#also idc if this flops and im sure this has been done shes just a special album to me

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feel free to rb if you want :-) i forgot polls are limited to ten options so specify in the tags for the last one!!

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Episode 6 - “The Level of Disgust I Have” - Karen

so i flopped in the arena.. but i do be staying sitting pretty considering the fact that i’ve survived every tribal with no votes even when my name is brought up! so cheers to that 

So I've just blown up the entire Miraitowa chat exposing Nicole and Jacob C as fantastic liars, yet Sammy doesnt have enough sense in his head to make his own decisions and go with the more trustworthy people. Honestly pray for a swap because this tribe is a fucking mess and the returnees are just picking off all the newbies, making this season boring as shit.

So, that boring ass alliance of 4 with Eve on the bottom probably wont break up for anything. That sucks, but I still have my extra vote. If Landen can win immunity, they'll all want to vote Eve, so then I can reveal to Eve and Landen I have an extra vote. Then we all vote together and make those bitches go to rocks and make this shit actually entertaining.

I honestly feel two things 1) I’m a fool and 2) I’m leaving this round. I just feel like it’s my time and it just sucks because I got played into doing all the dirty work for a bunch of stinky little men. So here’s the lowdown of what happened: I explained in my last confessional that we voted out Pete and that I felt like I was going to get fucked over because I was doing all the talking! Well. Essentially that. Basically when Pete came back there was a lot of information spilled and I was left to try to tell the truth without telling the whole truth (which was that we built this tribe to kill the newbies off which NOW IM NOT EVEN SURE IS TRUE.) So Landen tells us that Juls told Sammy and Jacob about her power, not just TOLD SAMMY AND JACOB. Offered to use her power on Jacob and Sammy. And they said NO and let it be used on Landen, essentially putting Kevin in the hot seat. So I’m kind of mad. I think I’m leaving this round like I just feel it in my gut but, maybe not. Who knows, who cares, I’m tired. 

Counting helped at my grandma's place to unwind. Not hearing boring, inane tripe from Darcy also helps. He's boring. I hate boring people. Also he voted for me, so why trust him? 

So I found out Eve left me for dead as well and she flips to them for no reason instead of talking to the person she’s been with since day 1. At the start i told her i’m watching her back for her and I’ve done that, now that I try talking to her out of fear for her safety, she doesn’t care to talk. It’s okay though that’s the game, it’s good that I know that now though so i don’t waste my extra vote lol

First off, I once again had no luck in the Olympic Village, nothing in the pool, so if something was there, someone else must have found the things already.  Secondly, a trio was formed between Tommy, Beck and I, where I already told both of them that I wanted to go to merge with them both, and that is 100% the truth, I trust those two the most on my tribe at the moment, and been having the best talks with them both in this game so far on my tribe.   So I would love making merge with the two of them.   Thirdly, I won individual immunity, which I actually think this is my first time winning individual immunity in an org, so am grateful to achieve that goal, although I didn't have to go all out to the 10k mark lmao.   Also, from what I got told from Tommy, Ben wanted to get me out if I had lost this immunity, so being safe feels that much greater, and I want Ben out now moment he isn't immune.  Plus had Ben call me a no lifer in the main chat after results got posted, so of course, I had to try to defend myself somewhat, as I'm not going to stand around and get claimed a no lifer, even though it is partially the truth due to being unemployed, but I do hang out with friends and stuff.  Anyways, Ben did apologize shortly afterwards for his words, which I appreciate the apology, but that doesn't change the fact that I want him out asap, since well he wants me out.   In terms of this vote though, if everything goes good, I think it will be Juls getting the boot, but we shall see what happens.  I am safe for this round, and made final 17, so no matter what I am safe, just hopefully my allies in Tommy and Beck can both survive this vote as well.

I think we've come to the end of the road for me, which sucks. I really don't want to lose this game, especially so early. I hate big casts, truly. Anyway, either way this night is gonna fuck me over. Two things could be happening tonight: 1) I get rid of Jacob and then Kevin is mad at me, Sammy is mad I got rid of Jacob, I sever my ties with Beck and Juls, I have to rely on my returnee ties and new newbie ties but, the new newbies don't like me either. So I'd essentially be screwed, but I've already promised it. 2) We get rid of Eve, and I lie to Eve, AGAIN. Which I really don't want to do. Although she's a little bit of a wishy washy woman, I don't want to betray Eve's trust because she's actually so sweet, and I'd value a friendship with her going forward in this game. I think I normally succeed in games where I can cultivate genuine friendships and feel like I truly have someone to rely on. I think I'm seeing that more and more with Kevin and Karen, but I don't know if that's 100% genuine either. Either way I'm not winning this game, so if I lose tonight I'll just reduce it down to I played too big too fast and I'll know better for next time around. Being the first winner out would really suck. But, I don't know. I'm just kind of nervous I ruined my game for people who don't care if I go and that's probably the worst feeling (and I'd know, seeing as I have gotten 0 votes at FTC, two times!) Anyway, I'll check back in later if we do come up with a plan that doesn't make me feel like utter shit, which is not likely at this point in time.

Y’all lemme tell you, Miraitowa is a fuckin mess fuck this tribe i can’t wait for the swap lmao. Okay so basically the voting block that took me out exploded and is eating itself. Jacob C and Nicole are telling the exact same story except they’re accusing the other person of creating the alliance and voting me. Honestly idc it was probably a team effort between the both of them, i’m trying to have the vote end up as the worst case possible for that alliance so it officially never reconnects. Here’s how it breaks down: Jacob C, Sammy, and Eve are all trying to get Nicole out. Nicole is trying to get Jacob C out. Kevin is a fuckin wild card, I thought he’d be with Nicole but who the fuck knows man. If Landen and I let Nicole go, we’d still be on the bottom of the same alliance minus Nicole so right now we need to confirm that Kevin is voting with Nicole and we can break apart some of Jacob’s connections. 

Oh my god a triple tribal council. Y'all can't give us a break?!?!?! This season is going to have the most tribal council I swear. This is at least an opportunity to get out Juls, who I think will be my biggest threat if I let her slip past this vote because she's dangerous and able to get along with so many people. This twist I think will prove to be a good way to get Juls out because she has to face two people and unless the other tribe puts total duds in terms of challenge competition she will go home if sent to the arena. As part of strategy when Ben told me he was coming for Darcy, I told Darcy right before he won immunity that Ben was after him but I said I heard it from Karen. This way it shows that Karen is willing to keep Darcy but it gives me more trust with Darcy than Karen because I was the one who told Darcy. We had a call Darcy, Beck, and Myself and finally made a trio alliance which I think will benefit me at certain points in the game because they may have really good potential to draw in people to work with. I think I convinced them I can draw in Karen as a makeshift fourth for our group to have a majority. However, I trust Karen for now in the long scheme I think I will just maintain a good standing with her but not tell them as much. As for now I'm just down with this plan Myself, Beck, Darcy, and Karen are going for to blindside Juls and hopefully my plan to get rid of Juls pans out and we are able to officially eliminate her. If we go to tribal again Ben makes an easy next boot, this keeps the 4 people I'm closest to on the tribe on the tribe as long as possible (Karen, Beck, Darcy, and Caeleb.) The only problems I see if Juls goes is that either she wins a Gold medal and/or Caeleb loses trust which both have a chance of happening but I think this risk will be worth the reward. It's a high risk high reward situation.    

People are quiet, and I hope it's because of inactivity Jordan and Emma seem fine with voting Sarah, and that should be all needed. Chris isn't responding but I don't think he's around. Sarah hasn't even read my message today lol

honestly at this point my tribe is a disaster and i feel like the prince, just sitting on my throne with immunity and looking down with a horrified gaze like... what the FUCK is happening... y'all-. Ever since when I was first blindsided by seeing Pete leave everything went insane. Sammy called for damage control, it was all obvious bullshit. i won the medal at the arena, thank the lord, i did intentionally volunteer knowing i NEEDED that bonus, but thank god i got it for individual immunity instead! i was able to *ahem* secure the bag, and i did that while also going as hard as i can with my social manipulation skills. everyone thought i was just some newbie or some quiet anxious guy that doesn't know how to crack the premade and will never be able to put up a fight but they were wrong. They should not have underestimated me because I was able to expose the lies they told themselves and each-other. In all their efforts to outplay one another, they ended up soiling their own defeat. i told nicole about how sammy/jacob omitted the information about juls' power, and i continuously threatened everyone through jokes to remind them 'I'm still counting, and I've been counting for 24 hours. I'm going to win immunity, and you'll have to turn on eachother.' this madness led to nicole throwing sammy/jacob under the bus right before challenge ended, and of course, they returned the favor. This has led to a paranoia induced voting period where honestly, i still don't even know what's happening. it's very likely the tribal is LIVE tonight. the fear and stress comes in in that i really don't want to lie to sammy after the conversations we had, i really want to be truthful with him. but thinking about my individual game, keeping Jacob C and Eve in just makes no sense. They both have no interest in working with me long term and they both are connected with a ton of people that I want to have loyalty to. Getting rid of them frees up Caeleb and Juls a little bit for me, so I would really like to take them down. But working with Nicole, Kevin, and Pete is going to put me in a tight spot where Sammy is furious, potentially with an idol, and feels like I was a hypocrite with him. That's going to be really hard. But Eve and Jacob are just. VERY bad for my game. They both limit my working relationships with other people a ton. They both make this game.. quite difficult to navigate for me. And they both have zero interest in working with me. It's hard to play Sammy like this, I am gonna feel awful for this. But, you gotta do what you gotta do, and with a swap possibly coming soon... This is what I gotta do. It's shark week (thanks Kevin) and blood is about to get shed. 

Hello I hate these hosts......all tribes going to tribal??????? The level of disgust I have .... so Ben returned after being voted kmssss I know mans will be gunning for me ugh I wish I won immunity but like Darcy fuckn snapped fhdgggg. So with this tribal coming up Darcy wants to take out juls, with me tommy and becks voting together. The only person I’m if-y on is becks atm bc becks is close to juls allegedly. Also caeleb and Juls haven’t been spoken to all day which is like yikes bc that could mean they’d vote for me, i think may I could throw becks under the bus just in case. Slim picking that’s for sure ugh why is the game like this. Also I’ve been talking to nicole and kev and they seem to be struggling on their tribe & hope neither go bc then I’d have to keep working with tommy lol /:. Also I’ve been told juls is the one who exiled Landon so 👀👀👀👀👀thats so suspect!!!!! Juls & becks seem kinda shady to me so I’m gonna have to monitor them. Ugh I hope I’m not getting played tonight or else it might just be bye bye Karen 

I’m in a peculiar position. I don’t want Eve to go, Jacob C is way bigger a threat to me but we have to keep nicole and that group is set on Eve....... god i’m hoping we’re right. 

hello confessional! i'm an awful person and this is the third time in an org that i've fucked over juls somehow and i feel terrible about it. unfortunately with the new alliance that tommy made for us voting out anyone else besides caeleb or juls was not an option and caeleb is rly good at challenges so.... but yeah! tonight fucking sucked. kinda hope juls comes back but i also don't bc she will be out for my blood and you know what? i deserve it

Nicole’s gone, I’m happy about it, it’s what she deserves truely. Over this stupid fucking tribe, CHOKE all of you

I feel really bad about this vote. I new Jacob was going home, but I had to vote with him to make sure that he’ll still be on my side if he comes back from arena. 

The game is getting spicy. This is my confession 👀

WELLLLLLLL babes basically this round started out with landen and pete coming back and trying to yell at the four from the previous majority, after we lied to their faces and then they did not take it well. After all the fighting was said and done we all got to counting and by all i mean me and landen, whom beat me thanks to his silver medal. Even though i counted higher, but alas the past is in the past. After that the game really got going cause we had to go to TRIBAL !!! which fucking sucked because we basically only had 1 option for our "alliance" which was eve, i started talking to the 2 safe bois to see where they were at and the didnt like eve or had some issues with eve, so i thought we could capitalize on that and just unan it on eve, but when i woke up that was simply NOT AN OPTION because the night before nicole had said jacobs name to nicole, without informing the alliance nor jacob personally what she said. This was followed by eve telling jacob immediately after what was said which lead jacob to distrust nicole which in turn made sammy distrust nicole, waking up in the middle of this was not ideal because i had no way to prevent it so i had to work with the situation as best as possible. After talking to everyone on the tribe it literally seemed to be a vote between jacob and nicole with no wiggle room. However as the day moved on i wanted to try and sneak eves name into the mix, after talking to pete and landen some who both confessed they wanted to work with me i pitched to them that potentially voting Eve and then keeping Nicole and Jacob mad at each other for future rounds to cover us, to which they seemed to take well to but werent very eager to do right away. After that i had to reel nicole in and get her to send her vote to Eve which worked until we found out that Sammy has an idol !!! Which he could use on himself orrrrrr EVE, so basically we had to tread carefully after this point and we had to lie to Sammy, pete/landen said they were doing nicole and nicole said she was doing sammy himself, i didnt lie i said i felt like eve was my only option and i worked with that, but still people did lie to him, and I tried to plant seeds in his head to play the idol on himself cause potentially he could save eve, but i wanted him to worry about himself first. After all the drama there was the calm before the storm.. and then the storm hit hard as fuck. We had a plan and a majority until minutes before tribal when nicole told jacob we were voting eve to keep him in the loop and probably turn him off of her, which he was fine with! But landen and pete felt betrayed that nicole would disclose our information to someone else, so when they heard that they scrambled and Pete wanted us to flip onto Jacob, while Landen coincidentallyyy voted for Nicole, which ultimately resulted in a 3-3-1, i tried to flip sammy or pete to keep nicole but to avail ... rip nicole. After tribal eve was obviously mad about getting votes, Sammy was mad about getting lied to and Landen and Pete were proven flakes, i did my best to save face and keep my ducks in a row with sammy, pete, and landen but only time will tell if i did a good enough job. As for the rest of the game i really hope that nicole comes back because she was, surprisingly, my closest ally in this game and i need her as a shield. But im sad that juls got out and while I want her to come back too i would prefer nicole, for game purposes but i would be just as happy to see juls return if she can pull it off. Welp, good luck charlie.

