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numbuh · 1 year ago

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Do you think the decommissioning squad has a way to make sure people don’t just. Write down somewhere that they were in the KND

great question! i think, even if an operative did that, they wouldn't understand it? like, if you just wrote "you were in the knd. you were numbuh [#]" it would read like gibberish. in operation end, the way post-decom numbuhs 2 to 5 reacted to nigel claiming they were kids next door was disastrous. even if you wrote a long, elaborate explanation of what the knd is/does and claimed they wiped your memories... would you believe it? would you leave some kind of evidence to convince yourself?

if yes, what would you do with that information? the memories aren't coming back. you can't interact with your old sector/knd friends because it's not allowed. if there's no other evidence, you'd have to rely on what little your parents and other friends knew to confirm you were really an operative. you don't even remember how to fight (sure, maybe some reflex stuff or only if provoked a certain way, ie. numbuh 4 punching chad right in the face) so it'd be setting yourself up for failure/missing a life you can't get back to. snooping around for secrets or trying to play rogue tnd (without even knowing about it) will only put you and other operatives at risk.

on the other hand, it could backfire from the very start: you believe it, but you don't care. you're a teenager now. why should you care? those little kids fighting supervillains aren't your problem. the squad may consider that outcome more often than not because that's how it's supposed to be. being indifferent or cynical about kids and just living your life as if nothing happened. you also might join the evil teens despite any indifference. that, and you betrayed the knd by purposely writing down all that info for your post-decom self to begin with. what if someone else finds it? if you're quiet about it, no one has to find out. good or bad.

regardless, i feel there would be some sort of effort to get rid of knd stuff at home before getting decommissioned. maybe it's another honesty/loyalty thing and you would hand over all your 2x4 tech and such to your sector leader the night before (if you're not the leader, that is)... traitors would hide things and lie that they've given everything they've got. majority of stuff should be in the treehouse anyway. or maybe the squad checks the house when they bring the operative back (or while someone else brings them back, like 5 did for maurice,) which is really jarring if they're aware of it. these weird kids are going through their stuff LOL. most parents would be oblivious. the squad could miss anything hidden super well like a paper. they're not there to waste time looking through every nook and cranny of your home unless it's urgent, if they go through it at all. certain things can stay. anything with your numbuh on it that's not gear will just look like a random favorite number after decom. really depends on what you think: would they even bother to check houses for things like that? is it the standard or is it just something they do at random/when an operative is suspicious or important?

i have the belief that it's surprisingly easy to become a fugitive and stay one for a short while— as long as you know what you're doing. most kids wouldn't have the idea to pull wires out of a g.o.g.e.t.t.e.r. (in space no less??) or chad's idea to attach his mp3 player to the speaker in one to cause a crash, even if those were both arguably reckless examples (nigel was 100% correct that he and chad could've died.) i would imagine that mayyybe some things get overlooked by 86 and the squad and, in retrospect, really shouldn't have been. things that might get them an earful from their supreme leader later.

#anon #asks #knd #codename kids next door #kids next door #transmission.txt #decom talk #long post #queue #i'm aware any incompetence or general oversight we see from the squad is mostly due to like #when it's relevant to sector v and their experiences cuz that's what the show focuses on. meanwhile #operation forget gave us a number of over 175 traitors that got captured by the now former squad lieutenant within the span of 3 years #it's unknown how many fugitives were still on the run after 3 years but the number has to be incredibly small i would think. on average #most runners do not have that much luck and most operatives are so loyal that the possibility of fugitives is pretty low

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lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar · 1 month ago

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Hello there!

I just noticed you reblogging the post with asks... I'm asking about whole 50 of them and since the 50th one is "free ask" then this is my free ask:

How did it happen that you stumbled upon Russ Ballard?

I want each sweet detail, write an essay!

P. S. - If you're uncomfortable with any question that is on the list, feel free to skip it 💜

dshkjsd OKAY HERE WE GOOOOO

1 .Do you have freckles?

i do! they're not super noticeable anymore, but i do. i think they're most noticeable on my shoulders than on my face because the ones on my face seem to have faded a lot over time. they used to look kind of sprinkled over my nose and under/around my eyes, but i still have a few that have stayed a bit dark, like i've always had one stay pretty much the same underneath my left eyebrow, between my eyebrow and my eye. i've always liked that one.

2. Do you drink tea or coffee? How do you take it?

i love both! tea, i usually have just without anything else in it but sometimes i'll want some sort of sweetener depending on the tea and how i feel. coffee, i usually have cream and/or sugar. i'm not picky though i'll drink it without anything or with any amounts of either sugar or cream. i've never really tried any of the fancy flavored kinds of coffee you can get at coffee places like starbucks or whatever. i don't think there are any places like that around here anyway. i did quit drinking coffee last year, but i've picked it back up again this year, but i'm trying to limit it so i don't feel 100% incapacitated without it(i get REALLY BAD caffeine withdrawal headaches). i might quit drinking it all together again. i'm undecided.

3. What was the last song you listened to?

like. actually listened to, or listened to in my head because of being stuck in my head? in my head, i've been listening to resurrection by russ ballard. last song i actually listened to i think was the newest new york groove.

4. Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?

sometimes i lay on my stomach for a bit before i sleep, but i can't actually sleep that way, so i eventually go to one of my sides or my back so i can sleep. and from there, i am always flopping back and forth from side to side all night like a fish out of water

5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

i don't, i don't really have any i could do that with and i think it would just remind me of having my old dog near me, which tends to flood me with memories and being sad. but i do like stuffed animals. they would be fun to collect i think.

6. Do you prefer drawing or writing?

i haven't really done a lot of either of those things, but i think they'd both be fun to do. i might lean a bit more towards writing, though probably not like fictional stories, i'd like to write down my memories of my life and make a kind of "my life story" type of thing one day. i feel like it would be good for me to air it all out somewhere. i just have to figure out how i want to start it and how i'm gonna piece the memories together if i don't know when anything was. i also used to try writing a bit when i was a teenager, i remember trying to write song lyrics without being able to put music to it, but i'd just write my own things in the way most song lyrics would normally look. i was afraid of anybody seeing them and bullying me over it though, so i'd burn them after writing and then i just stopped all together.

7. What’s your ideal number of blankets to sleep with?

all of them. as many blankets as possible. no but i think i have like 3 that i sleep under, one is a knitted one that i made.

8. What’s your favorite band/artist?

RUSS BALLAAAAAAARD RUSS BALLARD RUSS BALLARD RUSS BALLARD RUSS BALLARD RUSS BALLARD RUSS BALLARD

9. When is your birthday?

on the secret day of my birth

10. How tall are you?

THINKING 5'4' or 5'5' i'm not 100% sure which but i think 5'5

11. What color are your eyes?

blue! with bits of brown in the middle

12. Who are five (or more) people you want to hug right now?

russ ballard, russ ballard, russ ballard, russ ballard, and russ ballard. but honestly the only things that come to mind is either everybody, or russ ballard. or both. everybody and russ ballard. my past self also. i think i could have used one.

13. Fears?

most of my fears are related to socializing or doing the wrong thing or not knowing what to do in certain situations. also the way i barely know anybody in person, i'm always afraid of the few people close to me dying somehow, which that in itself would be horrible anyway, but also i fear being left to fend for myself in a world i've never known how to live in and was never prepared to live in. in fact, i was raised specifically to not live in this world. i don't know what world i was supposed to be living in, but it wasn't this one. whatever world my dad had imagined in his head, i suppose. it's really hard to fix that.

14. What’s your favorite color?

purple! but i do love all colors

15. What’s your favorite season?

i think spring because everything's new. the leaves are new. baby animals are being born out in the wild. grass is just coming up, flowers start coming out, everything starts waking up. the sun feels new, the warmth feels new. everything feels new and it makes me feel very free in so many ways, including not having to bundle up to go outside, like in winter. and winter lasts WAY too long, but it kind of makes spring feel that much better. it makes me feel like i can be new again too

16. Want any tattoos? What of?

i've never been a tattoo kind of person to get one myself, but i love other people's tattoos. my favorite ones are the ones with meaning behind them, like "this represents this and that" and like the whole art thing of it and they can just have it ON them. forever. i love thinking of ideas for tattoos too, or like i guess it could just be art like on paper or something, but it feels more impactful if i imagine it as a tattoo meant to be with you for life. i'm always like "i wouldn't actually get a tattoo, but if i did, [insert tattoo idea here]"

17. Want any piercings? Where?

no piercings, i've never really wanted any. my grandma once offered to bring me to get my ears pierced, but i didn't want to. it felt like just another thing to take care of. also at the time, it probably would have got infected because my living conditions were NOT suitable for literally anything.

18. Who is the last person you texted?

my mom (i don't even have the ability to text on my phone, i'm just going by the last person i messaged through an app of any kind)

19. Do you have a best friend? How long have you been friends?

well. my boyfriend has probably been my only friend(in person at least) for the last 10 years, so him.

20. What/who do you miss?

my old dog

21. How was your day today?

it's good so far! sun is shining, i got to have an orange today, i get to stare at the most recent gif of russ that i made. it seems good. hopefully it continues being good.

22. How much sleep did you get last night?

all of it. i usually sleep pretty well all throughout the night, which i'm always grateful for. (i did stay up later than i'd like to, my sleep schedule has been a bit off lately)

23. Do you believe in aliens?

not the kind of aliens you see in tv shows or things like that, but i couldn't rule out that there's more things out there, i mean. we can't really explore the entirety of space, we haven't even explored the entirety of our own planet. there could be some sort of organisms out there somewhere that would be considered alien to us. but also i know next to nothing about space or anything related to it. but i think just 100% denying that there is anything anywhere besides earth is kind of like.. how would i know? i wouldn't. it rarely enters my mind, i don't believe or disbelieve.

24. When was the last time you cried? Why?

i think a few days ago. i can't really remember the exact reason, but i cry about my life a lot these days(no longer locking feelings in a jar) so like it was probably something like that

25. What’s your favorite decade?

for music and fashion, the 1970's. for everything else, i don't know, everything seems messed up in every decade, just in different ways. or sometimes the same ways.

26. What are some seemingly childish things you like?

some things that COOOULD be seen as childish by some, i like games. video games, board games, card games, things like that. sometimes i have fun playing with kids toys when i get an opportunity to. if i had legos i would probably have fun with those again. i love playing in the sand at the beach. i would absolutely love if i could have one of those shallow kid pools in my yard. i like picture books where i don't have to read much. i like coloring in coloring books and making everything as colorful as possible. whenever i walk to the park, i always go to the swings because swings are fun. maybe i could think of more, but that's all my brain has at the moment

27. What’s your favorite book? Or just one you’ve read a few times?

i don't think i really have one? maybe the old fish book i've had since i was little. i mean it was for the whole family but nobody else wanted it later on i guess, so i took it with me when i moved. it just has art of all sorts of different fish and information about them. i remember looking at it ALL the time. i kind of wish i had my favorite childhood book of nursery rhymes too actually. i can't even remember what it was called, but i used to bring that around with me all the time annoying everybody by repeating the same rhymes over and over when i was a kid

28. How are you, really?

i am REALLY doing better. a lot better. i'm doing good in the way that i'm making noticeable progress, but i still feel like i can't say i'm GOOD. i have good days, but like, i'm not good. good is still a long way off. but i'm going in the right direction and that's a good thing. thinking about it as objectively as i can, i'm better than i would have expected to be.

29. Does it take you a long time to make decisions?

this is a very vague question. it depends on what the decision i'm making is. sometimes i make decisions pretty quickly, but sometimes there'll be something where i'm like "if i do this, then this will happen. but i do this other thing, then that will happen. but also if this happens then that. and if that happens, then this" and i just feel stuck between "this would be good, but that would be bad. but if i do the other thing, this different thing will be good and then this other bad thing will happen" and it becomes a "what would you rather" kind of deal which can be hard to get through. especially since i've never really been one to make decisions in my life, everything's always been up to somebody else. so that's another thing i've been trying to work on(with the help of my boyfriend, because sometimes he will just not give an opinion even if i ask what i should do, because he wants some decisions to be entirely up to me because i do need that, for confidence building i think)

30. What are you looking forward to in the near future?

THE NEWWWWWWWWWWWW RUSS BALLARD ALBUMMMMMMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS NEW ALBUMS NEW ALBUMS NEW ALBUMS, THEY WILL BE INSIDE OF MY HOUSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEE AND THERE WILL BE A NEW TOUR I'M SO EXCITEDDDDDDDD

31. What are you looking forward to in the distant future?

hopefully more NEWWW ALBUMMMMMMMMMMSSS, i would not be shocked if he already has ideas for the next one(s) or already has something in progress, like. i know he said he has so many thoughts on different albums he wanted to make. but anyway. OKAY distant future. i look forward to making more progress on myself and years later being able to look back on TODAY and thinking "wow, look at where i was back then and now look at where i am. one small step at a time really does get you there"

32. If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?

iiiii want to go where russ will be. the thing he's doing on the 10th. i want to be there. i know the question says "right now" but what i'm saying is, i want it to be the 10th right now and i want to be at that location.

