#also i hate makeup and 'feminine grooming' and rituals related to appearance/expectations of participating in those. and policing | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

fitzrove · 30 days ago

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The situation I posted about is mostly funny but I do think it makes me feel alienated from some people (largely certain women because it's my main reference group) dkkdld. Like oh you guys truly have never had to contemplate your gender/enforced gender norms/gendered choices and gendered benefits/punishments, you truly think that all of your choices and actions are simply personal and not societally steered and socially rewarded/punished 😅 like y'all are comfortable with your conformity to an extent where you don't even notice how little freedom there is sometimes dkkdksks

#i also have complicated feelings because i don't believe in abolishing gender or anything :/ but like dkskldkd #is there a word for when you're a cis woman but you're viscerally uncomfortable with certain expected social roles and gender performances #its not gender nonconforming i conform in a lot of if not most ways. but i'm uncomfortable a lot skkssk #i think its also a special kind of uncomfortable when you know you're not trans (nonbinary or otherwise). like huh there really is no way #out of the force fem panopticon that everyone pretends is normal and even feminist JSKDKDKDK #and especially with the recent 'internalised misogyny' discourse where you have to bootlick choice feminism JSKSKDK #(= trip over yourself validating people for conforming to gendered expectations and telling them its ok for women to be feminine etc shit)#i wish i could just dress the way i want and look the way i do and be a woman but everyone just decides to give me all of the privileges #and prioritisations that are societally afforded to straight cis men of an otherwise similar position to me in society #but that i'd still be a girl and people would refer to me as such jdkdld. just without the misogyny #also i hate makeup and 'feminine grooming' and rituals related to appearance/expectations of participating in those. and policing #what an acceptable female body looks like and medicalising anything out of the norm #(i've ranted abt this before but if i was born 20ish years earlier i would have been given GROWTH STUNTING PILLS. TO MAKE SURE I STAY SHORT #AND CAN STILL GET CISHET MARRIED TO A MAN. as you know women's main purpose is to look attractive to a husband. if youre tall youre an uggo #sorry this all makes me so mad dkkdkdkd #thank god i have more bodily autonomy than i would have had earlier but 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 things are still depressing in so many ways #i think i should just have been lesbian crown prince rudolf

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