#also ive been listening to power of love and y'all need to love yourself and embrace the goddess that is celine dion

[simone-garnett]

title: i’m your lady, and you are my man word count: 7.9k pairing: killervibe information: it’s officially valentine’s day here in sydney so this for the kv valentine’s day challenge by @killervibedaily. beware, it does get angsty (you’ll never guess who’s single this VD  ;P)

       ffn  ///   ao3

Valentine’s Day this year was unseasonably warm, and yet, Caitlin feels cold. Cold and alone and the feeling claws at her heart, its icy tendrils unfurling in her chest, touching every part of her. The others hadn’t realised, Barry and Iris too wrapped up in each other and their plans for the night to even consider that her words may be a touch too sharp, her smile stretched a little too wide to be natural, her eyes dull and laugh fragile. Sherloque seems to notice, but is quickly distracted by the cubes sent by his ex-wives to follow up on his line of inquiry. And Cisco,

Cisco.

Her gaze flickers to him, lingers as she watches him thrum in excitement and expectation, the man bouncing in his seat, tucking a lock of hair behind his ear as he works on tracking the satellites, seeing if they could find a new lead. Her smile softens into something more genuine, sadness in the curl of her lips, a sigh leaving her at the sight of him, full of life and warmth. A few more hours until the end of the day, until his date with the mystery girl that had captured his heart with an ease Caitlin could only envy, a want for him she could only ever dream he’d reciprocate.

But he wouldn’t, she knows that to be true, and it cripples her heart.

It had started weeks ago, a nervous Cisco coming to her at the end of work. It takes a night out and some ice cream before he ended up spilling his thoughts to her, the pair pausing in the park, Cisco staring at the shimmer of moonlight on the still waters of the lake. Because there was this woman, this amazing, incredible woman who was perfection itself, formed with stars in her eyes and love and kindness in her heart, whose laughter was more precious than diamonds, whose smile was everything he needs in his life.

And Caitlin can’t tear her gaze away from him as he speaks, even as a lump gown in her throat. Because his eyes are alight with fire and passion, his smile soft and delicate. And all she wished was for him to speak of her that way, for him to look like that when he thought of her, when he saw her. But she was too late to an event she had no invitation for, not when she never had the chance to own his heart.

He turns to her then, and she smiles in response, weak and watery, but how could she not? Not when the despondency she was feeling would show so evidently to him, not when she knows his smile would fall, that he’d be quiet and concerned and ask about her feelings and why she felt this way.

And she couldn’t risk that, not when she could feel the words bubble up from inside her soul, ready to pour out at the slightest indication from Cisco that he wanted the truth. The consequences of that, of revealing the truth to him, were so terrifyingly large, that she shouldn’t risk it, even if it would give her the world. Because to have him reject her, for Caitlin to hear those stiff, awkward words tumble out of his mouth, of how he loved her, but not like that, of how she was his best friend, only his best friend, just his best friend… she would crack and the shards would never be able to be put back together. Because he was her everything, and she couldn’t confess, not when it would sabotage their friendship, an added layer between them that she couldn’t handle. Cisco would never intentionally hurt her, but subconsciously he wouldn’t be as close or as open, he wouldn’t touch her as much, or hold her – and she couldn’t lose that, couldn’t lose any part of it.

So she smiles, and he believes her.

Cisco takes her hand in between his, warmth encasing her cold fingertips, and she feels it throughout his body, Caitlin relishing in the touch, craving more of it. She always does when it comes to him.

And she clings to the feeling his touch gives her, grasps it tightly and doesn’t let go, not when he takes a deep breath and confesses he wants to ask the mystery girl out on Valentine’s Day, wanted her for more than just the night, wanted her for the rest of his life if she’d let him.

She hadn’t expected the news to hurt as much as it did. She should have, the pain something she had become familiar with, each new girl Cisco dated another reminder that he would never see her in such a fashion, that she should move on and let him go.

But every hero had their one weakness,

and hers was him.

It aches,

oh, how it aches.

She wants to let go, to clutch at her heart, to let the tears that are burning her eyes fall. Because he was so in love with this woman, more than she had ever seen before, she can see it radiating from him, hear it infused in every word he speaks.

But she can’t, can’t let go of his hand, can’t let go of her fear that speaking those words would destroy everything. And so when he asks, when he pleads, rambling on in a circular manner until he hits the very heart of what he wanted – for her to help plan the most perfect first date on Valentine’s Day – she can heart her heart fall and shatter at the dark, murky depths of her soul, an emptiness where it should still be beating, life draining from her. But she bites it all down and smiles at him.

She says yes.

They have a fortnight to prepare the perfect date for him, Cisco asking her about her own dream date with a fantasy man, anxious and full of nerves, a pen in his hand as he seeks every detail, determined for it to be the perfect date.

It is difficult to avoid, Caitlin telling him that the perfect date should be tailored to the woman in question, and to himself. But he looks at her with large, brown eyes, voice pleading as he seeks some type of guidance. Because this was more than a first date, it was special, and if she could just tell him what she thought was special, he may have a better idea of what his girl would like.

And so she nods, Caitlin closing her eyes, losing herself in the fantasies she’s been building for a year. Her voice feels raw with vulnerability as she tells him about fancy dinner at the new Italian restaurant, but not dessert. How she would drink wine and he would steal sips and she would steal kisses. She tells him about how she would love to have a small picnic underneath the starlight at the park they frequented, how they would just sit in comfortable silence, watching the stars and moon in the sky, how he’d have to choose triple chocolate fudge because she’d taste it on his tongue, how he’d be able to taste her strawberry, how she’d want to melt against him as easily as the ice cream they’d just consumed, how she would like to lie down on the picnic rug beside him and stare at the sky and each other, confessing all their secret dreams and hidden fears, fingers interlaced as they confided in each other.

(she doesn’t tell him that it has to be that park, because that is their park, and ice cream is their thing, and her fantasy date is only there because it’s him, her fantasy date has to come with the perfect fantasy boyfriend and that could only ever be him).

It is only then, once she had told him how she wanted to walk home hand in hand with him, how she’d never want the night to end, that she opens her eyes, her smile wavering as she takes him in.

He’s watching her unblinking, pen hovering over the paper, his eyes black and intense and she feels herself getting lost in them, in him. It feels as though she has handed him her heart, beating and raw, and she waits expectantly, fearfully, for an answer.  And air? What could that possibly mean, what could it to when he was watching her the way he was?

“Cait –“ he starts, voice hoarse, hand reaching out to her. And she backs away, a feeble excuse on her tongue as she slips out of his lab and into the safety of the bathroom, door firmly locked behind her. It is only then can she let oxygen back into her lungs, a shaky inhale and exhale as she braces herself against the wall, Caitlin reminding herself that her fantasies were not his own, that his mystery girl wasn’t her. That she shouldn’t let herself hope when she had tried that so many times before.

It is a few minutes before she feels safe to leave the confines of the bathroom - not safe enough to rejoin Cisco in his lab. He’d see through her façade, especially with it so poorly in place. It takes a few hours for that to happen and, even then, they are so distracted by the new metahuman attacking the city to even focus on matters of the heart.

The next day they are back to usual, Cisco asking her whether flowers or chocolate would be preferable, whether he should go for something simple or lavish. She answers each question robotically, hoping he wouldn’t hear a quiver in her voice, a longing she couldn’t mask. And he is so blind to her pain, but she keeps it locked up, glimpses only showing when he wasn’t near her.

She is tortured by stories of his mystery woman, Cisco lighting up as he showers her in compliments, transported to another world as he lists all her wonderful qualities. And it has Caitlin trying to swallow down her jealousy. Because the woman was incredible and incredible was exactly what Cisco deserved.

If only it could be her.

It’s only made worse by his constant questioning of her own love life, her words from days before triggering something inside him. They must, because it is continuous, Cisco inquiring about whether she had plans, any man in her life that she was going to spend the night with. And the words are like acid on her tongue, burning her insides, even as they come out sweetly, soft laughter and a gentle shake of her head as she tells him the only plans she has that night are a threesome with Ryan Renalds and Sandra Bullock.

It brings a flicker of a frown on his face, and she remembers belatedly that of course he knows her go-to movie when she’s distraught. But, thankfully, they are interrupted before he could press her on the issue, Caitlin tempted to kiss Ralph for waltzing in as he did, completely oblivious to the tension in the room.

The day draws closer and her heart feels heavier, Cisco singing to himself in his labs while he tinkers away on his machines, unaware of how she watches him from the other side of the glass, the shattered remnants of her heart by his feet. Because they had finished planning, Cisco made reservations and ordered flowers. And she no longer had an excuse to neglect her work and focus on him, no excuse to linger in his labs, to stand close to him as she showed him how he should style his hair, to hold his hands as she taught him basic classical dancing moves, in case he were to decide that an intimate dance underneath the moonlight were the right thing to do.

And she’s weak for resting her forehead against his shoulder as they sway together, weak for imagining it could be them, that it could be more than a lesson, but instead her reality.

The dream is shattered when the song on his phone ends, Cisco clearing his throat before releasing her hands, wiping his own against the rough material of denim over his thighs. It leaves her disorientated, Caitlin needing a minute before smiling at him, commending him on how easily he picked up the moves before she rushes out of the lab, collapsing against her seat as she deals with the very real possibility that, in a few days, Cisco would have a girlfriend. A girlfriend who she would have to meet, have to pretend to love, who he would take dancing and to dinner and spend the rest of his life with.

A girlfriend who wouldn’t be her.

When the day finally arrives she wonders how suspicious it would be if she calls in sick.

She doesn’t, of course. Not when her best friends are a speedster, a skilled journalist, and Cisco. Between the three of them Iris would be the first to catch-on to the lie and, with Barry who can and would cross hundreds of miles in a moment for all of them, and doesn’t realise how a door works, she’d be busted before breakfast. Which would mean explaining to them what was wrong. And she couldn’t do that. And if not them than Cisco would press for answers, pouting as she refused, worried eyes and concerned tone as he seeks to find out why she lied about being sick.

He’d cancel his date for her, that she has no doubt of. He’d take care of her and make sure she feels okay even if she wouldn’t tell him the reasons and she couldn’t demand that of him, not when he was so excited and happy to finally go out with the mystery girl.

So she comes into work, bone weary even after sleeping for a full eight hours, her mind sluggish and her heart cold. She distracts herself with work and coffee, losing herself in research and seeking answers that she wasn’t sure she could find.

Barry and Iris leave first, too excited to waste time when crime was so low in the city. Apparently criminals also fall in love. Next Ralph and, surprisingly, Sherloque, the older man rolling his eyes in fond exasperation as the younger one drags him along on his date to surreptitiously watch and advice.

And it leaves just the two of them in STAR Labs.