33. Do you sleep with your door open or closed?

closed, i. i don't like the door open?? i wouldn't. that would feel too. open. i need to be safe in an enclosed space. also it gets warmer in my room with the door closed.

34. What’s your favorite flower?

i think lilies. but i like so many flowers. it's just that my old dog was named lily and every time i'd see a lily flower, i would think of her and i still do.

35. Do you currently have a squish?

i do not, but i would looove to squish russ ballard's face (gently)

36. Do you like your middle name?

yes i do

37. Do you prefer dogs or cats?

i love both, but i've always felt more connected to dogs. i understand them more, i think.

38. Do you have any phobias?

besides my social stuff? i've always had a fear of pregnancy.

39. Do you stay up late?

i try not to, but lately i've been staying up later than i'd like. it started with waking up later than i'd like and not wanting to get out of bed, but then i started not realizing what time it is at night because i haven't been tired until later. then i look at the time and i'm like "omg why am i not tired yet". i think the seasons changing is messing me up, and probably some other stuff in my head.

40. Do you like the beach? Do you prefer it sunny or cloudy?

i LOVE the beach and i love it sunny but not TOO hot. like just hot enough for swimming. or if not swimming, just enough to be able to be comfortably outside in a t-shirt and shorts or something. but also too much bright sun will give me headaches or eye strain or something so like. i need some good sunglasses.

41. What’s your favorite cartoon?

i don't think i have a favorite cartoon.

42. Tag 5 of your favorite blogs

i wish russ had a blo- nevermind i didn't say that. nobody heard anything. the universe did not hear/read that and will not make that a reality. NOPE HE WILL NEVER WITNESS ME BEING INSANE ABOUT HIM EVERY DAY(honestly i think he would love to see this probably). anyway. i have too many favorites.

43. Do you have siblings? How many?

i have two brothers and two sisters and i am the youngest

44. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?

my boyfriend

45. Is there anyone you would die for?

i'm not sure because it would be easy to say i would right now while i'm in no danger, but if something actually happened, i couldn't say some sort of panicked survival instincts wouldn't kick in. things can change unexpectedly when they become a reality.

46. What do you need when you’re sad?

it depends what i'm sad about. sometimes i get sad from whatever loneliness suddenly attacks me, which, in that case, i always feel like i need somebody to have some kind of connection with and somebody i'm not afraid to talk to. but then i AM always afraid to talk to anybody because of my own brain. (it's much better now than it was before but there's still some fears and hesitation). sometimes i get sad about my life and either i need some space to myself to just feel things, or sometimes i feel like i need to just dump all of it out somewhere and feel seen and understood or whatever, but i wouldn't want to do that to somebody. music makes me feel understood a lot of the time, so that's what i cling to. but even then i'll be like "somebody needs to hear this with me so i can point out how it makes me feel understood so that they also understand". this one has come right back to loneliness actually, i'll stop now because i feel like everything's going to just lead back to that.

47. Have you memorized your phone number?

yes

48. Who’s someone you can trust with your life?

russ ballard, i would trust him with my life any day

49. What does your last text say?

MY last one, or the last one i received? it was just my mom saying she's picking me up and me acknowledging it yesterday

50. Wild Card. (pasting your question here:) How did it happen that you stumbled upon Russ Ballard?

MY WOOOONDERFUL FRIENDDDDDDD @burn-on-the-flame IS TO BLAME FOR MY RUSS INSANITYYYY(in the best way, i love her💜)

wait let me make some coffee first before i start

[putting coffee going, starting my russ playlist on shuffle but first with the new god gave rock and roll to you]

[about 10 minutes later, a single cup of coffee made, cast the spirit now shuffled on]

OKAY. i'll probably go off the rails a bit gushing about him and what he's done to me(again). but here's basically how it went

november of 2023, my beautiful friend sends me a video

of this concert

i became super intrigued by that man with the beautiful voice and guitar with holes in it and the bright colorful shirt and sunglasses and something about his stage presence that gave me feelings i haven't felt before. and i could kind of SEE and feel his love for music like immediately, which is always one of my favorite things ever.

me still being obsessed with badfinger at the time, i think i just watched that video the one time at first and figured it can be something to come back to in the future, which i knew i would at some point.

days go by, i am thinking of him. weeks go by, i am thinking of him. months go by, i am thinking of him. i watched it a couple more times. the badfinger thing was fading off a bit because i was running out of videos to gif(i still love them forever). i can't remember if i changed my url to a relatable lyric from one of badfinger's songs before or after this(which was on new years day of 2024), but i felt like i NEEDED to gif that argent video and listen to more from them and learn more about russ. and i said on that first gifset "get used to them because they'll be around for a while" or something along those lines and i was not lying. but even i didn't know to what extent yet.

whenever i get into a new obsession(in the past at least, i think this is lessening over time), i always have a little bit of fear of like "what if i start learning about this person and it's all just horrible things they've done?" it wasn't a very strong feeling with him because the vibe he gives felt like it's just nothing but good, but i still had a little bit of that, so i was like. "i am going to make gifs of this band but i'm going to tone down how obsessed i feel right now just in case" which made me hold back on making many slowed gifs of him from the first videos i giffed. because i'm always feeling like "i'm going to pay special attention to this musician i don't know about yet and then somebody will appear in my notes informing me of all the horrible things he's done or yelling at me for liking him because of something"(this has never happened but i always imagine it happening), and ESPECIALLY when i'm like this about somebody i NEVER see talked about, i start getting like "but WHY is he not talked about? is it because everybody hates him for some reason?"

but no, he's just that unknown and also possibly one of the most kindhearted and loveable people on earth. and that's kind of that feeling i got from him from the start, like. there's just something about him that draws me in, like a gravitational pull. i could not escape it if i wanted to(i don't want to escape it). and. at first when i was first looking at him, i was like "am i really going to be obsessed with him?" and i was like "he has a strange face"(NOT meant in a bad way!!(also not really in a physically-attracted-to-him kind of way yet either because i didn't know about him enough at the time)) i kept thinking "i have never seen anybody that looks like this man in my life" which kind of added to the intrigue. like a curiosity kind of thing.

anyway, it didn't take long, the combination of listening to his voice, falling in love with his songs, learning about what a beautiful person he is, looking at him every day and noticing more things, seeing the way he is, i was suddenly like "this is genuinely the most attractive person i have ever seen or heard of in the history of humanity, physically and mentally and emotionally and whatever other way you could think of" and it just. keeps snowballing. and the older and happier he gets, the more my heart feels like it's going to just burst out of me and fly away into space. his SMILE i swear is the best sight of my life.

not to mention the fact that he had me crying on my bathroom floor on and off for days at a time from the things he talks about and had me rethinking almost everything i've ever known, giving me better perspectives and his songs actually redirecting my entire life, like yeah i 100% love him forever, it will never end. i will never want it to end. he's everything i've never had and always wanted/needed in my life, and also everything i've always wanted to BE. before i ever knew of him, he's basically the exact idea of how i wanted to be ever since i can remember. but just a me-version of him. which makes him feel like the ideal person to look up to for me.

he literally grabbed me right out of the depths of my depression last year and i have never felt better in my WHOLE LIFE. i still have my ups and downs, but it feels like.. i mean i've always been a very positive person, but even the most positive people can eventually be bogged down by life when there's just too much and it feels like it gets heavier and heavier as time goes on, even when the bad times are over, it's still in my head wreaking havoc. but it kind of feels like he opened up a path in my brain to let the positivity and hope out that's been buried underneath so much clutter. i feel like i can breathe a bit more now, both literally and figuratively, and actually process some things in a new light.

anyway, i could keep going forever and ever and ever and ever and ever about him and myself and sounding more and more insane as i go probably, but i'll stop now. so. THAT'S how i stumbled upon russ and how/why i got so attached to him.

#I ANSWERED IT FIRST BEFORE SENDING ONE TO YOU SO YOU CAN'T DO YOURS FIRST AND BEAT ME THJIS TIME #💜#(thank you)

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sunriseverse · 6 months ago

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Italics anon: Apologies in the delay in reply! And thank you SO SO MUCH for your beautifully detailed reply and links - glad to know that you also saw that discourse and I did not make it up in my head lol (discourse can get so wild). Thank you for explaining the discourse + your opinion, it’s really really helpful. I’ve been flipflopping on whether to italicise certain terms (just nouns, not idioms like you’ve touched on) and this solidified my decision on not italicising. Sidenote: “culturally sinicised” is so interesting (thinking abt this as someone who grew up in singapore). Also 100% agree on the less-innocent end – every time I see shidi incest discourse I’m just so utterly over it lol (I’ve actually never seen the debates on filial piety, is that mdzs or another fandom?)

Your paragraph on italicisation and deeper biases is so well written!! Would you happen to have any recommended texts on orientalism? (i’ve read Said’s book and it was very good but wondering if there are chinese-specific texts)

Thank you sm for the in-depth reply and multiple reblogs, I really appreciate your time and effort. Hope you have a nice day!

no worries for the delay! i entirely understand—real life happens, and tumblr simply isn't necessarily a priority (which isn't a bad thing!). i'm glad you found my explanation useful! (also "culturally sinicised" is 100% a term made up by me, because frankly i can't think of a better, succinct way to explain [waves at my entire background] lol)

in response to the shidi incest, i've found it's a larger issue with people taking "familial terms" as literal, which isn't............how chinese/culturally-sinicised people generally view these terms/relationships? it's the same in my specific west asian culture too, you use "familial" terms for people you're not related to in any blood way, but i've found that a lot of westerners or western-raised people tend to be really weirded out by this. it spawns so much fucking discourse and never fails to give me a headache, honestly—it seems like no matter how often you say "no, that doesn't mean they're literally related or even think of themselves as adopted relations", people just don't listen :') (and yes, the filial piety discourse i think is fairly mdzs-specific, just because mdzs is one of/the most popular translated cnovels with filial piety as a major theme—the fucking number of times i've watched my mutuals and people i follow repeatedly lay out why characters do xyz due to/in line with the cultural concept of filial piety, rather than xyz thing that western fans think they should have done, is frankly exhausting.)

i'll be honest i've probably read an academic paper here or there, but i don't remember them off the top of my head—most of what i wrote in reply to your previous ask was a synthesis of things that i've read and the experiences i've had. but in specific to orientalism and china, you might find these texts interesting, though they are not necessarily on the topic of italicisation and orientalism (though many are on media and orientalism, or translation and orientalism, with focus on china/chinese, since i suspect that your interests probably align that way). putting these under the cut because i'm realising this got REALLY long :') (also i don't necessarily agree with all of the texts here, but i think that all of them have something important to offer on the topic.)(also also, if you can't get ahold of any of these, let me know because i can probably get you a copy!)

-- Orientalism Writes Back: Discourses of 'Chinese' DissemiNationalism in Transnational Martial Arts Films by Chan Shaoyi (International journal of Taiwan studies, 2018-08, vol. 1 (2), p. 353-369)

This essay revisits Edward Said's famous conception of Orientalism and places it against the context of transnational Chinese cinemas, in particular Hong Kong and Taiwan cinemas, to examine how the concept is unpacked and reconstructed in a way that is often described as 'self-Orientalism'-the self-exoticising of local fabrics to satiate Western consumers. Focusing on three films, Stephen Chow's Kung Fu Hustle (2004), Ang Lee's Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000), and Hou Hsiao-hsien's The Assassin (2015), I argue that the act of self-Orientalising, rather than a passive submission to Western spectatorship, has served to rewrite and recode the idea of Chinese nationalism to present an alternative form of nationalism which I call dissemiNationalism and an alternative discourse to the mainland-centric narrative.

-- Orientalism and occidentalism: two forces behind the image of the Chinese language and construction of the modern standard by Helena Casas-Tost, Sara Rovira-Esteva (Journal of multicultural discourses, 2009-07, vol. 4 (2), p. 107-121)

This article identifies the principal myths and misconceptions surrounding the Chinese language and, by means of discourse analysis, shows how they have been expressed and become entrenched in the academic world, both in China and in the West, despite the evidence which undermines the premises on which these myths are founded. We also show how these views originated from applying a Western linguistic model to descriptions and reforms of the Chinese language, thus, reinforcing the orientalist discourse on Chinese that still persists and has permeated the Chinese language teaching. We tackle these issues from a Spanish perspective at a time when the country is experiencing important educational changes at three levels. First, there is an increase in courses on Chinese Studies. Second, European university curricula are undergoing a process of homogenisation. And, third, a new policy to standardise language learning, teaching and assessment at all stages of education is being implemented all over Europe. We are concerned about this policy because the model designed for European languages is also being applied to non-European languages. We believe that this new context is an ideal occasion to question existing discourses and bring forth new approaches towards the production and reproduction of knowledge related to the Chinese language.

