#akutgawa x reader

[lit3rallyll0yd]

when they walk in on you changing

dazai, atsushi, chuuya, fyodor, akutagawa

warnings: lowercase writing, suggustive? (not to extreme), cursing!

a/n: reader is referred as they/them! REQUESTS ARE OPEN!! this is also my first time writing for fyodor!!! plz expect him to be so out of character- 🙃 also- i can't speak russian- so apologies for any spelling mistakes- i used google translate...part two??

dazai osamu 🩹

stop.

he would become such a flirt.

after a long day of work, there was nothing more he wanted than to come home and be greeted by his sweet belladonna.

by long i mean him literally just annoying kunikida to death and not lifting a finger- barely.

the sound of the keys clashing together was deaf in your ears as you were wearing headphones.

you were in your room, wearing nothing but a t-shirt and underwear.

you were rummaging through your drawer, softly singing to yourself as you picked a pair of pajama pants.

meanwhile, your boyfriend has entered the apartment, locking the door behind him.

he called out for you, however no response was given.

he grew suspicious...but didn't panic.

he called out for you again, taking off his tan trenchcoat and hung it on the hook beside the front door.

as he entered deeper into the apartment, he heard the soft sound of your singing.

his eyes lingered over to the half-closed door of your bedroom you and he shared.

he peeked his eye in the crack- and smiled to himself. slowly he opened the door wider, watching you softly shake your butt as you vibed to your song.

headphones still upon your head.

dazai's smile turned into a smirk as he entered the room.

you picked a pair of pants- now putting them on- still unaware dazai was in the room as well.

before you could put your leg into the pant leg- you felt your right headphone lift upward, and a whisper tickled your ear.

"well~ this isn't what i was expecting when coming home~"

"HOLY SHI-"

you screamed.

throwing your pants at dazai's direction and fell backwards on the bedsheets.

his laughter filled the room as he held your pants in his arms- towering over you.

"DAZAI!!"

"hi 'donna~" he winked, and you blushed mad.

"GET OUT OF MY ROOM!"

you covered your body with the blankets as dazai gasped; "this isn't just your room! we share this room, remember?"

"I DON'T CARE IF IT'S THE PRESIDENTS ROOM- GET OUT!" you whined, throwing pillows at him and he held his arms up in defense.

"okay-okay! i'm leaving!" he laughed, starting to walk out of the room.

"eh- HEY! GIVE ME MY PANTS BACK!-DAZAI!"

when you finished changing, you awkwardly walked out of the room and peeked your head through the living room where you saw dazai lounging on the couch watching tv.

he noticed you from the corner of his eye and smirked, "and they return from their hiding~"

you blushed.

"shut up! i will shove a sock down your throat-"

"after seeing that body~ i hope it's more then a soc-"

you proceed to toss a pillow at him and tackle him- hitting him over and over again as he begged for mercy.

atsushi nakajima 🐯

dudes a sweetheart.

gives you privacy.

first- he woke you up.

in the sweetest way possible.

with a kiss on the nose, leading to your cheeks, neck, jaw, bridge of your nose, forehead, temple..until he reached your lips.

he smiled hearing you stir awake, "morning, sunshine.." he whispered, brushing your bangs away from your face.

"..mornin'.." you yawned, rubbing your eyes.

he giggled at your cat like strech and kissed your cheek, getting out from under the covers...that just lead to you hiding under all of them- having all the room to yourself.

"you have to get up to, y'know?" he reminded, peeking at the clock that read 5: 56, "we have work!"

all you did was nod.

he smiled and left the room- going to the bathroom with his dress attire.

2 minutes passed and he has yet to come back to the room, so you assumed you'd just get changed here.

so you rolled out of bed, getting your work attire set and ready.

you pulled your shirt off your body, and laid it on your bed. you took your pants off- and was about to put on the pants until you heard the door open.

as atsushi opened the door; you whip your head toward him as you yelped and fell onto the bed and backwards onto the floor.

"OH my god- Y/N!!" he cried, rushing over to you and was about to ask if you were okay until he noticed...you were half-naked.

he screamed, apologies left and right, up and down until he covered his eyes and ran backward, hitting the bed and falling the same way you did perviously.

"I'M SO SORRY BABE- I-I DIDNT KNOW- OH I'M SO SORRY!!!"

as you both were a blushing mess, atsushi ran out.

5 minutes later, you exited the room and saw atsushi in the living room.

he was biting his nails and bouncing his leg.

until he noticed your figure.

"Y/N- i'm so sorry!! i didn't mean to walk in on you- i had no idea! i'm sorry if i made you uncomfortable─"

you cupped his face and laughed, "it's okay- atsushi! it was an accident!"

he felt glad you weren't upset with him- and made sure to always make sure to knock when he knows your in the room.

chuuya nakahara 🍷

like atsushi.

he's a gentlemen and respects your privacy.

it was late, and chuuya called to let you know he was working overtime.

your heart flutters each time he lets you know because he remembers you- even doing the most deadliest of jobs known to man.

as he was at work you had the apartment all to yourself; which you of course took advantage of him not being here.

you looked through he wine collection, tasting the ones that seemed to interest you.

you looekd through his hat collection; aka basically his closet- and had your own small fashion show.

hours passed- and the time was 12:26pm.

you didn't get his message about him coming home; so your boyfriend entered the apartment.

"y/n- i'm home!

silence.

he heard some music echo from your bedroom; which sparks his curiousity.

he slowly walked toward the room, and opened he door.

"y/n-"

"CHUUYA!!"

you screamed, having nothing but your pants on and putting on the shirt until you heard him walk in.

his eyes widened as he closed the door- apologizing.

silence.

awkward silence.

as you left your room after getting changed, you found chuuya sitting on the couch leaning forward and playing with ths fingers.

"oh- y/n! h-how was your day?" he asked, suddenly noticing you and sat more comfortably on the couch.

you had a blush on your face as you nod, "my day was...good."

he placed his lips together to make a straight line and nodded; "that's-good.."

you suddenly burst out into laughter, causing him to now blush.

"what-what's so funny?"

"your-haha!-more embarrassed then-haha-i was!!"

he turned red and looked away from you, crossing his arms.

"i-shut up! lock the damn door next time!"

fyodor dostoevsky 🫀

bastard.

FOUCKING bastard.

you begged him; getting on all fours and to his feet; and begged him to take you to the pool he owned...somehow...for some reason (just go with it PLZ)

with a sigh, he agreeded and allowed you to have; what- 3 hours of the pool to yourself?

you ran- SPEED RAN- to your bedroom and packed for the pool.

you know- the essentials. swimsuit, towel, slippers/flip-flops, etc.

he watched you get ready with a sly smile on his face from his desk.

the way you got so excited to go to this pool- pleased him??? idk, he just felt good- anyway.

you called out to him that you'll see him in the pool as well??

hm- we'll see.

timeskip to you reaching the indoor pool.

it was HUGE.

WHY WAS HE KEEPING THIS FROM YOU- WHO EVEN IS HE??

oh yeah- nvm. lmao.

you rushed to the change rooms, excited to step into the pool.

you've been stressed all week; unable to find any relaxation at all- accept this one time...you are 100% taking advantage of this!

because- we'll it was empty, you decided to just change in the middle of the room where the room was.

you took of your shirt- revealing your bare skin.

next was your pants.

as you took them off; you noticed your butt in the mirror reflection-

oh.

okay.

damn, fyodor, that lucky bastard.

you grinned to yourself- wiggling your butt side to side and giggled to yourself.

then, you slapped it gently.

and again- then moved up down your thigh.

suddenly- you heard a familair voice-

"would you rather spend your hours looking at yourself in the mirror; or go in the pool with me? because- i can take either or."

with a scream you bounced backwards toward the mirror.

