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hello! i was wondering if i could get headcanons where Gundham's, Nekomaru's, and Leon's crush (gender neutral please!) gets stood up at prom and he comforts them and his crush admits to liking him? (separately please!) sorry if this is really specific, you don't have to do it if you don't want to. have a great day! :)

 Another request? Things are looking up for me! Thank you so much! And I like specific requests, it gives me a better idea of what you wanna see! -Mod Kokoro

Gundham, Nekomaru, and Leon comforting a GN crush who got stood up at prom!

Gundham Tanaka

*You came to prom, all dressed up and excited for your prom, only to realize it’s been an hour and your date hasn’t arrived yet.

*You were currently with your best friends, Gundham and Sonia.

*”My dark companion, where is the mortal who wished to accompany you here?”

*”I don’t know.... They should be here by now!”

*You texted your date where they were.

*Only to receive a message saying “Oh they’re not coming to see your sorry ass because they’re with me!”

*You couldn’t believe it. You just got stood up. Tears were welling in your eyes, how could this happen?

*Gundham immediately noticed and peered over your shoulder, and an angry look overtook his features. You can’t recall seeing him angrier than you see him now. 

*”Where is this fiend? How dare they abandon you!”

*”G-Gundham.....I-” You hugged him, crying into his shoulder. 

*At first, he didn’t expect it, but then he hugged back, doing his best to soothe you. 

*”S/o.” He pulls away only to see you.

*”Yes?”

*”Would it make you feel better, if I were to... dancewithyou?”

*”I’d like that, Gundham.” As if on cue, you heard Ibuki announcing “Get a partner and get ready to slow dance to I SQUEEZED OUT HE BABY BUT I DON’T KNOW WHO THE FATHER IS!”

*Gundham is actually very good at this! Dancing with him was amazing. As the dance continued, along with some laughs at some song lyrics, you thought to yourself. You’ve been pushing your true feelings for Gundham away for quite some time now. You didn’t think he’d ever like you, you always thought he liked Sonia. But, you’ve never seen them act as more than friends. Come to think of it, he’s been here to comfort you for everything that happened. Could he feel the same? Maybe it’s time to find that out.

*You leaned closer into his arms. “Hey, Gundham?” 

*”Yes?”

*”I.... I really like you a lot. Like, as in... More than a friend. You’ve been with me for everything that made me sad, and made me feel better. I just... Wanted you to know that.” You blushed and looked away.

*When you looked back, he stood there with wide eyes, and a huge smile.

*G-Gundham? Oh-”

*You did not expect him to suddenly dip you and kiss you.

*”Oh my dearest S/o, you have no idea how long I’ve waited to hear those words! I’ve loved you for so long! I had never expected for you to reciprocate! I was beginning to worry I’d never have a chance with someone such as you!” Gundham was ecstatic, he was as happy as could be.

*After prom, you heard rumors that the date who stood you up was in the hospital. Supposedly, a venomous snake bit him and slithered away before it could be caught. Weird, am I right?

Nekomaru Nidai

*You had gotten dressed, and looked absolutely stunning. Best of all, you had a date coming with you! Or so you had thought.

*You got there, and your two friends Akane and Nekomaru immediately ran to you. It was the most bone crushing group hug you’ve ever experienced.

*You ate snacks, and hung out for a bit. You checked the time, it’s been an hour. Where was your date? 

*“Hey S/o where’s..... What’s your dates name again?” Akane asked you.

*“Yeah. Everyone except them has shown up.” Nekomaru added,

*“I don’t know. Lemme text ‘em.”

*You pulled out your phone and texted your date, asking where they were.

*You got a text back that made you cry.

*”I thought about it, and you’re not worth it. Bye S/o.”

*Your friends immediately noticed.

*”Huh? S/o- You okay?” Nekomaru went from worried, to absolutely enraged when he saw your phone.

*”WHAT? HOW DARE THEY! DON’T WORRY S/O, I’M GOING TO BEAT THEM TO A PULP-”

*“N-No... You don’t have to do that....” You told him, looking down.