-- Confucian Orientalism and Western Outlook in Martial Arts Film by Stephen Teo (Journal of Chinese Film Studies, 2021-05, vol. 1 (1), p. 65-82)

This paper discusses the martial arts genre with reference to the films of the Japanese master Kurosawa Akira and the Chinese director Zhang Yimou, discussing how both directors converge in their themes and styles through the concept of “Eastern Orientalism.” Such Orientalism is based on Confucian precepts of (rectification of names), chaos theory, and the defense of the people undertaken by militaristic but heroic individual protagonists (samurai or xia). In raising the issue of Orientalism, the paper probes into the Western perceptions of the genre and the imperative of directors like Kurosawa and Zhang in pandering to Western tastes. However, these same directors seem equally preoccupied with fostering a sense of self and nationalistic expression in their response to and treatment of Orientalized content. The paper concludes with a discussion on (2016) as a comparative review of the Western and Eastern viewpoints at play in the US-China co-production. Here the analysis revolves around the issue of sameness, dramatized as a main theme in the film.

-- Cartography and Orientalism in late imperial China by Angelo Maria Cimino (International communication of Chinese culture, 2020-09, vol. 7 (3), p. 395-406)

The Opium wars epitomize a crucial moment in Chinese history, a turning point that globally affected all countries involved, the Qing dynasty and the Western powers, which witnessed radical political, economic and social changes both internally and in their international relations. Recognizing that orientalism with its corollary of studies, researches, travel impressions, beliefs, stories, and popular gossips about China and the Orient in general, is a pervasive form of knowledge which has a political nature, means agreeing on the fact that the Western knowledge upon the Orient has been an agency for the action that has followed, namely imperialism and colonialism, which in turn led to the Opium wars. Geography became the scientific side of such knowledge. As a matter of fact, the moment in which geography embraced the cold geometries of cartography, it turned into a tremendous support to the knowledge process pertaining to the Orientalism. A process driven by mere political and commercial interests, and deceitfully expressed in the popular culture of those Western societies and countries which supported and had colonies in the Far East.

-- Orientalism, modernism, and the American poem by Robert Kern (1996)

Orientalism, Modernism, and the American Poem is a critical and historical interpretation of "Oriental" influences on American modernist poetry. Kern equates Fenollosa and Pound's "discovery" of Chinese writing with the American pursuit of a natural language for poetry; what Emerson had termed the "language of nature." This language of nature is here shown to be a mythic conception continuous with the Renaissance idea of the language of Adam - a language in which things themselves are also signs. Analyzing and contextualizing the nineteenth-century works of Ralph Waldo Emerson and Ernest Fenollosa and the twentieth-century creations of Ezra Pound and Gary Snyder, Kern sheds light on the three contemporary nexuses of his search: the cultural study of Orientalism and the West, the evolution of Indo-European linguistic theory, and the intellectual tradition of American modernist poetry

-- With What Voice Does China Speak? Sinology, Orientalism and the Debate on Sinologism by Pedro Sobral (Journal of Chinese humanities, 2023-06, vol. 9 (2), p. 215-243)

Abstract The arrival of postcolonial theory in China and the country's global rise came with the realization that its self-image is often distorted by Western ideological discourse, conveyed through Western Sinology. Drawing from Edward Said's Orientalism, some Chinese scholars have classified the ideological dimensions of Western Sinology as Sinologism, and have pointed out its implications for China's capacity to think of itself on its own terms. The concept has sparked debate mainly inside Chinese academia about the objective quality of Western Sinology. This article will attempt a critical overview of two major formulations of Sinologism, underlining its major presuppositions and placing the notion in the broader context of China's anxieties of "academic colonization" by Western intellectual practices. It will conclude by arguing that attempts to discredit Western Sinology rely on some problematic assumptions and suggests East-West comparative studies as an alternative way of dialectically constructing Chinese identity.

-- Mulan’s Cultural Journey to the West: From a Chinese Heroine to a Globalized Figure by He He (Theory and practice in language studies, 2024-03, vol. 14 (3), p. 912-917)

Disney’s live-action Mulan (2020) was adapted from the animated Disney film Mulan (1988) and has caused heated discussion after its release. The film successfully wins the Western market because it incorporates Western elements, such as the image of the Xianniang from the legendary story. However, Chinese audiences fail to fully accept the rewriting of traditional Chinese heroine in this live-action film because it partly subverts the content of Chinese legend. From the perspective of Said’s Orientalism, this paper discusses the interpretation of Chinese elements in the film, such as Phoenix, qi, and the traditional Chinese ethics of loyalty, courage, truth, and filial piety, intending to reveal the operation of cultural capital in the international cultural market of film and television in a more comprehensive way. This paper will further discuss that the canonization of Mulan sheds some enlightenment on how to introduce more Chinese literary works into the world as part of world literature.

-- Genealogies of orientalism: history, theory, politics edited by Edmund Burke III and David Prochaska, 2008

an anthology of essays on orientalism

-- Chinese Dreams: (Self-)Orientalism and Post-Orientalism in the Reception and Translation of Liu Cixin's ThreeBody Trilogy by Gwennaël Gaffric (Fanyi Xuebao [Journal of Translation Studies], 2019-01, vol. 3 (1), p. 117)

After receiving the Hugo Award in 2015 for the English translation of The Three-Body Problem, Liu Cixin's Three-Body trilogy and its translations into a large number of languages have been a massive success, prompting many reactions and much praise. In this article, I attempt to discuss first the global processes of translation and reception of Liu's novels beyond China. I particularly focus on the Orientalist imaginary conveyed by the publication of the trilogy, at a time when Chinese science fiction has become a tool for the Chinese soft power strategy based on the culturalist and nationalist discourse of the "Chinese Dream." I also examine the reception in China of the success of Liu Cixin's translations, and the way in which Chinese media and officials are also engaging in a process of self-Orientalization. In a the second phase, I try to question the task and the strategy of the translators when confronting these Orientalist projections: how does a translator makes himself or herself an accomplice of these fantasies, and how can she/he engage in a post-Orientalist or antiOrientalist approach? This reflection is illustrated by concrete examples from my own translation of Liu Cixin's trilogy into French.

-- Disorienting Politics: Chimerican Media and Transpacific Entanglements by Fan Yang (2024)

Disorienting Politics mines 21st-century media artifacts—including films like The Martian and TV/streaming media shows such as Firefly and House of Cards—to make visible the economic, cultural, political, and ecological entanglements of China and the United States. Describing these transpacific entanglements as “Chimerica”—coined by economic historians to reference the symbiosis of China and America—Yang examines how Chimerican media, originating in the US but traversing national boundaries in their production, circulation, and consumption, co-create the figure of rising China and extend a political imagination beyond the conventional ground of the nation. Examining how Chimerican media are shaped by and perpetuate uneven power relations, Disorienting Politics argues that the pervasive tendency among wide-ranging cultural producers to depict the Chinese state as a racialized Other in American media life diminishes the possibility of engaging transpacific entanglements as a basis for envisioning new political horizons. Such othering of China not only results in overt racism against people of Asian descent, Yang argues, but also impacts the wellbeing of people of color more generally. This interdisciplinary book demonstrates the ways in which race is embedded in geopolitics even when the subject of discussion is not the people, but the (Chinese) state. Bridging media and cultural studies, Asian and Asian American studies, geography, and globalization studies, Disorienting Politics calls for a relational politics that acknowledges the multifarious interconnectivity between people, places, media, and environment.

-- The Historical Roots of Reverse Orientalism and Their Recapitulation in Wo Chang's "England through Chinese Spectacles" (1897) by Michael Hill (Asian Journal of Social Science, vol. 38, no. 5 (2010), p. 677-696)

The reverse Orientalism intrinsic to the "Asian Values" project of the 1980s is shown to have its origins in European thought of a much earlier period. Prominent scholars of the Enlightenment constructed a utopian image of oriental—principally Chinese—society which was deployed in stinging critiques of contemporary Europe. A cumulative inventory of this image is presented. There is a parallel critique of English society in the late nineteenth century in a work by "Wo Chang" which represents a spirited contribution to the literature of reverse Orientalism.

-- Magic, Modernity, and Orientalism: Conjuring representations of Asia by Christopher Goto-Jones (Modern Asian Studies, vol. 48, no. 6 (November 2014), p. 1451-1476)

This article inquires into the cultural and political nexus of secular (stage) magic, modernity, and Orientalism at the turn of the twentieth century. It argues that these three arenas interacted in important and special ways to both shape and reflect the politics of knowledge of the period. In doing so, it draws attention to the ways in which secular magic has been overlooked as a historical phenomenon and highlights its utility in furthering our understanding of the great problematics of modernity and Orientalism; in particular, it suggests that magic actually provides an unusually vibrant and clear lens through which to view the politics of the Other and through which to explore issues of tradition and the modern. Focusing on two historical cases—the 'Indian Rope Trick' challenge issued by the Magic Circle in the 1930s and the astonishing 'duel' between the 'Chinese' magicians Chung Ling Soo and Ching Ling Foo in 1905—this article considers the ways in which discourses of origination, popular ideas about esotericism and the 'mystic East', and questions of technical competence interacted and competed in the culture politics of the early twentieth ce

-- Changing the Terms: Translating in the Postcolonial Era (Sherry Simon, Paul St-Pierre), especially Chapter 2: "Colonization," resistance and the uses of postcolonial translation theory in twentieth-century China (Leo Tak-hung Chan)

this text focuses on translation in the post-colonial era; the second chapter focuses on china, specifically

-- Sinologism in Language Philosophy: A Critique of the Controversy Over Chinese Language by Ming Donggu (Philosophy East and West, vol. 64, no. 3 (July 2014), p. 692-717)

Sinologism is basically a cultural unconscious in China-West studies predicated on an inner logic that operates beyond our conscious awareness but controls the ways of observing China and producing China scholarship. Its logic has exerted a profound impact on studies of Chinese language and writing. Since medieval times the difference between Chinese and Western languages has been viewed as a conceptual divide that separates Chinese and Western traditions. It has motivated scholars to generate a considerable array of ideas, views, and arguments on Chinese language and writing. These dazzling views operate on the logic of Sinologism: conditions of Chinese language are to be investigated from the Western linguistic point of view, and the nature of Chinese writing is to be determined in terms of Western alphabetic languages. This article reexamines the enduring controversy over the nature of Chinese language, especially writing, with the aim to see why the long-lasting debates have come to no satisfactory conclusion. By demonstrating how the epistemology and methodology predicated on phonocentrism and logocentrism in Western metaphysics have evolved into the logic of a language philosophy that manages to misunderstand and misrepresent Chinese language, especially writing, it explores how we can move out of the war of discourse and come to an adequate understanding of the true nature of Chinese language. It suggests that to be self-consciously aware of the hidden logic of Sinologism is the sine qua non for going beyond the war of discourse over Chinese language.

these are just a selection of things that i thought you might find most interesting; there's a fuckton more texts if you search on jstor (i've linked the specific search string that i used!) i hope that these resources are interesting to you, and if you ever want to speak further on the topic, my dms and asks are both open, so don't feel shy!

#ask #c.txt #italics anon

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Just saw Wish. I know it's getting hate, but... overall... I thought it was very... meh? Like literally meh.

(whinging)

The protag was likable, though a bit derivative in her motivations. The message was... ok, I suppose. The animation was fairly good in most places.

It does definitely have quite a few big issues, exacerbated by what it's trying so hard to be. All the pieces are there for a great movie, which is what's so frustrating about it.

For me, I felt that the textures and lighting in particular had some kind of issue. They look okay in some places, but the whole thing looked like it was un-rendered on purpose. Like it looked like the behind-the-scenes draft version before they do the final render on it. This was probably to give off a sense of "storybook" quality to the 3d models by rendering them all flat and matte but tbh it looks rather cheap for Disney. All the colors in the movie seem to also be quite muted. The color palette they chose is very cool and understated which made me want to take a nap. And since much of the movie takes place at night, that exacerbates matters a lot. There's also very little variation in setting, colors, or lighting, which makes things boring.

The songs are the biggest problem imo. I can't remember any of the songs at all, they're very forgettable to me. I'm sure there are kids who liked them and I'm not aiming to undercut that, but the fact of the matter is that these songs can't hold a candle to classic Disney songs. Classic Disney songs have a showtune quality. The melodies will stay in your mind for decades after hearing them once. The lyrics are perfectly suited to the characters and story. You want to sing along with them. And... these songs ain't that, sorry. It made sense when I learned that these songs were composed by musicians whose main background was writing Top 40 hits, not Broadway musicals. It sounds like the assignment was to try to be Lin Manuel-Miranda without paying for Lin Manuel-Miranda. They failed spectacularly at that. If there was one movie to get Lin Manuel-Miranda for, it would be this one. Had they done that and had a few absolute banger songs in this, it would have made a HUGE difference in this film's staying power.

