#also just like me Soap doesn't know even a third of that family so he has to relay on his Mom to tell them all the juicy stuff

[toomanywordsnllines]

You know I once went to a family gathering (mostly consisting of cousins aunt's and uncles all blood related to my mother's side only) and there were like... around a 100 people there  (no I am not kidding.)

So projecting as I like to do.

That's Soap with his family, like when he says he has a big fam HE MEANS BIG.

He’s talking about a 100+ amount of people just on his mother’s side.

The first time he takes Ghost to one of these gatherings Soap’s like 'oh so that's aunt Hannah and her seven kids-'

Ghost is nodding along... Baffled to say the least, also extremely confused on how there can be so many people in just on family

[snootlestheangel]

Oh no! How? How could you “fix” it and stick to canon story line?

If you’re crying. I know I’m gonna be too!

I'm fuckjng sobbing right now, Tats, it's bad

Major Character Death warning for below the cut

So, I don't know if it's just me but the main reason Soap's death just sucked in like a bad storytelling way is that it felt so anticlimactic? Like, there was a bit of emotion but it was lacking and just felt weird and out of place. And then the scene with his ashes? Just like did he not have family? Was this something after an official funeral for him? That scene also just felt really fucking awkward.

Anyways, yeah I "fixed" those issues. In other words, I'm here with proper storytelling to make it hurt like it was supposed to.

When Ghost and Gaz are coming in, just after the bullet is fired, all Price can hear is the broken, desperate way the lieutenant screams for Johnny. After the bomb is defused, and they're all standing there when the realization hits. Ghost is already on his knees, hands hovering just over the bloody wounds on either side of Soap's head. For a moment, the only sound is the ragged, heavy breathing from Ghost as his whole body trembles.

Price can't even get the words out to update Laswell. Can't force himself to use the proper terms. Just manages to blurt out with a broken cry that "Soap is gone". And those three words are daggers to their hearts. Gaz lets out a small whimper and he turns and looks away because he just can't bear the gruesome sight before him. And Ghost lets out a sound so unlike him, no one really knows what it was. A growl, a whimper, a plea, a confession?

The quiet, mournful whisper of "You're supposed to be with me" doesn't go unnoticed by Price and Gaz.

In the plane, heading back to wherever, Soap's body carefully concealed and hidden away. And Ghost finally speaks. Tells them of a private conversation the pair had before everything kicked off. How Soap told him he'd want a proper funeral, nothing fancy but a send off nonetheless.

Ghost tells them how Soap wanted him, Simon, to go to the spot in the mountains overlooking the water and spread his ashes.

To let him go.

By the time Soap's family is notified and arrangements are being made, Ghost is nowhere to be seen. He's disappeared, vanished like the specter he's rumored to be. And Price is doing his best to assist with the arrangements, doing his best to notify those he'd think deserve to know that John "Soap" MacTavish is gone.

And Gaz is struggling. He feels he's lost two best friends. He feels like he's mourning alone, lost without the lieutenant there.

Lost without Soap and Ghost, Ghost and Soap.

It's the funeral now. Soap's family is a wreck, yet just like him, they're facing the dark with mournful smiles, not letting the darkness of the day chase their light away.

Laswell is the first to approach his parents. She praises their son and how well they raised him; saying he was a good man and a good soldier. Saying he died to save hundreds more. That they should be proud of how selfless and brave a man their boy was.

Price is the second. He apologizes. He never expands on why he's so bloody sorry. He can't. He can't bear to tell them that the bullet should have been for him but Soap took it instead. That Soap sacrificed himself for him. Because Price doesn't believe he deserved to be saved like that.

Gaz is the third. He tells them he'll miss his "brother", that he wishes they were all meeting under better circumstances. The conversation doesn't last long; Gaz walks away before he loses composure.

Alejandro and Rudy are next. Alejandro tells them of how Soap saved his life, how he is eternally grateful for the man. He tells them they should be proud, and yet that it is still okay to mourn the loss of a hero. Rudy prays with Soap's mum.

But the one person to never approach them is Simon Riley. He stands off to the side, looking lost yet emotionless all the same.

Soap's mother asks Price and Gaz something: "What about him?"

Price tries to deflect it, tries to say she shouldn't worry about others, this is her son's funeral after all. But she stops him. She tells him that "while he rarely spoke of you all, he spoke highly still. So I ask you, what about him?" And Price doesn't have an answer.

Gaz tells her "He's dissociating really bad. He's just not coping well at all."

And Price speaks on how special the two were. How they survived some serious shit together, just the two of them. How they were an unstoppable duo, a perfect pair on and off the field. That "wherever Simon went, Johnny followed."

The procession is rough on everyone. Price and his father take the front end of the casket, while Soap's brother and Gaz take the back. And as they walk down the aisle, the reality sets in for everyone there, and there's not a dry eye.

All except for Ghost. Who remains at the side, expressionless and slightly unfocused.

A candle is lit for him, and a line forms before his casket. Alejandro, Rudy, Price, Ghost, and Gaz.

Alejandro salutes first, and Rudy follows.

Price's arm raises firmly despite the quivering of his breath.

Ghost's arm raises slowly, like he's moving through water and his face ever so slightly twists with an almost confused pinch of his brow.

Gaz is the last to salute, eyes squeezing shut as tears fall down his cheeks.

But in that moment, something changes. Simon sees Johnny smiling at him. He hears himself ask "Are you with me?" only to hear the distant whisper of "Always, Lt."

But Johnny wasn't with him.

