#also bhie

[boba-beom]

bhie wait? did you? WAIT! DONT TELL ME YOU WENT TO TXT BULACAN?

YES! YES I WAS AT BULACAN!!!

it was also my first time going to a big concert, and their concert too!! I bought the tix with my sister when it was 3am in the uk and 10am in ph :’) we managed to get tickets the 3rd time (lots of technical issues) and we were in the middle section, row 20 :’) (I still ended up wearing my glasses because I’m near sighted, and we weren’t close enough PFFF) it was quite the experience because we had just started to adjust to the climate and then the heatwave that day was painful 😭 so we stayed by the queues because we couldn’t handle being on the field huhu

coincidentally we were in ph long enough for tubatu’s concert and my mom and sister had their flight the next day :’) I stayed for a few months hehe BUT i agree, the venue was beautiful omg their stage and props?! I also realised, I felt like beomgyu was philippines’ crush ng bayan 🤭 I have never seen so many bamtoris in my life and I could just tell from their outfits and the screams/cheers when the mvs were on hehe I loved it sm

outfit reveal 😭

I went as lullaby beomgyu :’)

I think we were lucky to be able to go while we were on vacation, but if everr we go back and they have a concert, do you perhaps want to meet up?! 🥹

[grvntld]

"i'm in pain."

"aren't we all?"

im rlly enjoying watching house. i just finished watching s01e09, the one about john henry giles, the paralyzed musician. him giving doctor house his trumpet at the end rlly tugged on my heartstrings. it was such a touching moment. doctor house seems like a callous person, but rlly, he cares like a whole lot, probably even more than the other characters on the show.

anyway, there's a lot of lines in this episode that resonated with me, and the exchange above is just one of them. as much as it is important to face our own problems and pain, sometimes that leads us to not easily see that others are going through some stuff of their own.

[14dayswithyou]

please give violet a hug for me!!

speaking of violet, i saw that you answered about texting lingos and style of the characters and that violet has a filipino line ! " anyare? "

does this mean she's filipino?? and if she is.. is she down to do karaoke with us and sing silent night while caroling at ren's penthouse door?? and last of all what's her favorite filipino food!

salamat bhie !

⌞��⌝ Yeaaaah! Violet is Filipino because I'm also (half) Filipino hehe

She's down for karaoke if Angel were to invite her, though I don't think she's the door-to-door carolling type ^^; Also, Violet's favourite Filipino dish is chicken adobo!! I got a bit 🏳️‍🌈 with it in Day 4 lmao (Elanor has like... one line of dialogue that pushes my Kiarlet agenda /silly)

[kairiscorner]

Bae…. For the dialouge prompt list… 7 with gabri??? I feel like he’s really talkative,,, he just doesn’t show it as much bc his past partners never made an effort to listen to him. Much thanks

ATEEEEEEEE you fr making me wanna love gabri more UEHUEUEEUEEUUEHEUUEEUEEEE ENJOY IT BHIE

i could listen to you for a lifetime — gabriel o'hara x reader

the adoration gabriel feels for you is too great sometimes for him to keep to himself, he finds himself talking about and gushing over you to his big brother, miguel, who always tells him to shut up when the conversation's drifting to the topic of you. he also rambles a lot about you towards his own mother, and though his mom loves him dearly, he does tell him he talks quite an awful lot about you. it hurts him sometimes when it's brought to his attention that he talks too much, his previous relationships have made him feel set aside, like his feelings and thoughts didn't matter, that he talks too much.

he doesn't want to encounter that again or bother you, so when you two got together, gabriel holds himself back and tries to play it cool (and he fails, unsurprisingly). he comes off as a little distant sometimes because of it, and it worries you at times when he's not like the gabri you knew and fell in love with.

though you decided to put an end to it the last time gabri was acting weird and stopping himself from talking again. he was stuttering as he tried to end the conversation you two were having so as not to appear too clingy or desperate, he learned from his past relationships never to show too much or he'll be taken advantage of; though with you, he was just scared of making you sick of him. but you had enough of him biting his tongue around you, you had to tell him.

