#afraid to say that this is about kendall roy

[nailgunstigmata]

sometimes ill see people post about a guy i dont get at all and have a haunting moment of self awareness like…thats how non dennisfuckers see my dennisposting. thats how im perceived

[eightstarr]

hi zoe :)) im here to request some general jealousy hc with ellie and abby

i personally have never been jealous a day in my life 😇😇

hi emi :)) i love you and because of that i will agree that you've never been jealous ever 😇 also because i think it's hot what who said that??? anyway i came out of retirement (momentarily) to answer this so i hope you enjoy <3

first thing that came to mind is that everyone thinks ellie will go insane and pull out the pocket knife but have you seen that girl when she saw dina talking to jesse… sorry but jealous ellie is looking at her feet and going fully non-verbal except for little annoyed huffs. perhaps has a kendall roy bathroom breakdown moment. maybe. probably just kicks something. you wouldn't know because she won't bring it up and you won't really notice a change but she's a little more quiet? that's kind of weird? but as soon as you’re alone she lights up, because she loves you and she loves your attention and she knows you love her and she's just being silly— but whatever, she's a sensitive girl! (she hates it so much she could throw up). perhaps you’ll leave the party and walk together to the car and she’ll say “oh fuck, i forgot my wallet in there” and “can you come with me?” and perhaps she’ll take your hand and pretend to be shocked when she finds said wallet safely in her jeans pocket but you’re already there! so you might as well stay for the rest of the song and yeah, she’s definitely going to kiss you where she knows whoever you were talking to will see. maybe. definitely.

abby is not afraid of confrontation, but she's highly annoyed by it. she’ll roll her eyes and it's never at you, you’ve done nothing wrong (and if she thinks about it, the person talking to you is also not doing anything wrong by simply making you laugh, but she's not thinking about it— she’s annoyed). a pout will form instantaneously and it should be cute, but have you seen her face? how does she make a pout look scary? i don't know but she does it. abby will pull you closer by wrapping an arm around your shoulders and raise her eyebrows when both you and the person talking to you give her a questioning look. “what?” she asks, and her head is turned your way but she's looking at them.

[hughiecampbelle]

Random Headcanons About Baby Roy:

Warning/s: addiction, addiction mention, drugs, alcohol mention

A/N: I think about Baby Roy all the time, lol. I just love them. I thought some fun headcanons would be nice :) Based on these headcanons and this fic series!

Baby loves screamo. Anything and everything screamo. Also any alternative artist! The more raunchy, the better. Any car or room they're in, they're listening to it or humming it or playing it in their headphones. Everyone's come to expect it and ignore it as best they can. Especially Karl and Frank, they hate it. Gerri just shrugs. it's not hurting you or anyone else, leave it be

It absolutely drives Connor insane, especially when you and Roman gang up on him and recite verses. Roman doesn't love your music, but it's so worth it to watch your other siblings cringe and get all uncomfortable

"That d*ick tastes like yankee candl-" I love Ashnikko lol

"Y/n, please."

"You wanna hear a so-"

"No."

Baby unironically plays Where's My Juul?? by Lil Mariko in front of Connor who has no idea what a juul actually is lol

Baby has a wicked sweet tooth. Kendall's been sneaking them candy since they were little, but it seems like you always have something sweet. A lollipop, gumballs, gummy bears, etc.

"You'll get a cavity."

"This is my one vice, let me be."

Shiv is always holding out her hand for whatever you've got. She doesn't ask, she just expects it. You never mind, it's nice to share with her. Besides, it makes her feel like a little kid, too

Baby loves gory movies. Growing up, when all the kids were together, they'd have movie night. When it was your turn, you always chose the goriest thing you could find. Rome would sit with his hands over his eyes and Connor would hold a pillow, But you, Ken, and Shiv would be totally into it

"Just wait! His head gets ripped off!"

"This can't be appropriate."

Baby is actually very smart. Despite all the partying, their grades were perfect. Logan had no need to worry. Maybe you weren't showing up to class, but you were there for tests and that's all that mattered. You throw your intelligence in your brothers faces

"Can you even spell egotistical?"

You make endless jokes about your sobriety that none of them like except for Roman. The others shoot daggers at you with a look that says "not funny" You think it's funny though, and that's all that matters

"I'll be at the bar, you guys chat. Kidding! I was kidding, jeez."

"Does anyone else need a strong drink right about now?"

"They say the food is like crack, but I know crack and this isn't that."

"I used to take handfuls of pills to this song. Now look at me, I've become a monster."

Connor is horrified. Every time you say anything, he's speechless. Shiv gets very serious and Kendall spirals, but Rome likes it. If you can't joke about it, what good is it?

Baby has lots of tattoos and piercings. It's the only socially acceptable way to self harm that isn't drugs and alcohol. Logan hates them and Connor thinks they're unsightly, but you don't really care. Gerri always wants to see the new ones you got, though she prefers they be covered up in the office

"I like that one, that one's very cute."

"Thanks, Mommy."

She hates when you call her that. For you, your and Gerri's relationship, it's not at all sexual like it is with Roman. She is genuinely your mother figure. She is warm and caring and only wants the best from you. She can always tell when things are getting bad again

"Oh honey, you don't look so good."

"Mommy, I don't feel so good."

She really does love you. Someone has to. She knows your mother and Logan don't. Someone has to be there for you

Both Karl and Frank are afraid of you. Between the music, the addictions, the tattoos, the piercings, everything is intimidating to them. You're not competing like your siblings, that scares them the most. You want nothing to do with the company

"Think they're rabid?"

"Might be."

You love it, the way they always back away when you get too close, like you're demonic or infected

Baby, I think, would write a lot. Not just your feelings, which are so hard to put into words, but good things that happened, reasons to stay sober

You have a notebook or something that they use to write in. You've brought it to every rehab you've ever been to and constantly reread it over and over. No one knows about it, and if they notice, they don't bring it up. It's yours

Reasons To Stay Sober: Connor, Kendall, Shiv, Rome. Connor, Kendall, Shiv, Rome. Connor, Kendall, Shiv, Rome. Connor, Kendall, Shiv. . .

You have a sobriety birthday and every month you bake a cake. It always turns out shitty, lopsided, and burned and runny at the same time, but decorating it makes you feel like a kid again

You're always wearing your siblings clothes. You're always stealing someone's jacket or socks or shirt or sweater. You like it. It makes you feel close to them

They've just come to expect it

"You look better in that shirt than I do, keep it."

"I was going to anyways."

You have those moments of deep regret and embarrassment and self-consciousness that always end up in tears, but your siblings are there to pick up the pieces

Connor especially will just hold you as long as you need and listen to everything you have to get out

You feel so deeply sorry for hurting them and scaring them so much. You just wanted it to stop. You wanted not to he angry anymore

They tell you they understand, but you know they don't. Not really. They can't unless they've felt the way you have

Baby falls asleep on all the siblings. Even Roman will let them get away with it, but no one else. You snuggle into them and have the best sleep of your life

"Quit moving."

"Don't use me as a pillow, then."

You get away with (mostly) everything because you're their baby and they love you so much. They love you so much it's gross

Connor still prides himself on the way he raised you. There were bumps in the road, but you ended up perfect. Absolutely perfect

They all pride themselves on how they raised you. It wasn't always good, they weren't always there, but they're making up for all that now. Logan is gone. Slowly they're breaking the cycle, for you and for them

Things will get better. You've hit rock bottom so many times and always found a way out. This is that. This is your out

[richeeduvie]

in normal au, would baby jr ever be told how bad logan was to roman, like i can maybe imagine baby and her talking about it when she’s older

You don't know how to explain it to her, but she's beautiful - that because she's your daughter and you can't deny her an answer.

Roman was always afraid of the truth getting away from him, you know that. You think she's not as latched onto the internet like many kids her age, but all it takes is a simple google search to find articles, reports, bad in taste tweets to reveal just how...intense Logan was. The grandfather she'll never meet.

He wouldn't like her to know how it was, he wouldn't believe that that's how he had it, as bad as they say. Even you, you thoughts turn the letters over, add a few to turn the word bad into intense.

