#acting in ways you wouldn't irl to people you've never interacted with. i act the exact same online as i do offline so its weird

[chaoticamelay]

people should block people more often!! idk why we make blocking into some kind of horrible action reserved only for horrible people. the block button is there for a reason. i block bigots obviously but i also block people who annoy me for reasons great or small, people who simply post stuff i don't want to see on my dash, and sometimes just because i'm hangry or in a lot of pain and their url is a bad colour combo or scratches a bad brain itch.

i run my life like a crotchety old woman who doesn't like being perceived irl and by G-d i will do it online too!! stop subjecting yourself to stuff on the internet that you wouldn't put up with offline. you don't always need to get along or agree on everything to be in community or build coalitions but curating your online experience lets you have more energy for doing what you love and sustaining the meaningful work in your community

[yousta]

(Sigh) I know I don't normally make posts that express my raw thoughts but I'd really like to start talking more personal. So this is my first attempt.

I'd like to say hello to members of the obsessive love, IRL yandere/lovesick community. I'm like hyper-fixated on you guys as I feel like I can empathize with so many, which was a unique experience for me.

If you've posted in the last couple months chances are I've probably went through your account. That's how I met my girlfriend, I know you're reading, Hiii honey bunny I love you so much.

Sure I have my own defined idea of the concept and what I like about it like everyone else does I'm sure. I'm sometimes selective with what I'll interact with. Which is part of what I wanted to talk to you about today. What I personally see, the good the bad the ugly, just the whole thing.

I'll start with the potential...

In my life, I isolated myself for many years because I couldn't find anyone who wanted to pay attention to me long enough to understand me, let alone care enough to actually love me. Which I more or less assumed was a trend of people identifying as lovesick, no one will know what you need better than yourself after all.

Obsessive love is making a point of love being a major focus in your life. Which is great you would think, until the rest of the world sees you as just another fish in the sea. They wouldn't recognize you for it as anything real, because not many people value upfront love. Everyone excepts liars and cheaters because that's all people seem to do without intention.

The act of being needy isn't attractive, it's why not everyone's giving money to a homeless person you have no connection to. Well I wanted to take a moment and say this is not that for me.

I read you guys everyday, I'm convinced a lot of you are seemingly inherently obsessive about a lot of the things you do, because given the platform you communicate yourself so coherently, so open and in touch with what you know you need. To the point when I first started reading people here. I was confused, feeling like I knew them even though it was parasocial.

Well that's because I relate to your struggle better than my own irl friends in those ways. I just wanted to say you're my favorite fish. I know I could never give you that love you desire as I'm taken, but I really want to extend the offer of friendship to each and every one of you, because I want to create a place for you to be recognized for all the love you've given. It may be platonic but I love you as the light of this world.

Of course nothing is all sunshine and rainbows.

There's people who'd intentionally ignore the warning signs or have such low self awareness, they won't or can't see what they're representing certainly has the potential to be or become toxic. Whether if it's for yourself or others.

Possessing but recognizing violent thoughts as intrusive is one thing, but identifying yourself by having those thoughts. I can't help but to acknowledge how you're building yourself up, creating momentum in a direction I don't think you or anyone truly wants. My question to you is why?

Hopefully you're just being very far removed from your words and the reality of you're saying, hopefully you're too deep into some strange character or persona you've invented and can separate yourself from it. Yet it seems to me that this is not always the case... Some members of the community are really struggling.

I mean I understand, people I knew growing up didn't have any real defined idea about love or stepped with any firm intention. So I understand why something like you see in these yan tropes could be appealing.

I grew up in a city where everyone is really cold to one another. Honestly I've lived here all my life and never felt like I truly know or trust anyone. Which when I was younger lead to a lot of moments I lacked insight I needed, to get my desired out come. I don't think you're barking up the wrong tree entirely however.

Which is why with this post and in future ones. I really want to help you guys with some general advice to set your intention, get your perspective and mindset right for loving in this style. I think I'd be a good person to ask, as I'm currently very sucuessful and happy in my current relationship. If any of you ever need to talk more personally though, my DMs are open for anyone who needs to vent.  