Johnny never got to know how much Simon loved him.

And Ghost broke. His hand dropped as his knees buckled, a painful cry worming its way out of his chest. Sobs rattled him as he put his head to the ground, the cold stone of the church floor seeping into him. He cried and sobbed and wailed, kneeling on the floor with his head to the ground. And he begged, he pleaded, he confessed

You're supposed to be with me

[codenjoyer]

anyways. some small ideas for a highly self-indulgent werewolf au.

GHOST - cascade mountain wolf (this specific "breed" i guess?? of wolf is extinct btw), bc he will forever be a red head in my mind & they were described as cinnamon-coloured. - second largest of the pack, usually seen as the secondary leader next to price due to his rank - he does not like his werewolf form due to the fact that it reminds him of his father, and the things he'd done to him as a young pup just finding out he could shift.

SOAP - human, knows about ghost being a werewolf, but not price (so far). - has some suspicions about price being a werewolf - definitely thinks that gaz is also a werewolf (only to later find out he's not) - makes a lot of werewolf puns around ghost (& later price when he finds out) - has definitely found ghost out in the woods as a werewolf & just chucks his clothes at him "put ur fucking clothes on, wtf are u doing out here simon" - image of charlie day with the information board "EVERYONE, EXCEPT ME, IS A WEREWOLF"

GAZ - human, unaware that price & ghost are werewolves - more of a "i don't believe in werewolves" kinda guy - that is until he sees one of them shift in front of him, then he's just like "what the absolute FUCK" - most people, even other werewolves, assume that he is one bc he has a lot of werewolf-y traits; this just comes from the fact that he was (unknowingly) raised by a werewolf.

PRICE - labrador wolf (i just think price would be a very fluffy wolf tbh, no other reason for this) - oldest & third biggest member of the pack (was the second biggest before könig stumbled in) - following actual wolf pack structure, he has adopted soap & gaz as his own & treats them as if they were his kids on occasion. he's tried to do the same with ghost, but ghost was not having it. - price finding gaz like "what the fuck is that?? is that a human?? a werewolf?? lemme go check him out"

ALEJANDRO - mexican wolf, but he's unusually big for a species of werewolf that is usually pretty small - while he understands that rudy is human, he honestly sees rudy more as another werewolf due to the wolfishness rudy picked up from him inadvertently. - has 100% tried to court rudy like he would another werewolf, but later remembered that rudy is not another werewolf (totally not embarrassing for him)

RUDOLFO - human, he knows ale is a werewolf, he doesn't really care too much. - they grew up together, so he also has some wolf-y traits he picked up from ale. - he knows ale views him more as a werewolf due to a time when they both sat down for a drink, ale told him just about everything. he tries his best to emulate werewolf traits bc of this, he doesn't want ale to feel like he's alone as a werewolf (even though ale kind of is bc - as far as rudy is aware - there are no other werewolves, besides ale's family, where they are from.)

KÖNIG - eurasian wolf or steppe wolf?? idk what to make him - largest, big fluff guy. fur out the wazoo - very intimidated by his own strength around humans, he does not want to hurt people inadvertently, unless they give him a reason too - hes got one of those dog sweaters that just says "anxious" on it, thanks to soap - doesn't know where he exactly fits in with the 141, price seems to be nice, but ghost is very standoffish with him, gaz reminds him of a wolf but is human?? and soap... well, hes basically off limits for friendship with the way ghost hovers around him.

GRAVES - technically not a werewolf, he is a werecoyote - he just has those kinda vibes. idk what it is. - i dont have any other ideas for this bitch (/aff), hes just coyote - hates that he is a werecoyote & not a werewolf, he has some issues. (definitely gets made fun of behind his back, mostly werewolves referring to him as "werechihuahua" bc of how small he is when in his were form)

[lheslie]

Me and Taehoon

So this post is dedicated to me and Taehoon. So, I'm basically shipping myself with him. ehe.

I've read @sei-minjuhan 's post. Translating Information about Taehoon. From webtoon.

I've noticed we had some similarities.

And I'm like Σ(O_O；) We have something in common?! And it's more than one!! Does this mean we're like- compatible??! (/ω＼) (Manifesting)

So I'm putting the link to the post

-> here.

Things we have in common.

- He's weak to harmless creatures

Ex. Animals, Children, Elderly, good people.

(BRO SAME. I mean who isn't anyways people call me an angel in real life. Please take me. Hehehe.)

- He doesn't like strong scents.

Ex. Perfume

(I can't breathe using those things. I'm just being forced by my parents because girls should smell good.)

- He also doesn't like lotions.

(I have a whole bottle of lotion on my beside strawberry scented and I'm not even touching it. Its really icky.)

- Once attached The numbered target is never forgotten.

(I can't forget them too- it keeps me up at night. Thinking about them.)

His Favorite foods are;

Fried egg • Beef •

(Two in common I think thats fine- HAHAHAHA)

Hobbies;

MMA • Exercise • Tekken Games

• fighting • Watching action movies • Self-taught New tubu • Jeong driving •

"Do you have 500 won?"

(I don't get some of these but I can give you all of my wallet o(╥﹏╥)o I can even exercise even tho it'll kill me HAHAHAHA)

Others;

Cool breeze • The smell of soap • Black/Red • Soft things • Cozy space • Prank with lights Off• Tiger rich free life • Taekwondo Praises • Friends • Money • Dad..

