioned. i then stood up and moved up to the lecturn so i could say my speech. even though this wasn't really used in french ceremony roles since there usually isn't any graduation ceremony, our school was slightly different clearly.

i couldn't help my smile as i focused solely on my family, mostly on esteban as i could tell he was crying and holding a tissue in his lap when i then started my speech.

"principal dupont, trustees, faculty members, family, friends and fellow graduates, today is a day to be thankful and to be inspired," i started off as i felt all my friends looking at me, giving me thumbs up as i smiled

"first, we have so much to be thankful for. here at [french high school], we have received a great education thanks to our fine and dedicated administration and teachers. we are prepared to move on and to take on whatever challenges come next in our lives,"

"fellow graduates, i want you to know what a great gift it is to be as prepared as we are because not all schools offer such an advantage and privilege as we do here. here we have had a high degree of academic excellence and whether you intend to continue your education or not, you will benefit from what you learned here at our school," i looked right over to mum and dad as i gave them a sneaky wink giggling softly before i continued

"we can also be thankful for our families. these past four years have presented us with a lot of ups and downs and it is good to know what we had our families in our corner, supporting us along the way. so, i just want to say a very special thank you to my parents, laurent and sabrina and my older brother esteban. especially my brother because throughout my entire schooling and really my whole life, he's been travelling all around the world doing what he loves the most, formula one. however, the most important thing for him was always to be an amazing, dedicated, hands-on, involved older brother as well as a driver, brother, friend and son. if it weren't for you guys, my cousins, elijah, alessandra, madelyne, my uncles and aunties, my f1 family, and everyone else, i would not be here today without you and that isn't even a word of a lie or me being dramatic." i don't know why but, i nearly teared up saying all of that. i smiled at all my friends and they all tearfully smiled back as i continued

"finally, we can be thankful for each other. the friendships that we have made here will last a lifetime. in the same way, we have supported each other and helped each other succeed in these years at this school, i hope we will continue to provide support and encouragement for each other in our future endeavours,"

"now, what can we be inspired by today? personally, i am inspired by my dad and our fellow classmate, my best friend elianna laurent who have both overcome so much in their lives and for elianna to be graduating today. esteban, i tell you all the time how proud i am of you for deciding that one particular day during school when you were younger that you wanted to become a formula one driver. just for you to do that very thing that you dreamt of. mum and dad sacrificing everything they could just for you. which could have very easily had a different outcome. and elianna, the same to you. i am so proud to see you walk this stage and hear your name getting called out and getting that diploma. i am beyond privileged to be able to go to nursing school with you in new york city and study for our degrees together! thank you for all the chick flick moments we had together during all of our lessons and for the ones we're certainly going to have as roommates in new york city," now it was really hard to not cry but i managed to hold myself together and continued the ending of my speech as i was almost done and wanted to get through it without crying

"often on graduation day we look outside for heroes but i see them right here among us. i have seen in my years here that we don't have to look far for inspiration and that we all have the potential to make an inspiring contribution to others, by being our true selves and by committing ourselves to goals that we all know we can put our minds to,"

"when you leave here today, celebrate what you have accomplished but look forward with an eye towards how you, too, can be that inspiration to someone else. congratulations class of 2019!"

i wasn't prepared for the standing ovation i was gonna get but, i got it and now i knew the smallest bit of how esteban felt when the f1 fans went crazy for him and the other drivers.

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it was as if graduation had come and then slipped away as it was now photo time and then time to post said photos. i was very much looking forward to the lengthy instagram post that esteban always does for me, even if it's for no reason and just to appreciate me. and, it came, the notification on my phone was obvious and i excitedly opened it.

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estebanocon my baby sister has done it. congratulations celine marie, you have graduated high school!

i am so proud of you more than words can describe. you are my youngest and only sister and now you're finally leaving for the next step in your education which is in new york city for nursing school which you leave for later today with eliannalaurent. finding out i was going to get a younger sister was the best news mum and dad ever gave me all those years ago and it made me into the person i am today. i know with all of my heart that you and elianna will smash your degrees at nursing school in nyc but, you are always welcome home to france if you ever feel like you can't handle it. you have worked so goddamn hard celine that watching you on that stage saying your first in the class speech made me emotional. not that it was that much of a shock to literally anyone. go smash out nursing school in nyc with elianna and you two will always and i mean always be welcome back home to france. i love you, my little star🤍

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celineocon i love you so much, estie! thanks for all the support you've given me throughout my life. i promise i'll make you proud from nyc 🤍

estebanocon celineocon you don't need to thank me cel and you don't need to worry about me making me proud, because i always am proud of you

flavy.barla aw damn it, our baby girl is growing up and i wish we could just press pause!

estebanocon flavy.barla i know, love! i wish i could do the same but we can't unfortunately! my baby sister has to grow up

charlesleclerc aye that's my little celly and elli!

eliannalaurent awe, these photos of cel and i are adorable. thank you so much as well for the congratulations and good luck, esteban🤍

estebanocon eliannalaurent they are sweet photos of the two of you, i couldn't resist. and, don't even thank me sweetie, i am also very proud of you for how well you did this year!

heidiberger we're all so proud of you both, cel and eli, you'll both do amazing things and we all know it and are rooting for you!

danielricciardo no way is little cel graduating already?! i swear to god it was just yesterday that i met the little star?! well i'm going to go and cry now!

estebanocon danielriccardo i know! i had the same exact reaction at the beginning of the end of senior year! and it does feel like yesterday that you met cel but, no, she's now graduating high school and can i join the cry club?!

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celineocon we did it. class of 2019 has finally graduated!

at the very beginning of the school year, elianna and i had another friend in our group, but we quickly realised that she was too toxic for us and that we deserved better. after crying (like a full-on ugly cry) to estebanocon over facetime, he didn't think to hesitate before catching not just a redeye but a very very last-minute redeye flight from baku back to france just to make sure i was okay and i was the second he came home. and then, in true big brother ocon fashion, elianna and i were given the best advice in the world. he told us to surround ourselves with the people that we know would appreciate us back. and then, that's when i realised and when elianna realised that we actually only needed each other. we don't need anyone else in our friendship because it's strictly ours and that's why the other person in our friendship group became toxic. she realised that she'd never amount to the loyalty, love, pride and appreciation that elianna and i have for each other so much so that she despised us and tried to ruin it and tear us apart from each other. that "friend" was greedy, toxic, and one-sided and she had no care if she had to throw one of us away to get the other girl to be her friend and only her friend.

elianna, i am so glad that we were able to get through all that drama before senior year could even be ruined let alone begin. we started off school together so, what better way other than to end our secondary schooling together before starting our higher education together? we're both leaving for nursing school in nyc tonight and whilst we are absolutely terrified, we are the most excited we've ever been! we cannot wait for the next however many years our degrees take us but, we never really left france! like a wise one once said, you can take the girl out of france but you can't take the france out of the girl!

mum and dad. thank you for the immense amount of support you both gave to me and esteban whilst you were both working your asses off so that you both could give esteban and i the entire world. i swear you're literally superhuman the both of you! you do so much for us and there isn't the right amount let alone enough to tell you how much i love you, appreciate you and thank you for every single thing, big and small, you've done for me. whilst you both gave up everything mostly for esteban and i thought for years that i was being ignored, as i look back today, i come to realise that it wasn't just esteban you two were giving everything up for. i was also included in that because whilst you both knew that i wasn't going to be following after estie with the karting and eventual formula one series, you still knew that what i wanted to do was expensive. so i thank you for also making sure i also had everything i wanted which included getting into the specific subjects that has allowed me to get into nursing school. i love you so much mum and dad and, i'm gonna miss you both so much.

estie. there is so much i could say about you but you've heard it so many times that i won't be surprised the day you tell me to stop telling you. i love you immensely esteban and thank you for being the best big brother in the world even when you had to literally fight to see me and when you had to deal with things beyond being a brother. thank you for staying unbelievably strong for me when i couldn't but especially when it was even harder for yourself when we lost those that we loved in our lives. thank you for giving me the chance to have another girl in our house by dating your lovely girlfriend flavy because she is quite literally my older sister! i know having to watch me fly off to university tonight is going to be one of the hardest things you've ever done but, i hope you know i'm always never too far away (even if i physically and literally am) i'll always be ready for a late-night facetime or a very (not-so) quick 6hr flight back down to good 'ol france during a weekend or week off school. or wherever it is that you are racing in the world. you are the strongest person i've ever had the privilege of knowing and i'm so proud to say that i am esteban ocon's younger sister. i love you so much estie and thank you for allowing me to pursue my own interests and hobbies even though i'll always come back to being your little f1 partner on the track in a kart with your fellow drivers and your little star.

now all that's left to say is that it's time for me and elianna to hit the road jack! we're off to nursing school in new york city!

