#also gortash my beloved. I keep having headcanon where Durge and him sworn loyalty to each other before orin lobotomised durge
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
maegalkarven · 1 year ago
Text
I keep thinking about Durge, who, even after defying Bhaal, is never truly free from their father's legacy.
Because yes, the Urge is gone, the cursed blood of Bhaal doesn't call to them anymore. But body remembers, even if mind doesn't. Body knows what it did, it knows what it was created for. It's instinctual, bone-deep reflexes of a person raised to be the perfect murderer. It's little twitches and how easily opponents fall: foes and former allies alike.
It's small glimpses of the past, because mind doesn't remember, but the body DOES. It's the eerie familiarity of darkest corners of Baldur's Gate, it's people recognizing Durge on the streets, people they don't remember but who remember THEM.
It's the feeling of being haunted by your own self.
It's the body of Ketheric, the bloody mess left of Orin, Gortash's lifeless frame. It's the knowledge you're the last one, what this tragic story of conquer started with you and ends with you.
It's the feeling of emptiness where bubbling joy once was, the blood on the blade what brings no feelings. It's being charming, or kind, or honest, or gentle, or honorable, but at the end of the day still being the best in the art of murder - and who are they if not Bhaal's unholy blade?
Godless and fatherless, struggling to reimagine themselves.
Especially when memories come; they never return fully, never in the whole picture. But glimpses, the shards of existence what was once theirs cut deeper than any ritual blade would.
I keep thinking about Durge weighted down by the grief of the world, guilt of the world.
Alone: without a god, a father, a sister, a partner (Gortash, bc these two were absolutely insane for each other).
Alone and with whole life ahead; lost and confused and with hands bloodied.
Hero, people call them. They don't feel like a hero.
#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate spoilers#dark urge#bg3 durge#the 'it started with us in ends with us' narrative is killing me#durge who is a tragic hero who at the end of the day is not the person they started with#and not the amnesiac from the nautilus#but the mix of both#martyr and murderer#savior and monster#also gortash my beloved. I keep having headcanon where Durge and him sworn loyalty to each other before orin lobotomised durge#swore like on infernal pact the ritual whay doesn't allow them betray each other#what links their lives together so they die as one#ultimate trust fall and safety feature#'you can't kill me because it would be killing yourself'#durge convinces Bhaal it's ok bc it only means Gortash and Durge will be the last men standing when the time comes#and when durge kills Gortash they will ki themselves too#making the ultimate last tribute to bhaal#but secretly durge is a survivor#they want to live more than they want to please father#so chaining them and gortash by the pact is a safety measure to make sure they don't kill gortash#bc killing gortash would be killing yourself and the self wants to survive#despite everything#so then in act 3 when durge dies and is reborn Gortash feels it#and when Karlach raises an axe to end up Gortash Durge cries in pain#because you can either kill one or neither#don't mind me I'm just plotting to keep rat coded evil boyfriend of my durge alive#durge has 2 hands he can have TWO rat-coded boyfriends#Astarion upon seeing the pact tattoo over the durge's heart: you too hug#and then Raphael is like 'THIS tattoo is the oath of loyalty actually. the closest thing devils have to a marriage pact'
238 notes · View notes