"HOLY GRAVY AND CHEESE-"

you blushed- realizing it was fyodor.

you quickly tried to grab your towel and wrap it around yourself. before you could try to wrap it all around your body- fyodor suddenly appeared in front of you.

HOW DID HE GET HERE SO FAST-

he rubbed a hand on your hip, close to your stomach.

"hm~ you've been hiding this beautiful body from me for weeks, дорогой?"

you blushed hard. feeling his hot breath on your neck-

"f-fyodor..too-close.."

he kissed your lips, cutting you off.

you melted into fast...

you pulled away panting..

"pool?"

he asked and you nodded slowly...

giggling softly..

"i'm ready when you are..."

akutagawa rynnosuke 🩸

he would be embarrassed

awkwardly leave the room...with a blush on his face.

it was late at night, time was around 11:34pm.

you were tired when you got home from work.

your a member of the ADA; yet dating one of the most dangerous port mafia members.

entering your apartment, you kicked of your shoes and left your coat on the floor.

you had no idea akutagawa was home so when you entered your bedroom you shared with him.

you took off your pants and went to the drawer to pick some pants.

as you found pants, you put them on. now taking off your shirt.

meanwhile, akutagawa exits from the bathroom and walked toward the bedroom.

he didn't notice it a crack open, so as he enters.

you freeze.

he freezes.

he has a blush on his face as he looked at your upper bare body.

you blushed.

he slowly closed the door and left..

you were red.

he just..left?

said nothing?

well what was he suppose to say??

minutes after you finished changing into your pajamas...you went to find akutagawa.

he was just in the living room, staring into a void.

you walked toward him slowly...

"ryu?"

he looked at you and was about o leave-

"wait!!" you stopped him.

"are you okay?"

he held his head low.

"i didn't mean to walk in on you...i assumed you thought i was a creep and so i left...i should be asking if your okay.."

you frowned, "aku- aha! it's okay- your my partner!! it's okay to see each other naked...even if its accidental..." you shrugged.

he nods slightly and held your hand, "please let me know if i ever make you uncomfortable...i hate knowing i did..."

you kisses his knuckles, "of course~ i love you!"

"....i love you, too."

[catmelonwriting]

does anyone want a Mori or Akutagawa one of these bc I really wanna make one..

i wrote lists of what kinks I think certain bsd characters would have to tide u guys over cuz I'm not writing as much 🙏

[samutoru]

4:57pm - akutagawa x reader

you stood by akutagawa's side too long to know what he was like, even the littlest things about him made you fall for him even more. you knew what he liked, what he didn't like, his usual order when he stops by his favorite coffee shop, what he doesn't like on his cheeseburgers, and even his favorite author; you knew what he acted like if he was upset or sad too.

when he had realized that he loved you, he was afraid you wouldn't reciprocate his feelings back so he always pushed you away whenever he felt like he would cross the line.

no matter how many times he had hurt your feelings or hurt you physically, you had always loved him. you always gave him a warm smile and were there when he needed it. akutagawa would try to push you away, but you just came back running to him with kindness and love.

then there it was, how it lead to your current situation, akutagawa finally snapped, he was confused about why you would still love him after everything that he did to you. he wasn't sure if you felt the same way he did, you made him feel loved, wanted, and welcomed, and he hated that you made him feel that way.

"why do you even care?" he scoffed, trying hold back his tears as he turns around to get a look at you.

you hated that your hands were shaking, your thoughts were getting messy, held back tears from falling, your chest feeling heavy and your heart feeling like it was getting crushed. you hated the feeling of anxiety. and yet, it haunted you almost everyday. you didn't expect this to happen, this was the last thing you wanted.

"i care because you don't" you replied, walking towards him. you reached your arms out to him, your hands cupping his face as you brushed his tears away.

"i've always loved you ryuunosuke," you continued as you smiled warmly at him, his hand making it's way to your cheeks, them leaning in pressing his lips against yours.

"i've always loved you," akutagawa confessed as he pulled away from the kiss.

he had always thought about the way you made him feel, how it would feel with your small and gentle arms wrapped around his body, your voice comforting him and telling him "i love you,". he had always waited for the moment you would tell him those three words. you didn't know how much he needed you and how much he trusted you, he's always wanted to tell you but those were words he couldn't verbally tell you.

you were the only one who could make him feel better, feel this way. you were the only one who could make him feel loved.

[the-last-f2p]

Lost & found Beast :Akutagawa x reader

A/N: I just got and finished BSD beast 1 so here is a fic/short series.

TW: Mentions of blood, Assassin brotherhood, Mentions of killing, Gaslighting, swearing, Suicidal thoughts for a line,

Life in the slums was not pleasent to say the least. But atleast you had him.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa The Silent Rabid Dog

Yes he was as emotoinless as a dead body but he was a good friend who saved you too many times to if you could count you felt like you atleast should give him something in return that thing being your friendship. Even if he made it look like he couldn't care less about you.

"Akutagawa-kun do you a sweet potatoe we got a big enough paycheck for everyone!" You smile to him.

"....Sure." He says as blankly as ever he takes the potatoe.

"Here take another and give it to Gin-chan as well!" You give him another potatoe.

"I'm gonna go now see you later Akutagawa-Kun!" You then run off somewhere. That place being your source of money. A brotherhood of assasins. Yes maybe everytime you went into the less than grand building it stank of something blood and everyone looked down on you both literally and figurativley you were still pretty young okay?! But that didn't mean that you couldn't pack a punch. Mostly thanks to your ability How to Kill your family that allowed you to make a small cut on anyone remotly related to your family that if not treated properly would grow until it cut through a vital vein. The only drawback is that it could only be used once a day or else you would collapse from exhastion. Lucky that you consider everyone in the group in the slums your family or your ability wouldn't be nearly as useful.

"Y/N. I have a job for you." My boss said to me looking almost as emotionless as Akutagawa.

"There's a man by the name of Osamu Dazai the boss of the port mafia kill him and your pay will be trippled." The port mafia?! Maybe you weren't the brightest but you're not that dumb.. But what if you did it. Pay trippled. Your pay had been cut tremendously for your age already but trippled would be enough to get a food supply for everyone for atleast a week. You had to go even if you knew it was suicide...

And this is how you ended up trying to find someway to relate Osamu Dazai to one of your familiy members...

"Lets see.. No.. No.. Wait.. SAYAKA she met one of the Port Mafia members last week it was only for a bit but it should be enough..." Ability: How to kill your family

"Osamu Dazai."

Blue rings started to appear around you and images flashed in your head of a messy brown-haired man dressed in black who you assumed to be Osamu Dazai. You then saw a small cut appear on his finger. Yes tripple pay here you come. It then healed as quick as it appeared.

"Nice try Y/N L/N but if you're gonna try kill me please at least do it in person." He smiled a ginger haired boy heard it and asked

"Who are you talking to boss?" "No one, you must be hearing things Chuuya."

The image in your head then dissolved into nothing god fucking dammit does he have some kind of ability well of course he does how else was it supposed to heal without him even touching the cut? If that didn't work you'll just kill him the hard way... This'll be your first up close kill and you don't really know how you'll pull it of....

"Y/N look!" One of your friends brought a small object up to your face that you recognized as a diamond.

"Its real Akutagawa-san checked!" You were about to contiue the conversation but then Akutagawa interupted you.

"Pack up in one minute we need to get out of here." You felt a presence near you and immidetally ducked leading your friend to get shot in the forehead then collapsing on the floor. You were pretty sure the people said something but you were to focused on what your friend said.