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estebanocon this was a gorgeous and thoughtful post cel and it made me cry. thank you for making me an older brother in the first place baby girl! i love you so much and i'll miss you xx

celineocon estebanocon i love you big bro! i love you most and i'll miss you even more xx

eliannalaurent this was so sweet cel and i'm now crying even though i'm going with you! i cannot wait to start nursing school with you, it's literally going to be the time of our lives!

celineocon eliannalaurent why are you crying babe, you're literally coming with me! and i am so excited as well omg!

flavy.barla i'm literally heartbroken! i'm going to miss you so much cel! i feel like i just blinked and you're now a full-on adult

celineocon flavy.barla don't break my heart now flavy! i'm gonna miss you even more!

heidiberger stop growing up cel! my heart is literally broken on the floor right now and i think daniel's is as well!

celineocon heidiberger i'm sorry heidi, i can't stop growing up! if i knew how to i would've done that years ago!

danielricciardo why is this making me so upset? how on earth did you grow up so darn quickly, cel?

celineocon danielricciardo i'm sorry danny! i'll miss you loads!

charlesleclerc no way you are already graduating! it feels like just yesterday you were so little! good luck babe

celineocon charlesleclerc awe thank you charlie! and i know, it feels very strange to finally be graduating!

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it was now time for elianna and i to start our drive to the airport for our flight. however, we were still yet to say our farewells to our family (cousins) since they were going to their extra-curricular activities and weren't able to farewell us at the airport. esteban also had some of his f1 friends (daniel, mick and charles) to also say their goodbyes, as well as elianna who also invited her family for their final farewells to us as well. this was the part that i had been scared of the whole entire week. having to say goodbye to my parents, esteban (who were still driving behind us to the airport) and then the cousins, elijah, alessandra and madelyne. however, i knew i could do it because this wasn't just something i wanted for myself, they also wanted it for me.

"come here, cel," esteban mumbled as i smiled sadly as i shuffled over to him

shuffling over to esteban, he opened his arms and straight away everything felt safe again. just getting a hug from my brother meant that everything was okay and that nothing would go wrong or hurt me. so, when i got out of his hug and into the range rover with elianna with the crew behind us, i knew i was no longer going to be as safe as i would be if i was doing this with esteban.

"you think you'll be okay?" he mumbled as i shrugged my shoulders as he huffed sadly

"well, i think you will be okay. and, everyone else here to say goodbye to you and elianna also all think the same thing in that the both of you will be absolutely fine. daniel, charles and mick are right behind you guys in their car and mum and dad will be with you in this one as will i. i promise you guys will be fine. if it does however make you feel better, you can be on facetime with me for as long as you think you'll need it before you board your flight. does that sound okay?" esteban smiled as my mouth formed into a smile

"yeah, that does sound amazing. can we facetime for as long as we can?" i speak up, my head up from his chest as he smiles and nods his head

"of course, we can cel. anything to keep you as comfortable as possible. and i'm sure if you need to hold elianna's hand, she'll be absolutely fine with it," esteban smiled as i nodded my head - my fears slowly shrinking away as we pulled out of the hug

i was just about to get into my range rover as elianna, dad and mum were already in there and the others were already in their cars waiting on me when all of a sudden, i hear a symphony of small voices.

turning around, i see that elijah, alessandra and madelyne (who was being carried by alessandra) were all running as fast as they could over to me. whilst it broke my heart into two, i knew it was because they all wanted one more hug each before we went our separate ways, me to new york and them to their extra-curricular activities, i couldn't just ignore it. they're my little cousins and if they want one more hug before i leave them then, that's what i'm going to do.

"don't leave yet cel! wait, just one more hug then you can leave! waiiiittttt!" i hear elijah's little voice rush out as i turn around and face them as i see their legs run as fast as they can, nodding my head, my arms wide open so they knew i wasn't going to leave without one more set of hugs

within seconds, i was pushed back slightly by the force of my younger cousins ramming into me. however, alessandra and elijah moved back so i could pick up madelyne for the first hug.

hugging madelyne tightly she squirmed as i squeezed her tightly making us both giggle. placing her in dad's arms, alessandra was next after i knew that elijah wanted to be my very last hug as i picked up my younger cousin even though she shouldn't be getting picked up anymore. squeezing her like i squeezed madelyne, she also giggled and squirmed around trying to be set free so elijah could have the last hug. then, that was when my heart broke, elijah was bawling his eyes out just like esteban who was resting against the car. picking up elijah, who again i shouldn't have, i didn't play any games as i did with madelyne and alessandra. i just hugged him as tightly as i could as i bopped the both of us up and down as i tried to get him to stop crying. after a few moments of bopping him up and down, his cries started to quieten down and his eyes started to softly close as i kissed his messy dirty blonde hair, whispering sweet things into his ear to further calm him down. this was when i noticed mum, dad, elianna, daniel, mick and charles all with their phones out taking photos and videos of the goodbyes and this precious moment between elijah and me.

"elijah, i know you don't want me to but, i have to go little man. you also need to go to that friends party," i whispered as elijah tearfully whined as my heart broke

"nooo, stay cel! i-i don't want you to leave," elijah mumbled tearfully as i closed my eyes, not wanting my own tears to escape

"i know little buddy but i have to. i'll be back for the holidays though, i promise," i whisper, trying to lift up his spirits because christmas was right around the corner

"even christmas?" elijah sniffled as i sighed, a small smile on my lips

"uh-huh, even christmas. there is no way i'd not be home for those holidays!" i smiled as that was when i could tell elijah was trying to think of even more holidays and things within the family to delay my trip to the airport even longer

"what about your eighteenth and my birthday? what about alessandra and madelyne's? and...and aunty sabrina's? what about uncle laurent's birthday? what about elianna's?" elijah was panicking now whilst my heart broke a little as i once again soothed him

"yes baby, i'll be home with elianna for all of these birthdays if i can, don't worry. but, eli, i really need to go okay? elianna, aunty sabrina, uncle laurent, estie, danny, mick and charles are all waiting for me. but, i promise you that i'll facetime you as soon as i possibly can, okay? i love you so much elijah and i'll be home before you know it!" i say softly as we have one last tight hug before i place him on the ground as alessandra and madelyne hugged him since i know he'd need a lot more comfort before seeing his friends tonight

saying one last goodbye and wave, it was time for us to hit the road to the airport to catch our plane to new york.

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we finally arrived at the airport and immediately, tears welled up in my eyes as elianna and i's flight was called up to start boarding. the worst thing was the song that was playing overhead, home by phillip phillips.

it was almost immediate, from the moment the first cords started playing to me tearing up and crying to the moment esteban pulled me in for one last hug before elianna and i really needed to board the plane. he knew this was the hardest thing i'd ever done with elianna. as we finally (and reluctantly) sat in our allocated seats on the plane, i hiked my knees up to my chest, placed my airpods in my ears and listened to every sad song that i had in that specific playlist as aoife held my hand the whole time.

the first hour of elianna and me being in new york was me on a facetime call to mum, dad, esteban, the cousins and the f1 guys just talking about anything and nothing as elianna joined in every few minutes. and, this was when i smiled for the first time the whole day, i was ready to start this new chapter of my life with my best friend and like i told elijah, it wouldn't be too long before we were on a plane back to france for christmas.

fin

lord have mercy i am so glad i have finished this! will i be bringing out the second part of this one-shot for estie bestie? yes i will but that may take another day or two in the same way this one did! so don't @ me alright? alright thank you!

©⠀amberjazmyn's original work. do not translate or steal any of my fics. 2024

#formula one #fluff #kind of angsty #esteban ocon

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honeymyheaven · 3 years ago

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castlevania & endearment 11

the castlevania cast’s favourite romanian terms of endearment for their s/o + s/o reaction

the translations might sound off to romanian speakers because the English language doesn’t have the diminutive suffixes that romanian does

p.s i am romanian 🐸

very awkward with it

she wants to be smooth and sweet but it comes off as awkward

because she’s simply not used to it and she doesn’t want to pull a trevor so she usually sticks to the common ones

“vezi ai grija, draga.” (careful, dear)

“gurita, mai stam?” (are we gonna staying for longer, little mouth)

sounds really weird in english but in Romanian it’s something super sweet

she also doesn’t really like using cute names in public, but when the two of you are alone together, she can’t help but sweep you into her arms and press her forehead to yours

“Tu esti lumina ochilor mei, stiai?” (youre the light of my eyes did you know?”

doesn’t get out very much so he doesn’t know too many

he does enjoy reading so his terms of endearment would be whatever he picked up from books

or very much animal oriented

“stai mult in piata, sufletel?” (are you going to be in the market for long, little soul?)