As it is, I can't remember much about the music, so it's hard to comment on it. It wasn't offensively bad, just a very generic sound to it that didn't feel Disney-movie-esque (or at least, not major animated feature from Disney-esque. Certainly not 100-year anniversary material). The worst song is This Is The Thanks I Get because it had so much potential and they threw it away. The animation and staging during the song is great, it's actually the highlight of the film for me. They were clearly aiming for this to be the "Let it Go" of the movie, a huge hit that people talk about for a long time. And it's been a very long time since there's been a straight-up unapologetic villain song in a Disney movie, so I was excited for this one. Here's the problem. THE SONG IS NOT IN A MINOR KEY! Why? No, seriously, what were they thinking?? It has all the hallmarks of a big, grandiose megalomaniacal villain song AND IT'S NOT IN A MINOR KEY! The tone of the song is clearly meant to evoke fear as evidenced by the animation and clearly the storyboard artist was aiming for a big, frightening number. The song doesn't match that at all. Instead it's kinda happy? Playful? Like a Top 40 hit that your mom might play in the car? What the fuck? The lost potential is so sad because Maginifico could've been a great and funny villain. He's got the narcissism, comedic qualities, cartoonish mustache twirling and hot DILF-ness to carry the villain role. For some reason though, the big cartoon-y bad guy stuff feels a bit... restrained by the fact that he's trapped in a 3D model. Like the over-the-top maniacal 2D slasher faces that they keep trying so hard to give him just don't translate to 3D very well. He would've looked so much fucking better in 2D, I'm sorry. His voice work is done quite well, though - actually all the voice work in the movie is. (The goat was not that bad honestly)

Apparently one of the concept arts has Magnifico's wife (does she have a name) being evil as well. What the fuck, Disney, where was that?? They could've been an evil power couple, that would've ATE. They also whitewashed her, which... ok, interesting choice. It seems they were also going to have Star take the form of a boy and have a romantic arc with Asha which I'm glad they did NOT do, adding romance to a film like this probably would've served to make it even more generic.

As a movie for little tiny children I think this film is okay. For the Disney fans this was supposed to be a love letter to, let's all go watch Aladdin, Mulan, Lion King (THE ORIGINAL), Beauty and the Beast, and all the other films that weren't created in a boardroom lab. Wish has a generic look, a generic sound, a generic message, and as much as I support those who enjoyed it, I can't help but commiserate with the fans who are disappointed in the less-than-stellar Disney flicks of the past few years. It's like they are allergic to taking risks, hiring creatives and letting them work, or keeping greedy corporate hands out of their projects. Hopefully their revenues keep tanking until they get the message but it looks like Iger is still drinking pure copium based on his recent comments that "audiences don't want films with a message anymore". OK. Yeah, that's what you should take from this, Iger. Have fun continuing to censor your films, gotta get those bucks from the Russian and Chinese markets, pal.

#disney is creatively bankrupt. more news at 11 water is wet

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it was already like 4 days ago but i had such a fun time at atl/mayday parade!!

i lined up early to get a good spot cos i was expecting like a line, like for there to actually be a line, but when i got there i was only the 12th person??? tbf there were over a 100 people doing vip apparently so without a lot of them in our ga line there was obviously a lot fewer ppl, but still!

unfortunately it was warmer than i was expecting and i ended up getting a bit sun burnt :( mostly on my nose, brow, upper lip, and hands. nose was the worst! still a bit ouchy, or maybe hands were worst in that i got burned in the same areas as my dermatitis which is a bad combo! they're mostly okay now but my face still hurts a bit. but anyway! i didn't realise i'd got burned until after the show was over when we went into the bathroom so it was too late to do anything about it :/

but again, anyway! my sister and her friend joined me in line a couple hours after i got there so i hung out with some other ppl waiting. my sister said she doesn't like having to line up early but i like it! it's part of the experience to me! but maybe also because i don't have anyone to go to shows with besides her so i like getting to hang out with ppl??? it's nice to just get know ppl a little! and they're like my kinda ppl too i guess because we like similar music!! hard to find that in everyday life

it was a very orderly line though, like we didn't stay in a line, the people who got there first (at like 5am!) numbered everyone with a sharpie, which is like sure it's not official as my sister loved to point out, but it did make everything more chill. they number over 70 ppl before it got too much to keep track of, and then when it was close to doors everyone just lined up basically in order!? it was surprising but nice to see!

anyway, when we actually got into the show! we ended up second row behind some ppl who did vip and some who were ahead of us in line. i can't say it was the best spot but like that's closer than i've ever been to the front when seeing atl before so! i just wish the base of the barricade went a little further back? like it's so hard to jump up and down on an uneven surface!!!

mayday parade were soooooo good as always!! they played a lot of older stuff, like their classic best stuff, the stuff ppl know the words to and we can all sing together!! i wish their set had been longer!!! i mean i guess they were on for nearly 50 minutes? but still!!!

atl also were obviously great too!! we sung happy birthday to some guy? (idk? he was playing a keyboard or something?) 3 times lmao, and alex jack and the bday guy (plus someone in the crowd) all did shoeys (from their own shoes!! not like josh from ymas who used an audience member's lol). it was such a messy show, but like in a good way!! i DO want to see bands having fun together and chatting with us and that kinda thing, like alex was being so silly!!

i was also in the absolute perfect position that when jack threw up his first guitar pick, no one had no idea where it was going, including me, but it hit me right in the middle of the chest lmao. got to pick it up right off the floor cos no one knew it had hit me so no one was looking for it!! third time i've managed to get a pick like that, although first time actually getting hit by it lol

feel like there might have been more i wanted to write about but i can't remember now! oh well. it was a fun night anyway!! would add photos or something but i'm not on my phone so maybe some other time

oh but they played new religion!!! i was so excited when they played it!!!! actually they played two songs i didn't know, i guess their new one with avril lavigne that i haven't heard and some other one??? gonna have to look that up at some point i guess

#scrapbook.pdf

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Hey! Love your Madoka au. and love your thoughts on v3 remnants but Kokichi is not au. I NEED YOUR THOUGHTS ON YOUR BAD ENDING (BOTH NAGITO AND CHIAKI BEING AIs) God Hajime is going to have a rough time both of his closer friends aren't alive

And Kokichi! Kokichi also is an AI!

Alrighty <3

Not sure if you want the background info, too, or just the reactions, but I'll go with the second, bc if I go with both it'll probably be long as hell.

But that much I gotta add - long story short, they knew they couldn't stop Izuru from adding AI Junko to the simulation, so Nagito was like, if you can't stop them, join them (literally what he's been doing this entire time). His days were numbered anyway.

His general idea was to essentially have two versions of himself, the one who remembered and the one who didn't. Bc, obviously, he'd be suspicious as hell if he was his more... functional self out in the open. The idea was kinda trying to gather the pieces of anybody who dies, and eventually recreate them. So that Junko can't do shit to them, even if they die. Obviously it's like under layers and layers of code and walls and other shit, made specifically by Izuru so that Junko can't penetrate these, and then there's also Nagito's luck involved. Anyway.

Chiaki dies in the Future Fundation, and she also has her... entire self essentially copied and turned into an AI - don't worry, consensually - because FF still needed an Observer.

Kokichi ends up a little different, because nobody copied him, but they created him from Chiaki's and several other people's memories of him. Probably including Izuru, who pulled the Ultimate Imposter.

Anyway, that part done.

Ending of Sdr2 ends up being a canon divergence, bc for one everybody returns to make their own choice (they still pick the reset or whatever), and they also find out this entire time Nagito and Chiaki were both dead, and also Nagito, too, was doing everything he could to save them. He's super apologetic about the way he behaved, and the thing is, through getting to know them all, he became a better person, but the game returned him to the state pre-HPA just like the rest of them. He's not asking for forgiveness, but he does want them to know he's sorry for everything. They have mixed feelings.

I also imagine Izuru also appears, bc let the boy do things. He might be pretty bad at feelings, but he knows he's upset with Hajime for throwing his life away. Not necessarily for him, but because he'd seen how much everybody loved him. Chiaki and Nagito tried not to look at him like he'd killed somebody they loved, but they missed him badly. And all the Remanants honored him every new year in various ways.

RIP Hajime. Anyway. That's for the background. Whether they can or cannot talk to the AIs post game is Idk, depends on my mood. Maybe they perma-die, or at least partially. Who knows.

Now we're back to how they feel about it post-simulation... bad as fuck.

Kazuichi and Fuyuhiko lost their best friend [I've never gotten over that ova, they're besties in my heart, viva la canon rewrites], and Kazuichi especially was such a dick to him in the simulation (to be fair, it was 100% justified, but he feels guilty). There's other things they feel upset about, but they definitely miss that weirdo and Chiaki. But obviously everybody misses them and just feels this unfathomable guilt about... not even being there when they died. Becaues they died, and they're the only ones who did. And, fuck, they loved them so much they become AIs just to try to help them. And they never got to thank them or say sorry.

Hajime, though. Hajime is devastated. Now that he remembers everything - and probably has Izuru's memories, too, even if they feel kinda weird, bc they aren't exactly his memories - for one he understands why Izuru was angry with him. Nagito and Chiaki mourned him for years. And he additionally put them in a situation where they could potentially have to choose between him and Izuru, whom they grew to love as well. And all of that ignoring how much of a dick he was to them both before he went for the surgery. The entire class 77, honestly, but these two especially, because they loved each other. And, again, they're the people he can never apologize to. Because they're gone. The last memories they have of him is him being frustrated and angry, and telling them to leave him alone. Nagito especially, he said so much cruel shit to him...

Everything sucks and he's not having fun time.

And he has a kid, apparently.

Well, not literally, he's just from two classses lower, but if memory serves, Chiaki, Nagito and even Izuru saw him as family, so the very least he can do is treat him well, the way they would have wanted.

Kokichi's pretty fun, he realizes quickly. And scarily smart. He's angry with Hajime for being a dick to Chiaki and Nagito, and it's refreshing to have somebody say things how they are - which is ironic, given Kokichi's a liar and all that. But that doesn't change the fact that he doesn't hate Hajime for it. He's surprisingly pretty understanding, he just doesn't let him get away easily. All in all, he can see why Nagito, Chiaki and Izuru loved him. He's not sure if his own feelings are leftovers fom Izuru or not, but he doesn't really care. He grows to care for the little dipshit.

It still worries him that Kokichi's going to be an Observer, given what happened to the previous one, but maybe this time

Hajime can't have shit in this world.

#hajime really lost his husband wife son and alt self in a span of like 2-3 months #danganronpa #idk if that's what you wanted but that's what you get #hajime hinata #nagito komaeda #chiaki nanami #kokichi ouma #answered

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#alejandromayorkas #blackstonegroup #border-crisis #childexploitation #joshhawley

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hydrogenperfoxide · 2 years ago

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Tried this one time and ended up tipping something like 75%. I decided to use a calculator

Guys. Guys. Calculating tips. Just. Look at your bill. And move the decimal point one step left. That’s ten percent. Double that number. Now it’s twenty percent.

$100.00 bill? $10.000. Ten dollars. Double it. Twenty dollars. That’s a 20% tip.

$67.50? Now it’s $6.750. $6.75? Might as well be $7. Double it. Roughly $14. You’re not going to miss the change.

Please. I failed math three times

#turns out having a math disability make doing 'simple' math hard #also it might have been over 100% i can't remember because like number bad

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amaranthineoceans · 4 years ago

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Everything Weird About Deltarune!

Spoiler Warning for Undertale and Both Chapters of Deltarune! Really! I Literally Go Through Everything I Can Remember About Them!

This is a long post so get comfortable. Also note that my brain doesn't process thoughts into words very well so some of these might not be worded in the best way. :)

Deltarune. The first teaser chapter was released on October 31, 2018, and it came out of nowhere. We've all gone through this, but I'll try and go through every single painstaking detail I can remember. Feel free to reblog and add/correct things.

The weirdness begins right off the bat. The title is an anagram of UNDERTALE. We all know Toby likes to use anagrams when he wants to indirectly tell us when things are related, so it's no surprise that when you go to download DELTARUNE, it warns you that the game is designed for people who have played UNDERTALE. You think, "Cool, so it's a sequel? Or maybe a prequel? A different perspective of UNDERTALE perhaps?" You were wrong; so terribly, terribly wrong! I'll elaborate on this later.

Before you download the application, the terms of service that you must agree to beforehand reads simply and plainly, "You accept everything that will happen from now on." This detail was kinda brushed off in the beginning, because, hey, it's Toby Fox. He does weird stuff all the time. But even in the first chapter, it's apparent that the concept of choice, or more accurately, the lack of it, is a very present theme in the game. I would like to remind you that Toby has announced that there will be one ending in the game. One. I'll elaborate on this later.