Cisco leaves his lab the moment they are alone, rolling on a chair to the spot beside her, beaming in joy. It is difficult not to reciprocate, even as it reminds her of everything she is missing out on. “So,” she starts, clearing her throat before continuing, “are you ready for your big date?”

She elbows him in the side, genuine laughter as he yelps in response, a pout on his face as he turns to her betrayed. “Rude.”

“Cisco.” She gives him a look, cracking as he maintains the sad expression on his face, grinning at him until he too gives way.

“I am,” he admits, almost shyly. He ducks his head and she can feel his love in the air, so strong that it was radiating off of him. And she knows she’s lost him, lost any chance of him ever moving on from this mystery woman. She’s lost the chance to be with him and god, the realisation hurts her, squeezes her heart until she isn’t sure if it is beating anymore.

“Well, it’s going to go perfectly,” she offers, a smile on her face even though she’s breaking.

“I hope so.” And there he is, with those eyes, so wide and expressive, sucking her in even deeper. And she can’t, she shouldn’t. She can’t.

She does.

“Well it better,” she jokes, “I planned it after all.”

“Yeah,” and his nerves must be getting the better of her, because he seems less excited, more nervous. “Well, I should probably get ready now,” he says eventually.

“You mean you’re not going in your Star Wars shirt?” The deadpan look he gives her is enough for a laugh, a genuine laugh, to leave her, continuing as he turns away without a word.

He leaves her to change, Cisco slipping into his lab where his suit had been stored for the past few days. And she stays behind, fiddling with her fingers. And she reads the same lines over and over again, words blurring into each other as she tries to update her knowledge, developments in the field of biochemistry something she should most definitely be reading up on. But they don’t make sense, nothing makes sense. She shakes her head, rubs her eyes, but her mind won’t focus on anything but the man only a few feet away, getting dressed for his date.

Caitlin thinks she hears her name, but she must imagine it because why would Cisco be calling her? Still, she jumps off her seat and meanders her way to his lab, pausing at the entrance, Caitlin leaning against the door frame, allowing herself a moment of weakness, gaze drifting over him. And she hopes this girl realises how lucky she is because, damn, he looks fine in the crisp white shirt and suspenders. He runs his fingers through his hair before he starts fiddling with his shirt. And it’s strange, Cisco usually so good with his hands, unable to do simple buttons at the corners of his collar. There is an agitation she can only attribute to nervousness, the latter creating and compounding the frustration he feels.

Caitlin is caught, Cisco looking up, accidentally meeting her gaze. But she can’t look away in embarrassment, even as she feels her cheeks heat up.  And she walks up to him, sees his eyes dark and stormy and they are inches apart, her heart racing in her chest.

She does crack first, focussed intensely on the neck buttons that were left untied, lithe fingers making quick work of the tricky buttons, her hands dropping down to his chest to smoothen the shirt which had gotten crinkled in his attempts to do the button on his own. And it is nice to be so close to him, even if it is friendly and innocent. It is too nice; she can’t bring herself to back away. So she lifts her gaze, eyes tracing the outline of his face, fingers running through his locks, neatening it up for him, tucking the stray lock of hair behind his ear before smiling to herself.

It is then that Caitlin realises that Cisco hadn’t said a word, hadn’t moved an inch. And she shouldn’t, knows she shouldn’t, but she does, gaze flickering to his own. It steals her breath, the intensity of his gaze, and she can’t find it again, can’t even think when he looks at her like that, not when they are so close and he looks so fine and she is so ready to let the words tumble from her lips. She had been holding them back for over a year, and to confess when he was hours away from a date with another woman, and was excited about the date,

it would be cruel.

And so she backs away from him, pink tinging her cheeks as she smiles at him, a fragile smile which she knows could fall and shatter in a moment. “Well, you look perfect,” she offers and she wills him not to ask anything, not when she is close to confessing everything. “Just don’t forget your jacket.”

For a moment he looks like he will, brows knitting together before Cisco opens his mouth. Only to be interrupted by his phone. She thinks he swears in Spanish, Cisco breaking eye contact to pick up the offending object, sighing before he shoves it into his pocket. “I need to pick up the flowers before the store closes,” he explains, almost apologetically. She nods at him. He picks up his jacket, slides his arms through it before adjusting it on his frame. “Don’t spend the night here Cait, go home.” And again, silently, she nods. But it isn’t enough, Cisco taking those few steps towards her, hands on her shoulder, and she can feel it burning against her skin, Caitlin so hyperaware of everything in the moment, his touch, the way his thumb strokes her shoulder absentmindedly, the way each finger presses against her.

“I’m serious Caitlin, go home.”

“I promise Cisco, I’ll shut the computers down and go home.” And he takes a moment, gaze flickering over her face, looking for something she was scared she’d show. But he just nods and lets go, Caitlin craving the contact immediately.

“Alright then, I’m off Cait. Wish me luck!” She offers him two thumbs up, the exuberance of his spirit only seeing to dampen her own, a watery smile on her lips.

“Knock her dead Cisco, she’d be an idiot to not already be in love with you.”

It seems to be the right words to say, his smile widening, Cisco whistling to himself as he exits the labs.

And then she was left alone.

Caitlin doesn’t mean to curl up in on herself and cry, was so sure she’d be able to control the stinging of her eyes, the tell-tale signs of her tears. She had told herself that she simply needed to lie down for a moment, weariness settling into her bones, her body, her mind, her heart all exhausted from the emotional turmoil she was going through. It was only supposed to be a moment, a moment to collect herself, to find all the emotions that had scattered from her control, to quell them and lock them down. She needed the strength before she would go home and indulge herself on some ice cream and her favourite cheesy rom-com.

And her med-bay was so temptingly close, the rest of the lab empty. The bed calls to her and she can’t help but answer, her legs walking there without Caitlin even realising she had moved, the woman toeing off her shoes before sliding onto the bed.

She just needs a moment of rest, but once a single tear escapes her, it becomes a waterfall, pouring from her soul. And her body is wracked with emotion, shaking as she is overcome with emotion. Her sobs are ugly and messy, the sound echoing on the walls of her lab, filling her ears.

It hurts, everything hurts. And it is harsh, the ragged breaths she takes, trying to fill her lungs up with oxygen, the effort needed simply to inhale. It is like a vice on her heart, her lungs, pain emanating from her chest. She feels weak, shaky hands wiping away her tears. But they keep on falling, an untapped water flow.

It had never been like this, she had never been like this. But then, Cisco had never been so in love with the woman before. Sure, he loved Cynthia, but that had been so early in Caitlin’s own feelings she hadn’t felt the devastation of now.

And she thinks maybe it is necessary, therapeutic for her to let all her emotions out now instead of bottling it all up as she had done for the past fortnight, allows her to hopefully have better control tomorrow. Because she knows that Cisco would come into work beaming, knows that he would want to tell her everything about the date, the perfect woman, the perfect night.

Because she was his best friend, and she was so happy for him, so damn happy. Even as it tears her up inside.

Eventually the tears die, but the pain flourishes. She isn’t sure how long she lies there, how long her mind tortures her with visions of Cisco and his girlfriend, the pair laughing over a joke Cisco made, strolling down  the pathway hand in hand, Cisco dropping her off at her apartment late at night, but the pain doesn’t dull.

Caitlin is sure she’s going crazy with the thoughts playing in her mind, so sure she could hear Cisco’s voice in the labs. “Caitlin!” And she can hear heavy footsteps echoing on the floor, becoming louder as they approached her.

And oh, she thinks, not her imagination. It is Cisco.

He pulls her up into a sitting position, gaze frantic as he checks over her, a forceful hand on her chin holding her in place as she tries to duck her face away from his sight, embarrassment causing her to hide her face.

But he doesn’t let her hide herself, not from him.

And so she is blessed with the vision before her; he had ditched the suit jacket and unbuttoned the first few buttons on his shirt, Caitlin drinking in the sight thirstily, Cisco hardly ever revealing his chest like this. His sleeves are rolled up to his elbows and god, if she wasn’t so upset she’d be memorising the sight for future reference.

“What are you doing here?” And if the tearstains didn’t tell him what she had been doing, the thickness of her voice would have done so easily.

“You weren’t home,” he says, as though that should be adequate enough. But at her look he continues, hand shifting from her chin to the side of her head, Cisco stroking her hair. “You weren’t home and you weren’t answering your phone, so I hacked the STAR Labs mainframe. You hadn’t left even though you promised you would leave immediately.” There are hints of accusation in his voice, but it is drowned out by the fear that he was only now letting go of. He shrugs lightly, as though it were nothing when he adds, “I thought something happened.” But she’s not blind, Caitlin can see the tightness in his jaw, can see his adam’s apple bob as he forces the words out. And she knows she must have terrified him with that.

It is though just mentioning it triggers the flood of emotions he had experienced, Cisco turning quickly to her, looking over her in earnest once more. And it with trembling hands he feels her forehead and checks her pulse, fear shining in his eyes as he tries to diagnose just why she was so sad and alone. “I’m okay Cisco.”

She attempts to brush him off, but it is to no avail, Cisco looking at her as though she were crazy. And she thinks she must be, because he was here, with her, and she was encouraging him to be with another woman. But he ignores her, still trembling fingers moving to cup her face, his thumb wiping away the tears that still remained on her face.

And she is weak, too weak, Cisco her kryptonite. Because Caitlin leans into his touch, takes strength from his presence. Her eyelids flutter closed as she just breathes in the moment, commits it to memory as she cherishes every second. Even when she knows it will hurt all the more when he eventually leaves her for his date. She thinks he whispers her name, the sound of it so soft and full of love, and it like a balm to soothe her soul, the pain lessening, if only for this moment, only for him.

When her eyes eventually open, vision clearing to focus just on Cisco. And his eyebrows are pinched and he looks so scared for her. Her heart constructs at the sight and she wants nothing more than to smooth the lines of worry from his forehead, wants to make him feel better. “Caitlin, talk to me.” And his hands drop from her face, Cisco taking her own in between his, squeezing it gently as he urges her to open up to him. And she can’t, she shouldn’t.

She won’t.

“It’s nothing that ice cream and a good movie won’t fix.” It is a weak laugh that follows, and she knows it. But it is the best she can muster when the man beside her holds her heart and doesn’t realise it.

It takes all her strength to pull her hands from his own, a gentle push on his shoulder as she tries to encourage him away. “Caitlin.” And he isn’t treating this as lightly as she wanted, concern etched into his face. He looked pained and he doesn’t budge under the pressure from her hands. He stays beside her.

(Is it too much to ask for him to stay beside her forever?)

“I’m sorry Cisco.” And god, she is the worst friend in the world. His face,

she can barely stand to look at it.

So instead she looks down at her hands, fiddles her fingers together, unable to keep still. “Go enjoy your date, I’ll be fine.” And she sounds it, though she may not look it, her voice steady, a slight inflection at the end the only sign she won’t be as fine as she says.