"H...H-Help us Aku..Ta Y/...N." He then got shot again your first reaction was for you to run as fast as possible away. You were then met with the sounds of bullets and screaming until you couldn't take it yes you were an assasin but you never had even heard the sound of gunshots before and it scared you. You found the nearest window and jumped out of it running your little legs of until you had exited the slums of Yokohoma and into the nicer side. You stopped at a bridge to catch your breath. By the time you had got to the bridge it was already dusk and there was barely anyone around this was a good enough place to rest......

You woke up to a tall red-head looking down at you and your first reaction was to kick him but he blocked it so easy that it was like he could see the future.

"Quite a way to greet people don't you think?" He tells you.

"Who are you? What do you want? Are you with the Mafia or those guys do you wanna kill me aswell finish the job?" Actually now that you say it maybe it would be a good thing if he came to kill you as long as it was quick.

"Calm down kid I was just worried seeing you collapsed." "Well I am fine there is no need to be worried and if you're not here to kill me then get the hell away!" You try to kick him again but he lands a blow to your stomach and then throws you on his shoulder.

"GET THE HELL OF ME! I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW THAT I'M APART OF THE YOKOHOMA ASSASINS BROTHERHOOD I'LL KILL YOU!" You start to thrash around but the man doesnt even flinch.

"I'm not gonna abandon a kid who obviously needs help."

"I don't care who the hell even are you!?"

"My name is Oda. Sakunosuke Odasaku member of the armed detective agency." The armed Dective Agency huh-

"-" You were about to say something but exhaustion had hit you again somehow.

The next few weeks had flown before you knew it you were a member of the armed detective agency and to think all you had to was untie a 'hostage' and defuse a fake bomb by throwing yourself over it thanks a lot Oda not.

4 years later

"Y/N." One of your co-workers Kunikda called out your name.

"Yo." You turned around on your chair.

"Theres a guy I want to you to meet." You were about to get up from your chair but you were almost hit by a all to familar ability that messed up your desk beyond repair dammit....

"Akutagawa-Kun?"

"Y-Y/N?!"

Words:1096

A/N: Yo I wanna make a part 2 so take a cliffhanger also happy first fic that had no promt me

-Sybilliya

[kittydied0-o]

Bsd men texting you when they're horny!?

Akutgawa x dazai x chuuya x atsushi x Fyodor x nikolai x reader !SEPARATE!

Warnings: suggestive, mentions of sex

All work is mine please do not repost! Reblogs are always appreciated!!!

Tysm for the suggestion!! I'll make one more today! I LOVE making these sm 🙏🙏

[calypsocolada]

it would be interesting to see an aku x reader who's atsushi's sister HAHAHAHAHAHA

SPECIAL | akutagawa

synopsis: akutgawa wants your attention and will do anything for it. authors note: THANK U FOR THIS REQUEST!!!! i hope i did you proud anonymous :) cw: blood, hurt/comfort, slightly obsessive aku, slightly suggestive near the end ;), atsushi!sister wc: 3k

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He wanted you. So terribly bad. Ever since he first laid eyes on you. You beautiful, elusive thing. So out of reach, like sand through his fingers. Something untouchable and for terrible reasons. You were his enemy’s sister. So in retrospect you should’ve been his enemy as well. He should possess the same hatred he feels for Atsushi but for you all he felt was a simmering want. Something searing his heart and churning his nerves. The want was too much. Like a growing sickness that he couldn’t shake. He tried to forget, after all there was no way he could ever have you. He might feel differently about you but there was no way you felt the same. Not with how many times he and your brother collided. And he would never assume those feelings had changed but you suddenly gave him hope. 

After being forced to work together, he and Atsushi came to an impasse, he promised the tiger boy that he’d never hurt anyone again, at least not until they fought again. When he practically saved Atsushi and it was all said and done he saw you, pushing through to grab and hug your brother, no doubt worried for his safety. Akutagawa watched your hands shake as you held on to Atsushi, tears in your eyes. You’d been so scared of losing him, it made Akutagawa’s heart sick. To know just how scared you’d been. When you pulled back you asked him something and Atsushi reluctantly pointed back at Akutagawa. He froze when your eyes met his, froze when you swallowed and pushed past your brother and walked over to him, despite Atsushi’s objections. You cleared your throat as you closed the distance between you and him. He stared at you, wide eyed and expectant. 

“You saved my brother?” You had asked. Akutagawa swallowed nervously, your attention made him feel too seen. He liked observing you from afar, but up close you were too much, like staring at the sun. He blinked, nodding his head. You kicked at the dirt, giving yourself something to look at that wasn’t his eyes. Because it felt dangerous being this close to him, knowing the history. But he did save your brother. “I know he won’t thank you but I will.” You say, bravely meeting his eyes. Akutagawa was tall, taller than you. And lean, and a bit gaunt, as though sleep had never occurred to him. He shied from your eyes, his cheeks dusting pink by the second. “Thank you for keeping him safe.” You say and he knows you mean that with every fiber of your being. Knows you love so strongly, and care so much for those you love that it actually makes him sick. Sick because he’s never had that. Never had someone to cry for him. He most likely never will. He wanted to say something scathing, something sarcastic because it was ingrained in him. To never show how he actually feels. That someone will use that against him but he can’t imagine you ever doing that. So he swallows again, clenches his jaw slightly and looks you in the eyes. 

“You’re welcome.” He rasps. 

The moment is charged, like electricity and tension mingling and sparking the space lying between. You take a step, dirt dusting up. Your hand raises and slides against his cheek. He’s frozen under your touch as your thumb grazes that top of his cheek bone. His lips part in a silent question, his brain speeds and slows and it's hard to form words because he’s stuck staring at your glossing lips. 

“You should get this checked out.” And he now knows your referencing the nasty bruise on his cheek. He can’t form words, not with your hand softly against your cheek, not with the way your eyes are looking into his. All caring and concerned like. Someone calls your name. Atsushi looked highly perturbed by this strange interaction between you two. The warmth you’ve caused slowly grows cold as you reach back your hand and step back. He still hasn’t said a word, he’s not sure if he remembers how to speak. “Thanks again.” You say, and then you turn and walk back to your brother and Akutagawa is kicking himself for not saying anything remotely meaningful. For being lost at the way you found him. That was the spark that ignited the sick hope in his chest. You never had kind words for him before that moment but something had clearly changed. If saving your brother had caused that shift Akutagawa would do it again and again.

He saw you a few more times after that and each time you seemed different around him. It killed him when you smiled, and when you smiled at him he would be content with dying right then and there. But he had to know. He had to know if you felt the same searing want as him. He had to know if he haunted your dreams like you did his. If he was all you could think about. He had to know. Akutagawa had no experience in this. In romance, but he knew how he felt for you and knew if he didn’t do something about it he might just shrivel away to dust. So when something fell into his lap he knew he had to knock at your window. 

Your eyes widened at the sight on your fire escape. A bloody Akutagawa, leaning as his hand tapped against the glass. Your heart skipped a beat. You’d given him your address months ago after he and Atsushi needed a place to lie low. He slept in your spare room and got all cagey every time you talked to him. In fact he was always like that around you. Nervous and cagey. You ran to slide the window open and pull him inside out of the rain. He was soaked, his clothes drenched, his hair sticking to his forehead and cheeks. You put your arms around him and guided him through the window as he heaved in pain. 

“What the hell?” You voiced as he fell slightly limp against you, you palmed at his face, fingers pushing his hair back. 

“I didn’t wake you did I?” His voice was thick as you helped him to the floor, leaning against the end of your bed. Blood smeared on your hands. 

“What happened?” You asked.

“A dispute.” He started, groaning softly. “I settled it.”

