#aka that's not happening tonight. not with the way i'm feeling rn.

[kevinsteen]

hey kevin steen :,) no worries, i’m sorry you’ve been really exhausted lately. i hope next week is better for you!! also my day was okay! i mostly applied for jobs until smackdown came on.

now let me tell you… that show was something. i didn’t want to cry but- jami is all over my tl and i’m not OKAY. the good thing though is that kevin didn’t hit sami with the chair. but other than that, i’m not sure what will happen at the rumble tomorrow… i honestly don’t know if sami will turn anymore and join kevin :(((

dear god i hope next week is better. i think i'm gonna be doing the kitchen duty that i'm actually way more proficient in than the person i'm training at work is so hopefully i won't be so drained at the end of my shift lmao. i hope your job search is going well!! if all else fails apply for my kind of job (i work in nutritional services for my city's school district AKA i'm a lunchlady lmfao) my job fucking rocks. ok maybe i'm biased bc i love food service BUT it's pretty fun and chill!!

their moments were so fucking insane i'm STILL not feeling okay. honestly i think sami's faceturn is still inevitable but considering the pacing of the story rn it's probably gonna happen at elimination chamber or wrestlemania. they can't keep doing this silly dance of kevin telling sami that he's being used and sami telling kevin he's part of their family forever. 100% the bloodline will turn on sami whether they agree with roman or not. i think tonight proves kevin is also doing all of this for sami's sake.

[yellowsuccessguide]

today is:

Wednesday, December 29th 8:13pm

it's been a week since i last made a post, so lets see what all i've accomplished :)

1. i housesat for an old teacher of mine and made $100. i cooked my meals before i went there so all the progress i've mad weight wise, wouldn't happen again. and it helped a lot. i felt more comfortable there this time and overall it was a nice weekend. spending christmas alone was not fun, but im proud of myself for not getting too down about it.

2. i started a new painting this week. during my first sketch i could already tell i wasn't gonna like it, which is pretty common. i rarely end up actually liking what i've done. so while i was looking at it today i decided to just start over and actually take the time to make it "perfect" aka something i'll be proud of. and i am indeed proud of how it's looking so far. i'm hoping to spend a bit of time on this one to really add the details in there. i want to test myself so yeah :) here’s a sneak peek

3. i reached another weight milestone lol. well not really but it's the highest i had been in a while and i was so happy. had to show my mom and everything. i am slacking a bit rn cause yesterday and today haven't been the best but i'm gonna eat after this i promise

4. the way my body is looking is making me happier and happier each day. it doesn't look that different to anyone else ig, but idk i'm noticing the little things improve and i couldn't feel more confident and happy about it

5. i got back home on sunday and haven't worked out or meditated so i plan on doing one or both before i go to sleep tonight. and getting back on track. my dad bought me some beats headphones i really wanted for the gym and im also very happy about them. like beyond happy.

there are some things i need to work on and i will hopefully fix/accomplish those before sunday.

-nasia <3

[anonymouscandle]

So I've heard a lot of people going on about a neat little herb called Mugwort and every single time it's brought up, the mention of lucid dreaming along with vivid and detailed dreams is mentioned. Naturally as someone who keeps a dream journal when she can and can never seem to induce a lucid dream (Although I have them naturally every so often), I figured I'd give it a go.

Day 1:

10:30pm: Brew tea. Tonight's blend is actually a mix of mugwort and the last of my weed stalks from when I smoked on the regular that I'd been saving for tea.

I put about 5-6 teaspoons of Mugwort in, my stalks, two green tea bags and a bit of butter. (THC binds to the fat in the butter and butter works better than milk, cream would have been preferable but butter isn't bad either.)

Roll a tobacco/mugwort cig to smoke just before I head to bed which has a few pinches of mugwort in it.

It's 11:11 rn (Crazy I know) and so far I don't feel too different, though when I was brewing it my eyes began to feel pretty tired.

I'll update with any results. Even if I'm not successful I'll keep trying every couple of days.

(Also look at my mug! It's beautiful!)

EDIT:

So nothing happened. My insomnia kicked in and I didn't fall asleep until hours later so my plan tonight is to do it all again only do it later in the night rather than at 10:30/11pm.

I did dream but nothing out of the ordinary.

Night 2:

10:30 - Brewed pure mugwort tea with a bit of sugar and a bit of honey, drank about an hour later but I let it to steep that whole time.

I don't know exactly what time I fell asleep but I woke up at 3:30am (I never wake up throughout the night for no reason) and realised once again nothing had worked.

I ended up falling back asleep around 5:30am/6am and this time I did dream!

The dream was pretty detailed and even a step up from what I usually dream. Colours did seem more vivid and bright with the sensation of taste involved when I ate in the dream. I've felt touch many times before but I don't think I've ever tasted anything in a dream before.

And the colours may have been more vibrant and bright because the dream involved helping out on a carrot farm but I doubt it was that. Also, I got to see the absolute beauty of one of my cats plodding about in my shoes in the dream too. The visual is as funny awake as I found it in the dream. Aka, pretty hilarious.

Night 3:

Dream recall was a bit more spotty in places this time though I also had half the amount I've been using so far because I've come to the end of my supply. It won't be for another 2/3 days till I can do this again.

Anyway there were several overlapping themes, somebodies birthday with a skyscraper sized cake, a University with rollarcoaster like tracks leading to other parts of the building. Some sort of fair on the streets with arcade games and stalls. Someone who was handing out crystals. I got a piece of Labradorite (One of my favourite stones and a piece of Flourite (One of my newest stones.) Smoky Quartz got a mention and I saw the exact piece of Charorite Crystal I have in the dream too.

I think i could taste cake in the dream but I'm not 100% sure, either way I'm now carrying all the mentioned crystals except the Smoky Quartz because the only piece I have is a cluster that won't really fit comfortably in my pocket. That and I'm already wearing two grounding crystals that seem to be doing a good job.