[riesonomuravt]

not to get personal on my vtuber account (and i decided to spare twitter the ramble) but

idk... I'm not feeling it lately.

there's been a lot of stuff. storms which limit my ability to stream, unemployment, general loneliness, feeling like I'm becoming more and more disconnected from how i usually am. I feel like my mannerisms seem cold and brash irl and can kinda feel that being the case online too. I guess I feel... out of it. i haven't spoken to some friends in forever, I rarely go out, and I just find it hard to concentrate on things. there were... some things that happened late last year and early this year. some years-long friendships ended under terrible terms. one because the person was clingy and wouldn't let me move on from past hurts, the other because I was going through a rough time unable to cope in healthier ways, lost control, and said and did things without thinking, which proved to be the last straw for the latter person. the latter scenario... it's definitely not the first time it's happened. i think about all the mistakes i've made online when i was under absurd amounts of stress, and i know it's pushed people away. some i never got back. kinda deserved it, really. i should have just stepped away from most things until things got better. especially with how people track even the smallest slights you've committed and are like THIS PERSON IS BAD AVOID THEM. I don't want to mess things up more than I already have.

the former though... i felt myself developing a grudge against that person, paranoid as to what they could be up to... the last time I got hurt like that was in 2017, someone else gaslit me by acting super friendly then cutting me off when I was in need. I was just so vulnerable, I maybe should have handled some things differently, but I... made sure that other person from back then would never try to act two faced to me again. not (just) a block, but... i requested they block me back. and i feel guilty as to how i handled it. I know I struggle with communication sometimes, I have a lot of toxic traits like insecurity, taking things personally, paranoia, anger issues, overthinking, etc. it's not an excuse, but I feel this may be a defense mechanism, and i kinda feel like I'm losing control. I had a Google doc telling my story, but I may scrap it and retell it omitting or rewording some things. I do want help, but circumstances haven't allowed for it due to delays or what have you. I've even had some negative interactions with some friends and I was scared, some of my behavior this year was just overall erratic. Maybe I am losing control and need a break. my cert courses start next week, i'll have to see the times in the day but it should be 6 months maximum. maybe if I tackle one problem at a time I can slowly get better, including trying to move on from the one who really hurt me a lot. but this year has had me re-evaluating how i conduct myself and I do need to try to improve.

I'll maybe do a just chatting stream at a later date if I'm able to, I just... don't wanna mess things up anymore and lose anyone else. all I see myself as right now is a screw up, and I can barely even focus on stuff that makes me happy. to those who still care about me despite me screwing up a lot: thank you.

[swallowtail-ageha]

All of this!!!!!!! ^^^^

I can't add much because you have pretty much expressed perfectly all my thoughts lmfao especially with the Maria and El comparisons

They are characters who are LEAGUES better than Eri because one, they have actually complicated relationships with their abusers! And while it isn't always the case irl, having characters like Rosa or Brenner (in the late season) have mixed feelings about their victims and even have moments where they show genuine care about them and have some moments of happyness together!

Thing that in Overhaul isn't present because the character is obviously been made to be a hate sink which not only makes the whole situation less compelling but also is kind of a shitty writing choice. (Also, i think that his abuse of her is waaay too cartoonish to actually hate. You don't see people cutting a little girl up to extract her blood to make drugs. You see mothers hitting and neglecting their children every day.)

Imagine how much better the arc would be if Overhaul, still experimenting on Eri and being overall abusive to her, had shown a bit more care like "i DO care about you but i care about your power more but i will still give you food and treat you well and clean you and spend time with you so why do you react so badly when i take you apart? Why aren't you grateful for not being in the streets like many other abandoned children are?". While Eri still sees him as a father figure but is resents him because daddy hurts her and. It might not be a perfect idea but it still gives the so lacking nuance to their relationship!

Overhaul still undobtedly abuses her and is awful but he isn't comically awful like he is in canon!

