#also iirc my mom abandoned me on an odd year lmao

[moss-sprouted]

huh i just realized i think odd number years are really unlucky for me

i dont think even numbers are particularly more lucky, but im realizing a lot of my bad years are odd numbers and the even ones are less bad

2013 was when i was groomed and had basically no one after my first real breakup, 2015 was when we were evicted from a house we lived in for years, 2017 is when my sister ran away and i got dumped 3 times, 2019 i was in a few toxic situations and ended a relationship for a bit, 2021 i had a psychotic break and ended up ruining 2 relationships, and 2023 i have been having health crisis after health crisis and our entire house has decided to break

like the even numbers werent great either but they Have been better, or had a couple led bad things but werent constant, though i guess they were often bad for the rest of the world (2016,2020, etc) and a few bad things Did happen in those years but they werent as consistently horrible

but 2022 i felt happier and got to do a lot of stuff i enjoy, 2020 is when i met my current partner and a lot of friends even if i dont talk to many of them anymore, i think 2018 was mostly chill and the ones before then

well, that gives me hope 2024 will be better, or less traumatizing