“vrabiuta mea, vezi ca o sa treaca Vlad pe la noi maine.” (my little sparrow, vlads gonna visit us tomorrow)

and a lot of the times he’d just lay his head in your lap, look up at you while you toy with his hair by the fire and smile

“Nu-i asa ca suntem fericiti, iubirea mea?” (aren’t we happy, my love?)

the soft tone and his gentle smile had your heart skipping a beat as you slowly lean down and let him kiss you

#Hector is a massive cheeseball and I love it #sypha is a blushing mess #castlevania x reader #castlevania imagine #castlevania sypha #sypha #sypha x reader #xreader #hector castlevania #hector x reader #Hector castlevania #castlevania #fluff

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ao3feed-daisuga · 4 years ago

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We Sought Whiteness To The Utmost Intensity Of Blackness And Joy To The Outer Limit Of Despair

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

Relationships: Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru, Hinata Shouyou/Kageyama Tobio, Kozume Kenma/Kuroo Tetsurou, Akaashi Keiji/Bokuto Koutarou, Tendou Satori/Ushijima Wakatoshi, Kita Shinsuke/Miya Atsumu, Terushima Yuuji/Yamaguchi Tadashi, Miya Osamu/Suna Rintarou, Shimizu Kiyoko/Yachi Hitoka, Takeda Ittetsu/Ukai Keishin, Sawamura Daichi/Sugawara Koushi, Miya Atsumu/Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime/Original Female Character(s)

Additional Tags: Oikawa is not okay, Neither are the Miya twins, neither is Tendou, they did not have a happy childhood, Malnourishment, Depression, Oikawa is depressed, Depressed Oikawa Tooru, Iwaizumi Hajime is a Good Boyfriend, lol eventually, Bruh Oikawa is a bunny rabbit who can control shadows, it will make sense later on, their backstory is inspired off of PlayDead’s Inside, Inside, Torture, Human Experiments, Animal experiments, godzilla kinda, Tendou is Rodan, the Miya twins are foxes, and fucking idiots, Chicks, baby birds, Iwaizumi Hajime/Oikawa Tooru Angst, Oikawa Tooru is a Mess, he Did not get it from volleyball, yall ever fallen down a cliff and shattered your knee?, nope - Freeform, well he has, He has PTSD, so do the Miyas and Tendou, They all need a hug, you’re gonna hate Ushijimas ma at the end of this lol, it’s also a text story, Fite Meh, actually wait pls don’t, Tendou Satori Needs a Hug, Miya Atsumu is a Little Shit, Supportive Miya Osamu, what’s a light hearted story?, not this one!, honeysly most of them are crackheads, let me tell you this, Oikawa works in something similar to femboy hooters, so does Sugawara, akaashi - Freeform, tendou - Freeform, and kenma - Freeform, they-, its explained later on, oikawa gets deep af, he actually needs some sort of godly help, this boy is not gonna be okay, when was he ever????, the huddle is our friend, R.I.P Beatrice, screw happy stories, yall gonna hate and love Ichiko, she is Iwaizumi’s gf, like Heather lol!, Oikawa Tooru has ADHD, Fight me on that, he is so whizzing I telegner, yes - Freeform, i telegner, that’s defiantly how you spell intelligent, He loves space, youll find out why one day, pls, Save them, flashbacks eventually, Sugamama and Dadichi lowkey are worried, the facility kids get turned to..kids, evebtually, they get completely reverted, best bet the summer camp is confused af when four smal, Malnourished, scared and abused children turn up, they’re all adopted, Oikawa had siblings, well not biologically, he has so many breakdowns, it’s not funny yall, can someone please save my four kids????, Title is from the Axion Esti, quote being, i sought whiteness to the utmost intensity if blackness, hope to the point of tears, joy to the outer limits of despair, Oikawa adopts three children by accident???

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #haikyuu #haikyuu!!#daisuga #hq

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ao3feed-iwaoi · 4 years ago

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We Sought Whiteness To The Utmost Intensity Of Blackness And Joy To The Outer Limit Of Despair

Read this masterpiece on AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

#iwaoi #iwaizumi hajime #oikawa tooru #ao3feed-iwaoi #haikyuu!!

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ishgard · 5 years ago

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SEND ME A CHARACTER MEME for Mr. Gaius Baelsar, if you like :D

> W > Bless you.

First impression

I’ll admit, I don’t really recall what my first impression was, but might have been (insert Darth Vader Theme here). I was just so preoccupied by the game in general (struggling to get even marginally good), and more of my focus was on Thancred, Lahabrea, and the Ascians insofar as the plot went. Gaius was box-cover dude, and overall a vaguely interesting antagonist in his approach to things (iirc might have reminded me a bit of Vayne Solidor at times). I honestly really wish I could go back and pick my brain because it’s all pretty fuzzy.

Impression now

.......The stars in my sky? The breath in my lungs? The rhythm my heart dances to? From what humble beginnings did we come from... As far as actual in-game perception goes, I’m cautiously hopeful that they’ll approach a ‘redemption arc’ with him in a good, proper way. From Ahru’s perspective, she’s honestly willing to live and let live on the simple grounds that he saved Alphinaud and brought him back to her - that’s it, that’s enough for her, even if it’d be absurd to others and extremely self-centered. But this is less ‘impression’ and more ‘speculation’ now.

Favorite moment

...Lemme just... carefully remove All Of These Headcanons, distinguish fictional fact from headcanon fiction. Really, his first return saving Alphinaud was just -chef’s kiss- Good Stuff. (At any given time I’m probably quoting something in my head from this specific Larryzaur video tbh.) There were things about the scene where he brings Alphinaud back at Seiryuu’s Wall that could have been done a little better, but it’s also at the top for me because my boy... He brought my boy back ; ; Also from the moment we first saw him again and it was obvious they wanted to keep this ‘mystery’, I knew they HAD to have US, the WoL, be the one to say his name for the first time; to be the one to say “I KNOW YOU” and they definitely did, they gave that to me, and I was SO fucking happy.

Idea for a story

H A H. :’’’’D Okay, all of my many ideas for Ahru/Gaius shippy stuff aside, I actually would love to write some stuff during his travels with Alphinaud and Estinien both!

Unpopular opinion

...I love him. I think that’s a pretty unpopular one, actually. I want a redemption arc for him, but I agree of course it has to be done well and tactfully. I don’t necessarily want him to just immediately be our Best Buddy, it can be tentative and slow, and no one has to feel forced to forgive him for his obvious atrocities, but I do want that for him in the end.

Favorite relationship

...again, headcanons aside, *cough*Ahru*cough* I am thriving on his interactions with both Alphinaud and Estinien. They’re so brief, and we really didn’t get to see a lot of either, but I would love to see so much more. It’s funny I was just looking back through his tag way before him and Esti partnered up and I’d already made some mention about the two of them and WoL lamenting their fool genius son and now I’m just thriving. I need the three of them and Thancred and Sidurgu to go get drinks sighing over their adopted children.

Favorite headcanon

...The one (thousand) where he smooches Ahru a lot. Also he likes sweets - not a lot, just a little, but enough to be marginally surprising. And less a HC than a vision of him sitting at his desk pouring over reports with ceruleum-light blocking glasses. Also less a HC and more a whole speculative hope is him becoming part of a council overseeing the re-established republic of Garlemald. But if not that he just fucks off like (or with?) Estinien and becomes a hunter of Bad Things in general.

(Send me a character)

#t h a n k #answered prompts #i love (1) fool ex-legatus #the-actual-for-real-nero-scaeva

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The Domestic Life Of The Vision And His Witch, Chapter 1: While She Sleeps

Summary: With Thanos defeated, Wanda and Vision settle down for a quiet life raising their twin sons, Tommy and Billy, but quiet can be hard to come by when your surrogate family are The Avengers

.However, Vision may be glad for their help when the time comes for him to ask Wanda a very important question.Sequel to 'Nothing Is Impossible'.

A03 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18461504/chapters/43737857

Vision didn't need to sleep much. Strictly speaking, he didn't need to 'sleep' at all. He entered a restful state that was similar to sleep, that he usually referred to as sleep to make things easier, a state that he could sometimes be jolted out of by nightmarish images in his mind, yet somehow wasn't quite the same. Whatever he should have called it, Vision did not need to rest for nearly as long as real flesh-and-blood humans needed to sleep.

Earlier in his life, this had been.. Well, not a problem, exactly, but it had resulted in Vision being left alone for a long stretch every night, time which he usually spent reading, except for those nights when his best friend woke from a nightmare and he kept her company until she went back to sleep.

Now, however, it didn't matter at all that Vision didn't need much sleep. It didn't matter that he didn't need as much rest as a human, because he was perfectly happy to hold Wanda Maximoff as she slept. This was what he was doing right now. Holding her close, stroking her hair. Pressing the occasional kiss to her forehead.

