#also bcs personal preference. i like bare backs they re attractive

[l1f3l]

Redesigning frover wouldnt leave my mind so i did it. I think she looks less stupid now 👍

I d work on her more there s plenty to improve but this is the concept for now

[daisanokensha]

i really admire your characterization so i was curious about your take/thoughts on mikoto's ptsd?

OOF SORRY this is late and idk if you still wanna read this anon but... you flatter me haha... i’ll gladly(?) offer my two scents but im warning you it’s been a while

sooooo obviously i agree that mikoto’s extremely depressed but generally speaking i’d say i’m not a fan of takes that claim he developed ptsd from the crater incident. i respect them but i think the crater’s more of an echo of the actual issue considering mikoto revisited the edge of it with his grandpa often enough to make a habit out of going for a swim which reisi thought was very bizarre and tasteless when he saw a dripping wet mikoto emerge out of the water (THIS IS A DISASTER SITE MIKOTO) BUT LIKE that's neither here nor there bc mikoto suoh is a) notoriously disrespectful and b) has no problem wrecking public property. destruction isn’t his issue per se

i personally think the problem lies within his impulse control and/or lack thereof as it becomes a big thing later on in the series. people tend to throw a bunch of buzzwords around but fact still remains that he’s always been a pretty laid-back guy who grew up in an environment that practically enabled him to pick up certain habits (used to work as a bodyguard, lives in a bar etc). i don’t rly expect much from sb who’s never been told no as a child or that he can’t overindulge bc there’s... no such person in his life to take on that role (his parents are dead, his grandpa too). he didn’t develop his bad habits due to his ptsd (re: smoking, drinking, sleeping), his ptsd just amplified them. sure, he can control himself to a certain extent, but the second he’s given an incentive, he’ll take advantage of it.

but like. mikoto’s a good kid (as confirmed by honami). he’s doing well in school and, as honami mentioned, she firmly believes he could become anything  career-wise if he just set his mind on it. he just doesn’t want to. everyone’s got all of these expectations they project onto him while mikoto’s just over here honest to god vibing. yes, he gets into fights, but don't poke the bear and expect it to lie still, y’know? i’d also get sick of constantly dodging people that, seemingly for no reason whatsoever, won’t get off my ass. no, mikoto’s the type to ignore an issue until it goes away, but if it doesn’t, if it persists and gets in the way of his lifestyle or negatively impacts people he cares about etc, he gets violent.

(speaking of friends and people he cares about: i don’t rly think he’s got trouble making friends. he just doesn’t give a shit. people (good And bad) flock to him so effortlessly, but it’s clear that they have to put in the effort to actually stick around bc mikoto certainly doesn’t bother. they come and go, and it’s like he said: if kusanagi suddenly decided that he hated mikoto and/or didn’t wanna hang w him anymore, he wouldn’t resent him for that decision. he gets it.)

and that basically brings us to the actual problem. he’s got money, friends (for the first time in his life!), he’s doing whatever he wants etc etc all this free time to waste and money to blow basically. how does taking all of that away impact his life? extremely negatively. the slate chooses him. he’s suddenly confronted with the fact that he’s got way more responsibility than he can handle when his life has always, always, always consisted of him just doing whatever. he’s got more power than he can handle that, if he’s not careful, can and will kill his friends. people outside of his close circle suddenly look up to him for no reason other than said power that, on top of everything else, is actively destroying his body. he’s taking care of a child at his age that constantly invades his privacy (to a point where she shares his messed up dreams with him) and we know that mikoto’s an extremely private person. it’s bad. he doesn’t like it. he prefers what he’s built with izumo and totsuka. it’s small and intimate, but they understand him. 

it never works out the way he wants.

but yeah. i just think there are so many different factors that ultimately led to his depression and ptsd that weren’t necessarily all “this guy likes to smoke and drink he must be depressed”. the most important thing has always been the absence of freedom (and consequently, his right to decide for himself), so to end this post with a couple of important things:

