#all I'm missing is a therapist and I'm solid tbh

[queseraphita]

I have gotten the job!

[littlewiseeyes]

The moment I went outside myself, things crumbled. Within there is solid ground. I'm at my best when I am ME.

My birthday will be here soon. Changes have come about where I had to change many of my plans. I'm ok. I don't sweat it or stress it anymore. I need to do some grounding, get fresh air much more often, take the time to put on meditation music and just be. These things bless me far more than what money, social media, sex can offer. I still like those things but I can't let it consume me any further. It's so easy to get lost when trying to escape reality. Here it is you just wanted to temporarily not feel the hurt, fear, anger, melancholy that life sometimes has us wallowing in. But when you go too far, it's very difficult to come back. The strongest and bestest thing you can do in the midst of life's problems is tackle it head on. There is a solution to EVERY single problem. Lying to yourself, running away, existing only in your imagination will not fix what is broken. It covers it, gets it out your view and becomes an out of site out of mind kind of thing. But it still remains there, broken and therefore painful. I got so happy recently that I thought maybe I don't need to see a therapist. I looked in the mirror and said, "BITCH yes you fucking do!" I needed therapy since I was 12 tbh. And even more so at 13. I'm turning 32 this month. Therapy is VERY long overdue. Phuq.

The chance to change is something I'm immensely grateful for. I am thankful I get to get this right. It's foreign to me to be getting this far ahead, I usually quit by now. Habitually my mind wants to. I'm NOT QUITTING this time. I just won't. But phuq, I'm getting tired as phuq. When you are taking the steps to change it gets it's yuckiest just before the results and rewards start to really show off in life. I want to spit this hard pill out. It's big, it's nasty, it's painful. But swallowing it will bless me in a plethora of ways. I'm facing myself again. I had fell back into the delusions. I was lying again, to myself mostly. Anyone grown, woman or man must face their truths. Ugh it's so difficult though when you know your truth is ugly, dark, hurtful. But if you can't keep it real with yourself, you can't do what's necessary to start living a better life. You won't know what's required of you. Go before a mirror and just stare for a moment. Be honest in your mind then let it flow out vocally. Listen we're all beautifully and wonderfully made masterpieces created by THE Master, The Great Mother, The Spirit. Let Spirit lead, guide and direct you! You're already phuqing amazing, start treating yourself like it! Start acting like it! Start being the great you, you can be because you are just that! You are GREAT!

I am great. And great things are meant to be mine, in abundance. A lot of shit we go through literally wouldn't happen if we remember who the phuq we are and we stay focused on doing wtf we're purposed to.

If you're set apart like me, you know much of the shit going on isn't meant for us. We'll have many more bright days and peaceful nights when we stop trying to fit in and do what the masses is doing. We are different for a reason and we must live differently for the reason. I'm a hermit by design. When eye operate according to my design!? I don't deal with all this shit I'm currently inwardly suffering from. Tuh and to think I seen the hit that knocked off my feet recently coming miles away. I convinced myself I could just move a few steps to the left and miss it. Lmfao NAW. That hard knockout from the reality you tried to escape ain't missing contact! Rough but needed. Tough, but now I'm seeded. Change is the water. Rituals are the fertilizations. I'm growing up. Growing pains hurt so good. OUCH, but thank You Yah. Soon enough we'll all treat ourselves a lot better. Collectively more and more people are open learning more about self. For years we were caught on imagine, money, fame. The thirst and hunger for knowledge, peace and enlightenment is growing stronger. Soon enough we'll see more book purchases over BBLS. I've been blessed to cross paths with a beautiful man that gave me manyyyyy books (no seriously, I think he sent me like 200 of them) to sink my brain into. 💚 I do hope he knows how appreciative I am.

I want things better for everyone, for all of us, for all of Spirit's beautiful, wonderful and amazing pieces of The Master's Puzzle. Dear reader, friend, sister, brother I want to say I love you. You are art and I say this from my heART. May I be of inspiration? If I can change, heh, anyone can. And you and I? We will. This is a powerful time of life! Reach out and grab it, you can hone it, you are worthy, you can do ALL the things you need to do.

To anyone and everyone doing the work to change for imbetterment, We got this 🫶🏽

[rynliadon]

[ID: uquiz results. reads: "Your Result: The Innocent. you're the definition of an idealist and a dreamer. you're very romantic, and look for the best in people. you trust easily (some would say too easily) and it might be your downfall. tbh, you have a solid chance of dying to give the hero motivation to finish their quest. but hey! it's okay! you have a lot of empathy and concern for others (you're probably the mom/therapist of your friend group) and a pure heart.]

THE INNOCENT FJDKGK

this quiz said "ur baby idk what to tell u" and. like. is it wrong

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Tagging @firelordemai @pianjeong @bluberry-spicehead @honeybeelia @rockywhorrorpictureshow @azvlla @learnto-fly @twinkwu @flameyohotdamn and anyone else that wants to do it!

Tagged by @legolas-is-a-himbo and this was my result! Take the quiz here.

Enjoy!