"gabri..." you began as you walked over to gabri at his work table, with him not even looking at you as he hummed in response. "you've been acting a little weird, did i do something wrong?" you asked him, and that made gabri look at you over his shoulder with raised eyebrows. "oh, no! nena, no, you haven't-- i-i mean, no, you didn't do anything." he said as he stopped himself from going on again. that did it, you placed both your hands on either sides of his face, and in a stern voice, you told him, "please, for the love of GOD, never shut up."

gabri's lips quivered as he tried to search for the right words to say, to ask you what you meant, when you kissed those shaking lips of his and murmured to him that you missed the talkative, sweet-talking gabriel o'hara you fell in love with. you wanted to let him know you would always listen to him, no matter what he had to say or what he wanted to express, you loved him and that also meant you loved listening to him. gabri whispered to you his thanks as he got all sheepish and hot in the face, not just because of how close you were to him, but because you gave him the relief he needed to feel... wanted, to feel loved, which he never truly felt until you came along and let him know it was okay to keep being the talkative lover boy you fell for.

tags !! @binibinileonara @ophanimgold

[aamircoeur]

PILIPINO KA PALA BHIE, char okay lang ba na bhie tawag ko sayo?? parang feeling close yung dating eh HAHAHAH 😭 ngayon ko lang na kita acc mo kase i was reading some ken sato fics dito, then i checked your acc to check lang kung may iba na fics. sa totoo lang, i really really like your writing talagaaaa 😭🫶 nagbibigay talaga sya ng asim kilig sa aking buhay HUIE?? grabe sya. tapos i saw a fic of yours, it looked unfinished pero i just clicked the like button cuz wai nort diba?? then nakita ko yung post mo na accidentally mo pala na post yon 😭

in all seriousness, your writing really brings you to their world, you know. like you’re right there living the words you have put out there, wow sya. stay safe and healthy !! 😚💗

OMG HELLO YES I AM HUHU i greatly appreciate you going out of your way just to say this. also, GAGI KA NABASA MO BA LAHAT 'YON HAHAHAHAHA you were actually the reason why i deleted it again huhu it was meant for drafts but my tumblr has been bugging kaninang morning pa :(( anw, thank you so so much for liking my writing :( i was worried that i might've been rusty since it's been a while since i wrote but you really just made my day thank you so much baby ingat ka rin always and stay hydrated !! mainit hehe

[pupyuj]

i mean totally no pressure pero if u do end up writing for maloi... mygawd... bc shes my bini bias along with colet and aiah actually didhdhs like?! dasrub ang brainrot!!! and not to beag but i managed to get tickets for biniverse day 1 oummm 🥰 hopefully my 2 weeks break would be productive aka mabuhay sana yung writing blog ko din hNGHHSHHS

ALSO i've recently noticed my aiah foc getting likes... the blooms looking for nsfw stuff slowly migrating to tumblr wbkkk (bc it's cute but it's all fluff/angst aus on twt since the girls are there tew 😭) i think dasurb ma-welcome w ur writing 👀🥰 i'm so excited for ppop enjoyers to come to tumblr flssss 😭😭😭 anyway yeaaa hope you're doing good and ... feeling good... these days 🥰

also i've been listening to ive lately and this might be late but i love baddie saur much i feel like i had to tell u... wony in that studio choom performance 😣 i love a confident woman who knows shes prettyy 😣

OMGGG CONGRATS FOR SECURING TIX FOR BINIVERSE 😭😭💕 unfortunately i cannot be there bcs i am on the other side of the world but trust that i will be screaming and crying and shaking with you in spirit! 😍😍 and you’re so right having the ate line as your biases THEY’RE SO GORG AND TALENTED pero maloi… SI MALOIIII BHIE 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 sobrang cute, sobrang ganda, sobrang talented, sobrang funny, sobrang bait—she’s perfect?:!(!:&,!:&

AND korek ka anon—lahat ng au sa twitter soft and innocent kasi super awkward naman pag nakita ng girls na may nsfw stuff na para sa kanila 😭 but this is why we have tumblr! 🫣🫣 after seeing the grand pantropiko day performance, i’ve been going insane KASE NAKITA MO BA YUNG OUTIFT NI MALOI??! LAWFDDD 😩😥💔 (jhoanna too actually FUCKKCKC THEY ALL LOOKED SO GOOD 🥰🥰)

and ahehe better late than never anon 😈 and you came across ive at the right time bcs they’re coming back so make sure to tune in on april 29th for ive switch—

[muniimyg]

42.5 | when will you

series m.list

taglist: @kakixaku @boraength @4ksj @pamzn @jinsearth @fancycollectormoon @weasleyswizarding-wheezes @fan-ati--c @kthlvr30 @ellesalazar @taeees-world @sukunasrealgf @firesighgirl @jeonninja @bloopkook @butterymin @pinkseokchim @joonsjuice

warnings: “ SMUTTTTTTT “🤭 half-assed slow burn mood,, angst angst angst !!!

note: well well well …… we’re back :p no cuz like …. me: im gonna take a break // me writing and posting at 5am: BE FUCKING FOR REAL ….

