#also getting sick of watching youtube all the time; especially now with the ~controversies~ lol

[alistairian]

My partner came home to me watching doctor who (season 1) and said I remember this show! We watched a bunch of it together!

... I thought we only watched a couple episodes?

No we watched like a whole season or something, which episode has the skin-trampoline-woman?

That's episode 2

Yeah! (:

[purplesurveys]

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survey by starsareonly2nd

Have you ever been to Las Vegas? No. Doesn’t sound like my type of city. I wouldn’t mind visiting the rest of Nevada though.

What did you have for breakfast this morning? Just a cup of coffee; I skip breakfast except on Sundays, when we actually sit down at the dining table and eat as a family.

Do you have any loose change in your pocket? I don’t have any pockets right now but I do have very few coins in my wallet. I used to have plenty, but I’ve given most of them away because I usually give tips to the nice people who help me get out of parking spots.

Do you like Taylor Swift? I like some of her songs, especially the ones from 1989, but I have no idea why I just can’t get into her as a person.

What's your favorite Disney Channel movie? I haven’t tuned in to that channel for a very long time now, but the movies that I got the most excited about as a kid were Twitches, Wendy Wu, Camp Rock, The Cheetah Girls, and High School Musical 1 and 2.

If you met your favorite celebrity, would you be calm or star struck? I’d be starstruck in a calm way; like I’d most likely be too shocked to get more than a few words out. I’m sure I’d come off as shy or boring haha, which is why I’ve refused to meet or interact with my favorite celebrities even if I’ve already had the chance to.

Are there any lights on in the room you're in? I have a ceiling light and a desk lamp, but both are turned off. My only light source at the moment is my laptop screen.

What's your favorite subject in school? History.

What's your favorite holiday? My birthday, if that counts. Christmas can also be great but only for the food, the reunions with extended family, and the freedom to guiltlessly cut off contact with colleagues for a couple of weeks. All other aspects of it make me miserable though.

Do you ever have to do yard work? I’ve never had to do that before.

Is your school close to your house? I mean, it wasn’t a 10-minute walk away but it’s relatively close and driving to my university objectively doesn’t take too long unless there’s heavy traffic. If there’s absolutely no barriers I could get to school in 15-20 minutes, but this is really only just for weekends where I have to go to school for some reason. If there’s traffic (and there always is), I take anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour and a half.

Speaking of school, how did you get there today? I haven’t been to my school since the first week of March, and I’ve already graduated since then.

Do you think Bad Romance is a catchy song, or an annoying one? I can honestly tell you that I have genuinely never gotten sick of that song. It’s a late 2000s classic, man. Of course it was too explicit for my 11 year old ears when it first came out, but I found it catchy nonetheless.

Do you use perfect grammar online? I always try to be correct, yes. When I use improper grammar it’s usually because I’m joking.

Are you currently using a laptop? Yup.

Do you have any live versions of songs in your music software? I haven’t used iTunes in a while and Spotify, which I do use, doesn’t work that way.

Did/do you listen to Britney Spears songs? I’ve never skipped her singles whenever I caught them on the radio and I’ve always fairly enjoyed the music she puts out, but I normally don’t voluntarily listen to her i.e. look up her songs myself on Spotify.

Is it a windy day? It is now that it’s nighttime, but it was a little humid all day today.

In the past week, have you ridden in a taxi? No. I’m not actually sure if that’s even already allowed...the possibility of public transport is still pretty murky where I live.

What shorthand do you use the most? I have no idea what this means. I did try looking it up but I dunno if I’ve ever had to use shorthand at any point in my life.

Do you ever wish on stars at night? Every now and then, but it’s just the little kid in me.

What color are your eyes? Dark brown. I feel like I answer this at least once a week.

What album is the current song you're listening to off of? Not listening to music but the last song I heard is from an album called Petals For Armor.

What are you doing after you finish this? Try not to cry/break down. Find something to watch on YouTube. Maybe play with Cooper to destress and forget about my problems for a bit.

In your opinion, what song is the most overplayed right now? Other than songs I occasionally put on repeat, I have not heard any new music for a while now.

Are you in a band? Nope, never been.

How clean is your bedroom? We just tidied it up and rearranged a few things last month so I’d say it’s clean - at least tidier than it used to be. And I’m a little proud that despite how rough life has been, I’ve managed to keep it clean. It’s the little things.

Is there a pen within reaching distance of you? Yeah, there’s one on my desk and I can easily reach out and grab it.

Are you sitting at a desk? I’ve moved to my bed for now. My back does not appreciate sitting at a desk all day.

Does your favorite band have a male or female lead singer? Female.

Do you normally shut your bedroom door before you go to sleep? Yesssssssss. We have a light source by the stairs that extends to the hallway and reaches my room, so it gets super annoying if my door is even just slightly ajar because my eyes get distracted by the faint light. My door has to be completely shut for me to feel comfortable in the privacy of my room.

