#actually kinda love the outfit thoooo

[dilemma-danger]

pov: ur local mcr obsessed emo is going out in blistering hot weather (he will get heatstroke)

[pwnyta]

MORE TWISTED WONDERLAND TWINK JUDGMENT.

That hair is DIABOLICAL. Especially in blond... i know the Huntsman has that hair but it wasnt that bad in black. Hes still my favorite of the three Snow White crew TBH. The Huntsman?

More like CUNTSMAN AMIRITE?!

Best/worst outfit- This shitty fake Aussie outfit.. IDKY but I can only imagine him with an Australian accent now. Its terrible. I do take back the Cuntsman title why are all his outfit kinda lame? Theyre really doing Snow Whites baddies dirty.

Overall- 5.5/10...

...Not Hades... Why he look like an edgy version of Yaoi Jesus!? Not like this Hades... Not like this. I hate it here.

Best outfit- The Knight outfit. Its pretty sick...

Overall- 3/10 looks pretty cool but the fact hes so miserable even tho Hades is iconic... smdh

...Not Robot Shota Hades.... Do they know theres Medusa, Centaur, Hydra, Pain and Panic... WHY TWO HADES AND THEYRE BOTH THE WORST!?

Best outfit- This butterfly drip is actually pretty sick. I still hate it.

Overall- 4/10 for the Butterfly outfit he gets an extra point over Idia...

...Maleficent.... Alright big dog. You better not fuck this up. They fucked up Hades and The Evil Queen... you gotta really pop off bud. So far so fine.

Best outfit- Alright Mal... you saved yourself. I also like the Long outfit. WELL DONE BUD.

Overall- 7.5/10!

...WHO? Silver... is he... the fuckin sewing wheel? ???

Best outfit- I get to reward the Long outfit! Well done. But since its a shared outfit... not as good.

Overall- 5/10?? I guess.

...Maybe the green fire? I guess theres slimpicking as far as baddies in Sleeping Beauty... but why just add so many and then like NONE of the baddies in Hercules accent Hades? I dont get it Fifi... But this guy is pretty good. Rare not-twink? Real?

Best outfit- He looks nice in this half cape. I think he should have a proper belt but w/e.

Overall- 6.5/10

WHO!?!?!? I dont like this guy at all.... but also it makes me laugh at the person complaining about people sexualizing characters when theres so much shotabait LMAO.... Girl.

Best outfit- Full armor baby. Thats the way to go.

Overall- 2.5/10

Crowley... lookin sharp. Cool mask. Cool wing cape...

Best outfit- His standard. He doesnt have much to work with unfortunately.

Overall- 8/10

LIPSMACK OF DISAPPOINTMENT. You can do better than that for Cruella... Come on now.

Best outfit- His standard I guess cuz his other one sucks worse.

Overall- 4/10

Not Cinderellas step mom being better designed than Cruella... Also he reminds me of that comic with the old man with the fat ugly cat. So...

Best outfit- He doesnt get any more but its still good.

Overall- 7/10. Simple but I dig it.

...Tibbies.

Best outfit- I mean... its simple but a little cunty. HES GOT ANTLERS ON ALL OF HIS ...outfits.

Overall- 7/10

NOT TWINK FACILIER!!! WITH THE KILLMONGER CUT! LMFAO.

Best outfit- GIVE HIM MORE CLOTHES. WHY IS HE FACULTY!? WHY ISNT HE A STUDENT!? That a hamsa in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?

Overall- 10/10 I cant rate my mans Facilier any lower Im sorry. LMAO Hes very cute.

NOT CUNTY TWINK FROLLO!!! NOOOOO

Best outfit- His only outfit

Overall- ....8/10 Hes dripped out what can I say?

HONEST JOHN!? LMAO... Yo whyd they drop the ball so hard on Sleeping Beauty and then just started pulling out these NPC baddies...

Best outfit- Only outfit. Hes serving thoooo

Overall- 9/10

...How you gonna make the Cheshire Cat boring? I like his mome rath pants tho... I love Mome Raths...