"Daddy had it bad, didn't he?"

"...His childhood was rough sometimes, I don't think he'd put that way, though."

"He'd say he deserve it."

Your words get caught in your throat. She knows her father so well.

"It wasn't just the boarding school thing, was it?"

"No, Dad - he just...Your uncles and aunt they got the brunt of your grandpa in their own ways. He knew what would get to each of them. I think, physically, though, Daddy got it the most out of all of them."

"But it just-" Your girl curls up on the couch, runs her hand through her hair like her father. "They never thought to like...fucking off? Sorry, Mommy. I don't know how else to put it."

A Roy wouldn't. You smile light.

"I don't think him and Aunty Shiv and Uncle Kendall and even Uncle Con...I don't think they ever thought what Grandpa did was means to leave. They grew up around that. And Waystar. It's all they knew for awhile. Of course, when Con was going through his issues with their dad I was a teenager going through my own stuff, so I don't know what was really happening there, but he didn't talk to him for awhile. A long time. Hell, Logan...Waystar, I got used to it."

"But you had Grandpa Frank."

"I did."

Your baby blinks, she doesn't say anything for a bit - just looking around. She doesn't feel comfortable telling you that she wishes you and Daddy had her back then. She bets she could do something, even though she's sure Grandpa Logan would make her cry her guts out.

"And Daddy had you. It's why you probably has so many stories of what fucked up things Grandpa did that you won't tell me."

"It's all a variation of the lobster story, really. Just things Roma-Daddy thinks he deserved and find dryly humorous."

But she does feel comfortable telling you a lot of other things. And he did, but you had Roman too. Thank whatever snarky, fucked, perfect God who had a little bit of himself to give for that.

She stands up.

"I don't want you talking to Uncle Kendall anymore."

You blink.

Okay. That's her casual, awkward bluntness she's grown into. But it hits you nonetheless.

"Where is this going? What's with the order, baby?"

"I also read up on what he did to you."

"The tabloids? You-" There's almost frustration, or there really is, but you had no problem talking about your girl's discoveries about her father, that you know you can't feel betrayed for her curiosity here. "It was all out of context and many, many, many years ago-"

"You're doing the same thing Dad would do, and you never told me how bad it was."

"Sweetie, you're going to a place I don't think you're entitled to go to."

She doesn't even flinch.

Again, like father like daughter.

"You're doing the same thing Daddy would do and I don't think...Uncle Kendall never got it together."

"That's not fair on him-"

"It's not fair on you. Or on Daddy."

"What's not on Daddy?"

You're glad Roman's missed out on the whole thing, it'd be a flurry blur of emotions trashing against each other in quips and bits until he bursts - that's what happens in mentioning of Logan, or what he was before he passed. Somehow, you think your daughter with him could handle it better than you.

But for now, you and her, or mostly her, keeps the conversation hidden under the guise of a hug. Her hugs her father tight. Roman's brows furrow. You smile.

"I love you too? I'm a wonderful father if I get a hug without cause. Fuck yeah. Nobody has anything on me."

"If you say so."

She mwahs Roman's cheek with a soft kiss to yours after.

[kendallroydefender]

Somewhere only we know - Chapter 13 (Kendall Roy x Reader)

Masterlist

Series summary: You met Kendall when you were six years old. You have spent every summer together and now years later you and him are still just as close. This story follows Kendall and his best friend through their lives. Will they realize their feelings for each other before it’s too late?

Chapter summary: While the Roys are at their mothers wedding you get a phone call that is turning your world upside down. Following the events he makes a decision that could change his life for the better and yours too.

Authors Notes: We’re so so close to an confession!! I hope you like this chapter! Much love to everyone who’s still keeping up with the story! 🤍

Wordcount: 3.1K

You hear you’re phone ring. The caller ID says Connor wich makes you furrow your brows. Why would Connor call you from Caroline’s wedding? You accept the call, with a weird feeling spreading in your stomach, remembering last time you got a call from a Roy family member that wasn’t Kendall while they were out of the country.

”Hello?“ You ask slightly wary. He says your name in a somber tone before telling you ”Something happened.“ You take a deep breath the dark feeling starting to grow.

”It’s about Kendall. There was an accident and he, yeah, he almost drowned.“ He says and your breathing stops

”He fell off a pool float, he was drunk. We don’t know if it was an accident or..“ Tears gather in your eyes ”Is he..?“ You ask even if you’re afraid of the answer of how bad it is. If he died you don’t know how you would cope. ”He is stable, they’re keeping him til tomorrow.“ You close your eyes and exhale a shaky breath ”Can you send me the name of the hospital? I will be there as soon as possible.“ You ask him. ”Y/n you don’t have to-“

”No. Con, I need to.“

He mumbles an okay and take care, you tell him you’ll be in contact with him and if there’s any news about Kendall he should call or text you.

While organizing a jet you get a suitcase out and throw in anything you can catch. It feels like you’re almost in some kind of trance, you’re almost too calm. In less than 15 minutes you are out of your apartment and on the way to the airport.

You board your families jet, Connor has send you the name and address of the hospital Kendall was admitted to. You have also texted with Jess and Roman. You haven’t contacted Kendall himself, maybe you’re scared he will tell you not to come and because he was still not awake when Connor called you. You aren’t even sure if he knows that you’ve been told about what happened.

You know you should use the next hours to sleep but how are you supposed to when you don’t know what happened to your best friend, the man who you are in love with. You open your phone and go to the folder with all the pictures you have of him. There are funny ones of the two of you together and others where you attended galas and dinners together. You stop when you reach one where Kendall is sleeping. He looks so peaceful and carefree. You’ve taken it a year ago when he fell asleep on your couch while watching some movie. You wonder when it all went so wrong, you remember when he carried you all the way home on his back to your parents summer house after you cut your foot at the beach. Or when he rapped along to his new favorite song on your dorm bed. The way you two danced through the night in Shanghai’s clubs. All these memories rush through your head and you can’t stop yourself from crying.

You arrive at the hospital after an exhausting 10 hour flight and a taxi ride. You had slept for about an hour before waking again, too anxious to drift off again. You knew Kendall wasn’t doing well but you hadn’t thought it was this bad. You feel like you should have noticed how bad he was doing.

You ask to see Kendall but you really haven’t thought this through because you’re met with an ”I’m sorry signora, we can’t let unauthorized people to him. Only family.“ you nod, turning around contemplating what to do. Connor told you they weren’t going to the hospital but will see him after he’s released. You see Comfry on her phone. Jackpot.

You walk over to the blonde woman who smiles at you and gives a little wave. After she hangs up, she brings you to Kendall’s room. She stops outside to tell you about what happened, when and how he was found, that he’s mostly fine now but they kept him overnight to be sure.

You open the door to his room, he is resting on the bed, awake and looking out of the window. ”Kenny.“ you get out before tears come to your eyes. His head snaps towards you fast, he’s shocked to see you here. Who told you? Why did you come? It reminds him of the press conference where you appeared seemingly out of nowhere. He knows it was Roman who told you what was going on but still it feels like you always know when he needs you most by his side.

He says you name and you walk towards his bed, crushing him in a hug. He strokes your hair and after minutes you let him go. ”Sorry, sorry.“ you say wiping your tears. ”It’s okay, please don’t cry.“ he tells you cupping the side of your face. ”You shouldn’t have come, nothing happend. I’m fine, really.“ Kendall tells you to wich you shake your head. ”Kendall. No - of course.“ you tell him. Did he really thought you wouldn’t come after you heard what happened? ”Connor called me and I knew I had to get here. I just needed to see you.“

You don’t pry him about the situation knowing he will talk to you on his own terms. You just lay with him on the hospital bed. Pressing kisses onto his shaven head. ”My Dad- Uh, he won’t let me leave.“ Kendall says to you in a low distant sounding voice. ”What?“ you ask confused, since you’ve read the birthday card where he offered it. ”We had dinner yesterday. I wanted out but he- yeah, he said no.“ Kendall answers you and you feel like you swallowed a hot stone, you’re so mad at his father. Logan’s constant psychological abuse of his children. ”God. Kenny.“ is all you get out and just from that the man knows you’re mad. ”It’s okay.“ he assures you and you turn so you face him. ”No it’s really not. God i hate him so much.“ you can’t help yourself ”I’m so sorry Kendall. You don’t deserve being treated like that. You deserve so, so much better.“ he feels tears well up and he blinks fast, tries to swallow all these feelings again.