But it doesn’t matter to him, Cisco scoffing at her words. And instead of pulling away he joins her on the bed in the med-bay, pulling her tight against his chest, Caitlin falling against him easily. And there is a gentle kiss pressed against the crown of her head, a deep rumble she can feel as he says “I won’t leave you Cait, not now, not ever. So get that stupid idea out of your head.”

And she doesn’t mean for the words to come tumbling out, so lost in his proximity and touch, the walls she erected eroding with ease.

“But you will Cisco, you will.”

The confession is soft, delicate. It is strong, mighty, destroying any semblance of carefreeness that she was trying to project. Came out small, but the emotions screams at both of them, Caitlin ducking her head, hair falling, making a curtain between them. But her shield disappears easily, Cisco’s touch light and gentle as he tucks the hair behind her ear, moves the excess over her shoulder. His guidance is tender as he tilts her head back up, turning it toward him.

“What?” He sounds so confused, so hurt by her words. And she regrets it, but she can’t avoid it, can’t lie to him. She never had been able to before.

“You want a wife and family Cisco. You’ve already told me once that you don’t want your powers or STAR Lab. You don’t want me.” And her eyes plead for him to be done with the conversation, but he doesn’t drop it, Cisco shaking his head in disbelief.

“Caitlin that’s insane.”

“It’s not. I mean, you’re already in love with her,” and she can feel the tears re-emerge, pricking at her eyelids, threatening to fall again. “And she’s going to fall in love with you, I mean, who wouldn’t. And then you’ll be serious and get married and have children and you’ve already told me that you want out of being Vibe once, so what’s going to stop you from doing that again. Because you’ll have a wife and kids and I get it, but if you –“ She’s rambling, but she’s been holding this in for so long, a dam breaking inside her, Caitlin lost in the overwhelming current of her feelings.

“Not wanting STAR Labs doesn’t mean I don’t want you in my life Cait. You gotta know that.” He lets out a shaky breath, “and that was so long ago.”

“You think that now, but what happens when you get a new job to support your family. And you’re so busy with it and your kids and your wife and you forget about me? You’re so much of my life Cisco, I don’t know how I’d cope if you weren’t there.”

“You did,” and if she was sharing her insecurities he was also sharing his. “You left when Killer Frost emerged, you got your own life and job and you cut me out completely Cait. Do you know how difficult it was, losing you and Barry together. But Barry didn’t really get a choice – you just left. You left me.”

He sniffs and his eyes shine and god, how did this even happen?

“I almost killed you Cisco! I could barely look at you without feeling guilty.” It is a sharp exclamation, Caitlin desperate for him to understand just how vital he was in her life. She softens, the memories of him coming to her at the bar bringing a gentle smile to her lips. “And life without you, it was awful.”

When he gets up from beside her, her heart gets stuck in her throat, Caitlin almost reaching out for him. But she doesn’t, instead watching him through her lashes.

He kneels before her, takes her hand in his. And she knows she is lost, lost in his gaze, lost in the moment. “Caitlin, please.” And his voice is so hoarse, its roughness rubbing against her, Caitlin shuddering in response. “Please tell me where this is coming from. I can’t help you if I don’t know.”

“I love you.”

They slip out so easily, as though they belonged out in the open, where he could hear it. His breath stutters and he looks up at her in disbelief, eyes wide and shining, jaw hanging open. It is true what they say, that the truth does set one free, because her heart soars with the words. “I love you so much Cisco and helping you plan the perfect date for another woman, seeing you so excited about it, it hurt. It hurt so much knowing it was for someone else, that you could never feel the same for me.” Her voice trembles but she pushes on. “I mean, after Cynthia and Kamilla and the cute engineer from Mercury Labs, why would you settle for me?”

He continues to look at her gob-smacked. And he has lost his voice, Cisco simply watching her silently. And she can feel it, each fragment of her heart fall for every second his silence drags on.

“You – you love me?” His voice cracks at the words, Cisco blinking over and over, as if she would disappear if he closed and opened his eyes. “Do you mean you love me like a friend or you’re in love with me. Because there’s a big distinction between the two and I really need to know.” There is an urgency in his voice but she misses it completely, Caitlin so lost in her own emotional turmoil to catch it.

She also misses how his eyes dim when she slides her hands out of his own, Caitlin tilting her head up as she wipes away a few stray tears. “Everything Cisco, all of it. I love you, I’m in love with you.” A wet laugh leaves her and she can’t meet his eyes. “You’re everything to me, you’re it.”

The shock on Cisco’s face takes her aback and her heart sinks at the sight, a feeling of regret gnawing at her soul.

“I should go.”

And he closes his eyes momentarily, determination flaring in them when he opens them back up, jaw set. “Caitlin Snow, will you please be my Valentine?”

The words cause her to freeze, heart sinking and soaring simultaneously. Because he had spoken the words she had dreamt of for so long, but he doesn’t mean it, doesn’t want her. Not like she wanted, not like she wants him. “You don’t have to do this Cisco, your girl is waiting for you, you shouldn’t be blowing her off like that.”

He huffs, “Cait, I’m serious.”

And she looks down at him, Cisco still on his knees before her, looking up with a sincerity he couldn’t mean.

“I didn’t think you’d tease me like this Cisco. I never thought you’d be that cruel.” It is all she can manage to stutter out before she can’t bear to be in the same room as Cisco any longer. She storms out of the room, the stray tears now becoming more constant, Caitlin wiping them away, a noise of annoyance leaving her as she wipes away fresh tears.

But then she stops,

and she can barely breathe.

Because there, on her desk in the main laboratory, is the most beautiful red dress, flung over it haphazardly, a bouquet of flowers just dropped on the floor. It is a miracle she can move, feet walking to the gifts, knees bending as she picks up the flowers, white roses, she notes, her favourite. There is a note attached to it and she reads it,

and subsequently drops them to the floor, a gasp leaving her mouth, hands lifted up to stifle the sound. Because the note, it was addressed to her. And it is shaky fingers which pick up the dress, so beautiful and stunning and definitely her size. It is though it were designed only for her, so specific to her tastes, to her body.

It drops back on the table and Caitlin is left standing there in the middle of the floor, her mind struggling to compute with this new information. And she feels strong hands settling on her hips, Cisco tugging her close to him. She melts immediately into his embrace, Cisco bending his head, nuzzling into her neck.

And god, it feels amazing.

He spins her around, the worried look on his face melting into a more hopeful one. “I hope you know I’d never tease you about that Cait.” There is an earnestness in his voice, a desperation for her to know it was the truth.

And she feels so lost, like she is lost at sea and drowning in the possibilities that she never thought she’d get swept away in.

“But – but,” and she’s stuttering, but she never thought it could happen, never prepared herself for the chance. “But your girl, she was perfect and I’m – me.” There is a brokenness in her voice, a story of lost love, of tortured love, of a life that one person should not have endure. And Cisco cannot stand it, he never could, not even as he stood in the sidelines, only able to hold her as she fell apart, praying that he could help her.

He leans his forehead against her own, the pair soaking in the moment together. “You are perfect Cait, to me.” He takes a deep inhale, a vulnerability in his voice as he confesses, “you’re it for me too. I can’t imagine a life where you’re not in it. I need you by my side, always Cait.”

“But it doesn’t make any sense. Why did you get me to help with the date? And why did you wait until now to ask?” She stumbles through her questions, heart struggling to catch up to what her mind understood.

He shrugs his shoulders. “I figured the best person to help plan the perfect date was the girl I wanted to ask.”

She smiles, finally smiles, Cisco finally convincing her that it was real, it was happening. And he nudges her nose with his own, eliciting a laugh from Caitlin, Cisco grinning toothily in response, the smile softening as he gazes down at her, Caitlin unable to tear her eyes away from him.

There is a shift on his expression, Cisco suddenly more serious and it worries her. “I’m in love with you too Caitlin, in case you haven’t figured yet. I have been since I first saw you with Hartley and you were able to take him down so sweetly and then be so nice to me in the very same breath. But you were with Ronnie, and then Jay and Julian happened and I – I never thought you’d ever consider me.”

His words take her aback, Caitlin wrapping her arms around his neck, a gentle smile on her face. There is a look of awe in his eyes as she leans in closer, hesitating for a moment before closing the distance. And the moment they connect she melts, Caitlin leaning into Cisco’s frame, raising herself on her toes to be more comfortable. His hands on her hips flex instinctively and she wants more, more of the kiss, more of Cisco, more moments where they can spend together, wrapped up in each other’s embrace. She pulls him down as she moves to rest surefooted on the ground, her lips pressed more firmly against his own as she tries to soak in everything, the way his nose presses against her cheek, the feel of his hair between her fingers as she cradles the back of his head, the electricity that shoots through her when Cisco finds a sliver of skin between her blouse and pencil skirt, his thumb sliding underneath it, the calloused digit rubbing circles against her bare skin.

He pulls away first, Caitlin chasing his mouth, sighing as they reconnect, Cisco grinning against her lips, a strangled groan leaving him as she licks at the seam of his lips, Caitlin deepening the kiss immediately. And she’s known him for so long, so intimately, and it translates easily into the kiss, the pair quickly learning everything about the other, easily drawing out soft moans and quiet whines as they learn the other’s body as intimately as they know their own.

Eventually they do break away, shallow gasps of air as they try and steady themselves and their heartbeats. “That was everything I thought it would be – it was more.” Cisco sighs, “I think I’ve died and gone to heaven.”

Caitlin beams at his words, almost glowing. “Can you believe we could have been doing this for months if we weren’t so scared to say anything?” She laughs the words and her eyes twinkle at the thought.

His gaze darts over her face, as if trying to memorise the way she looks at him. And she wants to blush at the awe on his own, but it dims. “You sure you’re okay with this?” He sounds a little scared.

“Cisco,” she laughs, a quick kiss against the tip of his nose. “I have been dreaming about this moment for so long. I’m more than okay.”

And his thumb sweeps underneath her eyes, traces the line from the corner of her eye and down her cheeks. She knows he is following the trail of tears that stained her face, his expression becoming more sombre as he takes it in, the silvery line a reminder that she had been crying twenty minutes ago.

“I’m sorry I didn’t realise it was hurting you. I swear if I knew I would have asked you out at the beginning instead of all of this.”

“Cisco please, you didn’t know because I didn’t want you to know. I’ve spent ages mastering the art of squashing down feelings, it’s not your fault.” Caitlin pauses, crinkling her nose at a thought before shrugging. “Well it is, but that’s only because you’re so irresistible.”

