#also jokes on my mom bc I found lifelong friendships pretty soon after she said that to me and she tried to get info from one of my friends

[oldcurse]

I sincerely never knew you loved Louis so much!

Please ugh I’m sad bc I used to be so extra about it but have no record of it like I used to post on tumblr about him in 2011 and then my hs friends wanted to follow me on tumblr in 2012 so I literally went back and deleted e v e r y t h i n g I ever posted bc I was embarrassed and didn’t want them to see 😪 ugh I have regrets but seriously I owe him my life I can’t describe it like I remember when I was in high school my mom was being horrible to me like always and she was like well you don’t have any friends bc you’re annoying and have nothing to offer and then a short time later I got into 1D and I was drawn to Louis right away and it was just his little jokes and pranks and all the little funny quirky performances he would put on outside of 1D back then that just made me realize I wasn’t going to change and I just feel so grateful that he was there to show me that. I also would like to say that I was SEVERELY against Larry shipping all the way until I met Kari and she was only FINALLY taking interest in Louis bc of Larry so I baited her by pretending to be a larrie and then eventually got sucked into it for a short period of time and I remember before that I would follow these two larrie blogs ONLY bc at the time they were the only ones I could find that would talk about Louis!!!! It was like barely anything but i was getting to stay in touch with what’s going on with Louis the whole time and idk this is getting so long and rambly but I’m just trying to say that I have been unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him since 2011, I just had to calm myself down after being here all this time but he is the man of my dreams!!! I had the biggest crush on this guy I worked with at SPEEDWAY back in 2015 only because he had cheekbones and hair like Louis like this has been a continuous pattern in my life for the last 11 years, I’ve just learned to keep it to myself more bc of this one *** mutual who started following me in 2013 and constantly made fun of me for it bc she was a N**** stan and I was just dumb and wanted to impress her bc she had a popular blog BUT NO MORE!!!!!! I’m unleashing the beast finally lol and honestly I don’t have control over it anymore it’s just overflowing out of me CONSTANTLY