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THIS IS UNEDITED 💔 i might come back and edit but also i’m OVER IT so take this written as u will 🤺pls send in asks !! i’d love to hear from u <3

Jungkook is a gentleman. 

He has and always has been the kind of guy to never forget your birthday, friendship anniversaries, or any other milestone that could fall into being a considerate man. He’s known to put your feelings before his. It comes to no one’s surprise when your needs are being met while his are being swept under the rug. Not to say that you neglect him! It’s simply that in terms of physical intimacy, there was not much he could hope for from you.

All his life, he did his best to respect you, your body, and your choices. Everything from your tattoos, piercings, and the way you dress; he loves. He has had heart eyes on you since you two were young and with each passing day, you became more and more ravishing. Not only did you make life beautiful—you were beautiful. 

Though Jungkook has never really had problems falling asleep, he’d often lay awake thinking about you. Lonely without you by his side, or simply after receiving a “goodnight, bhie” message from you; he would stay up and wonder when he would ever get to have you close to him.

He isn’t sure if it was sinful or deserving but every night you spend with him, laying side by side or cuddled together; he’d want more. So much more that it would have been too dangerous to simply ask. It would have been too tricky to put himself out there. Yet, it would be a lie if he said he never thought about getting you out of his system. 

As much as Jungkook loves you, he has never enjoyed being in love with you in the sense that a part of him has always felt like he would never truly have you.

After all, Jungkook is a man and as a man; it ached to know that the love of his life would never lewdly whimper his name. Uttering begging phrases, challenging him to fuck you so good; your eyes would roll back and your back would arch from the sensitivity he’d bring upon you. It saddened Jungkook to think that he would never get to watch you undress and fall on your knees for him… Or that he’d never get to watch you purse your addictive lips before wrapping them around his hard cock. It ruined him to think that he’d never know what it would feel like to be inside of you—never knowing the warmth and the closeness sex with you would bring...

Until now. 

You’ve seen Jungkook without a shirt before. 

Of course, you have. 

You’ve seen Jungkook’s hands before—veiny, thick, and tatted.

Of course, you have. 

But you have never seen the combination together. Especially not when he’s in between your legs. You’ve never felt the heat of his breath on your bare pussy. You’ve never felt his bulge against your ass up until 30 minutes ago when he began to undress you.

“Mhmphh—nghhh,” you moan, feeling yourself clench. 

Jungkook cocks his head up and watches you shakily breathe in and out. Your clothes are all off except for a shirt of his you have on. He wonders why it’s still on, but taking into account that he had the honour of undressing you… It’s whatever.

He almost lost his mind when you asked him to take off your panties—therefore, the shirt is the least of his worries. 

You arch your back, plopping on your elbows to get a better perspective. You’ve never been in this position with him before. It feels so nerve-wracking. At first, to be completely honest, you were insecure about him seeing you naked.

This is still Jungkook.

He has had his fair share of bodies and you can’t help but compare yourself to them. Even if it was only for a split second, it made you self conscious. Jungkook noticed it though. He noticed your body language tense up and opted to begin with easing your nerves.

Thus, him prepping you.

“Can you take one more?” Jungkook asks as he runs his thumb around your clit. He does it softly, hardly pressing on your skin. It makes you shiver, hating the way he’s playing with you. 

He already has two digits in. 

“A-another one? Why.. Why can’t I just have you now?”

Jungkook is a man.

Even if he wants to drag this moment with you out as much as he can—he can’t!

This is finally it.

This is you and him, being closer than ever. It brings him to such a high, he can’t think straight. He hopes he can fuck you the way he’s always wanted to. He hopes he can hold it out. He’s afraid he’ll give in and cave onto your body before you can finish.

Jungkook is never insecure about sleeping with someone either. This says a lot. He’s afraid he’ll finish first and not be able to satisfy you.

It makes him think of Jin.

Total boner killer, but he can’t help but compare himself to him. After all, it was you that was after Jin all this time. It’s not like Jungkook needs the details, but maybe he should have found out what made you so addicted to sleeping with Jin.

Was it the way he ate you out?

Was it the way he’d fuck you so good that you’d be whimpering his name with teary eyes?

Jungkook wants to know and also doesn’t.

He wants to know for his benefit and tries to convince himself he feels indifferent when it comes to you and Jin.

You and Jin.

Jungkook isn’t too sure what happened between you two at the hospital, but the selfish part of him celebrates and thanks Jin for bringing you here. It’s not like Jungkook is out here to take advantage of you—let’s remember: it was you that came to him.

That came onto him.

Jungkook finds comfort in that.