The program (as in, what the game is called in your files) is named SURVEY PROGRAM. Why not just call it Deltarune like it is when you download chapter two?

The game launches you, without a title screen, without any setting adjustment options, straight into a reference to the theme of the entire franchise: the lack of choice. A strange formless voice guides you through "making a vessel", with what we know now as a fountain in the background. You have the option to make some very disturbing choices in this character creator, such as making its favorite flavor "pain" or expressing your feelings about it with options such as "fear" and "disgust." You name your "creation," tell the formless voice your name (which is different from your vessel's name) and watch as said formless voice muses over your name at an agonizing pace. It thanks you for your time and tells you that your wonderful creation, (cue music cutout and background removal) will now be discarded. "No one can choose who they are in this world." The screen slowly turns white as the voice says, "Your... name... is..."

It gets weirder. The next scene appears from the whiteness and showcases Toriel calling "Kris" out of bed. Kris' area of the room is very bare in contrast to the other side, which we later discover is Asriel's.

It's Toriel. Why is Toriel here?

Kris is kind of an anagram of Frisk (the protagonist of UNDERTALE) but without the F. I highly doubt this is a coincidence.

Speaking with Noelle is the only reason you can proceed (see what i did there?) while finding a partner in the classroom. This means you can't go through the 1st chapter without knowing who she is. Is it because of the Snowgrave route?

Ralsei is just suspicious to me. There's no way he was just waiting in that castle his whole life alone without some mental toil. So either he's insane or he wasn't alone the whole time. What happened? Is it related to how he can close his eyes and see what Susie is going through when she's apart from the party? Was he just watching everything? Is he related to the formless voice?

Susie's icon is the only one without color in the Dark World.

Jevil's fight is more difficult than Sans'.

Your actions have little consequence in the first chapter. If you choose to go genocide, the only difference in the ending is being run out of the kingdom, and this doesn't carry over to the next chapter. Again, lack of choice, people.

If at the end of chapter one, you walk around town, it's mentioned (notably by Noelle) that you're usually not this talkative. If you go to the hospital and speak with the receptionist, they mention that you used to play the piano in the corner. If you decide to attempt to play the said piano, an out-of-key bash can be heard and the receptionist comments on how you used to play beautifully. If you try this in chapter two, the result is the same. All this is confirmation that Kris is acting noticeably weird.

When you leave the Dark World and walk around town, you can find Sans. He "pretends" to recognize you, and if you tell him you recognize him, he tells you it's funny, considering that you two have never met before. He winks. I'm pretty sure he knows that the player is there.

The mention of Papyrus in both games, but the purposeful lack of him. Like he's avoiding you.

If you go upstairs while inside Asgore's flower shop, there are flowers in glass cases resembling his SOUL collection in UNDERTALE. There's a red flower.

You can't enter the church.

The clock in the storage closet shows a different time than all the others in the school.

If you go all the way south in town and into the woods, the music stops and you come across a rusty, double door is in a hill covered in crass. It's locked. If you go this way in chapter two, however, you watch a cutscene where you and susie happen to find Monster Kid from UNDERTALE (or someone resembling them) and an owl kid in front of the door. The owl kid is pressuring Monster Kid to (presumably) break inside, telling them that they don't want to be a wimp like Kris. Does this imply that Kris is connected to this strange door somehow?

The ending. You know what I'm talking about.

Did Kris actually rip out the SOUL (I say "the" because I'm not entirely sure it's Kris') and knife because they wanted to eat the pie? Did they only eat the pie because Toriel caught them?

Why did they look at the player? Are they sick of being controlled? Is that why they freaked out after the Spamton fight? (later)

Anyway, now we're at chapter two.

DELTARUNE Chapter Two was released on September 17th, 2021. 17. Entry Number 17. Sound familiar?

Asriel's part of the room is different from the last chapter. I don't think this means anything sinister, but I think it means Kris notices different things about the room as the story progresses. My theory is that it will become more sinister in each chapter.

Ralsei getting super excited to see Susie and Kris after a day. As in he has separation anxiety and it breaks my heart. not anything suspicious but it makes me sad so it's on the list.

Kris and Susie's rooms. Ralsei REALLY doesn't want them to leave. Seriously get this boy a therapist. Or a stuffed animal. SOMETHING.

Kris having to gather everything from the storage closet so that people appear in the Dark World????? Why??????????????? They had to do the same thing for the computer lab too.

The golden door. I don't trust it.

How/why the heck did Noelle and Berdley go into the Computer Lab Dark World? I don't see either of them just walking into pulsing void doors without Susie.

Apparently the knight has been gone for a bit and can corrupt people's minds? The king in the first chapter doesn't seem like he can be redeemed but Queen just seems,,, not bad, but a little crazy. I wonder what happened.

Then again, name ONE person in this franchise without trauma.

Spamton.

Horror doesn't bother me. Spamton? Spamton bothers me.

SPAMTON. ENOUGH SAID.

A Kromer is a type of hat invented in the '70s. Nobody named Mike is associated with it, that I can find.

SPAMPTON. HOW DO I EVEN DESCRIBE IT.

HIS SONG IS THE ONLY ONE WITH WORDS.

The way he asks Kris is they want to be a heart on a chain their whole life. Like, dude, no wonder they were screaming after the fight.

WHERE DID THE YELLOW HEART COME FROM. YELLOW MEANS JUSTICE. WHY DOES JUSTICE APPLY.

Kris screaming after the fight and the player not being able to hear it. Don't you dare tell me that's just how the game is designed. There are sound effects characters make throughout the game. None that I can think of apply to Kris, apart from when they rip their soul out.

Ralsei brushing off the Spamton fight. Either that's his coping mechanism or he was trying to shut Susie and Kris up to protect them from... something. I'll touch on that in a minute.

According to Queen, DETERMINATION is a key factor in creating a fountain.

Also according to Queen, Kris, Noelle, and Susie all have DETERMINATION SOULS.

Ralsei freaking out about Berdley making a fountain implies that he may also have DETERMINATION. Why I'm bringing all this up will make sense soon.

How was Noelle able to cast Snowgrave... a spell that she, according to her, didn't know?

The Snowgrave route is so twisted.

You manipulate Noelle into killing Berdley and then, when you get back to the computer lab and investigate his corpse, the text box says that he doesn't seem to be awake. As if you're in denial?

Burgerpants recognizes you. Not Kris. As in the player.

The ending. I don't think I need to describe it. Kris is very methodical without the SOUL. (I say "the" because, again, I'm not 100% convinced it's theirs.) I'm saying this about how they left clues that someone broke into the This proves that they are NOT a mindless, vengeful husk.

HOW DID THEY MAKE THE FOUNTAIN WITHOUT THE SOUL INSIDE OF THEM. DID THEY FEED THE SOUL TO IT AFTERWARDS? IS THAT WHAT THAT WAS?

Another point I would like to make is my theory that Ralsei knows much more than he would have us believe. I might put this into a different post because I have yet to gather my points into a coherent bullet point list, so keep an eye out for that.

Anyway apart from Toriel and Susie being VERY heavy sleepers, I think I've gone through everything. I have a few theories.

1. Kris is possessed by the player and figured out that they could make a fountain from Queen and related to Spamton freaking out about freedom. They then decided to make a fountain going by the logic that "this would tick the player off." This is one of my top theories that assumes that the SOUL is theirs.

And 2. Kris is possessed by both the player and the knight. I think the formless voice at the very beginning of the game is the knight, and they somehow needed the player to possess someone with DETERMINATION. If so, then why Kris? We know from Queen that Noelle and Susie, and maybe even Berdley also have DETERMINATION. The most plausible thing I can think of is the fact that human souls are stronger than monster ones.

I do think that the popular theory (about the one that suggests that the Dark Word is nothing but a figment of a child's imagination, and the events that occur in said Dark World are simply children playing with toys) has been thoroughly dashed due to Berdley's murder in the genocide route of the second chapter. Unless he's not dead. Regardless, how the events (or lack thereof) that occur in the second chapter play through the next will be interesting, especially considering Toby's announcement about how there will be one ending to the game. So either Berdley isn't dead, or he will be.

Aaaand I think that's it! Sorry for the long post; let me know your thoughts and if I missed anything!

#deltarune #deltarune chapter 2 #deltarune theory #deltarune theories #deltarune chapter two theory #deltarune chapter two theories #snowgrave #pipis route #deltarune snowgrave #video games #indie game #deltarune spoilers #ralsei #kris #susie #undertale #sans

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princess-of-the-corner · 2 years ago

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Ask reading Katsuki's thoughts on the award ceremony in Chaos children, I'm wondering if anyone there or watching elsewhere was like "That's fucked up. Why the fuck did they do that?"

Oh it's something I'm wanting to go further into because like. There are a lot of people who have different reactions to what happened.

The ones who have the clearest and 'best' reaction of horror are those who 100% know what happened. They know Katsuki, they know that she wouldn't have wanted that and had no control over it, and they recognized that her behavior while tied up was her completely freaking out. But this is a small number. Mostly limited to 1-A and the UA staff. A handful of the other students too who have just been paying attention to 1-A might also pick up on it.

There's a lot of people who don't pick up on everything though. In part because what made it to TV was edited. And that falls into different categories.

There are some who reacted like how I wrote for Best Jeanist. Where they can't imagine that what happened was without consent from the teenager involved. So it must have been just. Part of the act, right? It totally fits with the persona that Katsuki had put forth during the rest of the Sports Festival, and the persona she puts on in all other aspects, even with that fuckin 'King Explosion Murder God: Dynamight' for a Hero Name. Surely that event at the Sports Festival, an event for Hero Students to put forth how they want to be seen by the public, was something planned and calculated.

Then there's people who realize it wasn't her choice, and she didn't like it, but don't realize how bad it was. This is where I put Katsuki's parents, actually. Inko too. They realize that Katsuki didn't want that to happen, ofc. But they don't know that her reaction was panic and distress. They're not aware that she has the pre-existing trauma from the Sludge Villain(her parents don't know the full story on That either), and she's not going to tell them because she doesn't want anyone to know it bothered her.

There's a lot of people who are just kinda.... not thinking too hard about it. You know how for one person it's the most traumatizing day of their life, but to 99% of the world it's just some random Wednesday? That sort of thing. They might've seen it and gone 'hey that's fucked' or maybe just didn't really think too long about the implications of the whole thing and just. Moved on with their lives. They might comment if prompted to remember the event, but won't think of it as more than an anecdote.

There's also, of course, some assholes who think she deserved what happened. After all, it wouldn't have happened if Katsuki hadn't been so overkill with Todoroki or the others. Some fucking brat being put in her place.

And if we slide over to the LoV watching this.... they're a lot less optimistic about Hero Society so they recognize that this was something fucked up and done without consent. Which is why they end up targeting Katsuki later as a potential recruit. "Aren't you hurt by how they treated you for wanting to be a Hero? For wanting to be Good? Don't you want to tear it apart and change it so that it never happens to anyone else? Don't you want revenge against those so-called Heroes who just watched or even helped hurt you? Aren't you tired of being nice? Don't you just want to go apeshit?"

So yeah like.

There's a lot of different reactions to what happened and thoughts on it all.

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bellafragolina · 3 years ago

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*crawls in through the 3rd story window*

To you and also the anon that gave us the idea of soulmates being linked through lifetimes, I would like you offer my undying devotion. That stuff is my jam!

And the thought that the boys remember, too - you can do so much with that! Are they the only ones who remember? Because if so, then Reader could be finally, blissfully unaware of how much their previous incarceration suffered. Hell, maybe it was even like, something the twins bargained with Arceus for, that their soulmate has a happier existence next go 'round; Arceus could have been like, "done and done, but also you two are gonna remember so you can help make your own request a reality."

Or does Reader remember, too? The extent of everyone's memories might be up for debate, but if Reader even remotely remembers their past life, they might be like a wary stray cat around them that the boys have to slowly befriend. (Childhood friends to eventual lovers, maybe?) Not nearly as bad as the last time, obviously, but more like a "hmmmm, not super comfortable around you just yet but I can't tell why" slow burn friendship kind of deal with the boys being utterly determined to win you over.

(As an aside, I thrive on platonic/familial/friendship soulmates, too, so I just imagine the twins are also continuously reincarnated together and have each other's and maybe Elesa's names on one another's non-romantic-soulmark wrists. Or. Wherever you want the marks to be.)

I read a fic once for a different fandom - and I wish I could find it again, alas! - where the cycle of reincarnation for soulmates kind of acted like Groundhog Day and kept going until everybody got their happy ending. Like, one life they missed each other and never met, the next they got separated and died, in the next one they wound up as rivals and hated one another, etc. It finally ended with them coming all the way back around to the very first life again (in modern times, because time shenanigans) and finally getting it right. I can 100% see Arceus pulling this shit with the twins and Reader.

