#ahhh i can't help but write an essay

[libratxt]

it’s that time of year again… 🎄🎅🎉🎊 no. the highlights of your 2023 media consumption of course! just like last year, i want to know your top 5 films, books, tv shows, songs/albums, pop culture moments if that’s your thing, and as a bonus: any favourite personal moment/achievement in the last year? new to you, new in release, either works! can’t wait to see your response and wishing you a happy new year! 😁🩷

yay!! i was so excited to receive this in my inbox again this year 💖 overall i feel like i consumed less media than last year? but here's a roundup of some of my favorite things this year:

movies

so most of the movies i really really enjoyed this year didn't actually come out this year lol but i really enjoyed:

skinamarink - i love horror and while this one might be too much of a slowburn for people, it really filled me with dread so yay!

birdman (or the unexpected virtue of ignorance) - i'd been meaning to get around to this one for a while and finally did! totally worth it. the writing and acting: immaculate!

stop making sense - one thing about me is i will enjoy a music doc. the energy in this is so so wonderful. i love david byrne, i love talking heads. left the theatre in a great mood

saltburn - a controversial pick probably. but i had fun! don't really care for the criticisms that it fails at being class critique. it's about being a little pathetic freak and wanting to crawl into someone else's skin for me.

crash (the cronenberg one) - another one i'd been meaning to get around to for a while. i've seen most of cronenberg's stuff and i deeply deeply enjoyed this one. it's about sex, it's about violence, it's about desire, it's about all the weird things the human body can do. i love cronenberg and this one was perfect to me. mwah!

music

crash (charli xcx) - i know, i'm a little late. i listened to this religiously this year. having seen cronenberg's crash this year also added a little extra flavor. obsessed. love it. several songs are on my spotify on repeat as we speak.

this is why (paramore) - ahh so much fun! i love paramore, love getting a new paramore album. the remix album is great too. i also got to see them this year and had a blast! paramore was the first concert i ever went to so getting to see them again is full circle for meee.

desire, i want to turn into you (caroline polachek) - fun!! i do prefer pang but i had fun!

skylight (pinegrove) - sleepy, twangy indie album. i enjoyed! it was soothing this year.

joy as an act of resistance (idles) - the opposite of a sleepy, twangy album! i'm hoping to catch idles in the new year since they're stopping in town :)

tv

not a great tv year for me tbh

succession - succession my beloved! banger of a final season. it will go down in the annals of my favorite tv shows for the rest of all time. kendall roy you will always be famous.

adventure time - revisiting adventure time for the first time in forever. it's fun, it's sweet, i have a soft spot for it. i'm on its final season but have yet to finished because i'm emotionally attached at this point.

video games

baldur's gate - all i've done with my time lately is play baldur's gate. eat, sleep, breathe baldur's gate. i have not touched my sims in months because i have no space but for baldur's gate on my computer. finally got a ps5 and immediately got baldur's gate so that i can finally play it properly because my mac can only barely run it!!! i'm emotionally attached to my little tiefling cleric. i am already fantasizing about my next playthrough.

top me moment!

lol as for personal successes this year: i got a fellowship with a really well-recognized poetry organization in my city that i have so much love for and that truly does so much good work for our community. i have been slowly working my way through the ranks. i started as a mentee last year, taught some poetry classes for them, and this year helped run their month-long festival, and am now working directly with them to help plan their month-long festival for next year. it feels so aligned with the kind of career i'd like to have in my life. next goal is to hopefully lock-in some kind of permanent position with them once my fellowship is over. hopefully i will have good news about that in next years wrap up! thanks again for asking this, i truly get a kick out of it!!

[fruitsyrups]

Random yes but thank u for making that frusan art awhile ago it's adorable and i love seeing more art of this underappreciated ship :D!!!

ahhh thank you!!! frusan is so underrated FOR REAL, i guess it's probably because after Islands they all but disappeared (like i think they were only shown twice after that and that's including in Fionna & Cake (which i actually missed when i watched it bc its such a brief glimpse)) but like. still. I actually have a little idea for another frusan drawing (frieda and susan talking on a roof grown-up edition) but I have to break up the dialogue into parts & think of more Susan Reactions so it's not just Frieda monologuing at her lol

[beloved-child-of-the-house]

i stand with you in the face of a defensive misunderstanding of what critique is.

i think understanding what a critique actually is is a skill that increasingly is not taught. i remember going through freshman art courses feeling the frustration that all negative, nasty, unhelpful, and missed-the-point-entirely feedback is so commonly conflated with critique, and then critique gets a bad name because everyone remembers the time someone said their painting looked like an asshole (true story, altho now i think i would take it as a compliment) instead of the time a teacher or friend or classmate helped them uncover a hurtful bias or think of new ways to explore the same idea or how to connect it to related ideas or how to look up and understand other people's ideas on the same topic.

anyway i think you're great.

ahhh you're so kind to me!! i appreciate your support, and i think you are great also.

i have experience with giving and receiving critique as a student myself, and i think it was the best part of my degree! i majored in creative writing in college, and critique was just a generally accepted part of learning to become a writer. i don't even remember people being especially worried about receiving critique on their work. we had guidance on what kind of feedback was useful, but we were still at liberty to give it as we saw fit as like messy 19 year olds. the standard was that we gave it both written on printed copies of the work AND aloud in front of the whole class, and the writer receiving it was not permitted to speak during the critique. understanding how people are perceiving your work is important!

i don't have any particularly negative recollections of the critique process, although once in a high school writing class, the boys in the class told me that my male characters touched each other too gently and real boys are more rough with each other. in particular, they took issue with me writing that one boy nudged another. nudging is too soft. nudging is for girls. that was more than 20 years ago, and i still think about it sometimes because it was such an interesting perspective! i did not take their advice, though.

i should dig up that piece and see if it reads queer in any other ways. i think that's what they were getting at. (actually i once had a non-fiction class tell me i was in love with my roommate after reading an essay i wrote about her)(i did not listen to that advice either, but having 12 acquaintances tell you that you're gay in 2006 before you realize it yourself is Truly Something!)

