#actually have been thinking abt this all night just bc c-22 mentioned the saint and i needed to look up who he was

[beej-hunnicutt]

Now I do not know anything really when it comes to religion, especially one I find so personally confusing like C*tholicism. And something particularly confusing to me are Saints and who they Worship why they Worship and what not. I don't know them all, or really what they have done. Though I know it's common to have a specific one you look to.

As it seems kids are often giving the medal of Saint Nicholas as he is a protector to them? Or whatever? I'm sorry guys I am trying my best. They like watch over and help so many things it's just a lot lol. Anyways, I'm thinking about John, as I feel his family was most likely very/extremely/rather religious. I'm sure when he was a kid-preteen he was given the necklace to wear and watch over him.

Though I think as a teenager he was much more pushed into the direction of caring and looking to Saint Anthony. Whether that was his own mother (and father) who kinda guided him there or his priest.

I won't go too much into it now, but I think in his teen years, he was heavily around and a part of the church despite his own wishes. The main reason being people in his life thought he was lost. Very big idea and could mean many things particularly for John, but that was a core issue people though he suffered with. With Saint Anthony, he protects Lost Things. Lost whether that means physically, materials items or most importantly spiritually. Which the last reason clearly would be why John was given him to look towards. John would rarely wear the necklace and often kept it probably in some drawer of his room. But he hated any mentions of him and he did begin to resent this figure more and more as it was a symbol of the anger he has already felt around everything.

John shouldn't be shamed for simply not believing in the teachings and the messages along with it. John didn't feel that he fit in there. He didn't have a place nor did he want it.

Anyways sorry this got a little long, just wanted to ramble about the Saint I think people gave John to watch over him and what not.