"Y'all fucked up? Reincarnation jail for train men! Reincarnation jail for you three idiots for 100 lives!"

So picture the twins and Reader, going through a dumb number of lives, trying to get it right, and fiiiiiiiiinally getting back around to the first one, the one where Reader was a Plasma victim grunt, and everyone has a very weird sense of deja vu as they all meet for the "first time." Reader is tense and nervous, clearly expected something bad to happen, and the twins are anxious and feel like the moment has far more weight than it already should - like if they make one wrong move, they'll ruin everything.

Everyone just sort of stares at each other in tense silence for a long few minutes, until the twins slowly, carefully, reach out and take their soulmate's hands, smiling gently.

"It's nice to finally meet you."

Cut to tearful, happy first meetings leading to long roads with happy endings.

(Meanwhile, Arceus is just banging its head on a wall somewhere in exasperation. "ABOUT DAMN TIME!")

~Spark💥

{I have more soulmate au ideas, including other forms the soul bonds could take - like dream sharing, or what-you-write-on-your-skin-shows-up-on-theirs - for various different scenarios, possibly even for each of their reincarnations. But I'll save those for a different ask if anyone is interested.}

I’m interested in all of your ideas please tell me them please!!

God, the idea of the twins remembering well what happened before, and being in an almost repeat of that previous life. You’re there, as you were but maybe with a different team this time, clearly uncomfortable and nervous as you show them your soulmate marks. There’s dread on your face, but also confusion as to why, and it breaks the twins’ hearts.

They’re so gentle. They touch you like you’re something precious, and give affection as you accept it, mindful of every bruise and scar you carry, physical or not. They’re determined to do better by you, and to give you the world. Comfort and happiness, that’s they’re priorities, and they don’t care what anyone else has to say about it.

And it gives former team members hope, seeing you rise above your past and find happiness with your soulmates.

~Renee

#💥 anon #love love love love #keep it coming babe

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mrs-tsunderemeitantei · 4 years ago

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DISCLAIMER: HUGE, LONG RANT AHEAD!

ALSO SPOILERS IN CASE YOU'RE NOT UP TO DATE WITH THE MANGA OR WITH ZERO THE ENFORCER!

Soo in case you missed it, Gosho released the SDB Justice Plus some time last month:

The biggest shocker was the answer to Question number 4, shown below:

Basically this translates to:

Q4: On the Mystery Train, he (Amuro) said to Miyano Shiho that “My comrades who are tracking us have made arrangements in order to retrieve you”, but were those comrades from PSB? If that’s the case, I’m curious about how he planned to deceive Vermouth...!

A: Those were comrades from the Black Organization, so there was no need to deceive them.

Ummmm...what??

Idk about y'all but when I read this, I was livid. It didn’t make any sense to me. And quite frankly, I didn't want it to. Maybe because I am one of those (very rare) people who thought Rei and Shiho could eventually end up together (Don't laugh, it would have made sense, and I'll write about that in a separate post).

Anywho, safe to say Gosho's latest confession left me in absolute confusion. Like why? Just why? Then I realised I'm more butt-hurt about this because I was fixated on a certain idea of Rei's character and chose to ignore his other sides, as if they didn't exist. It didn't help that his past is so freaking depressing which got me sympathizing with his character and led me to either ignore or make excuses for any red flags.

But now that I think about it, it sadly makes sense. It also explains why he didn't show any sadness or regret when he saw Shiho supposedly ‘die’ in the luggage cart in the Bell Tree Train Arc.

Now to let me wrap my head around this, I needed to breakdown his three "faces":

1. Amuro Tooru is a cheerful, friendly, generous, carefree, outgoing man.

2. Furuya Rei is a serious, law-abiding, calculating, patriotic police officer who is willing to die for Japan's security.

3. And Bourbon is a devious, manipulative, cunning, deadly agent.

Yet, ever since we found out he was in fact an NPA agent, we (or at least I), seem to have forgotten about those dark sides he possesses. Also with Zero's tea time showing us a softer side of his character it was easy to get caught up in "he's 100% one of the god guys" when in fact, he's a complex, grey character.

He has shown on multiple occasions, just how far he is willing to go, to achieve whatever goal he’s set his mind on. Let's not forget how in Zero the Enforcer, he completely flipped the switch. (I know this isn't Canon but...) The man went as far as to create a suspect and jail the innocent Mori Kogoro so he can legally investigate the case and emotionally manipulate Conan into unkowningly help with the investigation.

Also, in the Detective Nocturne’s case he deliberately didn’t tell Ran as soon as he noticed Conan might have been kidnapped by the criminal because he hadn’t finished investigating the apartment.

And in the Scarlet Arc, he was willing to harm Jodie's teacher friend, so he can lure out the FBI and advance his investigation on Akai’s death. Let’s not forget once he figured out the truth, he was willing to expose Akai’s fake death (which I get it he's out for revenge), but by doing so, he would have also gotten Kir killed (even though I'm pretty sure he knew at that point, she was in fact a NOC).

As we can see, be it Bourbon, Furuya Rei or Amuro Toru, he will stop at nothing to reach his goals, even if it means throwing innocent people under the bus. So, now when Gosho says his "partners" were in fact BO members and not the PSB, I'm no longer surprised.

I mean, why wouldn’t he sell Shiho back to the organisation? Because he knew she was Sensei’s daughter, and that should have meant something to him? Alright, let’s talk about that.

Did he love Shiho’s mum? Yes, he did, there’s no doubt about that (one of the reasons he joined the joined the police in the first place was to find her, so you can't convince me otherwise).

But what if he loved Japan even more? (It's not canon, but he did say in Zero the Enforcer that the safety of this country matters most to him, even if it means he’d end up paying with his own life).

So, I'm going to take a wild guess as to how he could have felt when he found out the woman he loved as his own mother, willingly joined the deadly organisation that threatened the safety of his country. Based on his memories, he remembered her encouraging her husband to join the Carasuma group.

So, if through his investigations, he was able to realise she is the same woman from his childhood, I’m pretty sure he would have been very disappointed. I’m not sure the extent of his knowledge about the drug, but if he also found out their research created the poisonous APTX-4869, I reckon it would be more reason for him to be upset.

Now let's talk about Haibara/Shiho. To any outsider who's unaware of the truth of her past, she is a woman born into the organisation, then was groomed and taught from a young age by the syndicate and promoted to take on their research. A research that produced a poisonous drug, just like her parents did. Also, she only ran away after the organisation killed her sister. Before that, she was a high-ranking member. With all these facts, why would he think of her as anything but a criminal just like the rest of the BO members? It’d be rather foolish for him to not hand her back to the organisation just because she is the daughter of the woman he once thought so highly of. If anything, he’d be killing two birds with one stone, by executing a criminal, while also gaining higher standing in the organisation.

As fans of Haibara, we are rightfully upset by his intentions of returning her to the organisation because we know her truth. He doesn't. It wasn't until we learnt more about her painful past and kind and caring nature that we grew to love her. We know she never wanted to create a poisonous drug. That she already hated the organisation for using the drug as a poison. That she had to develop the drug to protect Akemi’s life.

There is no way Rei would have known about any of the bullying she or her family faced from the BO. By nature, Shiho is very secretive and reserved and very little of her personality or history would have been known by any of the BO members (except maybe Gin). Therefore, apart from the files the BO would have kept on Shiho and her role in the organisation, that’s all Rei had to learn about her. So, I can’t really blame him for choosing to hand her back to the organisation.

Some people who are still in denial, argue that if he planned to kill Shiho, why was he willing to kill whom he thought was Vermouth instead of handing her over?

Shouldn’t that prove he was going to take Shiho to safety to the PSB, not the BO? Before Gosho's statement, I would have agreed but now...sigh. Now, I get why he did that. If Shiho were to die BEFORE she was returned to the organisation, he wouldn’t have gained the trust he was seeking. If she were to die AFTER he delivered her, I highly doubt it would have mattered to him. Although I'm still hoping he maybe he had a plan of not leaving her in the organisation's clutches after "handing her back" and he never truly intended on getting her killed. But since Gosho also said there was no need to deceive Vermouth, I highly doubt it. (Heart breaking).

After such an explanation, does everything make more sense now? Maybe. Am I ok with it? Hell no! I’m quite angry and annoyed that this is how things turned out to be, but it is what it is. We have to accept that Rei is not a good character, and he's not a bad character. He's a grey character and when you think of it that way, it's easier to understand his behaviour. Not that I agree with it. After Gosho's statement, I think pretty sure Rei is in dire need of some character development. He could stand to learn a thing or two from Conan who manages to reach his goals while preserving as many lives as possible (Akai's fake death being the burst example while managing to drive Kir back to the BO).

For now, I’m looking forward to the developments that will entail. I’m curious to see how Rei and Haibara will react once they eventually meet each other. It'll be interesting to see what will go through his mind once he figures out her true identity. One thing I'm sure of is once they're introduced to each other, emotions will be running high and things will get intense. Which honestly, I can't wait for and I'm counting down the days till I get a proper Amuro/Haibara interaction.

#shiho miyano #miyano shiho #haibara ai #ai haibara #sherry #furuya rei #rei furuya #tooru amuro #amuro tooru #bourbon #dcmk #case closed #detective conan #Detective Conan #elena miyano #miyano elena #vermouth

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120-Day Fanfiction List (G)

A collection of my recommended Eren/Mikasa fanfictions for the first one-hundred and twenty days of the year.

Rating: General Audiences

a gilded world by infinitesimalll

The world was cruel. It was cold. Nearly everyday those words flowed through her mind, often accompanied by traumatic experiences.

All The Things Between You and Me by iRememberTheDark @irememberthedark

In most situations, Mikasa takes what she can get, especially where Eren, her...her...whatever he was to her, was concerned, and she was more than willing to let that pattern continue. Too bad life was so adept at kicking her out of her comfort zone.

"What am I to you?"

Mikasa asks a simple question and the world tilts.

Bad Idea by fevversinherhair

Like all bad ideas that passed between them, pretending to be dating at his brother's wedding was 100% Eren's.

Call out my name by Gcf_khaleesi

Ever since he brought her back into paths he knew that this would be the last time, he knew that he wasn't getting out of this what he was doing out there alive and she knew it as well.

canvas by orphan_account

there’s a familiarity in that question, the same one that comes along with the unspeakable way she smiles.

Cruel Decisions by solsun

The public now knows the truth of the outside world and who they are. The impending threat. No matter what, they must survive. Eren struggles with the colossal responsibility he believes he bears, the weight of an entire nation in his hands. He searches for a way to ground himself while keeping his principles intact.

demands by infinitesimalll

In all honesty, Eren hadn't expected Mikasa to take his offer after they had faced the titan who killed his mother and Hannes. It was something he said in the heat of the moment, when he was determined to survive.

for you, 2000 years later by aenar_thedragonlady

life seemed normal, as it always was but she wasn't aware of something, or rather, someone, who's been waiting for 2000 years.

fuel to my fire by aenar_thedragonlady

Being the princess of a powerful kingdom and with a legendary bloodline, Mikasa came to terms with how she was born and raised a conqueror in her father, family and kingdom's name. But when her conquest led her to Eren, a solitary king hidden in his domain far north in the mountains, she knew things could never go back to how they were.

Will she extinguish all the fires she never knew she had?

Or will she add more fuel to the flames?

ghost out of his grave by simplyhumann

At first glance, one might even think this is his glimpse of heaven. To come home to her in death, like how he always wanted to when he was alive.

It was anything but that. This was his punishment, Eren knew. To have a front row seat to the way he ruined the woman he once loved— no— still loves— and all the consequences that came after it.

hallucinating by enchantingoats

Mikasa knew it was undoubtedly her drug-addled subconscious longing for a second reunion with better odds.

Still, she wanted to touch him.

home by infinitesimalll

"in this world, i've got a place to go home to."

I’ll Take Care of You by Queenzie

When Mikasa falls sick, Eren decides that for once he needs to look after her.

Long Dream by wallmaria

“What am I to you?” Eren had suddenly said. Mikasa was again taken aback by his question. She looked at Eren’s face, there were no hints of shame when he said it, when he’s practically asking her to bare herself before him… She felt her heart pound loudly in her chest… She felt embarrassed to say the truth, but Eren also seemed to look distraught and expectant as Mikasa stammered.

not so strong after all by infinitesimalll

After a patrol in the freezing cold rain, humanity's second strongest has come down with the common cold.

Now and Forever by connectedfeelings @connectedfeelings

Waking up from a strange dream, Mikasa experiences odd visions throughout the day, all of a man and of a red scarf. Everyone leaves her with a strong sense of melancholy. Who is he? And why has he been in her mind all day? Perhaps she could ask him. Because his scarf just landed on her face, and she can't help but feel like the universe is telling her something.