Instead he asks you if you’ll come with him to his mothers wedding and of course you say yes.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••

Comfry comes into the room a few hours later with one of the doctors, Kendall is being released. A car is already waiting outside.

You arrive at the house his family has rented. You catch Sophies eyes and give her a small wave and a smile. She smiles back, happy to see you. You eye Logan warily who sits next to the kids. Suddenly acting like a grandfather, you fight the urge to scoff. He looks at you but you avert your eyes quickly, turning toward the siblings who sit around a table playing monopoly. They make some jokes about Kendall’s accident slash attempt and you roll your eyes, wich Connor catches. But you don’t care, you’re here for Kendall. Connor sounded worried yesterday when he called you, you don’t understand how they can act like that now, not even a day later.

”Kids! Come on we’re leaving!“ Kendall shouts and you wrap your arm around Iverson. ”What are you doing here?“ Sophie asks with a mischievous grin. She’s not opposed to you and her father dating. She was old enough when her parents divorced to know it was better that way, she heard them fighting. Iverson took the break up harder and you can’t blame him. ”What? can’t I just go to the wedding of my best friend mother?“ you say to her jokingly.

”But you weren’t here yesterday?“ Iverson asks ”Y/n had a work thing she had to attend, that’s why she’s late.“ Kendall says quickly. He loves how well you get along with his kids, even if that means having Sophie asking him questions about you two later.

While Kendall is off to a meeting with his siblings, wich unbeknownst to you is an intervention, you and Comfry go to find you a dress to wear for the festivities. You have grown to like the woman even though your relationship with her is definitely not as deep as yours and Jess.

You buy a dress that fits you perfectly and is fitting for Carolines wedding.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••

You attend the wedding alongside Kendall. You give your congrats to Caroline and her soon to be husband, who’s name you already forgot. You’re sitting with Willa and Connor. Kendall wanted you to sit with him at the family table but you assured him you’re fine. He argued that you would be his plus one for this event but you declined. Your eyes find each other’s during the speeches multiple times, sending small smiles across the lawn.

When the eating part is over you and Kendall stay close to each other, holding hands the entire time, his arm around you. It just feels natural and you both just want to keep physical contact after everything that had happened who wouldn’t try to seek some comfort.

Maybe it’s the fact that he could have died but you just need him close to you, to feel that he’s alive. And he feels the same, he doesn’t want to get away from you. He doesn’t care about all the guest around, not really keen on striking up a conversation with anyone that isn’t his best friend.

You’re leaning into his shoulder while he smokes when Shiv and Roman come and ask to talk to him. He shrugs and tells them that he’s not interested but they are consistent and it seems like it’s urgent, so he relents and excuses himself from you for a moment. He kisses the side of your head goodbye and you hear Shiv ask ”So what? Are you together now?“ as they walk away.

The next time you’re hearing from Kendall is while you’re with Connor and he tells you about his upcoming campaign when you get an incoming call from Kendall. You excuse yourself for a moment and walk a bit away from the other guests before you answer the call. ”Y/n! We had to leave the party. We’re going to kill dad.“ he says and you furrow your brows ”Metaphorically speaking of course.“ he adds ”Wait- what? Who?“ you stammer, still confused on what is going on ”Me and the sibs.“ then he explains their plan before telling you, you can’t tell anyone about this but you wouldn’t anyway. Before hanging up he promises to call you as soon as he can and you promise him to stay with his kids until then. You stay at the ceremony, sitting with his children, you talk to Willa about her engagement and Connor reminisce about your childhood. You dance with Sophie and Iverson and briefly talk to Greg who tells you about his Comfry / Duchess dilemma and you laugh at his words. ”Nooo Greg, you can’t treat Comfry like that. She’s so nice to you“ you tell him honestly.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

”How did killing Logan went?“ you ask once Kendall comes back into the house he’s staying in. It’s late and Sophie and Iverson are already in bed. You had texted Rava earlier that you had taken the kids back to the house. You knew she was feeling better if you looked after them then when Logan did, after all he had hit iverson before. She had called to talk to the kids and you had spoken to her afterwards.

You’re sitting on the couch, skipping through the tv channels when he comes back. You glance at him as he steps into the living room and you can tell it didn’t went down smoothly. ”Tom fucked us.“ he says and your eyebrows shoot up „Are you serious?“ he sits down next to you, his head leaning back against the cushion, staring at the ceiling ”Yeah he told him about our plan.“ you would have not thought Tom would go like this against his wife. ”But the sibs and me, we’re gonna do our thing. Without dad.“ he tells you before saying ”I told them about uh, Shivs wedding.“ you know instantly what he’s referring to.

”It’s funny, Roman said the same thing you did.“ he says and you turn, so that you’re facing him ”It’s the truth Ken. It was an accident.“ you say and he looks at you, nodding a little, it’s really faint and you could have easily missed it.

”Are you hungry? The chefs already left but I got some leftovers in the fridge for you.“ he thinks then that he doesn’t deserve how much you care about him. You flew here as soon as you heard about what happened to him and now you make sure he eats. He loves you. More than a friend and he has known this for some months now. Your love is the purest most unconditional kind of love he has ever been given and he knows he needs you in his life, you make him a real person. You don’t see him as an extension of his Dad, or some famous douchebag, a Roy. You don’t see him as a killer. You see him. Kenny. Kendall. And he thinks he would like to come home to you every day. He wouldn’t dread his apartment anymore. Maybe it’s the fact that he could have died that day but he feels like he needs to get better and to confess his feelings to you finally. He can’t let this chance you two have go away again. Not if it could be everything he wanted for a long time.

"Thank you.“ he says then and you know that he’s not only talking about leftovers. "No need to, Kendall.“ you scratch his buzzed head. "I appreciate it, really. It uh it means a lot.“ he says and you answer him "Well you mean a lot to me.“ and he can’t help the smile forming on his lips. While you put the food into the microwave Kendall goes to say goodnight to his Kids. He eats on the couch next to you and after you watch some tv show you go to sleep. There are like thousand rooms in this house but it’s not a question that you are sharing a bed.

You’re laying on your side and Kendall rests on his back when he starts speaking

”I know things are difficult right now, uh with me and I know im putting a lot on you too.“ Kendall admits and you know this is hard for him. ”Its okay, Kendall. I know you’re going through some things at the moment and that’s not your fault.“ you tell him before adding

”And you don’t need to apologize, its beyond your control and of course im there for you. Like you’ve been with me when I was going through hard times.“

”Yeah but I feel like its my fault with the-“ he clears his throat ”With my relapse.“ He finally says and you swallow. Its progress that he can admit that he’s struggling again instead of telling you its fine.

”I feel like, I- I- am maybe at my breaking point.“

He turns on his side, facing you now.

”I think I need to, I need to get better. For my siblings. For you.“ you take his hand in yours ”For me, uh for me too.“ he says at last

”I think that’s a good plan, Ken.“

You whisper "I love you.“ as he drifts off to sleep and he lets himself feel a shimmer of hope that everything could get better.

••••••••••••••••••••••••••

You flip through the papers Jess had dropped off at Kendall’s earlier. They’re rehab facilities he could go to. Its a few days later and you’re glad he’s still planning to go.

”Do you already know wich one you’re going to?“ you ask

”I think the one in Denmark sounds good. It has an eight week programm.“ he answers and you flip to the clinic he meant.

Reading over the text it does sound nice and the pictures look good too.