He then nods, stretching over to kiss your stomach. He removes his fingers from inside of you and then grips your sides. You let out a small giggle from his touch and watch as he shifts his position. Now, towering over you, you take your time to look at him and his body. 

You were there when he got his sleeve tattooed. You’re usually the one to see him after his gym workouts as well. His tattoos, his chest, his body—all of it is nothing new to you… Yet, in this moment it feels entirely foreign. 

You’re in awe. 

He’s so handsome. 

You’ve always known it, but you’ve never really thought about it. 

Jungkook thinks you’re so pretty under him like this. 

He’s only ever dreamed about this moment. 

Closing in on you, he leans in to kiss your neck. You let out a breathy moan as he gently drops his body on top of yours, dragging his hard cock on top of your bare pussy. He still has his boxers on and the fabric spills his secret earlier than he would have liked it to. You don’t say anything partly because you aren’t sure if it’s your own wetness from him literally fingering you for the past twenty minutes and partly because… Well, isn’t this what’s supposed to happen when you have sex?

With your best friend?

A part of you also feels so unsure about everything. You’re trying your best to bite your tongue and simply let this happen. You want this to happen. You need a distraction—you need healing.

Well then, isn’t this it? 

It’s Jungkook. 

It has to be Jungkook. 

His kisses travel from your neck to your cheek. You take in his scent, and for the first time; it hits you.

This is really close.

Even when you hug him, his scent has never been more prominent until now. Now that he’s practically naked and on top of you. 

“You okay?” Jungkook murmurs, lifting his head to look at you. You nod and smile at him warmly. He attempts to return with the same smile but fails as his smile beats yours. He looks at you lovingly. Jungkook takes this moment to tuck your hair behind your ear and breathe you in. 

He can’t believe this. 

God, you’re so beautiful.

“Are you sure… Are you sure you want to do this?” 

Your lips twitch and your tummy turns. “Y-yeah, of course,” you reassure him. “We’ve come this far.”

Before he can protest, you wrap your arms around him and spread your legs from underneath. He feels you do so and he hisses in response. He won’t last long. Not only is he incredibly horny, but you are just so fucking irresistible. 

Jungkook lifts his hips and you reach over to the band of his boxers. You tug it down as Jungkook scrunches a handful of the shirt you’re wearing in his hands and pushes it up and over your head. You lower your chin as he takes the shift off entirely. 

Bare. 

His eyes flutter to your exposed breasts. 

This is it.

You’re naked under him. 

“Take it off,” you remind him. 

Jungkook smirks, almost forgetting that you hadn’t finished undressing him. “No please?”

“Please… For me?”

“Anything for you.”

If Jungkook thought his heart fluttered around you before—his heart is definitely fluttering now. This flutter goes all the way to the pit of his stomach. It feels like he’s going on overdrive. Like, if he could combust right now—he would. 

He lifts his hips again, letting you tug his boxers down as far as you could. He does the rest. When they’re off, he flings them to the floor as he did with your shirt. He plops to one elbow as he uses his other hand to grab his cock. He watches himself pump his length against your heat. Then, he looks up at you the moment a moan escapes your lips. 

His gaze lowers.  

Your lips. 

He wants to kiss you before this begins. 

“Bhie,” he calls for you. You hum in response. “Kiss me.”

Bhie. 

You tilt your chin up, biting your bottom lip as he leans in. Jungkook’s lips crash into yours for the first time since the hospital. They feel like how you remember them to feel like. He parts his mouth, giving you the opportunity to slip your tongue in. 

You don’t. 

Jungkook kisses you again, ignoring the awkward pause. 

But it happens again. 

He kisses again and just as you’re about to chase his lips—he pulls away. 

“W-wait—”

He stays silent, thinking of possible ways this will go. Should he voice out his concern right now and ruin the mood? Should he just continue and have you?

He says it anyway. “You didn’t kiss me back.”

Your eyes widen. 

“I was about to—”

“At the hospital. Here—now, you didn’t kiss me back.”

You shake your head, trying to deflate his claim. 

“Jungkook, we’re just getting started—”

“Are we?” he rejects your comfort. “This has been going on forever and it’s always the same fucking thing. ___, we exhaust the people around us. We exhaust each other.”

His words cut you deep.

Jungkook shifts to sit up. You follow, sitting up and bringing your knees to your chest. He looks at you and then lowers his gaze to look at his hands. These hands, that were just touching you not even a full minute ago… They feel so weird to him now. 

The feeling of guilt overwhelms you when you realize Jungkook isn’t talking about sex. He’s talking about the history of you two—how you two aren’t just getting started. This is the middle of your story. Silence fills the room as both of you take a breather. 