She accomplishes the task she set out to do, a hearty chuckle leaving Cisco at her words, a smug grin on his face as he lingers in the compliment. And she wishes she could live in this moment forever, his hands a nice weight on her hips as it drops back to where it was resting before, her arms around his neck. They are so close, so intimate, and it feels as though she has finally come home, the feeling of security around her. It is though she is cocooned in love and she wouldn’t have had it happen any other way.

Her finger twirls a lock of his hair, Caitlin smiling, the struggles of the past fortnight nothing compared to the complete euphoria of the past few minutes. And she drops her hand, one anchoring on his shoulder as her right slides down, stopping over his heart, Caitlin relishing in the steady thump beneath her palm. But then Cisco speaks. “We should get going.”

“Hmm,” she responds, still distracted by her thoughts, “yeah we should. My apartment is closer than yours and it’s still too far away. ” It is his laugh that brings her back to this universe, Caitlin refusing to be embarrassed, even as her cheeks darken.

“I meant to the dinner baby, I still have those reservations.”

She stops, head cocked as she scrutinises his face. “I never found out how you got reservations there, and on Valentine’s Day too. It’s been booked out for months.”

The grin that lights his face makes her fall in love with him all over again, Cisco subconsciously swaying them side to side. “I made that booking in November Cait. I always knew you were the one I wanted to ask and that you really wanted to go there.” But then he moves to let go of her, and she can��t have that, not yet. Her grip on him tightens, almost instinctively, and Cisco’s smile shifts into something smug. “Come on Caitlin, we gotta go.”

She pouts at the notion, her alternative far more appealing in the moment. “Do we really need to?” And her hand slides up his neck, hand cupping the back of his head as she brings him back down to her, Caitlin lifting herself on her toes to meet him mid-way. And Cisco knows he should be stronger than this, but kissing Caitlin is something that he could never get used to, never resist. And he gives in to the kiss immediately, hand squeezing her hips, Cisco pulling her closer, barely a hairbreadth between their bodies. And he almost gives in to her completely, because it was Caitlin and she was kissing him and he had dreamt about this for years – the idea of delaying it further for something like restaurant reservations seems ridiculous in the moment, especially when his hands slide up her torso, thumb on the underside of her breasts. It causes her to break the kiss, eyes black as she meets his hesitant gaze. “More,” she rasps, her hand dropping to guide his own to the centre of her chest. “Please Cisco.”

“Caitlin,” he whines, and he sounds tortured.

“Okay fine,” she caves. “Give me a moment to change.” And he grins that grin at her, her grin, the one that she could never resist, not even when she didn’t understand the feelings she harboured for him.

But when he goes to reach for the suit jacket he dropped on the floor, she stops, a hand on his shoulder, Caitlin pulling him back up. “If we’re doing this dinner, you’re going like that.”

There is a spark in his eyes, and she knows that he understood what she was trying to hide perfectly. “But I thought I looked better with the jacket.” Cisco’s the cat that caught the canary, smug and proud and god, she loves him.

So she shrugs casually, a sly smile thrown over her shoulder as she walks away, hands pulling her shirt over her head, Caitlin just in her bra and pencil skirt. There is a litany of swearing from behind her, both English and Spanish as she bends to pick up the dress and flowers. “That –“ she finally says, a casualness which flies in the face of the tension that was crackling between them, the atmosphere sparking with it. “That was when I thought you were taking someone else.”

[luminous-shifting-vibes]

*sequel* to actual fucking quotes from the shiftblr coffeehouse discord server

once again, it's out of context because x1000 funnier

also x1000 longer than previous post

"ur satan is gnc af"

"Bestie I’m already having gender envy over a fucking demon please"

"O_O ODEPIJHFbavevisdpvfhzdcnjawedsidjksjdkoeirjfmkdsoeirujdksodifjndmksoidfjdksidfj ITS" NOT IN MY FRAFTS IS SPEDNT 1 hour PN THAT SHIT"

"AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

"ohoho sexy"

"I am very proud of myself"

"himbo x edgy fuck"

"YOU COULD SQUISH HES CHEECKS"

"he has teefs"

"SQUASH"

"good for biting 📷"

"he's a himbo basically"

"B͂̒̄iͫ̍̈tͧ̓ͯè̄̇"

"bifth"

"i havent watched blue exorcist in years but mr okumura my beloved </3"

"MY LIFE QUESTIONS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED"

"is it important information to mention that the person i put up for my turn is the son of satan" "I know like 1 thing about everyone who isnt ranboo lmfao"

"crimes"

"tumblr sexyman"

"idk why but my first thought was cowboy onceler"

"I vibe with him but he is very long and twisty"

"steampunk e-girl"

"steampunk tumblr sexyman"

"Canonically bi crimelord I agree!!"

"OOO FRIEND SHAPED"

"ARTIST SIGHTED"

"they look like someone i would want to be friends with but is way cooler than me so i'd never actually talk to them"

"babby..... would die for him"

"honestly i probably kin him"

"i'm sure he's lovely but he looks way too much like my ex i'm sorry-"

"i'd be down for another rotation! i have another twink to show y'all"

"Also :00 blonde friend"

"Let us all infodhmo"

"Hsjagdvbs shhh im on phone"

"Nix woukd you like to joon?

"skitters away"

"I have two braincells and they both drink dumb bitch juice"

"oof wait whats the order again i have 0 memory"

"i want to bond with him over cosplay-"

"Awkwardly watches in band kid"

"One day I'm gonna a broadway star"

"which isnt to say they were bad. they were just fortnite dancing during rehersals"

"I threw it so hard my glasses flew off and slid under the stage right divider"

"anyway heres my boi"

"emo"

"haha emo"

"virgil sanders kinnie"

"he looks like he listens to my chemical panic at the fallout boy"

"Bro I bet he'd kick my ass with his deck"

"bird man my beloved"

"fuck i had so much to say and then i forgot it all"

"Birds!!"

"guiguhuh"

"crabrave"

"She sounds like someone I would end up stealing her personality"

"yess name collector gang"

"alias glass aiden haven absinthe fish brick rice"

"But I have Cypress, Remure, Genesis, Lemres, and Comet"

"And she's named after a mars candy bar bc alien"

"Hey, if plato went by plato, you can be king thief"

"im not dissing my gramma like that shfojd"

"My dad has seven legal names" "bitches be like *looks at fictional character* *steals their name* it's us we're bithces"

"coraline lowkey traumatized me but i adore it regardless"

"mmmmmm magic man :]"

"°0° green man"

"criminal (affectionate)"

"he would shoplift a candy bar from walmart and then brag to all of his friends about the sick stealing he did"

"despite the fact he's canonically been capable of overpowering a minor deity"

"i would commit so many crimes for him"

"Very babey"

"Yes please tell green man he is very pog"

"he also keeps a lot of dumb secrets"

"but I will sorely miss the chaos and energy of this here chat until I wake again" (by request XD)

"i just say words and if they're funny then they're funny"

"* or extremly chaotic either works"

"at this point we are just taking turns rambling"

"oH--"

"bc my brain has a schedule"

"Hopefully they have gyoza there or I will lose my mind"

"hehe yes spooky man"

"my ghost glucose guardian"

"the head of the undead group that lives there, and we end up dating. (yes I date a ghost, no I will not be taking constructive criticism /lh)"

"ghosts r just inherently sexy"

"i mean im becoming a squid thing so"

"Raven quirk raven quirk!!"

"ł â m p"

"łæmp"

"mothman: ooh lamp you look very nice today! do you come here often? mothman: wait shit no"

"I'd date a ghost"

"mine is still accurate, i am still sobbing (/j)"

"p e e p e e"

""@nick wilde is a tumblr sexyman" is the best thing i have ever seen"

"im sorry im cackling like a dying hyena"

"you're all 12 year olds"

"PEENIE"

"He once caused global warming on accident so he could get a tan"

"god, what a himbo. i love him"

"that reminds me of my friends kin assigned me jesus"

"Man outside of battle be like: princely crying but then in battle hes like: "CATACLYSM! DISASTER! DEVASTATION!" Chill out man"

"Every time I talk about satan it never fails to shock people it's my favorite thing to do"

"im kin assigning him roman sanders" ""Oh yeah he caused global warming because he wanted to get girls" "he what""

"oh damn i forgot satan was straight"

"twink appreciation club"

"give us the twinks"

"my first thought was bottom-"

"so many people to try and get his dad to love him"

"daddy issued"

"OH MY GOD ITS WILBUR"

"Big boy but"

"anyways janus is swagggg"

"........................."

"gib twink"

"give twink then i will share"

"holds him gentle like hamburger"

"This dumb bitch opened a book that said "do not open" and got possessed by a little bastard"

"he is. fragile creachur"

"klug is beauty klug is grace i would let him step on my face"

"If I'm playing swap and I have to hear one more "Pwanet Powew" Im gonna lose it"

"Who is to blame? Pandora or the box?"

"Bakugo isnt my type but I respect the drip"

"i say like my type isnt long-haired pretty boys and girls that look so gnc that people have a history of confusing them for men"

"hes a gremlin and i can appreciate a pretty gremlin"

"that is to say i am attracted to VFlower vocaloid. This is a confession."

"note i am a lesbian"

"You may like Schezo wegey"

"why does he have one single expression"

"soul soul eater passes the vibe check"

"magic wand"

"I Want To Hold His Hand"

"i would commit a war crime for him any war crime idc which one"

"my favorite one is when he sounded rlly gay because he said "Muscular bodies keep me satisfied""

"p e a n u t"

"Klug is a homophobic homosexual its just facts"

"grug from the croods is peak male performance"

"jaw drops to floor, eyes pop out of sockets accompanied by trumpets, heart beats out of chest, awooga awooga sound effect, pulls chain on train whistle that has appeared next to head as steam blows out, slams fists on table, rattling any plates, bowls or silverware, whistles loudly, fireworks shoot from top of head, pants loudly as tongue hangs out of mouth, wipes comically large bead of sweat from forehead, clears throat, straightens tie, combs hair Ahem, you look very lovely."

"tag yourself im the fireworks shooting from the top of the head"

"i like essays"

"central time gang"

"11:11 pog-" (wait... is that a suprise angel number?? yes it is lovelies just for you <3)

"Then again im also a dumbass bitch who wonders what the souls in soul eater taste like. SERIOUSLY THOUGH. THEY LOOK TASTY AS HELL!!!! LIKE GODDAMN BRO YOU'RE MAKING ME FUCKING HUNGRY. Like. that shit- it's Bone Apple motherfucking Teeth. hell yea my guy. Im hongy now.... shlorp I'm seriously considering this. Like. They seem kinda like a liquid? But a solid? Are they like jello? The fuck they taste like my guy???? I keep imagining they're like sour, like sour candy maybe? Or do they taste salty? Sweet? Maybe some combo of two? Do they even have a taste or is it about the texture? The sensation? God my mouth is watering what the hell. I am starving. I think I need to go get a cookie. I'm gonna go get a cookie. Brb. I'm better. I'm still craving souls though. Which is a weird-ass cringey thing to say but I'm being dead-ass rn. They just.... look tasty???? And I wanna eat one. Thus. I am shifting to Soul Eater for the express purpose of satisfying my fucking cravings. enjoy"

"points were made"

"jello? more like helloooo schloooAHFJDSDAIDWNALDHSJKDAIDANDM"

"WAIT I THINK I HAVE AN ANIME GIRL BITING VIDEO TOO"

"anime girl voice: mmm! mm... ahhhhmp!! mmm, mmm... aaahmp!"