Best Outfit- n/a

Overall- 2/10 THATS THE CHESHIRE CAT GUY!? ... boring as fuck...

What a weak ending... after all that goodness.

[gettinshiggywithit]

! Spending Your Birthday With Chuuya Nakahara !

(pt 1)(pt2)(this is part three)

scenario:- how about this year you spend your special day with the love of your life,chuuya nakahara.

pairing:- chuuya x gn!reader

Spending any day out with chuuya means youre gettin treated.

wine,shoppin or just the arcade,you’ll be doin stuff that you both love(or just stuff that u love that he’s managed to convince you that he likes em too :’) he just loves to see u smile mann)

So you can imagine how perfect he’d make your birthdayy

It’d start with your favourite breakfast spread out on the table

And lemme tell you,he didnt miss Anything!

That coffee you’d wanted to get but couldnt cos it was outta stock? Hes made it

that special bagel or breakfast topping ud wanted to try but had decided wasnt worth the price?hes got a bowl of it

This man rly pulled out all the stops

And its not even 12 pm!

Next you guys had a day out on the townnn

Shopping?goin to watch a movie?just walkin?? Ya’ll are doin it

Like i said,anything to make your day the best ever

(Yall even visited that arcade from season two! Buddy thought he’d be great at the games,buttt he’d kinda lost touch.he absolutely Schooled you on the motorcycle sim thoooo)

And after your little outing he led you back to your shared apartment

and waiting for you out on the couch surrounded by candles and petals of ur favourite flowers was that outfit you’d seen once and loved,but hadnt bought because of the price.(SEE I TOLD U HE WAS PULLIN OUT ALL THE STOPS)

(SAY;THANK YOU TACHIHARA AND HIGUCHII(to clarify,its cos they were the ones who set it all up while u were out!))You got dressed in your fancy new outfit,and headed out to see chuuya in a fancy little out fit of his own

A purple button down,with the first two buttons undone,a tie hanging loosely around his collar.

He held out his hand for you to take and escorted you to his bike.

Next,you headed to a fancy-ass restaurant (which had great wine btw!!!) and he once again,treated you to your choice of wines,appetizers and actual mains + desert

Once you were done,you rode back and he led you over to your balcony,you both sat down on the chairs there and you promptly passed out.(I MEAN WHO WOULDNT BE TIRED AFTER A DAY LIKE THATTT)

Afterwards he ,effortlessly,picked you up and carried you to your room

That night you slept in your fancy-wear

And the next day you woke up with a hang over~

But waking up to eachothers faces made everything better<3

What a birthday ey?

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[taegyuun]

s/o stealing their clothes

genre: fluff

word count: 1k

paring: enhypen x reader

note: i wrote this in about 10 mins so it’s not that great but i think it’s pretty cute

♡ — LEE HEESEUNG

he does like a triple take-

mans has to look and then looks again in disbelief before rubbing his eyes and leaning forward like some old man and look again

once he renders what was actually happening hes go s o r e d

pls bully him for it it’d be so funny

you’re just standing there like🧍‍♀️ “yo what” and hes like “my? hello! is- mine- woah- good lord- hi yeah-“ and you’re like is he good

you literally ask him if he can smell toast bc you were that worried to the point of thinking he was having a stroke

nah hes just malfunctioning BC YOU LOOK SO GOD DAMN CUTE

once he kinda regains his consciousness he cannot stop cooing over how cute you are

rest of the boys under the cut !