i think people have conflated criticism and critique and think that being more openly analytical is the same thing as being negative. but analysis is so fun to me! analysis is why i joined fandom in the first place, and it's why i write fic! can we trust each other to be respectful and to speak in good faith even when we're not singing each other's praises? for me fandom would be better if we could.

oh i also want to clarify that i don't think it's impossible to demonstrate that you've thought deeply about a piece of fanwork while remaining completely positive. people do it all the time and do it very well!

i know i sometimes have tunnel vision wrt my own perspective. in a lot of situations, i wish it were more acceptable to be more direct, and i know people sometimes find the way i express myself to be kind of shocking. i know a lot of people like to be spoken to more indirectly than comes natural to me, and i don't mean to imply that my perspective is the only correct one or that there's no good reason to err on the side of gentleness/politeness in our responses to amateur art and writing. i just think that at a certain level of circumspection, it feels like we're all holding each other at arm's length.

i think for people who can't bear to feel exposed, making and sharing art is always going to be painful and difficult, and maybe too painful and difficult to enjoy the process unless they're sure of a soft landing. but like. the rewards of being loved only come after the mortifying ordeal of being known, right?

[hobidreams]

Raaaaaaaaiiin!!! I need to tell you something!!

For context, I got a job as a elementary school English teacher, I do have an English certificate but it's 10 years old soooon it's definitely outdated 🫣. The school where I work offered a course to prepare for a certification for those teachers who don't have one, so now I'm preparing for a First Certificate in English by Cambridge.

The thing issss, I want to kms when it comes to writings, I cannot write, and they are making us do like a lot of essays, and I don't know how I remember when I told you that I needed your brain (or something like that) because I can't do it, and then you answer that something that helped you was to put your ideas in order from the start to where you want to end, I did that and I got a 20/20 🤩🥹

I'm no where near ready for the writing part but at least now I know how to do it!!!

Hope you're having a good day and everything!!

Biggggg hugsssssss 🧡🥰

NUGGEETTTTTT 💓💓💓 hows your job going?? elementary school seems so hard to teach so i admire you so much for doing it 🥺 what grades do you teach??

omg IM SO PROUD OF YOU AND THAT I COULD HELP ???? PLS I CANT BELIEVE U REMEMBER THAT 😭😭😭😭 thank you so much for giving me this little boost of sunshine omg im so glad that i could assist you 20/20!!!! AHHH!! you got this. i like to write in little chunks i hate writing more than 500w a day so i usually just try to do 250 a day and it eventually gets done LOL

all my love to u babe <3 <3 <3

[spookyserenades]

Soooo I'm back and i wrote an essay:

Chapter 10

I love the Scooby Doo gang a lot. How Namjoon is eager to learn and help. Also the fact that it brings them together without too many fights 😂

The brewery scene was hot and unexpected. I'm saying unexpected because i kinda hoped she'd go over to the waiter and everyone will be Uhm Ma'am sit yo ass down. But i liked it nonetheless with killer teddy bear being all mrrr. Also, Hobi and miss gorl Alice i see you and you need to either get to it and make us super jealous or nothing at all😭

The surprises for Namjoon and Jimin were so sweet they warmed my heart. The lengths she'll go for them is unimaginable. Like she could've just been like yep there you go a house and food do your thing, but no, she has a big heart.

Now the 3 events. Liked Hobi's, but I'm a lot more inclined towards Yoongi's and Tae's. The fact that be only has eyes for her my love🥹 I want one pls! And then Tae's i get on another level. As an artist myself, i tend to paint people i love a lot, to get the appreciation back is absolutely ecstatic. Also very touchy touchy sir i see you too👀

And then the cliffhanger, bad Dana. Very bad.

Chapter 11

I need to know how the fight went down between them 3. Like air, Dana, I'm telling you! Poor Hobi, he probably thought he's getting kicked out 🥺

Kookie kookie kookie, you are more smitten than we thought you were. Hiding it under the I needed to scent, oh Jin will be a pain. Shut up you lil bastard 😏

And the scenting? I was so giddy...give us more pretty please ☺️

WE HAVE MORE HORSES! Are we also getting a y/n ride scene? It doesn't have to be a horse tho 👀

OMG good job Hannah! Oh i'm happy she is getting a better life. Can't wait to meet her. 🤭🫢😧😐😒Scrap that! Hannah is competition.

Oop jumpscare! Yoongi baby you are wearing JK's personality and that doesn't suit you.

Oh babies🥺🥺🥺

Oh what? Question mark? The bar is...what? Very cryptic. Ok.. Yoongi you locked the door you didn't make the room soundproof. Did they talk about sharing her between themselves? Cuz I'd like to read that as well 😏

Ooop like a sack of potatoes. Uuuuu, are we ever honna see y/n extra super drunk like at that bar?

NOOOO FUCK! YOU ARE SO EVIL WOMAN WHYYYYY?😭😭😭😭

Hiii love nice to hear from you again!! Hope you're well, I can't wait to discuss your thoughts about the last two chapters with you! 💞💞

Chapter Ten -

fdsjfdsjf the Scooby Doo gang I love that!!! MC, Joonie, and Jeongguk make quite the little paranormal investigation squad, I'm definitely looking forward to writing some more adventures the trio will go on with their ghostbusting interests. AHH and the brewery scene was so fun, they hybrids getting to go out and have a good time with MC and Alice was really exciting for me to write. I did play with the idea of MC flirting with the waiter as well, but in the end I wanted to display some of Taehyung's growing possessiveness. Besides-- MC definitely has her hands full with the seven of them! As for Hoseok and Alice *evil laughter* 💀 there are some plot lines that I have planned surrounding those two... we're just going to have to wait and see how it pans out (and how MC will react to it!!!)