You’ve been in his room a million times. 

You’ve slept in this bed with him a million and one times. 

You’ve been alone with Jungkook a million and two times and for some odd reason; for the first time with him, you felt alone. 

You reach out to him. He looks at you and watches as you hesitate to solve this. It’s then, in your millisecond of dull passion, that Jungkook feels a sense of clarity.

Up until now… He’s only felt confusion. You showing up at his door right after Jin… Felt a little too rebound like. As desperate for your love as he is; he gave in when you begged for him to have you.

Yet, now… He feels different.

Guilt.

Hurt.

Betrayal.

If he really thinks about it, this is all going too fast. If you truly meant wanting him, you would have done this earlier or later—but not now.

Now is too grey.

Not even a day ago, he found out you were all set to leave him.

Now, you’re here?

Naked in his bed?

He was so set in convincing you to stay. He was set on forgiving you for keeping such a heavy secret from him and for having him run in circles when you were with Jin—but now he feels indifferent. Honestly, it’s because he hasn’t had the time to process it all yet.

What would change after this?

Would you change?

Would he?

“What am I doing, ___?” Jungkook breaks the silence with a heavy heart. “I have loved you with all that I am for as long as I can remember. I’ve made a lot of selfish decisions in the past, but this one… This beats them all.” 

You shake your head, not wanting him to feel like this was his fault. You gather his sheets to cover your body and move closer to him.

He stays still. 

“I want this,” you reassure him for the second time. You take a hold of his hands and bring them to your lips. Kissing them, you look at him with pleading eyes. Jungkook’s heart melts at your attempt but he takes his hands back from you. Your eyebrows furrow at the sudden change of mood. 

You take a breath in and try again. 

You fix Jungkook’s hair, moving the sweaty strands away from his face. You smile, satisfied when his face is more visible. His eyes gloss, heart beginning to break at the sight of you. Even when you hurt him, he would still find himself loving you more and more until he bleeds out all his resentment.

This is him bleeding.

“Don’t do that,” Jungkook begs, taking your wrists and pushing them away. He can’t believe he’s doing this. He can’t believe he’s asking the woman of his dreams to stop.

You sit up, confused why he’s suddenly pushing you away. “Do what?”

“This,” he gestures between you and him. “___, it’s so fucking painful loving you.”

You gulp, unsure of what to say or do. He has never spoken to you like this before.

“I want this,” you say softly, hoping he understands your sincerity. “I want you, Jungkook.”

He looks away, sharply taking a breath in before he turns back to you. His eyes are watery, something you rarely see with him. 

Jungkook never cries. 

“Bhie… As sick as it is; I’m okay with you using me.. But I’m not okay with me using you.” Jungkook confesses, “I want you but not like this. Not when you don’t want me the way I want you—when will you understand that I have always felt this way? You have given me hope so many times and now that our moment is finally here… I can’t take it. I can’t do this to you. I can’t do this to us.”

“I do want you,” you try to convince him. “What do I have to do for you to understand that? Get naked and have sex with you?” At this point, you begin to feel frustrated. Isn’t this what he wanted? Though you know it’s deeper than sex with Jungkook, you can’t help but feel offended. 

“I know you, ___.” 

“And I know you! Jungkook, I know it’s awkward right now but—”

“It’s not awkward,” he corrects you. “You think it’s awkward… That’s just it, bhie. It wasn’t and never is awkward with me. It was everything I dreamed of and I have never felt like I belonged with anyone else but you. How do you think I feel when I’m here, naked with the love of my life?” Jungkook pauses. “___, everything I do with you is good. Anything that has to do with you is perfect—even when you’re wrong, I think you’re perfect… A-and… I can’t do this to you, y-you know? It’s you. You feel awkward. You don’t kiss me back.” Jungkook’s voice begins to break, unable to find it in himself to pace his feelings. 

You look at him—really look at him as he continues to pour his feelings out.

“I know you and that’s why I think I need to let you go, ___. I know you would never do anything to hurt me. You would rather mask your feelings and find ways to make sure we’re okay and forget about others we’ve hurt along the way… And m-maybe, that’s why it took me so long to confess to you. I knew you so well and because I did… I always knew it wasn’t going to be me.” 

“Jungkook—”

“I’m sorry, I’m selfish. I’m sorry I’ve been selfish,” he bows his head as he apologizes. “… But you have to understand that I had to try, ___. I had to be yours at least once.”

As stubborn as you are, you refuse to accept this. You’ve always loved Jungkook—romantic feelings can grow over time. You will learn to love him the way he loves you and this way; everyone was right. 

