#also i started writing a rly long post about what exactly i was fantasizing about lollll uhh

[stupidfatslut420]

went walking around in the woods near my house at sunset tonight, it was rly pretty, thought about someone following me in there and raping me senseless the whole time tho

[sageinacage]

Why I am leaving this blog

This is the truth as of why I'm abandoning my tumblr, @/sageinacage.

CW: swearing/harsher language; mentions of breaking boundaries, sexualization, bondage, non-con/tickle torture, kinks, toxicity, overall rly uncomfortable topics

TLDR at the bottom.

Before I start, I want to say that I’m not talking about everyone in this community. Not everyone is like this, but still a lot of people are, and unfortunately the negatives are louder than the positives.

Having this blog was quite an adventure. It definitely had its ups and downs, but I was quick to notice that it had a majority of downs instead of ups. As of now, I'm dreading being on this page.

I don't feel comfortable here anymore and it's incredibly hard for me to feel any sense of safety in this community, and I honestly feel personally ashamed to be in the MCYT tickle community with the bullshit me and others have seen and experienced.

People go around on anonymous and practically harass creators, I've seen so many rude anons get sent to myself, my friends, and people on my dash. People are also breaking CC's boundaries left and right, and no one will listen to anyone when it's spoken up about. I remember making a post stating that if you send anon hate then DNI, and I lost 4 followers. So disappointing. Actually after I took a screenshot of my boundary/trigger list and posted it, someone sent me an ask and did EXACTLY what was listed in my triggers. It went fully against my boundaries, and it caused me to feel scared whenever I get a notification in my inbox, because I’m scared that somebody is trying to purposely trigger me again; and I shouldn’t have to be on Tumblr with such paranoia as I’m experiencing.

Going onto the topic of the more weird and uncomfortable side of the community, I also remember I made a post a while ago saying "if you support putting minors in heavy bondage, then unfollow," and I lost 5+ followers. To put it bluntly, that’s fucking disgusting. For those people to admit for putting minors in a borderline NSFW situation, since heavy bondage is quite literally something that only happens in the kink world and there’s nothing wholesome or cute about it, and for them to admit to doing it, is fucking weird. Though, I’m thankful those people got off my blog.

I have literally seen someone post art of c!Ranboo in heavy restraints and it didn’t even look remotely fun or consensual. It was pictured, or at least my friends and I interpreted it, that he was being tickle tortured and it was non-con. Though, it’s to be expected when the art is a dark-lit room with an intense tickle machine with heavy bondage, with a blindfold and what looks he is genuinely struggling. What made me even more uncomfortable is that an adult drew it. Another person wrote a fic of c!Ranboo in a lot of bondage with the sign ��tickle toy” attached to him. That’s fucking weird. That’s practically something that never gets condoned in a strictly SFW sense. The sad part is that others and I have seen a lot of this happening around.

I was actually informed that an artist the other day on another MCYT tickle server drew literal non-con tickle art of Technoblade (/srs). I was revolted. The worst part is, some people didn't even have an issue with it and reacted to the image with heart emojis. For someone to draw non-con in a completely SFW server filled with a bunch of minors is creepy and weird. Non-con isn't a fun thing, and so many people, including me, have horrible experiences related to it; and for someone to turn it into a "heehee fun tickle" situation is fucked up. For someone to even fantasize non-con as a tickle fantasy just makes me feel sick. There are a few fics like this I've seen as well, unfortunately.

Related to non-con things, I've actually gotten a request before asking me to write Schlatt literally tickle torturing Tubbo, and multiple asks that are similar to that; even when on my request rules it stated not to ask for things related to that. Anything with the word "torture" in it is not consensual, especially in the context it was in. I’ve probably had to delete around 5–8 asks in total from my inbox that were related to non-con or torturous things, even after I already stated in my rules I do not write that stuff.