MC is just ahhh I want her to adopt me fhdksf like her gift giving skills are unmatched. She really wants all of the hybrids to feel at home and like they have their own belongings, spaces, etc. that make their lives more happy and comfortable. She really really cares for them all 🥺

Hehehe the three events~ for Hoseok's track meet, it was a sort of supportive bestie vibe, whereas Yoongi's and Tae's had a bit more of a romantic feel to them. Tae.. my goodness he probably sees MC as his muse or something, because she's the one who encouraged her to participating in the photography club in the first place. I hope he continues to take pics of her and make friends in the club, as well. He's such a sweet boy, he definitely could use some buddies.

rjGFJDGHD BAD DANA!! I can't help myself with the cliffhangers hehe I'm sorry love!!! 🤭

Chapter Eleven -

So the little spat between Hoseok and Jeongguk... We've seen Hoseok's sort of jokester personality, and I really think he wasn't trying to start anything, but with Jeongguk already on edge needing to scent her again, things got a little heated between those two. Joon, not wanting to upset MC like he had during The Incident (with Tae), played the part of peacemaker, which I think shows how willing he is to change and grow for MC. I think you're right, Hoseok was probably entertaining the idea that MC would be angry enough at him to "kick him out", but MC would never. 😭

AHH and Jeongguk. What a tease!!! I definitely think that he is starting to grow more fond of MC, even though he is a bit reluctant to show it. For some reason, too, he seems to sense how fond Seokjin is of MC, so often brings up his own concern for MC and covers it up by blaming Seokjin hehe....

I do plan on having some horseback riding scenes!! Of course, with our cowboy Jimin, maybe we'll get to see him teach MC how to ride also I see what you did there wink wonk ;)

Hannah!! Good news for her, good news for Seokjin, but MC is already feeling a little jealous. I wonder how things will go down when MC takes Seokjin to meet up with Hannah...

Yoongi being a little impatient and brisk with MC made me upset, too, especially since he's always been one of the softer ones with her. That's probably why MC could sense something was wrong. As for them talking about sharing her, that's certainly a drabble idea, but also, I'm toying with the idea of having it sort of an unspoken agreement between all of the hybrids... we'll see how I decide in the future!!!

SO! When I finally get around to all of the prequels, I plan on having that scene with MC at the bar with Yoongi. Something to look forward to in the future-- his prequel, Fire, Walk with Me. ❤️‍🔥

fjkdszkjfzsjd SORRY FOR BEING EVIL!!! But also thank you for sending me all of your lovely thoughts. Sending you hugs, bestie!! 😘

[saturnskyline]

the unhinged ted talk is what i am here for! ♥ i think the camaraderie that they have is nicely summed up in ep13 by vegas saying that they "both were blinded by adults", that vegas in this was no different from porsche, they are pawns in someone else's bigger game. they can't trust each other, not like friends or family would, but they both don't trust the main family (korn), and they both don't like that they are being played with. and they both have something the other wants. and honestly, after vegas sees pete, says sorry for the last time (because vegas, i think, is pretty sure he might die, he might not, but he might, so he has to say sorry before he dies), he could just not help porsche the next day and not give a fuck about porsche's uncle or mom. but he does, and even if one could argue that vegas does it in hopes of porsche joining his side, does he really? he doesn't do the usual tactics of trying to convince porsche to join him, he doesn't do any real manipulation, just a 'porsche, be careful, good luck with whatever you choose'.

i could write essays about post-canon them, because, yikes, vegas, if porsche finds out you sent men to kidnap porschay from hum bar? chay? that could have and would have been hurt if kim didn't kill those guys? ufffff. and then vegas seeing porsche with his father's ring, the same ring that bruised his cheek so many times now on kinn's boyfriends hand? and YES yes yes vegas probably learns how amazing it is to not have to compete with kinn and be "the second" (he is first to pete and to macau which all that matters), and just be vegas, instead of 'vegas of the minor family'. but also, i keep thinking about minor family's compound and how vegas walked through it, and you could tell his people respect and love him, he felt so appreciated there, the small bows and 'khun vegas' they gave him. these were people that saw him, that feared him, admired him, people that worked for minor family, were loyal to them, and porsche is taking all of that from vegas. (except in my head he doesn't really, porsche is so over his head, and he needs vegas's help, and korn might have planned to put porsche as minor family's head to end the rivalry (but does he really? he is the one who thinks competition is good? so why end it?), and move vegas off from his chess board, but porsche is a rebel, he picks vegas and asks vegas for help because who else would know things better than vegas. porsche doesn't trust vegas further than he can throw him, he knows how vegas feels about being second in the second family, but porsche also knows that he needs vegas to secure his hold, and he knows that vegas needs to feel useful and needed (another headcanon, when vegas says "i have nothing left", he doesn't discount macau or pete, it just means "i have nothing to give to you, pete, why are you here still when i am useless"), and porsche can give vegas that while vegas figures out his life with pete and how pete does not need anything else from vegas but vegas himself).

and you know, maybe they will never be best of buddies, but i can totally see post-canon vegas who loses everything but gets to have pete, and post-canon porsche who in a way, also lost everything (his dream of opening a bar, keeping chay safe, escaping mafia life at some point) and gets to have kinn, realizing that they are in some ways two sides of the same coin, and hey, if you murder enough people on adrenaline rush missions together, and you race each other on expensive ducatis for fun, you sort of kind of can call them a friend? maybe?

(honestly, i am just weak, i want everyone to be happy, so please vegas manipulate me into believing you can actually care about people other than your new family.) oh, shit, i just realized how long this is, i am gonna send this non-anon way, so you don't need to answer on your blog if it's too much. :D

thanks for indulging my brain worms! x

ahhh yay, so happy to have another ted talk contributor!!! no worries about the lengthiness either; the more words the better i think 😊

no you hit the nail on the head with this!! i think the main reason i'm so obsessed with the vegasporsche dynamic is that trust is something neither of them can really afford. porsche even says as much: "i don't trust you. i can't trust anyone. even the main family, i don't trust any of them." that last part is really the key here, since the thing that goes unspoken is "i can't afford to trust kinn right now". and oh boy, that is a WILD thing to admit to the guy who has spent his entire life in competition with your boyfriend lol

