#also im stupid and still cant believe i deleted my entire tumblr

[dreamindolls]

do u still have ur old asks?

aa i was able to save some! I had them in a doc cause I was planning on working on them at the time before i accidentally deleted my account

o heck i actually saved more than i thought akjhsdf i tend to work on multiple at a time cause i have No self control and also i like overwhelming myself apparently

If you wanna know which ones i was able to save its there:

- hello! I really like your writing!! would it be possible to have a sick giyuu with a s/o that takes care of him? I really want to see him get taken care of :3 thank you so much and have a great day!!

- Rengokus eyes are so appealing and gorgeous!!! It makes me want to melt. Legit cant stop staring st them.Can I request a #132 for him?? Alsooo have a pleasant day!

- Gaaah okay so watching the anime of Kny and let me just say Rengokus eyes are likee so intense and beautiful sooo can I request a number 132.Have a wonderful day or night my dude :))

- Achicilove: I’m sorry i took a wrong list ;__; my tumblr isn’t arranged by date *cries in the corner* but well here iam ask for request again :3 and this sentence “you’re adorable” should be put in here too huahahaha I literally love your writing! Take me as ur fan x3 So i’m requesting for no. 168 “sometimes i just cant control myself when around you” with BLUSHING GIYUU *internal scream* and maybe a lil nsfw :3 (if allowed) Looking forward to your writingss!! Fighting and have a good day~

- I need more Giyuu, please!!! May I request fluff prompt 138 (“Your smile is beyond gorgeous… please, keep doing it.”)?

- I heard something about a drunk Giyuu??? 👀 So can I request a drabble of how Giyuu would act towards his s/o while returning to headquarters intoxicated. Please let it be fluffy & wholesome btw,,,   BTW HUN… YOUR WRITING IS SOOO GOOD TO READ AND YOUR PORTRAYAL OF GIYUU IS JUST MWAH MWAH PERFECT HONESTLY. ❤❤❤

- Electra: listen lol, how about a kimetsu academy au, where lil s/o keeps going to tanjiro’s fam’s bakery to see tanjiro and drop a hint but theyre rrlly shy and tanjiro’s like “wow this person really likes bread : D”

- oh no.. okay ill request again! can i get a scenario of rengoku tenderly holding shy s/os hand and they’re having a tender moment but mitsuri walks in and starts freaking out abt how cute they are and rengoku agrees and s/o dies haha

- Just wanted to say I love your writing!!! Always love reading your work 😭 Could I request headcanons for giyuu with an s/o (pref gender neutral) who is taller than him and often rests their chin on his head, goes on abt how cute their “tiny” boyfriend is please?

- Do you think I can get a scenario with Giyuu and Sanemi having feelings for the reader where they both try and fight for her and Giyuu’s trying really hard to win over her feelings and he manages to win her over in the end. Bc Giyuu deserves the best needs some love and attention as always :’)

[bugli-bugli]

TW: insults towards depression and anxiety, toxic behavior, father/parent mention, trauma discussion, self-harm mention, suicide idealization

just a rant because im just too fucking tired of the bullshit of other sites.

i’ve really taken for granted how non-toxic tumblr is in the nice little corner i’ve tucked myself into. since i’m pretty desperate for money, cause now i think ill just have to live off disability if i can even get it.

I gotta say my mutuals and the people who reblogged my donation post, im so fucking grateful for you and i cant thank you enough. but besides the point, rant.

posted my donation post on twitter and later reddit, like the naive fool i am. the first comment i got on the twitter one was very homophobic and the guy was just an overall creep upon a quick look on his tumblr. i responded to him but immediately deleted it cause i knew thats all he wanted was to make me angry. think i was able to get him banned but fuck if i know.

this is more about the lovely reddit post i got

sigh im not going to bother replying and i just reported them, but i wanted to get out of me all the shit i wanted to say. just, first of all i know trolls and shit just do this to get attention, but this on the fucking r/donate subreddit like??? why isn’t it moderated better?? besides the point

i dont care if you believe my donation post is a scam, whatever, believe what you want and move on. i understand there is a lot of people out there trying to get money they can easily get themselves, instead they take it from goodhearted people.

