#also i didn't make this as a sideblog because i'm dumb so i have to log out and log back in to this one

[cinnbar-bun]

I'm Back (kinda)

Hey... long time no see...

Um, yeah, as you can see, it's December and I haven't updated in almost half a year for my writing blog. I was not fully dead! Actually! I was mostly on instagram and posting about my crazy Jojo ships and doing art and stuff.

I'm gonna keep the reasoning for stepping away from the tumbly short. A lot of the months leading up to that was just. A lot. I didn't have much motivation to write (and ngl I'm still struggling to write) but art came a bit easier along with it. Family and the (still ongoing) escalation of things in the motherland were difficult alongside work.

But also for more reasons I kinda wanna get into! I really haven't felt like this blog was mine per se. I've always been asked by others to separate my blogs and likes and interests and keep this solely for writing, hence why little to no reblogs happen and I try not to be too spammy and share things so that way others can keep seeing only writing. Not to mention, my oc stuff was put in another blog to promptly die out while on Instagram it fared much better and I was much more cringe and free (and made tons of awesome friends there too <3). It also stifled my creativity because every time I wanted to write something tailor made for perhaps me or my original stuff, I felt I had to curtail it to appeal to every reader and 'ruin' the investment I personally had in it because now it lost all the personal touches.

This to say, going forward, I do wanna keep this blog and writing for ya'll, but I also wanna make it very ~me~. Posting more about my interests, reblogging things I see, and keeping it all in one place instead of straining it further with constant sideblogs or smth. This also means I will be posting my art and oc stuff here, primarily because... it's my blog, and it's my fun time :3

So yes, I intend to be more active and hopefully by actually keeping this stuff all in one place, I'll feel less burnt out and upset at the blog and leaving on a random hiatus.

The OC sideblog I posted before will most likely be deleted and I'll just remake certain things over here, so wahoo.

If you want to follow me on insta and see my dumb ship and art, it's cinnbar.bun I also chat a bit easier there.

Thank you to my friends who reached out and I'm sorry for my radio silence while I pondered and regained my energy here. You might see me spam art and doodles here on occasion in the next few days, sorrrryyyyyy but I hope you enjoy!

[dreamieparadise]

♡ 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐒. ♡ Tag 10 followers you’d like to get to know better

TAGGED BY my beloved @mimiruku

TAGGING. @lixenn , @myrmyrtheorca , @einsatzzz , @eternitas , and @tiucotheus . I wanted to tag more but I want you 5 to still have ppl to tag djdjdj

@amareinmortis ADDING YOU MY BELOVED BC I SAW YOU IN MY NOTIFICATIONS AND GASPED. My apologizes I have fish brain. 😔

✧. ┊ 𝑵𝑨𝑴𝑬 : Nimo or Nima, either is fine! [Internet safety? What the fuck is that?]

✧. ┊ 𝑨𝑳𝑰𝑨𝑺 : :) .... Nimo or Nima! [I won't elaborate! Actually, that's not true. I'll tell you in private.☆] I went by Momo for a bit to be, like, internet safe but my oc is named Momina! And her nickname is Momo! I'm actually a dumb ass :)

✧. ┊ 𝑮𝑬𝑵𝑫𝑬𝑹 : nonbinary! Don't care for gender, I'm just hella femme.

✧. ┊ 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹 𝑺𝑰𝑮𝑵 : haram alayk!! Jk. Actually, not, but it's cancer!

✧. ┊ 𝑯𝑬𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 : 163 cm 🤙🏾

✧. ┊ 𝑺𝑬𝑿𝑼𝑨𝑳𝑰𝑻𝒀 : No idea!! I say aro ace, but I'm probably more so gray?? I never know what's going on with me! Perpetually Confused.

✧. ┊ 𝑨𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑮𝑬 𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑺 𝑶𝑭 𝑺𝑳𝑬𝑬𝑷 : *Katy Perry's Hot n Cold starts playing* Anyway! Rn it's 6 hrs? But last week it was 4...! Help. Me.

✧. ┊ 𝑫𝑶𝑮 𝑶𝑹 𝑪𝑨𝑻 𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑺𝑶𝑵 : Cat!! I'm Somali...96% of us are terrified of dogs! It's like...in our DNA or something.

✧. ┊ 𝑩𝑳𝑨𝑵𝑲𝑬𝑻 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑺𝑳𝑬𝑬𝑷 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 : A white and pink striped duvet with strawberries on it! It's cute, but so shit! I got it recently. It didn't even come with the comforter!? So I bought it separately, but the duvet is too big for it :) *suffering continues* It's comfy otherwise! *coping*

✧. ┊ 𝑫𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑴 𝑻𝑹𝑰𝑷 : Japan! The plan is to move with my bestie-bestie-in-the-whole-wide-world....! [That was so annoying to type why did I do that?] I bought a Japanese language course to learn JP!!