still, that isn't even the part that really gets me. no, the thing that really gets me is exactly what you pointed out: the lack of manipulation on vegas' part. dude had the information to do SO MUCH DAMAGE.. but he didn't. he didn't even gloat over the fact that he's the only one porsche can turn to (one-upping kinn btw!); he just went "well, i wondered what kinn couldn't help you with, and now i know". and then there's "i'm glad that you thought of me" .... well. *adjusts clown wig* i think that that was completely genuine, in the same way that most of the motorcycle scene seems genuine. call me crazy, and i know the fandom talks both sides all the time, but EYE personally think that vegas has a real fondness towards porsche. whether it's due to his sheer honesty and naïveté, or whether it's just "oh he's so easy to exploit uwu", that's up for interpretation. but that's my opinion there :D

there's also the fact that in this conversation (bc clearly i have many thoughts on this scene), vegas doesn't try to talk porsche away from kinn's side; in fact, he essentially does the opposite! porsche asks if he knows anything about his parents, and vegas' response is: "i know nothing. and i don't think kinn knows about it too", followed up with the line about being "blinded by the adults". so basically HE'S GIVING KINN THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT. he's talking about the fact that he and porsche are both pawns in this game, but kinn is also brought up directly in that context. "he probably didn't know either, since he's not really in charge." and thinking about this from a typical vegas manipulation point of view, wouldn't it be better to let porsche doubt kinn? wouldn't he be a perfect tool at this point, turning to you while incredibly vulnerable, admitting he can't trust the main family? why didn't vegas take advantage of that?? we don't have clear answers anywhere, but i guess that just adds to the ✨ flavor ✨

"vegas seeing porsche with his father's ring, the same ring that bruised his cheek so many times now on kinn's boyfriend's hand" NOW WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS 😭😭 *patrick bateman voice* did you know i'm utterly insane?? ahem but anyway. yes. ring symbolism my beloathed 💔 post-canon vegasporsche is the biggest mess ever bc absolutely, vegas is gonna feel some type of way about losing what was rightfully his. and oh, i LOVE that you brought up the scene at the minor family compound! the duration feels like such an intentional choice, since it lasts just long enough to make sure we take note of how powerful vegas is in this space. he is feared and/or loved (machiavelli in the chat?); people see him and immediately pay their respect. and now porsche, unqualified porsche of all people, is in charge of it all. i do like to think that vegas comes to terms with that eventually, and is softened by the love of his family and the search for a new purpose. but i absolutely agree, i think that he isn't out of the game at all, not really, so long as porsche needs his help and korn is alive. pro: he gets to work in his area of expertise! con: he isn't fully removed from the "vegas from the minor family" label that he clearly resents. hmm. many jumbled thoughts on this

glad that you brought up vegas sending his men to kidnap/possibly hurt chay.... i really do forget about that aspect of things 🥲 along with the fact that he drugged him and maybe would have assaulted him given the chance? insert further fandom discourse here, tried to kill him multiple times, and used him to get to kinn way more times than that. so yeah, a complicated history, to say the least. but you know what they say: the best friendships are forged by unresolved conflict and emotional baggage! (okay maybe they don't say that. but i just really want these two to be friends for some reason idk)

oh wowww, i love the idea of them being opposite sides of the same coin! absolutely fascinating stuff there. reminds me of when vegas tells porsche "we're not so different on the same team now, you and i". plus i'm absolutely down for some murder/motorcycle racing!! quality bonding time for sure 🥰🥰

weirdly, even after all this, i feel like there's so much left to say bahaha. i guess that's an invitation (to all) to drop by and share vegasporsche brainrot anytime! i will probably write a whole nonsensical book about it though, so be warned hehe

[misc-obeyme]

I'm only asking about Arsenios for now 👀

General 03 When is their birthday? Do they celebrate it? Do they even remember it in the first place?

General 10 What was there initial reaction to Diavolo's plans of uniting the three realms? Has their opinion changed?

Relationship & Personality 14 What is their biggest regret?

Demon 03 Do they have any special abilities? (fyi you could write a 50 page essay about his powers and I'd happily read it because his powers are just so cool <3)

Yesss I could talk about this guy all day every day and never grow tired of it. It makes me feel silly but I love him lol. Thank you for asking about him!

General 03 When is their birthday? Do they celebrate it? Do they even remember it in the first place?

His birthday is 3/4 which is also a musical time signature because I'm a dork like that. (Er well that's March 4th here in the US, I know dates are written differently in different countries lol.) Yes, my boy is a Pisces. He doesn't celebrate his birthday at all because he doesn't think it's important. He's the kind of demon who won't tell people when it is because he'll just be like who cares? He does remember it just because he doesn't forget stuff like that, but he's not keeping track of it, either. I don't think he knows his exact age anymore.

General 10 What was there initial reaction to Diavolo's plans of uniting the three realms? Has their opinion changed?

Skeptical. Arsenios spent a lot of time in the human world previously and generally thinks the worlds are incompatible. He has no problem with humans. He thinks there are good and bad humans the same way there are good and bad demons. But he thinks the lifespan and power level situation makes things tricky. He's also highly suspicious of sorcerers and it seems to him that they're the only ones the Devildom would really be dealing with. Since it seems like regular humans don't even know the Devildom exists.

As for the Celestial Realm, he sees that as some mystical and magical place that's so removed from him in every sense he just can't imagine ever even talking to angels let alone befriending them.

I think his opinion does change after a while. He sees that it's slow going, but that progress is being made. And he's like hey whatever if this is what Diavolo wants to do, he's okay with that.

Relationship & Personality 14 What is their biggest regret?

If you asked him, he'd say he has no regrets because he likes to think he's learned something from everything that he's done. But what he says and how he feels are often two different things. And as his creator, I can tell you what it is lol. He was seriously injured and alone and while I don't think he would have died, the results would have been devastating for him. But someone found him and helped him. His regret is never finding his savior, never knowing who it was that helped him when he was at his lowest.

Demon 03 Do they have any special abilities?

Ahhh Melody you're too nice! I feel like I'm already writing massive paragraphs, but it'd be so easy to write 50 pages about it I think lol.