♡ — JAY PARK

mans pretends like he does not see 🧑‍🦯

sir we all know you purposely left that in a very totally not obvious place and acted like you forgot it 😐✋

you ain’t slick

also pretends like hes not blushing LMAOOO

kids ears are redder than your stove and i think that says enough

tries to act all cool and chic and what not as if hes totally unaffected but hes stuttering every two words and tripping over every other object that isn’t even remotely in his way 💀

but once he got used to it he literally physically shoves his jackets or shirts or what not into your arms when youre choosing outfits bc he just LOVES it that much

♡ — JAKE SIM

red and malfunctioning pt. 2

but instead of acting as if hes having a stroke

homeboy just stands there like a sim with no task-

you can literally see the loading circle thing above his head

once it finally clicks omg... he just SQUEALS like a little boy and runs over to you before hugging you so tightly

hes like “you’re so cute :(( i love you so so sk so much :((( you’re so so so cute :(( how can you be so cute :(((“ he overused the word cute so many times in that first sighting that you forced him to give you $5 every time he said it

no but hes already pretty clingy but when you wear his clothes... gawd dayum

he doubles in clingines

never lets you go and always has the brightest smile on his face

♡ — PARK SUNGHOON

mf is so chill 😐

LOL ONLY ON THE OUTSIDE THOOOO

he acts super nonchalant about it but the second you were out the room he falls flat into the couch and squeals into one of the pillows while kicking his legs up an down

cannot keep his cool when he sees you wearing his clothes jesus-

if you ever catch him doing his “theyre so cute i’m about to implode” ritual, he’ll go back to his cool facade and try and play it off as if he stubbed his toe or sumn and is just in great amount of pain

homeboy doesn’t realise you were standing at the doorframe and saw the whole thing happen 💀✋

but yeah he loves it a lot just tries to act like it doesn’t affect him but we all know better

♡ — KIM SUNOO

hes 100% the one to be like “oh yeah that one is so cute on you i love it pls wear it as often as you can- actually just keep it- wait no i still like it.... we can share!!” but then he’ll also be like “no that one makes you look weird don’t wear it 🙄” LMAOO

mr. fashionable or sumn up in here

99% of the time loves what you wear from his wardrobe and he just loves how his style matches yours or the way it contrast yet you still manage to look adorable

loves choosing outfits for you

he gives me the vibe of like loving to have matching socks-

but that’s off topic

if he sees you wear his hat or something he will take it off your head, try it on himself and if it doesn’t fit with his outfit he gives it back to you

if it does fit... well too bad i guess

♡ — YANG JUNGWON

stops, stares, acts like everything is all good

hes like a mix of jake and sunghoon where he malfunctions for a bit before trying not to lose his cool y’know

it’s like that meme of that dog in a burning room and hes like “i’m fine,,, this is fine” LMAOO

nah bb is losing his mind

he kinda gives up on being nonchalant and what not and just pulls you in a FAT hug and tells you how pretty you look wearing his clothes

may tease you for the choice as well

he’ll say stuff like “omg that’s my favourite one” or “could’ve chosen a better one y/n... but oh well still look cute 🙄” LMAOO

if you’re sitting on the couch or actually scrap that

hell just constantly have his hands playing with the seams of the sleeves or the bottom of the hoodie bc he just finds you that cute

♡ — NISHIMURA RIKI

blushes but plays it off like it’s fine and teases you

hes teasing you about wearing his clothes and being so obsessed with him 🙄

hes saying that as if hes not losing it on the inside and definitely doesn’t have bright pink cheeks yeah totally riki you’re so slick

no but when you guys cuddle you can see how much he genuinely loves when you wear his clothes bc he just cuddles into the fabric and always inhales just a bit deeper

he loves yours and his scents combined together

after a while, he’d probably start to randomly hand you hoodies or jackets out of nowhere

youll open your mouth to say you’re cold and before you can even breathe out hes already handing you a hoodie and you’re like

“where tf did you get that from ??” and hes just like “don’t ask. wear”

[o-taryn-o]

Watching The Last Jedi Thoughts and Reactions

I’ve been obsessed with reading Reylo fan fiction since the opening night I saw TLJ. Ive seen this movie a lot but thought it would be fun to watch it again and react. I guess I had a lot to comment on Rose and Finn and also DJ. Enjoy~

Wow these opening credits are super vague…

I really love this opening scene it’s 100% my favorite Star Wars opening.

Carrie Fishers daughter is super cool. Hux looks v tired and/or on drugs.