- mikoto knows he’s got poor impulse control and an easily addictive personality. it’s a Big struggle, but for all the wrong reasons: he doesn’t want to give up his life for the sake of others, but he has to. he feels like he does, too, at this point - people are suddenly telling him what to do? the cops are constantly on his ass? - he can’t go out anymore without attracting some kind of trouble. becoming the next red king directly put a target on his back and put him on the radar (remember, he likes his peace). they’re, by association, painted as the most violent clan. the bad eggs, and there are several, don’t really do anything to improve homra’s image. mikoto accepts it, albeit defiantly. he stays indoors as much as he can. overthinking everything makes him spiral, makes him angry and depressed, so he sleeps - people come to him to join his clan. it’s growing exponentially. the burden’s getting heavier. they’re good people, but a rowdy bunch. it weighs on his shoulders. he’s never been in this position. how can he keep them all safe? why does he have to? he just wants to live - he distances himself. not too much, but some days are unbearable. his bad mood affects them all. they know something’s up, but he can’t explain. doesn’t want to. so he stays away, because it’s easier - lapses of self-control, lack of sleep. the dreams he experiences aren’t his, but they’re vivid and terrible. he’s not there when it unfolds - he comes to once it’s all over, when the dust has barely settled, hands charred, sweating. it’s a reminder that if he gives in and lets it consume him, he will turn into that monster

also it’s not the first time i read this but the poor hygiene part always throws me off bc mikoto showers and styles his hair every morning. anna even tried to document a day in the life, so ??? where’s this coming from??? did i miss smth? who told you guys mikoto’s a nasty little gremlin

[aqvarius]

Do you think Kazuomi is actually really serious with his relationship with mc? Because I don't think so and I feel bad since his mc is most likely be more invested in their relationship emotion-wise.... Same goes with Kei too, even though his hasn't overcome his trauma but I think he shouldn't be in a relationship with his mc (cant put it into words). How would you rank them in terms of "serious, emotionly and mentally stable, compatability" since imho only yuzu and his mc are a fit lol

hmmmmmm good question. i have to admit that i haven’t yet played kazu’s s2 fully (but have read his s2 pov and the epis) but the feeling i get from his and his mc’s relationship is that it’s a really fresh relationship which hasn’t yet matured. kazuomi and his mc are a good match in terms of chemistry and compatibility in that they always challenge each other. i did think they were finally getting close in obscura where he finally got to see her ‘real self’ and i was kinda hoping they would drop the whole games thing and really start to get to know each other beyond the banter. and then they kind of went and reversed that development with nudus and season 2. his s2 pov made me realise that at that time, he wasn’t actually in love with his mc, he’s just attracted to her more intensely than he has been with the other women in her life. so he ‘fell’ for her in season 1 but in my opinion it wasn’t really love. and tbh even at the end of his season 2, i think he likes her VERY much but i’m still on the fence as to whether or not it’s love. i think it’s pretty obvious from the way i talk about my favourite voltage moments/characters/couples that i love DEVELOPMENT lol and i just feel like with kazu and his mc, there is a sort of sense of arrested development? one of the big issues in his season 2 imo that i feel didn’t get resolved in his pov (i can’t say about the main route) is that he is confronted with having to change his way of life for the sake of his gf and their relationship and yet every time he chooses to just do things his own way? 

edit: rest of the answer placed under cut for season 2 spoilers + length

for kazu, i feel like their relationship will only mature when he’s willing to give up the core aspects of his “selling points” (money/power/games) for his mc and their relationship. i do understand that they’re still pretty early on in their relationship, like it’s just been a matter of months and you don’t get deep with people that easily, but i hope that we do eventually get to see him really change in the future and they can love each other sincerely for who they are underneath all the games and banter. i think that’s why i love his self-pleasure story in otkoi bc we just got to see kazu do stuff that’s so not his style just for her, and then they had a really straightforward and wholesome talk about what’s missing in their relationship without being hidden behind codes and games. 

i think they rely so much on the concept of kazuomi as thrilling that we don’t really get to see that many genuine moments with him which i’m a bit sad about, because i love his genuine side the most. even in devians, when he was pretending to be normal, he still orchestrated everything and then the story took it back to that whole concept where the selling point of the route is that kazuomi is really rich and powerful and does huge grand gestures. i don’t mind that bc kazuomi is Extra to his very core but i really miss the REAL kazuomi that we saw in his s1 being all soft for just like... seeing busy and vibrant spaces full of happy people.

insert that magneto “i prefer the real [owner of the] raven [hotel]” meme lmao.