“Oh, did you now?” You asked slightly sarcastically. There was no dispute, he injured himself purposely for your attention. There had to be something glaringly wrong with him for you to ever care, or at least that’s what he thought. He chuckled slowly, letting his head fall back against your bed, his eyes drifting closed. “Nuh uh.” You said and he felt your warm hands taking him by his cold cheeks and pulling him to look you in the eyes. “Don’t you dare try to sleep.” You said sharply and he swallowed, nodding his head. “I’ll be right back, okay, don’t go to sleep.” You restated as you pushed from the carpeted floor and slipped out into the hallway. Akutagawa raised his head off your bed and looked around. Books lay scattered, plants dying on the shelf, a poster or two of some old movies Akutagawa had never heard of. Your room was, in one word, comfortable. He could tell it was lived in, could tell the things in here, besides the plants, you took the utmost care of. When you entered the room again you closed and locked the door behind you. “We have to be quiet because Atsushi is passed out in the living room.” You say as you sink to the floor next to him. 

“He lives with you?” Akutagawa asks as you shake your head.

“He came over for dinner and passed out, I didn’t have the heart to wake him.” You say in response as you scoot closer to him. “Okay, let’s have a look.” Akutagawa tenses suddenly. He’d stabbed his side, not deep enough to merit a hospital trip but where it was meant he’d need to raise his shirt up in front of you which made him immeasurably nervous. He watched your finger’s carefully take the hem of his shirt and raise it, exposing pale skin and red blood. You sucked in a breath as you caught sight of it. You didn’t even stop to think why he came to you and not a hospital because he needed your help, not your questions. Akutagawa inhaled sharply as you lifted the wet cloth from his wound. “Jesus.” You breathed out, biting your lip.

“You’re not gonna pass out on me are you?” He asked as you shook your head. 

“No, no. I’m fine.” You say because this was nothing compared to the cuts and bruises Atsushi got sometimes. “Here, I need you to sit back a bit.” You say.

“I’ll get blood on your carpet.” He says as though that’s something you cared more about than him.

“Come on,” You urged and he let you guide him down a bit. He was more comfortable now.

“You’re gonna have to talk to me if you want me to stay awake.” He says as you carefully dabbed some gauze over the wound to soak up some blood. 

“Talk about what?” You asked, your focus solely on making sure he didn’t bleed out. 

“I don’t know, doc,” He teased. “What about that?” He points a hand to the book on your bedside table. You turn to look at it. 

“Pride and Prejudice?” You ask and he nods his head. 

“Tell me about it.” He says, closing his eyes.

“Keep your eyes on me.” You say, your finger barely touching under his chin. His eyes open into yours and you find yourself stuck for a moment. You swallow, your hands paused. “What’s wrong, doc?” He asks, breaking you out of your stupor. 

“N-nothing.” You insist, eyes swinging back to the bloody mess beneath them. You reach and grab for another piece of gauze. “Uh, right, Pride and prejudice. It’s my favorite book.” You say as Akutagawa zones out, just watching your lips move. You fingers defly toss the gauze to the side, grabbing out some thread to stitch him back together. “It’s good, you should read it sometime.” You say. “Now, sit still, this is probably going to hurt.” Akutagawa must be used to pain because he doesn’t make much of a fuss whatsoever the entire time you're stitching the wound. You talked him through it the whole way and barely noticed that his hand barely gripped the side of your leg, something to keep him grounded from the pain. Once you're done you wrap him up. Going to pull off the rest of his shirt, he pinkens, stopping your hands.

“What’re you doing?” He asks.

“You need dry clothes otherwise you’ll catch a cold.” You say. Akutagawa bites the inside of his cheek. 

“I should get going, don’t you think?” He asks, because he feels as though he’s taken up enough of your night.

“No, I want you to stay so I can keep an eye on you.” You say as though he should’ve known better.

“An eye on me? So I don’t hurt anyone?”

“So no one hurts you.” You correct. He stares at you for a minute.

“No one will hurt me.” He waves off as you take his hand and again he freezes. 

“Stay here.” You insisted, eyes fiercely pleading. He swallows dryly, throat bobbing. He couldn’t help flicking them down to look at your lips then back up to your eyes. There was no way he was going anywhere now. 

“Okay.” He whispers and lets you peel off his soaked shirt. You grab a blanket, draping it across his shoulders. 

“I’ll be right back.” You say before slipping out of the door again. You're gone for about five minutes before he hears the door squeaking back open, a steaming bowl and fresh clothes in your hand. You set the bowl down and help him stand, he wavers a bit due to the loss of blood and your fingers tighten on his sides. “You okay?” You whisper and he nods. “I’ll turn while you change.” You say, carefully handing him the clean clothes. Akutagawa takes the clothes, his heart in his mouth not letting him speak. He watches you turn as he turns himself. He changes quickly, shivering as he pulls on a sweatshirt and sweatpants, feeling warmth over his cold skin. 

“Okay,” He intones softly as you turn back around, you offer him a soft smile. 

“Here, sit.” You offer as you sit down on your bed, he follows as you turn and hand him a bowl of warm soup. “So what really happened?” You ask as Akutagawa takes the bowl, a silent thank you passing his soft somewhat tinged blue lips. 

“Some guys teamed up on me, that’s all.”

“That’s all?” You echoed. He nodded his head, not looking up from the bowl

“Okay.” You say because you didn’t feel like badgering an answer out of him, if he wanted to tell you something he would. And if you wanted to tell him you were glad he came to you he’d have to badger it out of you.

“Thank you, for ya know.” He says because he has no practice in thank you’s but he wants to get better at them. To give you a proper one. 

“Anytime.” You say. “I mean it.” You add and watch him tense nervously again.

“Do you?” He asks.

“I do.” You reassure and his lips quirk up in something that was almost a smile. “We should get to bed.” You say as Akutagawa’s throat bobs. 

“I can sleep on the floor.”

“We can share.” You offer, untucking your covers and moving to offer a space to him. You can see the hesitation and you almost offer to let him take the bed but slowly he lowers himself beside you. It’s quiet for a few moments, both of you knowing there wasn’t much sleep to be had tonight. The rain picked up outside, padding against the glass of the window. “Hey, Akutagawa?” Your voice asks softly beside him.

“Hmm?”

“Why’d you come to me?” She asked. He could tell in the dark that you had turned to face him, so he turned as well. In the pale light he could see was your bright eyes. 

“I- I don’t know why exactly.” He answered because it was a lot simpler than telling her these complicated feelings he held for her, a lot easier than telling her he’d hurt himself to get here. “Should I have not?”

“I’m glad you came to me.” You say and your eyes lock with his. Tension building and building ever so slowly in the dark room. The bed feels too small, you can feel the heat radiating from him. 

“You are?” He asks just barely a whisper in the wind. You nod her head decidedly.

“I am.” You whisper back. Akutagawa had to look away, had to turn his face away otherwise he’d kiss you. Something he’d wanted to do for a long time. Something he was scared to admit that he wanted to do because once he did it maybe he wouldn’t dream of it anymore. What if you didn’t want to kiss him, what if you didn’t feel the same? Would he not feel safe in his dreams of you anymore? Because only when you were in his dreams were they not nightmares. But he didn’t turn away, he couldn’t move an inch. Not even when you moved forwards and closed the minimal distance between your lips. You kissed him so softly, like you were afraid you’d break him. Akutagawa was shocked, so very very shocked and confused. There was no way you of all people was kissing him right now. 

No fucking way. 

That thought kicked out of his mind when you pulled back away from him, the warmth of your lips no longer against his own. 

“Jesus---” You breathed out, voice panicky. “I’m sorry.” Your words finally snapped Akutagawa into reality. The reality he was about to fuck up if he didn’t act now. 