(OMG I LOVE COOL BREEZE TOO, I mean who doesn't. I love the smell of my soap its dove and its pink- I love both black and red but I have a whole closet dedicated to black. My cozy space is my bed. Top bunk. I never got pranked with lights off lol- I don't know what tiger rich free life mean tho--- BRO I CAN PRAISE YOU ALL MY LIFE. I like Taekwondo since third grade-- Never did because of family reasons. I CAN BE UR FRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND OR YOUR TAEKWONDO MAT PLEASE (╥_╥) I also love money. I'm 100% money hungry. Ask my parents. BRO I LOVE MY PARENTS HEHEHEHE)

Foods he Dislikes;

White milk • Pork Belly • Coriander •Coriander cake • Rich

(Too bad I love white milk lol same with pork belly. Never really tasted coriander- OMG I JUST LOVE IT HOW HE ALSO HATE RICH- bro how dare they be rich and we're broke af.)

Dislikes;

Tedious and Boring • Ignoring attitude • sneering attitude and coercive attitude • arrogant attitude • those who touch him recklessly • the kind that makes food spicy • artificial things • Moonsung Kim • Dinner Rainy Day • Doll

(I promise you I'm a total angel PLEASE JUST TAKE ME ( TДT) I won't touch you if you don't like lololol BRO I HATE SPICY THINGS- I just love it how he says he just literally hate moonsung--- what does doll mean?? Stuff toys? Awwee I love stuffed toys too bad HAHAHAHAHA)

(PLEASE JUST TAKE ME TAEHOON AHHHHHHHH)

The fact that I'm Leo and He's also Leo OMGGGG red flags at work HAHA OMGMGKEOWKKWOOFIE

I promise you I'll do my best---

TAKE MEEEEEE

I've been daydreaming About you 24/7 even though It'll end once I found someone new to simp on since PTJ isn't giving me any more crumbs.

[dreamwritesimagines]

It’s CMA-

Whenever I reply to your replies about what I’ve said, I feel like we’re that spider-man meme just pointing at each other and jumping up and down lmaooo

When Anthony stops Ben from pursuing clover, how much of that do you think was less so an objective gesture of goodwill and more so a reflection of his (and a lot of people in the ton’s) view of love, especially as he’s seen in his own life.

What I mean about this beyond the fact that everyone in the ton, despite being enamored with the idea of love, they don’t try that hard to pursue it (look at how rare love matches are) but also how Anthony protects himself (at this point in the story) by denying himself the idea of love (namely with lottie).

His idea is that he’s protecting her, but he’s also protecting himself in a lot of ways too. Anthony thinks that he’s protecting everyone by not falling in love, and he’s encouraging Ben to do the same, not because he wants to keep Ben from pursuing love, but because he wants to protect him from the pain it might cause.

It’s the sort of catch 22 that every person who loves another must struggle with (especially parents and parent types): we want good things to happen to those we love without any of the risk. I suppose we want this for ourselves too, now that I think about it.

It’s the simple failing to realize that not only is the good thing attainable because of those risks, but that that’s also why it’s so meaningful. It’s difficult to balance and know what the right risk/reward is, so most people error on the side of caution. Ben is very much the type to play a high risk/high rewards game, which pays off, but really shows a lot about the stakes that everyone else balked, despite their admiration of the reward (love in this case).

Idk it’s just super interesting to think about imho

Also re: our other convo: I think that both allergies and intolerances can start at any time! Our bodies are weird like that lol

Also I still hate mushrooms lolololol. I can tolerate cabbage if something is masking the taste, but I don’t prefer it. It’s a texture thing for me when it comes to the other things though. I’m really weirdly specific about the textures of things I’ll eat, so mushrooms are a no-no in my book.

Also yes soap boxes!! I’m the exact same way! Any soap boxes coming to mind right now?

Omg we definitely are like that meme😂

I think it was a mixture of both! Like, I definitely think Anthony's own perspective of love played some part in it, especially now that we know he has been in love with Lottie that whole time❤️ But like, even before that, protecting and putting his family first is a second nature to Anthony at this point❤️

And there was also the fact that Clover is incredibly different than Benedict😁 And Anthony heard all kinds of things about her, because the ton was buzzing with gossip when she was first introduced😁 She's more of a riddle, no one knows all that much about her and she has zero interest in letting them know anything about her, and Anthony does NOT like riddles, nor does the ton😏

They are all used to the debutantes being a certain way, and Clover had already started breaking it on her first outing, refusing to smile at anyone😂

So I think Anthony did not want Benedict to get his heart broken, but also he knew he would eventually fall in love ❤️ He was just hoping it wasn't someone like Clover ❤️

Benedict on the other hand was already obsessed after their first interaction for the very same reason, that she doesn't fit the type of an "ideal debutante" 😈

YES! Now that we're talking about vegetables, I have many opinions about okra aka lady's fingers! 😂

So first of all, you know how there are some things in the world which are totally edible, and some are poisonous and there is a 3rd category where it's like "eh you could eat it but why would you"? OKRA IS A VEGETABLE UNDER THE THIRD CATEGORY

I refuse to believe anyone would willingly eat that vegetable(🧐?) , and I think we were supposed to leave that alone but nope, we convinced ourselves it was something edible and now the rest of the humankind is stuck with this idea-

[phoenixyfriend]

I FORGOT SOME.

Apparently I didn't bookmark these when I first read them despite really enjoying them, so I forgot to include them yesterday, but here's a few more!