"i think it sounds great i'm going to start eating like that"

"several people are typing"

"do these look edible to you"

"forbidden gummies"

"when I was on lsd I couldn't eat my fruit gummies because I thought they were alive because they had little faces on them"

"oh shit yeah don't do drugs"

"anyways general consensus is puyos are edible, ty for your input everyone"

"everypony is a word so powerful it can bring nations to its knees"

"pls the self control it's taking me not to say "hewwo everypony" in gen chat when someone new joins-"

"hewwo evewrypony uwu deaw cewestia i hopwe it doewsnt wain owo"

"ive cooked up a sowution wiwth the knowwege ive acwued. they say a kitcwen time saves niwne, but im just savwing two. Ive gathewwed the inwedients to make a time sowbet. Thewe's hawdly woom fow seconds when the seconds mewt away."

"I had a ten year old sister... you know what happened to her??? very sad, very tragic... she turned eleven....."

"NIIICE"

"Guts dont say the secks word :( /j"

"watch your fucking language in front of the president"

"im so sorry lumi"

"i think you're like ehhhh 8/10 funny"

"now me???? 10/10. Hilarious"

"sometimes i have to take a step back and remember that this is the same guts i follow on tumblr /lh"

""ok every here's some good shifting advice!!! uwu have a good day" "yeah i did lsd and ate fruit gummies""

"i have one setting and it's whatever this is"

"my bitch ass cat just pushed the door open with his fuzzy face and now my sleeping dad is being lulled into dreams by Cosmo Sheldrake's 'Pliocine'."

"me on discord: nick wilde"

"me on tumblr: shifting water! haha funne! me on here: my hermit crabs are cannibals also i want to eat souls."

"im sorry yOUR VIBESA RE JUST SO DIFFERNT"

"u give off older cousin ive never spoken to but always admire at the family gatherings vibes"

"what the fuck"

"BC I HAVE LIBERTU"

"If you adopt me then yes"

"am I qualified for dad jokes???"

"we're all a lot smarter on tumblr"

"I'm like "awww... sweet... sweet little shiftlings... posting such sweet shiftling content... so pure, so wholesome... does not even know abcs....""

"can't think before you speak if you never think B)"

"I'm not responsible enough to be a mom"

"cat pet"

"show us pictures of the cat or i will do Crime"

"maybe thats me being a coward tho"

"MOTH!!!! MOTH MY BELOVED"

if y'all want I can make this a series bc shiftblr keeps giving me more content

[survivorathena-motunui]

Ep. 6: Send Help to 123 Internet Street Pleathe ~ Jay

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Excuse my French but fuck Ashley 

Alex was blindsided and is now the first member of the jury. I was not expecting that. But now we're merged and officially on jury! Ive got Ashley on my side, Kevin on my side, hopefully LA on my side, and hopefully Drew as well. I'll have some explaining to do to Drew about why Alex was voted out (should be easy enough). I still have my idol, thank god. Now to just power my way through the merge. I can do this. I'll stab everyone in the back if I have to. 

The peak of this game will probably be me naming the merge tribe. It's all downhill from here for me. I'm super glad LA survived because I didn't want a Taranaki to go home and out of the two over there I definitely didn't want her to go home. I think/hope this sets up things good for me. We have 4 OG Taranaki's, and even if Keegan strays away we have a core 3 in an alliance together. Then we have JD with us, and then Drew wants to work with us, and then we also can probably work with our swap tribe together since Jack will probably just follow whoever gets to him. That makes our options between...2 people. Ashley and Steven. I don't have much to go on, but seeing how Ashley flipped it that makes her seem untrustworthy. Steven is fresh off of a blindside so he's probably looking for allies, and I can be that for him. Of course, and I know I say this like every round, there's the possibility of voting for Drew... But I don't think I'll be in danger this round. I don't think I'm a threat to anyone but I'm still in a good position to carry myself farther into the game. But there's no doubt that someone's gonna shake the game up sooner than later. 

OMG! Thank GOD!! First off I am so happy that LA is still in it and I am sooooooooo happy that Alex is gone. I was actually trying to think of who I would get together to vote him out, I think we could have done it but it's nice not to have to worry about it. If I were Drew though, I would be feeling a little worried. Who are left: Ashley LA Drew Kevin Jack Steven Jay B Keegan Me Out of that group I am working with.... LA, Kevin, Jay, Ashley, Drew, Jack and Steven... Yikes. I mean my final four right no is still Me, LA, Kevin and Jay and Ashley for the final 5 I guess. I'd like to see Drew or Keegan going home next, preferred Drew too I think so long as Ashley is okay with it. I'm not sure if she wants to leave that whole group but since she voted Alex I think so. And me and LA tell her that we have a f3 with her then I can see her sticking with the chicks. Anyway, bless Alex but glad you're gone <3 I'm sure it wont be that last game I see him in though~~

im scared and confused and being held hostage by amanda pls help i just wanted to win

I can't believe that worked. I was content just going for Steven and saving myself but Alex just blew me off after going to him and said he think he had his group. Like this is survivor, don't tell people you're good, you lie and hear people out. Thankfully, his cockiness saved me and Ashley was willing to make a big move. Now I'm in an alliance with her and JD along with Charlotte's Angels still. I shouldn't have to worry too much, but that was only the first blindside.

Omg! I forgot about Steve! Steve is left too!!  >.< I think I'm almost disappointed that it's not a lip syncing challenge. Just because I've been playing this song for like.... Hours now but this is better I think, less embarrassment anyway XD ________________________________________________________________ I don't think I really have anything to say sayyyyy.... The guy I like got a hair cut?? Ummmmm bought new shoes...... Ummmmm don't think I did too well at the challenge but I'm trying to get my alliance and Ashley to spill where we have been looking to narrow it down, assuming someone didn't already find it Annnnd assuming Amanda actually put another one in. I guess we'll see. 

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Amanda: confess... Confess.... Confess... Confess... Me:

Listen up, kids. Children. Infants. This is Athena Second Chances. This is your time to come back to prove yourself, and show that you've learned how to play,  and you're not going to make the same mistakes you once did. You're better than all that now, right? Well for all your learning and going back out into the world to grow, you missed out on a rather important lesson. There are two things you NEVER give me: an enemy and a cause. So thank you, Ashley and Keegan, but especially Ashley. I may not win this season. But now, neither of you will either. You write Alex's name down, you die. It's literally that simple. Amanda would have put it on the rules page for me but we really thought y'all would be smart enough to pick up on it, but oh well. LA, babe, I see you too, but like do I really? Have you done anything besides search for Maui? Eh whatever, you can go too. Steven, you're aces, you're good people, I'm having you at my wedding and my FTC. I was barely here for this season, but you know what? I think I'm gonna start playing now.

Amanda Me after reading Drew's latest confessional 

So I just got back from a weekend away with my boyf and I'm just catching up on the game tea, but the biggest thing is that Drew messaged me to say he wants to gut Keegan and Ashley, which is pretty much my dream in this game. He also said he wanted to go for LA which I don't want to do, but he's given me a couple rounds to worry about flipping on my alliance. I don't want JD and LA to stay in the game together too long, so stay tuned.

Whew. Time for thoughts on what's happened. So I searched today and got my final stamp. Of course, someone else already has the idol. Out of the people in my alliance, I could definitely see LA getting the Rainbow Idol, because in Taveuni she went pretty quickly through the stamps. Outside of my alliance... Well, definitely not Jack. He wandered through the reef like a bull in a china shop. I could see Drew doing well. Steven, nah. It's a low possibility. And then for Ashley and Keegan, I don't know much about them so I have no idea. Sooo, yeah, that's out of the window. My best bet is to just ask for the Rainbow Idol after every tribal and hope that the person who had it was blindsided? Not the best strategy but it'll have to do. So I went to my alliance and told them someone has the Rainbow Idol. Unless one of them's a snake this is new information to them. now my alliance is going to collab on the Rainbow Reef, fun times. And after we decided to do this I realized I forgot I could keep searching after I found a stamp, so then I do that. And then I find an idol. Unfortunately the puzzle was ugly because half of it was sorting different shades of grey like what the fuck. Now if I were a true teammate I would tell my alliance it's there and then we could still have it in our power. But I don't know about thaaaaat. Because there's still one more day to get the idol, so I'm gonna take another chance. If I fail...I might not tell them still, it'll depend on my mood. ALSO, the latest news in the anti-Drew-even-though-we're-allies show: he comes to me and he's like "I hate Keegan" and I'm like "why" and he's like "he killed Alex" and I'm like "who the hell is Alex" And basically he wants vengeance for this "Alex" person and I'm like that sounds nice but I like Keegan. If they butt heads this tribal...uh, yikes. I don't know who I would choose. So...yeah! ________________________________________________________________ Of all people to win immunity... Sigh. I don't think I want Keegan to go. But who do I want to go? Well, Drew's out. And Keegan's out, which leaves 6 people. And then there's my alliance, which gets rid of half of them. And why would I want to get rid of Jack? So...Steven versus Ashley. The obvious choice is Ashley, but that's for me... Hm. ________________________________________________________________ I FOUND AN IDOL BITCHES!!! KELLEY WENTWORTH SHOOK. RUSSELL HANTZ SHOOK. BITCH IM SHOOK TOO WTF. Whew. So. This will probably be useful. I don't think I'll need it right now, and I'd like to hang onto it for as long as I can anyway so. Also...Drew officially has the Rainbow Idol. Of course. Sigh. But...he apparently trusts me, bc he suggested an alliance of me Jay and Steven. I think we can use this alliance to make him feel even more comfortable. Now that I know he has the Rainbow Idol I want him gone ASAP, and maybe (if we do everything right) we can do that next round. This is plan is tentative, and it relies on three people not winning immunity. Basically since he wants LA and JD out we can ~split the votes between them~ and then Jay and I can flip and get rid of Drew. Buuut again, it's tentative, and it's best not to plan too far ahead right now. But if I do send Drew home I can get my hands on the Rainbow Idol (maybe (if i'm quick enough idk)) and then I'll have two idols??? God I'm most certainly gonna fuck up but that's okay it's the effort that counts

I'll open by saying that I love LA and JD a lot. I really enjoy them both and think they're wonderful people, but as players? I HATE WORKING WITH THEM. SO MUCH. They're both relatively inexperienced players, especially when compared to me and Kevin, but they both have this 'I know exactly what I'm doing' attitude that makes me want to fucking SCREECH. I know Keegan and Ashley. I've known them longer than JD and LA have been playing ORGs. They're dangerous players. They're not going to work with me. Keeping them in so that JD and LA are comfortable means that I'm going to repeat my placement from FVF5, tbh. I don't like being strong armed by players who know a lot less about strategy than me. And I've watched JD play first hand as a host. I know how overthinking and crackedt she gets. I can't work with that. Drew suggested that we could go for LA. And I'm. Considering. That. ________________________________________________________________ Okay another update! Drew has the rainbow idol, he says it functions as a topaz idol and he had to choose between a bunch of idols with different powers. I might believe it I'm not sure. Basically I need to choose if Drew is going to beat my meat shied or if JDLA (wish they had a better pair name since they're literally one person) is going to be my meat shield. I think Drew is a better meat shield because he's more powerful. I don't want to be on his bad side. I don't want to be on anyone's bad side. On top of everything, Kevin has an idol. So the two of us are trying to figure out what kind of thing we want to do. No matter where we vote, we're choosing a side and making enemies.