It was Jungkook. 

It had to be. 

“I don’t know what you’re saying,” you blurt, demanding for him to make sense. “You wanted me so much all these years and when I’m finally yours—this is what you’re doing? I’m finally fighting for us and now you don’t want me to?”

“Bhie—”

“I love you one,” you utter.

Jungkook answers with no hesitation, “I love you two.”

You sigh, hating the feeling that stirs. You aren’t even sure of what it is.

Disappointment?

Anger?

Humiliation?

Wanting to seize the moment, you bring yourself to Jungkook and cup his face. Just as you’re leaning in, he turns his face, leaving to kiss his cheek. 

“Jungkook—”

“It’s Jin,” he reveals, heartbreakingly so. “You stayed for Jin.”

You stay quiet. The silence lingers thick between you two. It almost makes you feel sick.

You feel terrible.

What have you done?

Your heart burns and you feel so sorry towards him. Even in this state, Jungkook was being a good best friend. He knows you so well. Even in these circumstances, he puts you first.

You’re stuck.

You don’t want him to be right even though he is.

“I think you should go.” Jungkook suggests rather weakly.

You cave, trying to stay optimistic about this. If that’s what he wants, then so be it. This didn’t mean the end for you two. You could try again later, tomorrow, or even the day after that. It didn’t matter. Even if both of your egos are bruised, you two could try again.

It will be okay.

It has to be.

“Okay, sure. Let’s just go to sleep or grab some food or something. We can try this again tomorrow or never if you want. Anything you want, Jungkook. We can try and do this—”

“No,” Jungkook breathes. He can’t believe the words that follow: “___, I think you should go.”

You sit there, still and completely unsure of what to say or do. Jungkook has never kicked you out or asked for space the way he is now. It doesn’t make sense. Even in his hurting and anger; he wanted you around. 

... Then, you comprehend what his words really meant. You’ve never really had high expectations for Jungkook but you never pictured him to do this. In that same sense, Jungkook has never thought of letting you go or being the one to push you away—yet, here he is doing just that.

“You want me to go? You want me to be with my parents?” you begin, unable to stop yourself from breaking into sobs. “A-after everything... Y-you? You don’t want me either?”

“That’s not what I said,” he tells you sternly. He fights the urge to reach out to you. If you were having a hard time listening to Yoongi, maybe you’d listen to him.

Maybe it’s time you go. 

“I don’t want you to go, but this...” Jungkook refers to the mess you are. “This isn’t about me. This is about you and if it’s about you… It’s about your parents, ___.”

Exhaustion.

You two are tired. You two are burning out. You two, at the very least, have tired each other out.

“I don’t know what to say,” you admit, partly feeling betrayed. He has given your entire life purpose all these years only for him to… To do this? “You’re the only one I love.”

“Yeah,” Jungkook mumbles, knowing it better than anyone else. He can’t deny your adoration for him… But it ached to pretend like he didn’t want more from you. It ached to deserve more than what you can give him. He knows that. He’s always known that. “… You love me but...”

“But what?”

You chase his eyes. He chokes, not knowing how to get you to understand how painfully clear this all has become to him. In the midst of it all, he asks you what could possibly define you and him forever.

“Are you in love with me?”

It’s then that Jungkook notices the light in your eyes dim. A breath of unsteady feelings escapes your lips as you dig within yourself for the answer he’s asking for. The same way the moment fleets, it burns as intensely as fire. Then slowly and all at once, the warmth he once felt with you begins to die out.

The air is chilly as Jungkook sits between the silence, your bare bodies, and sinking hearts—waiting for the words that would never come. 

[ginnsbaker]

https://www.tumblr.com/ginnsbaker/753719092647690240/speaking-of-yearning-this-is-going-to-be-the-most?source=share

To Anon,

Bhie, that's not a dumb question. Ako nga tinatanong ko rin yan sa self ko everytime na naghahanap me ng bagong picture nya as locksreen wallpaper ko. Hahahahaha!

Pero i think we can all agree that in DSMOM and the entire press junket of it altered every lesbian brains!

I'm gonna share my story, I already noticed her in Endgame. But i was hyperfixating to Gentleman Jack, so it was just super short lived. But then WandaVision happened, i didn't watched it for her at first, but for KATHRYN HAHN instead. And her seeing in a black and white filtered comedy skit episode made me feel something like "Holy shit is she even real person?" . I had already browsed her interviews only. but then again, my hyperfixation for her last only for a month because I'm hyperfixating some actress that time (Aside from Kathryn Hanh)

Then DSMOM happened, and THIS video https://x.com/ECOlsenUpdates/status/1670519853742948355?t=XxOG5JeGyksGOrPhYiE-fA&s=19 that almost every moot of mine RT made me go back to her to the extend of listening to her *gulps* h--hu--husband 😣 music. And yeah, they were my Spotify top artist last 2022. PLUS, the Wanda x YN series on Tiktok that swarmed my fyp. Can't remember what video I started watching then i went to Ao3 for more fics like that, then Wattpad then on this app for 2 years now.