*Nekomaru’s gaze softened. Comforting you was more important at the moment. And so, he took your hand.

*”I’m... Not the best at dancing, but, would you like to? With me?” You noticed some pink on his cheeks as he asked that.

*”Yes, I would like that.”

*The two of you danced throughout the rest of prom, just enjoying each others company, and enjoying food and music. You felt much better after that. Come to think of it, the reason you accepted the other person who asked you was because you always assumed Nekomaru wanted Akane. But, he seemed closer with you. Is it time to face your feelings and tell Nekomaru how you really feel? 

*Nekomaru and you walked out of the building, now that prom had ended. Akane wanted more food, and Nekomaru drove her since they lived close by and she didn’t have a car. 

*You mentally prepared yourself. “Hey, Nekomaru?”

*”Yeah S/o?”

*”Thanks.... For being here. Dancing with me, making me feel better, I really appreciate it. And.... I’ve thought about it more, and I think I should tell you how I really feel. I..... Iloveyou!” You managed to squeak out.

*You looked up and saw him. His face looked like he was a little kid who was told he was getting 100 presents for Christmas.

*”S/O L/N! I LOVE YOU TOOOOOOOOOO!” He picked you up, and twirled you over his head. He then proceeded to hug you super close to him.

*”I’m glad you feel the same, Nekomaru.”

*”Hell yeah I do! And I promise to NEVER be like the loser who stood you up.”

*”And I believe you.” You kissed him. He kissed back.

*The next day, you went to a bulletin board with photos of prom. Everyone was admiring a picture of you and Nekomaru, when he was twirling you. Mahiru gave you a wink and thumbs up. I think I should also mention the loser who stood you up came to school in crutches, and cowered from you in fear.

Leon Kuwata

*You walked into the school, super excited for your date. You never thought someone would ask you to prom, so this was exciting for you!

*Leon was the first to greet you with a big bear hug.

*”Hey S/o! You’re here! Let’s go get some snacks!”

*”You bet!” You and Leon ate snacks and chatted for a bit, but then Leon seemed puzzled.

*”Something up Leon?”

*”Yeah. Why isn’t your date here? It’s been a full hour!”

*”I’ll text them.” You pulled your phone out to text your date, only to receive a message explaining that they weren’t coming because they’d decided last minute they didn’t want to be seen with you. You were about to cry.

*”Woah, woah, hey, S/o....” Leon saw this and pulled you in for a hug. “What’s the matter S/o?” You showed him your phone, and you saw the most livid expression on Leon’s face you’ve ever seen. He looked like he could kill a man.

*”What the HELL??? Oh, they don’t want to be seen with you? Well I do!” He immediately grabs your hand and takes you to the dance floor, and before you know it you two have begun dancing. You were shocked and refaced. Leon was dancing with you????

*He made sure you were okay with this when he realized he hadn’t even asked. You nodded, too flustered to speak at the moment.

*This was nice. Leon is nice. He was quick to comfort you, and dance with you, and make you feel better. He was so kind to you. And that’s when it clicked. You had a crush on him. How did it take you this long to realize it? Well, now that you think about it, he probably feels the same!

*”Leon?” You looked up at him.

*”Yes S/o?”

*”I really like you a lot. You’re always kind to me, and you always do you best to make you feel better. I don’t know why it took me this long to realize it, but I really love you! MMPH-” Leon couldn’t contain his excitement and kissed you right on the lips.

*”Oh my god! S/o! You love me back? This is the best day of my life! I love you! I love you so much! Oh my gosh! I can’t believe it!” He kisses you again. 

*He then picks you up bridal style, lifts you over his head, and runs around shouting “I’VE GOT A GIRFRIEND/BOYFRIEND/SIGNIFICANT OTHER! I’VE GOT A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND/SIGNIFICANT OTHER!” Over and over again. Kiyotaka and the teachers would stop him, but they can’t help but double over laughing, so they just let this continue. Oh and, Mahiru has definetely photographed this, and other people are recording this. You are hiding your face in your hands, because of how flustering this is for you.

*The next day, when you walk to school, you’ve become the center of attention, with all your classmates and other students asking you if you’re actually dating Leon, you blush and nod, and proudly announce, “That’s my boyfriend!”

*Leon runs up to you. “Hey babe, wanna see something cool?”

*”Sure!” You say. He pulls out a baseball and a bat, and points to where the date who upstood you is, They’re at their locker. Leon tosses the ball upwards, hits it with the bat, and it hits the loser right in the eye socket. Kiyotaka mumbles that even though he thinks it was justified, he’s still giving Leon detention.

*”It was worth it!!!!!!!”

*You love your boyfriend.

[kpopshitposter]

Requested by @minsugagal​ | A Christmas Surprise

With his recent success, boyfriend!Hongjoong has been struggling more and more to take you on dates. With Christmas around the corner, you’re feeling disappointed and worried about your future together. 

Reader x Boyfriend!Hongjoong x Wooyoung x San (a tiny bit)

Warning: Hongjoong’s aegyo 

You had your head on his chest, because where else would it be? From here you could listen to Hongjoong’s heart - the very one which has been promised to you. You were scrolling through his phone, looking for inspiration on what to do for Christmas. It was your first holiday of any kind together. So, uh… NO PRESSURE.

“Oh, what about this? It looks really fun!” you’d say.

“Ah… but a lot of people will be there. People might take pictures of us or approach me.” he’d reply.

“Okay… this? You need tickets for it so fewer people will be there.”

“That’s very popular….”

“This?”

“My manager doesn’t let me do things like that.”

“What about-”

“We’re not allowed to-”

“How about-”

“We can’t-”

Sigh. We can’t, we can’t, we can’t.

The nerves and excitement were transitioning into disappointment and dread.

Was this a hint as to how your whole relationship will be? Frustratingly worried about Hongjoong being recognised? About fans invading your privacy and taking pictures of you together? Is your entire relationship going to start and end on this very bed, isolated from the world and new experiences?

The thoughts which were consuming you vanished at the sight of beautiful Christmas decorations. It was a grand tree outdoors, surrounded by sparkling fairy lights wrapped around lamp posts and benches. There were even angel-like figures in the sky, glittering like stars watching over everyone who walked by. This was an event - one with fireworks and sparklers and delicious food. The figures all changed colours and there was a fountain music event. It seemed fun and beautiful and romantic!

You squealed a little and zoomed in on the picture.

“It’s so pretty! Look - the lights and the water move in time with the music!”

“You like the Christmas lights?”

“Yeah! it’s kind of always been a dream of mine to go to something like this. Don’t you think Christmas lights are really romantic? It would be such a cute date.”

“Ah, really…” Hongjoong holds you a little closer. “But… something like this…”

Yeah. You know. Something like this is in public.

“It’s fine, Hongjoong, just…” you rubbed your face and sat up. You tried to not let his broken expression get to you. “I’m gonna go home.” you start to shuffle off the bed but he instantly reacts. He sits up and wraps arms around your waist, pulling you back down onto the bed with him.

Your boyfriend rolls you over onto your back and straddles your waist. He whines, cutely ditching his phone and lacing your fingers together.

“NoooooOOOooOOOoo.” he whines your name and pins your hands up by your head. You start to laugh as he wiggles his shoulders as if throwing a little temper tantrum. “Don’t leaaaaave!”

“Hey! Let me go!”

“I don’t want tooooOOooOO.”

“Stop acting like a baby!” but you can’t keep the laughter back as he starts to pout.

“But I’m your baby!” he releases you only to start a little aegyo routine. He’s trying to cheer you up and convince you to stay.

“You’re a grown man!” you joke, trying to struggle free but Hongjoong holds on tighter (and honestly you’re enjoying the view from down here quite a bit…).

“My darlingggg.” Ignoring you, he starts to kiss all over your face, small, brief, little pecks. They were enough to make you feel momentarily better. You knew Hongjoong didn’t do this on purpose, you knew he didn’t want to stop you from being able to make memories with him. He loves you. It’s obvious.

 But that changed nothing.