Oh my God i HATE this round. I would try to recount the countless scenarios I've gone over, but quite honestly I can't remember. As of now, here's the current tea and plan: I told Jay about my idol. Jay and I are kinda in the middle, and it seems like we're like the only people not on anyone's radars. Legends only, or something. I had this crazy plan that involves giving my idol to Steven and fake flipping on Steven just so we could comfortably take out Drew next round? Yeah I don't even know. It seems like there's no way to vote someone out without leaving one side mad. So, it seems like the best course of action is taking out LA. This does a few things: it weakens JD, who's now duoless but also has less connections, and it also (probably) weakens Keegan and Ashley who I think are aligned with LA (probably)? I don't really know. Keegan and Ashley might be harder to work with since they're not close with Jay or anything. But... I don't know. Fuck! There's still...7 hours left to think. God I hope this works.

Okay so I guess Drew is a little snake and targeting me because I voted out Alex. Jokes on you Drew, I'm not going home. Pick your battles better next time. Like I have a hidden immunity idol, and then I've presumably got JD, LA, Jay, Ashley and maybe even Kevin on my side, that's 6-3. You ain't winning this battle Drew. We could have had something but you threw it away to be petty and vengeful 

Apparently JD and LA are a pair, and so are Ashley and Keegan, and those 2 duos are either voting me or Steven, so Me/Steven/Drew/Kevin/Jay are voting LA and I hope it works bcuz I DONT wanna get 9th again.

Apparently Drew wants to get back at me, Ashley and Keegan for voting out Alex. And he has the idol. At least this is what I'm hearing. I don't know if I trust Jay or Kevin, they really wanted Keegan gone which seems stupid to me but I guess there is bad blood there. But at the same time when we started Kevin, Keegan and I were in an alliance so why the sudden flip on him? I'm worried Drew is going to flip Jay or Kevin and either blindside me or JD or just vote out Keegan anyways. 

O.M.G why was it so hard to see! I would put 5 bucks on it, Kevin is working with drew. I would also bet that the yellow stone idol thing drew told jay was also bull, I think he's just using it as a way to scare people into not voting him. I will not be bullied! Not that drew isn't a nice guy, it's just the way he plays like an ass... Or at least when  your not on his side cus I never noticed this before. 

Anyway, me, la, Keegan, Ashley, Kevin and jay are supposed to be voting for Steven and from what I know, drew, jack and Steven are meant to be voting for Keegan. So if it all works out then we will have the numbers and it should all work. Next round we work it out so that drew goes home next round. I think we can do it and I haven't told anyone that I have the idol yet ether so if we can use it to take them him out and that's all I need it for. Me and Lori can decide who we want to go with after that but if we do go with Keegan and Ashley, assuming everything works out the way I want it to, if we do work with it  them then we need to make a long term plan because we are all so busy. I can't say I'm comfortable enough in this game not to play the idol but I don't want to waist it and then be able to use it later. I don't know, we'll see.

Being the swing vote sucks dick. Legitimately Jay and I have been talking over like every possible scenario and basically just running in circles because of this vote. But we're voting Steven. I think. Because betraying Steven only pisses off Drew (and Jack but like), while betraying LA pisses off JD, Ashley, and Keegan. That's 3 people, and 3 is more than 1 (or 1 and a half if you count Jack). I think we're gonna tell Jack shit got messy (which is true) and we pushed for Steven instead of him and it got switched last minute. And since we know Drew has the Topaz Idol that'll be easier to work around. I think. I don't think we should tell the others about it bc they'll get paranoid that they'll be voted out. I think (think is a common word in a lot of my recent confessionals bc lately I don't know shit) that we can make Drew vote for Keegan? But all of my expectations and predictions have been blown out of the water in the snap of a second so who knows Also, JD and LA, I was wrong when I called you Walmart and Dollar Store Charlotte's. No version of Charlotte would treat me like this :,(

I'm playing a lot of games with a lot of people right now. Kevin and I are definitely together forever after this vote because it's been BATSHIT. We're trying to figure out a way to vote wherein everybody will still be willing to work with us next round. I'm going to Drew to see if I could get him to play his magic idol to save Steven and send LA home, which would be ideal because I could vote with the majority and still have Drew in my pocket. I'm dying. Send help to 123 Internet Street pleathe

Apparently Ashley wants an alliance with me Jay and Keegan??? Like girl ily and you're super sweet but also girl what the fuck??? I'm already stressing out over managing two alliances, three will be the death of me. Popularity is such a curse. On a side note, if we did enter that alliance the only person we wouldn't be in an alliance with would be Jack. This is hilarious and also horrible.

Okay yall so I think Drew hates Keegan and I cuz like we got one of his homies out.... And that's terrifying. And maybe letting JD have her main love LA was a bad move... But like now I am in an alliance chat with JD and LA and I am trying not to fuck myslef over in the process. Tonight Steven is supposed to go home but Drew wants Keegan out. AND Drew has the Rainbow Idol! He could easily just play it on Steven and get Keegan or I out! I am shakin in my britches. But like now I am tryinggto get Jay to want an alliance with Keegan, Kevin and I.... Wish me luck

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TOP PERFORMANT AND UPCOMING ARTISTS IN 237 MUSIC INDUSTRY

Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians to look out for

Thank you and all who have been reading our previous write-ups. We really appreciate and want to tell y'all that your complaints have been taken care of. Your well-being is our pride. Due to the fact that we love y'all and on behalf of the hustle in the music industry, we decided to present today's top performant and Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians making our country proud. WHO ARE PERFOMANT AND UPCOMING CAMEROONIAN MUSICIANS? When we talk of performant and upcoming acts, we refer to those artists who have the following qualities: I. Artists who know what they are doing. They're conscious of the positive and negative consequences of music and still love music. Music is their life; they can't deal without it. II. Artists who are ready to sacrifice everything for their career. When we talk of sacrifices here, we mean the time, energy, finances, likewise personal comfort for their career. III. They're also the disciplined type! They make it for their concerts on time, find themselves at the right place at the right time,  and for the right reasons. IV. Lovable and caring people. They love their fans, due to this, they do their best to sing good songs for their fans. V. Last but not the least, they have a perfect mastery of their songs, lyrics, style and beats just to name a few. The industry only need such level of dedications from artists to grow to greater heights! Permit us to present to Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians have examined, listened to their songs and carry out some basic personality test. These Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians meet all the criteria we have cited above and some of them possess even more qualities that make them stand out. Presentation of Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians In no particular order, we present to you these dynamic Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians, they are rated same, all talented and gifted in their respective domains: Meet Ndishangong Bertrand Seintie AKA SEIN MONTY

Sein Monty is a young Cameroonian singer and song writer who can literally sing hiphop, R'n'B, Afro, trap, pop, and reggae. Due to his love for music and a certain girl, he decided to sing the song BANG BANG to express himself to this secret girl. He expresses himself fully, portraying his emotions in a perfect blend of rhythm and mastery of notes

likewise pitch. For every good music lover, Sein Monty represents the bang in a club banger. 

Sein Monty Started singing in the Choir when he was a toddler and back in the days when he was in the boarding school, he had this great passion for the instruments: Drums, xylophone, piano etc. Sein is in Music because it makes him happy and gives him Joy! With such a passion and talent, we can only conclude he will for sure be among the big names in the months ahead. Sein is supposed to have graduated from the National Polytechnic in Bambui with a BSC in food science and technology, but thanks to the civil disobedience in the country, his education as well that of millions of other Cameroonians have been halted. Sein sees Stanley Enow as a role model. Sein envisage himself to be among great Cameroonian artists putting the nation's flag on international musical map One can't be satisfied if the person hasn't watched this Sein's song Bang Bang. It makes lovers fall in love again for real. Just click below and see for yourself

Meet Agbor Daniel AKA  AGBOR D The Sharp Boy   Agbor-D will be representing Cameroon in the DJ C5 African cypher. This cypher is one of the biggest upcoming cypher around the African continent, powered by the Zambian prolific DJ_C5 as he releases a genuine beat one of it kind though still maintaining the hip hop tune, brought forth to dope African talented Rappers.