Wanda looked so beautiful when she slept. Relaxed, completely at peace. She didn't have nightmares nearly as much as she had when they lived at the Avengers compound, and she almost never had them when Vision was holding her. So, he held her.

He couldn't believe how lucky he was to be with her, to have her love him, to have her as his partner, his lover, the Mother of his children, his wi.. Well, he was still working on that last point, would get on to it eventually, but for now they were still settling into their new life. The life they had now that Wanda was free, she didn't have to run anymore, and they could settle down and raise their baby sons in peace.

Vision raised his head for a moment to peek over at the two small cots beside their bed. Tommy was squirming a little, a sign that he would wake soon, while Billy still slept peacefully.

Vision's lesser need for sleep was also an advantage when it came to caring for the twins. As long as there was a little of Wanda's pumped breastmilk available, Vision could feed and tend to the boys when Wanda needed a little extra shut eye. As Vision expected, Tommy began to whine. Wanda stirred at the sound, but Vision kissed her forehead.

"I'll get him, love. You sleep."

"Esti cel mai bun, Vizh.." Wanda murmured, before quickly drifting off again.

Vision carefully de-tangled himself from her arms, then padded over to scoop Tommy out of his cot.

"It's alright, Daddy's got you.." He checked his diaper, somewhat relieved to find it dry, as changing Tommy could quickly become a two-man job if he was in a particularly squirmy mood. "Still clean. Let's go get you a bit of milk then.."

Vision headed out of the bedroom, navigating past the two giant stuffed bunnies Tony had gifted the twins, and a pile of Nathaniel Pietro Barton's toys to reach the Kitchen. He fetched a bottle from the fridge and placed it in the microwave to heat up, gently rocking Tommy to soothe him as they waited. After checking the temperature of the milk, he offered it to Tommy, who drank happily. Tommy was a quarter of the way through the bottle when Vision heard Billy cry, and saw light filter out the bottom of their bedroom door as the lamp was switched on.

He headed back to the room, sighing, to find Wanda now sat up in bed, Billy suckling at her breast. She looked up at Vision with a sleepy smile.

"Hey.."

"I'm sorry."

"It's just part of having two" Wanda shrugged, kissing his cheek when he sat back beside her. "You couldn't feed them both at once anyway, Vizh. I, on the other hand, have two convenient sanii."

"Oh.. yes, of course.." Vision's cheeks seemed to turn a darker shade of red, and Wanda smirked.

"You certainly have no reason to be shy about them. I remember that you like to.."

"Wanda!" Vision cried, trying to cover Tommy's ears. "Not in front of the children!"

"They're three months old, Vizh" Wanda chuckled. "They have no idea that I'm talking about anything naughty.. But alright. I will stop teasing you."

"Thank you" Vision's face dimmed back to it's usual shade, setting aside Tommy's now empty bottle and lifting him to his shoulder to burp him, and hoped he was not being too obvious as he changed the subject. "Well, while we've got a moment, I asked Clint and Laura to watch the twins for us on Wednesday night.."

"Oh?" Wanda feigned ignorance, but the corners of her lips tugged upwards in a cheeky smile. "And what's so special about Wednesday night, hmm?"

"Well," Vision blinked, slightly surprised. "It is our anniversary, of course."

"Ah, of course it is" Wanda grinned at him. "So, any big plans then?"

"Well, I was hoping you might let me take you out" said Vision. "We have been rather housebound since we returned from Wakanda."

"We have.." Wanda leaned over to kiss him as she set Billy over her shoulder. "A night out will be lovely, Vision. Of course, nothing will quite be able to top what we did last year.."

"That was a wonderful night.." a slightly goofy smile spread over Vision's face.

"It was" Wanda smiled, a faint blush coming to her cheeks. "We made the boys that night.."

"We did.. a wonderful anniversary surprise" He kissed the top of Tommy's head.

Once both twins were burped, changed, and back to sleep, Wanda and Vision slipped back under the covers. Wanda curled against Vision's chest, her head tucked under his chin.

"Love you, Vizh" Wanda murmured.

"I love you too" Vision replied, pressing a kiss into her hair as she drifted off. "So much."

Vision didn't need much sleep. But holding Wanda Maximoff as she slept was one of his favourite things in the Universe.

Notes:

Translation:

Esti cel mai bun: You're the best

sanii: breasts

#scarletvision #scarlet witch #the vision #wanda maximoff #wanda x vision #vision x wanda #Avengers #marvel #MCU #minimoffs

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narutoooo-dekuuuu · 5 years ago

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Then may I ask for hetero and lesbian Naruto matchups, please? I'm a 164 cm tall, slim girl. I have demi-long brown hair and brown eyes. I wear black eyeglasses. I like skirts and dresses, in one word: girly clothes. Light makeup. I'm a very-very critical person and proud of that. I consider myself as a loyal, patient and caring one, around new people I can be a bit shy. When my crush is around I get helplessly embrassed, but also I hide it pretty well. (I)

Clumsy af. I mean really, really clumsy.I love to share my opinion about anything. I can be really silent and serious at times, dreamy one. Usually forget about the people around and then ask: "Sorry, what did you say?" Yeah, easily stuck in my lil world haha. Try to be realistic and intellectual. My classmates are into my natural massage skills and always asking me doing some for them at P.E. lessons. I like light alcohol(cider etc.) and occassionally one cigarette. (II)

When I am mad at someone I need a few hours alone, then I'll be fine. One of the hardest things to make me talk about my problems but if someone open up to me I'll be really glad it warms my heart. Btw easy to make me happy. Into hanging out with my friends. Have an ironic, usually troll-sense of humour. Probably would be the sub one in a relationship. I want to become a lawyer. The most important thing in my life is family(but don't want kids), I love them soo much. (III)

I'm in LOVE with the classical literature(bookworm) and theatre. Doing yoga, hiking, table tennis and going running one of my favourite things to do. Lowkey would be into a bit clingy cuddler-monster(yeah, I am maybe needy and sensitive but would never admit that huh). Listen to music everyday mostly alternative rock, inde but I find almost all kind of music enjoyable(fav: Tame Impala, FOB and Esti Kornél/Hungarian band/). Zodiac sign Virgo, Hogwarts house is Hufflepuff. (IV)

For Naruto(your hetero matchup):

Kakashi Hatake!

Man, oh man Kakashi just couldn’t help himself when he met you. Usually he was great at concealing his emotions but boi you had him bent.

Kakashi is also often lost in thought, probably why he’s almost always late to everything. You two can relate to a lot of things, actually. You have many similar personality traits.

Lives for your massages. Even when you guys were just friends he’d ask you after missions for a nice massage. Usually you guys would relax over some ramen and Tame Impala’s song and some form of alchohol before or after his massages.

Kakashi is also a bookworm, and you two will often tell each other about your books. He loves hiking, yoga, and exercising too! Yoga is probably his favorite thing to do with you, actually.

Very touchy feely. Constantly hugging you or tickling you or messing with your hair or smth. Honestly needs attention too sometimes. He likes listening to some of your music. Especially on missions he’ll just play some of your favorite songs .

Kakashi is extremely worried about losing you, so you’re his top priority. He’s very protective and passionate about you, and is almost always bragging about you or telling Gai how lucky he really is.

Your lesbian Naruto matchup:

Temari!

She adored you!...From a safe distance. She just couldn’t take her eyes off of you, and she wanted to spend all her time with you! She accidentally confessed her feeling while on one of her rants because you accidentally flustered her with your clumsy flirting.

She is very affectionate, and wants to express her passion for you in as many ways as possible; usually, it’s through words. In return, you give her wonderful massages.

Temari is dedicated to keeping you happy. She hates seeing her loved ones upset or mad, but she understands when you need your space. When you aren’t upset anymore, she already has an apology and some kind words waiting for you.

Temari would gladly listen to all her problems so long as you can help her with her own. She lives for spending time with you and just bathing in your presence. She likes the way you dress!

She thinks of you as her best friend. You two rely on each other, and she leads you two into adventures while you cheer her on! Temari also can’t keep her hands off you hehe. Constantly hugging, holding hands, cuddling, forehead kisses, the whole UwU. Sometimes, it can get really ÙwÚ, though.

She loves you a lot. And she loves partaking in your interests. Yoga(like Kakashi) has to be her favorite thing, though. It’s nice in the early mornings when it’s just the two of you in a quiet, isolated area. Also, Temari likes FOB too.

I hope you like it! I didn’t mind the longness of it at all btw, and I actually enjoyed writing this a ton! It took me awhile to actually do it, so sorry about that!

