#afraid to open my word doc and see what nonsense blazed nina whacked in there actually

[shitouttabuck]

fuck it friday

tagged by @anxieteandbiscuits and @forthewolves thank you angels

again from i love you like a dog fic idk i might need to stop doing wip tag games because i’ve not written enough so im ending up sharing. all of it lol

Buck slowly backspaces his text, letter by letter, and wonders why a matinee movie date hurts so much more than if they’d gotten Chris a babysitter and gone in the evening instead. Something about the very ordinary intimacy of intentionally clearing your afternoon schedule to just sit in the dark holding hands with your partner for a couple hours, perhaps. His fingers shake as he deletes the last letter.

Either way, this is the third option presented to him. Eddie’s really happy with Marisol. A lot happier than he was with Ana, and maybe that was partly due to the way his own demons were haranguing him at the time, if also due to the fact that Ana was just—for lack of kinder words, not right for him.

(Eddie still flinches whenever Hen teases him with a stretched-out, melodic Edmundo.)

And if Eddie’s happy with Marisol, maybe Eddie has a future with Marisol. A future serious enough to give Buck some bastardised version of closure in the form of a harpoon to the heart. Painful, but effective. Efficient in euthanizing the horrible animal inside him that just wants, wants Eddie so badly he’s sick with it.

i wrote a full 250 words yesterday before getting so frustrated at how shit they were i ended up getting stoned which is GOOD for IDEAS but BAD for actual articulate writing lol

early tagging @jeeyuns-barbies @onward--upward @colonoscopys @transboybuckley @try-set-me-on-fire @diazblunt @alyxmastershipper @rewritetheending @buckactuallys i know some of you have just posted / are just about to post fic but if you have anything else!!! 💘