✧. ┊ 𝑩𝑳𝑶𝑮 𝑩𝑰𝑹𝑻𝑯𝑫𝑨𝑻𝑬 : Whoa, what month was it? It was 2024, tho!

✧. ┊ 𝑾𝑯𝒀 𝑰 𝑴𝑨𝑫𝑬 𝑨 𝑻𝑼𝑴𝑩𝑳𝑹 𝑩𝑳𝑶𝑮 : It was a side blog originally but decided to make it its own thing! [Hi Myell! Remember when you followed my sideblog? Glad we found each other again!]

✧. ┊ 𝑼𝑹𝑳 𝑴𝑬𝑨𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 : "Dreamieparadise" is because I'm experiencing heavy brainrot. You get it? This is me being super indulgent!! Also, isn't it a cute url? It is!

[amiizuki]

small edits of the epilogue designs of the main 5

(not including Eda, Lilith and Vee, I think they look okay and I honestly dunno what to change with their designs)

btw these are all gonna be edits of the renders from the owl house wiki, because my drawing skills are too ass to draw designs from scratch

Luz:

'ight, I gotta get this out right off the bat – I fucking hate Luz's ugly as fuck pants

everything else in her outfit looks great – I love the snake on the jacket (and how it kinda blends in with the stripes on her shirt), I love her wearing the striped shirt she was wearing in the pilot and I love that she's wearing Amity's old necklace, but the pants are just the worst. this shade of yellow looks like shit, doesn't fit with the rest of the colors (apart from maybe her eyes and part of the necklace, if you wanna stretch it) and those dumb patches just make her legs look busy/cluttered. so, I removed all the patches and made Luz's pants beige, similar to the ones she wore at the end of season 2 (that whole look was honestly really good, sad it was only used for a couple episodes).

oh and I also slightly tweaked her hair because it just looked weird to me. I dunno why, but both her slicked back hairstyle in s3 and the epilogue hairstlyle always looked off to me, and I can't quite put my finger onto why.

Amity:

I made a post on my sideblog a while back where I explained why I thought the hairstyle Amity had in the epilogue didn't really fit with how I interpreted her overall hair change over time. basically that whole post boiled down to:

Amity with a high ponytail/high bun/etc. – represents Amity under her mother's control (since Odalia has almost the same hairstyle)

Amity with her hair down or with a low ponytail/low bun/etc. – Amity is no longer doing what her mom says, she's making her own choices now

so seeing her go back to having a high ponytail in the epilogue just didn't sit right with me. and that's why I decided to give her a braid. since Willow cut her hair short and no longer has two braids, I thought it'd be nice to instead give a braid to Amity. I also wanted to try and make it a two-colored braid, since I didn't really know how else to incorporate her brown hair color to the hairstyle (I didn't want to just go for the simple "make one side of the hair purple and the other brown").

I liked how the Grom crystals were added into this design, I thought it was a pretty nice callback to the episode where the whole Grom dance happened, and so I kept them in my redesign as well – putting them as a part of a headband.

the remaining changes are super minor – I made her pants slightly longer, since them being knee-height looked kinda weird to me, and changed her earrings from these big, black (and kinda ugly lol) triangles to the ones she wore in "Reaching Out", so there would be a bit more yellow in the design to match Amity's eyes.

Willow:

this one doesn't have that much changed to it. I kinda wanted to do something with Willow's hair, but in the end decided against it, since I think her short hair, while looking a bit too simular to Luz's debut hairstyle, is still pretty cute.

I really liked the gold glasses she got in season 2, and so I made her glasses here gold as well. not only because I like them better, but also to make it match with her yellow top.

I see that they tried to do this whole asymmetrical thing with her legs – one leg has a knee pad and the other doesn't, one leg has a sock and the other, again, doesn't – and I'm not against it, but the fact that Willow only has one sock just looks off to me. so I gave her her second sock back, but made the other one yellow, to still kinda keep the asymmetry (and to, again, add more yellow to the design, so it wouldn't just be her top and bracelets).

...also slightly changed the main color of her shorts, because that shade of green looked ugly to me.

