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10/27/19 - couple day recap

Let's see what I remember.

I've been taking the lions mane mushroom for about 5 days now and it's incredible stuff. I was reminiscing on the past and I felt really bad about those three years. The more I thought about it, the more real that shit hit me. It was like a dream before, but now I remember how incredibly fucked that whole thing was....Jesus that made me feel bad. So I had to make it up to my parents in some way. I dropped $50 on some rhodiola rosea, and lions mane mushroom 8:1 extract from

and it's arriving tomorrow.

Both are NOT psychoactive, because I know my parents are leery of psychoactive substances like piracetam, but I think these two herbs are going to break the ice for them.

It's weird, my mom was just like no, I don't want to take tour drugs, and I'm like just try it. It's strange to me that that dynamic evolved in our relationship. Where they just shut me down for no reason. Even Dr. Powers said the Rhodiola Rosea was good stuff. And I'm SURE she would say the same about the extract. That shit is blowing my mind on a daily basis. Just so clean and light in my brain now... it's a miracle.

So I bought them that gift and I really hope they like it as much as I did.

On Friday, I was reminiscing on Tamara around 5pm and my music was cooperating. I started to feel depresses and I was like, you know what would go great with this depression? some beer. So I debated that for a couple minutes and bought some beer in the end. I went over to Dane's house shared a beer with him It also gave him two Rhodiola Rosea's and the lion's mane extract. He said he felt better after taking them and he sipped really slowly on the beer because he had to work again. And he has $40 to his name. He's massively in debt so I feel terrible and I want to help cuz he's working so much. We talked about bankruptcy and he said he's starting to a lawyer about it. We watched on my way the music video and I need some of that freedom in that video. Then I went next door and talked with Ben had a really great conversation with him. I was in such a good head space that day. like I went up to Jones after that and it was such a great conversation, I'm just not doing it justice, and I was like tripping in jerren's room after smoking weed. I think it was the beer that made me like trips so hard with the lion's mane. In the beer tasting so so good oh my god it was delicious. And it was low calorie PBR with 4% alcohol. After drinking a little bit I was so liberated It was incredible. I'm Tyson and Jeremy both like "you are like on a life trip" and I was. I was freaking tripping on life just being so liberated. Now it's up to me to harvest what the mushroom is giving me.

Didn't do much yesterday. Went for a walk up there's a long walk over to Lindsey Gardens and then up to 12 and then to the meridian and down and I bought a 4% peach saison and it was delicious and it was a 22 so I had barely any alcohol. I just sipped on it for like an hour and a half. Listen to some album one by San Holo outside and then Mia joined me. All she did was b**** about her friends Siana giving her tickets to get freaky to someone else. That was all she was talking about. The whole time. I feel bad for her, her world is disintegrating.

Today I woke up at 5:00 because of Jerren's music. 2 minutes after I woke up Yuri came over and knocked on my door and smoked me out. He smoked so much weed. He packed a super fat bowl, and I took two hits and I was like I'm good, plenty high right now. And he proceeded to finish the bowl, which was like 10 hits. Then we smoked a cigarette, we came back in and he packed another bowl. I took another hit, and there was still another hit in it. We listened to some music and talked about how he thinks Lorenzo is dealing Meth out of the house (Lorenzo is not) and he thinks Vadym is smoking meth (idk, he can't be smoking it because it would stink, and I haven't smelled anything). He also told me about how he was diagnosed with schizophrenia before. This fucking disease is way more common than you would think, it's just there's no awareness for it. That's why I always tell people I have schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder. Because I need to normalize it in society. GET RID of the stigma.

Went back to sleep and woke up at like 12:00. Smoked the rest of that weed. Saw that it was 5 years of 1989. I ate my leftover dinner which was teriyaki chicken with russet potatoes and it was delicious. Then Jerren came down and made the best biscuits and gravy I've ever had. It was good for the first time ever. And it was so good. Then the day passed by. Then Jenny called me at like 4:00 or 5:00 and brought me dinner. Then Dustin came over, and it was the three of us.

I don't like Gini. I always feel like her energy is pressing on me and I really don't like that. Like I really don't.

Then Gini left, and me and Dustin meditated. I gave him some CBD and Lion's Mane Mushroom extract and he was feelin it the same way as me. I'm so excited my parents get to try their first nootropics.

Anyway that's about it for the weekend. Hopefully Jerren takes me to a party next weekend, for Halloween.

Ttyl

-Ls

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