And if horikoshi didn't want to give nuance to their relationship, at least he could have made eri both visually and psychologically more fucked up! Let her be skinnier let her have eyebags let her be dirty! Let her not know how to act in public or be distrustful because as you've said there is no way she could be this natural and kind! She has never met an adult who was kind to her! Let her be selfish and possessive over small things and quick to either anger or withdrawing! Let her have constant fear of abandonment and displeasing others! Let her be traumatized for fuck's sake!

El and Maria are allowed to be, and despite people not liking them because they want that sweet sweet crying girl that they can fantasize saving and headpatting (god i hate. The whole "must protecc cute girl" that anime watching redditors have), they'll be 10 times better characters than Eri will ever be!

And don't get me started on the "she is six, of course she doesn't have a personality!"

FIRSTLY. She is a fictional character in a world where a human being can be born with a manga bubble instead of an head. I don't think you have to follow kids to a iota and also there are already younger children in your story with more lively personalities

SECONDLY. Have. Have you ever interacted with a six year old? The little guys are brimming with personality! Hell, i spent hours talking with my baby cousins because newsflash it's not like you are a blank state fot the first years of your life and then once you turn eleven you start having a personality

And like. The people who say that if you don't like her you condone child abuse and ask you shit like "if a real child was in her conditions you wouldn't help her?" OF COURSE I WOULD BECAUSE THAT'S A REAL CHILD!!! BUT ERI ISN'T!!! SHE IS A BUNCH OF LINES ON A PAPER!!! SHE HAS TO BE COMPELLING FOR ME TO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT HER!

Tldr: less Eris more Marias and Els

Also re: my prev tags abt eri when i say to ppl i don't like her they're like "oh so you don't care that this six year old got abused" damn maybe i would care if she had a personality outside of being cute or sad

[jaeminscoffee]

Daddy Issues | S. Jn

Pairing | Seo Johnny x Fem!Reader

Genre | Smut, fluff

Wc;type | oneshot: 3.93k [not proof read]

Warning(s) | Pwp, dilf!johnny, y/n's a pillow princess, daddy kink, overstimulation, teasing, edging, dacryphilia, slight voyeurism, degradation kink, heavy use of the words 'doll, princess, slut, pretty, angel', typical lyra smut, i made haechan johnny's son (i was about to write changbin as johnny's son but decided against it) age gap, unprotected sex ( the Reader's on pills. Remember this is a fiction, don't play the wrong card irl) filth.

a/n- i found this request buried in my asks and was tempted to write it. Sure, the warning looks intimidating, but i know you wanna read it, y'all whores (ily) shoutout to @bakugou-is-my-bae @cvntzennie and @jenopollo for helping me decide what to post first! @suhpersonic

Minors try not to interact! <3

Age is just a number, so surely, there's nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed of, right? 

There's no reason for you to not fall for the friendly neighborhood bachelor, well not so bachelor bachelor, since he does go around asking people who knows of his marriage to pretend it never took place. 

Johnny's hot, super hot. Has the build of a supermodel. Has the face that one can only imagine belongs to a greek god, as you'd jokingly tell him how he seemed to be god's favorite and how you loathe Aphrodite for showing favoritism (which would always end up with you getting a very sultry, teasing look from the lad) 

Johnny has the type of personality that women can only wish the entirety of the male species would possess. He's an absolute sweetheart, life of the party, definitely the center of attention wherever he goes. And oh god, does he have an immaculate fashion sense. 

But Johnny's also the father of Donghyuck. Your best friend. 

More than being ashamed about the fact that you actually fell in love with a man who has a child of your age, it was the fact that you had to fall for Donghyuck's father of all people. 

Donghyuck is a sweetheart, definitely got his personality from his father but he's also got that glare that could creep the Lord's of the darkness from his father. He's got so much from his father that the resemblance is uncanny. 

You'd not want to get onto hyuck's bad side since you've gotten first hand experience at stopping him from almost committing homicide to someone who spoke shit about his friends, more specifically, you. 