Gus:

(this one has even less changes than Willow lol)

my man just straight up lost all his blues

if you go to the owl house wiki and open the page with Gus' designs, you'll see that all of them have some shades of either blue or teal, and occasionally green in them (with the exception of his Halloween costume, that became his season 3 outfit, which is mostly pink-red). and since illusion coven's color is light blue, it makes sense to add the colors of his coven to Gus's outfits. but in the epilogue bro's just covered in yellows and browns, with the only blue being his pants. so that's the only thing I changed – made his vest and glasses blue, to return at least some of his illusion magic's color to him.

the outfit itself looks alright, he looks a lot like a teacher, which is what he is by the time of the epilogue (though it is weird that, despite being 16, he looks more like he's in his mid 20s lmao). I'm not entirely sure why he's suddenly wearing glasses here though, since I don't remember him ever mentioning having eyesight problems or even wearing contacts before (but maybe he did mention it and I just don't remember, I dunno), but eh, whatever. he looks alright with those, so I didn't remove them. but yeah, apart from the lack of blues in his outfit, Gus looks the best out of the main 5.

Hunter:

(had to enlargen his png with a random ai, idk why the one on the wiki is like 5 pixels large, who tf made it so small lmao)

yeah, so, uh, the obvious question here... why does Hunter look like Caleb again?

wasn't his whole thing supposed to be how he's not just another Grimwalker? not just another copy of Caleb? not just Caleb? isn't that's why he decided to cut his hair, and specifically his Caleb-like fringe, to not look like him (and to simultaneously not look like Belos)? he even looks at himself in the mirror at one point in TTT, before he gets possessed by Belos, and says "I like who I am now" or something like that, I don't remember the exact quote.

and then Hunter not only gets his Caleb Hair™ back, after Belos possesses him, but he also gets Caleb's brown eyes after Flapjack brings him back to life, now making Hunter look EXACTLY like Caleb! which, correct me if I'm wrong, isn't this exactly what Belos wanted? a perfect copy of Caleb??

at first I thought that by the time of the epilogue he'd cut his hair again or style it differently, to not look like "Caleb 2: electric boogaloo", and so I just tolerated how he looked in FTF and WAD, thinking "eh, alright, he obviously won't cut his hair again anywhere in these episodes, everyone's busy with making Boiling Isles normal again, it'll probably be somewhere at the very end of the show, when everything's good again". and then, lo and behold – he did not, in fact, cut his hair, and he's still just Caleb™...

cool

ignoring his hair – the design itself looks nice. I especially like the addition of Abomination, Illusion and Plants patches he sewn onto his apron, and, unlike Luz's pants patches, these actually work pretty well with the whole look, plus it's nice to see him add small things that represent his friends to his outfit (only one of Luz's patches represented anyone, which was Amity with that Abomination patch, and then it's just two random pictures that don't really represent anyone)

the main thing I wanted to change was his hair, just like with Amity. judging by this concept art it does seem like they wanted to give Hunter different hair, to not make him look like Caleb 2.0. (dunno why they decided against it though, that was pretty dumb of them).

so I basically just took the first hairstyle here and slapped it onto Hunter. apart from that, the only things I changed were that I made his sneakers pink (since his Grimwalker eyes were pink and I kinda thought I'd bring a bit of that color back here) and added some accessories to his arms – a glove on one hand and bandages on the other. I couldn't give him two gloves, since the right one would cover the Flapjack tattoo, so instead I put some bandages from splinters there (inspired by the same concept art where I traced the hair from).

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and that's it.

again, I didn't do anything with the timeskip designs of Eda, Lilith and Vee, because I think they generally look okay and I don't really have any ideas on how I'd change them. as for every other character's new looks – I really don't care that much about them lol. Camila and Boscha look good, King barely changed, so he's pretty good too, and everyone else I barely even remember.

[dogmetaph0r]

🎹 🎓 🍀 For Sammy pretty please

SAMMY-BOY TIMEEE

🎹 - Do they have any hobbies?

Yes! As a boy Sam was taught how to box by his father, which he didn't enjoy at first but started to warm up to once it turned out that he was a decent boxer. He also loves to ride horses, whether on a hack or in a race. But I'm not really sure if it counts as a hobby at this point, considering he works with horses as a career gldkjgslj.... nowadays he doesn't really have a lot of time for hobbies because it's hard to find farrier work thanks to the new popularity of cars among his wealthier clients. If you get him drunk enough, he'll learn basically any dance, but he'll never admit it sober.

🎓 - How long have you had the OC?