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hqrarepairs-ao3feed · 4 years ago

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by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

#atsukita #kita shinsuke #miya atsumu #haikyuu

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ao3feed-kiyoyachi · 4 years ago

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by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

#ao3feed kiyoyachi #kiyoyachi #kiyoko shimizu #yachi hitoka #haikyuu!!#hq fics #ao3feed

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ao3feed-ukatake · 4 years ago

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We Sought Whiteness To The Utmost Intensity Of Blackness And Joy To The Outer Limit Of Despair

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

#haikyuu!!#ukatake #ukai keishin #takeda ittetsu #haikyuu

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ao3feed-kuroken · 4 years ago

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by Cxmill

Words: 3909, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Haikyuu!!

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Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M

Characters: Oikawa Tooru, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Tendou Satori, Ushijima Wakatoshi's Mother, Iwaizumi Hajime

Read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/31MX4wB

#haikyuu!!#kuroken #Kuroo Tetsurou #Kozume Kenma #kuroken fics

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pamphletstoinspire · 7 years ago

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THE FIRST EPISTLE OF ST. John, THE APOSTLE - From The Latin Vulgate Bible

Chapter 5

PREFACE.

This epistle was always acknowledged for canonical, and written by St. John, the apostle and evangelist. At what time and place, is uncertain. It is sometimes called the Epistle to the Parthians, or Persians. The chief design is to set forth the mystery of Christ's incarnation against Cerinthus, who denied Christ's divinity, and against Basilides, who denied that Christ had a true body; with zealous exhortations to love God and our neighbour. (Witham)

Chapter 5

Of them that are born of God, and of true charity. Faith overcomes the world. Three that bear witness to Christ. Of faith in his name, and of sin that is, and is not to death.

1 Every one who believeth that Jesus is the Christ, is born of God. And every one that loveth him that begot, loveth him also who was born of him.

Notes & Commentary:

Ver. 1. That Jesus is the Christ, the promised Messias, the Redeemer of the world, is born of God, is made his adoptive son by his grace in baptism. (Witham) --- Is born of God; that is, is justified, and become a child of God by baptism; which is also to be understood, provided the belief of this fundamental article of the Christian faith be accompanied with all the other conditions, which, by the word of God and his appointment, are also required for justification; such as a general belief of all that God has revealed and promised; hope, love, repentance, and a sincere disposition to keep God's holy law and commandments. (Challoner) --- Loveth him[1] that begot; i.e. the eternal Father. --- Loveth him also who was born of him; i.e. loveth him who is his only begotten and eternal Son. (Witham)

Note 1:

Ver. 1. Eum qui genuit, ton gennesanta, generantem; which, in English, may be translated, the Father.

2 In this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments.

Ver. 2. In this we know that we love the children of God, (that is, all men, and especially the faithful, who are made his adoptive children) when we love God, and keep his commandments, for these two branches of charity, the love of God and of our neighbour, are inseparable: the one is known and proved by the other. (Witham)

3 For this is the charity of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not heavy.

Ver. 3. And his commandments are not heavy; not burdensome. Not but that they comprehend what seems hard to human frailty, and especially to men carried away with the love of vanities in this world, who think it hard to comply with Christ's doctrine of self-denials, of renouncing their inclinations, of suffering death, sooner than to sin against God, or to renounce their faith: but the love of God, and the promises of an eternal happiness in the next life, with the assistances which God gives them, make the yoke of Christ sweet, and his burden light. See Matthew xi. 30. How different is this doctrine from that of those late heretics, who pretend that God's commandments are impossible, even to just men, when they employ all their endeavours. See the first proposition of Jansenius, and this heresy of Calvin condemned by the council of Trent, session 6, cap. xi. canon. 18. (Witham)

4 For whatsoever is born of God, overcometh the world: and this is the victory which overcometh the world, our faith.

Ver. 4. This is the victory which overcometh the world, our faith. That is, a lively faith, working by charity, makes a man victorious over the greatest temptations, and over all the adversaries of his salvation. (Witham) --- Our faith; Not a bare speculative or dead faith, but a faith working by charity. (Galatians v. 6.) (Challoner)

5 Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God?

Ver. 5. No explanation given.

6 This is he that came by water and blood, Jesus Christ; not in water only, but in water and blood. And it is the spirit that testifieth, that Christ is the truth.

Ver. 6. Came by water and blood. The sense seems to be, by water, with which he ordered every one to be baptized and made Christians; 2ndly, by his blood shed on the cross for our redemption. (Witham) --- Blood: not only to wash away our sins by the water of baptism, but by his own blood. (Challoner) --- And it is the Spirit that testifieth that Christ[2] is the truth. By the Spirit, which is not here called the Holy Spirit, or the Holy Ghost, as in the next verse, is either meant the Spirit or soul of Christ, which dying he recommended into the hands of his Father, and which shewed that he was truly man, against Cerinthus, and some heretics of those times; or else it may signify the spirit of grace, given in this world to the faithful, in the same sense as St. Paul says, (Romans viii. 16.) that the Spirit himself giveth testimony to our Spirit, that we are the sons of God: and of which may be understood what is said here, (ver. 10.) He that believeth in the Son of God, hath the testimony of God in himself. (Witham)

Note 2:

Ver. 6. Quoniam Christus est veritas; in most Greek copies is now read, oti to pneuma esti e aletheia, quoniam Spiritus est veritas.

7 And there are three that give testimony in heaven: the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one.

Ver. 7. There are three that give testimony in heaven: the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost; and these three are one: i.e. one in nature, in substance, and in all perfections, in the same sense as when Christ himself said, (John x. 30.) I and the Father are one, or one thing. The Socinians object that this verse is wanting in many Greek manuscripts; and even Erasmus in one edition, and Mr. Simon in his Critics, have questioned it, or rejected it, as a false reading, but without any sufficient proofs and grounds, as hath been shewn by many learned Catholics, and also by Protestant writers, who receive in their translations this verse as canonical. It is easy to account for the omission of this verse; for as both the seventh and eighth verse begin and end with the same words, this gave occasion to the oversight and omission of the transcribers, whereas it is not credible that such a whole verse could be added. And that it was only by the mistake and oversight of transcribers may further appear, because we find part of the seventh verse, to wit, and these three are one, cited by Tertullian, lib. contra Praxeam. chap. xxiii. p. 515. Ed. Rig. and twice by St. Cyprian, Epist. 73. ad Jubaianum. p. 125. Ed. Rig. in the Oxford Edition, p. 310. and in his Treatise de Unit. Ecclesiæ, p. 181. Ed. Rigal. and in the Oxford Ed. p. 79, where also Dr. Fell defends this verse of St. John to be genuine. Tertullian and St. Cyprian wrote long before the dispute with the Arians. The Socinians also object that this passage is not brought by St. Athanasius and some other fathers against the Arians, which they could scarce have omitted had they read this verse, but this only proves that this omission had happened in some manuscripts in their time, or, as some conjecture, that the Arians had corrupted some copies. St. Fulgentius made use of it against the Arians, and also others about that time. See the Benedictines of St. Maur against Mr. Simon, in the first tome of St. Jerome, p. 1670. Both Catholics and Protestants, after a diligent examination, have received this verse, which is found in the best manuscripts. See Greek Testament at Amsterdam, in the year 1711.[A.D. 1711.] The three divine Persons, who are present everywhere, though said to be in heaven, gave testimony concerning Christ. The Father by a voice from heaven, both at his baptism (Matthew iii. 17.) and at his transfiguration, (Matthew xvii. 5.) saying: "This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased, hear ye him:" and also by all the miracles wrought by the same power of all the three divine Persons. 2. The Son testified to the Jews on many occasions, that he was sent from God, that he was the only Son of God, that he and his Father were one, &c. as in the annotations on John iii. The Holy Ghost confirmed the same, particularly by coming down upon the disciples on the day of Pentecost, and inspiring them to teach the same doctrine concerning Jesus Christ. (Witham) --- An express proof of the three distinct persons and unity of nature and essence in the blessed Trinity.

8 And there are three that give testimony on earth: the spirit, and water, and blood: and these three are one.

Ver. 8. And there are three that give testimony on earth: the Spirit, the water, and the blood; and these three are one.[3] This is a repetition of what was before said, ver. 6, to be expounded in the same manner. But when it is added, these three are one, the sense is, that they witness one and the same truth. (Witham) --- As the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost, all bear witness to Christ's divinity; so the spirit, which he yielded up, crying out with a loud voice upon the cross, and the water and blood that issued from his side, bear witness to his humanity, and are one; that is, all agree in one testimony. (Challoner)

Note 3:

Ver. 8. Hi tres unum sunt. Divers Greek copies, eis en eisin, in unum sunt: and so the Protestant translation hath, and these three agree in one; though in the seventh verse they follow the manuscripts which there have, are one, kai oi treis en eisi.