But Hyuck's not in town. So a little fun with Mr. Suh wouldn't hurt anyone, correct? After all, you're still only a human with desires and the want to take risks. 

You'd always not so subtly drop hints at Johnny and he'd always give you that look that would have slick collecting itself between your thighs. A warning look. 

A look that said, "cross the line and you'll get it" 

But that's the thing, you want to get it and will do anything to get it.

"Y/n." 

You'd ask yourself less than a million times if you want to do this or not.

Sure, you weren't this hesitant when you decided to sext your best friend's father knowingly when he was in business mode to irk him up but that's one thing. 

And having to confront the same father who left a message smaller than a sentence that completely disregarded all the obscene text and images to show that he's not the slightest bothered or suprised by your behavior for that matter was another thing.

"Tomorrow at mine." 

It's almost as though he deals with hormonal teenagers one as such as yourself on a daily basis and that thought kind of backfired at you considering the whole 'Let's piss Johnny off so that he'd finally give me what i want' agenda. 

Ironic, huh? 

"Mr. Suh." you start hesitantly, unsure of what to call him, scared of what his reaction would be after your inappropriate shenanigans last night. 

Your stiff demeanor broke down a little with just a hint of shiver passing down your spine as you watch his features contort into a subtle but cocky smirk, "So now you're being all formal,"

"Well, what else would you like me to address you as?" you inquire, feigning oblivion to his tone and what he's implying at. "You tell me, doll. You seemed to have a lot of names to call me last night," he takes a step forward, prompting you to walk a step backwards, further into the corridors of his apartment and away from the actual location. 

"I do not know what you're talking about.. " you let your voice shrivel towards the end, eyes wandering around the complex, finding interest in every small detail as you avoid Johnny's teasing gaze. 

"You don't?" Johnny takes another step forward, latching his hands onto your forearms to prevent you from stepping further away, "You must have had a heavy sleep to forget all that you did last night," his voice drops dangerously low as he begins to walk backwards and back into the safety of his apartment, all the while keeping his gaze fixated on you.

"That won't do, would it? How about we take a walk down the memory lane? And see if that rings any bell?" He brushes your hair away from its static position on your shoulder, allowing him to appreciate all those fine details of your shoulders and neck that are exposed from your selection of clothing, an off shoulder. 

"How about we don't...?" You ask with skepticism, jolting slightly when you hear the door shut behind you and at the new intrusion of personal space by the lad.

"Why are you acting all shy now, Y/n? Weren't you the one so eager to get into her best friend's fathers pants? Just be the whore you are, darling. Your facade's fooling no one." okay you definitely didn't see that coming. 

Johnny's expressions morph into that of mischief as he watches your eyes grow wide and mouth fall ajar, "Am i not correct? Are you not a whore?" he asks with an eyebrow quirked up in a questioning manner.

You don't reply, almost as though the question was meant to linger in the open and that it was a rhetorical one. What you didn't expect, however, was for Johnny's hands to find pursuit around your neck, not necessarily applying pressure, but there as a warning. 

"Answer me." 

"I'm not.." you answer with a feeble voice, internally cringing at how squeaky you sound which only added to Johnny's amusement. 

"Really? Because I don't think good girls go around drooling at a divorced man, her friend's father for that matter and definitely do not send lewd images and voice out their fantasies to a guy twice their age, still want to pretend you're innocent? Or you admit it and we cut down the chase?"

"Yes, I am." you breathe out when his fingers tighten around your neck, a triumphant smile making its way onto his lips. Yet, Johnny felt the need to keep pushing,

"you're what?" 

"I am what you said I am," you speak, trying to avoid looking at the scrutinizing look on his face which seemed futile as he had his arms wrapped around your neck, keeping your head in place. 

"I want to hear you say it, doll. I need to hear you say it." At this point Johnny's intent was to get you into a flustered puddle in his hold and it sure as hell was going in that direction, seeing how you can't even hold his gaze for more than a few seconds in a shot. 