Not terribly long in the grand scheme of my ocs' existences. He's been A Concept since late August, and then in early September he finally got a name and the start of a story. I've only been writing Sic 'Em in a real document like a real writer since late December. It's been wicked fast, compared to the (lack of) oc fic writing I've done before, especially canon x oc stuff! It's a fun silly habit of mine that I have to make an oc for everything I love, but that rarely becomes anything more than lore in my head and maybe some art. So good on Sam, making it to the sideblog level!

🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?

Omg ok so. skdgjsklgjslg. This is so dumb but I saw a tiktok featuring a guy with really sad droopy looking eyes and I was like. Holy shit. Why don't I have an oc with really sad droopy looking eyes yet. So what I really wanted originally was more of a "living dead" vibe, based partially around the idea of that particular eye shape with some elements of classical art to draw in some of that dramatic shadowy contrast to emphasize the eyes. I was drawn to the long-suffering expressions of martyrs and saints in Catholic art, and that very quickly drew me into the religious metaphor (coming from me?? shockerrrr am i right). And, in an "all roads lead to Rome" sort of way, this led me to the dog metaphor. And that became Sam's THING. I've used elements of it in other projects before of course because it really is such a lovely analogy for obsession and devotion.

[sweetprettyprincess]

— BTS TAKING YOUR VIRGINITY (HYUNG LINE)

warnings: pwp,female!reader, virginity loss, unprotected sex

notes: this is a repost from my sideblog

english isn't my native language so please excuse any mistakes and let me know

Kim Seokjin

early on in the relationship, you made it clear to jin that you would like to wait to have your first time after getting married, and he respected your decision. the three years at your side before asking you to become his wife were just amazing, it's not like he didn't miss sex but there were so many other things occupying his mind when he was in your company that sex became completely irrelevant in the face of the conversations you had.

on your wedding night, you weren't nervous or afraid, because there was the man you chose to spend the rest of your life with, and you trusted him more than yourself. you was sure of the respect and love he had for you, you knew you would be treated well.

while you exchanged passionate kisses, he laid you on the bed carefully, with his main objective in mind to prioritize your pleasure. when he undressed you, he couldn't stop praising your body and also the sheer white lace lingerie that barely covered your breasts and bottom, then he also got rid of his own clothes and allowed you to contemplate the well defined abs and the touched.

he started with a trail of kisses starting at your neck, paused as he reached your breasts and kissed both of them still covered by the lace before releasing your bra with your help, and then he blew on your nipples and grabbed one, while using magnets. hands to grope the other. the sounds emitted from your lips sounded like a sweet melody. he continues his journey until he reaches your panties, and maintains eye contact by sliding the garment down your legs and bringing it close to his face in order to smell you. delicious. jin's next actions surprised you in the best possible way; his skillful tongue in contact with your pussy was amazing, an indescribable feeling, you felt like you went to heaven and you were so disappointed to return. "you'll only come when i'm inside you, baby," was what he said with a sly smile.

the sight of his big, thick, erect cock jumping toward his stomach made you nervous, but the tender smile on his lips reassured you. "you know i would never hurt you, right?" he didn't lie when he said that. he slid inside you slowly, allowing you to adjust to his length and when you finally gave him the signal to move, it was amazing. his movements were slow but deep and very precise, passionate kisses were exchanged and passionate looks.

Min Yoongi

when you revealed that you had not yet sexually related to anyone before, it was not at all surprised. yoongi knew he was your first boyfriend and, in addition, your reactions to the tuned touches and suggestive comments coming from him were comic. you left half obvious. however, it's not like he's complaining, quite the contrary!

you told him that you wanted to take things slowly, that you would like him to teach you to please him and how to please yourself, so that only then you were beyond and that's exactly what he did. you started with hottest kisses on the couch, you sitting on his lap, touches a little more daring, dirty talk ...

he treated you so well! he made sure to go over the foreplay in order to make you come at least twice before sliding inside you, and even though it was really painful stretching your boyfriend's fat cock, it still felt so good. felt so full, complete, dumb as fuck. he held still for a few moments to let you get used to the invasion, he spread kisses all over your face to distract you and damn it was delicious the feeling of your warm walls squeezing your cock for the first time when you begged him to move.

Jung Hoseok

well, hoseok was really happy when you chose him to be your first, but at the same time extremely worried about the big responsibility. the last thing he wanted was to ruin your first time and turn it into a traumatic experience for you, no way! so he strove to make it memorable.when you entered the room, you saw the bed covered in white silk sheets, a heart drawn with red rose petals and some scented candles scattered on the floor.

"you're so corny hobi", you smile as you feel him wrap his arms around your waist and rest his chin on your shoulder. "i love you".

