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deliciousscaloppine · 4 years ago

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From the subverted tropes prompt list by @megalodont, nieyao for @irleughlivelyatalanteangodfan - this bit is also the latest chapter from QINGHE HAREM STORIES

21. Finding their diary where they’ve written about you.

Huaisang didn't know a person could suffer this much. His muscles ached, his joints creaked, the sweat poured down his face in rivulets. He had been pushed at the limit of human endurance and then some.

"When is this torment going to end?!" he shouted at the heavens.

"Young master, you are just standing there." his personal trainer said.

"Under the sun!" said Huaisang. "I am going to die of heat exhaustion."

"It's November. It's quite cold actually."

Twenty minutes into gruelling evasion and avoidance, his personal trainer had finally given up and released him - and they called this woman a professional!

The physical exercise of nagging however, had riled him up for action. It was in moments like these when a boy should prove himself a man. If he needed new clothes, he would have to just go out and get them. And if Dage refused to pay, he should be forced to.

Huaisang would prove himself a man true in the political arena of Unclean Realm. His brother would learn to respect him as a force to be reckoned with. And even if Huaisang had to use underhanded means to achieve what he knew was the best course of action, then so be it. Men strong-arm their way into greatness.

Extortion and blackmail would be his saber. And he would use it to cut down Nie Mingjue's responsible fiscal management.

For this reason, he would have to gain access to an item of intimate value. His Dage's journal! If some illicit dalliance took place between his brother and Meng Yao, that would be quite the scandal. Dage would have no choice but to pay to silence him.

Huaisang crept into his brother's abandoned bedroom and rummaged through a dresser, until he found the soft leather bound diary. He opened the page to the most recent entry and read:

08:00 Woke up and brushed my teeth. Had a very light breakfast with a calming tea. Meng Yao offered me a cold compress and I accepted it gladly. Note to self: Get Meng Yao a cozy square pillow. Giving me cold compresses on his knees, must be uncomfortable for such a dainty young man.

09:00 Supervised training in the courtyard after being informed of daily matters of import at court. Note to self: New disciples look pretty uncoordinated, perhaps we should start them off with lighter sabers. Returned to my rooms for my seal, Meng Yao was there. I offered him a cold compress of my own. He works so hard for the betterment of the Qinghe Nie, he more than deserves it.

10:00 Sect Leader Yao wants to see me for something. Is this how criminals on death row feel like? If so, must revise those petitions for the abolition of the death penalty.

11:00 Finished the meeting with Sect Leader Yao. I was so frustrated, I thought I would burst. Thankfully Meng Yao was there to offer me a cold compress. I could not not reciprocate. I love it when it's just me and him, giving each other cold compresses as if there is no one else in the world but us. It makes me happy.

Huaisang blew air through his nose exasperated. There was not one incriminating thing here, just the particulars of his brother's day and Meng Yao giving him cold compresses. Huaisang continued to read.

11:08 Huaisang, I've just been informed by a third party that you might be reading my journal to keep yourself updated on my moods. You are not getting any more money for clothes and that's it. Now stop reading my journal and go schedule some saber practice for early tomorrow morning. I am spending enough money already getting you a personal trainer. Do me the courtesy of actually sitting through her lessons.

Huaisang closed the journal as if he had been caught red-handed.

“Dage is getting really smart. That can't be a coincidence.” He said to himself.

He returned Dage's journal to where he found it and moved to the other side of the courtyard carefully so as not to pass in front of the entrance of Blade's Hall, where his brother and Meng Yao were having a light lunch and then some more cold compresses according to the journal. His brother's joints must have been in a really bad state from all that saber practice.

Huaisang entered Meng Yao's room from the window. It smelled faintly of pine needles and freshly-chopped wood, which was his brother's favorite scented candle.

Walking on the tips of his toes he approached Meng Yao's bed, and searched underneath the pillow for the other little book of import. He removed the strand of hair that Meng Yao used to see if anyone was going through his things while he was gone, and began reading last night's entry:

Dear diary,

We are expecting some important guests from Lotus Pier shortly. For this reason I asked he who must not be named to have some of the new disciples move the sword stands to make room for the reception. If you can believe the nerve, he told me it was not my job to arrange the force, and that if I wanted to move the sword stands then I should do it myself, because my job was to clean the house.

I managed not to say anything, but I had some very violent visions. I liked in particular the one where I was bathing naked in his spilled blood. I looked really sexy. Of course these are only impotent fantasies and not indicators of any real desire to harm the man. My true nature unfortunately is passive and demure as befitting of the station and prospects of a humble servant. Once more I must bow my head to these insults, smile kindly and plot bloody revenge...in my mind and mind only.

Huaisang, if you are reading this, I know your brother wants you to practice with the saber. Don't bother looking for it in your room. I've left it to the cleaner's. It was not dirty, but it had developed rust due to not being used. You are welcome.

P.S: Please stop pestering your brother about new clothes. Come see me after saber practice for that. I know a guy.

#nieyao #nie mingjue #meng yao #nie huaisang #qinghe harem stories

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hotchnerfuckmeup · 7 years ago

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Update - 10/02/17

Hey guys. I’m here, I’m alive, I’m okay.

Well, not totally okay, but I’ll get to that in a moment.

I just thought I would drop in with an update on where I’m at emotionally, mentally and physically. But first I would like to thank the few of you who have stopped by my messages/ask box/other things to check up on me. I’m so grateful to have made the friends on here that I have, and I’m so amazed at the amount of love I have received in my absence.

