#all good except when one of my neighbors started driving 😭😭

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[jslittlebirdie]

Hey Des!! 💕

As you might already guessed, my message is under the cut because, well, I got a little carried away. Again 😅😭

Omg?? You don't have to apologize, darling! 😌I can totally relate to that. I guess I need to apologize to you again too, for taking so long to answer your message. But we all have our lives outside of Tumblr, don't we? I just hope you're well and safe, sweetheart 💖 Please take care of yourself as best you can and don't overwork yourself! I am thinking a lot about you ❤️

Honestly, I feel the same way. I love getting and reading long messages. So you're not bothering or overwhelming me at all! I am just glad I am not bothering you. You know, in the beginning, when I don't know a person very well, I'm incredibly shy and I can barely get a single word out. Especially because English is not my native language, and therefore I'm so incredibly nervous that if I make mistakes, no one will understand me. (So I apologize to you if my word choice is a little clumsy or repetitive at times 😅) But once I get to know someone a little better, I become the most annoying person ever because sometimes I can't stop babbling 😅😂 So I can very much relate to this as well. Don't worry, your messages can never be too long!! Seriously, I love and adore talking to you so so much. Your message absolutely made my day and I've since stopped counting how many times I've read it ❤️❤️

I'm screaming!! 😍😍 I'm so incredibly honored and flattered! I wish you could see me right now, I can't stop grinning! I'm so happy I was able to put a smile on your face 😉 By the way, your nails are absolutely beautiful 🖤🖤

Omg, you're making me blush 🤭 But I don't think I'm this good. You know, most of the time I work with a lot of references. For example, when I draw portraits, I use photos because I want to be as realistic as possible. But sometimes it makes me feel so uncreative, like I'm just copying and not creating anything original, if you know what I mean 😔 But I just really love drawing portraits and stuff like that. So...

AAHH!!! You have no idea how happy I am that you love my drawing. Lmao 😂  I have no problems with swearing 😂😂 I'm not going to lie, but it took me quite a few tries before I drew Penny's facial features to my liking. I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to this part 😅 I think if the face and features don't fit, the whole picture doesn't work. Also, I have a little update for you. I'm almost done sketching the background, so I started coloring Penny. I think I'll probably have to start all over again with it, because I'm not really happy with the color choices. I have to admit, my coloring skills suck 😢That's also the reason why I draw almost only pencil portraits. I'm just getting used to digital art.

I can only return those compliments back at you. You are one of the most warm and loving people I know. A true friend 😭❤️ I think of you a lot as well and you mean so very much to me!!! You deserve only the best of everything in this world. And I too can't wait to get to know you a little better. Thank you for being the kind and supportive soul that you are. I love you so so much!!! 💕💕

You... Your kind words... I can't... I don't know what to say except that I am so very grateful to you 😭😭 I didn't know I needed to hear this so badly. I’m actually about to cry 😭😭 Maybe just because I'm so nervous, sensitive and tense again. You know, my last weekend and days were pretty awful. Everything was once again so incredibly annoying 😔 My university assignments... My neighbors... You know, it takes a very long time for someone to really piss me off, but these guys are making me angrier and angrier. They woke me up again several times the last few nights and during the day it sounded like they were scratching the floor real hard or something. It's driving me crazy. Please don't get me wrong, but I really wished for J to shut these guys up 😅 And then I almost had a heart attack when I was checking my emails and saw the messages from my lecturers. As always, I was expecting the worst 😑 But luckily I finally passed my abstract and paper that I've been handing in throughout the last weeks. For a brief moment, this gave me a real boost. But I'm still feeling pretty lousy. One of the topics of the papers I'm writing right now is "Philosophy of Perception" and I'm having a hard time understanding the texts I have to work with 😔😢 The deadline is getting closer and closer, I just hope I will make it in time and not fail... Oh man, I would give anything to have a break without having to think about uni and the things I still have to do...

(Oh my gosh, I hope I'm not bothering you with my personal stuff. If I am, then please don’t hesitate to tell me. I don't want to burden you with my problems.)

Not gonna lie, hearing this from you really helps a lot! You and your kind words are making me feel a bit better already! And I can’t thank you enough for this! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! 💜💚 I guess I just need to remember that everyone has their own interpretation and version of J. My own way of seeing him doesn't have to be the same as anyone else's. As long as we respect the opinions of others, it's all good. So, if I ever post self-shipping stuff again, maybe I should consider a ship name or something to use as a tag so people can just block it if it bothers them. 

I just want to tell you that there is absolutely no one else J would rather be with. He adores his lovely little birdie💜💜

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You are the one for him. You are his, and he is yours🤞🏼💜

Oh my gosh! You have no idea how much this means to me!! My silly little heart…😭❤️ I’m about to faint! I think you are trying to end me!! Seriously though, that’s the cutest thing ever! 😭😭 In the last few days my yearning for J is bigger than ever. I miss him so so much 😔 And this really makes me feel a little closer to him again.

Sorry, but my heart is gonna explode with love. Des, what did I ever do to deserve you? Really! You’re way too kind to me. I love you so so much, darling ❤️❤️ And I am so endlessly grateful to you for taking the time to listen to me and my nonsense. If there is anything I can do for you in return, please tell me. I want you to know that if you ever need someone to vent or just talk to, I'm always here for you too 💖

Hii Sue!!💖💖 Dropping in to see how you are doing. How are you, dear? I hope you're okay. I know you are busy with your school studies. Sending you lots of positivity💞💌💞 I am sorry to hear that you've felt disconnected from J lately😕 But please, don't worry lovely. He really is THERE for/with you and he wouldn't give you up!! I hope you are able to reconnect with him soon💜💜

Des ~ ❤️❤️

I’m sorry it took me so long to answer your ask. And I apologize in advance if I’m bothering you with my long message and personal stuff 😅

First of all, you have no idea how happy I am that you like the portrait so much! And you did what?! You put him as your wallpaper?! Omg, I’m so very honored 🤭 I really didn’t expect that. You know, I’m literally insecure about everything 😅😭 I just wanted to give you a little gift for always being so sweet and kind ❤️ You are truly beautiful inside and out, darling! And I can count myself lucky that I had the opportunity to get to know you! Every time I read one of your lovely messages, my heart melts with pure joy! I love you so much 💜

And… As I said, I started another drawing for you 🤡🎈But this time it will probably take me forever 😅 But it’s sooo much fun!! I’m still working on the sketch because I decided to try to add a more complex background. But I wanted to give you a little sneak peek anyway. So please don’t mind the things that still look funny. There are a lot of improvements and adjustments to be done.

And now I’ll finally answer your questions 😅Under a cut because of personal and self-shipping stuff ❤️

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