Five African Rappers representing Five different African countries while the remaining two

representing Zambia. Agbor-D one of Cameroonian best upcoming Rapper, best known for his street anthem "YATIMER-MANOR" was chosen by DJ C_5 to drop bars in this cypher after he listened to YATIMER-MANOR. "Yatimer" literately means "tell me" and "Manor" means, "Brother" Agbor D started singing way back in 2011 but did his first recording in 2013. He disclosed to us that, he didn't choose Music, but music chose him and this can be vividly seen in his mastery and command on his hard flow. This Young Prolific Rapper has three songs on his YouTube Channel plus 2 other songs that ended up in the streets which he didn't deem necessary to publish on his YouTube Channel. In his own words, he said; I don't think I have a role model in Cameroon industry but I admire people like Stanley Enow, Magasco,etc. I will like a Collabo with Locko though... :lol: Within the next three years I see my self,touring round the country,killing shows back and back, dropping the Cameroon flag on other African counties! :oops: Agbor D is still a student at the University of  Yaoundé 1, Studying Biosciences, Animal Biology to be precise! List of Artists  ready to prove their prowess in the upcoming  DJ C5 African cypher: Agbor-D , Bromeo , Chichi khoopa , Superior , Mawesh , Future Dosty , Dream Gee The rapper to emerge the winner of the cypher will be representing Africa on the DJ C5 INTERNATIONAL CYPHER to be organised out of Africa. We can only wish Agbor D luck at this stage:-P Have your feel of Agbor D's latest Single, "YATIMER MANOR" - TELL ME, BROTHER. Meet "July": July Jey and July Walez These duo are outstandingly talented and couldn't be excluded from this list of upcoming Artists to look up for. Two distinct persons who have combined to the artistic brand known as July. They started music in 2015 and they chose music because of the passion of it. They have 3 songs and 2 official videos to their credit: "Skido", "Soulevez" and for "Your Mind" The "July" see Stanley Enow as a role model, but will prefer a collabo with Magasco! 3 years from now, they will equally want to be an inspiration to other upcoming artists and wish they as well can be looked upon as role models. They both have Bachelor's degree in SMS GEO and in Biochem. One can't talk about performant and Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians without talking about July. They have a lot to offer our society and are willing to do so with no regrets. watch their latest Video below:

Meet: A. Abit Abigail AKA "Dyonce Raps" She embraced music as a profession 3 years ago (2014) and to her, music is all about the passion and deep connection. There's this in-depth connection between Dyonce and her lyrics. She's actually hard to the core and we think all she

needs is the right promotion and PR services to hammer big in this our virgin industry. Her flow are not to be

compared to Askia and Tilla who can barely relate with the locals via Pidgin English. Our girl Dyonce can relate with the locals by equally singing in local parlance and jargon and at the same time, she can easily build an international fan base as she got that Nicki Minaj kind of flavour.    You can easily feel what I am saying by listening to "Tuk Dem By Surprise" and "EVOLUTION"!   We asked her of Kamer artists she gets inspired by and in her own words, she said: I've got a lot of people in mind! I basically look up to those who are fierce and passionate about what they do, Stanley Enow for example. Dyonce yearns and looks forward to a collabo with  Ko-c.   We equally asked her about what the future holds for her 3 years from now and she had this to say:   You really can't tell what the future will look like, but hopefully 3 years from now, I'd have progressed musically. Taking one step at a time. 

  Dyonce is an "ABE" student at her 6 level pursuing a career in human resource management.   Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians Meet Wantang Kingsly Achidi AKA PK_237 Lots of Fans look at this Afro-pop upcoming artist as the Tuface of Cameroon, he found his musical voice when he was in form 2 and he chose music because it easily came to him --that's to say--music chose him just like Agbor D. He feels music is his calling and it's the only thing he can passionately do with the best of his abilities and capabilities. PK_237 is also a song writer who have actually written so many songs over the years and succeeded in recording a few of them. So far so good, he has recorded a total of 5 professional songs, but not in a haste to release them...His management is taking their time and has officially released just one of the 5 songs, "Love me". PK_237 sees and look up to Magasco and Mr. Leo as role models and sources of inspiration in Kamer music industry and he will appreciate a collabo with Mr. Leo more. In his own words:   In three years i see myself being one of the best artist Afro RnB, Afro-Pop and soul artist in Cameroon and being nominated for the best new upcoming artist in AMA award in Africa   PK_237 is a final year student at the University of Buea studying computer engineering. Have your feel of his official single below Meet Enow Gilchrist Tabi AKA Gchrist Another prolific upcoming artist who got into the Kamer musical scene in 2011, but could only get professional in 2016 with the release of his first official single, "I don enter" He also declared, he got into music because of the passion of it, started by singing other artist's music and then decided to start doing his own and right now, he can boast of 2 official songs. He sees Stanley Enow as a role model in Kamer music industry and will equally want a collabo with him. This guy raps like he owns rap itself. He's such a performant artist that just his name amazes people. He's a music lover. No matter how he has been discouraged he keeps up, just pushing just trying to be successful. His two official songs are " I don enter" and "Bouger"  He knows what is music.  Watch his latest song below:  

Meet Fondzenyuy Nyanchi Leonel AKA Scofield Scofield is another prolific singer, we discovered him in the "Story Building Cypher Hosted By Vanillaboi" where he dished out the fire in his baby voice. Scofield can switch genres like he owns them: RnB, Rap, Pop, makossa etc. He started singing way back in his secondary school days when he was in ", but he only started recording his own

songs some 4 years ago. Music to Scofield Aka Baby Voice is a universal language, the best way he can communicate to the world in different languages, at various levels and through his mind blowing music, he won't fail to express himself to the rest of the world. Babby voice got over 10 already produced and mastered songs, but waiting for the right time and opportunity to get them across to his audiences! These 10 songs do not include his collabos and Cypher though and right now, we are anticipating the release of his first official single "DOPE GIRL". Dope girl got plenty of Nyanchi Vibes and y'all gonna enjoy and appreciate this chaps guy! Scofield sees Locko as a role model, but at the moment, he will prefer a collabo with Tzy Panchak because he believes they vibrate at the same frequency and can produce almost the same wave length and pitch. We asked him what the future holds for him 3 years from now and in his own words, he said: In the next 3 years , I see my self emanating a global Impact with my music, just like wizkid is celebrated today. Scofield is a 3rd-year student studying agricultural and environmental engineering and even-though he spits a

Miltonian kind of flows, he's been a science inclined student all through his days in school.     Enjoy Baby Voice in the Cypher Below: Meet Suilaka Bernard Clancy AKA "Benny Clancy the Wolf"

Benny Clancy discovered his talent in music when he was barely 9, thanks to his mom who used t ear picked him whenever she went for her choir practices! In the process, Benny found his musical self and thence developed an immerse love for music. Benny started writing his own songs as early as 15 when he realised he got a musical call. Benny got lots of breath taking lyrics to his credit and he's grateful and thankful for being in the right team made up of like minded individuals who are bend on achieving their dreams on any musical stage worldwide. Benny is yet to release his first official single, but he has featured and collaborated in a couple of songs including the much acclaimed, "What I've become" by Young Holiday! The sensationalist already made a name for himself with just the Cyphers and collabos, just imagine what would happen when his own song finally hit the market. :lol:  not to worry, you won't be waiting for too long as you're about to be taken aback by a musical hurricane well pressurized by the Vanilla boyz. We asked Benny why he chose music and he had this to say: I didn't chose music, I was chosen... by music. I was endowed with the talent and inspired with a purpose of bringing people together through my art. I sing because i have to. Nothing moves people like music and nothing can change lives like "good music" We also asked him about his role model in Kamer musical industry: I Admire Lots Of Artists, For Lots Of Different Reasons, Lyrical Content And Power, Melody, Style Of Delivery, Attitude..Like I Said Many Different Reasons, But Personally I Don't Believe Anybody, Especially An Artist, Should Keep His/Her Self Under The Shadow Of A Human Being. By Default An Artist Should Be Unique And Sing What He/she Feels And Not What Someone Else Feels. Worst Of All, To Be Like Someone Else. I Respect Many Artist But I.. Am My Only Role Model In Music. I Like Pascal

Tho, I Strongly Relate To His Words. I Admire His Music A lot. I'd Love To Sing More And More Songs With, Young Holiday. I've Never Come Across An Artist That Hard, U Know, Musically Speaking.. Lol. Not Just That, But His Message Is Ideal And Inspiring..Like Wolf's... I Hope To Make Full Use Of It In My Music. I Sing For everybody, Every Race And Religion, And Background.. We also asked him where he sees himself 3 years from now and he said: I See My Self In The Next Three Years Successfully Breaking My Chains And Entertaining On A Global Platform. But Then Again God's Time Is Best. No Hurry... No Regrets We asked him about his educational status:

I Just Recently Graduated From The University with a degree in management and entrepreneurship And I'm Contemplating Something More. I Belong To The Middle Class, But Frankly, It Feels Below Average Most Of The Time. Lol :lol:  Enjoy Benny Clancy in the freestyle Below  Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians We are finally at the end of this list of Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians to look out for. The King of them all is the team mate of Benny Clancy... Meet Eta Coletem Emmanuel EJob AKA Young Holiday Hahahhaha, lol..I just d laf :lol:  Young holiday is the god sent by Biggy Smalls and 2pac to prove to Cameroonians how vacant the rap

throne has been in the 'dustry. Genetically speaking, rap is embedded in his DNA code! Any loyal CB reader is suppose to know Young Holiday to the tips of his finger cos of the tons of articles we have already written about him. to those who know little or nothing about this rap saint, click on the articles below to read about him exclusively and don't forget to anticipate his upcoming single, "My Music Mu Love) - MMML     In the nutshell, we want to thank all those who read this till the end. Your happiness is our pride thus from the above analysis one can clearly see that the aforementioned artists are very performant and gradually becoming the unbecoming in the Cameroon music likewise world wide industry. Thanks and enjoy What I've become below: Click to Post

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TOP PERFORMANT AND UPCOMING ARTISTS IN 237 MUSIC INDUSTRY

Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians to look out for

Thank you and all who have been reading our previous write-ups. We really appreciate and want to tell y'all that your complaints have been taken care of. Your well-being is our pride. Due to the fact that we love y'all and on behalf of the hustle in the music industry, we decided to present today's top performant and Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians making our country proud. WHO ARE PERFOMANT AND UPCOMING CAMEROONIAN MUSICIANS? When we talk of performant and upcoming acts, we refer to those artists who have the following qualities: I. Artists who know what they are doing. They're conscious of the positive and negative consequences of music and still love music. Music is their life; they can't deal without it. II. Artists who are ready to sacrifice everything for their career. When we talk of sacrifices here, we mean the time, energy, finances, likewise personal comfort for their career. III. They're also the disciplined type! They make it for their concerts on time, find themselves at the right place at the right time,  and for the right reasons. IV. Lovable and caring people. They love their fans, due to this, they do their best to sing good songs for their fans. V. Last but not the least, they have a perfect mastery of their songs, lyrics, style and beats just to name a few. The industry only need such level of dedications from artists to grow to greater heights! Permit us to present to Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians have examined, listened to their songs and carry out some basic personality test. These Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians meet all the criteria we have cited above and some of them possess even more qualities that make them stand out. Presentation of Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians In no particular order, we present to you these dynamic Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians, they are rated same, all talented and gifted in their respective domains: Meet Ndishangong Bertrand Seintie AKA SEIN MONTY

Sein Monty is a young Cameroonian singer and song writer who can literally sing hiphop, R'n'B, Afro, trap, pop, and reggae. Due to his love for music and a certain girl, he decided to sing the song BANG BANG to express himself to this secret girl. He expresses himself fully, portraying his emotions in a perfect blend of rhythm and mastery of notes

likewise pitch. For every good music lover, Sein Monty represents the bang in a club banger. 