So Akutagawa kissed the doubts right from your lips, his right hand sliding up on your cheek to keep you close to him. Your own hands pulled him by the front of his shirt. Their kisses grew desperate as Akutagawa pulled you on top of him, you made a sound that was swallowed by his mouth. They pulled away for just a moment as you pulled off your shirt, tossing it soundlessly into the dark. Akutagawa’s hands fell from her face and traced down your body, past your hips and planted on the plush of your thighs as you leaned back down against him. They couldn’t pull their clothes off fast enough. Akutagawa was practically panting as he pulled back, cheeks rosy red, lips kissed pink, you on his lap, emitting strangled gasps from him. 

“Do you-- have protection?” He asked, his voice hoarse. This was going somewhere, he felt the build, knew that if he didn’t take responsibility now you might be stuck with him for life. Clumsily you leaned over, grabbing a condom out of your nightstand. 

“You just have condoms on the ready?” He asked with a shy smirk. 

“Gotta be ready for when men crawl through my window.” You smirked back as he threw his head back and laughed, throat exposed.

“Does this happen a lot?” He asks as you lean and kiss his throat.

“More than you think.” You jest, smoothly tearing open the packaging with your teeth.

“So you’re sayin’ I’m not special-oh fuck-” He groans as you move back just a bit, slowly sliding it on him yourself, just the bare touch of her hands caused Akutagawa to jerk and curse. 

“Oh,” You lean in close to his ear, sending shivers down his spine. “You’re very very special.”

[straymackerel]

Hi, I could ask for scenarios and headcanons for dazai, chuuya, kunikida, akutagawa when they go on missions and their s / o stays home with their child. where the toddler gets a high fever. s / o is very unsettled, bombarding with phones but they don't answer. s / o is a wife, thank you very much☺️😏😏😊😊😤☺️☺️

➽─{hello hello, i went the headcanons route (scenarios are limited to one character only). cheers! 😚😚⭐️}─❥

dazai osamu

• keeps photos of you and your child in his wallet so he can constantly show them off to his coworkers

• literally won’t shut up about you nor stop talking about how much he wishes he was home

• so as soon as he finally checks his phone his eyes are basically bulging out of their sockets

• everyone thinks he’s just trying to get out of work until he lets them scroll through his notifications 😳

• kunikida’s personal favorite is “shitty bandages, you better not be ignoring me”

• absolutely no way he’ll respect the speed limit on the car ride back

• he has no idea how to take care of himself—let alone a toddler—so his first line of defense is to ring a doctor

nakahara chuuya

• is extremely calm when he picks up your 10th call; he’s something of a leader after all

• could definitely send some lackey over to help out... but that wouldn’t be very gentlemanly of him, now, would it?

• he gets kouyou to cover for him and slips out of work with ease, fleeing the scene on his motorbike

• with his gravity manipulation he’s apt to take take all sorts of shortcuts through the city

• as soon as he gets home he assumes all responsibility, telling you to go take a nap or something (you deserve it)

• secretly happy about the family emergency cause he doesn’t get nearly enough time to spend with his lovely wife and child

• whips up some bomb ass soup for everyone to share 😌😌 the all-around keeper that he is

kunikida doppo

• he’s well prepared for this and has virtually everything you need to know squared away in his notebooks

• every single counteractive measure he could think of is documented and indexed for your convenience

• he tells you exactly what pages to flip to and then to hold tight cause he’s coming back asap

• (...which is code for after the day he’s scheduled out for himself but you already know that by now)

• he’ll make it up to you later by picking up dinner and ginger tea

• but then he realizes that’s not enough when he sees just how exhausted you are

• proceeds to take the next day off—something he rarely ever does

• but he married you and so you best believe he can and will, in fact, get his priorities straight

akutagawa ryunosuke

• ...okay but couldn’t you have dealt with it yourself?

• big sigh as he hangs up the phone. probably makes sure that you hear it too 💔

• tells gin to work doubly hard for the both of them as he leaves work early

• ngl he drags his feet at the thought of the sticky snot-nosed brat waiting for him at home

• until he actually sees the kid and remembers that it’s his sticky snot-nosed brat

• lets you go out shopping while he tends to the child or at least tries to

• you have to specifically instruct him to keep supplying them with fluids because apparently that’s breaking news to him

• kinda mumbles to your kid in a low voice when he thinks no one’s listening:

• “...there, there. i hate being sick, too.”

general tags. (info) @skateme2yokohama​​ @shozaii​ @suehiro

[chuuyrr]

I have an angst request for for baby fushihrio!reader( I honestly don’t know how to spell it so sorry) when she saw some TikTok’s and post abt akugawa and dazai when he use to be a port mafia member and how badly he treated him and I wanted to see how reader would react and how they would respond to Dazai. ( and maybe give akutgawa so comfort your choice) and yeha that’s all just a req don’t mind me-!❤️

scarlet witch! baby fushiguro! reader finds out about dazai's past

jujutsu kaisen x reader x bungou stray dogs

masterlist of the series

╰➤ CW(s): major spoilers for bungou stray dogs (dark era), multiverse of madness is referenced, major themes of angst, mentions of abuse (dazai to akutagawa), no comfort(?)

╰➤ PAIRING(s): platonic! bungou stray dogs x child! reader (dazai osamu, akutagawa ryunosuke, oda sakunosuke, etc.)

i changed the scenario and made it extra angsty for tears!

you never fully comprehended why akutagawa despised you. every time you went to port mafia, mostly to see chuuya and play with elise-chan, he wouldn't say anything and would just gently yank you away with rashomon, even if you hugged and clung to him, his thoughts, which you could read and hear, were filled with nothing but resentment towards you, which was sad, but you were also perplexed because you liked him.

so, why did he hate you?

you learned to ignore it, but eventually you couldn't. you liked akutagawa and adored him so much that you didn't want him to hate you or think poorly of you, so you approached him as usual, much to akutagawa's surprise, but you weren't clinging to him.

"...what do you want?" akutagawa's eyes narrowed as he cleared his throat, watching you shift and fidget quietly.

"why do you hate me?" you asked, almost nervously gulping as you fiddled with your fingers, your gaze fixed on your feet, as if you'd been reprimanded for doing something wrong.

"you're annoying, and i don't like brats like you..." akutagawa scoffed, averting his gaze away from you and folding his arms across his chest.

i don't even get what dazai-san sees in you.

when you heard what akutagawa was thinking, you looked up, your eyes widening. your surprised expression drew his attention back to you, and he blinked.

"what?" akutagawa asked gruffly.

"what dazai-nii sees in me?" you blurted out, your face turning from comfort to confusion. at that moment, akutagawa's eyes widened slightly, clearly puzzled. you just read his mind.

"tch, get out of my head, brat!" akutagawa snapped, his rashomon immediately acting up, black tendrils now in mid-air, ready to strike you, but you took a step back and raised both of your hands in the air.

"i-i'm sorry! i didn't mean to!" you apologized, "i just couldn't help but hear it, and i just wanted to understand you.."

"understand me? how could a brat like you understand anything?!" akutagawa's enraged voice echoed across the walls, sending shivers down your spine. "tch, if it's not that weretiger, it's you! it just had to be some kid like you. you're not even that special!"

as one of rashomon's tendrils darted towards you, you instinctively raised your hand, which was imbued with pure red psionics from your chaos magic.

despite the fact that you blocked it, the physical contact you made with akutagawa's ability, as well as the way your overwhelming emotions were amplifying your abilities, had activated your mind-reading ability as a witch once more, but this time it went deeper.

even though it was only a few seconds in real time, your chaos magic made you feel as if you were inside akutagawa's past, reliving the dark memory.

there you saw dazai, but he was younger, about your older brother's age, megumi, and instead of brighter clothes, he was dressed in a black coat with a white button-up and a black tie, and bandages covered his eye, not just his arms and neck, and something about this dazai in akutagawa's mind was just unsettling.

the scene that followed, on the other hand, terrified you. you stood there in the dark, completely frozen, watching dazai hit akutagawa with his bare fist, and to take aim with a gun and fire at akutagawa.

akutagawa would have been shot dead if it hadn't been for his rashomon protecting him.

you quickly returned to reality, not wanting to see any more scenes of dazai behaving in such a way toward akutagawa. as rashomon retreated back to akutagawa, you took a step back, lowering your hand, your hands and knees felt clammy as you looked up to akutagawa, who was confused, and perhaps a little concerned this time, as to why your gaze was teary-eyed, on the verge of crying.

shit. mentally, akutagawa cursed himself. he really didn't mean to snap at you like that, nor did he mean to make you cry.