you need to grow the fuck up. i redirect back at this person because, you spent your time, what? hating on a post that might be a scam. and they regularly do this to from just a quick look. so immature and annoying. this hurts so fucking much to hear too cause it strikes a perfect nerve of trauma.

anxiety and depressions are perfectly valid reasons to not be able to hold down a job. they sound like my fucking dad. i have panic attacks when people raise their voice or if there is too much going on around me, like tvs and crowds and what not.

ive mostly been sleeping lately and cant even make myself do simple physical tasks. not just because of my depression but because of my chronic joint pain that i still haven’t fucking got working medication for yet.

plus i have 472147921 other disorders that i havent been able to get diagnosed or help yet because of my stupid fucking parents. who finally are getting me help after years upon years of having obvious mental issues. ONLY BECAUSE a big argument that my sister had to speak for me in, because i went nonverbal and was hysterically laughing because my dad denying he called me fat.

but yeah i cant even brush my teeth, or shower, the only hygiene habits i have are because if i didnt do them my brain would make me have a panic attack or some intrusive thoughts of self harm.

how is it fucking entitled to ask strangers to donate, H O W? i dont think i deserve this, i dont think that im better then other people, im posting this because others who are in similar/worse situations posting donation posts gave me the confidence to do so.

yes im so entitled to be begging on my hands and knees for money because capitalism and my body and mind are working against me. im not even saying HEY DONATE AND IF YOU DONT DONATE YOU ARE A FUCKING HORRIBLE HUMAN BEING. or anything even remotely close to that.

i gave the needed information and background as to why we would need money, and why we struggle to get it ourselves. and asked that people at least share, but there is no obligation to go any of these things.

i know i cant live my entire life on freelance transcription but it is LITERALLY THE ONLY JOB I CAN GET. yeah just simply go out and get a real job, because you can totally form sentences around strangers and dont feel like you are going to throw up from anxiety. its not that hard.

i totally have the endurance to do whatever it is necessary in whatever shitty ass 8 hour shift job i could get, because every step i take doesn’t physically hurt. because after walking too much, my knees wont give out ever, that never happens. because i dont have a fear of failure because my dad totally didn’t get mad at me when i took to long to learn something. i have no trauma related to that at all. im a totally capable human being. 

all of these last two paragraphs are sarcasm btw if that wasn’t obvious

i dont even know what couch sufing on craigslist even is. i had to look it up. how is that advice, how. oh yeah just live on other peoples couches, people you dont even know. thats not dangerous at all like HUH?!?! fuck no. if i wanted to get myself killed id do it myself.

also shelters are totally safe, and never have any issues whatsoever. i didnt ask for fucking advice that was going to make our situation worse you p.o.s.

also i know what im fucking doing, im researching and trying to make the most feasible and realistic plan to leave. even if that is i have freelance transcribing jobs and disability and my sister has whatever job and my so probably in the same boat as me. im not just going to move out without the needed things unless i was kicked out. which, as of the moment, none of us are currently at risk of that, yet.

if it really came down to it where Brutus would need to be rehomed, we’d probably do it. but he means so fucking much to us, we dont want to rehome him because we dont have anyone we can fucking trust to take care of him and we arent just going to give him away to whoever. Brutus and my pets and my sisters are all part of our family, and we aren’t just going to fucking give them away.

whatever, the rage is gone, im tired and i want to cry, this wasn’t posted for attention or anything i just wanted to rant. please dont leave negative comments im not in the goddamned mood.