Sansa’s insane aunt from Game of Thrones. Love BB-8, I ship Poe and Hux more then Hux and Kylo tho. “punch it!” I love that they have enough time to say cute one liners when piloting a ship. THIS SCENE IS EDITED SO FUCKING WELL THOOOO. Its literally FLAWLESSLY edited. 2nd “punch it!” When the bombers show up my heart starts beating faster, my favorite action sequence ever. Not even thinking about how theres no gravity in space. I love Paige so much! Have I ever seen a asian woman save the day in a movie ever? Why are her hands so beautiful? I LOVE THE COSTUMES OF THIS MOVIE. I wonder where Kylo is? Finn bb!! I wonder why he’s in a storage room? This movie is SO SEXUAL. Love me some beautiful island porn. LOVE that Luke throws the saber, love subverting expectations. “Master Skywalker?” is so cute I have such a crush on Rey. Wow the huts are so cute. Daisy is literally so beautiful, want to be and also kiss her.  Progs, so cute. Rey literally doesn’t waste anything love it she takes the books later also. “Where’s Han?” and then cuts to Kylo love it. The fuck is a “cur”? ADAM DRIVER fuck. This room is so red, its so pretty. This movie is visually STUNNING. Ben’s hair is fucking glorious, also look at those LIPS! I just want him to be with Rey and happy. Ben is fucking loosing his mind Ryan made him look so broken I love it. “Prepare my ship!” is so sexy. Rey’s accent is so perfect. Literally what Luke said he doesn’t want to do he does by the end of the movie. Love poncho Rey! This island is so fucking cool I need more high quality pictures going around. The green milk is so funny. I love that Rey looks away from the creature in embarrassment but then not Ben’s naked chest. I need to take so many screenshots of this movie, theres so many moments people forget! Rey in the tree, so beautiful, I can’t wait to find out id those books give us any information next film. I hope the next film starts with the vision Rey and Ben saw next film. I want to see Reys dreams. I miss Carrie. 