Anyway, yes, so Arrie's whole thing is obviously music. And his power kind of manifests in multiple different ways. The most prominent and probably most useful is his ability to use his songs to do magic. For example, he can use a song to influence someone. It's less mind control and more subliminal suggestion. This is something he can do quite easily and naturally. It's innate and he just does it by thinking about it deliberately. He can get people to do things, but it's a lot harder to make someone do things, especially if they don't want to do it. He's a lot better at more subtle things like a song that suggests someone's body needs to relax or that someone should consider falling asleep. However, he can also create entire spells with his songs if he wants to. He just doesn't normally bother to do this because it's a lot of work. It has to do with creating specific notes and using specific keys and chords. Kind of like instead of writing an incantation for a spell, he's writing a song for one. But it has to be very deliberate and most of the time he's like whatever there are already spells someone else created why would I make my own?

Another thing about his power is that he has this sort of ongoing song that's just part of his soul. It's not something most people can hear. If he's upset or hurt, though, it becomes loud and just sort of permeates whatever space he's in. Then people can hear it and it's always really harsh and almost painful to listen to.

He also has the ability to hear other people's natural songs. It isn't quite the same as his, which sounds more like someone playing an instrument of some kind. It's more like all the little sounds that make up a living being - heartbeat, footsteps, breathing, their voice, etc.

And just a lot of other little things like having perfect pitch and being able to play every instrument (though he still has to practice, it's just he picks it up quickly). Naturally good singing voice, that kind of thing.

Ahh well I still wrote a TON about it lol. But once I get started, it's hard to stop! I guess that's why his story ended up so crazy and long 😭

Anyway, thank you for asking, it is so fun to answer questions about him! 💕

MC & OC Ask Game

[perfectly-clear-from-here]

okay, what do i associate with you? SO much oh my goodness. the spark of late night writing inspiration, lit up windows, leopard print, parentheses, hunter s thompson, the still inky waters of a lake, crimson and clover, the word ‘pure’ in your unique way of using it, debbie harry, the feeling of being intrinsically understood, vivid pink summertime sunsets, the entirety of colour of the trap, rainstorms (related: plastic rain ponchos), block capitals, the joy and freedom of creativity 💜 (i could go on because there are so many more, but i think i’ll stop there before i write a whole essay)

oh, and these emojis: 🚌 ⛵️🧵🥫🥺💖

I LITERALLY CANT STOP SMILING OH MY CHRIST- yeah no i genuinely can't get my face back to normal.

you know me far too well it's a bit insane actually 🩷 I'm a wee bit lost for words this is unbelievably sweet ahhhhh-

lit up windows specifically hit me directly in the heart oh my goodness- AND AHHH I will NEVER forget how bloody difficult those plastic rain ponchos were to get on at am 😭

seriously though this has pure (NOT INTENTONAL HELP) got me in bits and most definitely made my whole week 🩷

[landinrris]

(Prefacing this by saying, hi it's me, Jess, commenting here on anon because that's how I roll on AO3 and I'm still sworn off Discord for the time being) but I just finished your fic "Double Exposure" and I loved it start to finish. It was the ONLY thing I was reading while on hiatus from social media to work on my own writing and I loved it so, so much.

I mean, the whole thing was great. (No spoilers) but, like -

The car scene? Amazing.

The drama? Best way to do that style - like fully understandable, it's so easy to do that kind of conflict wrong but you absolutely nailed it. Lando acknowledging he was maybe immature about it, and Carlos acknowledging he definitely didn't help matters? A+ handling.

The ENDING? FANTASTIC.

Thank you for writing and sharing ❤️ and now I must away to read more of your stuff while I desperately try to edit my own.

ahhh hi Jess! Oh I'm so glad you enjoyed it ❤️ I think I blacked out writing the car scene or something, especially since it was the first part I wrote. Possessed by the demon that decided Lando was going to be unbearably horny the entire time 😂

But for real, I'm also glad you think the drama aspect read nicely without seeming too contrived. There's nothing that irks me more than reading something like that and the characters just Therapy Speak at each other because most people don't do that normally. You get people jumping to conclusions and talking themselves into holes and lashing out a bit that causes a step backward before they're eventually willing to hear one another out. And then balancing that reconciliation without each of them immediately folding like a house of cards and negating what made them feel that way in the first place.

And then the ending, ugh. Given the content of the fic and who the protagonists are, I'm sure it was somewhat expected, but I'm glad you still really enjoyed it.

Apologies for the essay you didn't ask for, but it just makes me really happy to hear what people think. The past few things I've done all took really long compared to this, and writing it so quickly warps your perceptions negatively in some ways about details, so things like this are always incredibly heartwarming and reassuring 🥰❤️

I wish you so much luck on your own works and can't wait to read them!!!

[luckydragon10]

So I've come to spam your inbox in my usual Dom fashion with my love for your new fic 🥰

First let me start of with - I'm sorry I'm a bit late to the party 🥺

And now we can get on with - THIS WAS SO WORTH THE WAIT NEMI, I AM SO JUST AHHH AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER

The way you wrote Tay after the breakup? The slow realization that he made Time such a big part of his life, of himself that he doesn't know how to distangle them without losing the created version of himself, I- yes, I needed that, the advice bit was also just so, so very needed,

The we should keep him from Porsche send me screaming, Kinn's love language of action showing through in this fic was majestic, from the alcohol, the movers, everything.

Tay basically describing Porsche as irresistible force one can't say no to every chance he gets? Baby you're in for a RIDE

The relationship between Care and Tay is just my favorite so far, something about siblings always just has me in a chokehold, it may be because I'm an older sister myself but gosh do I love this

ALSO TAY DYING HIS HAIR LIKE HELL YEAH BABY, YOU GO DO THAT, it's also very amusing to me that it's purple tips, because recently i dyed my whole hair purple so me and Tay are now besties in purple lmao

OH AND WHILE I REMEMBER THE BIT WHERE YOU DESCRIBE HOW WHEN KINN SAYS "I" HE MEANS "WE" i am on the floor, crying

Also I have the softest of feelings about KinnTay because it's just the "there is not a person on this planet that has seen me at every part of my life and loved me but you" and I'm very much, very soft about this and will be crying about them forever

Porsche was a treasure as always and I just love him very much, and him drawing a dick on the wall is very in character for him and I love that

Anyway yeah, I'm done talking because soon I will write you an essay here lmao

So I very much enjoyed the first chapter, already can't wait for the next,

Lots of love,

Have a good day/night Nemi 💕

*gets blown away with Dom love* *insert gif of a dragon getting knocked over*

NEVER TOO LATE, Dom, never too late! 💖🥰

Aahh, I feel like I was teasing so long, so I'm really glad I didn't let you down.

Oooh, the ADVICE BIT! Oof, I had such feelings about that. I just feel like Kinn would have been in such a bad place at that time after Tawan. Tay and Time both (but Tay especially) would have wanted to help but just been utterly helpless because Kinn was in such a bad way. So, I really enjoyed Tay reflecting on that and then getting to say what he wished he'd been able to say at that time. 😭

Tay basically describing Porsche as irresistible force one can't say no to every chance he gets? Baby you're in for a RIDE

That bit was included for maximum irony. LOL

NGL, I like Care a lot. I try not to rely too heavily on original characters in fic, but I enjoyed writing her and having her staunchly in Tay's corner.

AND YES! DYING HAIR! It's the quintessential "must change myself outside to reflect internal changes" trope, but it's a trope for a reason.

OH AND WHILE I REMEMBER THE BIT WHERE YOU DESCRIBE HOW WHEN KINN SAYS "I" HE MEANS "WE" i am on the floor, crying

Do you have room on the floor next to you? Can I cry with you?

Look, I'm just gonna warn you, there MIGHT be more KinnTay feelings ahead? MAYBE? ,,,Definitely.

And about the dick on the wall, MAYBE, just maybe Porsche knew a bit about Time's shenanigans (not everything, mind you), but Porsche might have his own grudge he's been holding onto not just for Tay but for another T-named person he knows.

o.o Essays are acceptable. 🤣

Dom! This is such a gift, thank you!

[vicsdeangelis]

I'm in love with polly relationships, especially with Vic and ethan so lemme tell u my thoughts lol

morning forehead kisses from them, emotionally supporting you with everything, protecting you, showing u their love ahhh

no but like, it would be the most supportive relationship from all sides. you'd go to as many concerts and festivals you could and you'd always sing your heart out and jump around to their rhythm because you're so proud of them, and you take pics and videos of them talking to fans from the sidelines because you love seeing them having their hard work be recognized as it should be, and they're also so cute with fans. you also give them their space when when they're in Writing Mode, only sending them the usual good morning and good night texts full of hearts and with an "i love you" at the end of each, because you know how much their music means to them and you don't want to be a distraction. and on the other hand, if you're in college they try to help you study like doing those flash card things and rewarding you with kisses if you get the questions right, they try to help you with essays as best as they can, even if it's just proof reading, they listen to you complain about your professors and they listen to you ramble about your favorite subjects, they help you relax when you're too stressed with baths and massages and, well, orgasms definitely help too lol and they do the same listening to you/helping you relax if you work instead. when they're home from tour or from the må house they basically do all the cooking and cleaning because they're on their days off and they don't want you work yourself too hard in any way

and god the physical affection! ethan likes kisses the most, especially kissing both of you on the forehead because it's convenient for him, being the taller of the three. vic accuses him of flaunting his height at the two of you, then pulls him in for a kiss just to bring him down a little, and you laugh, but then you fake pout because where's your kiss? then they fill your entire face with kisses that make you giggle, and take turns kissing your lips. vic likes to hold hands the most. she'll do it awake and asleep. if she could she would never let go of your hands. she loves comparing how different they are from hers, how bigger ethan's are, and how softer yours are. she loves kissing the back of your hands, loves brushing her thumb over them. she loves the reassurance that you're both there that holding your hands give her. you like hugging the most. whether it's in the form of cuddles, or hugging an excited vic after every performance, or hugging ethan from behind because you like to kiss his back. when it's cold you pout at them until one of them opens their coat in an invitation, and you hold them, being held back in the warmth (ethan says he wonders if you don't wear warmer clothes just so you can do that but you tell him you don't know what he's talking about while smiling shamelessly)

the three of you just work so well together and love each other so much, you can't even imagine a life where you're not with both of them

[lees-chaotic-brain]

Ahhh tysm for the tag Ann! I haven't done one of these in a while!

Describe your writing process from idea to posting/publishing

Um. It's actually quite simple.

1. Get idea

2. Tell you guys about it and promise I'll write it

3. Sudden burst of shiny new wip motivation! Write between 100 and 1000 words

4. Forget about shiny new wip for months, only remembering it when someone goes "hey, what happened to that fic you said you were going to start?"

Or alternatively,

Lose all motivation to write and blatantly lie to people by telling them I'm working on it when I haven't even clicked into the doc tab in weeks

5. Suddenly remember it/regain motivation and swear to all of you that it'll be out that day/week

6. Not finish it by when I said I would

7. Spend three consecutive sleepless nights writing it in my head as I do things I don't even need to do, not typing a single word until I reach a state of semi-consciousness and have transcended the reach of procrastination (this is also how I go about writing essays and doing important assignments)

8. Finally sit down and write it

9. Post! That is, if I don't accidentally save it to drafts instead of posting and forget about it for another month or so

That's it! If you can't already tell, I have adhd lmao

Are you a plotter or a pantser?

Depends on the fic tbh. Sometimes I just go with vibes, and sometimes I'll have been working the idea out in my head for some time. But most of the time I just jump in with no idea what I'm doing and post it when I feel like it's reached it's natural ending.

What do you listen to when you are writing?

Again, depends. I have a ton of different playlists so it really just depends on what I'm feeling at the moment. If I'm writing a song fic I listen to the song on repeat, and when I'm writing I tend to lean more towards quiet indie songs but I also will write listening to the most random things so idk.

What’s your drink of choice(while writing)?

Tea. Tea tea tea tea tea. I LOVE tea. Just ask @cheesypuffkins87

Promote yourself! What’s your favorite thing you’ve written?

That's so hard, what? I have so many that I like, and I honestly can't pick a favorite. (I also hate everything I've ever written on some level but that's a completely different story)

If I HAD to pick one, it would probably be Attractive with Yuuji just because i love the crack.

But i'd say two close seconds are Quiet with Inumaki (i love me some angst) and "No. You're Not." with Megumi because reader is so me coded lmao.

Share a fic of yours that you think is underrated/deserves more love.

Oooh probably Call You Mine with Nanami. I didn't mention it in the above question because I was going to add it here, but it's definitely in my top five, if not maybe even my top three.

If not the above one, then Can't Help Falling In Love With You with Gojo. I just really liked this fic and would love to see it get some more attention!

Do you have any advice for new writers?

Literally just what Ann said. If you get an idea, write it!! You never know what's going to happen. I posted my first silly little idea a little over a year ago, not expecting anyone to notice it only for it to get well over 500 notes on it's first day. Now I have over 500 followers. And even if that doesn't happen, that's okay because someone out there read it and enjoyed it <3

On top of that just be gentle with yourself. It's okay if you go months without writing. It's okay if your fics don't get as many notes as other people do. It's okay to take a million years to finish a request. You're only human :)

What is a writing style/technique that others do really well that you'd like to get better at?

Probably using less verbs and having more variety in my sentence structure. Also smaus, because I feel like I have some ideas that would EAT, but I lack the capability.

Is there a character you were surprised you enjoyed writing as much as you did?

Not really. Maybe Toji? I thought I wouldn't enjoy writing for him, but in the one fic I wrote for him (You and I) I actually had way more fun than I thought I would!

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Describe your writing process from idea to posting/publishing

sleeping. like thats the first step. i sleep a lot and i love it. before i fall asleep, i obvs am in my delulu lala land thinking about either my future husband or my fics and og books. from there i think about the weirdest unrealistic plots and then i keep thinking about them so i can remember them in the morning.

and then i write after im done helping with house chores and my work. i usually post the thing as soon as its done or shcedule it lol

(or in case of my og books, i keep em there hehe)

Are you a plotter or a pantser?

pantser 😭 but recently ive been trying to become a plotter. wish me luck 🥲

What do you listen to when you are writing?

anything i can think of lol. sometimes its kpop, sometimes japanese or arabic songs. sometimes sabrina and taylor, sometimes skz and new jeans.

i usually add random songs i can think of in my playlist i listen to while doing chores, and then i continue listening to thos songs while writing.

What’s your drink of choice(while writing)?

nothing tbh. water ig? i need to go get my new stock of capri sun tho ive been dying to have my stock refilled 😞

(gonna find some way to whisper in my dads ear that i want caprisun and it will be at home lmao)

Promote yourself! What’s your favorite thing you’ve written?

cursed is something i love a lot because that plot is like. auasadh so good. also my i didnt ask for this series. its so close to my heart my god its my child. my baby 🥹

Share a fic of yours that you think is underrated/deserves more love.

to love and cakes it took me months to write kinda but like. its a lucien fic and its 10k long lmaoo what did i expect. but its also my baby i love it heheh

Do you have any advice for new writers?

WRITE. THAT. DUMB. IDEA. YOU. THINK. NO. ONE. WILL. READ.

👏🏻WRITE👏🏻IT👏🏻

almost all of my most loved fics have been ideas i thought no one would care about enough to read. and then the morning after i posted them, id wake up to people telling me how much they loved the fic and end up with me sobbing because everyones so lovely 🥹

also. people can sometimes be mean. 👏🏻IGNORE👏🏻THEM.👏🏻 ignore them the way you ignore maths when studying.

ive seen so many new talented writers either stop writing or lash back out at these clowns, but you need to understand that replying to these people who are just trying to get a rcton out of you is not worth it. your happiness matters more. put yourself before them and ignore thei comments if it hurts you. that will prick their egos more than you arguing with them.

What is a writing style/technique that others do really well that you'd like to get better at?

i kinda wanna learn how to describe rooms. that bitch truly be bitin my ass 😞uh also how t write poetically kinda

Is there a character you were surprised you enjoyed writing as much as you did?

honestly, maybe lucien. i only ever thought about writing for batboys when i had begun but then i fell in love with him and i couldnt stop writing about him 🥹

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[sixish]

Okay, I just finished The Green Knight and I really liked it! The ending is what made it great in my opinion, I think if I was thinking about this whole thing in a strictly narrative sense, Morgan and Arthur seemed to have had some hand in setting up this game, a test of sorts for Gawin. Not to find the "Knight's ideal" of chivalry or virtue, but his own. He doesn't become "better" through his journey, I think we just sort of saw him as a human and not this unstoppable force.

He frees himself in the woods not because he had the knightly courage and vigor to do so but rather, 1) he's afraid of death, 2) he would die if he didn't, 3) literally no reason not to like any thinking person would have done that.

Helping Winifred wasn't altogether chivalrous but again very much something a normal person probably would have done. "Well I can't not help this dead ghost girl, but also like according to all the stories I've been told, I get a boon for helping spirits right???" Gawin definitely grows more as he journeys but that shouldn't and wouldn't be considered a knightly chivalrous growth. Like any one would grow in some way on a journey like that and none of his experience up until the chapel change him in any true way. Maybe humble him a bit, but I got the feeling Gawin didn't hold himself up to very high regards in his own mind anyway.

It was with The Green Knight and the Fox that I believe he grows more into what he deserves to become. The Fox tempts him to turn back, but he "courageously" moves forward. (But again, what would really be the point of him turning back now? I feel his moving forward here is another instance of "Well I'm already here, everyone expects me to do this so I won't just leave")

Then we get the confrontation with the Knight. And that whole sequence. His mother's magic belt was a representation of his own cowardice because, again, he is terrified of death. Ahhrghh ahhh I have this essay like conclusion I want to write out but my thumbs hurt! It was just a good movie okay!

Yes!!! YEEEESS!! You got it, bestie. Winnifred’s part was really kind of the eye opener where he had to realize you need to help people and expect nothing in return to be a good knight. I will always be willing to read if you want to write out that essay 👀👂

[damejanai]

Dameraji

2020.11.25

~Personality test app~

S: Recently I've been playing this game app

K: ??

S: What's with that reaction

K: game app?!?

S: Hey hey, what's wrong with that

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S: There was one where you read and story and it will analyse your personality. You'll have to gather the pieces to get the story and

K: Ooh?

S: And (laughs) i played it, there were two rounds of personality analysis, the same analysis for different routes. So i input the same answers for both and... i got, "split, denial of pure occurrences, perversion in the past, unconscious consideration of impulse, philosopher, mental conflict

K: Whoaa that's totally you!

S: Haha! This is crazy isn't it?

K: They're accurate

S: And also, there was one where you write stuff, and they will pick up words you wrote and analyse, so i decided to try it. I don't know how much i can talk about this but, i used some of my essays that i didn't publish, something like diaries

K: Uh huh

S: I wrote those in, and then. It said, "Your conflict is a type of mental conflict where you cannot find your place

K: Ooooh

S: So in this app there's a person who listens to you, and he said, "Probably, the existence of "me" became a mirror for you and made you say those words. Are there a lot of times when you think about things too much, and become mentally unstable? If it becomes to difficult for you to handle, you should not only seek help in my world, but also seek help from experts in your world. Don't over exert yourself." I was thinking, what's wrong with my essay?

K: It means, it's very introverted right?

S: I sent in something that was very positive

K: Uh huh uh huh

S: Like a comedic essay kind of thing

K: Uh huh

S: I was like, "huh?"

K: It means like it was too fabricated

S: Ahh it had an opposite effect

K: If it was this positive...

S: hahaha too weird?

K: Doesn't come out unless you are trying to change your actual self that is in denial. It analysed that such person doesn't exist, i guess

S: Hahaha, well so if we have time later, i will tell you what

it is, i want ishikawa san to do the test too, on another day

K: I'm using this one called M gram

S: Ah yesyes, that sort of app

K: It like, tells me monthly, "your last analysis was 2 years ago" I'm not using it at all

S: Umm it might be nice to have an episode just about that right

K: Hahhaa

S: Like a "read into yourself" episode, i like that sort of thing you know, and do it from time to time, but that kind of analysis

K: Scary isn't it

S: No matter how many times i take the test it says "split"

K: It might be, what's that called, if I explain in PERSONA terms it'll be like Thanatos

S: Thanatos type or something...

K: So scary...

S: Oh true, the lyrics i write have a lot of that

K: True, not darkness but it makes you feel a little glum

S: But, but i want everyone to know that, this is just, a topic that is positive

K: And anyway, isn't it attractive to have some shadow over you

S: Yes yes yes, there's a part of me that feels that, that is something cool

K: Ahhh, saying it outright makes you totally uncool though

S: Hahahhaa

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~Kaito doing a presentation about Soma~

S: I get cast for some sports anime sometimes, but it's usually those passing ones. Yamaguchi is one of the more special ones

K: That's true

S: Recently, I've not had roles like Yamaguchi, those that are cool because they are quiet but hardworking, so that was quite a good experience

K: Those are the ones that really get you into it though?

S: Yes yes, even playing the character myself, it makes you emotional

K: Uh huh

S: It's the sort that I, Saito Soma, can identify with most. But most of the time (laughs) I usually get characters that have 2 sides

K: That's true

S: And those that pick fights with others, and smug characters

K: Those too, and intelligent characters and such, smart ones

S: I might have quite a few mystery solving ones

K: If i were to do a presentation of Saito Soma to all those with casting privileges

S: Yes?

K: His real charm is, his shouting

S: Ohhhh?

K: Um

S: Really?

K: To him personally, shouting may put a great burden on his voice, and if it would be tough if he did too much of that

S: Well well well

K: But from a by standers' point of view, it has this sound pressure, this desperation

S: Ehhhhh

K: So, he would be totally fitting for roles, like Yamaguchi in Haiykuu, in Haikyuu, at the fighting scene. If you don't have that sound pressure you can't produce that kind of sound

S: Hooooo

K: And that distance, very close to Tsukki, that minute tweaking of that pressure from that distance, is not something that can be easily done. So of course, he has the image of an intelligent person, or mysterious person, but the roles most suited for him are those where the character is very fired up

S: Whoaa thank you....

K: And that was my presentation

S/K: HAHAHHAA

S: Wait a minute

K: Hahahhaa That didn't have a great impact did it?

S: On the contrary, we reacted in an unexpected way

K: Hahaha

S: It really sank in

~Dameraji Photo Studio~

Topic: Nostalgic games

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Hi Steph! Sorry to stir up old shit in the fandom but I'm writing an essay on queerbaiting for a class I'm taking and I'm hoping to find a specific example from a moftiss interview from right after tfp aired. I very vividly remember one of them saying "I guess we took the joke too far" in regards to johnlock but I can't find any record of it online. I was wondering if you or one of my followers could help me find that source, as I really want to use it in my essay. Thanks!

Hi Lovely!

Ahhh, I DON’T recall that exact interview, but I do have these links on this post here to some articles that may be helpful. It includes the source of Gatiss saying he flirted with homoeroticism.

And this post has a suggestion on how to do some research for queerbaiting and this article here to read.

Oh, and @myladylyssa wrote an incredible queerbaiting-type thesis, so they may know where you can find that article

The only articles I found where they talk to moffat immediately after TFP is this one where the journalist kisses Moffat’s ass the whole time so it’s cringy, and this one from Vox where the journalist points out all the problems with S4 – the article has nothing to do with Moffat but I sometimes feel the need to point out that the casual general audience also thought the series was ridiculous. :P

Otherwise, you can check my ‘queerbaiting’ tag, it might be in the depths of that, lol. If anyone has the link to the article @bloodymarymorstan is looking for, please let us know!

[rosegold-mercy]

today was horrible even without it being valentines day