[beepsrichie]

psa: grab your fucking tea.

alright, so this week has been fucking wild but i’m tired of seeing people believing shit without having any proof. seriously, learn to ask before aimlessly follow someone around like so god damn lost puppy.

a couple days ago my friend did a shitpost alright and it was all fun and games, trust me! but a few people really took it seriously and started asking questions and even reblogged it wondering if we were actually in a fight or not. to prove that it was all fake i sent my friend a message which can be found under here. just a heads up guys, if we [eddiesghost and i] were ever in a huge fight i wouldn’t make a call out post or even mention it to the public because, the fuck, what do i get out of that?

the point is, this big mistake actually turned out to be good. the night when people thought we were in a fight we all decided to turn anon off and just call it a day. the next morning i woke up to find a message asking for me to privately message them.

side note: you see that url in the pic? wolfhardgrazerstruth? mm, fucking report them please. you’ll see why soon.

this person started off casual, asking me questions about eddiesghost and what happened between us. i hate lying, but i just had a hunch that this was the anon that has been harassing me and my friends for almost a month now, so i played their game. i fed them bullshit saying stuff about eddiesghost just to get on their side and it worked for some time until said person introduced me to someone else. oh, by the way, these people are fucking massive fack shippers.

this is when she introduced me to the other person, on the same fucking account.

me @ them. its a fucking cult, you guys. i aint joking.

lets just get down to business now. you tell me your thoughts if this shit ain’t unsettling and fucked.

oh wow. apparently only having 1k means you are pathetic and you cant defend yourself. shucks. thanks for the fucking tip. ill shove that advice up my ass.

oh wait- but lets bring out the big guns now.

she wanted me to make a call out post about eddiesghost.

sigh. more of the ‘prove yourself’ bullshit.

this person wanted me to write a call out post about eddiesghost. im sure a few of you saw me post one last night, but i deleted it a couple of hours later after i reported and blocked the person.

but the twisted thing is- she wanted me to be nasty as fuck in my call out post. she wanted it to do eddiesghost bad, to ruin her image to the point she just deactivates and vanishes from tumblr. the actual fuck? i was speaking to satan himself. lord.

also, this bish gave me a fucking time limit. jfc. she gave me two hours.

first copy i sent to her, she said it wasnt mean enough and how it could improve.

make it up if you must. hmm.

when i sent her a another copy of what i wrote, she offered a few suggestions to improve the post.

huh, thats strange. “the only reason shes so very against fack is because shes actually interested in jack”

do me a favorite and just-

seems familiar? check out this post.

when things started getting uncomfortable she noticed my hesitation and was getting upset at the fact the call out post wasnt getting enough attention. she thought it was because of the lack of information i added. i would just like to add i didnt mention any of the jack shit she wanted me to add. thats just so fucking wrong. my response to her asking me if i still had feelings for eddiesghost was this:

eventually i reported the blog and blocked them, but she still reached out to me since before heading to bed i turned my anon back on knowing she was gonna message me.

the underlined things in red are stuff that are considered as threats and to show you that this person, is not in the right. honestly, she sounds like an adult, whoever this may be. and the fact shes a fack shipper is concerning. even if i am wrong, kid or not, its still fucked up what shes been doing for the past couple of weeks. 

anon, if you are reading this, i just wanted to say you are delusional as fuck. spreading false information everywhere is just childish and fucking disgusting. grow the hell up. you’re lucky that my friend eddiesghost is one strong motherfucker. keep it up, we’ll just go on with our day. but i’m hoping this fucking post shines a fucking light on your stupidity and people can wake the fuck up and learn to take take information seriously without proof.

if you guys want more information, just message me. i’ll be turning my anon off for a while cause i dont wanna deal with anymore of this shit. if you are curious, dont be a coward and just message me for the stuff. want the entire convo, including what i said? sure, just ask. i dont give a damn! i got nothing to hide. i was taking one for the team to try and figure out who were these people.

by the way, their ‘group’ has around five members apparently. but theres a fucking bigger cult of them somewhere on twitter and insta probably. also this person has been following eddiesghost, eddiesbadbreak and me for a while now, according to this person. they been doing so to keep an eye on us which is fucking creepy if you ask me. if you guys have more information about this, please do enlighten me cause its just...yeah. 

oh, by the way- lets take a closer look at something.

huh- whats that?