#again TYY this is such a nice compliment <333

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tyy @phoenix666stuff for requesting! i rlly loved writing this, hope you enjoy <333 also reqs are open!! 

pairing. atsumu x gn! reader

word count.  794

synopsis. you’re new in town and japan as a whole. lucky for you, your assigned guide knows all the best places to take you...

a/n. this is so not proofread so if you see a spelling mistake or a grammatical error i want you to pretend it’s not there, if it’s negligible; but if you genuinely don’t understand what’s going on lmk and i’ll fix it <333 this is so bad, i promise i don’t always write this badly T-T ++ idk why i included diary entries lmao i just didn’t know how to show the passing of time without literally writing *time passes* sorry it’s so short :(((

cw. swearing, one mention of death

p.s. red camellia also symbolise love 

dear diary, 

i’m in japan now! it’s nice to be in a different place. home is safe and comforting but the uncertainty of an entirely new country is just as exciting. the anxiety is eating away at my stomach but it’s almost comforting at the same time, i’ll overcome it. i’m about to immerse myself into a whole new world, a new beginning, so many new possibilities.

the school’s assigned me a sort of guide to help me with the language and the cultural barrier. i think his name’s atsumu? i’m not sure. i’m meeting him in the library tomorrow. 

wish me luck!

goodnight diary, speak to you tomorrow, love [name]

“atsumu miya, nice to meet you, and you are?” his hand’s outstretched. his entire vibe felt so comforting, it reminded you a bit of home; you could already feel yourself warming up.  

“[name], [surname]. it’s nice to meet you too.”

it was sunny that day; it honestly felt like the sun was always out when you were with him. you didn’t understand why, but he genuinely felt like home away from home. your soul was serene and there was already a sense of familiarity between the two of you. 

he had picked kitchen by banana yoshimoto, telling you it was the only book you’d ever need, and somehow it really was. the two of you sat at those uncomfortable desks for hours, yet the sun still shone and neither of you wanted to leave. by the time you had finished you could feel your heart break. ‘it must be because of how beautiful the book was…’

“when will we see each other again?” the sound of your own voice made you cringe. ‘that sounded too desperate.’ but he just laughed. he just fucking laughed what a cute, cute laugh. maybe your heart was already healed. 

“tomorrow i hope.”

“yes!” you didn’t even care if you came off as overly enthusiastic, you just wished he’d laugh again. 

dear diary,

he’s so beautiful, his face, his eyes, oh darlings his eyes, especially when he laughs. and his laugh!! it could bring me back from death…

we’re going to the national museum of japanese history tomorrow, i’m so excited, gosh what should i wear?? i’m so nervous…

again, i need your luck so please pray for me 

goodnight my dearest diary, love [name]

today he was holding red camellia; he looked pretty; the red of the flowers complimented the red on his cheeks, just like the red on yours. 

“why the flowers?” you asked. 

“flowers are very important to japanese culture and they’re very symbolic.” 

“and what do red camellia mean?” 

“it symbolises a noble death among japanese warriors.” 

“how gruesome…”

“it has other meanings too.”

“like?” 

“cmon these tickets do expire.” 

dear diary, 

i had katsudon today, just like mirage sakurai from kitchen! it was so good, i can really feel myself getting used to japan. everyone’s so nice (nice honestly doesn’t even begin to cover it). 

and atsumu… every time i’m with him i feel like i’m having tachycardia. in a good way. i feel like my face is always red, i wish i was better at hiding it.

what should i do?

please get back to me diary, love [name]

p.s. why am i asking as if an inanimate object is gonna tell me what to do…

one day you found yourself in his kitchen. baking. there was flour everywhere, eggs cracked on the floor and sugar spilling from the counter. it was a mess. a mess atsumu had created. the moment he saw you he had slipped, dropping everything he was holding. you both were also messes, laughing messes, and stupid pining, lovesick messes. 

the days you spent with him felt endless. you couldn’t remember a time you weren’t with him. everything passed so quickly. the truly happy memories you had were always with him. why was it that everything you ate when with him was so delicious? why was it that every negative emotion was dulled when he was around? every moment glowed in your heart, it ached by how full of love it was. the boy had infused himself into your soul, he was a part of your being. 

“aishiteru yo.”

“what does that mean?” you knew exactly what it meant. you’d heard it before in the two months you’d been here. you just wanted to hear him say it again. it felt unreal, you were just verifying this was real life and not a dream. 

“it means i love you. the place i like best in this world is with you. no matter where it is, no matter why, if it’s with you, if it’s a place where i can be with you, it’s fine with me.”

[taxolotl]

okay i just saw the tags on the spotify artist post aND YOU HAVE THE BEST MUSIC TASTE oh my gosh, what are some of your favorite songs rn?

anon TYSMMM this ask made me so excited these are some of my faves!!

Razzmatazz - IDKBTFM: i've been looping this one for WEEKS the energy... i'm obsessed. i really wanna draw something inspired by this one day

Sex, Drugs, Etc - Beach Weather: I LOVE THIS ONE SMMMM FAVE FAVE FAVE i have the best of memories associated w this one

Poplar St - Glass Animals: ga has this way of creating songs that send you to an alternate plane of reality via Vibes. other ga faves are Waterfalls Coming Out Your Mouth, Dreamland, and TOSOP

all of Pebble Brain, AYA, Maybe I Was Boring, literally any wilbur music: wilbur/lovejoy music brings me sm happiness ^^ they're all on my walking playlist

Taro - alt j: i loveee alt j's singing style like it's incomprehensible to me. but it Jams (also Breezeblocks my beloved)

Dangerous - Big Data, Joywave: i found this through an anime edit last year LMAO it's a banger

Little Pistol - Mother Mother: mmm yeah hahaha (also i love Burning Pile)

Dark Red - Steve Lacy: this one is so calming... it's like hugging a fluffy cat

It Will Come Back - Hozier: god i fucking love hozier