"I am.. I am a who-"

The sound of a phone ringing loud cut you off midway through your sentence, to which you were absolutely relieved. Johnny only seemed to grow annoyed the more he heard the phone ring. With a loud huff, he lets you go, not before giving you a stern look, "Go to my room." he instructed, making his way to the study. 

You let out a breath you've been holding in unknowingly the moment he steps away from you. You watch his figure retreat from you with awe, only now realizing how messy you felt between your legs and how your knees keep buckling. 

"Oh Hyuck!" you hear Johnny exclaim into the phone the minute you step forward to follow his command. 

Your best friend is on call with the guy you're about to fuck. 

Your blood runs cold as you shakily make your way into the apartment and towards the bedroom, shrugging off your sling bag, hanging it behind the door as you place your phone on the bedside table to wipe your hands dry from all the sweat that had accumulated at the palm of your hands. 

"Yeah, I'm fine, about to eat to my dinner actually" you hear the moment to make yourself comfortable at the edge of the bed, looking over to the door where Johnny stood with his arms across his chest, the other holding up the phone as he leans his weight onto one shoulder, leaning into the doorframe.

You take the time to really appreciate his appearance. He adorned nothing more than a simple grey sweat and tight black tee but he seemed ready to walk down a runway at any given moment now. His long hair, slightly disheveled looking almost intentionally messed up, compliments his features. And oh his features. 

The everlasting smirk stayed still on his lips, moving as he exchanged words with his son.

You only come back to your senses when Johnny snapped his free hand in front of you, gaining your attention. He points at his own shirt, then points at you, mouthing 'off' while he listens to Donghyuck speak about whatever he's speaking. 

"Really? Jeno said that? Tell him I'm more than willing to welcome him as my gym partner, the lad seems strong" Johnny makes a quick move to remove the gadget from his ear, before holding it in front of him after placing the call on speaker mode 

Your eyes widen the moment you hear the disturbance in the background and Donghyuck's voice resonate through the room. "no?? Why would you want to work out with him? He'll only make you feel old, you know?" 

"Says the one who still can't beat me at arm wrestling. If anything, i think Jeno would make the perfect gym buddy for me," Johnny raises an eyebrow at your defiance, cocking his head towards the side, staring down at you with a predatory look, "Hyuck, you know, Y/n-" you scramble to take your shirt off at the mention of your name on the call, "-stopped by earlier" he lets out a silent laugh of disbelief.

"Oh? Oh yeah! I'd told her I'd give her book back before I left but I forgot, did you perhaps give it back to her?" Donghyuck questions. 

"I figured you must've forgotten so, yeah i did." Johnny replies, pushing himself off of the doorframe, now walking towards you. 

"Man, I miss her! I might facetime her after I end the call with you," Johnny sets down the phone beside you on the bed, leaning down, placing both his hands on either side of your lap, finding comfort at the crook of your neck,

"I remember her mentioning something about her cousin coming over? Maybe wait for an hour or so before calling her" his lips graze against your neck each time he spoke, you let out a tiny whimper at the so longed feeling, only to earn yourself a small bite at the earlobe, immediately accompanied by a hand over your mouth, "you need to be quiet, doll. Or my son would find out how much of a slut his best friend is," he whispers in your ear. 

"Yeah? Did she mention which one?" 

"No, not really, she kinda just stormed out after getting what she wanted" Johnny creates a trail of kisses all the way from your neck to your shoulders, down the collarbone while one of his hand worked to unhook your bra, "Yeah, she's weird like that," you hear Donghyuck let out a chuckle as you whine into Johnny's palm, your figure slightly trembling from the fear of getting caught all the while being excited about the risky situation he's put the two of you in. 

"Anyways, I'll call you tomorrow? The boys are coming over now so I got to go! Night, dad!" Donghyuck speaks up again, "Night, Hyuck." 

You hear the beep indicating the call has ended. Johnny let's his hand drop from your mouth and makes its way towards your hair, brushing through the strands before pulling at it with a firm grip, "I had my son on call and here you are making all these sweet noises, you wanted to get busted, doll?" 