New Year by Ilucida

The New Year celebration in Hizuru style was different.

remember a day we dreamt by Violea

Let's live the rest of our lives peacefully. Just the two of us.

return to me, the you of 2000 years ago by rilakkuma5 @uhhstar

Eternal return is a concept that the universe and all existence and energy has been recurring, and will continue to recur, in a self-similar form an infinite number of times across infinite time or space.

Simpler Times by wamomo

Three moments in which Eren doesn't regret leaving and one in which he does.

some place to be at peace by bacondestiny

He remembers the feeling of his head exploding off his body and the earth quaking before him under the weight of millions of titans on the march, remembers the awful ruin and the craters and the puddles and the charred remains as he crawled after them on hundreds of ribs--but all of that is so far away. It’s so far away that he’ll never see it again. All he can see is Mikasa, smiling up at him.

It doesn’t matter what’s flowing through his veins or lurking in his bones or rattling around in his head. What matters is what he has in his arms.

sparkling green by maketea @rosekasa

mikasa wakes up to find eren has done all the work for her.

The hellfire called love by septembersnotes

I hold us together, our lives, our pitiful youth, our days under the sun- shard by shard.

The Red String of Fate by hunnyB

Alone and defeated, Eren sighs and sinks back on the bench, eyes flickering up on Mikasa's seemingly frail frame as she sleeps soundlessly beneath the white bedsheets. He stares at the peacefulness transpiring through her face, glossed lips parted gently, raven hair splayed across the pillow, and thin long eyelashes casting shadows over her cheeks, giving off an extremely pleasant sight to lie eyes upon.

A sight that Eren has always had nearby but never sought, never once stopped to admire.

they are the prey by bacondestiny @inbothourhandsgloria

Eren does not want to be here.

It is sunny and warm and the birds are singing, today is the kind of day that should be spent running through the streets and splashing in the creek. He could be helping Mama with errands or Daddy with mixing medicines or Zeke with the goats. But no. Now he has to stand in this stupid line with Zeke so he can go to school. It’s terrible.

Through the Night by Diphy_D

It’s through the night when Eren’s mind doesn’t stop thinking while his hands don’t stop tracing the profile of the sleeping woman who rests at his side. The boy loses his faith and sinks alone.

And it’s through the night too when Mikasa's sweet touch calms his demons.

“We'll be free. The two of us, just wait”.

To You, 2000 Years From Now. by fetching

“You were dreaming again. What was it about?” He asks, smiling at her.

It takes a great effort not to cry.

This is it. This is home.

“Home,” She breathes. “I was dreaming about coming home.”

to you, at world’s end, a promise by AdelineVW7

She has never been one to sleep deeply, so Eren moves with deliberate gentleness. With only the tips of his fingers he caresses the dark hair splayed upon the pillow, all the while watching the rhythm of her breathing, the flitting movement of a dream beneath her eyelids.

viva la vida by zeninclan

"Mikasa, what am I to you?"

She looked down at him as the crowd watched them, standing face to face.

A soft blush spread across her skin as she stared back at him for a moment, wind pushing through their hair as they stood in silence. They had been friends since childhood. He knew everything about her, and she did the same for him.

"Family," was the answer she landed on. She cursed herself that night for not answering him honestly.

Since then, something had changed in Eren.

Warmth by ApplePapelProductions

His body, against yours. So close, so safe, the bite of the cold, the closeness of death, did not matter. Even in this fleeting moment, only to last a second, it meant more than the entire world. More than the remainders of humanity. More than the world beyond the walls. More than you could have ever imagined, no matter how many times you prayed for it to happen.

It would end soon. Maybe one day, he could tell you that he loved you, too. But until then, this was enough.

when you move I move with you by SapphireOcean

An unrequited crush comes back into Eren's life in an unusual way.

would have married you by enchantingoats

But truly it was beyond that. She was precious to him above all else, and though it was hard to put his finger on the feeling, this attachment, it had to be what they called love.

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imagininggintama · 4 years ago

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Hey so I think you ship kiana with hijikata but do you ship her with anyone else? And do you ship tsukiko with anyone?

So, like, I've had this in my ask box for a while now and I REALLY wanted to hold off until I had written some more imagines, but I keep getting really excited and bouncing at the idea of what I could reply to this whenever I think of it.

So, without further ado~

I SWEAR THE SPIRIT OF TSUKIKO POSSESSED ME FOR A BIT LOL. Also I kind of ended up writing these like lil snippits of how their relationship would go... so uh, I hope it makes sense???

Picrew here

Most of my shipping so far has been really self indulgent roleplays, so first I'll just list characters I like and may have paired her with in roleplays. (Crossed out ones are typically AU specific ones or haven't had enough interaction in rps to really count much imo.) 😗😗😗 Here's the list of characters I like:

Gintoki Sakata, Toushirou Hijikata, Isao Kondo, Utsuro, Shouyo Yoshida, Tsukuyo, Kotarou Katsura, Shinsuke Takasugi, Mutsu, Ayame Sarutobi, Abuto, Kouka

A good number of the people on that list would actually work with Kiana for one major reason: she's extremely patient and sympathetic.

Also most of them fight, and could benefit from a doctor/chef. 😗

I'll do more in-depth explanations under a read more.

For Tsukiko, I'd never really thought about who she might be shipped with, but here are some characters I think she might end up liking:

Kintoki Sakata, Isao Kondo, Sagaru Yamazaki, Shimaru Saitou, Tetsunosuke Sasaki, Nobu Nobu Hitotsubashi, Oboro, Bansai Kawakami, Matako Kijima, Tatsuma Sakamoto, Rappa Momochi, Shirino Douman, Seimei Ketsuno

Again, more in depth under the cut. 😗

Who do you ship Kiana or Tsukiko with?

I'm sorry but most of Kiana's will be more in depth than Tsukiko's... Her spirit possessed me to say "he's hot, she's hot".

Kiana:

Gintoki Sakata - Ignoring the fact that he would give her a second glance purely because she's not stalker-like or incredibly violent towards him (😂), he'd probably first notice her for her cooking. I've written it before, but I believe that Kiana and Kagura would be fairly close, thus leading to her coming over to the Yorozuya to bring food for the growing girl. As time would go on, she would just naturally start to make extra food for Gin and Shinpachi, and maybe even bring some food for Sadaharu too. As much as Gin seems like the type to take advantage of things, he'd start to feel bad for having next to nothing in return for her. She brings them home cooked food, or even just groceries which she uses to cook a meal with. Their pantry has never seen so much food, honestly. He would end up starting to talk to her, getting more curious about her overall life. It would start with an unintentionally insensitive question, "how the hell did someone like gorilla end up with someone like you for a daughter?" Her explanation would make him feel a bit bad, but patience with his ignorance made him feel better. It'd be at this point he starts noticing things-- how good she is with Kagura, getting her to be more polite and well behaved in certain situations, Sadaharu always jumping up to the front door whenever he hears her coming, Shinpachi sharing his interest in Otsu with her... When she become such a big part of their life? He enjoys the nights when she stays over, because the two of them can talk late into the night when Kagura's fallen asleep. While he's not usually one to let his emotions come out, he can't help but end up teasing her with little flirts and silly comments-- she's just too easy to embarrass.

Toushirou Hijikata- To be 100% fair, in a lot of my roleplays or writings, these two like each other but neither realizes the other does. For Kiana, she thinks he and Mitsuba made a cute couple and didn't want to push her way between that... A lot of times in rps or writings, she gets called stupid by... almost everyone for this decision. 😂 As she does with anyone she bothers to cook for, she remembers their favorites and just how they like things. She does try to make them more dietarily healthy for said person, but she still does what she can to appease the taste of whoever is eating it. This is obviously a big thing for Hijikata, as he has to have just the right amount of mayo on his food or else- It's obviously not just about the food, though. He's always admired the way she's able to calm down anybody she talks to and figure out the best way to help them. He honestly thinks she'd be better suited as a doctor in a hospital or regular office somewhere, away from the gruesome life that they lead, but he also can't imagine anyone else in her place. Part of why she works so well is that she's grown up with a lot of the men there, and know how they work. Her selflessness sometimes pisses him off, just because he thinks she deserves so much more than she gets--- but it's not something he can just get rid of either. He likes buying her gifts because some of his soul ascends to heaven whenever she gives him that child-like excited smile when she gets it. He gets pretty protective over her, even when he doesn't know she likes him too.

Tsukuyo- We already know that Tsukuyo is kind of like a moth and is attracted towards bright and warm things. She's also protective of women, so depending on how the story ends up going, she would definitely gravitate towards the dark haired girl. (One AU I did in RP was that Kiana got kidnapped and sold to Yoshiwara, to which Tsukuyo helped her leave.) She would encrouage Kiana to open up and share her troubles, which may or may not include telling her about her crush on a certain Vice Chief... Tsukuyo would end up trying to get her to come around more often, since she sees the Shinsengumi as not appreciating her enough--especially the idiot who didn't notice she had a huge fucking crush on him. During their times together, Kiana would end up openly holding her hand or onto her arm, leaning against her when they sat together... Poor Tsukuyo would be so flustered, and yet Kiana still wouldn't understand her feelings towards the blonde-- just that she felt safe and comfortable. After they end up sharing their feelings and start dating, Tsukuyo is even more protective over her. She insists she stay the weekends with her, since, as she would say, "they don't deserve to have you working on and off the clock, you need a break." She doesn't accept no for an answer. Despite being seen as a super violent drunk with Gintoki, she becomes super cuddly and affectionate with Kiana--to the point she refuses to let anyone tell her about the nights she got drunk. Do NOT tell her that she almost cried when Kiana said she was taken...

Kotarou Katsura- While he would initially be hesitant about even interacting with her, one day it would just happen. She doesn’t recognize him, and if someone tells her... It’s not her job to arrest people; especially if she’s treating him medically. It would be against protocol to tell anyone about a patient she’s treating. She understands why the Shinsengumi are after him, but she honestly doesn’t see him as a bad person-- and she’ll tell him that. Unlike a lot of other factions, there aren’t nearly as many casualties from his. It would take longer for these two to become close, as he can’t casually take a stroll in the park as others can. He ends up coming about the Yorozuya more often, hoping to run into her on a day she’s hanging out with Kagura. There’s something about her warmth and kindness that draws him to wanting to just... be around her. Perhaps it’s that he sees Gin likes her and he wants to cuck him. He tries his hardest to not bring his more hectic problems of his lifestyle into her own, but it can happen from time to time. He is curious about her wide array of knowledge and is really impressed by her loyalty to her family. He understands what it’s like to fight like hell to stay near the ones you love and care about. When he’s with her, he feels the world is a bit of a calmer and more peaceful place, even if he knows this isn’t true. They have an agreement that he won’t tell her about how he almost died, but to call her if he ever needs an emergency surgery or anything of the sort.

Shinsuke Takasugi- Their meeting usually in my writings ends up being because she was kidnapped, believing her to be Tsukiko. If they can work through the initial barriers, it can actually be a fairly cute relationship. Another one who would tease her relentlessly, though. He’s not usually one to let her know of his plans, though, as he does know whatever they might be will surely upset her. While not usually one for PDA, he will certainly overdo it if he’s also dating Gintoki or Katsura. (or if he even knows they like her) He’s another one who would benefit from her patience and empathy, though. She’ll never pressure anyone into talking about a subject that bothers them, but is always willing to lend an ear should they want to talk. While she doesn’t agree with the way he’s going about things, she wouldn’t try and make him stop. She just asks that he be careful when fighting, and if he can try to avoid killing certain people she’d appreciate it. 😭 (I might add onto this later, but my brain is giving me sudden writer’s block for him.)

Mutsu- Kiana would definitely know exactly how much food to give the Yato, as she’s used to feeding Kagura (who can almost eat as much as the Shinsengumi.) She would grow very curious of Mutsu and her life, asking her questions about space and being in awe of the stories she tells. Kiana hasn’t left Earth before, so she’s very interested in what it’s like out in space or on other planets. The two end up spending a lot of time together, which leads to Mutsu growing fond and protective over the human girl. Don’t mess with her squishy girlfriend, she’ll rip you a new one. 😂

Ayame Sarutobi- Sacchan would end up first starting to grow fond of her during those times that Gintoki ignores her, but Kiana is asking if she’s okay or if she wants some food. This would happen again and again, her bringing food to one of her hiding places at the Yorozuya, or bandaging her up after she’s been kicked roughly by Gin. She may be an M, but she loves teasing the girl after she’s grown attached to her. She gets so squirmy and flustered and she just thinks it’s adorable. Bonus points if both she and Gin are dating Kiana, because then she can enjoy Gin teasing Kiana. 😍

Abuto- A lot of times these two end up meeting during one of those kidnapping scenarios, to which he’s actually very sympathetic towards her. He’ll try to make her more comfortable in the situation at hand and ends up just sitting and talking with her for a while. He wants to know more about her as a person, since by this point they obviously know she’s not the model. He’s impressed with her knowledge, especially after she’s read every single book he’s offered her to read, and even more so with her cooking. He usually ends up sharing his room with her when he tries to make her more comfortable, which ends up with her falling asleep on him a lot--especially if she’s refusing to put a book down when she’s tired. By the time he’s started liking her, whether she likes him or not, he’ll help her escape. He signed up for this kind of life... she didn’t deserve to be there. If he goes to Earth to hide, she’ll help him find a place and a job and pay for things until he can fully afford them on his own. She becomes very protective over Abuto when they’re together, even though she knows he can hold his own. (In one RP, she almost refused to go back to the Shinsengumi because Hijikata and Okita kept pointing out that Abuto was a pirate and couldn’t be a good guy. This was after she invited them to come meet him, so of course she was upset they were just trash talking him.)