”When will you go?“

”They have a spot in two days open.“ you nod

”Do you want me to come with you?“

”To Denmark? You don’t have to.“

You give him a smile ”Yeah, but that’s not what I’ve asked.“

He takes a breath looking at you sincerely

”Of course I would like you to come but I, uh, I can’t let you do that. You’ve already done so much for me.“

You shrug now

”When does the jet leave?“

••••••••••••••••••••••••

He takes his shirt you’ve worn the night before with him. It smells like you and he needs something that reminds him of you. He doesn’t tell you, but you’ve seen him put it in the suitcase. But you don’t care, you kept one of his too and there are still multiple ones around your apartment. And two months is a long time for you two to be apart.

”What happens to us if I go now?“ he asks when you’re in bed that night. His fingers drawing shapes onto your arm.

”We’ll have all the time in the world when you come back. But now you need to focus on yourself.“ you tell him cupping his face. It’s the truth but it’s also a promise. You are aware that whatever is going on between you isn’t purely platonic anymore and more than just a crush now. It’s seems like it’s always on the brink of spilling over. You hope that you can talk about it once he returns, but he needs to be clean for that so you can be sure it’s what he really wants.

”I’ll be right here.“ another promise, he won’t come back to find you in a relationship.

You’ve waited such a long time these few months won’t matter.

”I’ll be back soon.“ he says

”Take as much time as you need.“

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

There are a few photographers and you’re glad for the darkened windows of the car. You arrived In Denmark yesterday evening and spent last night in a shared hotel room.

His hand is still in yours. Since it’s a private clinic with high privacy values you’re being driven through big gates that close behind you. You give him a long hug

”I’m really proud of you.“

He holds you a little tighter.

”I love you.“ he answers

”I love you too, Kenny. So much.“

”Thank you. For, uh for everything.“

”Always.“

You sit for a few more minutes holding each other before he knows it’s time to leave. He releases his arms from around you

”Goodbye Kendall.“

”Goodbye Y/n.“ he tells you and you press a lingering kiss to his cheek.

[stewyhosseini-bf]

another procrastinask: who do you think knows about kendall and stewy?

Really good question. I've actually thought about this quite a bit before. I'm guessing you're asking about their families specifically, and kenstewy's college relationship - and I think that if he told any of the Roys at all during that time, it would probably be Connor. Since he could obviously never tell his parents, and Connor often took on a father-role for the siblings, I could see Ken confiding in him about it (again, if he told anyone in his family at all during that time). Like, I'm thinking about how in Dundee, when Connor shows up at his hotel room, Kendall jokes around and says the stuff about his and Jennifer's great psychosexual expedition and them being the Lewis and Clark of fucking or whatever - and to me, that scene really highlights how, as much as Kendall seems to forget he's not the eldest son sometimes, there is an annoying-younger-brother quality and an ease to him when he's talking to Connor. So I feel like he could maybe have opened up about him and Stewy's relationship to Connor at some point back then.

There's also another aspect to this, tbh. Since Connor was never taken seriously as a competitor for the Top Job by Logan (and therefore by the siblings as well), there is way less pressure to not show any 'weakness' in front of him, the way Ken and Roman for example were conditioned to think about each other, by Logan. And the way that the Roys think and operate in general, but also think/talk about relationships, they're either seen as conquests (specifically the way Roman talks about them - how he becomes interested in Tabitha after repeatedly saying Dad would totally go for her, how he congratulates Kendall on dating Naomi, or calls Tom a trophy husband, and how he desperately tries to 'achieve' that sort of relationship but fails) or a sign of weakness (specifically the way Logan sees them - saying 'you're marrying a man fathoms beneath you, because you're afraid of being betrayed' to Shiv, calling Ken 'cuntstruck' because he genuinely likes Naomi and feeling attacked when he brings up him and Rhea's relationship, asking Roman if he needs to get straightened out after learning about him liking Gerri, etc. And I do think this goes for any type of relationship, which is why he's so deathly afraid of actually getting close to or opening up to people, including his own wife - but there's obviously yet another layer to it, when it comes to his children and their possible queerness, which weaponizes in an even more specific and sinister way). Since Connor was never considered as The Heir, his relationships were never scrutinized by Logan in the same way (he was, of course, in turn neglected, so it's not like he was better off, or anything. His abuse was just different), so the siblings would probably not have felt that same need to prove something to him/not show any weakness, the way they did with each other, therefore perhaps making it possible for Kendall, to open up to him, or at least more so than to Roman for example.

Lastly though, I do also think that with the distance to Logan in the time between s3 and s4, they all became more open to talking about that stuff, based on how easily Shiv asks Ken in The Munsters whats up with him and Naomi, or how Ken references 'gerr-bear' to Roman, and how they offer to kill Tom for Shiv, ask her if she's okay when she's upset about Tom, etc. I definitely think the show is making a point about how much closer they've gotten by showing us they feel more comfortable with talking about their relationships after that time. So I could definitely see him telling them about him and Stewy during that period of time.

[stewy]

Wdym by Kendall having arrested development?

as in, all the Roy children have severe cases of arrested development because that is the position Logan cemented them on. they're all still trying to escape their trauma and upbringing by trying to Kill Dad, when the truth is they can't because what they're all so afraid of (being dominated and destroyed by Logan) already happened. so it's like they're stuck in this loop or what folks call the Cycle of Abuse because they haven't even come to terms that they were already stripped of all their 'agency' by their father. now in the post i think i was talking abt Kendall/Camille parallels? what i meant is that their sexual attraction got "stuck" (in Freudian terms) in this adolescent type of behavior, and that the fact the person closest to Kendall is his friend from kindergarten says a lot about what stage of development he is regarding interpersonal relationships; of course i think the closest he got to that was Rava, whom he met when he was still fairly young, but i don't think you can compare that (and the married structure they found themselves in) to knowing a friend from ages 7 to 40.

[kendallroygf]

your tags in every ken/stewy post always make me laugh because yes- stewy definitely calls his grandma and starts going on a lengthy rant about ken and occasionally shittalking the roys. she doesn’t know what he’s on about half the time but you’re right, the main takeaway is always ‘make dua sadegh:)’ he’s still gonna call and complain though. never beaten those down bad allegations since high school im afraid.

FOR REALLLLL HSFHJHGGGH. i just know he spent half the time of his weekly phone calls to his grandmother complaining about his best friend kendall and his fucked up family and i just know that every female relative in stewy’s life is sooo doting that they’re just like awwww he has a friend mashallah🥰 so cute. even when it’s decidedly not ‘cute’ anymore for stewy to be this obsessed with his best friend. like it doesn’t even cross their mind to think stewy might be a tad not normal about kendall. five year old stewy was like . i wish me and kendall wud be best fwends forevar and when we grow up we live together and have a kitty:) and stewy’s maman is like. awww say inshallah sadegh🥰.

[cowboyhorsegirl]

Final Suck-Session character ranking?

this is a somewhat pared down list bc i don't really care about mattson & his crew and i hope my opinion on mencken goes without saying

(list from most worst to least worst)

Roman Roy, congrats rome you finally won something! he gets promoted to number one worst roy because he was the most directly involved in getting mencken picked as the republican nominee, covered favorably by ATN, and (maybe?) elected as president. this man is a fascist, racist, and sexist and i think he's despicable. he's a little baby bitch boy. i'm putting him back in the dog cage for the next 10 elections.

Logan Roy, logan gets bumped to second place bc he died, and i'm very glad he decided to do that. but other than that he's awful

Tom Wambsgans, really good at being in the right place at the right time to further his career goals. unfortunately his career goals are reprehensible. he is this generation's logan roy: more self-aware, more careful, perhaps more sensitive, but no less cruel.

Kendall Roy, he is like a man if the poison dripped down.

Shiv Roy, i am afraid of the next chapter of her life. Not afraid for her. Afraid of her.

Frank & Karl, whatever. I feel nothing towards or against them.

Gerri Kellman, bad bitch. she left no survivors.

Karolina Novotney, unironically i just like Karolina. i hate that she works for waystar royco and that she's amazing at it, but she manages to do her job without making any major enemies (i don't count hugo because hugo is the equivalent of a fly buzzing around her, a minor inconvenience), she's direct and fair, no-nonsense. 10/10 would want PGM and/or the Jimenez camp to poach her from waystar royco.