ANYWAY i do think that his occultus second night shows him finally starting to open up a little outside of just like “you’re the only one who can match up to my wits”. i feel like kazuomi showing off with grand gestures and flaunting his wealth and power is kind of his way of coping with the loneliness and trauma of the darkest part of his life, which is why it’s so significant that he lets her into the space where he was at a low point living in that motel before meeting zack. i hope that we get to see kazu really have to sacrifice some of his current core values/priorities for the sake of his mc, and i hope the way he thinks about her changes to become deeper and more mature beyond just like “she can always stand up to my challenges” - basically going from liking and being attracted to her to really loving her. 

with kei, i have a lot of mixed feelings about how bdsm is presented. since i’m not a mental health professional, i don’t really want to make any strong comments about what’s healthy or not when dealing with childhood trauma aside from like the idea that therapy is important (although kei himself admits that he’s actively driven away all his therapists). but i agree that he hasn’t overcome his trauma and, like kazu, still hasn’t even after the events of his s2. i haven’t read any of the content after his s2 main story so i can’t speak on what happens when his mc meets his grandparents and such but just based on the way he just peaced out during his s2, it’s evident that his issues manifest through at the very least his phobia of commitment (not even going to comment on the way he acted when her necklace was broken and how she was literally afraid of his reaction and also the way he like... forced her to drink juice? i picked the option where i tried to reject the juice and the fact that he forced me to anyway and she drank it bc she was afraid of him made me really uncomfortable lol). in my opinion, his sexual relationship with his mc is also very much based on his issues with power and control (ostensibly stemming from trauma) and she kind of bends over backwards to not step on his toes when it comes to his control issues. my experience with bdsm is that communication (and aftercare lol) is so important for maintaining a healthy relationship but i just kind of feel like she’s not necessarily an active participant as a sub and doesn’t really know what being a sub entails in a healthy dynamic but rather is just like going along with what he wants bc (1) it’s thrilling maybe? (they really play up the like physical pleasure aspect) and (2) he might be kinda distant if they don’t do it like that? i guess? i don’t really know bc i don’t tend to read his stories bc i’m not like the most comfortable with how they deal with power play. 

i do think that the relationship he has with his mc isn’t exactly a balanced and healthy relationship? and i also think that kazuomi’s relationship (that we’ve seen so far) is also kinda unhealthy lol. essentially, with both kazu and kei, i feel like their relationships with their mcs kind of enable (what i perceive to be) the coping mechanism aspects of their personalities. 

WITH THAT SAID, i don’t think that people need to be at a fully stable and emotionally mature place to fall in love and start relationships and honestly voltage loves doing the thing where like the mc falls for awful people bc they’re only so mean bc they're so broken and she wants to fix them uwu shinobu narita lmao which personally i don’t like, but it does make for dramatic routes and does set up for future development. it’s still early stages yet in their relationships since i think they’ve only been together for a few months, and they’re definitely still testing the waters. i think we’re being tricked/distracted by all those dramatic climax moments into thinking that their relationship is really serious but tbh they are just barely beginning to actually open up to each other. i just hope that they allow the love interests (and their respective mcs) to mature and develop into healthy people without just throwing out life threatening routes where the relationship dynamic doesn’t necessarily change but it just becomes about newer and grander ways of making big and powerful gestures to save the situation lol. does that make sense? i don’t know if i’m articulating myself well. 

but anyway i agree, from season 1 i always though yuzu’s mc was the best out of all of them. and they are the only ones who have a remotely healthy relationship like why is the yuzu the only one who’s actually considerate? sometimes he can be such an obtuse block of wood but that’s just who he is as a person. and when it comes to the important stuff, he’s actually the most willing to change and compromise for his mc. like... the Difference between kazuomi and his mc’s contract scene vs yuzu and his mc’s contract scene is kind of astronomical. even in yuzu’s devians which is like 3 chapters long only, you can see his growth from being an insensitive blockhead to really trying to understand what she needs from their relationship. and just looking at the way that he treats her emotions re: their relationship has evolved from treating it like a beta test where they give each other feedback reports to him embracing her ‘bugs’? that’s growth babey. time for kazuomi and kei to learn some lessons from the only valid masquerader. 

[kylorenpunk]

Because I’m a jerk how about all 99? :P

I hate you Mason. 1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? Burnin Up by jonas brothers

Faith by George Michael 

Without Love from the Hairspray Movie Soundtrack 

TKO By Justin Timberlake 

Mirrors by Justin Timberlake

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Gal Gadot

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. “When you’re ready, let me know, and I’ll see how well you’ve done.” - Brisinger

4: What do you think about most? Depends on the day 

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say? “Oh yeah.” Shout out to Nic

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on? with clothes

7: What’s your strangest talent? That I don’t have a talent

8: Girls… are great and valid; Boys… are great and valid

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? Not that I know of

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? I was in middle school. Accidentally farted in the middle of the room in girl scouts trying to be cool doing that. Haven’t done it since.