"It's not my fault! You-"

"ah-ah! Don't talk back, angel. You're already in deep trouble, don't want to add onto that now, do we?" He makes a swift move to have you lying on your back, your torso completely exposed to him while he remains clothed. 

"But Johnny-" you whine, jolting when you feel his hands caressing the soft flesh of your inner thighs, "How do you think Hyuck would feel about this?" his hands travel further north, cupping your heat from underneath your skirt. "fuck, you're drenched"

"Now tell me, pretty girl, what are you supposed to be calling me, now?" 

"Johnny-, tha-that was a joke! I don't have daddy kin-" you try clenching your thighs close from the sudden attention your core was receiving. Johnny wholeheartedly lets out a laugh at your attempt to hide your true feelings, making a quick act of disregarding your soaked panties somewhere behind him.

"Darling, the more you deny it, the longer we keep going at it-" his thumbs at your clit, applying pressure but making no move to quench your needs. You let out a sigh of bliss at the feeling, your back arching off of the sheets at the sensation.

In any other situation, you'd be embarrassed at how sensitive you'd gotten just from all the dirty talking and looks Johnny passed you. But that's the catch, he's Johnny, the only one who can get you this sensitive while doing the bare minimum. 

"Say it, Y/n." 

"No, Johnny! It's-it's embarrassing.." you plead with your eyes, grinding your hips against his fingers, earning a satisfied, dirty look from the lad. 

"Very well.. I'll just draw it out of you"

Without warning, Johnny with little to no resistance, slides two slender digits into your wetness, setting a pace fast enough to draw loud chains of cries from your mouth.

"You hear that, doll? You hear how fucking wet you are? Hm?" he growls animalistically, the thumb that remained on your clit now moving in circles with a motive to get you undone in seconds. 

"Johnn-..!" you whine out, feeling your orgasm growing so close that you could almost taste it, "Still going at that, angel?" he questions, not really expecting an answer as he soaks up the pleasured look on your face. "Johnny- I'm close.. -" you fail to notice the mischievous grin growing on his face as he speeds up the movement of his fingers. 

"Of course you are, doll" He feels you clench around his fingers, back coming off of the mattress as you ready yourself for your release, waiting until the last minute to draw his finger out.

"Why would you-? Johnn-I was so close!" you cry out as you sense your core clench around nothing, whining about the incomplete orgasm. "Why would I give you what you want when you wouldn't comply, baby? That's not how this works." He shrugs, licking his fingers clean of your essence, moving up from the bed to remove the shirt that seemed to be suffocating now.

"Johnny, please!" you whine louder, rubbing your thighs together to create some sort of friction, all unsatisfactory as it did not meet the same intensity as that of his fingers. 

"Please what, doll?" He smirks, knowing the ball is in his court and that you'd had to give in any moment now. Johnny leans down once again, drawing lazy circles at your clit, using his other hand to hold himself up above and close to you, his minty breath which had a hint of coffee fanning your face as you whimper, finally feeling your high building itself up again. "Spit it out, princess, you know you want to." he speaks in a soft voice.

"Please..please" you beg for nothing in particular, getting all worked up again, "The begging's lovely, doll. But you're starting to anger me here, will you say it? Or should I leave you hanging again?" 

You mutter prayers under your breath, hoping he wouldn't actually leave you hanging again, "Fine-" he moves again to remove his fingers from you to deprive you of pleasure all over again when you finally latch onto his wrist, keeping his hands in place blurting out, "Daddy! I'm so-sorry.. There, daddy, please make me come" you give in, the name, the feeling and look of pure victory on his face as he grins like a cheshire cat only intensifies the heat growing at a rapid pace at the pit of your stomach. 

"Final fucking ly, princess. Daddy will make you feel good" He reinserts his fingers in, drilling it with desperation to see you come undone as he draws rapid circles on your now sensitive clit with the other hand, watching you squirm under him.