9 If we receive the testimony of men, the testimony of God is greater: for this is the testimony of God, which is greater, because he hath testified of his Son.

Ver. 9. No explanation given.

10 He that believeth in the Son of God, hath the testimony of God in himself. He that believeth not the Son, maketh him a liar: because he believeth not in the testimony which God hath testified of his Son.

Ver. 10. He that believeth not the Son, maketh him (God) a liar, by refusing to believe the testimonies given by the three divine Persons, that Jesus was the Messias and the true Son of God, by whom eternal life is obtained and promised to all that comply with his doctrine. In him we have also this lively confidence, that we shall obtain whatever we ask, according to his will, when we ask what is for our good with perseverance and in the manner we ought. And this we know and have experience of, by having obtained the petitions that we have made. (Witham)

11 And this is the testimony, that God hath given to us eternal life: and this life is in his Son.

Ver. 11. No explanation given.

12 He that hath the Son, hath life: he that hath not the Son, hath not life.

Ver. 12. No explanation given.

13 These things I write to you, that you may know that you have eternal life, who believe in the name of the Son of God.

Ver. 13. No explanation given.

14 And this is the confidence which we have in him: that whatsoever we shall ask, according to his will, he heareth us.

Ver. 14. No explanation given.

15 And we know that he heareth us whatsoever we ask: we know that we have the petitions which we request of him.

Ver. 15. No explanation given.

16 He that knoweth his brother to sin a sin which is not unto death, let him ask, and life shall be given to him, that sinneth not to death. There is a sin unto death; I do not say that any one should ask for it.

Ver. 16. A sin which is not unto death....and life shall be given to him. It is hard to determine what St. John here calls a sin which is not unto death, and a sin which is unto death. The difference cannot be the same as betwixt sins that are called venial and mortal; for he says, that if a man pray for his brother who commits a sin that is not unto death, life shall be given to him: therefore such a one had before lost the life of grace, and been guilty of what is commonly called a mortal sin. And when he speaks of a sin that is unto death, and adds these words, I do not say that any one should ask for that sin, it cannot be supposed that St. John would say this of every mortal sin, but only of some heinous sins which are very seldom remitted, because such sinners very seldom repent. By a sin therefore which is not unto death, interpreters commonly understand a wilful apostacy from the faith, and from the known truth, when a sinner hardened by his own ingratitude becomes deaf to all admonitions, will do nothing for himself, but runs on to final impenitence. Nor yet does St. John say that such a sin is never remitted, or cannot be remitted, but only has these words, I do not say that any one should ask for the remission of that sin; that is, though we must pray for all sinners whatsoever, yet man cannot pray for such sinners with such a confidence of obtaining always their petitions, as St. John said before, ver. 14. Whatever exposition we follow on this verse, our faith teaches us from the holy Scriptures, that God desires not the death of any sinner, but that he be converted and live. See Ezechiel xxxiii. 11. Though men's "sins be as the scarlet, they shall be made as white as snow." (Isaias i. 18.) It is the will of God that every one come to the knowledge of truth and be saved. See John vi. 40. There is no sin so great but which God is willing to forgive, and has left power in his Church to remit the most enormous sins; so that no sinner need despair of pardon, nor will any sinner perish but by his own fault. (Witham) --- A sin unto death. Some understand this of final impenitence, or of dying in mortal sin, which is the only sin that never can be remitted; but, it is probable, he may also comprise under this name the sin of apostacy from the faith, and some other such henious sins as are seldom and hardly remitted: and therefore he gives little encouragement to such as pray for these sinners, to expect what they ask. (Challoner)

17 All iniquity is sin: and there is a sin unto death.

Ver. 17. All iniquity[4] is sin. The sense here is, that sin is always an injury or an injustice done to God; but though every sin implies such an injury and an offence against God, yet there are different degrees in such injuries, which are not always such an injustice as St. John calls the sin unto death. (Witham)

Note 4:

Ver. 17. Omnis iniquitas, pasa adikia, properly injustitia. It is not here anomia, as in Chap. iii. 4.

18 We know that every one, who is born of God, sinneth not: but the generation of God preserveth him, and the wicked one toucheth him not.

Ver. 18. Sinneth not. See the annotation on chap. iii. 6. &c. (Challoner) --- The generation[5] of God preserveth him, (i.e. the grace of adoption, as long as it remains in the soul; see Chap. iii. 9.) and the wicked one (i.e. the devil) toucheth him not. (Witham)

Note 5:

Ver. 18. Sed generatio Dei: Some manuscripts, genesis; others, o gennetheis ek tou Theou. qui genitus est ex Deo.

19 We know that we are of God; and the whole world is seated in wickedness.

Ver. 19. And the whole world is seated in wickedness;[6] i.e. a great part of the world. It may also signify, is under the wicked one; meaning the devil, who is elsewhere called the prince of this world, that is, of all the wicked. (John xii. 31.) (Witham)

Note 6:

Ver. 19. In maligno positus est, en to ponero keitai.

20 And we know that the Son of God is come, and he hath given us understanding, that we may know the true God, and may be in his true Son. This is the true God, and life eternal.

Ver. 20. And may be in his true Son.[7] This is the true God, and eternal life. Which words are a clear proof of Christ's divinity, and as such made use of by the ancient Fathers.

Note 7:

Ver. 20. In vero Filio ejus, hic est verus Deus, en to alethino uio autou, outos estin o alethinos Theos, with the Greek article. St. Athanasius, St. Ambrose, St. Hilary, St. Augustine, St. Cyril by this sentence prove Christ truly God. See Petavius, lib. 2. de Trin. chap. ix. num. 8.

21 Little children, keep yourselves from idols. Amen.

Ver. 21. Keep yourselves from idols. An admonition to the new converted Christians, lest, conversing with heathens and idolaters, they might fall back into the sin of idolatry, which may be the sin unto death here mentioned by St. John. (Witham)

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chelsiealvin-blog · 7 years ago

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The Overall Wedding Planning Process

I am a planner. Obviously if you have read any of my other articles, I LIVE to plan. Planning my own wedding was going to be just as fun right? Just a month after getting engaged and with the declining health of my Grandfather we decided to get married in one year in June 2016. We started by researching florists, day of coordinators and bakeries; the stress of planning really set in. Within a month, with a little luck, we found this incredible company called John Michael Event Services. I knew that I wanted to be involved with the personal things like our cake topper and guest book; but I realized I REALLY needed help with the everything else.

We had a strict budget of 13K for our wedding, so we went in with low hopes that they could assist us. To our surprise, they offered us a customized event planning bundle at 10K to include a custom cake, wedding planner, day of coordinator, custom floral, catering and drinks. We were lucky enough to have friends do our DJ and photography services for free. We signed the paperwork that day and we immediately felt relieved. The wedding planner planned every single appointment for us; we would just show up and pick out what we wanted. They even spaced out payments for our wedding throughout the year to make it even easier on us.

Before we get started on this nonsense of weddings. Take away this one piece of advice.

The VERY FIRST THING you need to pick up is large 10 gallon Tupperware bins. The bins saved my life. Put these somewhere you can easily reach them and as items come in the mail for your wedding, pop them into the bins. This way everything is packed for your planner or wedding party to put out on your wedding day. Even use these bins to store ALL of your paperwork. TRUST ME.

The Venue – 1 Year Away from our Wedding Day!

After booking our Wedding Planner/Coordinator, one year out we needed to pick our venue. We looked at only one venue; we knew when we walked through the door. Lake Mary Events Center in Lake Mary, Florida is an incredible venue. It featured a beautiful rotunda with high glass windows overlooking Lake Mary. It took our breaths away from the moment we walked into the building. Our ceremony was to be held in the beautiful rotunda just after sunrise, our reception in their grand ballroom.

Food, Flowers, Music, Cake and THE DRESS! – Eight months away from our Wedding Day!

A few months after booking our venue, our wedding planner scheduled us a meeting to pick out our flowers, food and cake. We also met with our DJ to pick out different songs to play during the event. OH and I bought my dress! You always want to get your dress with as MUCH time as possible, with all of the stress my weight fluctuated a lot and I need alterations to my dress.

Flowers – I went with lambs ear and light colored peonies. I really wanted to stick to lighter colors, to go with the morning/breakfast vibe.

The Dress – I didn’t actually have a plan for what I wanted my dress to look like. My Man of Honor actually picked out my dress, forced me into and I fell in love with it. He picked out a beautiful ball gown layered with tulle.

Music – was pretty easy too. My husband to be and I turned on music in our living room and wrote down each song we wanted for the different parts of the event. We sent the list over to our DJ and POOF that was checked off our list.