Connor Roy, I almost forgot to rank Connor oh no!!! i wish connor would get out of politics and become a boy scout leader or something.

Stewy Hosseini, lol. lmao. my problematic (he's a venture capitalist) fave (he's a bisexual muslim)

Jess Jordan, I wish this show had been all about her :/

[kendulls]

@thef2ll: have you ever thought that you don’t scare easily enough?

❝ you say that like it's a bad thing? ❞ kendall meets her gaze, brows lifting as voices surround them at the restaurant. it's uncomfortable, the feeling of someone looking through you as if you're transparent glass. the resemblance of an outsider peering through a window. all his life, he's felt scared — scared of being a roy, scared of never living up to the expectations set for him, scared of becoming his father. the revelation had become clear to him, though: there was never any expectations set for him. (you're spoiled, you're curdled cream, you're nothing — the sentiments echo throughout his mind, his father's voice reverberating.) he was always meant for failure. kendall's whole life, the path was aimed towards failure and losing the game. (because, after all, this was all a game at the end of the day. the prey vs the hungry beast.)

digits moving to the liquor glass resting in front of him, he brings the rim to his lips and swallows the remaining golden whiskey, grimacing as the harsh liquor trickling down his throat. ❝ it's hard to be scared when there's nothing to be afraid of. ❞ his own voice rings out in his head: pass me the fucking shotgun.

❝ enough about my shitty life, though — what about you? is there, uh, something that scares you? ❞

[hughiecampbelle]

Succession Preference: Having a S/O With a Kid

A/N: I made the kids all different ages, from infancy to teenage, just to make it a little more interesting! I hope you like it, my love! Thank you for requesting! Feedback is appreciated!!! 💜💜💜

Connor is delighted to know that you have a child. He practically raised his siblings, being their big brother is the most important job of his life. He takes care of people. He doesn't know that much about babies, but he's an eager learner. He never wants another child in the world to feel like he has ever felt, to he loved so little for doing nothing wrong, for being born. He may or may not baby proof the entire house despite the fact that all your baby can do is maybe roll on their back they're so young. Despite him being a Roy, you're not afraid to leave them with him. He loves their little baby noises, especially their laugh. He can't get enough of their overjoyed squeal. You find Connor on the couch, warning you to be quiet. The baby's been asleep on him for hours, and he'd rather let his whole body go numb than dare wake them. He loves them like he loves you.

Kendall had two kids of his own, though you've seen from experience that he's not the most hands on father. Still, he tries to make an effort with yours, like he does his. He plays with them and their toys, whatever they're obsessed with at the moment: dinosaurs, cars, dolls, art, etc. You love to watch them bond, even if he's overthinking everything completely, like he did with his own. Kendall is so sure he's doing something wrong, that he'll ruin them the same way his father ruined him. You have to remind him a lot that he'd nothing like his father, that your child adores him. They call him Kenny and always draw pictures of him on the moon, with dinosaurs, even once as a princess. He doesn't admit it, but he's got every single one hanging on his fridge, next to his own kids old artwork. You both come with your kids, no exceptions. You wouldn't be you without them, too.

Shiv only ever dealt with teenagers when she was a teen herself and those brats were her brothers. Despite the mask she wears of cool confidence, she is actually very worried about making a good first impression on them. She loves you so much, like she's never loved anyone. She knew you had a kid going into it, but she never expected it to be serious enough for her to meet them. She changes her outfit four times. In the end, they think she's okay. That's about the best reaction either of you were hoping for. They're going through a bit of a phase atm, but they secretly think she's cool. She makes a lot of jokes to get them to laugh and enjoy her sarcasm. You tell her time and time again that they really do like her company, they're just a teenager. They're not known for showing too much interest in anything that isn't their friends and phones.

Roman has no idea what to do with your toddler. He doesn't understand why you cut up their grapes or why they enjoy stupid tv shows or why they can only wear one sock at a time, but he makes an effort in his own way. He watches those shows with them and plays with them, mostly questioning the practicality of their toy phone, and reads to them before bed/a nap. He really does like you, a lot. Anyone attached to you, he cares about, even if it's a tiny human who coughs in his face and licks his watch. They're growing on him, but they love him. Where's Ro-Ro? They ask constantly. He hates to see them cry, it breaks his heart, and will jokingly call you a monster for saying no them, even if it's for their own safety like putting their toy in the microwave or jumping on their bed. He definitely wants to spoil the hell out of them, just to hear them squeal in delight.

[kendallroydefender]

Somewhere only we know - Chapter 11 (Kendall Roy x Reader)

Masterlist

Series summary: You met Kendall when you were six years old. You have spent every summer together and now years later you and him are still just as close.

This story follows Kendall and his best friend through their lives. Will they realize their feelings for each other before it’s too late?

Chapter summary: You get a call that Kendall is about to hold a press conference about the cruises scandal. Afterwards things get hectic but you have a good talk with Rava.

Authors Notes: i am so sorry that I have to make Honey and Naomi dislike each other I swear I love her sm! Thank you for reading 🤍

Wordcount: 3.1K

You’ve been on Paxos with Stewy for the last days and it has been really nice. It’s different with him than with Ken, starting with you and Stewy having different rooms.

But it is nice. You’re sleeping in, having great food and hanging out on the beach. You’re really thankful for Stewy to ask you to come with him. You really needed a break to deal with your feelings for Kendall.

You were meant to meet Stewy at this restaurant for lunch. He said he had to go there a bit earlier, something business related. You didn’t knew that he was meeting Kendall and his father.

Kendall starts insulting Stewy when he says no to the deal, Stewy glances at the time. Kendall’s tantrum couldn’t come at a better time.

You walk down to where the waiter told you he was sitting. You stop in your tracks when you see who’s sitting opposite of Stewy. Kendall and Logan. Kendall’s eyes snap at you, he says your name.

”Ken? What are you doing here?“ you’re really confused.

”We’re meeting for business, why are you here?“ he asks

”Nothing, just taking a little break.“

He furrows his brows as he looks between you and Stewy

”Since when, uh, since when is this a thing?“

”It’s not a thing. I just wasn’t feeling good and Stew asked if I wanted to come.“ you shrug

”It’s no big deal, Ken.“ Stewy says

”Uh-huh.“ he answers, eyeing him suspiciously before he turns towards you

”Why didn’t you tell me you weren’t feeling good?“

”Kenny, you had so much going on..“ he nods but before he can say more Logan gets up

”Hello Y/n.“

”Hello, Sir.“ you say to the man

”Kendall, we’re leaving now.“ the older man says and Kendall throws you an apologetic look.

”I’ll call you.“ he tells you and you give him a nod and a smile.

Logan tells you goodbye wich you say back.

On the way back to the yacht, where his girlfriend is currently waiting for him, he can’t help but think about how pretty you looked. Sun kissed, relaxed, your summer dress hugging your body perfectly. It’s been too long since he had been on a vacation with you. He misses it.

Stewy notices the way you pick on you food after Kendall and his father left

”Honey, you’ve been doing so good don’t let him ruin this.“

”I’m not.“ you huff and look up to be met with Stewy looking like he’s not believing you

”Shut up, I’m really not.“ you tell him before adding ”He just looked so sad.“

”It’s Kendall, he always looks sad.“ you throw Stewy a deadly look.

”Stewy, I’m not angry at him, we’re not fighting. I’m not going to talk shit about him.“

”Come on, let’s go to the beach.“

The rest of the day is spent reading on a nice lounger and getting more tan in the sun.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

It’s much later when Kendall stares into the water. Naomi’s words linger. ”He loves the broken you“. Kendall thinks about calling you. He knows you would know how to handle this. He could also call Naomi, but he’s afraid either of you two would talk him out of the plan his father has made. But you would be right, he thinks. You would tell him he doesn’t deserve this, no matter what he thinks about himself. God, he misses you at this moment. He decides to text you. He types in a message a few times before locking his phone again. What would he even tell you? Theres no need to worry you. Everything will work out fine. You’re on Paxos anyway, no need to ruin your vacation.