So I got voted out. I think I’m good with it though. I’m very much “whatever happens happens” at this point, because in my opinion I think I’m done with this game. There’s a lot of factors that I just don’t like about it, and that’s not saying anything about the hosts because I love Monty and Gage, I think I’ve spoken about this before in other games I’ve been in but I really can’t play games where you spend 24 hours sitting around. It hinders me so bad to just be sitting, not doing a challenge or anything, especially with 25 people around, it’s hell. There are a lot of things that annoy me in this game. One being that the newbies are like...mean as fuck lol. Like they just come in guns blazing and really don’t care what they say to other people, or they’re just dead and no help at all. Eve was honestly a nasty brat, and I’m just calling it how I saw it. She demanded trust, and that’s not a good way to get people to actually trust you. She came up with a majority of five people, she assumed I’d vote out Kevin, and yes I lied a little (bc it’s survivor) but you’d think I literally had been working with her since Day One and stabbed her in the back. We had maybe 24 hours of conversation. If I lied to Kevin, I’d feel terrible. You think I feel bad lying to someone I only talked to once who planted a five person majority without my main ally in it? Like, for real? It makes no sense. Landen doesn’t like lying either like....alright go do you homework and stop playing survivor then. DO YOU KNOW WHERE WE ARE? And the funny thing is, all of these people lied to me. Eve went behind my back. Jacob sent screenshots (which is cheating but somehow I’m here and he’s not) to Sammy. Sammy literally didn’t tell me he had an advantage and told me he didn’t know about Juls advantage. Landen Said he voted Jacob. Pete said he didn’t know the plan. Kevin, I’m hoping he was honest because he’s the only reason I’m happy I played this game. Kevin is SO nice and so genuine, I hope it’s not an act for the game but I know I put him THROUGH IT this round so I’m contemplating just giving up, for his sake, because if I come back it’s likely gonna be..a bit of a mess for him. I know I might need to come back to save Kevin and Jacob, moreso Kevin bc Jacob can go kick rocks. Anyway back to Sammy for a second. I’ve always seen Sammy as this nice little man who is so kind, but I REALLY saw an ugly side of him this round. Like, I don’t think I’ll ever see him the same again. I hope he loses to literally anyone. I don’t think he deserves to win and out of everyone I’m most mad at him. He’s a hypocrite who can make you feel bad you lied to protect yourself from him because he lied to you first, and sure that helps in Survivor but that’s downright ugly and I don’t respect that at all. He lied to me CONTINUOUSLY throughout the day, leaking every word I said to Eve. Only to be mad at me because I lied to him...to misdirect his idol? TO MISDIRECT HIS IDOL HE DIDNT EVEN TELL ME ABOUT BECAUSE HE DIDNT TRUST ME. And for him to try to pull an apology out from me and make me feel bad...sit down. Nobody makes me feel bad or can twist my emotions like that so, nice try. And in such an obvious and public manner like...who taught you to be the way you are lmao. That’s so rude. I hope he loses is the point. Honestly I’m kind of like over playing and I know juls really has a fire in her heart to continue playing with these god awful people who have snaked us. She’s a little queen and I hope she wins it if I can’t, because she deserves to! My plan is to just hold on until Jacob drops (assuming it’s pressure cooker) and then decide there if I want to go in or not. I also want to put out a disclaimer that I’m ranting about everyone else bc I’m mad but I know I fucked up, too. I lied way too much for unecessary reasons that seemed necessary at the time with advantages in play. I trusted people based on personal knowledge of their heart and how kind they are, which was wrong. Jacob and Sammy both showed me their ugly sides, and I showed mine as well so I mean I’m not going to sit here and act innocent. I can see EACH mistake I made and how I could have played better. I hope Sammy and Jacob both get premerge, hope Landen gets yeeted into the sun, or a lesson in manners bc lord knows he doesn’t have any and just wants to be that That Iconic Newbie that newsflash nobody wants to cast again, and I hope juls prospers if I fail at the arena challenge. Manifest manifest manifest. I literally feel like in my brain there is no possible way I’m going to be back in this game and if I do come back, I’m just going to get voted out again. So it’s a hard choice deciding if I want to or not. I promised Juls I’d outlast Jacob B but after that, I’m not sure. I feel like I don’t even have it in me, because if I really saw a chance at winning. I just feel like I’ve made a fool of myself and let men make a fool out of me, and it’s time to go home, rest, recuperate and come back to kick ass another day. 

So we had a live tribal last night and everything is a MESS now! It's my birthday and so I'm trying to stay in a good mood and not think about the game, but honestly, stuff is pretty stressful. My plan WAS to take out Eve the whole time, I was fully on board with it and I do believe it was the right move for me at the time. Unfortunately Nicole decided to go insane and blow up the entire plan by telling Jacob and having everything blow up at tribal council which is just... ugh. It made it clear she was trying to rebuild the majority and force the power structure back in place, so that's why I had to make sure she went home. She showed unreliability and a willingness to turn that I couldn't have in the game, that's the whole reason I wanted to take out Eve. Because I need allies in this game who will work with me and who have interest in working with ME. Nicole seemed like she could be a useful person in the game, but as soon as her fight with Jacob ended and they started to try and take control again, it was too late. I had to get rid of her. Sadly she'll probably come back from the arena and that's going to make things... Messy. It's going to become a game of who can use Sammy the best, and I just hope I can win that game. But I've told him too many lies and that comes off hypocritical. It sucks because I feel guilty about it, AND hopeless in the game. But I dunno. We'll just have to see. Not to mention I lost Juls somehow, and EVERYONE seems to be shocked that she was voted out. That is not good for my game at all as she was somebody I was really relying on and also I just love her. So losing her absolutely sucks. I'm really hoping she can come back from the Arena. The game is turning into a downward spiral for me and fast. People are predicting a swap, and at that point, it's the best I can hope for. I got Eve with me now on the brightside, and I know I could reel in Caeleb, Jordan, probably even Ben.... Things are getting very bloody very quickly in a game as competitive as this one, and I just pray I can wind up on the right side of things with a swap. Being on the bottom this time was deadly and detrimental to my game - I have played extremely hard, cutthroat, fierce, and overall just like.. WELL. Not to toot my own horn but I have played VERY good on both Sonkei and Miraitowa, and there's a lot on my resume for if I do manage to make it to the end. But if I keep just giving everything 120% and making these power moves and making enemies and such as I go, I'll have no chance. I really need a stage in the game where I can sit back and kind of just relax and be this UTR force, that people aren't taking so much notice of. Form more social bonds. Also, fuck the olympic idol hunt or whatever. I suck at it but other people have gotten so many advantages. EEP!

I was about to be super proud of the fact that this was the earliest I made a confessional in a round all game, just to realize its still only 5 hours before the deadline so like is that even good? long story short I had to fuck over jacob this round which sucked cause i loved jacob but we went to too many tribals and like... im running out of options. I made a new alliance of me emma stoner and sarah which like lowkey is a good call because we have one person from 4/5 starting tribes we are as well connected to each other as we can be right now. I need us to swap not cause I would go home, I genuinly think if we kept losing I could get down on this tribe to just me and one more person if needed but like... can we not I'm so tired. Bring on the swap, i need new people to manipulate!

[survivormontenegro]

Episode 11: “Recalibrate How I’m Playing This Game” - Caeleb

okay I'm writing a long confessional then going to bed.

Jules was robbed. I was really gonna idol them when Jones/Caeleb told me Jules was getting votes, but Jules was only getting 5, and I naively thought both that Jason wasn't going to flip and Tom wouldn't self vote AGAIN ASKDLJFAF.

I'm frustrated because I love Jules. Jules was robbed and deserved better than having to deal with Alex who like will tell Jules they made a mistake and ugh. I'm frustrated that I didn't idol Jules, even though it wouldn't have been smart and would've put me in a tough game spot, its just all super tricky sigh.

in other news, Jones/Mo/Mitch need to go. I'm super proud of Mo for doing something (like genuinely) and not playing passively, I defo underestimated him, but him and Jones have way too much sway on this tribe, tied to Mitch who is clearly able to work people.

I think a good end-group for me would be Me/Benj/Tom/Julia. I really really like Caeleb but he actually is playing super smart, so I really don't think I can have him sticking around much longer.

I think a good new bootlist is: Jones > Mitch > Mo > Jason > Caeleb

I'm just frustrated because Jules was robbed and really did not deserve that, Mo/Jones are too powerful, and now so is Mitch. I'm gonna idol one of them out, and I'm going to love doing it.

Holy fuck what the fuck that worked. Ok so here’s what just went down, Jules said to Jason that she’d be fine voting out either me or Mitch. People were leaning towards Mitch. We had like 20 minutes left and we started discussing and I threw out to Jones, what if we get Jules out, but she kinda ignored it and carried on with the Mitch plan. Because Jules has a lot of connections I can understand why Jones would be hesitant. So then I throw the pitch rob Caeleb and Mitch throws the pitch to Jason and they’re both on board. But that would of only been five people. Meaning it most likely would of tied so we were like ok I guess we’ll just vote Mitch. BUT THEN BENJ GETS ONLINE and he’s like “Yeah I’ll vote Jules.” SO I SCRAMBLE BACK TO CAELEB LIKE WAIT VOTE JULES WE HAVE THE NUMBERS. SAME WITH JONES AND JASON. WE GET JULES OUT. Which of course is sad because she’s literally a sweetheart and she’s super funny, but she had so many people in her corner and her and Ali combined was a scary combo. BUT I MEAN I HAVE A COOL GAME MOVE IN MY POCKET NOW THAT I DID (with Mitch) BUT WOW ME.

Whew chile!!! I must admit that vote was VERY scary and VERY hectic. I thought for a moment my game was ending. Thankfully my social relationships with people allowed me to stay and send the person who was targeting me home (Jules). Now this is GREAT for me because i trusted Jules the least on the merge tribe. The communication thing never worked out between the two of us but i still find her to be a very nice person :). In regards to the vote, Mo/Caeleb, Benj, Jason, and Jones all voted to save me. To me, I feel like this means im in a really good position because everyone likes me enough to SAVE me. Up until 5 minutes before the deadline, I thought i was done for. I gotta be careful with who I work with in the future because my threat level is rising. People in touchy subjects saw me as the one who thinks they are running the game but are not, but man is this far from the truth. I'd like to say that although I didn't know what was going on COMPLETELY, I still pretty much helped/forced the target onto the person who went home. Ian- Told Alex about how I suspected Jason and Ian of being a duo (correct assumption according to ali) and everyone ended up splitting between the two (I did not care who went). Alex- I pushed very hard for alex to go because he was so dang controlling and i found that very threatening. Jules- targeted me first but I never trusted her because of how little we spoke. When she decided to target me it was the icing on the cake. Hopefully these next few rounds are smooth sailing because we NEED easy votes for at least a little bit.

okay so i am trying SO hard for immunity, like its not even funny. i think i have 100+ points right now, with more videos uploading and with more planned photos tomorrow. immunity would be SO sweet, because that'd guarantee me a spot in the F8, and with my idol F7.

in other news. if i haven't said it enough, it must be said again. BENJ IS SUCH A KING. like today he told me he wants to go to F4 with Julia and Tom. I truly, truly could have shed and wept real tears. That is exactly the F4 I want, like EXACTLY ,and Benj agrees, and we are going to make it HAPPEN.

He also wants to separate Mo/Jones this round... and like honestly, I'm so down. Like I think he wants to vote off Mo versus Jones which I think is a bad idea, since Jones is a better talker and more of a threat, but his argument about Jones being a shield makes some sense.

my ideal bootlist moving forwards for the season, although it requires like julia/tom to stick with me and benj pretty tightly, is:

Mo/Jones > Mitch > Jason > Mo/Jones > Caeleb > F4: Me/Tom/Benj/Julia

and also since i love doing this for no reason, this would be my ranking of those left if i was to go to jury this round:

Mitch > Jason > Jones > Benj > Caeleb > Julia > Mo > Tom

Mitch is SO savvy, and so likable, and I could see as a definite winner, having survived so much. I can't decide if Jones is a threat because she is just so likable, or if she is actually palying super well, but I have both her and Jason very high in my opinion. Benj is so smart, I feel like he probably isn't considered as such by the other threats, but I hear him talk game - he is super woke. Caeleb is actually playing a very smart game too, flipping back and forth. I definitely underestimated him in early merge, his MIND. Julia I think is super game-savvy, just her style gets in her own way sometimes. Mo I feel like definitely did stuff last vote, but I see him as Jones' shadow/goat right now so would need to see much more. Tom I'm stuck because him self-voting twice I think almost definitely excludes him from winning so its hard to tell how I'd feel about him in an FTC. the main thing is that... we shall see.