The very best part? Picking out the food! Andrew and I wanted a brunch wedding, so we decided on a Make Your Own Waffle Bar, unlimited bacon and unlimited mimosas. CAN’T GO WRONG WITH THAT! (plus breakfast food is a LOT cheaper than serving dinner)

The cake – We still wanted to keep with our brunch vibe here. We picked out a citrus, orange flavored cake with cream cheese frosting. YUM.

It’s all in the details – Four months away from out Wedding Day!

Some of the smaller things I of course wanted to do myself. We included a custom wedding hashtag #herecomethealvins and printed it on mostly everything we made, this way all photos that our guests posted we were able to see later on! The small details do not have to be expensive either, we mostly used the Dollar Tree and Oriental Trading Company. I ordered everything online, had it delivered to my door, packed it away in our large Tupperware bins for our wedding planner and POOF it was done.

A photo booth – Our photographer snapped soooo many cute photos of our guests! Get creative with it! We picked out a Flamingo Themed booth! I purchased the photo booth props from Esty as a PDF ($10) and printed them at Staples for another $5. We included some dollar tree items as well, a feather boa and inflatable bird.

A guest book – This doesn’t have to be a traditional book, we ended up using our favorite board game! We got it on sale for about $30 and picked up two sharpies for guests to sign.

Cake topper – We had custom bride and groom flamingos made for the top of our cake. This was the MOST expensive thing we purchased. We picked them up off Etsy for $30.

Guest favors – Something small (and cheap) we hand folded paper boxes, filled with colorful tissue paper and placed a small gold animal. The small gold animals matched the larger version in the reception as “table numbers.” A guest favor/place card! The cardboard boxes came from the dollar tree ($50), tulle from Michael’s ($15) and plastic animals from the dollar tree ($25).

A unity ceremony of some sort – We used a Tree Planting Ceremony for ours. Each guest was invited to place dirt in the pot so show their support as we planted the tree to show the foundation and strength of our relationship. We brought a pot and watering can from home and picked up the plant from IKEA.

Signage – We had plenty of different signs throughout our wedding. A welcome sign, photo booth entrance, small table signs. These are easy to purchase! We bought everything from Etsy for around $50.

Small treats – A LOT of people are using a candy bar in their weddings, but we wanted something brunch themed! We purchased the same containers as a candy bar, but filled them with fun cereal. We folded small pink popcorn containers with our hashtag sticker on the front, so guests were able to make their perfect mix.

I had custom newspapers printed! Around $100 for 100 copies, we had a company print a custom wedding newspaper printed. Each small article was about someone in our wedding party, funny stories about how we met and tons of pictures of our pup. There was even a word search on the back and we passed out Starbucks gift cards for winners!

Menus – During the reception I printed out menus on card stock (costing around $15 at Staples) and created a word search on the back. We also had custom pencils made with our hashtag (you can get these from Oriental Trading Company for $15).

All of the other events that come with Weddings – One month before our Wedding Day!

I was actually shocked to know that it’s just not your wedding day you are planning for. There are so many more smaller events that take place to celebrate for upcoming marriage. A month before our wedding I had a bacholrette party with friends, a bridal shower with family, an engagement party, a rehearsal event and I planned a bridal party slumber party the night before my wedding

(I will be posting all of these events separately later on).

Weddings are EXHAUSTING.

Take your time and enjoy all of the wedding festivities. OH! And take lots of photos!

Our wedding planner was INCREDIBLE; she was there with us the entire process of planning and the stress the day of. Even if you think you will not need a planner, please consider it! Even with my passion of planning events, I needed her more than I could imagine on my big day! We were surprised how much we actually NEEDED a planner.

There are two large things that I have gathered from my own wedding and for those weddings I have helped out at throughout the years.

First, delegate but delegate selectively! Rely on your bridal party and your family to come through for you, but make sure you are demanding on what you actually WANT. A lot of family remembers have their own ideas and values for what a wedding should be/have, it’s your wedding; do not let anyone (including family) push you into anything that will not make you happy.

Second, it’s all about the details. You can have a beautiful venue and you can have a perfect dress; but it is all about the tiny details that make your wedding special. Things like a special cake topper and guest favors make ALL the difference when it comes to making your day special. These small details do not have to be expensive (you know how much I love the Dollar Tree), but they have to be personal for you and your spouse.

Smaller things that no one ever tells you that will change your day

Pack spare clothes in your “getaway car” do not let anyone move them

Pack valet money in your “getaway bag” you do not want to have to park in a parking garage at a hotel and have to carry your dress and your belongings five miles to the lobby. You are tired and you deserve it

Go to David’s Bridal and get your dress there. You will get your dream dress for cheap, along with a PACKAGE OF COUPONS for discounted tux rentals and spa treatments for your ladies

Do not spend money on a nice wedding band for your husband, you will eventually have to get it replaced….several times

Use a poster board and sticky notes to map out your reception guest seating (they are easier to move around)

On your wedding night (after parking in valet) go into the hotel lobby in your dress – you will immediately be upgraded to a fancy room with free drinks

Brides listen. You will miss out on your guests arriving and your bridal party walking down the aisle. You are going to want to have someone film this for you

Drive to the Courthouse 60 days before your wedding to pick up your license and take the pre-marriage consoling; it will save you $30

Make sure you officiant fills out the form correctly or you will have to get it re-signed. You can send this in the mail, instead of having to worry about dropping it off on your Honeymoon

Do not screw around with your birth control. Let it do what it needs to do. Do not change your routine weeks before and have your period on your wedding night!

Take two honeymoons. You and your hubby are two different people; plan a week for each of you. (We stayed in a cabin and hiked for my honeymoon; we went on a beach cruise for his). You are exhausted from all of the festivties, you DESRVE to take some time off.

Use VISTA PRINT for everything wedding related. Wedding invites, announcements, thank you cards, even the hashtag stickers. Having everything printed through them was cheaper, they shipped everything right to my door.

I know this is all over whelming. Trust me though, keep this list!

Remember though, it’s your day. It’s all about you and your spouse. Spend the day with each other and enjoy every single moment! I would love to hear about your wedding below!!

Weddings are stressful, beautiful, WONDERFUL and a whole LOT of work. The Overall Wedding Planning Process I am a planner. Obviously if you have read any of my other articles, I LIVE to plan.

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neighbourart · 8 years ago

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STAHL BARBARA - énekes/singer

Egyik legkedvesebb gyerekkori emléke, amikor a nagypapájától megkapta élete első mikrofonját, amit ő készített a műhelyében és a magnóból visszahallotta a hangját, gyűjti a szép papírszatyrokat, amikor éppen senki sem figyel, konkrét párbeszédeket futtat le önmagával, kedvence New York és a macskáááák.

One of her favorite childhood memory is when she got her first ever microphone from her grandfather, that he made in his own workshop and she could hear her own voice played back from the recorder, she collects nice paper bags, if nobody is watching she has full conversations with herself, her favorites are New York and caaaaaaaaaats.

Barbi asztala/Barbi’s table.

Milyen típusú emlékek inspirálnak jobban: a jók vagy a rosszak?/What kind of memories inspire you the most: good or bad ones? Mindkettő inspirál, de talán a rosszakból erősebb alkotások születnek.

Both of them inspire me, but maybe the bad ones lead to stronger creations.

Ha újjászülethetnél egy ma élő vagy már halott művész személyében, kit választanál?/Ha If you could reincarnate as a living or dead artist, who would you choose to be? Ella Fitzgerald vagy Beyoncé.

Ella Fitzgerald or Beyoncé.

Hogyan lendülsz túl az időszakos alkotói válságon?/How do you come over a temporary artistic crisis? Ingerszegény időszakokban próbálok mindig új élményeket generálni magamnak.

In impoverished periods I always try to generate new experiences for myself.

Mi a legkedvesebb gyerekkori emléked?/What is your favorite childhood memory? Sok van és mindegyik a családomhoz kötődik: anyukámmal az összeöltözéseink, közös esti kádfürdőink, reggeli kakaózás; apukámmal 5 éves koromban Ausztrália egyik leggyönyörűbb panorámás sziklás partszakaszán megfogadtuk, hogy örökké szeretni fogjuk egymást; a nagymamáimmal tésztagyúrás, húspanírozás, a selyem hálóingjeikben flangálás, lambadára táncolás és amikor a nagypapámtól megkaptam életem első mikrofonját, amit ő készített a műhelyében és a magnóból visszahallottam a hangom.

I have a lot and all of them are connected to my family: when I used to dress alike with my mother, when we used to have baths together in the evening, having cocoa for breakfast; we took an oath with my dad that we will love each other forever at the most beautiful, panoramic, rocky beachside in Australia; pastry kneading, making schnitzel, walking around in silk nightgowns, dancing to lambada with my grandmothers, when I got my first ever microphone from my grandfather, that he made in his workshop and I could hear my voice played back from the recorder.