You sit on the couch of your hotel room, watching tv. Stewy wanted to go to some party but you weren’t in the mood. You see a message appear on your phone screen. Roman.

'Can you call me?‘.

You furrow your brows, they should still be on the yacht so why does Roman want to talk to you. You two don’t speak often anymore, sometimes there’s texts updating each other on how things are, a fucked up meme or a happy birthday message. So Roman wanting to speak to you while they’re on some weird family trip does make some alarm go off in you. You take a deep breath and press the green button to call.

”Hey, Rome what’s up?“ you ask cautiously ”Uh, hey y/n. Yeah so dad made this trip with us to find out who he can blame for Cruises.“ Roman says ”Uh-huh.“ you hum, of course Logan did. Wanting to offer someone as the scapegoat that wasn’t himself was typical. ”And- fuck- Uh, It’s- it’s Kendall.“ you feel your blood run cold. No, it can’t be. ”No, fuck. He can’t-“ you stutter and Roman takes a breath ”Yeah, I thought it would be Karl or even Tom. But- Dad he.. whatever- I’m sorry.“ he says and you shake your head even though he can’t see ”It’s not your fault, Roman. Thank you for telling me.“ you say sincerely. ”So, uh Kendall says he’s okay with it… But he can’t be… right?“ you hear the kid in Romans voice come through. ”I don’t know Roman.“ and you don’t, you know Kendall good enough to know that there’s a big possibility that Logan convinced him somehow that what he’s doing is the right thing.

”Oh how are you holding up? I heard about the hostage situation.“ you ask with a warm tone

”It must have been horrible.“

”Yeah, yeah i felt like I would shit my heart out but I’ve got to see Karl having a panic attack sooo..“

”Great to see you finding the best in every situation.“ you chuckle

”But seriously, you can call me anytime.“

After the call you sit on your couch looking out into the city. You don’t know what to do. How can you help Kendall? Should you call him? Why didn’t he call you?

You stay awake most of the night, thinking about what you can do. Around three in the morning you made up your mind. You get up and throw your clothes into a suitcase before walking over to Stewys suite. Thankfully he seems to be already back.

He answers the door looking like he had been sleeping

”I have to leave.“ You tell him as soon as the door is fully opened

”Did something happen?“ he asks worried

”No, not yet at least.“

He looks confused

”I’m not following.“

”You’ll see. Just- just follow the news.“

He opens the door a little wider

”Come in. And then tell me what is going on.“ you follow him in and sit down on the couch

”Honey, what are you talking about?“

”I just got a call from Roman. Logan is making Kendall the head of the cruises scandal, there’s a press conference scheduled for tomorrow where he is supposed to say that he’s responsible.“ you explain, Stewy is silent for some moments before taking a deep breath

”Oh wow.“

”Yeah. And I- I just want to be there for him.“

”I get that. You should go.“ he tells you.

You get your bags. Stewy goes into the lobby with you giving you a hug goodbye, he will follow the pressconference tomorrow and text you.

”Thank you for this getaway. I really needed it.“

”Anytime.“ he tells you

”Love you Stewy, take care.“

”love you too and you too.“ he waits for a second before adding ”Take care of Kendall too.“

”I will.“ the two of them still caring for each other even when they aren’t talking is so typical.

You get into a car that drives you to the airport where your jet is already waiting. You sleep for a while and when you wake up you’re almost back in New York. You get ready quickly.

In the car you tell your driver the address Roman told you yesterday. It’s the place where the press conference is supposed to take place. You find Jess, Karolina and Greg at the back of the room. Jess gives you a tight lipped smile, "Hey y/n.“ Greg mutters. Your heart breaks when you see Kendall approach the table. He starts to speak and your heart drops, knowing what had been planned. You can’t believe it, you know Logan your whole life but this was too far. But then it all takes a turn, Kendall tells everyone that it was his fathers fault. You’re speechless, you felt so proud of your friend. "Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.“ Karolina muttered next to you while tapping on her phone rapidly but you can’t help but smile for just a second. Would it mean that a lot of things would change? Definitely. But you are just relieved that he stood up for himself, you don’t want to imagine how the press would had ripped him to shreds over something he didn’t do.

You look at Greg for a second noticing the envelope he clutches to his chest. Kendall finishes his statement with "Today his reign will end.“ and walks off the stage again. You set in motion and quickly follow him through the mass of reporters.

”Excuse me, excuse me.“ you mutter as you make your way through the bodies. He walks through a door, you a few feet behind him. You enter an empty hallway and you yell his name ”Ken!“ he turns around. A look of surprise on his face, not expecting you here. You jog up to him and stop a few feet in front of him and then you rush the last few steps, throwing your arms around his neck. ”I’m so proud of you.“ you whisper into him and you could feel him hold you a little bit tighter. You press a few chaste kisses to his cheek, you two staring into each others eyes for a moment before parting.

”What are you doing here? You- you were just in Greece?“

”I came back last night.“

”Why?“

”Kenny…“ you shake your head, hoping he understands, he does.

He cups your cheek

”Thank you.“

You smile at him as the others catch up with you.

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Ken has locked himself into the bathroom and Greg’s threatening to break in the door to make sure he’s okay. You’re shaking your leg, getting more nervous

”Okay- Greg. Just let me.“ you gesture for the tall man to step aside

”Kenny? Hey can you open the door- or just let me in?“ it’s still silent from the other side of the door until the door opens and he walks out awfully motivated. You watch him with a worried look.

”You okay?“ you ask when it’s just the two of you, the others are already in the other room.

”Yes, of course. Come on we’re going to make history.“ he says before heading off too.

The five of you go downstairs into the waiting car. Kendall is taking your hand in his as he pulls you along with him. You sit next to him. As they plan the new strategies you just sit and listen. You are proud of him for not letting his father do something this cruel to him but you’re not stupid, you know Logan will not just let it be.

Kendall calls Naomi and you play with your fingers, when he tells her he loves her you have to take a shaky inhale. It hurts to hear it.

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It was mad in Ravas flat. People rushing in and out to talk to Kendall.

You sit in the kitchen with Rava while Kendall talks to different people. She always excepted you as a part of his life, unlike some other girlfriends he had throughout time. "This is insane right?“ she asks as she hands you a mug of coffee. "Thanks, yeah absolutely batshit.“ you answer taking a sip of the hot beverage. "I just hope this won’t kill him.“ you say slowly. Rava nods "I get what you mean. Don’t let it take you with it, okay?“ she looks at you seriously "I know you love him, I do too but you need to take care of yourself too, okay?“ she says and you take in a breath. You don’t want to lie to her but you know whatever would happen you would stay next to him. He is your best friend, the most important person in your life, he had always been there and you couldn’t leave him if you’d wanted to. "Rava I-" you don’t know what you wanted to tell her "I know y/n. I know.“ she gives your hand a squeeze

Kendall comes in to ask if Naomi could come over. After he left Rava turns to you "So… what’s your take on this?“ she asks and you shrug ”I don’t know, I mean she’s nice I guess..it’s just.. I don’t know.“ you answer. "Are you worried about the drugs?“ she says with a look that tells you she is worried herself and you nod before saying "Yeah but I think I’ll always be in some way.“ she gives you an emphatic smile. "I mean she cares about him and he’s happy with her and that should be enough for me to like her but I don’t know I feel like she doesn��t really like me somehow.“ you admit to the brown haired woman. She looks at you as if she’s contemplating something. ”After our break up. Me and Kens. I’ve noticed something and I want you to know that im totally fine with it, but you two did seemed closer and it seemed like there was something there… between you.“

”It wasn’t always-" you start wanting to tell her that you weren’t jealous and in love with him the whole time they were married. The feelings just came back the last year. ”Oh, I know. Don’t worry.“ she tells you with a kind smile. ”I also know that he loved me. But I can see the way you two look each other the past months. It’s okay, I want you to be happy and him too.“ you look at her your mouth slightly agape. ”I don’t know what to say.“ you admit and she gives your hand a squeeze ”You don’t have to. I just want you to know that I’m happy for you if it happens.“

”Even if, it doesn’t matter anymore, he’s with her.“ Rava gives you a 'come on‘ look before she says ”We both know it’s not going to last forever.“

”But he doesn’t like me this way.“ you look at the table in front of you. It feels good being able to talk to someone about how you feel.