BUT I AM WINNING IMMUNITYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Sending this now bc I forgot. Jason beat me in reward OOPS but I can still possibly win immunity,,,,,? Maybe?

Eek me at jules being voted out, honestly i didnt really know what was going to happen at that tribal for the sole fact that everything started moving whilst i was asleep but im kinda shocked that it ended up being jules.... Like i personally wouldnt have made that move right now maybe in like 2 more rounds. Its quite scary the fact that mitch got so many people to turn on jules when i thought she was quite the loved player. So I've gotta keep an eye out for him he's probably playing the best game atm but i think ill try to take him out sooner rather than later

I think I might have to recalibrate how I’m playing this game. I honestly didn't think I was all that close to Jules so her cursing me kinda surprised me. SO, that means I think a lot of people are gonna be cursing me in the upcoming rounds. Not that I am planning a lot of blindsides, I just feel a lot closer to the people actually left. Julia might be the only one that wouldn't curse me at this point, but also she might because she doesn't like me all that much. And being cursed a bunch might put a really large target on my back too.

y'all i just found another idol im SCREECHING. and its a boujee one too, a sapphire idol. I'm so AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, i know where 2/3 idols are for sure, I'm truly screaming.

This was me an Mitch on call when we realized we had the numbers to vote out Jules

heres the thing, i prefer the selfie scavenger hunt when im on a team because that way im motivated to get stuff done out of fear of letting everyone down. where as by myself, i let myself down all the time. ali is scary good at comps and im lazy.

ALI FOUND THE MERGE IDOL AND ITS A SAPPHIRE IDOL AHHH!!!

IM SO HAPPY FOR HIM/US BUT ALSO LOWKEY PISSED BECAUSE I GET ALL THE BRIDGE STEPS AND THEN HE GETS LUCKY AT THE VERY END LMAO. AGAIN.

BUT OH WELL ATLEAST ITS NOT SOMEONE ELSE!!

And if I had any doubts (I never had) about him betraying me before I have 0 now.. u like have to really trust someone to tell them u have 2 idols LOL I could literally expose so much right now

BUT IM NOT GONNA WOO!!! BEST DUO IVE EVER HAD! Like I know it will be hard to beat him at the end but idc I want that duo story for us

Literally an idol magnet king I knew I chose the best ally on day 1

sapphire idols sound kinda annoying tho cuz u cant choose who its played on . like what if ur plan actually works and u idol the person u wanted gone LOL

lowkey would rather a normal idol ?? anyways ali went off in immunity and its final 9 idk who will go but I kinda want like mo gone (king) but we have no strategic bond so.. plus he will slip by to the end otherwise

I doubt that plan is gonna work tho cuz idk how to lead votes!! im flop sheep!

Update on idol hunt - I'm killing johnny

Update apparently I’m running a vote KSKSKKFMFMFFK take back EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT NOT NEEDING POWER LMAOOOO

ok so Storytime

I’m talking to Tom at like 5:00-6:00 ish, and he says he hasn’t heard anything but he’d be down to vote Julia if other people were voting Julia (at this point this is the only name and it was said by Tom and that’s it)

At this point I tell Mo what Tom said (Bc tom and I were talking about Mo) and he said he wasn’t surprised Julia’s name was brought up

Talk to Mitch at like 7:00 ish and he’s apparenrly being targeted by Ali and for whatever reason I have this hero complex and I wanna save him all of a sudden?? I also feel like he’ll be a big shield down the road that everyone else would want out over me so it makes much more sense to keep him? SO I tell him about Julia.

I Run to Mo, tell him about Julia plan he’s on board. MOs talking to Caeleb, and Jason wouldn’t go behind Mitch’s back. So that’s already 5 people I think voting Julia, 6 if we include Tom and 7 if Benj also knows. Which I’ll probs tell him.

So ya??? Turned an idea into a plan!! I’m doing that y’all. Idk?? I’m proud. I don’t need need this much power after this round or else my ego will be the size of my dick but!!! Idk guys I’m proud of myself.

(Literally only 35 minutes later)

Literally having a stroke tonight laid ease

Uhm apparently Tom/Jason/Ali had an alliance and were trying to get me out and tried throwing me under the bus to Julia and tried saying shit I didn’t say,, so ya,,, :)

Tom tried twisting it like I was the one who threw Julia’s name out bc apparently she’s inactive? Which is cute,, I said jack shit about that. So ya.

Um I’m voting Tom tonight now. I’m an indecisive bitch tho so it might change but. Fuck Tom. We gotta break up this alliance apparently. Julia’s the only person that’s said shit to me this whole day about what’s happening so I’m more likely to believe her than anyone else sooo ya. Fuck Tom. Fuck these men.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #13: "im so EMO (TION)" - Bryce

I cant believe that im still here. And we have majority. 3 vs 2. Matt is coming to me know saying that he wants to work with me but like. Bruh. But that could be good tho having him. I have to see what happens with immunity first.

OKOKOKOK CAN WE JUST DISCUSS HOW AM I A FUCKING GOAT. FIRST OF ALL Jock destroyers was a pretty dominant alliance i played a SNITCH RAT GAME with exposing plans and i was lied to but like can i get some credit here like first of all it was my fucking ideal to even force a tie, bryce wanted sharky out he didn't want rocks i wanted rocks when my ass was literally on the line here and i was still willing to go to rocks because i don't want to be a fucking goat and do what bryce or sharky wants this is the only way i could get brian SHARKYS #1 ALLY out of the game so that you know who sharky's #1 ALLY IS NOW FUCKING ME. so you know what yeah i'm a goat, greatest of all time actually and i at least deserve some level of credit or respect here to pull some shit off like this. only person on the fucking tribe with the balls to do this shit and i don't even have balls. OK BYE.

i literally dont have words. i keep having meltdowns and like its so not like me i usually just treat games as fun but im just so upset bc brian went home when we could have prevented it and now im in a spot where annabelle and sharky control things and im basically going to get 5th. i really thought i was doing something and life came at me real quick and said learn ur place KJFSHKJDFHSKJ. like the play anna made was smart so go her i just hate that i got played and that brian left with the vote steal and that my game is ruined and i came so far and i thought i was playing alright also i hate how everyone and their mother keeps calling me out for playing the middle KJSFHFKS like grow up and shade me in ur confessionals not to my face im SENSITIVE AUBRY. basically the point is: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/506665419092918273/541697763788980225/image0.jpg

I'm SHOCKED. I swore to Annabelle I wouldn't right her name down. And yet she writes my name down! And just as I was thinking I could trust Bryce HE RALLIES VOTES AGAINST ME! I'm so pissed off, and scared, and hurt, and now I have to scramble to figure something out.

Okay let recap everything that has gone down in this 24 hours since I was betrayed. So I talked to Annabelle A LOT. Basically we've talked to each other a ton. I discover that Anna made the plan for the tie and then Bryce was only willing to flip if the vote was for me. SHADY. I knew I should have never trusted him. So basically either I convince Annabelle to save me, everyone goes to rocks, or Matt and Brian flip on me and I go home. I would have said the last one was super unlikely. So I start busting my ass to sway Annabelle. We have really opened up to each other about our games, she is feeling like she has to make a big move. I talked to her about how I feel hurt because I've busted my ass all game to save Anna and Matt and now they both seem unwilling to save me. I tell the guys we just have to be nice but imply to her she stands no shot of making the end without me and how Bryce is going to win. She has no idea we have the vote steal so Brian/Matt would definitely get Bryce out next. So I go to sleep thinking we are making progress. I wake up an Anna is like "Matt was rude to me so I'm definitely not flipping" so I'm starting to feel really hopeless. And then Matt and Brian both started to dodge the idea of rocks. And Anna is telling me Bryce thinks Matt is probably going to flip. So i'm thinking it's over. And in the FB Bois chat Matt and Brian both keep being like "I'm so conflicted" "we'd be guaranteed f4" "blah blah blah" So now I'm realizing these two aren't willing to go to rocks for me. I've spent this whole season trying to save our alliance at any cost. And now that I'm the one in danger...they aren't willing to take the risk. SO now I get it. I've been too nice. If they are going to put their games above mine and aren't willing to risk it so all 3 of us can make F5...I'm going to have to make sure we take that risk because it's my only shot. So I pitch to Anna a way she can get her rocks and I can be safe. We tell them that Anna agrees to save me. That way they think were set and it'll all work out and then it'll go to rocks and I'll be safe. It's super risky and I'm putting all my faith in Annabelle and I feel so scared and guilty and idk but this is the only way I survive and there is a chance Anna goes and it all works out. But...it's also not lost on me that Anna is willing to risk her own game to save me...but my own alliance isn't. I'm feeling...weird.

Brian went home. I...honestly am just feeling horrible. And he was so mad at me. Like mad to the point that I'm worried I ruined a real life friendship over this game. And Matt is furious too and he's going off on me in our group chat which fucking sucks. Like that was the worst case scenario for me. And it sucks. But I shouldn't have to feel bad about this. Like both Brian and Matt were willing to vote me out so they didn't have to go to rocks. They put their game first so why am I a villain for doing the same thing? And they want to be like "we were up front with you about not being sure" like that's supposed to make me feel better. Yeah of course you were honest you weren't the ones in danger. It's easy for y'all to be honest when you're just going to vote me out. I couldn't have been honest with them or they would have flipped and I would have gone home. How do they not see that? Was I supposed to just give up? How is that fair? And how is it that they can vote me out and I just have to accept that but they can't accept that I saved myself. I'm feeling super alone, like I can't trust anybody, and like my best friends won't even take a second to look at it from my point of view. Of course I feel terrible. I just hope this doesn't come between genuine friendships.

ANNA REALLY JUST CLOCKS ME AND SHE KNOW SHE CAN BC WHAT ELSE AM I GOING TO DO. me matt maynor better be this f3 matt might win tbh but idc! anna has CROSSED ME and like laughs in my face FKJADSHFKAJ like yes ur iconic yes u did #that but im in this game with u and its a lil rude to flaunt ur success at me FKJADSHFAKJ when i do sth good i would never constantly bring it up (btw i won immunity once and got that cute blue color so everyone is jealous prob...) also im so emo i miss dennis and i miss brian they were the 2 ppl who i felt close to in the game and theyre both gone i literally am so upset i feel like if i wasnt so busy before tribal i could have talked to brian more and convinced him he had to vote sharky bc i KNEW anna was voting sharky but he bought her lies and i was convincing enough so i just feel its my fault i lost my closest ally (and his vote steal) although maybe he would have beat me in the end so this is good thing? nope! like i think i played alright in the middle but ppl prob wont respect it and idk if i would bc clearly im biased and maybe i am just a goat and thats why im still in like i rly tried to do sth this round but didnt i just ugh so demotivated hehe but maybe ill snap or sth insert positive uplifting quote here i just hope that i can turn this around and defeat anna and her pet shark. ALTHOUGH ITS LIKE WHERE THE BIG DOG PULLS ITS OWNER AND WALKS IT INSTEAD OF THE OTHER WAY AROUND. im so EMO (TION)

yesterday i was feeling a LOT of emotions and now that i have distanced myself i realize that my emotions were VALID and i am perfect and had the RIGHT to be upset that everything went wrong. i am speaking my immunity win into existence it WILL happen. i HAVE done the homework and even if i flop it (which i wont) i will still NOT GO HOME bc matt and maynor are hopefully on my side. OK BUT LIKE IM JUST SO JKAFSHKAJDSFHADSKFJA

This immunity is very important. We cant let Matt or Sharky win it. We need to have the opinion for them available to be voted out.

So like.... I am upset and feel very alone now in this game. Brian got rocked out and i was lied to again. I am just like so over it. I feel manipulated when I did have all the power and could've got a big threat out. but NO sharky and anna the fucking dynamic duo they are decided it would be fun to go to rocks! I am just so over it. Im getting fucking 5th place and I am MAD.

OR AM I? I decided to lie last night and say i gave my idol to brian last night. Why? It would paint an even bigger target on my back so i can go idoling. Cause of course I am not dumb enough to go and give my idol away hell naw. Instead, I need to knock sharky out of the immunity comp tonight but then get everyone on my case so they vote me. then boom idol. i know that this should get me to f3. I hope. If sharky goes next, and anna/maynor win FIC. then i know i can get at least maynor with me cause Bryce will then be the clear winner out of us 4. then maybe i will have a shot at the win but eh, need to get there first. I hope to god this can work and if not, final juror here i come!

I woke up feeling TERRIBLE. I feel so bad about the Brian situation. Matt won't respond because he probably hates me. I feel like a trash person. And tbh I'm questioning if I even deserve to be here.