"i love you too, babygirl," he places a kiss on the crook of your neck. "i really love".

he was a true gentleman, so patient and understanding. he entered you slowly, attentive to your every reaction to his movements.

Kim Namjoon

when a heated makeout session on the couch was interrupted by your nervousness and you decided to tell him you hadn't had sex yet, you had a long conversation about virginity being, in very reality, a sexist social construct, so you shouldn't be worrying about having sex before you're ready just to get rid of the virgin label.

he worked so hard to quell your nervousness through comforting words and his prefect good humor to lighten the vibe, that at the moment you were completely calm, while he was freaking out inside and dropping several, several curiosities a minute .

"...also, it doesn't necessarily have to be painful. if you..." you interrupted him connecting your lips to his.

"baby, i really appreciate what you're trying to do, but i need you to shut up and fuck me right now!"

and that's what he did and, just like he's been saying for the last twenty minutes, it wasn't horrible and painful as people make it out to be. the wetness between your legs helped him in easily and there was a slight discomfort, but nothing to overcome the pleasure provided by his big cock.

[a-snow-decahedron]

16 17 and 19 for ask meme ?

Qkgkskgks thank you for asking!!

16. What's the weirdest thing you've used as a bookmark?

I read a lot on PDF and even on paper I don't use bookmarks. HOWEVER... The weirdest bookmark i do use sometimes is my phone skgjdjfj

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Right now I'm mainly writing for another fandom, Hollow Knight. I started a really chill project in which I explore post-canon events of one of the endings. I've posted 4 chapters, I'm halfway through the 5th out of 16-20 chapters? Since this isn't the fandom this work belongs to I won't dwell for too long, but I can talk about it more in my HK sideblog (@fungal-wasted) (I'm a little desperate i need to talk about it)

FOR THIS FANDOM: I have been delaying a Chara essay for far too long skgkdjf I also have some thoughts related to Frisk in neutral endings, and a Pre canon Sans and Toriel fic that had lived in my brain for A While but I have not written because idk how to start.

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

PFFFT. So I barely consider myself a writer but I've actually spent a lot of time thinking about writing or telling stories. This is long but hopefully not tedious to read!!

8 year old me would write in the format of a play (with formal notations and all) about my first OCs. They were average for a kid that age to be honest. I remember one was named Carmín. Whatever. I just wrote because it was fun to make stories. I also hated reading so not even my old self would have cared about the story lol.

9-11 I had some self insert OCs who were 3 sisters and they went to a lot of vague fantasy places. Never wrote a story down, just had very vivid images and I'd talk to myself roleplaying my characters... Man i was a little weird. It's OK though. It was fun.

By 12-14 i got into Wattpad. I was into Heroes of Olympus and got introduced to fanfiction there. There were also my first attempts at translation and they weren't great but i had a lot of readers. It improved my English inmensively, despite it all. I was into YA literature but I was a bit dumb, not too critical and ashamed about it.

15-18 pure silence. I read some stuff, wrote nothing and I thought I was cringy, I also left Wattpad for the most part, knew about AO3 but rarely frequented it...

And now we're here. I started writing fic regularly whenever I'd get an idea to share, or a scene in my mind that I wanted to portray and add to the piles of fic that sometimes didn't have what I was looking for. It also became a good chance to understand conversations, intent and such better and to have an outlet for all my thoughts. I also like writing essays or such on occasion. OH and it was a chance to write in English too and practice!!

The biggest bumps are when you feel the structure of your story shaking under the weight of inconsistency and or lack of a way to address what you want and have the desired effect.

Now I like both character studies and worldbuilding, and that's what my writing tries to do! I'm also trying to get back into translation (check out @tortadecuchufli ). I want to try out different things and maybe branch out to original writing at some point in the future but who knows.

[voidendron]

tagged by @vespertine-legacy for a Get to Know the Blogger - thanks, November! :D

1. why did you choose your url?

okay, so there's actually a bit of story behind it so this answer's gonna be long.

I was a roleplayer...god. years ago (6? ish years ago?), for the Transformers fandom, and because of the character I played, I got called "Blitz" and the nickname just kinda stuck, even after I left that fandom. before I'd realized I was trans, my username had "Queen" in it, and I had a separate account for RPing as that character. well, I had both accounts logged into the chat at the same time once cause I'd been chatting on my main, then decided to hop onto the RP one and forgot to disconnect my main (DeviantArt Chat, haha), someone didn't know which one to tag to get my attention, so just caps-locked BLITZQUEEN at me

it didn't take long for me to change my user to that. I eventually drifted away from that fandom, but I decided to name my mascot Blitz for the nostalgia

I started to get uncomfortable with my user, realized I was trans, and started looking for alternatives to the "queen" part of it. I came across the word "indite" which is a synonym for "write." I liked how symmetrical the I's were from each other in "Blitzindite," so decided to roll with it

so yes. my username is literally just "Blitz Writes" (it's also why my writing tag is "blitz indites")

2. any sideblogs?

@thevehszlegacy - where I keep track of my SWTOR OCs. needs updated, but soooo nice to have for sorting reasons

@swtor--screenshots - haven't posted there in a long while, but as the username says

@fr-thecollectors - my Flight Rising blog. currently in an inactive phase on FR, but I still adore my dragons there

@jse--deep-blue-sea - I had a crossover fic from my previous fandom that I stopped writing like two years ago, but decided to try and at least finish it now (mostly bc of the Subnautica part of the crossover). I only post chapters there so I can keep this blog to Star Wars content

I've got a few others I don't really touch anymore, but these are the notable ones

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

2018

4. why did you originally start your blog?

JSE and Markiplier Egos

5. why did you choose your icon?

my current one is my SWTOR main, but I usually have a gas mask one because my mascot has one in place of his face

6. why did you choose your header?

Aesthetic™

but I just really really love that screenshot. one of my favorites I've ever taken

7. what's your post with the most notes?

art from my previous fandom. not gonna link it because of eyestrain (glitching effects) and blood/gore. in this fandom, my post about being able to use headpieces (even the toothpick!!!!) to hide Vette's shock collar in vanilla

8. how many mutuals do you have?

uhhhhhh

idk

is there even a way to check that?

9. how many followers do you have?

249

10. how many blogs do you follow?

71

11. have you ever made a shitpost?

yeeee. my followers are probably tired of my dumb posts tbh aksjld;sldk

12. how many times do you use tumblr a day?

If I'm on my laptop, I have it open. so I'll just say "quite a bit" and leave it at that

13. have you ever fought another blog?

no

14. how do you feel about “need to reblog” posts?

can't stand them. the moment I see "everyone should reblog this" "if you don't reblog-" blah blah blah I scroll past whether I liked/agreed with the post or not, oftentimes without even reading the rest of the post.

15. do you like tag games?

sure! makes me nervous tagging others for them, tho

16. do you like ask games?

yessss I love ask games. haven't been doing em much lately, tho. I should get back into them.....

17. which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

I...don't actually know. but I know some of them are more fandom-famous

18. do you have a crush on a mutual?

nah

tagging: @thedinalixlegacy @raven-of-domain-kwaad and whoever else wants to do it! like I said, tagging others makes me nervous 😅

[touyaz]

I'd like to participate in your toxic matchup event if it's still open?

I'd like to do this from my sideblog @mylittlesyn hence why im doing it with the anon on.

I'm eternally horny. Like the hulk, how they're always angry? Yeah, that's my secret, I'm *always* horny. I have ADHD, depression, anxiety and I'm an unmedicated uninsured queen. Im also a scientist on hiatus (like I've done actual genetic research), and the thing I hate the most in a partner is when they underestimate or act superior than me. I get really spiteful about it. Like I was slacking off on my master's thesis, my dad said he didn't even think I could complete that, so I stopped talking to him and finished it in two weeks. Guy in highschool said my science fair project was dumb, that I wouldn't even place because it had all been done before? Worked harder and won 3rd place at regionals while he didn't place. That shit boils my blood. Other than that I'm pretty laid-back and sweet. Like heart on your sleeve gets emotionally attached too easily kinda thing? Which is a great combo with always horny (that was sarcasm). As far as what I like in men that are probably toxic for me? Probably the 'i can fix him' type. My last ex was in the army and still had pretty bad PTSD when I met him. Not like I do it on purpose, and that's not my intention, but I'm trying to be more self aware about it.

Fandoms: jjk, bhna. I don't watch HQ.