Another thing I've seen is romantic-esque things written with CCs and then the creator slaps a "/p" onto it, and all of a sudden it's okay? Ranboo has even stated in a stream that he is uncomfortable with his IRL self being written/drawn cuddling his friends, and I see so many fics and concepts of IRL Ranboo cuddling in some way (which I've spoken out about before, but again, no one listened).

Moving on, I've probably met the most toxic people in this community than any others I've been apart of- and I've been apart of a lot, I've been on Tumblr on different blogs since I was 11. For some reason, so many people love to guilt trip here (both my friends and I have noticed and experienced a bunch of people doing it in this community), and the people who get called out for it avoid apologizing like the plague. A person in this community made me and a few others literally scared to say no and scared to advocate for our boundaries, because of how much we got guilt tripped. And no, no one received an apology. But still, people DEFENDED this person, even though me and other people spoke out and explained how this person hurt us. That’s so fucking upsetting. I automatically don’t feel safe in a community where people willingly associate with a literal manipulator and someone who hurt probably over 10 people in total (/srs).

Another thing I've noticed is that so many people seem entitled to something. For example, when I got practically harassed by anons for my discomforts/triggers, basically trying to squeeze out reasoning. No one needs to explain their boundaries/discomforts to you, and this community doesn't understand that from what I've experienced; after being harassed by multiple people on anonymous multiple times, all of which were because of personal reasons I was not obligated to share. No one should be able to say that they got harassed by people on anon for their OWN BOUNDARIES. ON 3 DIFFERENT OCCASIONS AS WELL.

Long story short, I can’t help my triggers. Each of my triggers has developed from trauma I’ve gone through or a bad experience, and I shouldn’t even have to defend myself for my triggers/discomforts if people were respectful and weren’t so fucking entitled for an explanation. So many people in this community can’t mind their own business, and I unfortunately had to learn that the hard way.

I've also seen people project onto IRL CCs. Those are real and breathing people. I understand doing it for comfort, but, the CCs have a literal character that people can project onto, but for some reason, people have to push their things onto real life people. I’ve seen someone headcannon IRL Tommy as trans. That's like the same as your friend "headcannoning" you, a real person, as a different sexuality that isn't what you identify with, and one you may not even be OK with being seen as, and without knowing if you're comfortable with it or not. It's weird.

There are more points I could bring up and more specific things I could state, but I think you got the gist of why I'm leaving. I don't feel comfortable being a member in a community which a lot of its members condone in this stuff.

This is the reason why I'm only active in the MCYT tickle community on Discord, because my server, "Mcytickles," actually respects CCs boundaries and is truly an SFW server, and people are respectful towards each other. It's the only safe space I have in this community anymore, so please do not join it if you exhibit any of these things on this post.

No, I will not be coming back, so please do not try to convince me to stay. I’ve been wanting to leave for about a month now, so this isn’t some impulsive decision. I’ve been in the MCYT tickle community since April, and these problems have always existed but have just gotten worse and more extreme, so I’m leaving for my own mental health and to protect myself from further harm than what I’ve already received.

TLDR: I am leaving this blog and the MCYT tickle community on Tumblr due to the many boundary breaking and unacceptable behaviors I've seen be exhibited, and it makes me not feel safe and comfortable to be here anymore.

I want to thank my mutuals, though. You were all awesome and such kind and loving people, and I’m happy to be your guys’ mutual. I want to thank those who were always so nice to me and hyping up my work, and those who were respectful to everyone and advocated for boundaries. Thank you so much for everything, moots <3 (/gen)

[geleixi]

i was tagged by @meggannn in this thing!!

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag 10 blogs. you are all now contractually obligated to complete this.

Tagging: god i don’t even know 10 people in real life uhh.... @sofonisbaanguissola @millesbianfalcon @zethia (jess i feel like u just did a v similar tag but W/E i’m rly happy we’re both getting back on tumblr at the same time) @itstimetodrew @rustboro-city @aimmyarrowshigh ?????? do it if you want to!! or don’t!!