I feel sick. Literally this is the worst case scenario. If anybody else had won everything would be fine. And now Matt has like given up which makes me even sadder. I'm honestly considering asking everybody to vote me out. So that Matt at least has a shot of making FTC. This sucks.

I WON IMMUNITY WOOOH IM SO ICONIC IM LITERALLY A LOSING FINALIST AND EVERYONE WANTS ME OUT I FEEL LIKE ILL LOSE IN THE END BUT THAT WONT STOP THESE PPL FROM GIVING ME 4TH WHEN I LOSE THE NEXT IMMUNITY AJKFDSHKFAJ THEYRE ALL LIKE SO VISIBLY DISAPPOINTED I WON IM SO SAD NNNN I WOULD BE HAPPY FOR THEM! i really hope they vote out sharky now bc its literally the smart move but im willing to bet theyll keep him to spite me annas gonna be like sharky needs to stay we get him out NEXT round and maynor might be convinced or sth idk and matt idk askdjfhdkjf i thought we were good but he ghosted me all day today so hm. club 96 nina and tina really falling apart

Matt is literally shutting down. Like I'm trying to talk with him and mend things and try to rally him so we can figure out how to keep us both safe and honestly he's just not interested. He seems disinterested and honestly he's being kind of a brat. Stop pouting! Sack up and help me fight. Because yes I was selfish last round and that put us in a tough spot but It was never my idea to trust Bryce or my idea to ignore that we had a vote steal to secure our vote at F6. I'm not the only one who made mistakes. So come on and let's freaking recover! Or are we just supposed to lay down and award Bryce the win? UGH

I was really on the brink of asking everybody to vote me out. But Matt is being so useless right now. If he's going to act like that he'll just get picked off at F4. He has no fight. So I'm over it. I really do love him but at this point I'm going to have to just try my best to get Annabelle and Maynor to believe that they stand the best chance at FTC against me, instead of Bryce or Matt. I've already ruined my reputation so I might as well at least try to fight. I feel over everything but I have to get it together.

The vote hopefully is between Matt and Sharky. I know Bryce really wants Sharky gone. Annabelle and I are talking and seeing which route is the best for us to make it to the end.

Like wow. My brain is so big. Im pretending that I threw away my idol to brian at the last second, and that I am leaving this round. Whereas in actually reality I still have my idol and sure as heck im playing it tonight and making final 4 YEET. like woe is me, woe is me, lol no bitch im here to stay. Sharky like, needs to leave as well. I love him but 2 big if a threat and I would quite like to well, win.

Oh and as I write this annabelle needs me huh. Well listen here, you lied to my fucking face and got brian out. Thus, you also need to leave bish. I am fed up of being lied 2 constantly by these fuckers called my tribemates and I am NOT here for it anymore. Time to play the lies and deceit game myself huh

This round is so weird for me. I felt like I was in such a tough place and feeling really defeated. But now Anna is getting paranoid and there is a very slim chance I could get her to to vote Maynor and then Matt and I both make F4. But my issues is I can't trust anybody. Because I don't think anybody trusts me. Like Maynor is being very noncommittal. Anna keeps flip flopping and maybe she'll flip onto me. Matt seems on board but honestly maybe he deeply deeply hates me and is just lying and will vote me out.

There is a little over an hour left before tribal. I'm convinced that it's me going home. Everyone seems to be too easy to agree to vote with me. It's not looking good.

Literally wtf. The Biggest plot twist of the century is occurring. I'M THE SWING VOTE?? Like since when in hell was I going to be the deciding factor. I mean I like it, I have the power for once and I am safe but still omg i LOVE IT! I am bunsen the Berner in this image, deciding between 2 fates: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/DzD8lXwUwAAgTlp?format=jpg&name=900x900

Having a panic attack. Im really nervous. Like i know its between Matt and Sharky. But there is still a chance that somehow me or annabell could still go. I hope it doesnt and its clear cut with Sharky and Matt. Fingers cross. Or imma die.

i had a good talk with anna today and i kind of love her (as long as she votes sharky) i think maynor might go now which is sad bc anna says matt/sharky are doing that but like matt says that he wants me maynor him f3 so who knows! anna like was honest with me about not knowing who to vote and seems to be voting sharky but literally anything can happen so whomst knows.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH okokok i feel so fucking badly about this move like so badly ughhhhhhhhhh but i feel like it has to happen i'm so so soooo sorry sharky like you have no idea i've been torn all day on what i should do and idk i feel like i lose no matter what this fucking blows

Sharky is voted out 4-1. 

[saintkimora]

well here is how work was on saturday and sunday

so first is saturday! it was a pretty good day. i got like 3 credit cards i think. i actually dont remember much about it but i do remember that it was the day i officially realized i have a crush on one of my managers! his name is steve and he is REALLY cute and he has such a fun personality! and his hair looks really good and he has such a nice ass and hes nice to me even though i know hes only so nice bc the strategy for the managers here is to use positive reinforcement to motivate the workers. also him, my coworker juliet, and i were all talking about fruit in the break room and he literally asked “are grapes a fruit?” now THAT is a man

so i got in that day and i saw the other iconic manager sarah and she was talking to someone so when i came in she stopped and she was like “hi perry!” and then she turned to the person she was talking to and said “hes my favorite” which was nice. and then she was telling me about our goals for today and she was like we need these credit cards today so she told me to “go sprinkle my perry dust everywhere and get these cards” and thats exactly what i did at first! i got 2 v quickly but then i kinda flopped for the rest of the day so i felt bad about that but then i got one more towards the end. the store as a whole only got 4 credit cards that day and the only other one was from steve. so i was kinda happy bc even though we didnt reach our goal (the goal was like 11 i think) i still did relatively well compared to my coworkers

and also i got so many compliments on my shirt that day, from both my coworkers and the customers! and that made me v happy bc caleb told me all my clothes were ugly but here i am getting all these compliments from my coworkers and customers and even customers who arent even at my register! so i wonder who the one with bad taste really is. that reminds me steve also complimented me on my shirt that day which made me happy he was like “perry you are always killing it with these shirts” again i know as a manager he has ulterior motives for being so nice to me but idc it still feels good to have a man be nice to me again 

speaking of caleb at one point i saw a customer and he literally looked just like caleb from behind so i thought it was really him and i almost had a heart attack like even after i realized it wasnt him i was still sooooooo nervous which was annoying bc i was hoping that he wouldnt have as much of an effect on me anymore but it seems im still kinda scared of him. and i have been getting kinda sad about him lately bc even though i know it wasnt entirely my fault that the relationship became what it did i cant help but think about all the things i did wrong and all the areas in which i fell short as a boyfriend that lead to him losing interest in me. thats also why i like work bc it keeps my mind occupied so i dont have to think about those things as much

anyways! during my breaks i did talk to my coworker juliet a little and it was so much fun!! and as i said earlier steve joined us at one point and we were all talking and it was really nice. and at one point juliet asked me if i liked milk and i was like no and she actually set me up bc steve got like mad about it bc he really likes milk apparently hes so cute lol

and now for sunday! i only worked like 4 hours and 45 minutes that day. BUT i got 5 credit cards!!!! and the store as a whole only got 7! nut. the other 2 were from my coworker yolemny who was kinda cold to me that day but she seemed to be in a bad mood in general so i didnt take it personally. but i was so MAD bc this one girl was gonna sign up for a card but she didnt have her id on her and if she did i would have gotten 6 cards which wouldve been a personal best for me

i was still happy about it though, like i got the first 4 in my first 2 hours and during the hourly updates over the walkies nicole (another one of the managers) was like “perry got 4 cards so far and hes only been here 2 hours so he is showing that it can be done. so we need everyone to keep pushing these cards” and honestly it was iconic bc at one point yolemny was on the register next to me and we were literally getting back to back cards together! and for the other hourly updates steve would refer to me as the man on fire since i was getting so many cards

like it really makes me happy when the managers praise me so much. like i know these managers probably dont actually like me and are just being so nice bc its part of their strategy to keep me happy and motivated so i keep getting cards for them. but still, it feels nice to actually be good at something for once since ive been sucking at everything ive tried to do for like the past year. and even if their kindness isnt genuine it still makes me feel accepted which is greatly appreciated since ive felt so alone for pretty much the past year and a half (excluding the 2 months where my relationship w caleb was good). so yeah i really like this job and i like the managers and my coworkers and i like feeling useful and important to someone again, even if its just because im good at getting people to apply for credit cards. so yeah i actually look forward to work now bc i get to be good at something and i get to see steve and i get to talk to my coworkers!

so thats pretty much it. i dont have work again until friday. i do have a meeting w my therapist tm so that will be fun. i might finally be going out w the new grindr guy this week too, but ive kinda already given up on that bc i dont really know how to talk to him and im 99% sure hes not gonna like me that much, but if anything at least itll get me out of the house for a few hours. i am also gonna start going to my schools gym! im gonna schedule an appointment to have like an “orientation” tour type thing where someone shows you how to do everything since i have no idea how to work out. im really nervous about it but i might be able to get danielle to go with me that way i dont have to do it alone so if she goes it could be fun! its just bc i want something to do since i still have way too much free time for my liking. and i might as well try to get more fit that way i can look better in all the cute clothes i want and hopefully find a man easier. so thats my plan for the week! 

[survivorkomnata]

Episode #5: "my wig is scalped. i am ascending, friends." - Jake

Just realised I forgot to confess about my winner pick yet. I have predicted correctly both the the times I have done this. Looks like this is the only thing I am good at in ORG's so why not keep the trend going. With that said, my winner pick for this season is Zac...wait nooo. I said I am done with playing nice. Gotta give myself a chance , so my winner pick is Karthik. GG

Okay so the swap continues to be great! Basically my relationship with Zach has improved a lot so hopefully he is down to work with me! And it would depend on what he wants if they wanna eliminate Jake or not, I personally don’t care lmao but I think that maybe keeping Jake might help me to have options with the original Kato aswell (who Idc about but as I said I can’t close that door) but anyways I really don’t wanna have to decide yet so I wanna win this challenge more than anything right now.

We going full crackhead

not much has changed. we are immune again, and so i'm final 12 (which is the common # for merge, but i anticipate otherwise this game). it's exciting because my main goal right now, bar winning/jury, is just single digits, and i think that's achievable.

on my current tribe, i think i trust karthik the most. i speak to him daily & we have fun conversations, and he likes to mock me which is really fun for me. tim i trust but we have been lacking conversation (though i believe that's due to inactivity opposed to us being weird). i already went through miguel & jake in my last confessional so i'm not going to regurgitate that. i love all 4 of these men so much.

i can't help but think i'm majorly fucking up with my physical side. i really carried in the puzzle immunity, which was a public immunity. this means that other tribes are going to notice me. on top of that, i was in a majority like i deadass could've lost and have been fine (afaik). i sent ally/liam to tribal in the minority (luckily they thrived) & i sent another og-takagi majority to tribal and i lost one. odd, but whatever. i'm just paranoid i think because my biggest thing is skewering others perceptions of me and i think i'm making it much harder by performing exceptional in most challenges.

i'm thriving tho. i lost my trail of thought but... king. love u all. i am talking to a friend about driving n life but there was something i wanted to fucking talk about im STRESESDDDDDD. idk. yeehaw.

oh i remembered - the exile decision. though this wasn't for the complete round, it was so stupid for tim to suggest 'jess' and 'stephen' or something. like???? sister???? either send alyssa so she lacks connection & they boot her or send someone else. idk. it made no sense to weaken the social game of one of our own, but maybe he's playing it odd. regardless, miguel and i spoke in pms about it and we were on the same page (and i made a mistake of saying ''hope they vote alyssa out'' or something similar, which isn't ever my game (to elaborate: i never directly say anything but rather insinuate because im ditzy n dmubb :p)). it was just annoying like maybe i'm overthinking it but ... bye.

im getting like 7th-10th i know it.

I’m ecstatic right now, my tribe won immunity and I have officially broken my Survivor ORG record. It’s also looking like an og Takagi is goi g home tonight which helps as going into merge I want as many og kato as possible. I’m a little wary of Stephen at this point but that’s the game of Survivor. Stephen is a strong player and while I like working with him, I think he needs to be voted out down the road because he is definitely a strong strategic player like me, maybe a stronger one. Right now I need to focus on getting back into the game as I definitely was limited for the past few challenges. It showed in this challenge as I helped my tribe win the challenge. The merge is coming soon and I’m hoping to make the merge and continue showing a new side of myself, like David did in Milennials vs Gen X. Doing this helped David excel in his game and it’s helping me excel in my season of Survivor. I’m pushing myself to see just how far I can go and see if maybe I can win this competition.

So glad we won, tribals are dumb. Would’ve liked to vote out Liam though. Still, can’t wait to be the only Stephen left in the game, Stephen Prime, Stephen Supreme.