Let me know if I forgot anything, and thanks for doing this! If it's already closed, I'm really sorry for taking up space in your inbox.

hello hello thank you for joining <3

naoya. like 10000% naoya is your toxic match-up. as soon as i read that you hate your partner acting superior it hit me bc that's exactly what he does. you might want to try and fix him, but he doesn't want any part of that. as soon as you meet him, he's undermining you, and you take that as a personal challenge + do what you can to spite him/ prove him wrong. and it kind of works.... except he doesn't really care, he'll just pick something else to critique you about and it'll fuel you once more. the cycle repeats. he just finds it much too easy to get under your skin. eventually, i think the pettiness/ rivalry will fizzle out so you're both on decent speaking terms, but the fact that you get attached too easily isn't great bc he keeps people at a distance. he's not gonna be staying up and telling you his secrets + insecurities, he keeps that all to himself. you probably try to make him speak about it, but he's v stubborn + unwilling, and i think it'd either get too much for you + you'll get insecure/ think he doesn't want anything real with you bc he wont delve into his emotions properly, or you'll like pity him/ try to fix him + that'll make him angry bc he doesn't want/ think he needs your help. go for someone like nanami instead <3

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i am fine i am just talking it out for my own sake hopefully it does actually end up under the read more I know mobile can be finicky

honestly sometimes u really do forget like. how much a healing cut can hurt like it isnt terrible but it's like clothes can be uncomfortable against your skin and bc mine are on my legs it can be a little uncomfortable to sit down like none of it is massive hurt but it is like more a present sensation than anything else not painful but like a feeling you're aware of and it's like a constant reminder it's there and you messed up and you relapsed. this is also a tangent but it's like I hate how internally humiliating for me it feels to be like a cutter past high school bc it does feel like such a childish form of hurt and self harm probably because of the horrific amount of jokes people make about it and how they reduce it to something so I don't know they reduce it to something dumb and childish instead of a genuine expression of pain and hurt and it's all your fault for feeling so bad on the inside you need to find a way to get it out. Like I feel I shouldn't be doing this still not bc it's self harm and that's terrible but because it's a childish embarrassing shame worthy form of self harm like I'm forever some stupid high schooler who's just a little sad and is therefore gonna be a selfish attention whore about it. I make sure to keep it in places no one can see and even when I would vent about it online in the past I kept it far more minimal bc I didn't really want it to be like Part of me. Like I try (and fail admittedly) to keep it private but hecause of how people talk about it I feel lile nothing but an attention whore. I do other acts of selfish public outbursts instead to be an attention seeker but no I guess this is what really makes me that, my private self harm habit instead of my very public venting to the world where I cry poor me poor me witness my misery because I need everyone to know I hurt despite having no reason to. Whatever I don't even know what I'm saying anymore I'm sorry I hope none of you actually read this far. Christ. I should just start a private vent sideblog already and stop doin this here it isn't fair to others nor to myself really.

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Hiii. Ok idk how I wasn’t following the other blog already.

But

autumn - what’s your favorite part of the spooky season?

ghost - do you have any paranormal experiences?

nighttime - favorite halloween movie?

Thank you Grecy 🥰 literally the only reason for that other blog was bc when I made my tumblr about 434342354241 years ago, I didn't realise that you couldn't reply from a sideblog so now my "main" is just a reply blog/shit post blog for all of my dark academia goblin hoarding tendencies 😂 Anyway, thank you for sending these in!!

Autumn - what’s your favorite part of the spooky season? Is everything a good answer?? Lmao no I'll answer properly - decorating for the season is a definite favourite. Also it's rainy season where I live, like it rains the rest of the year too but a LOT in autumn so the rain and the temperature drop and the changing leaves are a big thing for me. It's also the time of year where I can get out my soup machine, I make pies constantly and feel like I can be a human again after summer 😂 I hate summer with my entire being

Nighttime - favorite halloween movie? Oooh I'm not a fan of horror movies, so I usually reach for the old school disney movies - Halloween Town is perfection. I'm also a fan of watching Harry Potter in the autumn, especially the third one because there are so many autumnal vibes.

Ooooh (not so) spooky ghost stories below!! Aka me just rambling about really dumb experiences I've had that can probably be explained easily.

Ghost - do you have any paranormal experiences? Ooh I definitely have a few weird stories from when I was younger, the only one from recent years was very weird but I'll share. In my old house that I lived in England before I moved to mainland Europe, it was a 70s build I think that was one in one of those classic townhouse rows in an industrial city - it was a super shitty neighbourhood but the house was nice. Anyway, apparently our landlord at the time had inherited this house from his mother who had passed away in the house and while we lived there for months on end, I had this super weird thing happening at least once a week, if not more. But in our bedroom, I would wake up in the middle of the night to this weird glow at the side of my bedroom, like white light glow. Now this was weird because: 1. I had blackout curtains and blinds on my window, so no light was getting in 2. It always happened in the middle of the night when the street lights were off 3. The light was white and it was physically in my bedroom, not a light that would come in like a passing car 4. no electronics were charging or glowing over on that side of the room because there were no outlets near there I swear I SWEAR on a few occasions in my sleep haze that I saw a woman in that light but idk. I also have had a history with sleep paralysis and nightmares that merge with real life so you can't tell real from imaginary which I was on and off going through at the time so the chances that my brain did that is pretty big but?? Who knows. Other people in my family have had absolutely fucking bone chilling stories and mine is of a disembodied woman's face floating in a white light at night lmao