Nangungusap yung mata nya. Like i think that plus her button nose and sharp jawline makes her sex appeal oozing. Plus her laugh make me go all simp for her like a high school kid. She screams MILF and Baby girl the same time. That's one of the reasons why i like her. (That I've realized now, but there's still yet to discover kasi I yearn so hard for Elizabeth Olsen)

I saved the asks related to why sapphics are drawn to Wanda/Lizzie since they're long lol :P

Grabe, it took a lot of chances and "encounters" for her to draw you in, but when it happened... wala ka na kawala :P

"Nangungusap yung mata nya." -> this is the realest. I think her eyes alone can entrap you >.<

"She screams MILF and Baby girl the same time." -> oh my god yes!!!

I think after watching her interviews and the fact that she gives off introverted vibes is also part of the reasons that reeled me in :D

[tokwattoge]

Madami akong natutunan sa experience na to. AS IN.

1. Don’t judge.

-hindi natin alam kung bakit naging ganon ang desisyon nung tao kaya lumobo ang loans (UNLESS SUGAL EKIS YAN SAKEN)

In my case, natakot ako sa overdue, sa bad record. Mas gusto ko pa magbayad ng malaking interes kesa magkaroon ako ng late record. BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER. Top katangahan pala yan. At the end of the day, mas nakakatakot pala if lahat ng pwedeng utangan inutangan mo tapos sabay sabay nag overdue SAKET BHIE :’(

2. It was a very bad cycle of: ayaw ko magkalate record, bayad na lang interes, hindi ako hihiram sa friends ko, pag may extra ako reward ko sarili ko. HAY. So hindi ako nakaahon sa loan dahil kada sahod reward, tapos ANG LAKI PA NUNG INTERES SHUTA. So ayun, lumobo ng lumobo. Umabot sa point na sobrang nakakadepress, ang ginawa kong strategy para di ako mamotivate nakafocus lang ako sa dues ko sa susunod na buwan ganon lang. Hindi ko tinitignan yung total, grabe ang laki na pala. Naawa ako sa sarili ko sa part na yan. Sino may kasalanan? Ako. Sino ang nagsuffer? Ako.

3. STOP THE BLEEDING. Pag narealize mo na na nababaon ka na, wag na pumikit! Wag matakot sa bad record, lalong wag matatakot sa mga nagtetext.

In my experience, Tala and BillEase ang very very fair. Cashalo okay but makulit, Shopee and Laz magmiss payment ka lang ban na agad sayang naman. Yung iba? Illegal na yon. Mga digido, juanhand etc, PAPATAYIN KA SA INTERES. I guess ito yung loan shark na tinatawag. Sobrang unfair talaga nila at wag mo na asahan na magiging fair sila dahil hindi sila regulated. Pag nandun ka sa point na walang wala ka na, wala na makain (been there) kakapit ka talaga sa patalim. Kung ganito rin lang? Mas okay pa mangutang sa tindahan. Nakakahiya man pero at least di ka madedepress sa interes at penalties nila sayo.

4. Forgive yourself. Pag nagising ka na, pagnilayan mo kung san ka nagkamali, bakit naging ganito yung mga desisyon mo, ano sana yung inayos mo. Forgive. Forgive. Forgive. Do better next time. Since tapos na phase na tinanggap natin ang pagkakamali, next part is solve the problem and STAY CONSISTENT. Mahaba itong part na to pero kumapit ka. Matatapos din to.

5. Unahin yung mga illegal hahaha nakakatawa pero oo unahin yun kasi malaki interes nila eh, also unreasonable sila. Makipag coordinate sa iba like tala and billease, if may loan sa bank or cc makipagcoordinate din. Kasi madalas nagooffer sila ng option. Wag sa collecting agencies, sa bank mismo. If possible na magrefinance, go. Make sure na pag nagrefinance sa mababang interes ha.

6. Pray. If di naniniwala sa ganyan, okay sige mag journal. Mahirap magshare ng ganito sa friend. Basta ilabas mo yan, pag hindi, high chance na madepress at mademotivate. Stay positive. Mind over matter. Tandaan na walang nakukulong sa utang. Bad record yes sure yan pero naaayos yan. Ang nakukulong lang sa estafa yung nagpapanggap na may business at naglikom ng pera from investors tsaka yung mga tumatalbok na cheke.