⭐ Breeding by @bittodeath - I refer to this as 'the bitching fic' and it's a really fun exploration of ways that things like transitioning and queer relationships might work in the omegaverse. Basically, JangObi where both are alphas, and are trying to transition Obi-Wan to omega over the course of six months or so. Very porny, but also very fun imo. (IDK why I can't tag them.) They also wrote Mating Run, a different, much faster transition fic featuring Obikin.

afterglow by @inferior-fairy - another transitioning fic, this one Obikin, with Anakin as the one becoming an Omega, aided by the clones when Obi-Wan can't be there.

⭐ How to build a family by @anakinks - a Jangobi one-night stand in AotC leads to an unplanned pregnancy. Since Jango dies almost immediately after, keeping the pregnancy isn't as big of a deal as it could be, but Obi-Wan starts a relationship with Cody. Stands out in my memory for the moment Anakin shows up and offers Tatooine Folk Medicine Advice that actually works out and leads to the CodyWan, but also the Anakin&Obi dynamic is just great in general. Also they adopt Boba by leveraging the pregnancy against legal precedent, which is fun.

⭐ Late Night Bounty Call by eltrut07 - kicks off a standard-ish 'sex pollen triggers a heat that has two enemies going at it like rabbits' plot, and then unravels over the course of tens of thousands of words of bad decisions, conspiracy, in-universe social commentary, and Assumptions Make An Ass of You and Me. Everyone is an idiot now and again, which is great because that's how real life works, too. Also Boba ships Jango and Obi-Wan like mad and will make them get married for real if it kills him.

Ner Kar'ta by Loveobiwantobits - this one is further towards the 'a/b/o extreme sexism' scale, but it's pretty well-plotted and over 150k words, most of which is very horny. (Also, Jango's encouragement of Obi-Wan getting Anakin is adorable.) Does have some Qui-Gon bashing, though, so YMMV on that.

The Domestication of Darth Vader by scaryhours (doesn't have tumblr because of regional issues) - Vaderwan raising Luke with heavy omegaverse element, with a standard "fuck him back to the Light" angle.

you be the tightrope, baby i'll be the safety net by @tennessoui - modern au where the omegaverse isn't even the main point, it's just that Obi-Wan is being Peak Bitch at a wedding Anakin attends because he decided all Anakin's former classmates deserve to be Snubbed.

⭐ A Slow Fall Towards Grace by @glimmerglanger - genuinely have no idea how I missed this the first time. I think it's because this list started out as recs to a discord server and I thought certain elements (namely the QuiObi incident) weren't right for that one, and I forgot to add it back in when transferring to tumblr? IDK, point is, this is 100k+ of glorious fic that I spent several days liveblogging to @willowcrowned the first time I read it, which should tell you a lot.

Hazards of Strange and Wondrous Things by @glimmerglanger - Omegaverse sex pollen plot. Pure Obi/Clones smut.

Hyperfertility by @gabriel4sam - Breeding kink taken to the extreme. Every omegaverse fic rec list needs one. Very much exactly what it says on the tin.

Cold Shock by jellyjog - 'we should fuck to survive this blizzard, right?'

Equality by orphan_account - O!Anakin/O!Obi-Wan, surprise heat.

⭐ I will be keeping our memories by IronCannon - O!Anakin and A!Obi-Wan have been circling each other for years but fail to get anywhere because Obi-Wan has a medical condition he hasn't told anyone about, and the idiot ball gets juggled around a bit.

Poster Boy for Second Place by MusicSoul1982 - Another "rich politicians Anidala pick up Jedi Obi-Wan as their third" plot. Has some very High Trope situations, but in the way of a soap opera, where you know it's overly ridiculous but deliberately so, and enjoyable.

⭐ Chapter 2 of Subobi Week: 2020/2021 by @the-writing-mill - Took me a hot second to find this one. It's a very dark one, in that it takes place as a direct result of Zygerrian bullshit, but it's also hopeful in how Rex/Obi support each other through it.

⭐ tender hands and desire vs need by aspec_erotica_connoisseur - aspec O!Obi-Wan dealing with heats, in a qp(?) relationship with Quinlan, who's very supportive of what he's dealing with.

Subobi Week: Winter 2019/2020: Chapter 4 by @the-writing-mill: JangObi, fun with mixed feelings and "how do you handle a heat in a limited space that means there's a 5yo in the next room that you can't explain things to on account of them being Five."

Taking a Knot by distractionpie - semi-anonymous sex, A!Obi-Wan is blindfolded and does his best to remain unaware of just which clone he's helping through an unanticipated heat.

The Traditionalist by handdrawnisopach - A!Alpha-17/O!Obi-Wan, unplanned heat and the attempts to negotiate consent within the confines of medical necessity in such a situation.

Side Effects May Include by kazmir - Cody's libido is AWOL after brain surgery, and he and Obi-Wan try to navigate that.

Star Wars Omegaverse Recs

Here's a couple solid omegaverse fics. This list is shorter than most of the ones I write but Meh.

Stars are for my favorites.

⭐ The Rain Fell Already by @loosingmoreletters: variation on Jedi Indentured AU containing omegaverse. Xanatos is omega Qui-Gon's bio kid but nothing changes, depressing but poignant

House Call by @elthadriel: two idiots knot while on medication that requires no knotting because it can get stuck for literal hours. Kix has to help and he is very annoyed about it

Status Quo by @captainkirkk: (G-rated) Anakin responds to Obi-Wan in a "you are my dad" way and the clones are surprised pikachu about it

⭐ Temporary Like Achilles by @intermundia: standard-ish fuck-or-die scenario where both sides are like "I can't take advantage of you/I just took advantage of you" because of course they are. (This author has a lot of solid Obikin, but they have me blocked (no I don't know why) so I can't tag them.)

