#actually now I wanna go rewatch what she said because she was kinda cryptic about stuff

[sohelish]

so I’ve recently finished the quest where you get to meditate and it made me think things...

it’s kinda weird because I didn’t listen into meditation

(like idk I don’t think I can do it my mind starts to wander)

so I’m not sure what the monk talked about however at the end of the quest johnny appears and here’s what’s super odd:

the quest description is basically johnny’s inner comments and during the meditation he kept being all grumpy in the description, saying stuff like the monk’s a fraud and like, if u wanna chill put on my album, blah-blah he doesn’t like meditation ofc he doesn’t

and then when he pops after the quest: a) he says he feels like dog’s shit; b) he doesn’t remember any monk, even tho the monk did leave things behind and if you pay him you do lose money so he is real; c) I think he forgot misty’s name because he goes: talk to... er... misty. talk to misty about it.

+ you can ask the monk a question and I tried all of those

one is: what are you teaching me exactly; and he says something about helping you make a decision in the end

what I’m going on about is ???

the game totally just made me doubt if johnny is sentient at all, like at all at all

there are so many quests about whether an AI is sentient enough to be an AI etc. etc. like the Brendan quest where Brendan himself says he’s just generating phrases in a cool way... however it does make you wonder if he’s still sentient because if he is this aware maybe aware is enough?

(if you help the monks in the pacifist non-lethal way you meet them again and they have a lot of insight about souls and soul copies)

but what got me is...

if meditation is enough to push johnny out and make him forget things and make him lose his grip on v’s consciousness, isn’t he more like an idea than a sentient being?

I honestly don’t know anymore

but I do know that I tried to meditate to stop thinking bad thingsand to combat obsessive thoughts (didn’t work for me xD)

so is... johnny just an obsessive thought?! gasp plot twist

because even hel/v at this point feels at least a little bad about potentially having to kill him

but if he’s not even that real... I mean

you kinda get connected to Brendan and Skippy but when they reset you’re like... huh... not the same as saying goodbye to jackie is it?

okay, comparing AIs to humans is unfair...

take EDI from M.ass Effe.ct or even Legion who was developing sentience before your eyes...

ok I’m rambling, anyway. this quest kinda made me think that johnny’s more like a bunch of complex generated phrases rather than EDI

like idk maybe the monk hinted at the fact that johnny isn’t johnny but is just some of his written memories that kinda created a second personality in v’s head... but only because the basis already existed for it?

anger, desire for a companion in jackie’s place who died. a companion you’re chooms with but also at odds often

lol v desperately wanted a friend and created an imaginary one out of whatever data was stored on the chip and used her anger as a base for it haha

he is a manifestation of v’s anger and desire not to die alone lmao

ok this is sad tho...