Poe is so annoying, Leia is so right. What a great line, “get your head out of your cockpit”. How does Finn know what the binary beacon is? THIS is when shit goes down. I really like that everything in this movie goes wrong. “Follow my lead” so sexy. Ben is literally crying feeling his mothers presence. And yet people thing this isn’t a redemption story. *shakes my head* Even The First Orders uniforms are so crispty its beautiful. I really like that Leia saved herself. Finn looks so good in that jacket I’m so excited for his blue pants look. Chewy and Porgs is all I ever needed. The lights in the cockpit of the falcon are really beautiful. The shots in this movie are GORGEOUS. I feel like R2 has a really dirty mouth. I can’t wait for Ben and Rey to escape with the falcon from somewhere and then takeout. IM SO READY.  Luke is kinda creepy? Never liked Luke, Leia should have been the protagonist of the original trilogy. HOLDO is a BABE! Love her look and tone and everything she saids is bomb. I love that she talks about everyone else in the galaxy and the importance of keeping everyone hopeful. Why is there so much sexual tension between Poe and EVERYONE? I do feel like Poe is bi tho. Holdo is RIGHT, Poe is annoying and a dick. Sorry I don’t make the rules. He’s hot but wrong. Finn and Rose are so GOOD, it makes me so happy this whole scene. I’m sorry bb Rose I wish I could give her a hug. “Doing talking…” haha I love Kelly so much. Rose is v smart and I love that she stuns him and then drags him. DRAG HIM GIRL. All the men in this movie are making mistakes and the women are being smart this is true to life. Rose and Finn are honestly so perfect together. Its so annoying that Finn and Poe keep interrupting Rose, also true to life.  Maz in the next movie is gonna be into Reylo. Also “union dispute?” what the hell is Maz talking about? How and why does Poe know Maz? I love sleepy Rey, Ben isn’t even mad when he sees her. He looks her up and down so many times throughout this movie. He’s so in love before she is, its cute. Reys outfit is perfection. What Rey said actually wasn’t completely wrong. “s tension, a balance” REYLO! I love that they go into what the force is in this movie. Porgs on the ship is so cute, so is Rey in rain. Ben with his questions, I like that Ben is actually listening to her to see how she feels about him. HE LOOKED AT HER LIPS! WET GLOVES. Finn is so distracted. Pretty cool looks in the casino, those glasses are sweet. Finn/John is so hot. Love watching Rey with her staff. I need one of those belts. An ICON. Could listen to Rey’s theme all day. I feel so bad for the locals, Reys a little bit of a dick. Right when she decides to follow Luke I need that gif! This conversation is great but all I can focus on is the fact that Luke saids “huberous” twice always makes me anxious. I love space operas. Men failing, *a theme*. “I need someone to show me my place in all this” its Ben baby! DJ is cool, why does nobody talk about him. He’s such a interesting character. BB-8 is a badass. Fathiers are so beautiful. It was unnessicary for them to crash through the window and run inside, this whole case is too long. I can’t believe that they have already filmed most of the next movie. I like that Leia and Luke are talking. Now Reys asking the questions, she’s trying to understand him, she wants to understand him. I haven’t noticed till now how inconsistent their voices are over the force. Sleeping baby Ben is my favorite, with his calligraphy set? Precious. Did he show her his past? Or does she just believe him? I want to see the other cut scenes from Reys storyline. Its really cool to see Rey mirroring herself. This is a really cool scene. I’m so happy Ben has long hair in Episode 9. Bens already crying just from her telling him about how lonely she is!! They are eye fucking rn, I know what that look is. I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE SEEING!!! Luke fucking ruins everything. Ben must be freaking out rn. Yeah get him Rey! I love this fight in the rain. Rey is right. The thing is like how do you know someones completely evil? Who makes that judgement call? This scene is cool, love the look of Yoda. Its a lot of pressure on Rey to continue the Jedi order if she’s the one who knows all the stuff in the books, Im glad she grabbed them. “The greatest teacher failure is”, “we are what they grow beyond” GREAT QUOTES. Rose is a badass. DJ is kinda right tho. “Let me learn you something big” so funny. No one can tell me Rey didn’t wash up and get pretty for meeting Ben. Ben made sure he was the first face she saw, he looks hot. Sweet hacking skills. The iron is really fun editing, they all look really good in the uniforms. The first shot of the elevator scene is so sexual, Ben holding her lightsaber in front of him with her hands in handcuffs. Oofff.  Ryan made this scene as sexy as he could. Its so intimate. They want each other so bad. Rey whispers and leans in. Ben is so soft. His trying to hard to focus on his goal of killing Snoke and saving Rey. Rose is so salty “of course you do”. I feel like everyone puts up with Poe because he’s hot,  because he’s a dick. Another failed plan. Yeah Leia get him! I love that she just shoots. Her daughter surrendering is really funny. Leia and Holdo are so cute I hope they made out one night really drunk when they were younger that was ,y first thought when they held hands. I absolutely love Holdo’s hair. Reys outfit in the throne room is so cool. She’s so strong, Ben is trying so hard to keep it together in the back. Theres no way Snoke bridged their minds. Ben got so scared when he said that. “No” she’s so strong. Ben looks so sad. Oscar Issacs ass is fine! John is really good in this scene and Rose’s scream is terrifying. Murder in Bens eyes. Its really scary that Snoke has so much control over Rey. Rey with Bens saber is all I ever needed. Bens gloved fingers are v sexy. Also THAT FLICK! When they look at each other they know, there in love. THIS FIGHT IS EVERYTHING! When DJ saids “maybe” I felt that. They are so powerful together. I love watching them fight together, can’t wait for the 9! Ben fighting off 3 guards is so hot. Rey dropping her saber and backhanding ir is really hot. Wow this moment is so intense its so quiet. Im so mad Ben didn’t stop the fleet though. The way he saids Rey, why are both of their voices so hot. I need Rey to tell him off in the next movie the way he’s telling off her parents. “Please” murders me. Rey is so smart, she knows he isn’t good yet. This is Rey’s moment of “I know what I have to do” Its crazy that Rose and Finn almost died by being beheaded! The silent part is so beautiful. Why was Phasma so far away? BB-8 in that thing is pretty weird though. Finn is so powerful. He’s super reckless in this film. Rose is so good I want to be her and slide hug her. “Rebel scum” is such a good line. Snokes lower body falling off the throne is super graphic. Ben is so mad Rey left. I can’t wait to see more of soft Ben, I don’t like him choking Hux even though its Hux. Rose and Finn are very lucky they made it below that door. I think everyone always thinks of Rose and Finn as cute and funny, but they are honestly serious and smart. So many people died in this movie. I don’t understand how they aren’t wearing goggles if its salt, they would be crying right now. This run takes a lot more time then it is distance wise. Its so pretty though, so I don’t care. Rey and Chewy saving the day is my favorite thing. “Wooh I like this!” so cute. I love watching Rey shoot. The crystal creatures are so pretty. Finn no! Yes Rose! “I saved you… dummy. Thats how were gonna win, not fighting what we hate, saving what we love.” Rose is right everyone! Listen up! Why does Ben say “no prisoners”, maybe he is bad? I love Reylo I don’t understand I believe in Ben. Is he lying to himself? Could he actually kill his mother? Luke and Leia are so sweet. Also their conversation about Ben makes everything more confusing, so he’s not gone? Aw Luke kissing Leia’s forehead is really sweet. Lukes wink is funny. This music is so good. Finn taking care of Rose is my favorite thing. The editing is so beautiful. Rey in snow >>>> Also “Lifting rocks” how does she know thats what normal Jedi start training with? Ben is such a baby in this scene, he’s so upset. I love that Rey and Finn normalize intimate friendship. Ben is the truest definition of a ‘Dark Prince’ if Ive ever seen one. I’m really glad Luke died here, its time, the sunset it really nice. 