Your friends were all posting pictures of the cute Christmas dates they were going on with their partners. Boat rides, fireworks, light shows, kissing under mistletoe… the more you see the more isolated you feel. You knew you were lucky to have Hongjoong, someone who has always given you his whole heart and held nothing back, but you couldn’t help feeling a little upset by the restrictions. 

You also couldn’t help but imagine how this will impact the rest of your lives together.

Will you ever be able to get married under the public eye? Will you really never be able to do... anything? It was making you question whether or not this was really a relationship you wanted to be in. What if you were just setting yourself up for pain…?

You were trying to clear your throat and wipe away your tears as you answered the video call request, but Hongjoong wasn’t fooled.

He softly said your name, full of caution and concern.

“Yeah?” you sniffled.

“What’s wrong?”

I’m just worried we’re doomed. I’m scared if I tell you this, it will be the start of a conversation I don’t want to have. I’m terrified of losing you. “Nothing. I’m okay, just getting a cold I guess. What are you up to?”

Hongjoong wasn’t convinced but didn’t want to pressure you into telling him… but this went on for days. You were lost in your imagination, paranoid about whether or not you’re only doing this for sorrow.

As he held your hand and kissed your cheek you wondered if you should pull away. As he nuzzled your neck you wondered if you should twitch. As he slid his hands into your sleeves, pretending he needs you to warm up his hot palms (probably sweating from carrying the weight of the relationship) you wondered if you should recoil.

One day, it wasn’t just a problem you had in your thoughts anymore.

You had been waiting for Hongjoong in his bedroom and so when there was a knock you expected it to be him. Instead, a timid Wooyoung could be heard calling your name from the other side of the door.

Oh.

You stood and opened the door letting him in with a smile. 

“Hey, Wooyoung.”

He lowered his head politely to you in a little greeting, allowing the door to close behind him.

“... Is everything okay?” he nodded to your question but something definitely seemed off.

“Can we talk?” 

Oh… yikes. “Yeah, sure. I was waiting for Hongjoong, he’ll be here soon.”

“Ahh. I just want to talk to you.”

Okay… this is getting awkward. You move to sit on the bed and pat the mattress beside you. Come on. Whatever you have to say, just say it. I’m ready for any extra aching you’re about to leave me with.

“Read this.” Wooyoung passed you his phone, open on a conversation between him and Hongjoong.

You read each message twenty times, but Wooyoung sits there patiently waiting for you.

“He’s worried about you.” he says when you finally look up and hold the phone out.

You’re silent.

“He said he’s scared to lose you.” You know. You read the same conversation. “He… loves you.”

“I know he does… I love him too.”

Wooyoung places a hand on shoulder, giving it a little squeeze before running his fingers down your arm. He was trying to comfort you, and that made you want to cry.

“Do you want to talk about what’s wrong? If you can’t talk to him I can try to help.” 

His concerned stare, the way Hongjoong had seemed so upset in the texts, the other’s kind hand on you, Wooyoung always helping whoever he can as much as he can…

It reduced you to tears.

You can hear a little worried gasp fall from his lips as he pulled you in for a hug. He simply held you. It was exactly what you needed.

“Wooyoung, I’m so scared!”

He rubbed your back, allowing you to speak and melt over his clothing.

“We can never do anything together. We can’t go to the cinema or go for dinner or do anything!”

“So you don’t enjoy your time with him?”

Rubbing your face, you pull away. “No, it isn’t that…”

“You’re not satisfied?”

“It isn’t that… it’s more like I’m scared this is all we’ll ever have. We’re going to miss out on the whole world.”

“Hm. When did you start to think like this?”

“I don’t know. I guess when everyone started posting their pictures together. We can’t even do that.”

Wooyoung is quiet for a moment before he tilts his head, “Do you think your friends are as happy as you are with Hongjoong?”

That immediately made you scoff. “No way. They argue SO much. They’ve even cheated on each other.”

He smiled as if you proved his point. “Then you’re worried about something that hasn’t happened yet to be more like bad relationships?”

Wait… what?

