#also i'm a S4 defender and winner is an episode of all time

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Oh are we being sad about Jimmy McGill again? Because the projecting like it’s a sport with Christy, “make them suffer, because you don’t mean all that much to them” kills my heart. And McKean adding on that if Chuck was being honest he’d say “my life can’t keep revolving around you”, but there’s a power in hurting Jimmy so much that he’d never come near the door again.

we are going to be sad about jimmy mcgill eternally around here 💔

the projection with her - joined with the scene of him breaking down in the car sobbing directly following it...wait, let me dig up a quote.

Bob: He’s looking at an image of himself from 10 years before, who’s still holding onto this little crazy dream in the back of his head of, “Well, I can always go to Chuck, and I can always try to fit in there, and he’ll help me.” And he’s just screaming at him, “No, you can’t. No, he won’t. No one will help you."

i'll never recover from that scene in the script:

"something just doesn't feel right. and it hits him.

was it sitting in judgment of young people beneath his brother's portrait? was it visiting his brother's grave? was it that chuck's approval is what he craved most in the world? or maybe it's just an accumulation of everything. somehow all of jimmy's confidence is gone. instead, here's anger's shadow twin. pain.

jimmy breaks down. he fights it. he doesn't understand it. he doesn't expect it. but the loss hits him like a freight train of anguish. tears are coming.

it's a full-blown ugly snot-dripping, heaving cry. welling up from within. agony like being cut open with a hot knife.

his brother is gone. burned to death. and jimmy is alone."

that last sentence - jimmy is alone. he's grieving everything there. not only the loss of his brother and the guilt over it that he can barely face, but the loss of his hopes, of what he thought he might be able to have in his life. what he says to that poor girl outside hhm is everything he feels about himself, the anger at being betrayed, at being looked down upon, the anguish of his mistakes, and his culpability, and being alone. we watched jimmy die incrementally for a long time, and that moment is a death. spiritually, he loses something there. he cries in an empty parking garage and we're his only witnesses (which is mirrored with our relationship with kim too! we're their greek chorus, their confidantes, loving them but unable to intervene.)

chuck used that power he had in shutting jimmy out but it is so destructive he cannot live with it. jimmy won't ever come near the door again, chuck burns the door to the ground. jimmy self-immolates symbolically but the crushing weight of that destruction is no less terrible, and jimmy has to live with it. you make them suffer. (because you feel like you're always suffering.) remember, you don't matter all that much to them. (unfortunately, they and their opinions matter so much to you.) the winner takes it all. (somehow you just keep losing.) it's posturing. it's lashing out because where can he even put that pain? what is he even trying to win? it feels so rigged against him that he tries to rewire it in his favor, but that never works. that only gets you tied up on your knees in the desert in front of an open grave, and more alone than you've ever been before.

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I've been into F1 since 2009 and I love love love how Drive to Survive had got so many more people into F1 (and given it a Tumblr fandom - honestly it's hilarious a lot of the time )

However Drive to Survive does not accurately represent the sport at all! F1 is a billionaires playground and is a toxic hot mess of ridiculousness! ( I watch every race and will follow it until I die but I am under no illusions of how absurd the sport is)

Do not expect these very rich, very privileged men to not let you down (Rafael Silva's and Ronen Rubinsteins they are not !)

To answer your question though - Hamilton is a very divisive person in F1. His die hard fans love him but lots of fans hate him (this happens every time a driver wins too much because they say it gets boring, they say he only wins when he is in a good car etc etc)

He also did not grow up rich and is black so he has faced racism and classism all through his career

Especially after he started talking about it all so publicly he gets a lot of criticism (sometimes justified but mostly not!)

Then there is the issue of Max Vertsappen (again depending on who you talk to he is either a god or the actual worst!)

The Hamilton/Max championship fight in 2021 got super super messy and most fans picked a side and will strongly defend that position

Personally I think Hamilton is incredible, he is undoubtedly the best driver of his generation and he is a fascinating person off track too (he loves fashion, and makes music and sky dives and goes to the met gala and campaigns for human rights etc) and he has grown so much as a person and a driver and a celebrity since his career started

Honestly I could talk about F1 all day so if you have any questions please ask!

Loving the 911 lone star/F1 mash up of interests!

hey there!! thanks for popping in with this-- i love to see that other people know about it and love it... esp ppl who know more than me at this point, lol. i find it so funny there's a whole fandom for it here on tumblr, and i appreciate your perspective!!

i honestly have seen a lot of criticism about drive to survive, but i think anyone who knows anything about professional sports can see f1 for what it really is in that way. like they have to craft some narratives every episode/about the teams, but it's a wealthy mans sport and only the ppl with the means can even get that far for the most part so... idk if it's that i'm already jaded by professional sports and celebrity culture in general but i'm certainly not finding it interesting from the standpoint of idolizing any of them, lol.

i can see where hamilton's very divisive as a consistent winner!! i was getting the sense in s1 of the show that there were clear tiers to the teams and they never even bothered to cover mercedes or ferrari bc they were always 1 and 2 (which... even liking the winning drivers/teams has to get kinda boring, right?) but i actually love how spread out things seem to be now in s4... even outside of the show, i saw a lOT about the verstappen/hamilton stuff from last year, so i look forward to finishing s4 and seeing what happens (even tho clearly max wins... wanna see the drama). obviously this is just a sport full of huge egos and none of them are very good losers, but... some of them are very...................... ☠️☠️☠️. it can be fun to watch grown men throw tantrumsflkdsjxz. i'm really liking lewis and a couple of the other drivers tbh. i think seeing the principals of the teams has arguably been more fun though. they're all such instigators, and i honestly think the show does a pretty great job shaping a narrative that doesn't heavily favor anyone. like... there are obvious signs that things are going to happen later on in the season which is already set in stone by reality, but it doesn't seem like the show's pushing you to hate anyone tbh and i like that.

anyway THANKS AGAIN!! for the info and for sharing!! can't wait to finish the show and catch up with the current actual season.