"h-how could he do that to you?" as you fought back tears, your lips trembled. everything now makes perfect sense, "how could dazai-nii do that to you? y-you didn't deserve that.."

akutagawa bit the inside of his cheek with his lips pursed into a thin line. how unusual of you. he honestly expected you to be angry or upset with him for threatening you, but instead you're crying because of how your precious dazai-nii used to treat him in the past.

"i don't need your sympathy," akutagawa exhaled sharply, his eyes narrowing slightly as he looked at you, "so stop crying for nothing..."

"but you didn't deserve any of that.." your lips trembled as you fought back the tears welling in your eyes with all your strength, not wanting to cry, "you're already more than enough, aku-nii.."

"i-i said i don't need your sympathy, so shut up," akutagawa resisted, but couldn't help but bite back harshly in response to you, "a-and don't call me that! i'm not your damn older brother!"

you didn't say anything else, but instead ran up to him and hugged him, much to akutagawa's dismay and possibly embarrassment, tiny arms wrapping tightly around his waist as you buried your face onto his stomach.

your embrace wasn't the typical clingy kind; it was genuine—truly meant to comfort.

akutagawa looked down at you, trying to think of something to say, but all he could do was stare with his mouth agape, and he couldn't even get rashomon to threaten you again this time.

he sighed deeply and picked you up, letting you cling to him with your tiny arms around his neck and awkwardly rubbed shapes on your back in an attempt to calm you down as you silently cried, unable to hold back your tears any longer.

your words of sympathy and sincerity felt so foreign to him because he was so used to hearing dazai's words and receiving his harsh treatment, but in all honesty, it wasn't bad getting something like this once in a while.

you started avoiding dazai after learning how he used to be. you would rather go to port mafia than the armed detective agency, which surprised mori, but he was ecstatic because it meant that his chances of stealing you from the armed detective agency and using you for your scarlet witch abilities had increased.

but you couldn't get rid of the memories you saw in akutagawa's head. of course, you were aware that he was a former port mafia member. you learned that from oda sakunosuke's ghost before he passed away, but you just didn't think dazai was that kind of person.

you couldn't recognize him, and you couldn't help but wonder how that port mafia dazai was the same dazai you were with. was it only a matter of time before dazai hurt you as he did akutagawa? or is it just because you're the scarlet witch that he doesn't hurt you?

it scared you while also making you angry.

wasn't he supposed to be like your adoptive father, gojo?

perhaps the answer to your question was simply that you overlooked the fact that dazai was never a good person to begin with, which made everything at odds with your heart and mind, a difficult pill to swallow.

atsushi noticed you while he was with kunikida and dazai, you were out in public with chuuya, who had been granted permission by mori to take the day off and spend time with you.

"isn't that [name]-chan..?" when atsushi pointed at you, dazai's face lit up.

dazai had been moping for a few days because you hadn't visited any of them, let alone him. so, when he saw you, he couldn't help but run towards you, only to come to a halt when he realized you were with chuuya.

"[name]-chan! what are you doing with this... shrimp?" dazai exclaimed, narrowing his eyes slightly the presence of the mafioso, prompting the two of you to turn around and see him, as well as atsushi and kunikida.

"the hell you starting vagabond?!" a nerve protuded on chuuya's temple at dazai's remark.

"tch, nevermind you shrimp, i'm not here for you," dazai dismissed chuuya, turning to you, opening his arms and smiling, "[name]-chan! i've been looking for you! ugh, to think you were with this shrimp here!"

instead of running up to dazai for a hug, you ran towards kunikida, clinging to his pant leg, who, along with atsushi and chuuya, let out a baffled noise, as a flash of dazai from akutagawa's memory appeared before your eyes, and it scared you.

"[name]-chan?!" dazai exclaimed softly in betrayal, staring at you in complete perplexity.

"looks like [name] had finally grown tired of you," chuuya chuckled softly, biting back a grin.

"shut up! [name]-chan would never!" scoffed dazai before returning your gaze with a smile.

"w-why is she clinging to me?" kunikida looked down at you, puzzled, his body stiff and frozen from the way you were holding onto him. you've never clung to him like this before. kunikida could almost feel you trembling.

it's as if you were scared of something, and it is.

"what's wrong?" he asked, placing a hand on the top of your head, "y-you're trembling, kid.."

"she's trembling?" dazai, chuuya and atsushi chorused in unison.

"oi, kid, why didn't you tell me you were freezing this whole time?" chuuya began as he slipped off his cropped jacket to give to you when dazai darted towards you, already holding his brown coat to wrap you in, "AGH! BASTARD!"

"here, bella~ you can have my coat instead of chuuya's!" dazai exclaimed with a toothy grin.

you quickly released kunikida's pant leg before dazai could approach you with his coat. your [color] eyes glowed red as you expelled a small repulsive force of your red psionics, causing them to jump in surprise.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" you cried out.

chuuya, dazai, kunikida, and atsushi, as well as passers-by, gave you incredulous looks, "[name]-chan?" "kid?"

"[name]-chan, what's wrong?" dazai looked at you with concern, cautiously approaching you as if he were a scared stray cat or dog.

your lips trembled for a moment before you yelled again, breaking down in tears as you clenched your fists tightly, "I HATE YOU!"

dazai trembled the moment he heard those words leave your mouth, and the way you looked at him, those glowing red eyes that were usually filled with warmth and joy whenever you saw him, struck him hard. you ran as his eyes widened and his body froze like a statue from shock.

"[name]-chan! watch out!" atsushi yelled, nearly dying from stress after nearly being hit by a car only for your red psionics to push it out of your way, "wait up! [name]-chan!"

"what the fuck did you do to the kid?" chuuya asked angrily, now grabbing the collar of his shirt, "what was that, huh?!"

"i don't know.." dazai replied in a small murmur, his eyes bearing a genuine frown, prompting chuuya to release his collar.

it didn't take long for them to start chasing after you, and it was a wild ride. they instantly lost sight of you. it was difficult because your chaos magic allowed you to reappear and appear.

fortunately, with wits to rival ranpo's, dazai was quick to find you, and much to his surprise, and as heartbreaking as the sight was, he discovered you in odasaku's grave. you were curled up against the gravestone, your knees tucked in between your arms, crying silently beneath the shade of the tree.

"[name]-chan!" dazai exclaimed, relieved to see you well but heartbroken to see you crying in such a place.

when you heard his voice, you instantly flinched. you got back up on your feet and prepared to run off again.

"hey now, don't go. why are you acting this way?" dazai stepped in front of you, blocking your path, "[name]-chan, what's wrong?"

"i hate you! get away from me!" you cried out.

"[name]..? what are you saying? why—" dazai was immediately cut off by your next words.

