#all my fluff is goinf to b

[steveshairychest]

"I miss you." Steve whispers. His voice sounds so loud in the quiet room. He's got his eyes screwed shut, afraid to open them and face a world where he is alone. His arms hug his knees to his chest and the weighted blanket on top of him is nothing compared to the real thing. He misses Eddie's arms around him, misses the weight of his body and his love.

They'd only had a few weeks together. A few blissful weeks filled with soft kisses and gentle touches, both of them wanted to take their time to commit the other to memory. Steve now wishes they had rushed.

The bats had done a number on Eddie but they got him out, they got him to safety, to Steve's. Steve wanted to take him to a hospital to get professional help but Eddie had wheezed out a pained, "No, hospitals are too risky, they'd ask questions."

In those weeks, Steve had tended to Eddie's wounds and ensured him he was getting better, that he would be OK. Eddie would sit on the bathroom sink talking about anything and everything while Steve bandaged his sides with gentle hands, both of them secretly enjoying the intimacy of it all.

Then the infection set in. It came on quickly and wasn't showing any signs of letting up. Eddie insisted that he was fine, that he didn't need to go to the hospital and he just shook his head when Steve begged to take him to get help. "I'm not going anywhere, sweetheart." He said through clenched teeth, determined to fight the infection on his own.

But he lost. And now Steve is alone.

"I need you." Steve sobs into his pillow and it hurts, it hurts so bad because his body is tired, so tired of crying.

"I'm right here, Stevie." Eddie replies softly, his voice echoes around in Steve's mind and if Steve tries hard enough, he can imagine the soft breeze brushing across his face from the window is Eddie's cold fingers brushing along his cheek. "I'd never leave you."

Steve snaps his eyes open and stares at the empty spot beside him, the spot Eddie used to occupy with his lazy morning smile and messy bed hair.

"But you did."