Tsukiko:

Kintoki Sakata- Okay, okay; I can see Tsukiko openly trying to date Kintoki PURELY to fuck with Gintoki. She has absolutely 0 interest in him, but in the situation he and Kiana are dating... she would think it’s absolutely hilarious how much Kin annoys Gin. Could their relationship work beyond that? Possibly, but I think they would both find it hilarious how much it annoys Gin. Tsukiko wants to be close to her sister, and thus would bring Kin along whenever she knew Gin would be there.

Tae Shimura- The two would bond over stalkers, and honestly? That sometimes leads to relationships. (bonding over something you hate). It might not ever move past the friendship phase, but it’s a big thing they would bond over.

Isao Kondo- In a universe where he’s not her sister’s adoptive father, she would actually find him pretty cute. She would definitely be willing to wait for him to get over Tae and notice her... and if that doesn’t work she’ll shamelessly flirt with him. 👀

Sagaru Yamazaki- The next three have one major thing in common: men she could tease and make them super flustered. She thinks it’s adorable, honestly. Although she would probably laugh her ass off if she ever saw Mountain Zaki.

Shimaru Saitou- Something that would be really cute here is, Tsukiko would understand he has trouble verbally speaking and while she does tease him relentlessly (she would never go overboard and would stop if whoever she’s teasing asks her), I think she’d be willing to learn sign language and teach it to him so they could communicate without verbal words.

Tetsunosuke Sasaki- Someone she would just aboslutely love to tease and beyond that, would be supportive of him. While she teases him, she understands that he’s hard-working, loyal, and so very determined.

Nobu Nobu Hitotsubashi- He just thinks he’s hot. 🤷‍♀️ She knows he’s an ass, but again... He’s hot? Might’ve given him a chance when he actually steps up. 👀

Oboro- Another one she thinks is hot. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ Would be willing to give him a chance, but she might give up after a few rejections.

Bansai Kawakami- ANOTHER ONE she thinks is hot. Doesn’t think they would work out, but would totally be down for a make-out session. 👀👀👀

Matako Kijima- Bad girls are hot. 👀 Would definitely ask her out more than once, but would give up if she honestly showed no interest.

Tatsuma Sakamoto- She thinks he is HILARIOUS and loves it, but doesn’t think they could be in a serious relationship.

Rappa Momochi- Honestly??? She wants to play dress up with her. Def thinks she’s hot though. 💯

Shirino Douman- Bad boys are also hot. 👀 willing to actually give him a chance though.

Seimei Ketsuno- Aside from being hot, she admires his dedication to his sister. Finds it comforting since it’s similar to herself. Is not weirded out by the occult, so could definitely work out. 👀

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hoyaanae · 4 years ago

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The beautiful dialogue of Lovely Us

Ep 01

"Once people become parents, their memory begins to become biased. They always remember they are their children's most reliable parents, but often forget that they are also children loved by their own parents. When they are waiting for their children to come back home, they forget that their own parents are also waiting for their return in a similar mood."

"When I'm absent from the concert, my idol won't know or feel sad. But when I don't go back to accompany my mom to celebrate her birthday, she'll know it. I don't want to make her sad."

Ep 02

"A lot of things are good at hide and seek - the old scarf I bought last year, the new eraser, Mom's favorite sewing needle, and a feeling of heartbeat for someone. We try to find them, but in vain. Then when we give it up, they just appear somewhere unexpected - on the back of the chair, in the book, in the cotton thread, and behind my back.

Human heart beats 60 to 100 times per minute on average. That day, I failed to count my heartbeat per minute. Even the water droplets falling from the umbrella were disrupted together with me. The joy, the thrill and the butterfly in the stomach converged into the restless heartbeats. On this raining day, a girl's heart beat 101 times in a minute."

Ep 03

"Huang Chengzi, why is the starry sky beautiful? Do you think it is because of the brightest star? Of course, everyone might say "Look, the Venus" while pointing at the brightest one. However, for those stars shining together and forming the Big Dipper and Orion, don't they look beautiful? They cannot be described as a foil. Anyway, I think some stars that keep shining might be more beautiful than the brightest one however dark they are."

Ep 07

"The audio frequency of the sound when a snowflake falls on the water surface is over 50,000 Hz. Because it falls beyond human beings' hearing range, this snowy day is still so quiet that it seems I can only hear my own heartbeat and that it seems there is only me and the person in front of me on this planet with a population of 6.6 billion. I hope this world can be noiser so that I can pretend that I've never discovered this secret."

"Do you have such a feeling? People around you always tell you that you are already standing on the top of the mountain, but when clouds and mist scatter, you find there is another higher peak waiting for you. After going out, I've found there are so many people who work harder and are more excellent than me. It's just like in an originally easy marathon race, I suddenly find all the people around are sprinting. So, I must run faster. Otherwise, others will surpass me. I'm a little bit out of breath."

"At the age of 17, we all have our own secrets. We are trying to hide those secrets, but they are still going to be discovered. We are unwilling to admit those secrets, but the more we conceal them, the more conspicuous they become. We are very clear about those secrets, but eventually, we are still willing to turn them into memories. And these secrets that cannot be told, are found so similar to each other after a long time. It turns out they are all about unexpected feelings for someone."

Ep 08

"I've always been content with what I have and I'm in need of nothing. I can remember what I read and I'm surrounded by nice people. My life has always been smooth and I thought the life that had been planned was not bad for me. Just like a sailing ship, with enough food, I didn't look forward to rains and storms. I just wanted to follow the prescribed route and go back fo the safe zone of the harbor in the end. That was my perfect ending. But from the very beginning, you've been determined to brave the storm and to see the bigger world. Wind and rain can't knock you down and the waves can't overturn you. You've shown me a life course that's completely different from mine. So, since her dream is to explore this world, I just can't let her go through it alone. Zhu Jinxiao, I like you."

"At the age of 17, the first habit developed by boys is to hide their affections. They think that the probability is just 0.01, so they put on the emperor's new clothes, trying to hide their affections with magic. But affections are not that easy to hide. Even if the probability is pretty low, it will be revealed at a certain moment. So on that rainy night, while looking at her back, he found that the most obvious evidence of falling in love with her was the feeling of easement in his heart and the smile on his face when he looked at her."

Ep 09

"In the past, we always felt a year with 365 days was exceedingly long, but only when it comes to this moment do we understand that we become one year older all of a sudden. The significance of spending the Spring Festival, extending from ancient times to the present, is shining brightly like fireworks, giving us the courage to heal each other many times. And then we can have a new start. It doesn't matter that you can't eat steaming hot dishes. It doesn't matter that you perhaps don't know the secret hidden in the couplet. It doesn't matter that you listen to your grandma's nagging sometimes. Even if it takes too long on the way back, as long as there are people we care about, we won't be lonely. We will return to the home we are familiar with."

Ep 10

"Actually we never forget the happy hours with our parents in childhood. Maybe the so-called alienation is because we walk so fast while our parents are staying where they are. One meter, a hundred meters, a kilometer. The distance becomes farther and farther until we can't hear them calling us. That's why we mistakenly think love is silent. So while we are confused, our parents feel the same too. They are confused about how they can give us their deep love in a smart manner."

"Those who love hiding their feelings most in this world are fathers. They hide their inarticulate concerns in warm lights. In every precious certificate of merit, they put their unmentionable encouragement. Besides, there are many silent surprises they carefully arrange in every day when we are marching to the future. They firmly care about us with such silent fathers' love, and we firmly love them."

Ep 11

"We think that many things and many people in this world can wait til tomorrow. So when you pause it or when you turn around, you think that everything will still be the same tomorrow, or you won't even realize this hope in your mind, because you think tomorrow should be the same as today. And you think nothing will change as time flies by. But this time, the moment you let go and turned around, some things completely changed. The sun went down and before it rises again, some people will leave you forever. We always thought that there would be a big ceremony to say goodbye, so we keep waiting for a warm hug, a refreshing drink, and a heartfelt goodbye. But in the end, we realized that most goodbyes in our lives are all silent."

Ep 12

"At that silent corner in my mind, there are a number of weird illusions. For example, can I become Alice who enters the wonderland with White Rabbit? For example, can I become the little girl who enters the forest with Totoro? For example, is there some special switch in this box which can teleport me? No, none of them exist. There's no flying dragons or knights, and I'm not the heroine of some comics for girls, either. However, the only thing I'm sure about is that this escape greatly shocks my world. My palms would sweat, and my sight would be indistinct. Then my view becomes narrower and narrower until there's room for only one person in my eyes. After a long time, I know such a moment is named adventure, in which the one in your eyes is irreplaceable."

Ep 13

"In the summer of 2008, in retrospect, the most impressive thing may not be the world-famous Olympic Games, but the silly things we did because we were fearless. What is shining and unexpected is everything that is closely related to friendship. We wanted to pick the brightest stars and make the most beautiful wishes, so we became the bravest boys and girls. While crying and laughing, with the bond between each other, toward the most beautiful end of youth, we keep running all the way and never stop."

"The familiar chirping of cicadas on summer nights, the familiar bear doll who must lean by the lamb, the familiar lovely girl who frowns even when she sleeps, and the 17-year-old time wrapped by the sense of familiarity never seem to have changed. The only difference is that when I look at the familiar him, I feel a flurry and uneasiness that I have never expected."

Ep 14

"That night, it was the first time I found there's magic hidden in my mom's smile. Those feelings between adults and children which I thought are hard to express in words don't have to be spoken out. They can be understood through her smile. Indeed, adults don't often say I love you, and seldom say sorry. But it doesn't matter. Action speaks louder than explanation. There's no need to express deep feelings in words. If you stand there quietly, you can automatically receive all their love for you."

"There are many new days like today. Today, he holds my hand. Today, he holds me in his arms. Today, he carries me on his back and runs in the street in the early morning. Many days with him like today will eventually become my unforgettable past days. I'll remember days like today for a long time."

Ep 15

"In the last hundred days, I heard countless times "Hurry up to walk! Hurry up to eat! Hurry up to take the notes! And hurry up to go to the toilet." But it's strange. When you try to seize time by the forelock, it goes faster. Then after the exams, we graduated."

"I just want to be an ordinary person. I'll live on a small fruit stand in the future or continue your small shop, which makes me happy. This is life. It's my own choice and I will bear the results. Different people have different dreams. Let those extraordinary people be extraordinary. I just want to be a happy and ordinary person."

"Friendship means so much to us. It brings us close, and makes me flinch, so sometimes we just tell ourselves that as long as we're together, I can be just a friend of hers. But the taxi that I failed to catch, the phone calls that have been hung up, the time that's flying and my restless heart are telling me eagerly that in this world, both love and friendship are important. Every detail related to you is reminding me that we can't be just friends. So when it's still not too late, I have to tell you the things that I want to tell you as soon as possible. Huang Chengzi, I like you."

Ep 16

"In this world, it seems like all wishes have a guardian. Wishing wells, shooting stars, the aquarium's white whale. They're all hiding in the corners of the universe caressing the sorrow of loving someone alone. It's just that the god of happiness can't bless everyone out there. They let some people be happy and their wishes come true, and let some be sad, but they can't admit how sad they really are. The feeling of being in love is like a butterfly gently flapping its wings, that stirs up a hurricane in people's hearts. The second you realize it, then there's no escape."

"That's you when you're happy. And that's you when you're mad. Over there is the jealous you, and you when you're being naughty and pretending to cry. I was just going to draw one to start with, but every expression you have is floating around in my head, and I really love every single one of them."

"I've never been afraid of growing up. And I've never worried that growing up would be lonely. Not because I'm so strong, but because I have faith that I will never be alone. The guy who held my hand will continue to grow up closely together with me. The guy who's in my diary and I in his, will exchange even more secrets in the future. All of us have walked together through the years and will continue to walk together farther into the future. This world never lets lovely people down, and we are all lovely."

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