”Well he’s an idiot. But we all knew that. I think he’s just, I don’t know manic? Maybe running away from how he really feels.“ she tells you, you look at her and she gives your hand a squeeze across from the table. ”Y/n I love you, you know that. You’re my friend. The right time will come.“

”Sooo, what about you? seeing anyone?.“ you ask with a knowing look

”Well, there might be someone I’m kind of seeing, but I don’t know.“ you squeal

”Tell me all about him!“

••••••••••••••••••••••••••

Berry Schneider and Comfrey arrive and you watch Greg make very awkward small talk with the blonde. She catches your eyes and you shrug apologetic with a grin. Naomi comes over and that’s a whole thing after she tells Greg to open a bottle of wine that Ravas godfather gave her.

You eat dinner with Rava, Sophie and Iverson and it’s good to catch up with them. They have grown up so much. After the kids go to bed you feel like it’s time for you to leave, even though Rava offered you one of the guest rooms. You walk into the living room.

”Kenny? I don’t want to disturb but I think I’ll go home now.“ he stands up from where he’s sitting with his girlfriend. ”You don’t have to leave, there’s room for you.“ Kendall tries but you shake your head a little. ”I have work tomorrow and no stuff here. But I can come back tomorrow afternoon?“

”Yeah, that’d be great.“ he tells you and you can tell he’s sincere, that he wants you here.

You two hug goodbye and you tell him ”Call me if you need to talk.“ even though you doubt he will, he has Naomi here.

”I will. Thank you.“

You press a kiss to his cheek before you leave. You nod towards Naomi with a little "Bye“ she waves you.

Rava walks you to the door. ”It’ll all work out.“ she tells you as you hug her goodbye. A sentence that you don’t know will come true when the Roy’s are involved but you have to believe anyway.

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The next day you walk into the hall when you spot Kendall and a huge horse.

”What the hell is that?“ you ask with a chuckle

”Uh, your boyfriend brought it.“ he says and you furrow your brows

”Huh? What are you talking about?“

”It’s from Stewy.“ he nods his head towards the trojan horse and you roll your eyes.

”Okay. Ken.“ you step closer to him, holding his hands.

”I never had anything with Stewy. And I was never ever in my whole life attracted to him in that way.“ you look into his eyes the whole time. You hope the message gets through to him. You never were attracted to Stewy but you were attracted to Kendall. And he should know that since you’ve slept together back in college.

”Okay?“ you ask

”Okay. Yeah, sorry.“ he says and gives your hand a squeeze.

Jess comes in and Kendall looks towards her

”Shiv is here.“ she says and you snap your head towards Kendall

”Oh?“

”Uh, great let her up.“ he tell Jess

”I guess I’ll leave you to it then. Tell me how that worked out?“

”You don’t have to-“

”No, no it’s fine. Just wanted to see how you’re doing.“

You give him a hug and a kiss to his cheek.

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You’ve read the letter Shiv published. You felt sick the whole time. You should be less surprised by everything with the Roys but you still find it unbelievable.

You’ve tried to call Ken but he didn’t pick up and didn’t answer your message.

He had a tv show scheduled for today, wich was cancelled last minute. The host was pretty rough on him afterwards.

Meanwhile Kendall’s staring at Naomi. She’s sleeping and he should feel comforted by her presence but he can’t help but wish he was with you right now. Curled up next to you, feeling your warmth and your soft skin. He takes his phone and opens your message

'Read the letter. Seriously fuck Shiv!‘

'Call me if you want to talk. Love you.'

He wipes a tear from his eye before he types a message to you

'It’s whatever. Love you too.'

[shortkingromanroy]

i’ve seen discussion on here about how logan seems to have declined post-episode 1 stroke. he’s colder with his children after that episode (which also may have to do with having them in his pocket again) and is generally quite reckless.

(discussion of gerri and logan under the cut)

it makes me think of the thanksgiving ep where a lot of people, including gerri, witness him hitting iverson with a can. after that, gerri immediately turns on him and joins kendall's coup. when i first watched this ep i assumed that gerri had reached a moral breaking point and could no longer support a man who would hurt a member of his own family. however, having watched the series a few times now, this obviously doesn’t add up - gerri has stood by logan through countless scandals, including cruises, and watched him hit roman, who she obviously cares about. even if these things upset her, she still remains loyal to logan.

so i’m realizing now how the two are connected (logan’s mental decline in s1 and gerri’s siding with kendall during the vote of no confidence): she didn’t turn on logan because hitting a child is so terrible to her that she’d stop acting in her own self-interest; no, the fact that logan would do something so reckless, semi-publicly, showed gerri this mental decline. she was afraid that he’d do something like that in public and fuck them. she wasn’t so much appalled by child endangerment but was more nervous about her own self-interests being compromised.

i think this is an interesting nuance of gerri's character because she is shown to clearly understand right and wrong even when she does things that are wrong. yeah she commits and enables horrible actions throughout the series, but she's not like logan, who doesn't seem to give a fuck about anyone else. (and we can be pretty certain that logan has been that way for a long time, even before his stroke; he's just gotten worse at hiding it.)

gerri has a moral compass. she's just learned to ignore it because she cares more about money and power than said moral compass. on the other hand, i don't think logan really has a functional moral compass. logan's values in any given moment are the values that will serve his own interests best. on the other hand, gerri will always serve her own interests, even if they go against her values.

i think this makes an interesting dynamic between them: gerri seems well aware that logan is an abusive father (and grandfather), a bigot, and generally just a danger to every human being on earth, and she seems to understand that this is bad. however, so long as her interests are being served, she can shove it down. when logan's health declines in season 1 and he struggles to hide his wrongdoing, gerri flips on him and joins kendall's coup out of self-interest.

compare this with the rest of the series, where logan has regained his mental fortitude and his full, terrifying powers of manipulation (see: his conversation with rhea where she finally realizes she "can't see the bottom of the pool"), and gerri is as loyal to him as ever.

we as the audience don’t get much insight into the non-roy characters' personal thoughts and feelings - for example, does frank genuinely care about kendall as a son or is it 100% manipulation? 50%? 25%? do gerri, frank, karl, karolina, and the others feel like the cruises victims genuinely do not count as ‘real people’ or is it just that they’ve picked money over their loyalty to humanity?

i find logan to be a fascinating character and i don't believe he's truly 'evil' - that is to say, he's not a moustache-twirling disney villain. i think everything logan does, he can justify to himself as the right thing to do. he's so good at denial, lying, and manipulation that he's managed to fool even himself. i think this sets him apart from the other characters, even the senior Waystar execs like gerri who have been committing atrocities by his side for decades.