Kaya mo yan!!! 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

[necroangelz]

Hi te would it be ok if I were to call you moonie kase I feel moon is weirdly short… 😭

hai bhie it's okay you can call me Moonie ^_^

my friends used to call me Moonie pie as a joke... also i hope it isn't awkward i called uu bhie help

[boba-beom]

your theme looks so pretty bhie! im inlove! 🫠 i love how you incorporate every details from the concept trailer

skl, i don't understand a thing on txt lore, or anything that happened in that recent concept trailer but damn they gave what they had to give! cinematography is insane! its so unique, eerie and emotional, also the boys' acting was so natural. i can agree with you when you say that freeze were they're best and i just can feel that this comeback may just top that. i already see a lot of improvements from freefall and im so here for it!!

im planning to read the little prince, and read more theories about it hehehheeh

yieee thank you bhiee! I thought I’d try smth a little new because my theme’s been the same but different colours hehe so thank youuu >3< I still love the orange hazy type of vibes I get from your theme 🥹 the golden hour of our trio theme with evie hehe

I’ve been a little out of it in terms of txt’s lore, BUT my take on their concept trailer is like everything that before this; all the fairytales, were just their own little story to fulfil their childhood, living a little longer in that phase of not wanting to grow up in a world where we grow up so quickly 😔

their acting was so good, yeonjun and soobin on motorbikes, beomgyu driving the car? just the snippets of their ‘every day lives working’ and then when they come together that’s like their comfort of some sorts.

I can’t wait to read more lore and theories, they’re always so interesting. esp when there are different takes on it! I can’t wait to see the rest of their concepts and when they’ll be releasing these!

I think you’re love little prince, for sure. there are some quotes that have started to make sense for me and the connections between the members and the story.

“it is only with the heart that one eye can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.” that with one eye is hueningkai and with the heart eye patch,, I just want to read more lore hehe

[grvntld]

hehu magfo-four hours na ata kaming on the road going to pampanga for our next resort hehe but before that may resto rin muna kaming ico-cover so late na kami makakarating doon sa next resort partner namin dazz all chika ko lang hehe

[eurodynamic]

Bhie. Have you seen this guy on IG who plays airsoft AND cosplays as Simon? I mean…qiqil si aquh. 😩

WAIT wtf this is so good 😩😩 Ito yung kilala kong cosplayer hahaha EMT siya. also thicccccc

[croteam17]

Ohhh, hey again Bella Poarch, kamusta kana bhie, also, you look truly gorgeus and incredibly atractive in all black, you truly are such a perfect filipina lady 👋✌️😉😎😏🖤❤️‍🔥🔥🐝💛

Also, awwwy, your pet dog PooPoo looks truly adorable and sweet in that blue scarf 🥰😇

Also, i cannot wait for your brand new songs to come out bhie, they are going to be soo fire Bella Poarch 🎙️🎚️🎛️🎤🎧🎼🎵🎶💛🐝

[aamircoeur]

BHIE KCJWJDJWNSWJSJJWBA

AAMIRCOEUR HAS DONE IT AGAIN

yung part 2 ng celebrity gossip???? BHIE KILIG TO THE POINT OF NO RETURN AKO DON

10000000000000000000000000000/10

i LOVE IT 😍😍😍

pero dapat illegal yung cliff hanger mo ☺️💗

stay safe and healthy always bhie mwuah 😚💗

we love hanabi, we all say in unison #bestmanagerfr 🫶🫶

CAN’T WAIT FOR THE NEXT PART ><

my no. 1 supporter talaga, hi baby 🥹 HOY SUPER WORRIED NGA AKO NA MAS NAKAKAKILIG PT. 1 KESA SA 2ND KAYA TODO EDIT AKO huhuhu mso glad na you like it !!!! ingat ka rin always bebe mwah

also . potek isa ka na naman sa nakakita ng drafts ko AYOKO NAAAA NAKAKAINIS 😡😡

[pupyuj]

ate, baka naman po.. gawin mong buong fic ung filipino wonyoung kasi exams na po namin bukas pang motivate lang po, salamat *insert kiss the rain music*

BHIE AHAHSHDK di ata ako makakaabot 💔 SA SUSUNOD PROMISE gagawa ako ng full wony taglish fic para sa'yo lang 😤💞💞 also good luck sa exams!! kaya mo yan!! i'll be cheering and jumping and doing flips from the other side of the planet 🤸‍♀️📣❤️‍🔥