"Joh-Daddy i'm coming..!" you cry out weakly as you feel your orgasm hit you with much force, easily driving you into over sensitivity. Johnny's patient in helping you ride out your orgasm, not stopping until you let out a throaty sob and plead him to stop to allow yourself some room to breathe. 

Johnny, however, makes no move to stop, only speeding up his fingers, his gaze fixed on where his fingers disappeared inside of you while his other hand held you down with a vise grip, "Give me one more, doll. I know you've got one more in you. " he pants, the feeling of his girth in confinement only throwing himself to sensory deprivation as he feels himself twitch inside his sweats painfully. 

You shake your head, tears now flowing elegantly down your cheek, your lips puckered into a slight pout, your eyebrows drawn together as you let yourself melt into the pleasure Johnny was providing you with. "Daddy.." 

You whine, feeling your second high reaching you ridiculously quick as you see Johnny's face contort in concentration, 

"I need to get you nice and wet for me, princess, you're doing so well. Give daddy another one" you coaxes you with his sultry tone, words and actions, inevitably having you come undone under him for the second time that night. 

You let out a choked moan, finally having enough as you curl upon yourself the minute Johnny removes his fingers from you, full fledged crying at the overbearing feeling of sensitivity. 

Johnny groans at the sight, leaning down to press a soft peck on your sweaty forehead before getting off of the bed to remove his pants alongside his boxer at a slow speed, granting you some time to recover.

"Condom?" he asks, readying himself to reach into the drawing when he notices you shake your head a no as a reply, "I'm on pills.." you mutter weakly. 

You hear him curse out at the thought of doing you raw, flexing his muscles before climbing on top of you again. He takes his time to gently turn you back onto your back, pressing his tender lips against your irritated one for the first time that night, his hand ever so slightly moving to play with your clit once again, making you jerk, "Daddy!" 

"Sorry, doll. Daddy just needs to make sure that princess is ready to take his cock" 

Your whining intensifies at his words, wiggling your hips to move closer to his own, "But I am ready! Look, daddy! I'm so wet and ready for you!" you whimper, earning a chuckle from the lad. 

Just like all the other times that night, he aligns his cock at your entrance without a warning, the tip ever so slightly pushing through your walls, "Alright, big girl. Show daddy how much of a slut you can be for him."

Suddenly, Johnny detaches himself from you, moving further away as he leans by the edge of the door, smirking at you whining at the loss of contact, "Patience, angel" 

He grabs hold of your hips, manhandling your body into all fours as he enters you completely with no trouble once he's got you where he wants you to be.  

Something about having to take Johnny from behind was so sexy that you could almost immediately feel your orgasm grow, "Fuck baby, keep clenching around me like that and i won't last long," he grunts, moving in you with a steady pace, 

"I never expected my son to befriend such filthy sluts like you, Y/n. Look at the mess you're making on my sheets" He grabs a fistful of your ass in a tight squeeze, the sudden shift in his demeanor only serving as a whiplash as you feel yourself growing closer and closer to the sweet orgasm. 

"Jesus, doll, you're so fucking tight i can barely move" Johnny growls, talking to keep himself from coming too fast. 

"Daddy.. I'm close. M-I'm so so close" you cry as your arms give out and you fall face first onto the mattress, the new stretch in your back only encouraging his cock to hit you deeper, finding the sweet cushion that serves as extra pleasure for you. 

"Me too, princess, me too.. '' You hear him let out a whine, his thrusts growing sloppier as he does you slower but deeper. 

He reaches around your body to find pursuit at your clit for the nth time that night, rubbing rapid, messy circles to go with his deep thrusts, "Daddy!" you reach your high with a high pitched cry of his name. 

Johnny comes not too long after you as he couldn't resist the constant tight clenching of your walls around his cock. He thrust slowly to ride out his high as you twitch helplessly, face scrunched up in too much pleasure. 

You feel your body being manoeuvred onto your side as he whispers sweet nothings which pass right through your ears as you feel him softened inside you, the feeling ridiculously soothing for your used up walls, 

"You did amazing, darling." he kisses your temple, not making any move to remove himself from within you, which you silently thanked him for. 