"you're a bad person! you hurt aku-nii! you're nothing like my daddy at all! he would never hurt anyone, but you.. you did."

what did you just say?

how did you know that?

dazai found himself subconsciously clenching his fists, trembling fists. he made certain that he never told you anything about it unless, but knowing the kid, akutagawa's not the type to tell, so dazai was quick to deduce that you read akutagawa's memories with your chaos magic, and it only makes sense as to why you were with chuuya, and staying away from the armed detective agency, away from him.

dazai approached you again to get you, and this time he wasn't even cautious. please, he can't let you go, "[name]-chan, stop that.."

"no! no!" you resisted, shaking your head and swatting away his hands when they got too close, "i'm not going with you! stay away!"

"[name], listen to me. i'm not going to hurt you. let's talk about it. come on, now," his patience was wearing thin as you continued to pry away from him, constantly swatting him away, but you slapping his hands was the final straw.

"[NAME], I TOLD YOU TO STOP THAT!" dazai yelled in an earsplitting volume as you slapped his hands away, causing you to flinch in fear, his large hands now tightly grasping your arms.

when dazai raised his voice at you and clenched his fists, your eyes widened, easily the tables turning on you. there it was. the dazai you've been fearing and seeing from akutagawa's memory of the past. a horrible shiver ran down your spine as you noticed an angry dark glaze over his eyes as he stared down at you.

it wasn't your dazai, it was a monster.

your lips trembled as another fresh set of hot tears filled your eyes, "p-please don't hurt me.."

fortunately, the look and sound of fear you made as you trembled in his grip seemed to have brought him back to reality.

when his grip on you loosened and you pressed your back against oda's gravestone with tears streaming down your cheeks, dazai immediately shook his head, his frightening mafia black blood charsima dissipating.

"..[name]-chan, i'm so sorry.. hey, now," dazai exclaimed sharply, realizing what he had done, "i would never hurt you.. you know that, right?"

"because i'm not aku-nii?" you asked in a sniffle.

dazai swallowed the lump that had formed on his throat. unfortunately, he had no answer to that question. slowly, dazai found his knees buckling to the ground, a hand to his heart as he inhaled sharply. you could see it in his face, and you could tell his heart was breaking. he simply raised his voice at you and almost hurt you, the last person he wanted to hurt.

who was he kidding? mori was right. the port mafia were right. his blood will forever be mafia-black. it runs in his veins. even if dazai had wiped his past clean somehow, the fact that it still happened meant that it was still there, and that it would always find a way back to haunt him in some way.

he will never outrun karma.

it's not you, who didn't deserve dazai.

it was him, who didn't deserve you at all.

dazai returned his gaze to you, a single tear rolling down his cheek and falling to the floor, only to see you open a red portal to leave and return to your world, and he could only think of one possibility: that this might be the last time he ever sees the little belladonna he adored.

"[name]-chan, please come back.. i'm sorry.."

[tacticaldiary]

Silent Support

REQUEST: 

okay since you said you do write ab ed is it okay if i request Akutgawa or/and Atsushi find out that their s/o has a habit of throwing up their food or just straight up have an ed and they purposely skip out of meals and get active extensively?

idk if that’s too glorified or whatever but idk

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Pairing: Reader x Akutagawa Ryuunosuke

Genre: Hurt/Comfort

Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders

He's not good with words, but he's a strong, silent presence of support. That's exactly what he intends to be for her...that and the person who destroys whatever drove her to this point.

Masterlist

Hiya, I just wanted to say that if you are struggling with anything like this, please consider telling someone and getting support, advice coming from someone who's experienced something alike

He should've known. He should've seen the signs. Akutagawa knows he's not the most...empathetic person, and he isn't always quick to pick up other peoples need, but, shit, this was the person he loved, for fucks sake!

He stands motionless outside the bathroom door, feet frozen to the ground, eyes narrowed as the retching noises from inside finally stop. He clenches his fist and releases a sharp breath as the door opens, revealing a queasy looking Y/N.

She coughs into her hand, her throat sore. She looks up and immediately freezes upon seeing her boyfriend standing there in silence. Had he...?

"Why would you do that?" Akutagawa finally speaks, to which she draws in a shaky breath and plasters a nervous, fragile smile on her face. She could still save this. He didn't have to know about her eating 'habits'.

"Do what?" She smiles and Akutagawa hates that forced expression on her.

Part of the reason he fell for her was because of how strong she was. Now, she looked small and fragile and he curses himself for not seeing it sooner. She looks pale and slightly sick. He narrows his eyes, angry at himself and whatever drove her to this.

"You know what."

"I really don't." She shakes her head a little and goes to move past him through to the living room. "Anyway, have you seen my-"

She stopped by a hand firmly gripping her wrist as she's spun back around. Her smile falters as she meets his eyes.

"...What?" Her voice is no longer the confident, happy façade it was a few seconds ago. She sighs and mutters the phrase.

"I-..." he struggles for a second, not really knowing how to approach the topic. "You can't do that." He states finally.

"Do wha-"

"You can't throw up your meals and avoid eating and expect to be healthy. You won't survive." He's blunt and to the point, shocking her a little.

Knowing she's been caught, she shakes her head. "You don't get it."

"Tell me, then."

"I can't."

"Why the hell not?" he presses on, wanting to find the thing responsible for causing her this pain.

"I just..." She trails off, a little frustrated. He doesn't get it, he wouldn't. "I've had this problem for a while. I hate it." Her voice breaks at the last part, and Akutagawa hesitates for a second, before gingerly tugging on her wrist until she's wrapped in his arms.

"Why didn't you ask for help, idiot?"

She shrugs. "Didn't seem important-"

"You are important. To a lot of people." He cuts her off in a low voice. He's not the best at expressing himself, but he wants to make sure his point gets across. "...To me." he adds after a pause.

He feels her tears soak through his shirt as her hand reaches up to grip at his back.

"I can't help it. I want to...get better. I just feel so gross, all the time and I-" She chokes up, unable to finish her sentence, and Akutagawa just holds her silently, letting her talk and cry into him.

He's not the best comforter, but he's a great strong, silent presence of support. And that's exactly what he'll do. He'll support her, help her through this, he think fiercely, tightening his grip on her.

"You're going to get better. I'll make sure of it." He states and feels her nod against his chest.

Request Are Open! Please send em in!

(01/06/2021)

[cloudyshit]

Fukuzawa x Reader

Such a lovely day

Well this is my first time so pls tell me if there is something wrong and dont worry critisize me there not gonna be hurtful as my mom telling me im a dissapointment oh and yeah first time lol.

Summary:Your husband Fukuzawa is busy and is on a meeting you decide to pay a visit to your little brother Mori and after that shit you went to go back to the agency just to find a madness.

Well your hubby is on a business meeting  and you dont know what to do well you can look after the agency but you were lazy and just dump your responsibility to Kunikida you felt bad but he was free.

Well since you have nothing to do you decided to go to your lovely brother Mori yeah actually he is son of a bitch but he your lil bro anyway so you decided to pay him a visit.

You went to the building and everyone was chill they know who you are so they just didn't mind so you dramatically went your way to the hallways as everyone was staring at you now that your infront of the big doors you were so dramatic you just kick that door and it made Mori startled at the sudden action but then cool down when he saw you there.

"What are you doing here?" Mori asked "Eh hubby out of town just wanna visit Elise" You answered as you were scanning the room for a little blonde girl and then you spotted her playing with some crayons on the floor so you made your way there and when she saw you she was delighted to see you.

"Y/N-chan you didnt know how i was in pain thank god you dashed in now take me away from this place" Elise said with a dramatic voice and you decided to roll with it "Oh my Elise look at you come with me lets go to Aku-san and annoy the fuck out of him" you said as you lift Elise on your arms.

You and Elise both exited out of the room leaving Mori confused as you went and fashionably walk in on Akutagawa's office Akutgawa was there and was confused why your both there.