Have you seen the movie Moulin Rouge? I haven’t. I loooove Lady Marmalade, but I’m just not sure if the movie itself is my cup of tea.

Would you ever dye your hair a different color? I’d love to have the chance to do that, yeah.

Are there any framed pictures in the room you're in? There are a couple.

Have you ever been to a Broadway show? Nope.

Do you watch So You Think You Can Dance? I don’t think so but I do remember watching a few episodes of Dancing with the Stars because a wrestler that I liked was one of the contestants for one season. I’m just not sure of SYTYCD also featured wrestlers in their shows; if that has been the case in the past- and I’m just not sure because my memory is a little hazy - I would’ve given it a watch.

What's your favorite movie soundtrack? The Twilight Saga churned out some bomb ass soundtracks. Other than that, I also enjoyed Interstellar’s and Requiem for a Dream’s.

Do you prefer group or individual work? Depends on what kind of work needs to be done. If a task is graphic design or video editing-heavy, I would prefer to work with other people; but if it’s gonna be heavy on something that’s already my forte, I like to work by myself.

Do you have a key to anything besides your house? Just my car.

Are you wearing anything with stripes? Not at the moment.

What time did you go to sleep last night? 9:45 I think? A little later than 10? Somewhere along that range.

Did anyone tell you you were beautiful today? No.

What show did you last watch? Friends.

Do you think you'll do anymore surveys today? I doubt it. This one is already quite longer than the surveys I usually take.

What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Cookies and cream; and more recently, chocolate chip cookie dough.

When was the last time you stayed home from school sick? Sometime in February last year. I developed a fever the night before but wasn’t able to start feeling better by the next morning, so I had to skip the one class I had that day.

Could you ever complete a 500-piece puzzle? Yes. I’m actually planning to buy a 1000-piece jigsaw puzzle; it’s one of the items I’ve put on my cart recently. Depressed Robyn is also spend-a-lot-of-money-on-artsy-craftsy-supplies-Robyn, so.

If you could run a red light and not get caught, would you? Hell no.

Do you like to listen to music as you do your homework? Not usually, but sometimes I’ll put on lo-fi since that’s the only kind of music I can listen to and still keep my focus.

Did you think Adam Lambert's AMA performance was really that controversial? I’ve never encountered it, but I doubt I’ll have a problem with it if I do get to watch the performance. I love Adam Lambert and I've never found myself shaking my head at whatever he’s doing.

Do any bands flat-out annoy you? They’re a boy band more than anything but The Vamps has consistently irritated me through the years.

Do you have a mirror in your bedroom? No. I used to, but I gave it to my sister.

Was today a birthday for any of your friends? I don’t think so. With all my social media being deactivated I never get notified about birthdays anymore, but I’m fairly sure none of my friends blow out their candles every October 22nd.

When was the last time you rode in a limo? I’ve never been in one.

Do you take naps daily? No. I can’t really do that anymore since I have an 8-hour shift on weekdays, lol.

Do you still make Christmas lists? No.

Do you watch the show Dexter? I tried getting into the show because it used to always be said in the same breath as Breaking Bad, but I never got invested. I heard later seasons sucked too, so that also turned me off from continuing to pursue the series.

What's the background on your phone? I have a motivational comic that says “You’re doing really well given the circumstances” as my lockscreen. Cooper smiling is my home screen.

When were/will you be a a sophomore in high school? That was six years ago.

Are you scared of any animals? Any flying insect or bug, and I find them scarier if they come with a loud buzz.

Have you ever been to any sort of convention? YouTube Fanfest, if that counts as one. I’m not really sure what counts as a convention haha, but that’s the closest thing I’ve got.

Which song did you last listen to on repeat? Why We Ever by Hayley Williams.

Where do you want to live when you grow up? I’ve stopped thinking about that for now. My focus has since shifted to asking myself if I’ll still even be alive in a few years...ugh, how far we’ve fallen.

Are you currently using a blanket? No. It’s not cold enough for a blanket yet, but maybe in a few hours.

Are there any songs that make you cry? A lot.

How many siblings do you have? Two.

What are you doing this weekend? I have no idea.

Do you prefer swimming at the beach or in a pool? BEEEEEEEEACH. Once I took my first dip in a beach, I never wanted to swim in a pool ever again.

When was the last time you had a haircut? March.

Which musical instrument do you think sounds the prettiest? Piano, saxophone, and violin. Can’t pick a favorite; I think they all sound beautiful.

Are you in band or chorus at your school? I was never in either.

Do you know what you want for Christmas? Yeah but they’re all intangible. I want to be happy, be at peace, normalcy, etc. I’ve stopped pining for presents, especially now that I can afford my own shit.

Do you watch fireworks on New Year's Eve? Always.

Is your birthday within the next three months? Nope. You’ll have to add three more months to that timeframe.

How long is the song you're listening to? No music.