Fotók: Földi Ádám

Mit érzel, amikor egy másik művész a tiédhez hasonló munkát készít?/What do you feel when a fellow artist creates something similar to your work? Ősszel megírtam a 7012 című dalomat. Pár hónappal később megjelent Drake-More Life című albuma, amin a kedvenc előadóm, Sampha készített egy dalt, 4422 címmel. Kísértetiesen hasonlít a két dal dinamikája, szerkezete egymásra, elájultam, iszonyú jó érzés volt (bár nincs sok esély rá, hogy az én dalom inspirálta :)

In fall I wrote my song called 7012. A few months later Drake-More released the album Life on which there was a song from my favorite performer, Sampha, and its title was 4422. They eerily sound alike, and the dynamic, the structure of the two songs is very similar. I almost fainted it was such an awesome feeling (however, there is not much chance that it was inspired by my song :)

Gyűjtesz valamit?/Are you collecting something? A macskás dolgokat és a szép papírszatyrokat (főleg külföldről).

Things with cats on them and nice paper bags (mainly from abroad).

Kedvenc budapesti pillanat?/Favorite Budapest moment? Amikor pasztell színű az ég és a Duna-parti lakásom rózsaszínes narancssárga fénybe borul.

When the sky takes on a pastel color and my apartment next to the Danube is lighten up with orange-pink light.

Van olyan gyerekes szokásod, amit akkor csinálsz, amikor senki nem figyel?/Do you have a childish habit that you do when nobody is watching? Sokat beszélek magamban, konkrét párbeszédeket futtatok le, sőt van, amikor különböző szituációkba képzelem magam és eljátszom.

I talk to myself a lot, I have proper conversations, moreover, sometimes I imagine myself in certain situations and I act them out.

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Mi volt a legnagyobb őrültség, amit eddig csináltál?/What was the craziest thing you have ever done? Apukámmal az Adrián átúsztunk egy szigetre. Másfél óra volt csak odafelé az út, miközben őrült sebességgel húztak el mellettünk hajók és motorcsónakok. Rettenetesen féltem.

We swam to an island with my dad on the Adria. It took one and a half hours to get there and while we were in the water boats and motorboats were rushing beside us with a crazy speed. I was really scared.

Van-e napi rutinod?/Do you have a daily routine? Nincs. Mivel általában este dolgozom a fellépéseimen, napközben óriási szabadság van. Van, amikor korán kelek és hasznos dolgokkal töltöm a napot, intézkedem, jövök-megyek, de van, amikor délutánig ágyban vagyok, olvasgatok, zenét írok és 2-3 körül nekilátok reggelizni.

No. Since I am mainly working in the evening on my gigs, I have a huge freedom during the day. There are times when I wake up early and I spend the day with useful things, I get things done, I coma and go, but other times I am in bed until afternoon, I read, I write music and I have breakfast at 2-3 pm.

Kedvenc tárgyad?/Favorite object? A biciklim és a midi keyboardom.

My bike and my keyboard.

Hogyan fogsz neki egy új munkának?/How do you get started on a new project? Általában a dalírás nálam csak úgy megtörténik, különösebb rákészülés nélkül. Teljesen hangulatfüggő.

Mostly songwriting just happens to me, without any previous preparation. It totally depends on the mood.

Van egy jól körülhatárolható hangulat, amikor könnyebb számodra az alkotás?/Is there a particular mood that makes creating and working easier for you? Ha nagyon boldog vagyok, vagy ha nagyon szomorú/nyugtalan/dühös. Középlángon képtelen vagyok bármit kiadni magamból.

If I am very happy, or if I am very sad/restless/angry. If I am on a medium flame I am incapable of get anything artistic out of me.

Sör vagy bor?/Beer or wine? Bor! Bár nem jellemző, hogy alkoholt iszom, azért nagyon szeretek finom borokat kóstolni. A fellépések révén sok borbárban, pincészetben megfordulok, szeretem hallgatni egy-egy bor történetét, készítési folyamatát, hogy honnan származik és milyen ízjegyek lelhetőek fel benne.

Wine! It is not very common for me to drink alcohol, but I really love to taste good wine. Due to my work, I have gigs in wine bars, wineries. I like to hear the story of wine, how it was made, where it is from, what tastes are in them.

Kutya vagy macska?/Dog or cat? Macska, macska, macska! Világ életemben kutyás voltam, viszont egy éve szereztem egy kiscicát a húgaimnak, aki végül nálam ragadt és teljesen elcsavarta a fejem, a mindenem lett.

Cat, cat, cat! I always loved dogs but a year ago I got a kitten for my little sisters, which eventually stayed with me and made me fall in love with him. Now I have everything.

Mit szeretnél kifejezni az alkotásaidon keresztül?/What would you like to express through your artwork? Nekem a zeneírás önkifejezés, szóval legtöbbször a saját érzelmeimet közvetítem vele, szenvedélyt, nőiséget, sebezhetőséget, vágyat, őszinteséget, esztétikát.

For me writing music is expressing myself, so I am broadcasting my own emotions through it, passion, vulnerability, honesty, aesthetics, and femininity.

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Milyen a stílusod?/What is your style like? Soft & powerful.

Soft & powerful.

Mi az, ami a leginkább feltölt?/What can recharge you the most? Egy jó fellépés, egy jó új zene, napsütés, bringázás, víz közelsége.

A good gig, good music, sunshine, biking, being close to water.

Kedvenc város?/Favorite city? New York! A leginspirálóbb és a legvibrálóbb város, ahol valaha jártam, nagyon szeretnék ott élni.

New York! The most inspiring and most vibrant city I have ever been to. I really would like to live there.

Kedvenc étel?/Favorite food? Nagyon nehéz... rajongom az ízekért, az egyik kedvenc dolgom az evés. A szívemhez persze az otthoni ételek állnak legközelebb, szóval: Mama húslevese (csirkelábbal!), rántott húsi krumplipürével és almakompóttal, és az ő flódnija...

This is hard… I love flavors, one of my favorite things to do is to eat. Home cooked meals are the ones that are closest to my heart, so: My Mama’s meat soup (with chicken feet!), schnitzel with potato puree and apple sauce and he flodni (a Jewish layered dessert with apples and poppy seeds)…

Kedvenc évszak?/Favorite season? Az ősz! Mindig rengeteg újat tartogat, van egy lendülete, ami kimos a nyári meleg álmos hangulatból és mintha kicserélnének. Öltözködni is ekkor szeretek a legjobban.

Autumn! It always has new things to bring, it has a momentum that washes me out of the summer heat sleepy mood and I feel like a new person. I also like to dress up the most in autumn.

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Mi a legrosszabb tulajdonságod?/What is your worst characteristic? Önző vagyok, türelmetlen és munkában hajcsár. Mindegyiken dolgozom :)

I am selfish, impatient and bossy in my work. I am working on all of these. :)

Van visszatérő álmod? Miről szól? Esetleg megjelenítetted már valamelyik alkotásodban?/Do you have a reoccurring dream? What is it about? Have you ever visualized it in your artwork? Nagyon sokat álmodom vízzel, van is sok-sok 'vizes' dalom. Még két visszatérő álmom van, de nem hiszem, hogy megírnám őket: az egyik, hogy mértéktelenül habzsolok mindenféle ételt, sütiket, a másik pedig konkrét akciófilmes üldözés.

I dream a lot about water, I also have a lot of songs about water. I also have two reoccurring dreams, but I don’t think I would write about those: one of them is that I am eating without limits, pastries and all other kinds of food, the other one is like an action movie chase.

Mi az az alkotás, amit mindenképpen meg kell csinálnod, mielőtt meghalsz?/What is that specific artwork you have to accomplish before you die? Egy olyan alkotás, amiért Grammy-díjra jelölnek. :)

A work that will be nominated for the Grammy Award. :)

Ha egyetlen tanácsot kellene adni más, esetleg még kezdő tehetségeknek, mi lenne az?/If you could give one piece of advice to someone else, maybe to a beginner talent, what would it be? Az, hogy belülről építkezzenek!

That they should build up from within!

--------------------------------------- NÉVJEGY - Stahl Barbara:

"Stahl Barbara vagyok, kiskorom óta tanulok zenét, de csak 5 éve kezdtem az éneklest, kezdetben egy akusztikus banda tagjaként, tavaly pedig elkezdtem a saját zenei projektemen dolgozni, aminek a stílusirányzata a soul és r&ből építkező elektronikus, vagy alternatív r&b."

"My name is Stahl Barbara I am studying music since I was a child, but I have only started to sing 5 years ago. I started off as a member of an acoustic band and last year I started to work on my own musical project that has a core style of electronic based on r&b and soul, or alternative r&b."

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