⭐ He Said Yes by @threebea: (G-rated) B!Quinlan and O!Obi-Wan get mated for Obi-Wan's safety, the nature of their relationship is unclear to basically everyone (romantic? qp? other? unclear)

venus flytrap by IntoThineHands: Sith!Obi, role reversal of trope standard (omega deliberately takes advantage of an alpha)

Bite of Caramel by @thewriterowl: A!Jango needs a date to the family reunion, asks O!Obi-Wan to accompany him

⭐ good things in threes by @galateagalvanized: Codywan accidental pregnancy after O!Obi-Wan's implant gets nullified by an overpowered EMP (along with Cody's brain chip)

all my roads lead back to you by @tennessoui: idiots to lovers comedy (modern au, Obi-Wan got pregnant in a one-night stand across the country with a bartender who kind of looked like Anakin, because he's in love with his roommate but can't come clean and so hooks up with guys who look like him, and Anakin is in love with Obi-Wan enough that he's decided to be the Dad Who Stepped Up to this kid because anything Obi-Wan makes is part of Obi-Wan and obviously deserving of adoration)

The Theory of Letting Go by @ifonlyweknewwhatiwasdoing: never a Jedi!Anakin, Padme dead of uterine rupture, Obi-Wan hormonally addled and insistent on taking care of the twins like they're his own

The Swan Serenade by @shatouto: heavily AU, Mando!Anakin and Jedi-but-more-like-real-world-monks!Obi. (Has the most adorable art in the end of chapter notes, btw)

For Safekeeping by @glimmerglanger: Sith O!Obi-Wan feels safe because of the army of clones, which is the first time he's felt safe enough to have a heat, ends up fucked by his army of betas

when the snow falls we will wrap ourselves in furs by @hornet394: the fic I reread that had me going "I want Rex with O!Anakin but being in character" because this is one of the few omegaverse Rexwalkers that hits that button for me (though it's technically Anakin/501st poly stuff)

⭐ Find a little stranger by @obimanletkenobi: Villain!Obidala, both alphas, find Anakin at an omega auction, decide to ask him to play surrogate for their child since they can't do it themselves (with the offer to drop him off on a random planet with a wiped memory and enough cash to start a new life as a free man if he doesn't want to get pregnant), followed by smut

Belonging by IronCannon: this is the OTHER solid omegaverse Rexwalker

⭐ Conceal Me by @himboskywalker: longfic that is VERY good imo and builds the tension incredibly. Anakin is an omega pretending to be an alpha (literally the only people alive that know he's omega are his mother and the midwife). Senator Obi-Wan is an alpha pretending to be a beta (for weird reasons relating to his parents being kind of insane). They get married for politics, suggested by Palpatine because he found out about Obi-Wan being an alpha but not about Anakin, and decided a forced alpha/alpha marriage was going to self-destruct and help destabilize the Republic further.

Both by @obimanletkenobi: Anakin is the omegaverse equivalent of intersex and this explores the ways he's fetishized and discriminated against by the culture around him.

Peachy the Series by @the-writing-mill: IDK what to say, if you want 15k of O!Obi-Wan getting absolutely railed by two alphas, this is the fic for you

⭐ Packed Together Like Test Tubes also by @the-writing-mill: Jangobi, forced on both sides. Neither of them wants to mate, but the Kaminoans are forcing the issue with synthetic pheromones. It takes several weeks to get to that point and they are both fighting it with every ounce of willpower they have.

⭐ [Only] Think of Me by @inferior-fairy: Empress Amidala and Emperor Kenobi need Anakin to not go off the rails again, but they need a reason for him to want to stay because they love him too much to force the issue (and make him hate them) with chains or the like. So they give him Babies.

⭐ unfortunately it seems I have written more by @gaily-daily: Look at me. LOOK at me. This is fucked up and ugly and horrible and awful and messy and triggering and so incredibly well written as a dawning horror situation. Dead Dove at its finest. It is incredibly good as a story, but it is also really bad, and you need to go in accepting that. Without details, it's messy/triggering in the GoT sense.

⭐ terribly inconvenient and incredibly terrific by @tennessoui: A classic "Anakin wants to do something he is in no way qualified for and then suffers the consequences for his idiocy" plot, very fun.

I can fill those places in your heart no else can by @pontah: modern au post-breakup revenge sex I guess???

Ba’jurir by @mockingjay34: Rex/Fives, explores the intersection of anti-clone bigotry and anti-omega sexism.

Out in the Corner of the Dark with You by kazmir: a 5+1 fic about Anakin giving Obi-Wan a bunch of soft things as courting gifts

instincts by amidnightlove: just some fun and funky 'cycles make people go a little feral' stuff

[anextrapart]

What if there was an alternate timeline where Jimmy and Kim had a child/children?

Ooh, pushing my buttons with this one, anon. Very much would need to be alternate timeline because I don't think Kim-as-we-know-her has any desire for kids (and I love that for her!) but I'm also obsessed with the slightly-askew world where it could happen. (I'm going full AU here, this has nothing to do with my post-series stories or most of canon. Breaking Bad? I don't know her.)

