#ahhh this was a nice little exploration 😊

[shu-sakamaki]

(Hi! The Admin of a Laito blog recomended me yours and I've been loving your posts so far! Nice to meet you! 😊)

I find the music room after exploring for a while and am amazed at all the different instruments. Then I make sure no one is around and sit near the window with my earbuds on to listen to some music.

((Ahhh I'm so happy having you! ^^))

((Haha, things are very slow lately, but because I'm studying like craaaazy... Literally... I stop studying at 22p.m... So, Tumblr gets a little at the corner, forgotten QwQ. Am sorry, but glad you're enjoying what I already have to offer))

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[*see someone that shouldn't be here*]

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[*grunt annoyed*]

At my sleeping place...? Tsc. I guess I could go to the rooftop, but that is too troublesome to do right now...

[*approach you*]

Oi... This is my sleeping spot, you know...?

[hui-ing]

Hello!! It's perfectly fine, you were tired then so I hope you were able to get good food and sleep 💖💖 + If it is your birthday today, happy birthday !!!

Ahhh I see, so it would be cool just to camp and stuff, I like that idea!! I will make sure to try out marshmallows over the fire then (smores? I'm not sure) and not burn it in the process 😂😂 That sounds lovely (I'm giddy about the idea!) because something warm like stew or soup or coffee would be perfect you know??? I have to try this at least once hhhh + blankets in case it gets cold??? Cute!!!

The idea of taking your paints with you when you travel and painting sounds absolutely soothing and ultra relaxing, like you would be in tune with the scenery, with or without music and painting away! On the topic of travelling, do you like nature documentaries?? // Sounds cool! // Woah 🤭🤭 that's a lot, so it would pretty nice to open it and find a lot of stuff, that's a lot to explore~~~ That's cute and although I see some problems occurring with that, it has its pros! // Yup! And at some point, I had even considered taking up a career in music but eventually I decided against it TT -- Was it classical?? I know some people who also didn't like the music which was the first I had heard considering people always tell me that they left because of the teachers ⭐ Sing and play the guitar?? That sounds nice~~ It takes a little getting used to but you'll get there + I always day dream that I'm a virtuoso performer playing for my friends (which I find a little and am not) but-- it's encouraging kkkkk

A mood-board sounds really nice, I would love it!! (Although you don't have to 😊) + ideas?? I won't be helpful here, my first thought was, 'Anything! Up to you 😄'

Hi! thank you 😊 how are you doing?

Campfire marshmallows are a classic for sure 😌 some of the things you can make while camping can be really good, like foil packet meals, chili, or even just hot dogs over the fire (though I don't recommend making pancakes over the campfire, it's super hard to keep the temperature right and they always turn out either runny or burned... eggs and breakfast sausages are a much better option for the morning lol) and yeah you definitely need a sleeping bag and a jacket, in my experience it's always colder at night than you think it will be 😂

I don't watch nature documentaries as much as I used to, but I really loved them when I was a kid! One of my favorites was the Life of Birds, with David Attenborough - have you seen that one?

Yeah kpop albums come with a lot more than western CDs! The group order thing can be a little risky, I've heard of people who took the money for the orders and then just kept all the albums 😭 but usually you can find someone trustworthy and professional sksdhsjgskddh

That's so cool! I actually liked the classical music a lot, since my mom listens to it, but it was when the lesson books moved into the more "experimental" music (like early 20th century?) that I started to lose interest 😔 I also didn't have other people to play with, I might have had an easier time sticking with it if there had been more opportunities to make music with others... Did you have a music group or are you more the type to enjoy playing on your own?

Hmm I will do some brainstorming then... 🤔 do you have a favorite color or aesthetic?

[gerrydelano]

I just read your posts on femme daisy and butch Georgie and I really feel like I understand these identities in a way I wasn’t able to before! It’s also made me start questioning things because the way you described femme just... really resonated with me but that’s clashing against the part of me feels intensely misgendered by it. Idk you’ve just given me some things to think about!