Bens eyes say it all here. Chewy and Leia so sweet. Reys smile is so AWW. Finn putting a blanket on Rose is the best. Rey knows she’s thinking about Ben. “We have everything we need” I bet Leia had a big part in 9 I’m so sad Carrie is gone :(

This last scene with the kids is really the perfect ending, HOPE.

[animalexpert]

Wlrs; VIII

Big oof, didn’t get a chance to finish up my thought train yesterday and part of it is gone, I’m gonna read back and see if I can maybe catch it. The scramble was tasty af though, I want to make more, yet I also want to keep the meal refreshing so I think I’ll chill a minute on it. I’m happy to have had a busy day yesterday, it was fun too. But today has been a little more difficult, tomorrow is the birthday of my passed nephew Lysander. And every year these few days hit me differently, on his 1st birthday I felt only remorse for my sister, I was so focused on being there for her I didn’t really think about it. His 2nd, after my most recent nephew Oliver was born, and I developed a relationship and love with him, it slammed into me. He never even got the chance to crawl, see anything beautiful nature has to offer, he didn’t really even go outside, of course he wouldn’t have been able to perceive them anyway, but it still just hit. And this year, he would be 3, it has been heart wrenching but in a different way, because of Oliver. Seeing Oliver grow into so much personality and character makes me think about Andy, and how close to him I’d be. Oliver squeals and runs over to me when he hears my voice coming down the basement stairs,  stretches his arms out to me nearly every time my sister walks past with him,  and is the cutest when he tugs on me and yells “ay, ay, AY” giving his best shot at my name while frantically trying to understand why I’m not picking him up letting him try and stick his hand in a ceiling fan. I don’t ever get to know how Andy would act around me. I hope he would think I was a cool uncle. I don’t get to know what he liked, or if he was a stubborn lil babster, I don’t have anything to remember him by, except his name. And that’s really depressing, what do I think about when I think about Andy? A dead baby, he wasn’t even old enough to like distinctly like anything. My nephews are aged 7, 5, and 1. There’s a number missing in that pattern, and it’s these things that help me understand how my sister just sometimes can’t avoid thinking about it. She has to look at her kid and her baby and try to not think about that gap in the middle and I can’t even imagine. I’m hoping that we have a good day tomorrow, we’re going to the zoo in his name. Every year we try to pick something that he would probably like based on his age at the time, I like remembering him this way. I think that’s healthy, but I don’t know if it is for my sister. It worries me how she can’t get away from this, throughout the whole year. She still makes an outfit for Andy whenever she makes matching clothes for the boys, she remembers him as often as she can. I hope that we can help lead her forward towards healing. Because nearly 360 days of the year my main focus regarding my nephew is making sure my other 3 nephews have fulfilling lives and fun memories and great park visits so that if anything happens to me or them, there are plenty of memories full of joy to bathe in when we think of each other. Because having to think of limp dead baby when I hear his name fucking sucks. Build a bears, zoo trips, and gardens made just in his name over these past three birthdays are really hard on us, but they help us give live to his name, and something uplifting to remember about him each year. 