So. Here's my setup. First big change is Kim and Jimmy are in a relationship by the time he's prepping for his third time taking the bar (which he's still taking in secret from everyone else). They aren't living together yet but they're pretty serious and had some version of the "does that mean... you and me, is this gonna happen?" moment after he failed the bar the second time and she encouraged him to take it again. One thing still has absolutely nothing to do with the other for her, but it helps Kim see how very much Jimmy wants to be with her and it gives them that push to get together. It also plants the seed in Kim's mind that, despite the fact that Jimmy genuinely does want to be a lawyer, he's not going for it purely from love of the law. He's not only doing it for her, but... he's not not doing it for her. 

So Jimmy takes the bar for the third time. He's not sure how he did. He's too nervous to even think about it while they wait for the results to be mailed out.

BUT THEN! A CURVEBALL STRAIGHT OUT OF THE WORST POSSIBLE SOAP OPERA! WHO'S WRITING THIS DRIVEL??

Kim's pregnant. And they're both like oh, fuck.

Jimmy's "oh, fuck" is because he really, really, desperately wants them to keep the baby. He wants a family and yes that can mean many things and he truly would be happy if it were just the two of them for the rest of forever, he really would, but now the idea is solidly in his head. He'll support whatever Kim decides, he won't push or pressure or complain, but suddenly the possibility of it all could bring him to his knees: a toddler running around, maybe with Kim's eyes, or Kim's smile, and almost definitely with Kim's bossiness. Someone else to love and care for who will love him back.

Kim's "oh, fuck" is because she doesn't know what the hell she wants. Since nearly her own childhood, when she pictured her future it was about the stability and reliability of a good career, of working hard and making an impact and standing on her own two feet. Much more recently, the picture has expanded somewhat to include a certain floppy-haired mailroom boy. 

But Kim never had any burning desire for children. She’s not necessarily against the idea, but growing up how she did she knows exactly what it looks like for a kid to be born to people who aren’t prepared or even all that interested in parenting. And her career means everything to her. 

So they sit down to talk once they’ve had some time to process the shock. Since they know each other so well they both already kind of know where the other’s head is at, so Kim jumps in first with the practical difficulties because she knows Jimmy is going to be tied up with the emotions of it all. She reminds him that she works long hours that will only get longer, and pretty soon he will too (since she’s sure he passed the bar this time), and they don’t even live in the same apartment yet, and she’s only on a low-level associate’s salary which even combined with a second low-level associate’s salary would still be tough to cover her school loans and rent and now childcare and-

“But wouldn’t I stay home?”

Kim stares at him. “You... what?”

“I’d stay home, wouldn’t I? If we...” He gestures vaguely at her midsection. “So we wouldn’t need to pay for daycare or a nanny or anything.”

“You’d do that?”

“Of course.” Jimmy takes her hand, squeezing gently. “You’ve wanted to be a lawyer for forever, you’re not giving that up.”

The idea never even occurred to her, Jimmy being the one to stay home. But now that he’s said it... being a full-time dad might actually suit him. 

“But what about the bar?”

“We don’t even know if I passed.”

“Jimmy, come on. You passed.”

He shrugs. “If I did, it’ll keep. The kid will go to school eventually and I’ll have more time then.”

Years and years of school and studying and tests, and he’s going to drop it all, just like that. 

“You really want to do this.”

“If you really want to, then... yeah. I really do.”

There’s still something bothering her, an incessant, nagging thought that she doesn’t want to put voice to. Jimmy, unsurprisingly, picks up on it and squeezes her hand again, waiting for her to meet his eyes.

“Kim. You’ll the the best mom.”

He’s so sweet, and she smiles weakly even if she can’t quite believe him. “Because I had such good examples.”

“You know what not to do.”

“Neither one of us can cook.”

“I’ll learn.”

“We have two apartments.”

“We’ll pick the one we like better--which we both know is yours--or we’ll find a new one until we can afford a house.”

“Oh, we’re getting a house now?” she teases.

Jimmy grins. “Kid needs a yard, Kim.”

Kim shakes her head at him, laughing. It’s insane to do this, but they might actually be doing this.

-

When Jimmy goes to see Chuck with big news, it’s to tell him that Chuck’s going to be an uncle.

Chuck gapes at him while Jimmy explains the parenting plan he and Kim have come up with. “Who’d have thought it, huh? Jimmy McGill: Stay-At-Home Dad.”

On his way out, Jimmy throws over his shoulder that he passed the bar, too, for whatever that’s worth now, and Chuck nearly falls out of his chair.

Fortunately, without the pressure of Jimmy wanting to work and HHM and Chuck not wanting Jimmy to work at HHM, there’s no major fallout between them. Things aren’t perfect, but they aren’t bad, either.

-

When the baby is born, Jimmy is head over heels in love. He’s holding him constantly, never wanting to put him down, and Kim laughs at him even as she feels pangs of love over the sight of their little one cradled in Jimmy’s too-big hands. 

It shocks Kim a little how much she loves their son. Not that she thought she wouldn’t, but she’s never felt this connected to anyone so quickly, Jimmy being the only near exception. There are times where the two of them lay down on their bed on top of the covers, baby in the middle, and just watch him watching them; if you’d told Kim even a few months ago that she’d being doing this, she’d never believe you, but truth is she could do it for hours. That’s their baby. Hers and Jimmy’s. They made that.

“He looks like you,” she says one day, trying not to burst into tears over the feeling of a little fist grabbing and holding her finger for what isn’t even the first time.

Jimmy laughs. “He does not. He doesn’t look like anyone yet. Besides, if he has any luck at all he’s going to look like you.”

Kim privately disagrees- she can’t think of anything better than a miniature Jimmy running around.