"Aku Aku" you sing in a cheery voice "what the fuck do you want lady" Akutagawa said in an annoyed tone "Oh Aku darling can you set up the tea table because me and elise are gonna have a tea party here" You cheerly said "Lady why in all places you chose to have a tea party in my office" He angrily said but keep down his tone "Where am i gonna have the tea party then" You said "I dont know and i dont care" He said "But Aku darling pretty please you can join our tea party it has desserts" You said cheerly "It has! ok im gonna set it up you order the food and tea but can you order one with the strawberries too" Akutagawa said in an excited tone "Sure Aku darling".

You were lazy to go and buy the food so you just ask one of the assistants to buy it for you as Akutagawa was setting up the place Elise was just there being a cutie that she is was just patiently waiting for the tea party to start.

•after all those shit were done•

Now now the tea party is starting with you, elise, and akutagawa just there with your pinkies up and some tea to enjoy a pleasent afternoon.

"So how was your day lovely people?" You asked cheerily "Oh it was awful Mori-san was forcing me to wear so many dresses but thank god you save me from that awful nightmare" She said dramatically "Just killed some karens feeling good" Akutagawa said.

Sudenly someone burst into the room and kick the door down and you were startled by the action and redied your knife but put it back when you noticed its just Hugichi "Hey would you mind not to kick the door down you scared the shit out of me" Akutagawa groaned "Sorry sorry i didn't know i couldn't fine you anywhere and got worried so yeah but my day is been fucking awful can i join the tea chit chat you guys having" Higuchi said excausted "Of course sweetheart here theres an extra cup for you and an extra chair aswell" You said cheerly as Hugichi is making herself comfy from the spot and sipping some tea "Hey pinkies up" Elise demanded "Oh sorry about that" Higuchi lifted her pinkie "Is this ok" She said in a british tone and Elise just nodded in response "Guys today is a shit day for me" Higuchi groaned "What happened?" You asked

"Yeah while i was doing some business some fucking woman was yelling at me because her husband was staring at me even though i fucking told her i don't know any of the shit and was trying to get through my day" Higuchi vented it out as i laugh at the thought of how it would look like "Days rough huh" You replied "Yep fucking people just be meddling with your life when you did nothing" Higuchi said groaning.

You look through your phone and it was 4pm and you decided 'aight its time to see what those motherfuckers are doing at the agency'.

You now excused yourself from the tea party and went to the window.

now now reader your probably thinking to yourself why the hell are you going to the window well you see you are an assasin so jumping probably from the 9th floor through the ground you probably think you just gonn kill yourself but its ok your like a cat and such a fall wont do anything to you it will feel like you just jump from a table but anyway back to the story.

As you opened the windows the curtains wave dramatically and looking at the drop it wasn't that high so you just jump from there feeling the air and breeze through your face until you hit the floor on both of your toes and just walk as if you just didn't jump from a high building that could definitly kill any normal being.

•at the agency•

Your now at the agency and once you entered this is what you see.

A white haired boy on his knees holding something that look like a bomb, poor Tanazaki being taken down by Kunikida which his expressions show rage and frustration to a laughing Dazai.

The scene was fucking weird as it is and you just walking in just made it more akward as it is and since you don't wanna deal with this shit you legit just went in the window open it and jump everyone was scared because they know they will get their ass whoop by Fukuzawa if his wife is hurt or because there worried about you still its those reasons.

imagine this but just you walking and jumping out of the window

Well you didn't have the mind or brain to process on what you did so you just accepted on what would happen plus worst case scenario you having broken bones.

Fortunately you were saved and was now on someones arms and it was your one and only hubby.

"Hell hubbs" you said cheerly as if you just didn't drop from another high building "Hi love would you mind telling me on why you just drop from above?" He asked "Eh something happened and i dont know what to do" You answered he just nodded on what you said as he drop you on to your feet and both of you went inside and you dashed into his office not wanting to be in the shit that you had walked in.

Day went well and you were just on the office chilling until you and Fukuzawa went home.

Well it was a weird day but you found out that it was an exam and the white hair guy was a new member of the agency and the next day you immidiately greeted him and just fell in love to the point you decided that you will love this boy like its your son well i dont how Fukuzawa felt because he got weirded out since you were trying to cook chazuke but he didn't mind since you do what you want and there is nothing for him to do.

This is my first fic lol i know it bad it aint formal shit but i tried

[kittydied0-o]

Texting the bsd men late at night

Fyodor x Nikolai x dazai x chuuya x atsushi x akutgawa x reader !all seperate!

Warnings!: none :p this is just fluff

!don't copy my work! Reblogs are always appreciated :p

[kittydied0-o]

S/O Asking Bsd Men To Match Costumes for Halloween 🎃

!🎃 HALLOWEEN SPECIAL 🎃!

Chuuya x dazai x atsushi x akutgawa x Fyodor x nikolai x sigma x Poe x Rampo X reader ! SEPARATE !

All work by @kittydied0-o to NOT repost my work! Reblogs and support is greatly appreciated!!

Tysm for the suggestion this was fun to write! Unfortunately I don't actually celebrate Halloween where I live ;( but I hope to any of you who are celebrating Halloween that you have an amazing night !

[kittydied0-o]

This might be nasty~ butttt could you do a Smau where the S/O is in the hospital and not even answering or responding to them since they broke the S/o’s clitoris just from some BIG jealously (only do it if it’s okay to you!! And yes it’s possible.🥹🥹)

You're in the hospital because of what!?

Chuuya x dazai x atsushi x akutgawa x Fyodor x nikolai x sigma x Poe x Rampo X reader ! SEPARATE !

Warnings: MDNI suggestive, mentions of sex, dirty talk, bruising, fractured, etc

All work by @kittydied0-o do not repost!! Reblogs and support is greatly appreciated!!

Tysm for the request anonnie 💞 😸

[kittydied0-o]

hheyyyyyyy <33 i hope you're doing good!! :P

I love your smaus frfr like there are way too little smau in the bsd fondom

Anywayyy could i request (?) for like a reader that is goth?? Only if you want to ofc!! <3

BSD men with a goth

S/o

Chuuya x dazai x Fyodor x nikolai x akutgawa x atsushi x reader ! SEPERATE!

Warnings: none :p

All work is mine please do not repost! Reblogs are always appreciated!!!

Tysm!! for this request anonnie 💞 loved making this!

I apologise if this is not accurate :(

[kittydied0-o]

HIIIIIII 😼😼

may i kindly request texting bsd men(whoever you chose) while we’re drunk?? sorry if this is a weird request these prompts are always so funny to me :3

Your wish is my command😼

Texting the bsd men when you're drunk

! SEPARATE! Chuuya x dazai x Fyodor x nikolai x atsushi x akutgawa x reader

Warnings: nothing really except mentions of alcohol (obviously.)

This was so fun to make istg 😭 tysm for the request anonnie💞

All work is mine! Do not repost! Reblogs are always appreciated!!

[kittydied0-o]

HER ME OUT... BSD MEN (expecially dazai), WITH LIKE A VERY 'WIERD' S/O LIKE SOMEONE WHO EVERYONE CONCIDERS AS WIERD AND SOMEONE WHOS NOT AS GOOD AT SOCIALIZING W8TH PEOPLE THEY DONT KNOW SOMEONE WHOD LIKE ACCIDENTLY SMASH THEIR HEAD ON A PIPE AND THE JUST CONTINUE WALKING TO NOT BOTHER ANYONE💥💥💥🙏

What was that...?

Chuuya x dazai x atsushi x akutgawa x Fyodor x nikolai x sigma x Poe x Rampo X reader ! SEPARATE !

Warnings: none :p

Please do not repost my work! Reblogs and support is greatly appreciated!!

Tysm for this request anonnie 💞

An: I forgot what the subject for this samu was like halfway through. Erm