When you didn’t say anything, he continued, “If you’re happy now why would you want to be more like unhappy couples now? You don’t have to do what everyone else is doing. You will make your own memories in your own way.”

You stared at him and then squinted. “Oh my- when did you get so wise, huh?? What have you been watching?” you teasingly hit his arm, making him laugh and nudge you.

“I’ve always been wise! You just never deserved to see!”

“I deserve it now, though?”

“Desperate times.”

You rolled your eyes, rubbing your cheeks once again. “So what do you think I should do?”

“I think you should talk to Hongjoong.” he patted your head and laughed as you pushed at his side.

“You’re banned from talking to me. I’m gonna block you everywhere!”

“It’s okay. Destiny will bring us together somehow.”

You laughed more, grabbing a pillow to whack him with.

In the next few days, you try your best to keep remembering to enjoy the moments you get. Perhaps you’re a little clingier than usual, but Hongjoong seems to like it after how distant you’ve been. However, while it certainly cheered you up and helped you put things into perspective, it didn’t completely wash away the nerves.

Especially since Wooyoung isn’t the only one to hit you with “Can we talk?”

This time it was a text from Hongjoong, which is never good. Normally, Hongjoong video calls you, even if it’s just for five seconds. He’ll always pick seeing you over not seeing you, so it worries you when he acts out of the norm.

He tells you to meet him in the practice room after a rehearsal, so it must be something so important he can’t wait 5 minutes to find somewhere else…

Whatever.

Whatever is about to come, you’ll just have to hope you’re strong enough to take it. You’ll just pretend like the fact that it’s Christmas should give you a free pass from bad news.

You arrive at the practice room and it’s pitch black - not a person in sight.

Wrong room…? You double-check Hongjoong’s message. Huh. It’s definitely right… and now it’s starting to rain.

You try the door. It’s open. You scurry inside, using your phone as a torch you feel around for the light switch, but before you could complete your task the room is suddenly flooded with sparkling white lights. You freeze, amazed.

The beautiful white stars are soon joined by red and green. The lights all come together to reveal that the practice room had been coated with fairy lights of different kinds. Still, blinking, and colour-switching. They winked at you in an inviting dance.

You feel yourself moving forward through the lights, noticing that as you move closer to the center they align with the wall mirror to form a large butterfly. You start to smile at the beautiful sight. It was all so peaceful. 

A slow melody had you turning your head towards the sound. You saw Honjoong stepping closer to you, a shy smile on his face as he swayed a little to the romantic Christmas music. 

He intertwines your fingers together and they slotted in perfectly.

There’s a cheeky glimmer in his eyes as he pulls you in. He doesn’t say a word. He simply holds mistletoe above your head and brings your lips to his.

“What is this, Hongjoong?” you whisper against his mouth the moment you have the chance to breathe again.

“I can’t take you to all of these places… but I can make right here a place you want to be.”

Your smile is strained from the effort to hold back your tears. Enough crying for one year. “Anywhere where you are is where I want to be.”

He squealed and poked your cheek. “Cute.”

“Did you do all of this by yourself?” you asked after giggling and swatting at his hand.

“No… San and Wooyoung helped me.”

“Where are they?”

Still holding your hand, Hongjoong stepped aside and gestured to where he had emerged from in the sound room.

San saluted you and Wooyoung came out waddling and cheering, clapping with joy.

You suddenly become shy (because… uh… did they see the kiss???) and turn your face into Hongjoong’s chest. 

Just as well that you looked away, the movement allowed you to not see the flicker of jealousy across San’s face.

But that’s a story for another time.