Jimmy privately hopes that not only does their son end up looking like Kim, but that one day they have a daughter that looks like her, too.

-

[dragon-kazansky]

A rose in shadows - Chapter three

Chapter 3 - The other Holmes

"Will your beard be with us all night?" John asked his dear friend.

Sherlock and John got into the car, such a thing being very new to world at this given time. It ran smoothly, so there weren't any complications on the journey.

"I'll remove it once we're south of Trafalgar Square." Holmes replied.

"If you believe Moriarty has you under observation, isn't this a bit conspicuous?"

"It's so overt, it's covert."

The engine on the car backfires as it trudges down the road. Sherlock had full confidence in his disguise. As they pass by Trafalgar Square, John states that Sherlock MUST be safe now. Sherlock removes the beard and looks at his friend.

"Why are you looking at me with such concern?" Watson asks, having glanced at his friend in return.

"I'm so very worried. Your vitality's been drained from you. Marriage is the end, I tell you."

"I think of it as the beginning." John says fondly.

"Armageddon."

"Rebirth."

"Restriction."

"Structure."

"Answering to a woman."

"Being in a relationship." John glances at Sherlock. "You must understand that? Y/N and yourself are in one." He does his best to focus on the road, but the questions do flood his mind as he sits there with his best friend. "Do you not wish to marry her?"

Sherlock says nothing as he stares ahead.

"Holmes?"

"It's complicated."

"Did something happen?"

"No. Should it have?" Sherlock turns to John, his tone of voice as perky as ever. There didn't seem to be anything different about Holmes, but when you have known him as long as John has, you know what to look for in Sherlock.

"Something has."

"I told you. It's complicated."

"Sherlock-"

"So, we'll have a good old-fashioned romp tonight. You'l settle down, have a family, and I'll... die alone."

"Is it that bad?" John asks. "What did you do?"

"Me? What makes you say such a thing?" Sherlock wasn't at all offended. He just liked being dramatic sometimes.

"Isn't it always you." It wasn't a question.

Sherlock didn't say any more on the matter. He didn't feel like John needed to know. This was his problem. His alone. He could deal with it. He would fix it.... maybe.

"Perhaps it's better for one to die alone than to live life in eternal purgatory." Sherlock says, once the car has come to a stop. John looks at him, shakes his head and then climbs out. "Anyway..." Sherlock also hops out.

"Not bad, that." John says, nodding at the car. "So, where are we going?"

"In the future, there'll be one of those machines in every town in Europe." A third voice speaks up from the shadows, right beside where Sherlock stood. He steps out, placing a top hat on his head as he faces his brother.

"Loitering in the woodshed again, are we, Myccie?" 

"Good evening, Sherly. Well. I see your boot-maker is ill, dear brother." Mycroft begins to walk away, the other two follow.

"As I detect that you've recently changed the brand of soap with which you shave." Sherlock points out.

"May I point out that the chimney in he front room at Baker Street is still in need of damn good sweeping up?" Mycroft mentions.

"Were you aware that the Hackney carriage by which you arrived had a damaged wheel?" Sherlock asks.

"Yes, the left. And it's plain to the meanest intelligence that you have recently acquired a new bow for you violin."

"Same bow, new strings." Sherlock corrects.

"I'm surprised she hasn't left you yet." Mycroft looks his brother in the eyes with an almost amused expression. Yet, Sherlock doesn't seem to react to that.

John looks mildly confused for a moment.

"Why would she?"

"Because you're doing a terrible job, brother."

"That's getting rather repetitive around here." Sherlock still didn't have a very outward reaction. John decided to step in before this could escalate. It was far obvious by now that they were talking about you and that Sherlock really didn't want to.

"And may I deduce, Mycroft- good evening, by the way." John goes to shake his hand, but Mycroft is quick to put a stop to that. John lowers his hand.

"He doesn't." Sherlock told him.

"May I deduce that you, who rarely strays from the path that runs from your home to the Diogenes Club, and never on a Monday when they serve your favourite potted shrimps, must be here for some far more important reason than my stag party?"

"You know, he's nothing like as slow-witted as you'd been leading me to believe, Sherly. No, you're quite right, Dr. Watson,  but with all the conflict in Europe at the moment, the whole situation could... suddenly erupt. I am here to avoid a dire catastrophe. If the concerns of two nations- which shall remain nameless, but I can tell you they speak French and German- are not dealt with tonight, I shall be forced to go to Switzerland to attend the ghastly peace summit in Reichenbach. The worst thing about Switzerland us the altitude." Mycroft walked on.

John faced Sherlock.

"I'm so glad you invited your brother." Watson sighs.

Meanwhile, back at the flat, you were sitting with Mrs. Hudson at her kitchen table. You were busy reading silently. Mrs. Hudson was sitting opposite you, she glanced your way every moment or so, but you didn't say anything.

"You should be out enjoying yourself, dear."

"Me? It's John and Mary's wedding, not mine." You give her a tight lipped smile, but you knew it wouldn't fool her.

"You could do so much better." She sighs.

"I know." You mutter under your breath. "My problem is that I don't want better, I want him..."

You gaze down at your left hand. A few months ago there was a ring sitting there. Sherlock has asked you to marry him shortly after everything that happened last year, and things were great for a while.... but the more he dived into his case with Moriarty, the more neglected you began to feel. Soon enough Sherlock was pushing you away. He ate less, drank things no human should ever be drinking as if it were alcohol, muttering things to himself, ignoring your requests to assist him and then forgetting your presence entirely. You only stayed now.... because you were holding onto hope.

