#also i left out lilia bc i havent worked on them much

[dawnwinds]

all of my s/is, regardless if they’re like me in personality or not, have an aspect of them that connects with me personally. whether it be a stage of my life or a persona i always admired/wanted to be.

for artemis fröhlich, it’s the desire to be a knight in shining armor in a fantasy book reminiscent of those i used to read growing up. they’re the reckless, righteous knight i admired and fawned over as a kid. they’re confident and firm in their ideals, always standing up for what’s right. they have the same short temper i used to have, and my insane stubbornness too.

for dawn, she’s the part of me that’s always been shy. the shyness i’ve always possessed, and the lack of social skills. she’s a writer, like me, and loves researching. she’s the part of me i’ve always been insecure about and a true introvert who opens up only to ppl they’ve grown close with.

cornelia… is everything i’ve hated about myself. the same trauma, same family issues, same disorders, and same mistakes. they’re the ugliest parts of me, the parts i’ve spent years working to fix/heal. she’s childish, irrational, scared, too attached, withdrawn, etc. every mistake i’ve made - every wrong choice, every scar on my body, every self deprecating thought. it’s all them.

artemis dovewing is the confident, extroverted person i always wanted to be, and who i still wish i could be. they’re vibrant, friendly, approachable, creative, charming, etc. they’re the level of androgyny i wish to achieve. they’re the poet i always wished to be. regardless of their outgoing personality, they’re still reserved and secretive. they prefer to be alone, and relish in the beauty of nature. despite how difficult things may be or how ugly the world is, we still find beauty in the smallest of things.

elise is whimsical and outgoing, akin to artemis dovewing, BUT elise was created from my desire to live in the live action film of alice in wonderland. they’re entirely silly and fun and a breath of fresh air. i always wished i could live in that film and be a part of that gorgeous and whimsical world.

dahlia is the woman i always wanted to become - involved in the performing arts. i grew up as a dancer, and for most of my childhood, acting was what i wanted to do in my future. i gave that dream up, but the desire to be on stage and under those stagelights still resides within me. i miss dancing and acting and dressing up and performing for a large crowd. dahlia is a showgirl - like the ones on broadway. she’s flamboyant, confident, adored, sometimes a bit of a diva, but ultimately: she’s the future i always sought for myself before i gave it all up. despite being a showgirl, she also represents the downside of fame and show business - everything i was scared of if i pursued that career path.