Nicknames: i mean gracie is a nickname but it’s already what i go by on ~the internet~ so

Gender/pronouns: she/her/hers or anything gender neutral

Star sign: listen....... i’m

i have A Lot Of Feelings

Height: 5′ 2″

Time: 6:17pm

Birthday: july 14!! i could’ve made an indie band named bastille if i wanted to

Favorite bands: ah.... i’ve been in a weird music limbo for a while and it’s been hard for me to decide what music i really like and what music i just hang onto bc of nostalgia, but. i like babymetal, panic! at the disco, sound horizon, stars, and within temptation

Favorite solo artist: right now it’s lights!! her most recent album is Too Good. she also, like, discovered and explored her bi-ness through it!!!! she’s so important to me

Song stuck in your head: the intro to forsaken by within temptation got stuck in my head as soon as i typed their name

Last movie you watched?: i actually...... have no idea............ it honestly might have been wonder woman???? holy shit. i don’t remember movies

Last show?: runaways!! i have mixed feelings

Why did you create your blog?: deviantart used to be my internet fandom space, and i remember a big exodus where a lot of people i followed started making tumblrs and becoming more active here. it took a while for me to get on board tho, i don’t remember exactly what got me to make mine

What do you post?: fandom stuff and social justice stuff and dumb personal stuff

Last thing you googled?: i googled the lyrics to forsaken that were stuck in my head bc i forgot what the song was called lmao

Other blogs: i ran @youngjustice-secrets back in the day but i can’t look at it anymore bc i was so cringey and i don’t like the idea of confessions blogs anymore lmao. a few blogs for personal shit that i’d rather not share. @cutiewithabewdy just for seto kaiba shitposts bc i liked the url. @prettyguardiansinsailorsuits which is my blog for postivity/growth/healing, mostly for myself but others are welcome to follow as well

AO3: i....... don’t write a lot of fic and i’m embarrassed about it when i do, so i don’t have one

Do you get asks?: occasionally, not very often

How did you get the idea for your URL?: it’s gracie but the pinyin for how you’d say it in mandarin

I follow: 316 blogs, but most of them seem to be inactive now bc it doesn’t really take too long to go through my dash

Followers: not a lot but enough that it’s kind of scary to think about

Average hours of sleep: i don’t feel good unless i get 10-12 hours lmao. but during the semester it’s something like 3-5..........

Lucky number: mine are 4 and 7 too!! 4 is supposed to be bad luck tho, but i’ve always liked it

Instruments: played piano for 4-5 years when i was little and then switched to violin for ~8 years and subsequently forgot how to play piano. now i can’t really play either, but i’d like to pick them up again. i took a music theory class this past semester which has helped me relearn how to read bass clef, so we’ll see??

What are you wearing?: burgundy sweater with a peplum, jeans, striped ankle socks with dogs above the heels

Dream job: god i don’t even know anymore. honestly i just wanna make cartoons or video games or comics but i don’t have the skillsets or connections for any of those. or, like, sometimes i fantasize about opening a cafe for lgbt+ woc

Dream trip: everyone in my family has been to japan except me so i’d really like to go sometime, maybe with friends. i have weird feelings about travel tho :/

Favorite food: mangoes!!

Significant other?: a doomfist main

Last book I read: i think the last full book i read was a pamphlet from 1893 that i read for a final paper in a history class i disliked; written by ida b. wells, frederick douglass, irvine garland penn, and ferdinand l. barnett; called the reason why the colored american is not in the world’s columbian exposition: the afro-american’s contribution to columbian literature; edited by robert w. rydell

Top 3 fictional universes: ahh this is hard so i’m stealing answers lmao

pre-lok avatar: the last airbender

pokemon

i tried thinking about it for a long time, and even though i don’t really think much about it anymore, i think artemis fowl’s universe was super compelling for me and had a pretty big impact on me growing up, so i’m gonna say that