"Y/N..."

Mrs. Hudson couldn't really do anything to help, but you were glad she was there.

"Shall I make us another cup of tea?"

"That would be lovely."

She gets up to see to it. You stare at the pages of the book in front of you, no longer able to absorb it's contents. Your mind was too busy and loud to focus on anything else.

You still had hope.

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[making-my-escape]

The Outlander «Deep Heart’s Core» reaction

Please, someone talk to me, I'm properly frustrated. I find this particular episode bitterly disappointing. For me it's the weakest one of the whole show (plot-wise). I do understand when show-runners have no other choice but to change the original material (if it's too complicated to put on screen unedited or too expensive to film). But with «Deep heart's core» (respective book chapters) it was entirely possible to keep considerable part of vital dialogs without exceeding episode's time limit, so everything would be fine. Nevertheless Starz chose to «reinvent the wheel». And look what's happened. 

We didn't get to see: a) How The Fraser's learnt their way to be a family. We jumped almost right into the domestic bliss instead. While the story could have become more believable if we had seen that it took actual time and effort to establish the relationship, even when everyone was willing.   

b) How Jamie ached to be a Father, but yet Brianna wasn't ready to meet his expectations. She genuinely tried to please Jamie, being fond of him, but at the same time she didn't want to betray Frank. At the start Jamie & Brianna didn't even communicate directly. Claire helped them. It would have been so sweet to see their small steps toward each other. 

c) How it was not Bree, who brought up Frank Randall a lot, but Jamie himself. Isn't it a more interesting angle? Fraser can't stop comparing himself to Randal, can't let him go. He sees that Frank had a huge impact on his women and this feeling bothers Jamie. It makes us see that JAMMF is just a man, and not an irreproachable being (as he's at least partly portrayed in the show). 

So «behind the scenes» of this episode contains huge chunk of small but important stuff that didn't make it to the screen. And I dare to say, for a lot of people the special magic of The Outlander is right in these tiny details described above. Why all of a sudden Starz decided to leave them out? They managed to get through 3 seasons without unnecessary alterations well enough. I can't remember any other episode violated so much (well, In fact I can, but as I said, if it's impossible to shoot, I'm totally ok with shortcuts and changes). 

What I really don't like about «Deep heart's core» it's how the first part of the episode is all about things going very wrong very fast (too wrong and too fast, if it comes to that) while the second part is awfully stuck in pointless «plastic» out-of-character conversations and behavior. 

They've even changed the way Jamie «found out» about Brianna's pregnancy. That is another miss. From Jamie's perspective his wife and daughter had betrayed him, keeping the rape a secret. He's boiling with rage, but also helpless, heartbroken, and devastated. Still he keeps all these unpleasant feelings in. No matter what. 'Cause he knows what it's like to be raped, and he needs to be there for his daughter. It took all his strength but he was as gentle with Brianna as it was possible. Read this, you'll enjoy the scene. And don’t forget to delete «Unwed-pregnant-daughter-can’t-be-what-you-hoped-for» bullshit from your memory. Such lame stuff belongs with cheap soap operas, which The Outlander is not. 

Also there's Claire, who's in deep distress. Torn between her love for Jamie and her motherly bond with Brianna. There's no peace between her and her husband. And that's the whole different level of the story, though let's not get into that. @holdhertightandsayhername wrote it better here

What I'm trying to say is that for me reading these pages was like playing Minesweeper (do you remember the game?). Every next move is harder to make, because it's more likely to cause an explosion. So by the time characters got into the huge «revelation fight» I felt like a tightly coiled spring myself. But watching this episode was nowhere near that. All we saw was Jamie's injured hand in a «wee accident», and literary just one phrase «Your mother told me what happened». Followed by tonnes of incoherent shouting.  

And why make such an idiot of Ian? Whether we remember it or not, Jamie was a man of 18th century. That added up to the existing tension. He naturally saw things not like Bree or Claire. Even made several intrusive efforts to arrange Brianna's future for her (including Ian's proposal), which gradually infuriated his daughter more and more. All good intentions notwithstanding. 

But that part was also left off-screen. As well as other dialogs that showed Jamie's perspective (his deep concern for Brianna's reputation — because public opinion was a huge thing in 1700s — his wish for another child of his blood, etc.). So when Brianna hit (!) her Da screaming «You are self-righteous bastard», it did seem to me a little bit too far-fetched. But not as over-the-top far-fetched as when a second later Jamie lost his shit, sounding almost panicked «I'll-make-it-up-to-you-please-just-don't-be-mad». Man, really, what could be more out of character?   

Finally, the last third of the episode in general, the heck was that? Fellow bookreaders, am I the only one who doesn't get it? And what all these long scenes with Roger walking nearly-dead with Indians were for? They could have cut it in half and still be able to make their point. The lad horribly suffered «for nothing» and was determined to escape. I want to hear more from Roger, but only when he really has something «to tell». Besides, dear Indians, why to buy a man only to exhaust him to death on the road? Doesn't make much sense. 

3 more episodes are totally enough to conclude the season. But it depends on how to tell the story. So haters gonna hate, lovers gonna love, readers gonna read, and I just gonna hope the narrative gets better. The Outlander is a truly amazing story. It deserves to be directed accordingly. 

P.S. Please, forgive my messed-up grammar and overdramatic way of describing things. English is not my native language, I've never written such a long text before.

Also all these pretty GIFs aren’t mine. I took them here. Please follow @outlander-online for more amazing content.