11: Do you have any strange phobias? Hate crowded places, don’t like stuff with a bunch of holes, hate snakes, mainly claustrophobia and social phobia

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? a nasal spray

13: What’s your religion? very loose catholic

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Walking, exploring a place, talking on the phone 

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind it. Don’t like how I look in photos I didn’t take myself.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Shinedown

17: What was the last lie you told? That I would be getting decorations for something today. I meant it when I said it tho. 

18: Do you believe in karma? Yes. I believe what you put out into the world is what you receive. Whether or not that is specifically karma who knows. 

19: What does your URL mean? It means Kylo Ren is a little bitch and that The Last Jedi never existed

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? W: overthinking S: Passion

21: Who is your celebrity crush? Chris Pine atm

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Nope. It makes playing Never Have I Ever really easy

23: How do you vent your anger? Talking to a friend, posting on a sub social media account

24: Do you have a collection of anything? Fairies, makeup, wonder woman and batman items

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Phone. Conversation is more natural and unfiltered

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become? Very much so yes

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? Styrofoam - I love the sound of my fan or the sound of someone laughing

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?What if I stayed in my first school

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes and Yes

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. R: makeup drawer         L: Wall 

31: Smell the air. What do you smell? Air. I smell air. Miss me with that hippie shit

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to? A club in Tampa

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East Coast.

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Justin Timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life? 42

36: Define Art. Anything you want it to be

37: Do you believe in luck? Sort of?

38: What’s the weather like right now? Cooler side. Kinda nice tho

39: What time is it? 1:20 am. Fuck you.

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Yes and no

41: What was the last book you read? Still in the middle of Brisinger bc I am forever cursed to never finish that series. No spoilers

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline? No

43: Do you have any nicknames? Kari, Rina, Lord of the Universe

44: What was the last film you saw? Just came back from seeing Game Night. It was good.

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Sprained my ankle one time.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly? Yes! He died. 

47: Do you have any obsessions right now? Kakashi tbh

48: What’s your sexual orientation? Straight 

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you? Yep that I was falsely in love with someone I was not.

50: Do you believe in magic? No. 

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? Yes

52: What is your astrological sign? Cancer. I’m an emotional bitch.

53: Do you save money or spend it? Both

54: What’s the last thing you purchased? Candy for a movie

55: Love or lust? Love. 100%

56: In a relationship? Not at the moment

57: How many relationships have you had? Official? One. Non official? 3

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue? I tried. No.

59: Where were you yesterday? School, work and home

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? My blanket

61: Are you wearing socks right now? Nope. Bare feet. 

62: What’s your favourite animal? Meerkat

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? That’s manipulation I don’t encourage that spam snapchat with selfies

64: Where is your best friend? Hopefully sleeping bc it’s nearly fucking 2am

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. how about no 

66: What is your heritage? Hispanic

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? Sleeping like I should be doing right now

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name? Pussy

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? I am a child of God. 

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? Yes I would love another hot mess friend. 

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Call someone nearby to help and explain the situation

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) family and close friends b) go see all the people I want to see c) of course who doesn’t fear death

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. In order to love you need trust so love. 

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Burnin Up by the Jonas Brothers or Get Low by Lil Jon 

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? Not happening

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Trust, Love and Communication 

77: How can I win your heart? Win my family’s heart

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity? Yes bc there are less social restrictions

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? To leave the first school - also to go to San Antonio last summer

80: What size shoes do you wear? 8-9

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? She loved Wonder Woman.

82: What is your favourite word? Fuck

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. family

84: What is a saying you say a lot? “Listen”

85: What’s the last song you listened to? Say Something by JT

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours? Pink, Black, Green

87: What is your current desktop picture? Picture of Abby Cadabby from Sesame Street reading a muppets version of harry potter 

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? The asshole in power in Venezuela

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Depends on who it is 

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Cry because mummies have been a fear since childhood

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Photographic memory when needed

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

Either a very recent Saturday. Or a moment in San Antonio where I was just in the hotel room being the happiest I had felt in years.

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Ever riding Falcon’s Fury

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Nick Jonas despite knowing it would be awful 

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

New York or Chicago

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

Not atm

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

Yep. Tried swallowing pen ink and it made me puke

98: Ever been on a plane? 

Yep this past summer

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

Be kind to one another.