EDIT: femme daisy is Very Bad and i seriously regret using her as a medium to express my Feelings about the femme identity. i’m leaving this ask up just because it talks about femme being gnc, but i want to clarify that daisy was the wrong way to communicate anything about it and i’m sorry.

ahhh shit, i’m so glad!!!! i love talking about this topic, like. it’s something that can always make me feel so much better when i’m lost, or down, or upset, or estranged. i could wax poetic for hours. i have waxed poetic for hours. i will do so again, i’m sure.

i do wanna let you know quick that femme is just as inherently gnc as butch!!!! i do 100% understand the feeling that it’s super polar like that but i can also promise you that i know all sorts of femmes who’ve taken steps towards transition, who use he/him pronouns, who don’t identify as women, etc. i have plenty to say about it, and i know others who do too, so if you’re ever curious and wanna DM me or something i’d be happy to chat history and culture with you! could toss you some blog recs. not to push you in any one direction but just, to reassure you a little if that’s the primary thing stopping you from exploring it. i think it’s worth exploring either way, even for people who aren’t feeling like they connect with either identity. it’s just worth learning about in general!

ANYWAY i will shut up now, but! i’m happy that it resonates with you in general, it’s always such a nice feeling :’) to know that it gets gears turning in any capacity, y’know? makes me happy 😊

[guqin-and-flute]

please tell me everything about yanxiyao. i am invested. nay, i am obsessed. an ot3 made up entirely of people who Deserved Better and they are GETTING IT. i don’t care if it’s deep, agonizing 3AM thoughts that make me question how i think about life and love and the mortifying ordeal of being known or if it’s pointless fluffbits scrounged up from your daydreams. GIVE THEM TO ME

AHA, this delighted me, I’m so glad!! [rubs hands] Okay, you have unlocked the avalanche, stream of consciousness, here we go. Boy howdy this got long, so full rambling under the cut. 

So I’ve already outlined how it starts with JGY, but you’ve probably seen that and I’m probably going to actually write a getting together fic at some point if the scenes start falling out of the sky into my head, so I’ll skip past that for the time being and start with the beginning of the triad. It begins in a most definite V with JGY as the hinge--Xichen and Yanli are very careful and considerate about each other’s time with him and try very hard not to overlap. Most things are separate--sex times, dates, meals (unless it’s everyone [siblings, et. al] eating together), sleepovers. 

However, something happens. Perhaps JGY starts asking to spend a day with both of them, perhaps the greeting conversations when Xichen visits grow longer and warmer and bleed into sitting together over tea, laughing, and forgetting the days plans. Perhaps the way Xichen delights in holding their daughter and playing so very patiently with her begins to completely charm Yanli.

Perhaps it’s when Yanli and JGY leave the toddler with Wen Qing and Jiang Cheng to go for a nice leisurely trip together to Gusu but the weather turns and they have to stay in an inn in the middle of nowhere overnight and Yanli’s health takes a sharp dive all of a sudden and JGY sends a Jin butterfly to tell Xichen the situation and that they’re going to be late. And it’s only after he’s sent it that it comes to his attention that this rinky-dink village’s doctor actually lives in the next city over and is out of town for his daughter’s wedding or something idiotic and won’t be back for days--he has learned this after a slog through the rain to said doctor’s empty house in said next-city-over and then returned to demand of the innkeeper what exactly he’s playing at, sending him out like that when he knew the doctor wasn’t there. And he’s in the process of not strangling the innkeeper when the door bursts open and it’s Xichen, completely waterlogged and anxious and JGY is appalled that he’s just flown through a thunderstorm but secretly very, very relieved he is here. 

And so they go upstairs and Yanli is incredibly happy to see both of them, especially since her fever has gotten worse and she is freezing. She wants snuggles and JGY reasons that they should both get in on it, because more body heat, y’know (he’s only trying to help, there are limited options, here) but he and Xichen both are completely soaked from traveling in the rain and they hesitate. Yanli is very much, ‘Oh noooo, the 2 hot men who need to snuggle me are covered in wet cloooothes?? Whatever shall we doooo?’ And the both of them are very seriously trying to tell her that Xichen will need to take off his robes if they’re going to be in bed together and is she okay with that and she’s like, ‘WhaAaaAaat? 😲 Holy cow, I guess I’ll suffer through :3c’ And they laugh and snuggle and sleep and the next few days is them taking care of her while she apologizes for getting sick and ruining the trip while they maintain that this is very nice, actually, minus her feeling terrible. They don’t actually visit Gusu and just end up spending time together in the inn while she recovers.