It just feels like a repeat of my previous ORG where I make the merge without ever going to tribal council and get voted out soon after. I am not so sure if this is a good thing for me. Its getting a bit boring. I want to play the game, be part of strategy talks, organize a blindside. get blindsided etc etc. These are the fun parts of the game imo and I feel these are about to happen as I am expecting the merge soon.  Hope I do not flop like my last game and last for a longer while this time around. Zach seems to like Miguel and Miguel has been feeding a lot of info to Zach. Probably they know each other from the past or something but either way they appear to be close. Zach had been planting seeds in my mind, saying more than once that Miguel seems to be cool and loyal whereas Jake is sketchy. I personally seem to connect better with Jake and feel like he is a better person to work with for me personally. He is a strong competitor and even if he doesnt happen to be the loyal kind of player, he is more of a threat and its likely that he would be targeted later in the game which are the kind of players I need around whereas I find Miguel to be a less threatening player who could slip under the radar and steal your spot at the end. I believe there would have been a push for Jake to go if we had lost but glad that didn't happen coz I do not wish to create any waves yet and cannot afford to go against King Zach's words. Fun fact - Zach has added me in 4 alliances within the past 2 days but none of those are with people in the game :)

Daniel leaving at the last vote has been a big blow to my game, but it wasn't the worst-case scenario. With me and Jess still in I still have my most trusted ally on the tribe. I questioned Alyssa about having the idol since apparently I do that to all of my allies now, but she said she didn't have it. She brought up the possibility that there was only one Hallway idol available for everyone, and while I'm not sure I totally believe that explanation she did admit that she has reached 100.

We came up with a plan last night, where she convinces Isaac that the plan is to flip me and vote Jess out. Assuming Alyssa is loyal to the plan and Isaac buys it, I shouldn't be getting any votes tonight. I'll tell Jess everything when she gets back and hopefully this vote will be 3-1. But even if Alyssa is lying to me, there's a chance Jess might find something in the basement. And if she does, well.... I'll be trying to use it to "both" of our benefits ;)

So woahhhh that double tribal huh!! I did not see either vote out happening. TJ went out on a unanimous vote and Ratboi played an idol into a split vote!!! I wonder what TJ did or failed to do in order to get voted out. Did his enemies end up on the tribe with him? And what about Ratboi. When did he get an idol? Was this from Kato or the basement?? Who split the vote in the first place? I have many questions and not too many answers as of now.

Ok so here is what I concluded so far. TJ, Jake, Alyssa, and Stephen W (The Australian) are one side of the old Kato and the other side was Miguel, Fredrico, Isaac, and Luke.

TJ ended up with Luke in the swap but Stephen W on his side so I am confusion??? Ally and Liam were there as well so idk.

So we win the challenge and I am PUMPED. Our tribe managed to work together and draft some potential questions as well as help one another out during the challenge. I managed to get a score of 7 which is dope!! Oh and our tribe also finished in first place meaning we got to send someone from the losing tribe into the basement.

The losing tribe was Atila 2.0 which consisted of Jess, Alyssa, Isaac, and Stephen Z. Now I initially thought the person going into the basement was immune so I suggested Alyssa because I know that she is aligned with Jake and I wanted to try and work with them at merge potentially. However, once I discovered that the basementee would return I switched up and supported Jake in wanting to send Jess. This was great for me because Jess is my ally and I didnt immediately suggest her so that sheds some weight off my shoulders. But umm I was also kinda rude and I stiff armed Miguel from trying to send Isaac back there. I know that they are aligned so I could not allow that to happen. I made the decision for the tribe and @'d Anna to let her know that the tribe (Aka me....) had decided on Jess. Now this could hurt my game because this could make me seem like I am hard to work with or not willing to compromise but only Miguel would think so and he's one of my targets so lol.

Hopefully at Attila's tribal Isaac goes home and the merge happens so I can slay it.

What isn't going on? That is the real question...

Let's take it back to BEFORE Daniel's departure.

Prior to the vote ( literally 20 minutes before) I went on call with Alyssa and I can't tell if I'm just sipping Paranoid Bitch Juice™ or not.... BUT the first thing she asks me is if I have the idol. I was thrown off because.. 1) Why are you asking me this BEFORE A VOTE...AM I BEING VOTED OFF?. 2) Why do you have a SMILE on your face while asking me this. Anyways.. I've come to the conclusion that she may have an idol and isn't telling me because I want to kill her in this game. The purpose of this call was to warn her that I was actually voting out Isaac so she wouldn't be blindsided. I was trying to sugar coat it. Telling her I was conflicted and that Isaac may or may not have an idol but then the Google Hangouts link was sent and I didn't have enough time to tell her. After this Chaos and Daniel going I was hella shook. Alyssa seemed pissed at me and at that point I had no regrets. An idol was flushed and someone who would potentially come after me was gone. It was a major win/win situation for me personally. Then TJ going on the other tribe.. someone who potentially would have came for me... also: another freaking win.

THEN my night gets turned upside down and I'm summoned to the basement. I can't tell if the other tribe sent me there so I could find something and they LOVE ME or because they wanted to MURDER me in this game. It's still up in the air tbh. Being away from my tribe for a long period of time was scary. I'm kind of just hoping my relationship with both Stephen and Alyssa are solid and we can bo$$ this game up. However, am I afraid of Isaac possibly finding two idols in the basement? yes? do I want to be a paranoid bitch once again in a game? no? am I dying on the inside and thinking it could be me tonight? yes? am I going to drink wine before tribal? basically.

My game plan is simple. I'm going to be straight up with Alyssa and say I'm NOT doing Stephen. She either will vote out Stephen and we tie and we can go to rocks. 50/50 odds. Or she can keep Stephen. That's it. If an idol is played and I'm who they vote out.. I'll probably cry.

I refuse to even look ahead to after this tribal because I'm sort of extremely uncertain.

Fuck this week, man. I'm so glad that Ally and I went from a minority to a tie at the best, but I'm just not super confident in much right now. Hopefully we just keep winning.

hi i literally don’t have anything to say because nothing has changed since last round

i’m rly glad tj left i liked him but i liked everyone else more... and he VOTED me i’m glad daniel left in the tie on the other tribe cos we never spoke and i’m close to stephen z it’ll be interesting to see how their tribal goes this time with 2-2 tribal lines. i’m excited. i love jess and stephen so i’m rly hoping nothing happens to them that’s p much it. i got nothin. sry.

Sisters this might be the end of the road for me. I hope it’s not because I’m having a blast but this 2-2 fuckshit is annoying. If I go I have a successful idol play to my name and a few iconic one liners, see y’all in All-Stars. Rotten Luck.

Isaac is voted out in a 3-1 vote.

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Episode #8: “hoebi hears ALL things shady...” - Tobi

Ok I’m super excited because we finally got a challenge involving something I’m good at which is aesthetics. I fucking love moodboards and I really wanna win a challenge so I’m hoping I can win this.

So I am absolutely not creative at all so this challenge is gonna be a struggle for me so love that

So Wes was just voted out. Im neutural about it. Yes wes was a number, but it wouldve done too much drama to try and save him.  Im playing my game not his. He didnt do himself any favours.

This round my target is david. He seems like someone who isnt central to everyone. So therefore I think he would easier to get votes on. Plus scott has mentioned david annoys him. So im hoping that now i can managed to pull 2 people our way to vote our david.

people sure gettin feisty..

lets start off with missus dani and mr michael the obvious f2.. like bitch if ur gonna leak things i tell u dont make it obvious!! LAMFJHFG and now dani wants to flip the script on felix bc She Doesnt Want To Do What Shes Told. like gtfo :) ugh im sick of them both i wanna blindside them so bad..

and then i might get caught leakin if this shit gets out more.. hope the vote stays at felix vs david tho bc its bye bye david :)

uhm idk wha t more to say. im done with these mercia people..

Today... the tea... is absolutely STEAMING!! so initially the plan was for david to leave bc felix also wanted to blindside him... but scott's told michael who TOLD david about it and now david knows about it so the target is switched rn... Also more tea is that dani thought she was slick and told scott that she wanted to blindside felix along with scott, david, michael, some sweyn, and said ahrre would do whatever she said... what she said also insinuated that me, mo, and felix were on the bottom of our og tribe... guess she doesn't know that hoebi hears ALL things shady... looks like im flipping off of my og tribe for a 3rd org in a row ladies

im such a fucking  mess.... but thank god i have rhys/jones/ryan pickin up the pieces and we still blindsidin.. ALMFJBG

GOD I HOPE ITS DANI THO IM DESPERATE FOR HER TO GO. and i wanna show michael u dont fucking throw me utb n get away with it.. i may be inbred but im not completely dumb n i have the social bonds to stay aMJFHBG

im so dumb like i deserve nothing good after this.

pleaseletmewinpleaseletmewinpleaseletmewinpleaseletmewinpleaseletmewin i w a n t t h i s

SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING DOWN GUYS this tea is HOT SO since before the Wes vote, Felix, Mo, Tobi, Scooty, Ryan, Rhys and myself were planning on voting for David for the F11 vote - because he's a comp threat and seems pretty set on not flipping on OG Mercia BUT when Scooty was chit chatting with his Canute bff Michael, MICHAEL SPILLED THE BEANS and basically threw Scooty under the bus, so David found out about the plan! I had to play dumb when David asked me about it, and I told him I had no idea (and he totally fell for it >:3c), BUT Felix heard about it and went to Ryan and it became A [clap emoji] CLUSTER [clap emoji] FUCK [clap emoji x3] Scooty also got tea from Dani that she wants to flip the script on Felix with Scooty, me, David, Michael, and Ahrre (she said Ahrre would follow along with anything bc they're paranoid asf) - SO she basically layed out the Mercia tribe Dynamics and indirectly said that Mo, Felix, and Tobi were on the bottom. Which honestly we knew, but that works perfectly for us Sweyn ;) So after I cleared everything up with Felix that Scooty never spilled the beans to David and that Michael is a total snake, we were thinking about what to do next -And because David knows his name's been mentioned, we had to tread carefully. So then we thought,, why not use this paranoia to our advantage? We can make David feel like he's a target so they can possibly play an idol on him (which is a HUGE possibility) but in actuality,,, we're voting for Dani or Michael. It's pretty obvious to everyone that they're a really tight duo and it would be great if we could split them up now before they go far. Right now everyone would definitely prefer to vote Dani (and so would I) because apparently she's a possible comp threat, and also she's v messy so there's that. but if she possibly wins immunity then the vote's changing to Michael. As long as that duo breaks up then we're solid. BUT THAT'S THE TEA FOR NOW I'll try to make another confessional if my dumbass remembers to <3

So I didn’t win, which makes me sad but I did come in second place. Another good thing is that Jones won and I’m allies with Jones so I’m very happy about this. Overall I’m happy.

Hey ya boy is back now I'm gonna recap last week cause my flop ass forgot to do it as it happened. Basically I didn't win immunity which is good. Then I went take a poopoo and when I come back everyone is saying Wes, so hey guess I don't work this week, a nice change compared to the week jose went home.

As for Wes well he hadn't been the most active and I really didn't had a bond with him so that seemed as a convenient vote to me. Aparently he was also targetted cause he was one point away from winning immunity? idk how much of a factor that was but hey kids all the more of a reason to throw them early challenges.

Now talking about tribe lines I'm doing my job talking with the other guys and letting them know I'm willing to work with them. However I'm keeping my eyes on them, specially Scott who seemed to have charmed Michael and Dani in after having flipped on Malik. Add to that the connections he probably has with his OG tribe and make no mistake he could very well be in the best position in this game, which means I will probably have to take a shoot on him sooner or later.

Tobi could also be in a similar postion since the other guys saved him when they had a 4-1 tribe divition advantage, but idk how much was up to Tobi chatting them up instead of Madison being a liability, but I will also keep an eye in him.

Additionally Michael is def not fully in with the idea of staying og tribe strong, which is fair enough. But he also told me Felix told him last week he wanted david out next week, so that would basically be this week. So I'm gonna have to learn more about that, also I never knew who originally threw Wes's name out and no one seemed to know but something tells me Michael had something to do with that as well.

So all in all that's a bunch of stuff I'm gonna have to act upon while keeping a low profile, but hey lazy week was last week so it's not time to get confortable and sit around without doing anything.

sooo i came online today to some messiness lmao. apparently danielle/michael/david all found out about felix's plan, and michael went to Felix and basically threw Scott under the bus about it lmfao. and they want to pull in Ahrre + some Sweyns to flip it on Felix and uh.... yeah no afkdsf. i was able to get felix back on the right page and i think we're good to go him/Mo + Sweyns and blindside Danielle or Michael hehe, because felix thinks an idol could pop up or something idk

so the new plan is blindside miss dani.. thank god LMAOAOAA i been wantin her ass out forever and i wanna have michael stay shook bc if he thinks im gonna be loyal to him after this.. lmao

SHE SHOULDA JUST SAT THERE AND ATE HER FOOD INSTEAD OF SITTIN THERE SAYIN ‘OH I DONT WANNA DO WHAT IM TOLD’ LIKE BITCH. YES U WILL. OTHERWISE UR ASS IS GRASS. THANK U, NEXT.

Okay, so Jones won immunity. Great! Sweyn on the immunity train.

So David was the original plan. However scott went around trying to swing it to david to people who cant keep their gob shut. Michael went to tell David, and david has come full circle and started asking everyone if they had heard my name. So now The sweynians have tried to swing the vote on Dani. As its seen that her and Michael are a pair & Tobi finds Dani annoying.