     I think I’m done talking about that for now but I may revisit it tomorrow because I’m in an emotional SPAT right now and I really feel like writing and venting. As confused and lost as I may seem from this series of posts, I AM. But I’m really not doing bad or feeling too unhappy in the scheme, I’m confident my future holds peace, these posts are mainly about the strife I’m feeling and help me talk to the second me in my brain that is usually rather hard to reach rationally. Normally they’re very far from the joy and life I’m ordinarily filled with. There’s been some bad weeks but seeing my friends so often recently has been v healthy for me and assisted in avoiding depressive episodes. I think I did talk about an especially fun day I had a time or two, but apart from that it’s just my emotional stuff and insecurity in where I want to move forward with my life. Which I think is pretty normal for a 23 year old, at least looking at most of my friends, but I guess you surround yourself with people you fit in with so that’s not really a solid argument. But I’m PRETTY SURE that’s normal stuff to be feeling. If I don’t know what I want out of my end life how can I be any sure of what I’m doing right now? It seems helpful to constantly be questioning myself rather than precisely following a decision I made when I was likely a different person, considering how fast we grow mentality in my age gap. I’m happy I have these writings they help open my own brain up so much ugh. I wish they could help me stop thinking so much about the things I vent, but they really only aide in understanding them. I’m still riled up in emotion the same, understanding it may not even be a good thing in hindsight, I was doing better voluntarily hiding from it while knowing it was there. That’s like being haunted though. I’ve started having a recurring dream where I’m defending from zombies. And I haven’t been playing any zombie games or watching zombie movies. I used to have dreams like this a lot, but it’s been several years, I think it might’ve been since like high school and a little bit after times. But the speed of zombies and scenario is and has always been different. Although I’m never like in the open surrounded by zombies I’m always like defending some kind of structure. But almost everything else is variable. There should be a dream.md where you can enter key words/scenarios and it will diagnose you with some of the likely psychological reasoning's behind your dreams. That’s actually a cool idea although I’m sure it exists in a simpler manner because that would likely be HELLA difficult to code. I was without my car for a few days which was odd, I’m happy I have it back I wanna go get myself some Qdoba for dinner, oo but I want fried rice THOOOO. Nick had to drive me to bowling but bet I had his ass come pick me up because I ain’t missing one week of bowling. I’m getting so good, I rolled a 198 this week. And I walked in SET on getting my 200 that night, so although I was shaking my head at splitting my game with an open frame on 5, I was v pleased because my best games the previous weeks apart from a really solid 186 were around 165. I can tell I’m really closing in on the ideal line for my throw though, feels hype.

      Hopefully the rest of today is easy, I think I’m rather at peace with all the thinking about Andy I’ve done today, I’m having happy thoughts of him now, and I know my sister will need support tonight. It’s so weird talking to her about it though, because it’s just listening really, and showing love. She can talk to me about the things that I think about and feel about him, but no one here can really talk to her about what she’s feeling, I can just hear her out. She doesn’t even expect responses which is kinda odd when it happens, cause she just kinda talks, pauses for a moment, and either goes on or begins to talk about something else, like I don’t feel awkward much I’m fine in weird situations and weighted silence but phew this is somewhere I do. She needs to find her peace or the stress will kill her young, I hope I can help her.