[kyotakumrau]

2017.04.05 Sendai PIT setlist and report

00 SE 01 LIE BURIED WITH A VENGEANCE 02 THE FATAL BELIEVER 03 THE PLEDGE

04 Phenomenon 05 凌辱の雨 06 ROTTING ROOT 07 REPETITION OF HATRED

08 艶かしき安息、躊躇いに微笑み 09 CONCEIVED SORROW

10 DISABLED COMPLEXES 11 THE DEEPER VILENESS 12 GRIEF 13 CLEVER SLEAZOID 14 AGITATED SCREAMS OF MAGGOTS

ENCORE en15 Un deux en16 蒼い月 en17 秒深 en18 詩踏み en19 激しさと、この胸の中で絡み付いた灼熱の闇

I arrived at the venue little past 5, but I could still get everything I wanted, only white shirt was sold out today. Staff was late with letting fans in by over 15mins… it was cold. But when inside I immediately liked the venue - stage was quite high and it felt quite wide as well, I think it must have been easy to see wherever you were. I started with an early 100s number so I got a nice spot in the 3rd row in front of Kyo’s box, on the left side of the barrier.

From SE video I remember some forest, a creepy doll covered with blood, dodgy corridor, people, child’s drawings and writing ‘i will fuck your …’. Band came on stage in usual order: Shinya, Die, Toshiya, Kaoru and when other members were ready to play they were soon followed by Kyo. Didn’t notice that much about other members, sorry. Toshiya had much shorter hair, chin length, it looks very fresh, he wore a jacket that he took off later at some point (as my friend told me). Kaoru had also short hair (actually their hair is similar length but Toshiya’s all sleek).

Kyo’s outfit should get a separate entry (probably it will). He had a very nice collar, leather straps, loose shirt that was showing his shoulders and upper back - and it was all connected as one piece. On top of that he wore some chains and he also had other accessories. He had strong make up, that really made his eyes look bigger and had 3 dots between his eyebrows. His hair was spiked and he’s back to a very irregular length, mostly staright line fringe with longer bits. He also had a white mask attached to the back of his neck, but he never used it during the show.

Set started with some good energy and fans could join a lot. At first band members mostly stayed in their areas on stage (but don’t quote me about other members xD). During Phenomenon, when Kyo was dancing a bit, I thought that it really is one of those songs that seem quiet, but it’s hard to stay still when you listen to them.

During most longer breaks between songs we stayed quiet as the atmosphere was like that, but there was one that turned into a very lively competition which band member gets loudest fans screaming for them ;)

I liked ballads and the sad and quiet that came with them. That moment in namamekashiki when all sounds stop and suddenly they return, they used light so perfectly then, giving us sudden shower of light but it was followed by a dim light.

I liked heavier and faster songs when we could join them more. I mentioned before that I really love fans’ participation and tonight it was so good! All those perfect timed bits 'parasite, children of hatred’, 'headless body, i say destrot fuck off’… it’s always a dialogue with Kyo. In DISABLED COMPLEXES he came to the edge of the stage to watch fans when we sang 'psycho killer’ for him.

Fun bit (maybe? an interesting bit?) - Kyo sang many parts of Aoi Tsuki while looking at the lyrics sheet next to his box… I feel some fans remembered those lyrics better and could join him in all right places without any problem ;) When fans sang ’~nozomu’ in responce to Kyo during Byoshin it made him quite pleased. He was headbanding really hard with this song too! Utafumi is super fun live, there’s so much going on and we get to participate so much!!

We got a nice heated up calling to crowd as well. 'Are you still there? Can you go on? Sendai! Guys!!! Ooooo ~toooooooooo~kooooo!!!! Can you go on? Girls!!! Are you still there? ON ~ NAAAAA!!! Can you go on? Can you fucking give me more??? Can we become one? Can you become one with us????’

After Hageshisa Kyo took 2 bottles from his place by the drumset and came to the front, he started to spray fans, first in the middle, then he moved to the left and once he emptied his bottle he took a swing as in to throw it to the fans. BUT. As he took that swing he threw the bottle to the back of the stage giving fans a winning smile ;) Very happy he opened his second bottle and started spraying fans again, this time moving to the right from the center. And he repeated his joyful fun of throwing the bottle away from fans. On purpose. Oh that little grin ;) He gave us one last glance before starting to clap while walking off the stage.

The rest of the band threw their pics, drumsricks and scrunchies, towels, beer and water bottles etc. Special thank you to Toshiya for throwing his towel to the area where I had the luck to be ;)

I’m very curious about the setlist tomorrow. And I expect an even better energy, as we are all just warming up, fans and the band!!