#all i know is that a LOT of addek fics (fix-it’s or straight up angst) are set directly after this exact moment

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i know addison is far from innocent and did her fair share of hurting but i just saw a screen grab from the season 2 xmas episode of greys anatomy (i think it was called “grandma got run over by a reindeer” ?) and there is just something so fucking gutting about the image of addison with that big genuine smile on her face when she sees derek at joe’s, with her hot buttered rum and her stack of catalogs and her cute little white sweater, just knowing that he is about to sit down and tell her that he was in love with meredith and that it doesn’t “just go away” because he decided to make his marriage work.