#actually that one sam and max server would be surprised to hear that one creepy dude was the person that kept reconnecting me to the server | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

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Sometimes you just listen to a TikTok audio and get the need to make a post about a self destructive cycle your in only to never acknowledge the post again yknow

The song is Don't Smoke by Mitski, specifically the TikTok version is the Audiotree Live version

#pink bowtie is the only person here whos design actually represents someone #to clarify since like art is of the beholder right but i find drawing to this song specifically ironic #because i am very aware that i have a pattern of blocking people if they're nice to ms #im being the mean one here; im being mean to my newly ex friends and myself #but this time i actually tried to keep friends and my mental health has been the worst it has in years #so i guess i just need friends that are worse than i am to keep my mental health stable??#whatever its just interesting #this is also the first and hopefully the last vent art ill ever draw for a few years #vent art #vent #art #i literally JUST made a post on my other ask blog about my ibis constantly crashing #and it IS BUT i also have feelings. i can work through crashes to get my feelings out alot more than i can for silly dsaf men #the good thing about tumblr is that the people this is about this time wont ever see it since they dont have tumblr or dont follow me #the bad thing is that i DID do this like. 3 times to the sam and max community and like. thats almost all of my followers whoopsie daisy #and like “oh if theyre blocked then they wont see the post” i didnt actually block them since i like seeing their posts. from afae #i just block them every time they follow me #actually that one sam and max server would be surprised to hear that one creepy dude was the person that kept reconnecting me to the server #whatever. i need to stop editing this post for the tags and go to sleep #funny thing is my partner wont see this post despite following me. you would think a partner would care but. ig not thats okay #my partners the only person i think is better than me who i've kept around #but that might be because they dont show. any interest in anything im interested in #im so tired of being the only person to put in effort to keep the relationship alive and be interested in the things they enjoy #but i guess i also do vent to them alot; i only talk about like 10% of my life but having mental disorders will do that ig #i need to stop typing/venting and go to sleep. or at least stop listening to this damn song

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