So, after that, Yanli and Xichen’s relationship becomes a lot more physically affectionate--they hug when they see each other, they kiss each other on the cheek, Yanli and JGY both snuggle up to his sides when they sit alone on the pavilion with the curtains drawn. The both of them have talked separately with JGY about whether this is okay, whether they’re overstepping any boundaries, and his response was basically an incredulous, ‘Are you joking? This is the best thing that’s ever happened to me.’ And so the 3 of them spend more and more time together, and maybe there’s a night where they’re all in Xichen’s guest room at Lotus Pier, maybe having a few drinks, and they get onto the subject of how good of a kisser their A-Yao is and he protests saying that they’re biased because they haven’t kissed anyone else, so how could they know. And Xichen flushes and grins, “Aren’t you sly?” and JGY blinks innocently and says, “I don’t know what on earth you could mean 😇!” and Yanli is biting back a laugh and also a little pink but tilts her chin up invitingly and they do kiss and it’s lovely and JGY realizes exactly how much he enjoys that. And from then on, the Xichen’s guest room is more of a formality/decoy than anything else and their suite just so happens to get updated with a bigger bed because, y’know, reasons.

✨Vibes✨:

-WangXian matchmaking happens in earnest when YanXiYao first start their arrangement because now JGY has a concrete reason to find more excuses for more frequent visits from the Twin Jades

-Something about the 2 of them together makes it so that JGY can break down more easily--when it’s just Yanli, he still feels very protective and it’s hard to show his anger. When it’s just Xichen, he doesn’t want to cause him pain, and it’s hard to show when he’s hurting and despairing. When the three are together he is able to let them hold him more easily instead of withdrawing and isolating himself, and it frustrates him, but is also very good for him. 

-Xichen and Yanli have a very intense and deep affection for each other that rides the fuzzy line of romantic and alterous; they enjoy cuddling, kissing, they definitely aren’t averse to having sex with each other but it usually happens when JGY is involved in some way, whether everyone participates or it’s a voyeuristic situation in whatever capacity (though this may be impacted by the fact that he doesn’t live with them and most days, Yanli is pleasantly lukewarm about sexual activity in general, so who’s to say it wouldn’t happen naturally, in time?) 

-Xichen and Yanli have a relationship that has grown beyond just what they have with JGY and have a wonderful time talking together, giving each other gifts, and exchanging letters. There is a shared exasperation for JGY’s treatment of his health and often look to each other as back up (JGY is annoyed. They simply smile.) They don’t feel the need to really categorize their relationship besides the fact that they love each other, consider the other their best friend, are deeply fond of one another, and plan to all stay as they are for the rest of their lives. (Maybe, eventually, this will lead to a secret marriage ceremony, just for the 3 of them).

-It was after the inn/fever incident that she insisted Xichen call her A-Li

-All 3 have a devious streak and it makes for some very sweet 2 ganging up on 1 and showering them with kisses and affection.

-JGY and Yanli write him joint letters as well as individual ones of their own 

-JGY and Yanli view Xichen as an equal status, commuter sort of parent and ask for his opinions and advice on parenting things. Xichen loves the kids like his own and gets to essentially have a kid without the complicated feelings of them being his heir and going through the Lan’s strict practices and corporal punishment. He takes them at Cloud Recesses for a few weeks every year.

-Each of the men have their own guilt attacks, now and again, Xichen about his involvement being selfish (Heirs! Propriety! His uncle!) and JGY over wanting too much (Infidelity! Reputation! A-Li!), and Yanli--who has done enough soul searching and has very comfortably decided that, no, she is quite fine being happy--calmly sits them down, gives them tea, kisses their foreheads, and makes them hold hands with her as they watch their kids play.