#also bc ik all my friends have anxiety… if we’ve spoken in the past week or two i am simply not going anywhere and ilusm

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so the past few weeks i’ve thought a lot about what my return to rpc dash is going to look like when it happens, and i think it’s going to revolve around changes in how/what i write. the main aspect being a heavy overhaul of my rules/banned topics… i’ve spent most of my 10ish years on the rpc writing things and initiating plots to either be more likeable by others (despite the fact that they’re things i’m not comfortable with writing), or to trigger myself with these caricatures of the antagonists from my own traumas. it is in no way, shape, or form the fault of anyone but myself that this has been the case… tbh i have been slowly distancing myself from the plots that meet this criteria, and unfortunately with it a few rp partners. i’ll probably make a better post about this when i do revamp everything, but this is just like a lil fyi as to why i’ve been strugglin to come back for the past few months <3 ily all sm