#also I do support 🇵🇸 bc despite my burning hatred for Islam

[riiarichu]

Warning: real talk

Sub warnings: religious trauma involving Islam.

When I refer to Muslims, I’m referring to a specific type of Muslim, not all Muslims.

A lesser complaint but you couldn’t eat pork which sucked donkey dick. Not why I left, but I did eat a meat lovers pizza the day i was free. Ham, bacon, sausage, and pepperoni. Super good, I fell in love with pork.

Im free. I’ve been free from 1sl@m for so long yet I still get nightmares. People think it’s such a peaceful religion, but that’s just what they want you to think. It’s not, it has its cool parts, but it’s not. “B-but you get good deeds for smiling!” And you go to hell for thinking that another woman is cute.

Saying that you’re an ex-Muslim is so risky because Muslims HATE ‘defectors’ and will harass them/insult them like there’s no tomorrow. Even my own communities are against me.

No music, no short dresses, no makeup, no hats, no drawing, no nothing. If you miss a prayer you WILL get beaten. You’re always a bad Muslim. You’re a bad, bad Muslim. You can’t win.

There’s so much fear mongering in Islam… I got frequent hell dreams. All the time.

There are so many things other Muslims enforce onto you.

“You can’t wear that with your hijab!” “If you don’t memorize the Quran you’re a bad Muslim!” “You need to cover your shoulders!” “How could you forget to cover your chest with it?” “No excuses!” “You can’t wear makeup!” “So singing!” “No music!” “How dare you forget to pray to Allah?” “No drawing!” “That’s too bright!” “No anime!” “If you don’t learn Arabic you’re a bad Muslim!” “No hats!” “No nail painting!” “No handshakes!” “Why don’t you want a husband?” “You’ll never be good enough!” “‘Hey! There’s pork in there!’ ‘I didn’t know that…’ ‘YOU WILL BURN’”