Another "encounter" I had which could totally have an explanation was when I visited the tunnels below Edinburgh in Scotland. They were used by thieves and killers as well as the poor in the past. There's a witches coven down there now which is allowed by the association that runs the tourist visits and stuff. But I went down into those tunnels and there's tons of stories of them being haunted. I took a photo in a pitch black room, no windows, no light source, no one using flash and when I looked back at the photo there was this lovely little puff of white spooky smoke in the middle of the room. Oh - just to mention, the witches coven had put a ward on that room because of a demonic power and when I mentioned it later, they were like "yeah, that's the demon x" like BRO EXCUSE ME?? Idk if I believe in ghosts, but it's fun to think they might exist. I have no way of proving either way so I just sit on the fence with that one lmao.

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}lil-moni-x3: What We Know So Far

super cute

super soft

blushes when you call her "Moni-Muffin"

is VERY aware of the real reality, but is fond of playing dumb when spoken to over IMs

has the Chaos/Super Emeralds

there's a Gjallarhorn hiding in her closet

(speculation) very likely has a glaive of some sort hiding somewhere (possibly the Black Knight Halberd)

has played Bravely Default enough to know entirely how Special customization works (which means she's played a lot)

filthy fucking Fox main

has played Dark Souls

likes swords (?????)

has made no mention of a "Player" so far

claims to have never played Destiny

has definitely played Destiny

has gone to me to make sure I'm writing Destiny right in my crossover fic

me. the most knowledgeable Destiny lore person in my friend group besides maybe @theishtarindividual

speaking of which she also has a Strange Coin hiding in a book somewhere, possibly others

really wants to be part of my first DnD ever group despite both of us knowing how poorly that would work

I mean really really

like many of us, she too has been wanting to play for a long while

is still on good terms with the other Dokis

is particularly not fond of "fix the game" mods or "save a (/the) Doki(s)" mods

canonically super fucking ticklish (nice)

FOND OF EATING YOGURT BECAUSE SHE LIKES THE THOUGHT OF LIVING CREATURES I N H E R M O U T H .

also enjoys slightly spicy food

is also vegetarian so haha good luck with finding any that aren't 🅱️eppers!

literally the sweetest thing ever omfg

thinks bees are all aliens

no seriously

don't ask her about it

runs a sad and edgy sideblog fueled by fake deep song lyrics where she pretends to be an elder god that wants to make contracts with people

like her main blog, it isn't going anywhere

speaking of which she's also incredibly lonely

please give her love she deserves it

not an ARG

not an ARG

not an ARG

made me put that there three times

might? have a thing for socks?? I think??? unconfirmed?????

may or may not be crushing on Sayo

#feelsbadman

updated her blog's look recently and it actually looks... pretty good

she had me design her banner photo tho

so that's nice

apparently a fan of the rather vulgar YouTube gaming group known as "Friends Without Benefits"

I... guess we all have our guilty pleasures

Bedroom? If you insist. I mean, you are pretty cute. He took my hand. I- *shot*

used to actually live in Japan Standard Time™ until Sayori rewound the clocks to accomodate Monika's... more western followers

seriously really just wants to live a normal life as a normal girl with normal friends who love her for who she is as a person and not just a character and honestly what a fucking mood tbch

she also quite likes Nozomi's hair

whatever that means

in the end, definitely the most in-depth rp blog I've ever seen, and it's a damn shame no one likes her

on one hand, it's definitely because no one follows rp blogs that don't either have silly doodles with each ask or don't actively get into novel-esque rp scenarios

on the other hand, Kay says she wants to only use "official" assets for now

oh well

y'all need to go look at it because seriously if I didn't know any better I'd say Kay herself is just an irl Moni she does it so well

Here's the part where I mock Alve again and add a tiny blurb of flavor and say something about Ragnarök (when's that happening? huh? Alve? waiting! ready to die! any day now!) so yeah uh cryptic shit let's see um land of butterfly immortals rise of a dark goddess war of dragon fire death of a loved king at the hands of his brother vicious elder god purging the world traitor wolf extinguishes the first light phoenix discovers an afterlife experiment fails horribly distant forgotten continent CHAOS REIGNS anyway see y'all at Ragnarök or some shit{