Are you anticipating anything this week? I’m waiting for a couple of very specific emails to come in, and I hope they do before the week ends.

Is your mom or dad the older parent? My dad, but only by 8 months. They were born in the same year.

Have you taken the SATs yet? I never had to take them, but I heard they’re triiiiiiiicky.

Do you watch anything on E? We never had E! in our cable service but I like tuning into that channel whenever we stay at hotels because I get to watch KUWTK, hehe.

Are you going to get off the computer now that you've finished this? Most likely.

[doitforscooby]

Good memories 🌟

Since leaving treatment I decided I wanted to write down somethings I’m grateful for or moments I enjoyed.

The bean bag tournament was so fun, and partnering with Jeff (who was decent). Cam and Jeremy were always the winners but Ben and Devin were good too. Val and Tom were the funniest team, Jeremy would say there should be a YouTube video called “Shit Tom Says”. Cameron thought Tom was the most hilarious person on the planet, I’d never seen him laugh at something so much before. While waiting for our next game, Valya, Ben, and I would listen to the Eminem radio on Pandora. I remember listening to shitty ‘80s rock (cuz Devin wanted it instead of rap) and then the hip hop/rap on Pandora. Karl or Shari or Brendan (whose mom bought us new bags!) would come outside and watch. We’d all put our discarded nicotine gum on that one fence post, which was gross. We also fucked up the nice new grass with our first beanbag game, lol.

Reed buying a hacky sack and playing with me and Ben was fun. He was definitely the best tech. He’d put aside anything to help me, and gave me priveledges (iPad and staying up late in the gathering place) that the other techs and nurses wouldn’t. My favorite memory of him is when he was meeting with the head nurse Tony and saw that I was leaving and said “sorry Tony, this is more important than talking to you” and helped me carry my stuff out to the car.

Staying up super late doing our nails with Elle, Sarah, and Andrea was always fun. They’d talk their girl gossip which I wasn’t involved in but it was nice to hear the drama. Sarah and I always shared the sushi which we would (sometimes steal) from the resident fridge. Sarah also recommended NF songs that I became obsessed with. On every break I’d go to the computers and listen to “The Search” by NF.

I always enjoyed sitting at the business center listening to the Beatles, Bob Dylan, NF, Mystery Skulls, Sebastian Paul, or Caravan Palace until they kicked me off at 11. Elle and Sarah would stay up with me on the computers and chat.

Open art was always a good time. We’d listen to Mozart or Lofi and do anything we want. There were so many craft supplies! I liked making things for X or drawing in my sketchbook. It was pretty popular to make beaded bracelets which we all wore.

“The Game”, my god. It started with Carter throwing around the green stress ball, and Valya thought it would be funny to throw it at unsuspecting people. Soon enough we were aiming for each other’s head. People got sick of it after a couple days, as suspected. Then, “The Game” became throwing bread at geese. Chris definitely loved it. It was 1 point for each geese, 2 for a head shot, and 3 for a baby goose. It sounds terrible now that I say it. The retention pond was such a nice spot to walk to when you were feeling bad. You could see the sun set or rise, and someone was always willing to walk with you.

FIGHT CLUB! This was amazing. Me, Jeremy, Brendan, and Jeff sat down to watch Fight Club on the TV in the men’s wing lounge. We’d have ice cream, sushi, pringles, or some of Brendan’s pistachios. About halfway through at 12am my trazodone was taking a toll and I had to sleep. I still haven’t finished it! Brendan kept asking “do you get it yet?”. I don’t think I did.

How could I forget Ridiculousness? It was on pretty much all the damn time, even in the dining room. I never really liked it but it was pretty funny because other people thought it was funny.

Gerson’s food and cheesecake- enough said.

Peer group and especially being peer leader I won’t forget. Cam was assigned jokes for 2 weeks since everyone loved his jokes so much. He always included rated R jokes and addict/alcoholic jokes. There was such a controversy when the staff wanted to separate us by gender for peer group. Ben started that petition to keep it, and the staff made a compromise. Hell, a lot of the time we felt like we were doing some sort of uprising against the staff. That was funny but sort of ridiculous.

CARD GAMES!! Probably the most unforgettable part of being at that place. Valya was the biggest cheater I’ve ever seen in my life. We’d have Uno or Uno Flip games last hours, and they got very competitive. Cards Against Humanity with everyone was hilarious. We had such a broad range of people and we all came together and agreed certain things were funny. Me, Val, and Ben had our favorite cards. Some of them were “Bitches” “Sexual Peeing” “Pixxelated Bukakke” “Eating like a goddamn family for once” “Smallpox blankets” “The black side of Barack Obama” and the one about being balls deep in a hog while shooting a rifle up to the sky. Good times. I always loved our game nights.

Karl loving my colored shoes and buying shoes like me- he had amazon packages coming every day!

There are many, many more memories that I could list but those were the happiest ones I can remember. :)