#also I know matty has said some sus things about taylor too

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ok, so. i’ve been thinking a lot about the taylor/matty situation. mostly just trying to give myself some space to understand why it’s even happening. and I have some thoughts.

I remember when taylor dated john, and then she dated jake. two men that were a lot older than her and clearly did a number on her. both, more or less, verbally and emotionally abused her. they talked down to her, took advantage of her naiveté, made fun of her, played games with her. obviously, this did a number on her, and it’s taken years for her to unpack and fully assess the damage. 

what she did after was date a few men that were younger than her. she dated connor kennedy, who was barely 18, and seemingly only because she liked his family. then she dated harry styles. and at the time, there was gossip in the tabloids about how taylor was very hurt by dating men who were older than her, so she went in the opposite direction because she thought it would hurt her less. basically, she put up walls to protect herself. it seemed to be a trauma response.

now her situation with joe alwyn. of course we can never know completely what happened, but just based on the music, what’s been said to the press, etc, taylor felt undervalued. he wasn’t supporting her the way she wanted, he was closed off, and he wasn’t fighting for her and their relationship. a lot of this is made clear in “you’re losing me” but there’s also some lyrics in “renegade” and even “bejeweled” that imply these problems.

enter matty. she supposedly had a brief thing with him almost a decade earlier and they lost contact over the years for whatever reason. I don’t know the full story. but since then, matty has spoken about taylor a lot. he clearly admires her, he feels badly for messing things up. he apparently writes a song about her and how he can’t ever forget her etc etc. his friend jack antonoff is besties with her and jack reconnects them. he invites taylor to perform and calls her his queen. he is showing very PUBLIC support and admiration for her. it’s kind of giving malewife behavior actually (which tbh, I think is what taylor needs.)

taylor is grieving the loss of a relationship that she clearly thought was the end of all the endings. the person she was going to settle down with completely. and then here comes someone she has a history with, giving her what she was missing with joe. 

none of this makes it right. but this entire time i’ve just been trying to understand why taylor would let him back into her life. why she’d risk hurting her fans and her image.

anyway this is just speculation but these are my thoughts feel free to ignore them :)(: