#ah yes. torturing my favorite. clearly the best coping mechanism.

[alex-just-vibing]

Imagine of Kel killed himself. Like, after The Fight, after told Kel it would have been better if he died instead of Mari. Kel just straight up kills himself and the very next day, Mari comes back to life and is just, holding Kel's dead body in her arms, looking at Hero with a horrified look. "How.... How could you say that...? He was your brother..."

Holy shit. I can't imagine what Hero's reaction would be... He'd feel horrible that he was the reason Kel did that... And how would he react to seeing Mari again? In any other situation, he'd be overjoyed to see her. But at the cost of his younger brother's life..?

[alex-just-vibing]

Kel and Hero harming themselves in inconspicuous ways and Sally's just like: Big brothers... Please....

Okay, someone else put this v well on a reblog of my high pain tolerance hc post

Tags from @mintyflavoredperson !

[alex-just-vibing]

Kel holding back his cries and floating off whenever they try to comfort him<3

But maybe he'd stay eventually... After a while of Hero and Mari convincing him. He'd definitely let Mari comfort him most of the time. And he'd eventually let Hero comfort him too... Kel isn't mad at him for anything he said... Because hey, if he never said anything, then they wouldn't have had Mari back!

[alex-just-vibing]

What if the group realizing that Kel wasn't in the best place mentally before Hero even said that because what kind of mentally stable person has the bright idea of killing themself just after hearing that? Most would probably just think that their loved one didn't mean it but he took it to heart. Literally.

Oh god...

And Sunny especially would feel horrible, because none of this would've happened if Mari had never died in the first place

[alex-just-vibing]

Mari trying to convince him one last time and Kel just looks at her sadly and goes, "Just accept it Mari. No one likes me but you and Hero. No one wants me around, but everyone wants you to be. So, just go, okay? Leave me. I'll be fine. They won't though, not without you so go! Shoo! Have fun! It's not like I'm leaving everyone anyways. They just won't be able to see me anymore!"

waaaahhhh </333

Mari would try to convince him otherwise, but he already saw everyone's reaction to seeing her again. He saw how they reacted to finding out he died.

[alex-just-vibing]

I feel like Mari would be extremely upset at Hero for saying that, like. She would refuse to talk to him for a little while(until she sees how upset Hero is too) and try to find a way to give Kel his life back.

Yeah </33

And I can't imagine how everyone else would react... How would poor Sunny react to finding out his big sister was alive again (and that one of his friends had to kill himself to do so)? What about Basil and Aubrey? Would they know why it happened? Or would Hero be too ashamed to tell them that he's the one who drove Kel to this?

[alex-just-vibing]

What if Solar System noticing Kel's thighs bleeding (it's sh) or like little Sally asking if Kel's on his period cause he's just straight up bleeding on his shorts (still sh, uninformed Sally<3 still)

i could see him playing along with it. like "yeah..... that's what it is." until sally either gets her first period or is taught ab them and is suddenly like... "wait a second........"

[alex-just-vibing]

aaaa sorry but i mean like

what if kel and basil decide to like... form a suicide pact? in the hikkikomori route?

Oohh!! I was thinking you meant something like that, but I wasn't sure. No need to apologize!

And ough... so true </33

[alex-just-vibing]

First day of Kel being dead he gives Hero a ghost a hug and tells him that he loves him.

And Hero just apologizes over and over again, no matter how many times Kel tells him it's okay

[alex-just-vibing]

What if the group barely visits Kel's grave because he's always around them anyway(despite only Mari and Hero being able to see him). Basil offers flowers though.

Do you think that Hero and Mari would tell the group about his ghost following them? Like, would they tell them what he's doing and how he seems to be feeling?

[alex-just-vibing]

Mari bringing the group back together to try and convince Kel to take his life back from her and he's just happily smiling at her, "You did it! You did in 3 days what I couldn't in 2 years! Hero was right, it really would have been better if I died and not you!"

that poor boy </33

[alex-just-vibing]

Mari trying to give Kel his life back and he's just curled up, knees to his chest, poking at the air as refuses, saying that everyone would be much happier with her around than him and that he knows everyone will get over it quickly anyways so it's better if she just stays.

*violent sobbing*

Showed this to my sister and she said "Oh get that boy some THERAPY, GODDAMN"

[alex-just-vibing]

Also, something, Kel in the SAVIOR AU collectively pulled pranks on everybody, generally caused trouble, like bringing a watergun or two without anybody knowing, maybe using his limited knowledge of baking to make cookies with hot sauce in them, stuff like that, Sally was also often brought along on these escapades, but basically always got away with it, being able to keep a much more level face if questioned, Kel did not, and often got in trouble... his parents didn't usually do it though, Hero had to. Do you wanna know what kids who don't receive enough attention do, act out, to get attention through scolding (at least as far as I know, I'm not a psychologist) Kel in this AU also has to compete for love and attention with two other siblings, both being smart, as Sally really wants to be an astronomer in this AU... so... yeah!

Yeah </3

Poor guy </33

[alex-just-vibing]

Baby Sally prodding at Kel while he's asleep and accidentally seeing his self-harm scars and she just straight up starts crying for Hero

Kel gets woken up by her crying and asks her what's wrong. She points at wherever she saw the scars, and he instantly panics and starts trying to get her to calm down before Hero gets woken u- ah fuck.

[alex-just-vibing]

What if people at school saying that Kel looks like a girl and the teachers constantly deadnaming him because that's his birth name but he had no one to turn to or defend him because well, he's not on good terms with Aubrey, Basil hates confrontation, Sunny's not coming out and he wouldn't want to bother Hero while he's still grieving over Mari. (Not that he would care in that state. He'd probably just tell him to suck it up or not respond at all.)

Poor guy </33

I mean, every school I've been at (even my very transphobic old school) have been respectful of if kids want nicknames, so since Kel is a reasonable shortening of Kelsey, I'm sure he'd be able to get most teachers to call him Kel

[alex-just-vibing]

What if, in a fit of blind rage, during The Fight, Hero had accidentally told Kel that it would should have been Kel instead of Mari who died

I've seen that in fics a few times. And I can imagine it starting to get to Kel's head, no matter how much Hero promises he didn't mean anything he said during The Fight