#also ive been misdiagnosed as anorexic way before i had ana bc my doctor was dismissing my weight loss and pain as attention seeking lololo

[rigormortisangel]

i feel like my anorexia isnt even about being skinny anymore. im naturally underweight due to medical conditions that make it hard for me to put on weight even if i do eat enough. i mainly do it just to make it seem like its on purpose. my body isnt failing me, i want to be thinner, i need to be frail for the aesthetic or whatever its not out of my control i want this. right? right?