Sein Monty Started singing in the Choir when he was a toddler and back in the days when he was in the boarding school, he had this great passion for the instruments: Drums, xylophone, piano etc. Sein is in Music because it makes him happy and gives him Joy! With such a passion and talent, we can only conclude he will for sure be among the big names in the months ahead. Sein is supposed to have graduated from the National Polytechnic in Bambui with a BSC in food science and technology, but thanks to the civil disobedience in the country, his education as well that of millions of other Cameroonians have been halted. Sein sees Stanley Enow as a role model. Sein envisage himself to be among great Cameroonian artists putting the nation's flag on international musical map One can't be satisfied if the person hasn't watched this Sein's song Bang Bang. It makes lovers fall in love again for real. Just click below and see for yourself

Meet Agbor Daniel AKA  AGBOR D The Sharp Boy   Agbor-D will be representing Cameroon in the DJ C5 African cypher. This cypher is one of the biggest upcoming cypher around the African continent, powered by the Zambian prolific DJ_C5 as he releases a genuine beat one of it kind though still maintaining the hip hop tune, brought forth to dope African talented Rappers.

Five African Rappers representing Five different African countries while the remaining two

representing Zambia. Agbor-D one of Cameroonian best upcoming Rapper, best known for his street anthem "YATIMER-MANOR" was chosen by DJ C_5 to drop bars in this cypher after he listened to YATIMER-MANOR. "Yatimer" literately means "tell me" and "Manor" means, "Brother" Agbor D started singing way back in 2011 but did his first recording in 2013. He disclosed to us that, he didn't choose Music, but music chose him and this can be vividly seen in his mastery and command on his hard flow. This Young Prolific Rapper has three songs on his YouTube Channel plus 2 other songs that ended up in the streets which he didn't deem necessary to publish on his YouTube Channel. In his own words, he said; I don't think I have a role model in Cameroon industry but I admire people like Stanley Enow, Magasco,etc. I will like a Collabo with Locko though... :lol: Within the next three years I see my self,touring round the country,killing shows back and back, dropping the Cameroon flag on other African counties! :oops: Agbor D is still a student at the University of  Yaoundé 1, Studying Biosciences, Animal Biology to be precise! List of Artists  ready to prove their prowess in the upcoming  DJ C5 African cypher: Agbor-D , Bromeo , Chichi khoopa , Superior , Mawesh , Future Dosty , Dream Gee The rapper to emerge the winner of the cypher will be representing Africa on the DJ C5 INTERNATIONAL CYPHER to be organised out of Africa. We can only wish Agbor D luck at this stage:-P Have your feel of Agbor D's latest Single, "YATIMER MANOR" - TELL ME, BROTHER. Meet "July": July Jey and July Walez These duo are outstandingly talented and couldn't be excluded from this list of upcoming Artists to look up for. Two distinct persons who have combined to the artistic brand known as July. They started music in 2015 and they chose music because of the passion of it. They have 3 songs and 2 official videos to their credit: "Skido", "Soulevez" and for "Your Mind" The "July" see Stanley Enow as a role model, but will prefer a collabo with Magasco! 3 years from now, they will equally want to be an inspiration to other upcoming artists and wish they as well can be looked upon as role models. They both have Bachelor's degree in SMS GEO and in Biochem. One can't talk about performant and Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians without talking about July. They have a lot to offer our society and are willing to do so with no regrets. watch their latest Video below:

Meet: A. Abit Abigail AKA "Dyonce Raps" She embraced music as a profession 3 years ago (2014) and to her, music is all about the passion and deep connection. There's this in-depth connection between Dyonce and her lyrics. She's actually hard to the core and we think all she

needs is the right promotion and PR services to hammer big in this our virgin industry. Her flow are not to be

compared to Askia and Tilla who can barely relate with the locals via Pidgin English. Our girl Dyonce can relate with the locals by equally singing in local parlance and jargon and at the same time, she can easily build an international fan base as she got that Nicki Minaj kind of flavour.    You can easily feel what I am saying by listening to "Tuk Dem By Surprise" and "EVOLUTION"!   We asked her of Kamer artists she gets inspired by and in her own words, she said: I've got a lot of people in mind! I basically look up to those who are fierce and passionate about what they do, Stanley Enow for example. Dyonce yearns and looks forward to a collabo with  Ko-c.   We equally asked her about what the future holds for her 3 years from now and she had this to say:   You really can't tell what the future will look like, but hopefully 3 years from now, I'd have progressed musically. Taking one step at a time. 

  Dyonce is an "ABE" student at her 6 level pursuing a career in human resource management.   Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians Meet Wantang Kingsly Achidi AKA PK_237 Lots of Fans look at this Afro-pop upcoming artist as the Tuface of Cameroon, he found his musical voice when he was in form 2 and he chose music because it easily came to him --that's to say--music chose him just like Agbor D. He feels music is his calling and it's the only thing he can passionately do with the best of his abilities and capabilities. PK_237 is also a song writer who have actually written so many songs over the years and succeeded in recording a few of them. So far so good, he has recorded a total of 5 professional songs, but not in a haste to release them...His management is taking their time and has officially released just one of the 5 songs, "Love me". PK_237 sees and look up to Magasco and Mr. Leo as role models and sources of inspiration in Kamer music industry and he will appreciate a collabo with Mr. Leo more. In his own words:   In three years i see myself being one of the best artist Afro RnB, Afro-Pop and soul artist in Cameroon and being nominated for the best new upcoming artist in AMA award in Africa   PK_237 is a final year student at the University of Buea studying computer engineering. Have your feel of his official single below Meet Enow Gilchrist Tabi AKA Gchrist Another prolific upcoming artist who got into the Kamer musical scene in 2011, but could only get professional in 2016 with the release of his first official single, "I don enter" He also declared, he got into music because of the passion of it, started by singing other artist's music and then decided to start doing his own and right now, he can boast of 2 official songs. He sees Stanley Enow as a role model in Kamer music industry and will equally want a collabo with him. This guy raps like he owns rap itself. He's such a performant artist that just his name amazes people. He's a music lover. No matter how he has been discouraged he keeps up, just pushing just trying to be successful. His two official songs are " I don enter" and "Bouger"  He knows what is music.  Watch his latest song below:  

Meet Fondzenyuy Nyanchi Leonel AKA Scofield Scofield is another prolific singer, we discovered him in the "Story Building Cypher Hosted By Vanillaboi" where he dished out the fire in his baby voice. Scofield can switch genres like he owns them: RnB, Rap, Pop, makossa etc. He started singing way back in his secondary school days when he was in ", but he only started recording his own

songs some 4 years ago. Music to Scofield Aka Baby Voice is a universal language, the best way he can communicate to the world in different languages, at various levels and through his mind blowing music, he won't fail to express himself to the rest of the world. Babby voice got over 10 already produced and mastered songs, but waiting for the right time and opportunity to get them across to his audiences! These 10 songs do not include his collabos and Cypher though and right now, we are anticipating the release of his first official single "DOPE GIRL". Dope girl got plenty of Nyanchi Vibes and y'all gonna enjoy and appreciate this chaps guy! Scofield sees Locko as a role model, but at the moment, he will prefer a collabo with Tzy Panchak because he believes they vibrate at the same frequency and can produce almost the same wave length and pitch. We asked him what the future holds for him 3 years from now and in his own words, he said: In the next 3 years , I see my self emanating a global Impact with my music, just like wizkid is celebrated today. Scofield is a 3rd-year student studying agricultural and environmental engineering and even-though he spits a

Miltonian kind of flows, he's been a science inclined student all through his days in school.     Enjoy Baby Voice in the Cypher Below: Meet Suilaka Bernard Clancy AKA "Benny Clancy the Wolf"

Benny Clancy discovered his talent in music when he was barely 9, thanks to his mom who used t ear picked him whenever she went for her choir practices! In the process, Benny found his musical self and thence developed an immerse love for music. Benny started writing his own songs as early as 15 when he realised he got a musical call. Benny got lots of breath taking lyrics to his credit and he's grateful and thankful for being in the right team made up of like minded individuals who are bend on achieving their dreams on any musical stage worldwide. Benny is yet to release his first official single, but he has featured and collaborated in a couple of songs including the much acclaimed, "What I've become" by Young Holiday! The sensationalist already made a name for himself with just the Cyphers and collabos, just imagine what would happen when his own song finally hit the market. :lol:  not to worry, you won't be waiting for too long as you're about to be taken aback by a musical hurricane well pressurized by the Vanilla boyz. We asked Benny why he chose music and he had this to say: I didn't chose music, I was chosen... by music. I was endowed with the talent and inspired with a purpose of bringing people together through my art. I sing because i have to. Nothing moves people like music and nothing can change lives like "good music" We also asked him about his role model in Kamer musical industry: I Admire Lots Of Artists, For Lots Of Different Reasons, Lyrical Content And Power, Melody, Style Of Delivery, Attitude..Like I Said Many Different Reasons, But Personally I Don't Believe Anybody, Especially An Artist, Should Keep His/Her Self Under The Shadow Of A Human Being. By Default An Artist Should Be Unique And Sing What He/she Feels And Not What Someone Else Feels. Worst Of All, To Be Like Someone Else. I Respect Many Artist But I.. Am My Only Role Model In Music. I Like Pascal

Tho, I Strongly Relate To His Words. I Admire His Music A lot. I'd Love To Sing More And More Songs With, Young Holiday. I've Never Come Across An Artist That Hard, U Know, Musically Speaking.. Lol. Not Just That, But His Message Is Ideal And Inspiring..Like Wolf's... I Hope To Make Full Use Of It In My Music. I Sing For everybody, Every Race And Religion, And Background.. We also asked him where he sees himself 3 years from now and he said: I See My Self In The Next Three Years Successfully Breaking My Chains And Entertaining On A Global Platform. But Then Again God's Time Is Best. No Hurry... No Regrets We asked him about his educational status:

I Just Recently Graduated From The University with a degree in management and entrepreneurship And I'm Contemplating Something More. I Belong To The Middle Class, But Frankly, It Feels Below Average Most Of The Time. Lol :lol:  Enjoy Benny Clancy in the freestyle Below  Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians We are finally at the end of this list of Upcoming Cameroonian Musicians to look out for. The King of them all is the team mate of Benny Clancy... Meet Eta Coletem Emmanuel EJob AKA Young Holiday Hahahhaha, lol..I just d laf :lol:  Young holiday is the god sent by Biggy Smalls and 2pac to prove to Cameroonians how vacant the rap

throne has been in the 'dustry. Genetically speaking, rap is embedded in his DNA code! Any loyal CB reader is suppose to know Young Holiday to the tips of his finger cos of the tons of articles we have already written about him. to those who know little or nothing about this rap saint, click on the articles below to read about him exclusively and don't forget to anticipate his upcoming single, "My Music Mu Love) - MMML     In the nutshell, we want to thank all those who read this till the end. Your happiness is our pride thus from the above analysis one can clearly see that the aforementioned artists are very performant and gradually becoming the unbecoming in the Cameroon music likewise world wide industry. Thanks and enjoy What I've become below: Click to Post