Side note, as I was gone, I reached 3.000 followers. Just wow. Even in my absence, I managed to gain such a following and I honestly can’t believe it. If I could tell you guys how thankful I am to have you, I would, but really, there are no words. Just thank you.

Alright, so physically I am okay. I’ve been trying to put myself on a diet and I’m trying to find time in my schedule to create a workout routine. Eating healthy and healthy living will overall help with my depression, so that’s really what I’m going for. Once I get to it and really commit, I have a feeling I will be up for writing again, and that excites me more than anything!

Mentally, I’m doing fine. I’ve been better, but I’m doing fine.

(Read more is for a rant about why I am totally and utterly not okay. Honestly it can be ignored, but I needed to get it off my chest. It also contains triggering topics, so don’t read if you are triggered by depression or suicide)

Emotionally, I’m really not okay at all. My best friend (this year was our 13th year together), has decided not to be my friend anymore. I have asked her whether or not she was mad at me for anything and she simply said no and ended the conversation. I haven’t heard from her since. I’m not the type of person to confront their problems, so I’ve just tried to ignore it and sat back, hoping and waiting to hear from her again. She has made no effort to contact me or even check on me to see if I’m okay. At one point, I even texted her to tell her that I was at the lowest point I’ve ever been in my life. I had numerous panic attacks a day and I kept crying myself to sleep, honestly it was the worst I’ve ever felt in my 20 years of living, and do you want to know what she said to me?

She told me she was sorry, that she would pray for me and that she hopes I get better. She didn’t offer help, she didn’t offer advice, she didn’t do anything but shrug me off and move on. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think about whether or not she would miss me if I was gone tomorrow. I wondered if she would care.

I haven’t spoken to her in weeks, and I still have absolutely no idea why she decided not to be my friend anymore and all I can wonder is what is so wrong with me that she decided to drop me out of nowhere.

I honest to god felt like I was worthless and meant nothing to her. And I basically told her that without using those exact words, and she pretended like it was nothing.

So that’s why I’m gone right now, and it’s been stuck on my chest for weeks now and I just needed to get this all out. If there was a way I could tell her how much she destroyed me, I would, and I would hope she would offer a real solution rather than an apology and a prayer. Because that does nothing. If she’s been praying for me, it hasn’t been working, because I’m still sitting here in my misery.

That’s another thing, I don’t want to tell her all this because I sound so fucking selfish. How am I supposed to admit all this without sounding like a brat who thinks she doesn’t deserve to be this unhappy? She will hate me even more than I already assume she does because I sound fucking entitled and like I’m the only one in the world with problems.

Sorry for jumping off topic (if anyone is even reading this), but the news of Vegas absolutely broke me. I saw pictures and videos and I started crying in the middle of work because it literally broke my heart. If you are in Vegas, please donate blood or tell others to donate blood, or really anything you can do to help save the lives that were injured. And to anyone who lost someone in the tragedy that happened last night, my heart is with you right now and your families. I can’t fathom a life without my loved ones and it breaks me to know that there are people in this world that sit back thinking it’s okay to take the lives of innocent people. I will be here for anyone who wants to talk about it, even if the attack didn’t affect you personally. Please stay as safe as possible and please let me know if there is anything any of you need.

Anyways, so yeah, that’s the big reason I haven’t returned to tumblr. Right before that all happened, I started writing again but stopped when my depression and anxiety basically climaxed. Then I opened up to my best friend about it and she shrugged me off. And just when I didn’t think my depression and anxiety could get any worse, it did. And I was broken. I still am. But I am trying to heal myself, and I will sit here hoping that I will at least get closure for why I am not good enough to be her friend.

It just sucks that the one person who has literally kept me alive in the past no longer exists in my life, and I don’t know why. When I first had a depressive episode, I wouldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, and I had suicidal thoughts. She was the only person that did something about it. Before I thought about hurting myself, she went to my parents and made sure they knew what was going on

I’m alive because of her. And now, I’m broken because of her.

I can’t go on about this anymore without crying, so I’m going to stop here. This is just something that has been on my shoulders for weeks and only my diary has seen the words that are now written above. If there is anyone who read this, thank you for you time, and just know that I’m okay.

And again, if there is anything, literally anything, any of you need, please let me know. I’m here. I always want to be here.

I love you all. Thank you.

Ashley

#personal #just some thoughts #an update on my life #triggering content below the cut

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closethead9-blog · 5 years ago

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June 12th, 2019 Making The Time

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I visited with mom and her nurse late last night. Mom is still battling this UTI and pneumonia. Her blood sugar levels have been completely nuts because of the infection. Last night it was over 400. It's been as high as 523. The good news is, they're on top of her care. They're constantly checking on her, giving her medicine, insulin, and now they're doing breathing treatments four times a day for the breathing difficulties from the pneumonia. Mom's hospital-level care has simply been transferred to the nursing home. They're even calling me daily with care-plan updates.

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#veggies Pan prepared sweet potatoes, yellow bell pepper, and red onion- prepared with olive oil cooking spray. #sidedish #simplecooking This is two servings- one for dinner, and another for tomorrow. 190 calories per serving. #dailypractice #foodplan pic.twitter.com/wc4pUhvG9z

— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2019

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#whatsfordinner 6.9oz petite sirloin with a side of pan prepared diced sweet potato (175g), yellow bell pepper (45g), and red onions (65g)- prepared with olive oil cooking spray (approx.4second spray). 190 cal for side dish, 537 calories total. #simplecooking #dailypractice #foodplan #whatilike

A post shared by Sean Anderson (@seanaanderson) on Jun 12, 2019 at 4:12pm PDT

Thank you for reading and your continued support, Practice, peace, and calm, Sean

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