[transmutationisms]

i get why people focus on roman's sex issues but legit none of his siblings are having normal sex, certainly not in logan's eyes. kendall "did you spread your legs for him on the first date" roy, whose kids are constantly subjected to logan's racism and misogyny and are not seen as legitimate roy heirs (in 'hunting' he tells tom to shut up until he'a got a grandson on the way). shiv "oh siobhan stop fucking around, maybe i should just let them come for you" roy whose political career depended on her good reputation, being implicitly threatened on those terms. connor "he rents a room, he rents a girl" roy who's childless and unmarried and funding his gf's shitty play and trying to buy a shrivelled dick on the internet.

like. all three brothers are symbolically impotent. connor as a pathetic overcompensating aging desert hippie, kendall as a submissive divorced faildad with failkids. roman and kendall both getting constant gay allegations. shiv unable to keep up the role as perfect wife (a role logan wouldn't respect even if she did manage it lol). roman and kendall choosing sexual partners based on what their father thinks (jennifer, tabitha) versus the accusation that shiv chose tom because she's afraid to be betrayed. kendall fucking rava with their clothes still on, connor asking willa to slap his face at family thanksgiving, shiv trying to set up a threesome with a yacht employee right after the cruises testimony. the way shiv sees love as a threat and kendall thinks it's inherently accompanied by scorn and connor wants it so bad he blatantly disregards willa's boundaries and roman proposes to two people but he garbles it.

i just don't think any of these people are sexually normal or seen as such by their father lol. which isn't to erase the uniqueness of roman's sex issues. but. the fact of having sex issues is not what makes him unique, relative to his siblings. i think we often hear about logan's attitude toward roman's sex issues either from logan himself, or through shiv (because she has a tendency to say certain things directly that other people skirt around). and those two chracters have different reasons to be invested in the narrative that roman is The One With Sex Issues. but it's like.... clearly something that he does share with all of his siblings, manifested in varying ways lol

[jmencken]

    Naturally, Mencken has an air of superiority to him which is strengthened when he’s around humans. To him, they’re so weak and so fragile and so much lower than his own species. That remains and often transfers to those of the same species and even to long standing, historic, packs like the Roy’s. He thinks he’s better than them, that they’re only news that needs to step aside for something new. 

     "I suppose I’ll have to show what I have to offer to help you decide.” It’s easy enough to leave open to a variety of options just in case anyone listens in to their conversation. He think they’re being discreet enough but some situations make caution the way to go. Roman being from a stronger pack than him means nothing. He thinks he could easily overpower the other wolf as he could and had done to others in the past. 

    Jeryd leans in closer. He can hear just fine but he knows as much discretion is key in what he has planned. “Who says you’re getting involved? We’re just two guys having a chat about the upcoming election.” He gives Roman a little wink, just for the two of them. “Besides, I hear members of your pack are defecting to the Pierces. Not a good look.” Kendall had been spotted with Naomi and given the press between Kendall and his father, the assumption was an easy guess. 

The mention of Logan grants a disgusted look that he doesn’t bother to hide. “I’d rather stick with some new blood. Send the old guy to the gulag and make some use out of him. I’d much rather deal with you.” He was never one for social decorum and wanted to challenge where he could if it benefited his own standing and this was the perfect opportunity for that. “So, you’re having trouble with Pierce in public and private ways. I think my pack could do with a new leader. Someone with ambition that isn’t afraid of challenging others, someone younger to bring us into new territory and if that person also leads the country…well, that could be beneficial to us both.”

Roman doesn't really care what's going on with the DC pack; it's just politics and then, layered underneath, doggy politics. He doesn't care for it beyond pretending to care when Logan asks him about it. Who gives a fuck who leads the pack, who leads the country? The Roys have money and power, they're above it all anyway.

So he's here because he has to be, not because he wants to be. He listens to crusty old fucks prattle on about economic policy and foreign policy and whatever the fuck else besides, and counts down the hours until the summit's over and they can return home.

( He'll never admit it but being away from their home turf makes him antsy. This is technically neutral territory, but they're a powerful family and he knows without a doubt that there's packs out there that would seize any opportunity to reduce their numbers. )

For the most part, the attendees are human. Boring, even more so because of their mundanity. Idly, he wonders what would happen if he wolfed out in front of them all. It doesn't work like that, he can't control when it happens, but he'd like to see the sea of shocked faces if he did.

When he's approached, he's alone at the bar, nursing a subpar whiskey and fighting a headache brought on by the stink of so many people all in one place.

He shifts in his seat and straightens slightly when he realises just who's talking to him. Tradition dictates that Mencken should have approached Logan; the fact that he's so openly defying social convention is oddly thrilling and Roman's kind of flattered that he chose him instead of his dad, or even one of his siblings.

"Haven't decided yet," he replies, looking him over. Even just looking at him, Roman suspects that he's powerful. A little shiver goes down his spine.

He lowers his voice, mindful of the humans around them. "I'm not supposed to get involved with other packs. If you need our help, you're supposed to go to my dad. You know, craggy fucker, looks about eight hundred years old." He gestures vaguely, then tips his head back to look at Jeryd. The movement exposes his throat. "But sure. You're here, I'm here, I can pass on the message to him. What's going on? Your pack falling apart or what?"

[shivorce]

i think you answered an ask once about Greg being very gracious and forgiving. i don’t disagree, but do you think that that quality is because he’s just Like That or more because he wants everyone else around him to forgive him too when he does cruel things to them?

had to poke around a bit to find it, but i think you’re referencing this ask where i do talk a bit about how greg’s nature seems to be, at its core, extremely forgiving and accommodating. to me, that’s the core reason as to why he appears to let so much poor behavior slide — i.e. ewan giving away his inheritance, kendall burning him, tom’s Whole Entire Deal. the long and short of it is: the former. more under the cut!

like, i think of greg as quite empathetic. or his own version of empathetic, anyway. he’s observant and discerning and able to look at situations for what they are, and tries not to take what are in actuality quite personal affronts personally. he catches on very early into the show that tom behaves the way he does not because he’s a “terrible, terrible prick” (which is the explanation tom himself provides) but because he’s afraid and lonely. when tom implicates greg in a criminal conspiracy, when tom pelts greg with water bottles, when tom wrecks his office and delivers that deranged nero/sporus speech, greg has that context at top of mind. “this isn’t about me. he’s clearly dealing with something else.” i’m not necessarily saying this is a good thing — it’s simply how i rationalize greg’s ability to carry on his friendship with tom despite these events.

and greg hopes for this kind of treatment in return. when he first blackmails tom, he’s wary of hurting tom on an emotional level. he wants to make sure that this move is being interpreted as he intends — strategic opportunity-seizing, not some vindictive strike against tom as a person. similarly, when he uses the papers as leverage again with kendall, he hopes that he and tom (and the rest of waystar) can continue being friends. it’s just business, after all! that’s why greg is seeming to turn the other cheek when it comes to kendall going back on his word and planning to burn him. like, yeah, it totally sucks, but he and kendall can still be buds. kendall isn’t doing this because he doesn’t like greg, but because he’s facing a whole bunch of pressure at all sides and has to do what makes the most sense. because to go down that line of thinking is dangerous and would potentially decimate every other significant relationship he has in his life, including with his grandfather. kendall’s actions are no different in greg’s eyes than his own plan to sue ewan in an “affectionate way.”

even re: comfry and the contessa, i think a really big part of why greg was even able to engage in his Delusional Social Climber Boy Summer antics is because he truly believes that he isn’t hurting comfry’s feelings. again, this is just business. greg’s looking out for greg. and even if someone does get hurt, well, he hopes they know his intentions weren’t malicious, that he didn’t mean it like that. ming @tomwambsgirl has an interesting take that this particular pattern of Greg Behavior is an indication of low empathy, which i totally see there being an argument for, as well. but to me, i think it’s a sign of very efficient compartmentalization, and a life spent needing to not take things personally as a matter of survival.

i will concede that the more time he spends ingratiating himself with the roys, the more greg’s ability to care for others seems to be eroding in favor of his increasing sense of self-interest. that’s why the alternative explanation you’re suggesting here, though — that greg’s seemingly forgiving nature is first and foremost strategic — is extremely interesting to me. imagine me putting a finger to my chin and going hmmm. i do agree with you on a level. greg absolutely does hope that when he’s kind of a dirtbag, the people around him are able to take it on the chin and let bygones be bygones, much the same way he does. we all hope that our relationships are reciprocal. but do i think that he’s premeditating this? no, not really. i doubt he’s, like, hoarding good will with people like tom and kendall in hopes that they’re cool about it when he one day stabs them all in the back. he just … expects them to be cool about it. he hopes that they will be.

i really, really hope that future greg development involves him interrogating this pattern a bit, because at the center of it is a person who’s never allowed himself (or been allowed, rather) to feel hurt or wronged, even when it’s more than justified. in general, i think greg doesn’t feel allowed to be a full person, for fear that if anyone notices him too much (if the greg window is not fully minimized), his already precarious position in the family will go away. but. those are my thoughts!