So we are going to keep the facade that its still David and try to keep telling Michael its David etc and get votes on David. When in reality thats a big fat lie. And Dani should be getting votes.

So tonight the vote is very simple. To vote Ryan however the complication comes from whether or not I go with the og sweyns to blindside David in an attempt to really open the game up and have less of a tribe vs tribe dynamic. Also complicating matters is the fact scott wants me dani and David to form a voting block with Ahrre and someone else to really control this game. It seems to me that I need to really think about my decision.

they better make up their minds whether its me or ryan bc i aint agreeing to a 5th name this tribal LAMFJHFG

So all this is messy and I just start thinking, why don’t I flip like David’s a threat and it would open up the game 100% and also if it was just a case of David vs Ryan id vote ryan but I like Rhys so.

So a lot happened and now it’s rhys but I don’t want rhys I want ryan and with my crazy coo coo plan I hope that i get what I want bc that would be cute and like so unexpected and it would get the game to be opened up

im gunna fucking piss myself why are mercia SO DUMB!!! THEY WANNA SPLIT BETWEEN RYAN AND RHYS LMAOAOAOA LIKE HOW.. KILL ALL UR BONDS IDC!! ME AND JONES ARE BUSY CRYING LAUGHING BC THEYRE JUST SO FUCKING BAD AAAAAAAA

So I wake up to hear my name being throw around by my own og tribe... I love this tea soooo much... like in the end they settled for ryan but the fact that they have the audacity to put me up as an option AND THEN ask me for my vote... I have to laugh LKJHDFLJ I guess its time to flip the script!! Dani and Michael are coming up with this "genius" plan of splitting the votes between ryan and rhys because they think scott, jones, and I are with them... oh honey... they have a big storm comin... we're using this to our advantage to do a clean vote on Dani and take out one of them mofos... miss piggy gets revenge tonight

soo i came online to a whollllllle big ass mess lmao. Dani & Michael been scrambling to get out me or Rhys to save David and they have no idea they've dug themselves so far into a ditch.... it's scary knowing i'm gonna get votes but i feel confident that ppl have my back... i feel good that the Sweyns + Tobi + Felix will vote together to get Dani, and I just hope we've done a good job at making them not see it coming... but even if they do and an idol is played correctly by them, my idol 10000% is going to make an appearance hehehe

Hello here I am,, coming in clutch as the moodboard QUEEN. um,, thank god honestly. bc rn it seems like og Mercia wanted to just pick off Sweyn and I know for a fact David would've wanted to go for me first bc of Ko Chang (which btw, if you target people for past games, choke, it's a new game get over it sweaty c:) but yeah I'm glad I have immunity <3 thank god I ran a moodboard account over the summer teehee So yeah rn the Mercia group is a clusterfuck and I love it,,, I love watching the world burn yk? They really just,,, have no idea what they're doing. first they want to go for Scott, but apparenlty that's a cover and they're going for Ryan, THEN SCOTT KNOWS and they change the vote to Rhys, then they're splitting??? like??? hello????? y'all gotta make up your minds we've been planning on voting Dani out since before immunity came out. this couldn't have been easier honestly. I love this. THEN MICHAEL bless his heart I love him so fucking much but he really told me that David doesn't trust any of Sweyn and wants them out,, like,,, does he not realize,,,,,,,,,,,,,I'm from Sweyn. like,,, that makes me want to take you guys out even more. PLUS he's really digging his own grave when he says that Mo and Ahrre can do whatever they want and they don't matter like,, you don't give the people on the bottom leg room. that's really dumb I love Michael to death but he's doing this to himself rn but heres the rundown on what everyone on that side THINKS is happening - Michael, myself, Scooty, Dani and David vote for Ryan - Ryan and Rhys vote for David - and Mo, Ahrre Tobi and Felix do whatever the fuck they want/Rhys apparently. so that would be a 5/4/2 vote for Ryan. HERE'S WHAT'S ACTUALLY HAPPENING (or what I think is happening based on my sleuthing) - David Dani and Michael are voting for Ryan - Ahrre is voting for Rhys - and myself, Scooty, Ryan, Rhys, Tobi, Mo, and Felix are all voting for Dani. making it a 7/3/1 split. I really hate how cocky I sound rn but holy fuck Mercia really crumbled and I barely did anything except for keeping Sweyn/Felix/Mo/Tobi on my side. Thank god. plus with all of this info we gathered now it'll be a lot easier to pull in Ahrre so we can take out the rest of Mercia. see y'all at F10 <3

everyone in this game can stay shook sweyn is runnin this shit..

this is legit my gameplan. be a crazy ass bitch and be a mess and people will never vote ur ass cus they think ull lose in ftc LAMJFBFG

OKAY. So lets catch up on the vote.

Originally sweyn was going for David. So Scotty was trying to get on it early and get people to swing to him. He told Michael. Michael tells David. David asks all of Sweyn if we heard his name.

We all regroup, and decide Michael or Dani is the best bet. As you know, snitches get stiches. Dani is Michaels ally and I have heard some people have been annoyed with her. So Dani is our new target. We have Tobi, Felix and Mo on board supposedly.

I continue the facade and talk to Michael and Dani about the vote with David. Inorder to keep David thinking its him. Going over whos voting who and blah blah.

Apprently the others, were going to go for Ryan. However Michael told Scotty about it being Ryan, when he was supposed to. This lead to Scotty telling Dani, who told David. So now *apprently* they think Ahrre told Scotty. So now I've been told the vote has been switched to me. But it may be split between me and Ryan.

So right now, I think Dani is going home, with a few votes on me or Ryan. However keyword being THINK. This could be completly a blindside on my half. Just gotta keep fingers crossed.

Man, so tonight's tribal is gonna be crazy. I got my alliance of Felix, Michael, Danielle and myself voting for Rhys. And I'm gonna use my vote steal to steal Ahrre's vote since he considered himself the swing vote and I'm gonna vote Rhys again with it. If this plan works, Rhys goes home.

We've been telling everyone else that the vote is Ryan, so in case there's an idol being played on either Rhys or Ryan, the other one will hopefully go home.

Ok so a lot has been going on and I've got a big headache so lets just sum it all up.

1. Scott is a dangerous little fella aparently the entire Felix throwing David under the bus last week story was bs. 2. OG Sweyn are going after David. 3. David is going after rhys but he's telling me to vote ryan for some reason, I assume that's because someone leaked the ryan vote to Scott and for some reason he thinks it was me? Either way he's really risking it considering I'm not sure he even has majority, plus he's alienating my ass so I have no real reason to keep him if I survive this round.

Anyhow I'm paranoid now so wish me gl.

Danielle is voted out 7-2-2.

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EPISODE 10: “ELLIOTT IS A FLIP FLOPPING SNAKE (so am i tho) ” -Eddie

Yeah, about that dream final three with Eddie and Sarah, scratch that. It's now Sarah and Steph please and thank you.

oh................................................................ [11/9/16, 10:10:06 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’m sorry Sarah, but I just have the feeling in my gut that going with rob will be detrimental to both our games, he has literally flipped on every single person on this tribe. And my god tells me I have to do this. I really hope you can forgive me [11/9/16, 10:10:30 PM] Sarah: is rob going [11/9/16, 10:10:39 PM] Sarah: omg [11/9/16, 10:14:51 PM] Sarah: u just fucked my whole game over fuck you [11/9/16, 10:15:21 PM] Eddie Bracco: please come on call immediately with me [11/9/16, 10:15:28 PM] Sarah: no [11/9/16, 10:15:33 PM] Sarah: were not friends [11/9/16, 10:15:38 PM] Eddie Bracco: sarah come on call with me [11/9/16, 10:15:42 PM] Eddie Bracco: so i can explain to you [11/9/16, 10:16:13 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  14 seconds [11/9/16, 10:17:04 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  39 seconds [11/9/16, 10:17:10 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:18:33 PM] Sarah: you had one chance and you fucked up [11/9/16, 10:18:35 PM] Sarah: congrats [11/9/16, 10:18:37 PM] Sarah: fuck you [11/9/16, 10:18:47 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:18:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:19:27 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:40:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  32 seconds [11/9/16, 10:45:49 PM] Sarah: WHY WOULD U THINK FOR A FUCKING SECOND THAT JOES FRIENDSHIP IS MOR EIMPROTANT THAN MINE [11/9/16, 10:46:08 PM] Sarah: HONESTLY EDDIE YOU SAY U FINALLY THINK FRIENDSHIOS ARE MRE IMPORTANT THAN THIS GAME BUT U KEEP FUCKING UO LIKE SERIOUSLY [11/9/16, 10:46:12 PM] Sarah: HOW FUCJIJBGTDARE U [11/9/16, 10:46:20 PM] Sarah: HOW FUCKING DARE YIU DO THIS TI ME [11/9/16, 10:46:22 PM] Sarah: FUFK YIUY [11/9/16, 10:46:24 PM] Sarah: FUCK OFF [11/9/16, 10:46:25 PM] Sarah: I HATE YIY [11/9/16, 10:46:26 PM] Sarah: NEVER [11/9/16, 10:46:28 PM] Sarah: SOEAK [11/9/16, 10:46:29 PM] Sarah: TOM [11/9/16, 10:46:29 PM] Sarah: ME [11/9/16, 10:46:30 PM] Sarah: EVER [11/9/16, 10:46:31 PM] Sarah: AGAIN [11/9/16, 10:46:33 PM] Sarah: EVER [11/9/16, 10:46:34 PM] Sarah: TEDDY [11/9/16, 10:46:37 PM] Sarah: WAS RIGHT AOIUT UY [11/9/16, 10:46:45 PM] Sarah: YOIU DOBT CARE ABOUT ANYIBNE BUT URSEKF’ [11/9/16, 10:46:49 PM] Sarah: HAGE FUNCKING FUN [11/9/16, 10:46:51 PM] Sarah: BUE’ [11/9/16, 10:46:53 PM] Sarah: FUCKING ASSHO,EL

ya idk what to do at this point bc the two people I trusted the most in this game are gone. What the fuck was eddie thinking when he made this move?!? Did he think I would forgive him for clearly putting joe before me? AND I LOOK LIKE A DUMBASS FOR THINKING HE EVEN CARED SO YEA. great. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me so it looks like im the fucking joker. Congrats Eddie and Joe, you stayed for one more round. Fuck you both.

You'd think that she was the one that I idoled out not Ned....... [11/10/16, 3:14:37 AM] Sarah: ive literally been crying for the past 4 hours because I still dont know why you literally put joes game before our own friendship and deceived me like that. You didn't tell me, you made me lie to joe, you lied straight to my face for 3 days and now my game is over because of you and so is our friendship and im just really sad and as soon as ned went home because of you, i couldnt even enjoy my night out with aiden because all i wanted to do was fucking cry so congrats you blindsided me i really hope it was worth it [11/10/16, 10:02:28 AM] Sarah: still thinking about how you said you would never betray me over a game and you played me like a fool and i just want an explanation [11/10/16, 10:06:51 AM] Sarah: and if you think for one second if taking joe or elliott to the end guarentees you a win you thought wrong [11/10/16, 10:07:05 AM] Sarah: because no one in jury likes you [11/10/16, 10:07:06 AM] Sarah: like [11/10/16, 10:07:07 AM] Sarah: ????? [11/10/16, 10:07:10 AM] Sarah: wtf [11/10/16, 10:09:06 AM] Sarah: and dont even sit there and pretend this wasnt a plan to get me out [11/10/16, 10:09:08 AM] Sarah: like [11/10/16, 10:09:13 AM] Sarah: i know youre reading all of these [11/10/16, 10:09:18 AM] Sarah: so dont ignore me [11/10/16, 10:09:53 AM] Sarah: you backstabbed your bestfriend eddie...how is that a respectable game play. [11/10/16, 10:10:56 AM] Sarah: YOU LIED TO ME FOR 3 DAYS [11/10/16, 10:11:04 AM] Sarah: AND I WAS FUCKING THERE FOR YOU [11/10/16, 10:11:16 AM] Sarah: AND I SAID I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU [11/10/16, 10:11:21 AM] Sarah: BUT THEN YOU DID THIS [11/10/16, 10:11:26 AM] Sarah: LIKE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME [11/10/16, 10:11:28 AM] Sarah: WHY [11/10/16, 10:11:36 AM] Sarah: YOU MUST REALLY FUCKING HATE ME HUH? [11/10/16, 10:12:18 AM] Sarah: and i literally cried all night because i just lost you as my bestfriend and i cant trust you ever again [11/10/16, 10:15:13 AM] Sarah: i know you're online and you've seen all of this so just fucking answer

SoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO SAM AND I HAVE FINALLY COME UP WITH THE NAME TO OUR ICONIC SECRET FINAL 2 AND IT'S BONNIE AND CLYDE SINCE WE'RE PARTNERS IN CRIME AND WE'RE STEALING THE WIN FROM EVERYONE SINGLE ONE OF THESE PLAYERS LEFT IN THE GAME.                                                                                                               So I’m going to go to Sam about this today but so basically, since I played my idol on the Joe who was my rival and saved him when he was a dead fish in the water, he trusts me so much and wants to go to final two with me. So he told me that the Elliott has an idol and what I’m going to do, is have Sam go tell Sarah that the Elliott has an idol, and that’ll get Sarah to want to blindside him and Sam will play both sides while i pretend that I’m 100% with Joe and Elliott and i’ll have her tell Elliott and Joe that they are going to vote me but are going to tell us its joe to blindside me, so that Elliott feels 10000000% safe, and I’m gonna have Sam vote with them and blindside Elliott with the idol and ill vote with Joe and Elliott to not expose myself and then the next round Sam will flip back to take out Sarah because Elliott is a serious comp beast and he could go on an immunity run and this round is the perfect round to take him out because in the pressure cooker that just happened he took a temptation so he can’t compete in immunity and him going on an immunity run with an idol in his pocket is even more dangerous

EDDIE IS THE BIGGEST IDIOT OF THIS WHOLE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIM AND I WENT ON CALL AND THE REASON HE WENT BEHIND MY BACK IS BECAUSE OF THE PANCAKES AND I TOLD HIM IT WAS FAKE!!!!!! IT WAS ONLY FOR ROB NOT TO FLIP ON US AND HE FELT SECURE AFTER THE F5 OF SAM, NED, EDDIE, ME AND ROB WERE DONE HE WOULD THINK THERE WAS A CHANCE FOR HIM AND LITERALLY HE BLINDSIDED EVERYONE BECAUSE OF A FAKE ALLIANCE AND ITS LIKE !??????????????????????????????????/ WHAT THE FUCK ARE U DOING?????????!?!?!?!? WE HAD another fight on call because he doesnt listen and just talks incessantly without reason,....but the fact that i have to be nice to him for a possible jury vote is like ugh ew gross   anyways so girls alliance now + rob. I dont KNOW what to fucking do now and im just so fucking shocked at how eddie would literally blindside everyone for ....JOE? Like if he makes it ftc and im in jury im going to make sure he doesnt win at all. Hes so fucking ugly and yea im bitter. At least he sank his own egotistical big ass ship. I FUCKING HATE HIM HES SO DUMB I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE HAS EXCUSES FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING AND ITS LIKE EDDIE STFU YOURE SO FUCKING ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYING AND HES GOING TO SEE THIS AFTER THE SEASON BUT IDEC BECAUSE WE WONT BE FRIENDS :) I NEED TO CALL SAM SOON AND TALK GAME WITH HER AND FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK WERE GOING TO DO BECAUSE AT THIS POINT ....SHES THE ONLY ONE I TRUST and now i have to make sure rob doesnt flip and make him know im taking him to f2 and do the same thing with steph and honestly after this blindside if i make it to ftc i better win because im truly the underdog who keeps losing allies and who keeps getting blind sided and my name is yet to get written down and its f7 nice.............. ugh smhsmhsmhsnmshsmhm joe is so ugly and so is eddie EVERYONE IS LOOKIN G FOR THE IDOL LIKE.....YA OK USE IT BITCH IDC FUCK OFF IM DONE

Whew, okay, so Final 9. I knew going into Pressure Cooker that there would be another tribal council either before or during it. So i brought the idea up to my "alliance" of Joe, Chris, Sam, Rob, and myself. We decide to go for Ned since he would be too busy to appear for Pressure Cooker, so there would be a shot he wouldn't be there for Tribal and therefore not be able to play his idol. So we get to Knight Moves which is kinda weird with 9 people, but there were a few things that were CLEARLY obvious that were happening. First, Ned, Eddie, and Sarah (pretty sure them three) all chose spots the were Joe's next moves, meaning they were clearly blocking him in and trying to keep him from winning. Which also meant that they were working together. It was also clear that Ned threw the competition to Eddie because there were multiple moves Ned could have made that would have ensured him like 3 more moves than anyone else. But Joe won immunity anyways which was hilarious. During the comp though, Sam and Rob flipped and decided to vote out Chris instead of Ned and not bother to tell me. So Chris gets blindsided which sucks cause like Chris was the last person I had in this game that hadn't actually lied to me (at least that I know of). Prior to him getting voted out, he told me his two clues to the idol which put the idol in either River or Marsh. I then won the reward challenge and got the third clue to the idol of looking for a low number. So then I knew the idol was in River or Marsh 1-4. The Brawn idol was in River so I felt that the merge idol would not be there. So during Pressure Cooker I start figuring out the idol. Joe and Eddie were yelling so much at each other that I knew they were planning on going much longer than I cared to go in Pressure Cooker. So I take a deal for F8 Immunity but can't play in F7 Immunity. I took that deal for a few reasons: 1) it was Immunity without having to beat Eddie and Joe. 2) If Joe won, Eddie could still play his idol and who knows who would have gone. 3) If Eddie won, he still could play his idol and who knows what kind of deal Joe and Eddie would make after I drop. 4) I had a very good shot at finding the idol. Then something extremely interesting happens shortly before Tribal. All of the sudden I'm given all of the power to decide who goes at Tribal. The plan was to blindside most people and have 5 votes on Joe and Eddie use his idol on Joe, they would vote Ned to blindside him, and I would vote Steph in case Ned played his idol. I don't think they thought about those implications when they decided the plan. I could have told Ned to play his idol and therefore save him, and I could have voted for someone else and that person would have gone instead. I was very tempted to do this, buuuuuuuuut realized that this was a moment to "build trust" with Eddie, Joe, and Sam (a new "alliance"). Ned was also someone I knew had that idol and also someone I did not feel I could beat later. He was also a comp threat and therefore a threat to me winning immunity here on out. So I decided to let the plan stay and have Ned get blindsided and vote Steph so the "alliance" thought I was fully with them. Voting Steph also allowed me to go to Sarah/Rob/Steph and tell them I had no idea yet again what the plan was and that I was blindsided too. Which Sarah has completely bought. I would feel bad if I hadn't been lied to and left out so much since merge. So oh well on them. So I find the idol right after F8 Tribal. This Idol is now the 4th Immunity I have had since Merge and I have only won one Immunity Challenge. The game has changed for me. I am no longer thinking how to not lose, or how to not get voted out next. I am now thinking about who does have to go next in order for me to win. I think I can win this game now. With that, I am now going on the offensive. In our "alliance" chat, Joe mentions not knowing where the idol is and that he hopes the other side doesn't have it. I mention i did not find it. I am the first person to look for the idol in merge. Joe is the first person to look after me. Joe's first place to look is Marsh 4, which is where I found the idol. So Joe knows I have the idol before he even messages the chat. But that's where he messed up. While not looking like anything overtly, he called me out for having the idol and not telling the group. Why he called me out if we're "together" I do not know. Which means we are not together. If we were together, then he would have politely asked me in a PM or call, and not in front of others. So I try and play that off the best I can, but the damage was done and I know Joe and probs Eddie are gunning for me. Eddie and I also have a conversation in which he claims the votes he know he doesn't have if he is in the Final 2. And what he said is true about the votes. But that's what makes him dangerous. If he knows he doesn't have the votes at the end, he knows who does. He also said that I am not a front runner to win this game. I am both flattered and highly offended at this comment. Flattered because my lying low is working. Offended because I'm pretty sure if I'm in the FTC I have a pretty good shot at winning. Taking the right people to the end with me, I know I have Drew's, Chris', Sarah's, Ned's, Sam's and probably Eddie's votes. So with all of that, Joe is my first target. I also know that Sam has to go in order for me to win. Ideally, I'd want to go to F3 with Steph and Rob. I think I could still win with a F3 of Steph and Eddie. Sam would split my vote, and I think Joe and Sarah have a fair shot at beating me in FTC. So that's what I have right now. I'd like to not use my idol at this Tribal, but I might have to because Joe might be up to some shady shit. I need to talk to Sarah more and figure out if Rob and Steph are okay trusting me with this vote to blindside Joe or Eddie. 

ELLIOTT IS A FLIP FLOPPING SNAKE (so am i tho) 

OK BUT BASICALLY HERES WHAT JUST HAPPENED [11/11/16, 8:14:38 PM] Eddie Bracco: [11/11/16, 7:29:35 PM] Eddie Bracco: Sam I just got off call with rob and did hella damage control and he told me something really big that has me shook jdfkjsnkjdj [11/11/16, 7:30:22 PM] Eddie Bracco: He told me Elliott went to Sarah about creating a final 4 with Him, Sarah, Rob, and Steph and them 4 going to the final4 together. And he told me that Sarah wants to do it. [11/11/16, 7:35:20 PM] Eddie Bracco: And I don’t think he’s lying about it because he also told me about the alliance that was created between you, Sarah, Steph, and him [11/11/16, 7:36:29 PM] Eddie Bracco: He also told me that Elliott told them that he has the idol and he couldn’t have made that up cause I had not told Rob that Elliott has the idol SO WE’RE SCRAPPING THAT PLAN THAT I TALKED ABOUT YESTERDAY IN MY CONFESSIONALS AND WHAT IM GOING TO DO IS HAVE JOE, SAM, AND I VOTE TOGETHER AND IM GOING TO TRY MY DAMNDEST HARDEST TO BRING ROB IN AN CONVINCE HIM TO BLINDSIDE ELLIOTT. ITS SUCH A RISKY MOVE BUT AT THIS POINT ITS OUR ONLY MOVE BECAUSE IF ELLIOTT REALLY WANTS TO GO TO FINAL 4 WITH THEM THAT MEANS HE WANTS TO TAKE ONE OF US OUT THIS ROUND FUCK MY LIFE Im in the bathroom right now relieving my body of all the toxins that I have filled it with today, and I think I just thought of the perfect way to convince rob to vote  elliott. 

I’m going to go to rob POSSIBLY tonight but I think it might be too early to do this tonight so I might do it tomorrow. And I’m going to bring up a conversation about who we should go after next. And I’m gonna let him tell me what he thinks and make him think I’m thinking about it and what not. And them I’m gonna be like “OMG ROB I THINK I JUST THOUGHT OF THE PERFECT PLAN” and I’m going to say what do you think about maybe taking out Elliott? And I’m going to tell him Elliott is really dangerous, he’s the person who is the best at comps, and he has an idol and he could go on an immunity run this might be our only chance to do it. BUT THATS NOT WHAT I THINK IS GONNA 100% CONVINCE HIM TO DO IT, WHAT I THINK WILL CONVINCE HIM TO DO IT, Is that I’m going to tell him that if we take out elliott this round. The next round will be Sarah vs Joe, and that Rob and I would be positioned perfectly where joe would trust me, and sarah would trust rob, and Rob and I would be in the middle and would be able to make the decision of which one of them is voted out. And I’m going to tell Rob, that if he votes Elliott out this round, as an apology for what i did last tribal council, I’m going to give him my word and swear on anything he wants me to swear on that I will do whatever he wants next round (which is a big fat ass lie). So basically I’m going to tell him that I will allow him to 100% make the decision on whether we side with Sarah or whether we side with Joe in the final 6. little does he know there’s no way in hell I’m not writing Sarah’s name down in the final 6 (angel)

"HOW DID THEY JUST STRAIGHT UP LIE TO MY FACE?!" I literally feel so bad for Sarah because she's SOOO MAD!! and I'm like YEAH SAME, but really I'm just like 'bitch I knew...' Sarah's gunna hate me when she finds out but like omg I can't believe how FLAWLESSLY I've been playing both sides. pretty soon I'm gunna have to pick a side I know but like they both think I'm with them, I'm not sure, if Elliott really did find the idol it won't be until NEXT vote, so at final 6 I'll have to pick a side, but like damn I went from the bottom to literally being perfectly in the middle from 10-6 Eddie told me that Elliott found the idol so if Elliott really found the idol, I find out who the #Blindsided alliance (me, Sarah, Steph, and Rob) are supposed to vote for and then I vote with them again but tell Elliott who to play the idol on and hopefully they vote for Sarah honestly because once she's gone Steph's vote falls to whoever, hopefully me honestly, then Rob is also kind of lost because he strikes me as the kind who really needs someone to tell him what to do but literally vote 10 I tell Sarah, Ned, and Eddie that it's gunna be Ariel and they think I'm with them so I'm gunna vote for her and keep their trust then find out who they're voting, 9 I vote for Chris and find out that Rob also voted Chris so I can tell Joe and Elliott that I found out last minute blah blah blah and literally Rob comes to me to make sure I'm not mad at him when I was planning on voting Chris before he even was, then for 8 I was already going to but Joe comes to me and tells me to vote him and tells me Eddie's whole plan when I literally came up with the plan WITH Eddie, and for 7 I can still vote with Sarah and all of them but tell them who to play the idol on, I'm so proud of just being able to play the middle for so long and I do feel bad lying to people and eventually I'm gunna have to turn on them but then I just remember that they all straight up lied to my face in the first two votes and purposely left me out even when I ASKED WHO THE VOTE WAS! so like fuck these people, I'm playing a cut throat fuck you game now and I'm gunna avenge Drew and Andreas's death! they did not die for nothing

CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH I SERIOUSLY AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE MET HER IN THIS GAME AND THAT WE WORK SO WELL TOGETHER. SHE COULD LITERALLY VOTE ME OUT AND I'D SAY THANK YOU. [11/11/16, 10:58:10 PM] Eddie Bracco: I LOVE HER SO MUCH [11/11/16, 10:58:13 PM] Eddie Bracco: [11/11/16, 9:23:01 PM] Eddie Bracco: did he end up calling you? [11/11/16, 9:37:52 PM] Sam (Westeros Host): Yeah he did, he told me everything and literally has no idea we're together, we talked about me and him and possibly Elliott or someone else now since Elliott is being weird and I would NEVER want to go to the end with you :P blah blah blah other stuff make Joe feels like I'm gunna do whatever he wants [11/11/16, 10:35:44 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’m on call with him right now lol he told me everything you told me you told him lol [11/11/16, 10:46:38 PM] Sam (Westeros Host): I love it, he thinks he's this little messenger and it's like bitch we know [11/11/16, 10:56:22 PM] Eddie Bracco: JFDSJNSAKNALSK IM SCREAMING AT “ITS LIKE BITCH WE KNOW”

so apparently miss bitch Sarah is ready to get rid of me! her and Rob want me gone because they think I have a good shot to win the game, they're not wrong but like shhh don't tell people that! Thankfully, Eddie is 100% on my side and told me IMMEDIATELY! Eddie makes my life so much easier honestly because he's just there for me and I know that I actually have someone who's always got my back, it's nice. SO anyways, yeah Eddie told me that and then had Joe go and tell me all the same stuff because NO ONE KNOWS WE'RE TOGETHER WE'RE THE ACTUAL SECRET PAIR BEWARE! So yeah, Joe tells us that I'm the plan and Sarah wants to throw 5 votes on me 2 on Joe so Elliott should play his idol on me and then us three vote Sarah but as soon as he said it I was thinking that Elliott wouldn't want to use it on me because 1) we're not that close and 2) why would he trust that Eddie is telling the truth? if it were me I would immediately think it was a plot to get me to flush my idol and they vote me out instead and of course that's what he was thinking

CAN YOU FUCKERS WHO PLAYED THE TOUCHY SUBJECTS TONIGHT PLEASE TELL ME WHY I AM THE MAJORITY FOR THESE ANSWERS Who absolutely needs to get voted out next? EXCUSE ME? Who's the real puppet master of the season? ok.....but thats not ok for ppl to think Who do you think will win this game? :~) awe thanks but THATS STILL NOT GOOD Who is the shadiest player? @ ME NEXT TME BITCH Who will be the most bitter juror? I MEAN IT AINT A LIE Who mistakenly thinks theyre running this game? HOW U GONNA SIT THERE AND SAY IM THE “REAL PUPPET MASTER” AND I CAN WIN THIS GAME AND THEN SAY IM NOT ACTUALLY RUNNING IT!?!? ! Who are you afraid to betray? YEA THATS RIGHT! DONT FUCKING DO IT AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY ONES WE PLAYED I COULD BE IN MORE AND IM JUST IN SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCK and im sitting here like..........yall really gonna do me this dirty??!?! and these are the people im playing with............ NED WHERE ARE YOU? I MISS YOU WE COULD HAVE RUN THIS WHOLE GAME IF YOU WERE STILL HERE so anyways i called rob after immunity to congrats him I HATE HOW HE WON AND I CAME IN SECOND PLACE AGAIN FOR THE FIFTH TIME !!!!!!!!!!11 I AM LEGIT CURSED!!!! AND THERES ONLY ONE PERSON TO BLAME [2016-11-09 5:31:53 PM] julia: I am literally so sad freaking 15th place is like wtf [2016-11-09 5:32:00 PM] Sarah: sorry julia [2016-11-09 5:32:38 PM] julia: Its okay i hexed u to hell, so sooner or later you will bleed from your eyes, and your skin will randomly bubble and feel like i poured acid all over it JULIA PLS DKLJFDSK;LFJDSLKFJ ITS ENUF!!!!!!!!!!! ANYWAYS ROB AND I TALKED AND TBH I DIDNT EVEN PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT HE WAS SAYING because I was still shook about how i was literally the answer to all these questions fuck you alllllllllllllllllllll! but anyways eddie and I fought at the immunity which is so cute because we ended talking after :~) and GUESS WHAT1?!?!? SO like i lowkey hinted at eddie that i thot elliott had immunity which i already know but ya know and hes at the bottom rn and i dont want him going in all honesty because the way things are playing out sam and elliott are going to be sitting pretty and its like NUHUH BITCH NO WAY I think sam and elliott are lowkey close and theyre f2 but ANYWAYS Eddie and I came up with a plan to get rid of sam incase elliott plays the idol and even if he doesnt he def will next round after sam is gone!!!!!!!11 and i was totally worried about steph and rob not being on board but SAM GAVE ME GOLD TONIGHT AND MENTIONED STEPH AS A RANDOM THROW VOTE and im like THANKS SAM NOW STEPH WILL BE EASIER TO PURSUE AND now i just have to work on rob...which is gonna be hard so honestly pray for me BUT EDDIE IS GOING TO TALK TO JOE AND ILL GET BACK TO U YOU GUYS ARE PROB THINKING SARAH U LITERALLY CRIED ABOUT EDDIE BACKSTABBING WYD I HATE MYSELF THATS WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!1 no im jk ...i think i have a better shot at the end if i keep eddie over sam in ALL HONESTY Even if i dont win sitting beside him i would rather lose to him than elliott or sam who ppl are prob rooting for and thats just extremely ugly to me sam is just super sus and you never know what shes thinking and i need elliott to go and i need ppl on board with me and just sam and i came up with a plan of 4-3 elliott-joe but thats legit so risky because if joe and elliott compare notes they can idol me out and im just not here for it..truly ugly AND I REFUUUUUUUUUUSEEEEE to get idoled out AGAIN AND GET 7TH BECAUSE THAT 7TH PLACE CHAT IS JUST.....no thanks fam AND I WANT TO MAKE NED PROUD but hopefully if things go my way (WHICH THEY NEVER DO) it will be a 5-2 vote with sam and elliott being the two... ugh i hate trusting eddie again but after our fight at immunity ppl will never suspect us working together again HEHEHEHEHEHEH HOHDIOFKHJDPF'

[11/12/16, 6:48:00 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’ve been on call with rob for 6 hours [11/12/16, 6:48:13 PM] Younior- TS: Bangladesh Host: please [11/12/16, 6:48:33 PM] Eddie Bracco: i love him so much [11/12/16, 6:48:46 PM] Eddie Bracco: it’s gonna be hard to vote him out if i eventually have to [11/12/16, 6:48:55 PM] Younior- TS: Bangladesh Host: im shooked But basically ill copy and paste to you what i sent to sam to show you where my head is at. [11/12/16, 6:16:20 PM] Eddie Bracco: I think i might have been able to pull rob back in [11/12/16, 6:17:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: he wants swapped sundarya to be the final 4, or so he’s telling me [11/12/16, 6:18:19 PM] Eddie Bracco: he thinks we have the best chance at the final 4 with steph and joe [11/12/16, 6:18:48 PM] Eddie Bracco: i talked to him about elliott a bit and it seems he’s down for it [11/12/16, 6:19:51 PM] Eddie Bracco: his bootlist is: 7th: Elliott 6th: You/Sarah 5th: You/Sarah 4th: Joe 3rd: Steph And the me and him at the end if it’s a final 2 [11/12/16, 6:21:49 PM] Eddie Bracco: but i think we could get him to do sarah [11/12/16, 6:23:29 PM] Eddie Bracco: because i think he’s really being honest with me cause he said he wants to take out sarah because he was like saying he wants to take out sarah but that he would feel really bad about it because after the ned vote he promised sarah he would never right her name down unless he was in the jury and she was in the final 2

At this point i can literally copy and past what i say to sam in my confessional cause i don’t lie at all to her. Like anything I say in my host chat I would say to her cause I literally tell her EVERYTHING. Like I trust her with all my life. I really hope she doesn't cut me but she may be afraid I've played too good of a game since I literally tell her everything about my game. I'm just gonna go with it and hope she doesn't snip me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Okay so, after the vote, I was really sad/mad/upset/disappointed/pissed. Eddie blindsided almost everyone, he used his idol on freaking Joe. Ned was voted out, however, in the process, he called me out. That's what pisses me off the most, that he did that. I NEVER did that to him, I never called him out. I can't trust what he's spilling, I don't know whether Eddie, is actually being fake to me. Whenever we talk, he seems so gentle and nice, but in VL's and live events, he's sort of a dick. He apologized, and he made it seem like he was helping me too, apparently Ned and Sarah had complete control of the game because they had Sam and Steph, and they actually didn't trust me.  I'm not sure whether that's true or not, from speaking to Sarah about Eddie, he's a really good speaker, so he's possibly trying to play me. I do believe that it is a possibility, and I'm going to take advantage of what he did if that's the case, however, I still don't trust Eddie anymore. There's now two alliances of four. Me, Sarah, Steph, and Sam: which I do prefer. Then there's Me, Sarah, Steph, and Elliott. I don't trust Elliott, we barely talk, but when we do, he's a dick, he's a good competitor in challenges, and he has the idol, he told Sarah, who told me. After the last tribal, my activity has been down. I barely talk to people, I basically talk to one person each day. So, winning the challenge was very good for me because I don't know what people are truly thinking now. The challenge was also very telling. Sam is a threat, which I already know, and I don't think she respects me as much as I respect her. Joe is a dick. Eddie is still being a drama queen. Steph is inactive and can't win. Sarah is shady and is a threat too. Me and Sarah had made a deal to be the final two in the challenge, and in the game. I was sad to see that I got "playing for second place," but I think that it could benefit me and my game. I have to play up the part, pretend to be beatable in the end. I do believe that I do have a chance, but I am bias so... Stephanie is going to be very threatening to me if that's the case, because we're both beatable, and she is much easier to beat. I hope they don't decide to take her instead of me. Seeing that I won, goes to show how I do know how people are feeling, I did in fact throw some questions, like the first one, because I couldn't show what I was truly thinking. People didn't cut my rope till I was in the lead, so that shows how much people like me. Heading into the vote, I hope that it's Joe. I haven't talked to him, and I want to be the last beauty standing, for sheer irony. I have talked to Eddie, and he told me that Sarah is going to make a move on Sam, whether that's true or not, because she is worried about Elliott's idol, I don't know. I wouldn't be against voting Sam out, because she is the person that's going to win in my opinion. It would depend if Sarah is actually going to do it. She may be spewing BS to Eddie. Also, Eddie has been annoying the shit out of me today. He's being so paranoid, which is understandable, but it's getting on my nerves. All day he's been like "oh, Sarah's going to tell you about the Sam vote." Sarah's been out with her boyfriend, and he knows that. He's like "did you talk to Sarah yet." Boy, she is still out, I told you that I'm trying to do my homework, yet here you are trying to ask me whether she's told me or not. I thought you cared about my education! I'm sorry Eddie, but it's bugging me.  <.< I think I talked about most everything?

SO........ THINGS ARE REALLY REALLY MESSY AT THE MOMENT.

I can't believe it. Sam was trying to get me out, that little bitch. Browneyedgirlxsg, I'm hurt. Okay, so I did try to get her out at final 8, but nothing came out of it, Eddie turned down my idea. I knew I couldn't trust her rat ass. Freaking "let's go with joe and elliott." She's going to win if this doesn't happen. Her, or the dickhead alliance of joe and elliott. One of them has to go, and if Sarah leaves, bet that there's going to be some dicks chopped tonight. Gordon, I have a little pene a la mode made from three cows ready to be served. WTH??? DID I JUST WRITE.

so apparently miss bitch Sarah is ready to get rid of me! her and Rob want me gone because they think I have a good shot to win the game, they're not wrong but like shhh don't tell people that! Thankfully, Eddie is 100% on my side and told me IMMEDIATELY! Eddie makes my life so much easier honestly because he's just there for me and I know that I actually have someone who's always got my back, it's nice. SO anyways, yeah Eddie told me that and then had Joe go and tell me all the same stuff because NO ONE KNOWS WE'RE TOGETHER WE'RE THE ACTUAL SECRET PAIR BEWARE! So yeah, Joe tells us that I'm the plan and Sarah wants to throw 5 votes on me 2 on Joe so Elliott should play his idol on me and then us three vote Sarah but as soon as he said it I was thinking that Elliott wouldn't want to use it on me because 1) we're not that close and 2) why would he trust that Eddie is telling the truth? if it were me I would immediately think it was a plot to get me to flush my idol and they vote me out instead and of course that's what he was thinking So Elliott doesn't know if he wants to play his idol on me which is totally understandable! Why would he? We barely talk honestly so like I get it, but if he doesn't play it then Eddie has to show his hand and vote for Sarah with us, so I told Eddie that Elliott probably isn't gunna play his idol on me so he agreed to vote for Sarah we just had to make it seem like Joe convinced him, so I told Joe he should try to sway Eddie because I don't think Elliott will play it on me so Joe did And I have to pretend like I have no idea that Eddie is 100% voting Sarah and the 4 of us SHOULD be voting together so And I have to pretend like I have no idea that Eddie is 100% voting Sarah and the 4 of us SHOULD be voting together so