You both lay in silence as you turned your body towards him, earning a hiss and a playful smack from him as it added pressure onto his sensitive member. You wrap your arms around his torso, about to nuzzle into his chest and just drift away to dreamland when you hear the familiar ring of your phone from the table beside the bed. 

You feel Johnny's body shift to reach out to get your phone, looking at the caller ID before handing it to you with a smirk that you knew meant that he was up to no good. "Oh! It's hyuck" you exclaim in shock, quickly accepting the call and placing it near your ear, moving to get away from him. 

But Johnny seemed to have other ideas, as he latched an arm around your torso to keep you from moving, "Hey-" you begin, immediately feeling Johnny experimentally thrust into you again, making you whine, "Y/n! I miss you~-oh hey, are you okay?" you hear Donghyuck's voice from the other side, 

You look at Johnny with a pleading and warning gaze to which you earn yourself a toothy grin from the lad, 

"Of co-course! Just a little.. peachy,'' You turn around to place a hand on his chest to halt his movement, "You don't sound just peachy.. I've heard you like this before!" you hear Donghyuck make those noises he makes when he's thinking as Johnny keeps thrusting lazily the more you look at him, you see him open his mouth to speak, "Oh fuck! You're getting laid, aren't you???" 

"Tell Hyuck daddy says hi"

[talkingbl]

Folks are talking about BL Couples with the best/"most believable"/"most intense" CHEMISTRY? As in - you buy them as a couple through and through and wouldn't be surprised if they dated IRL? Okay, bet.

I'll do some for good on-screen chemistry and good off-screen chemistry. For the ones with the best off-screen, I'm not saying I think they're actually dating IRL, just that the chemistry is real and present. I will expand my judgments to include pairs that haven't had a series/movie yet but showed impeccable chemistry either in trailers for an upcoming BL or their off-screen interactions seep chemistry. The numbers are here for organization purposes and are not rankings.

1) Max and Tul. I have never seen two individuals more comfortable with each other than Max and Tul despite one of the parties being in a relationship. They give the vibe of polyamorous disaster bisexuals (trust me I would know) and have so much physical chemistry it's difficult to see how they could be just friends in one breath then stick their tongues down each other's throats in another. But somehow they pull it off lol.

2) Joss and Tay. I don't know what type of drugs GMMTV sprinkled over 3WBF but Joss and Tay as Shin and Neo delivered one of the more subtle BL performances (despite the show itself basically being about a polyamorous relationship) I've seen in Thai BL. The subtleties go a long way to highlight the romantic tension between those two. Now what's interesting is that Joss and Tay might be the only pairing on this list whose chemistry doesn't quite travel off-screen. But that's okay! 3WBF is good for what it is and I think it's a testament to the team behind the show that they were able to capture some magic between Joss and Tay.

3) Earth and Mix. Yeah, I'm not sure what y'all want me to say about this but Earth and Mix looked very in love as Phupha and Tian albeit in their own special way. I've stated this before but EarthMix on camera is like...the sweetest love? It's that type of love that manifests through actions and stolen glances rather than grand gestures. It's subtle but obvious at the same time. Off-screen their chemistry is almost purely platonic from what I've seen but it's very strong and even quite domestic.

4) Chris and Jake. I completely buy them as a couple off-screen and would not be shocked if they revealed they had feelings for each other. As Tang-yi and Shao-fei, there's something there but it's hampered by plot I think. Off-screen, however, these two are very suspicious and have displayed a level of genuine interest that I've not quite seen in actors who weren't already familiar prior to filming. No hyperbole, but I've never gotten the feeling that anything they did off-screen was solely for fanservice. They seem like two people who wanted to try sumn but for whatever reason it hadn't worked out (there's actually a boatload of tea and speculation on this though, I'll say...)

5) Tay and New. Look, I know that at the time of writing this post it's 2021 and girlfriendgate, etc. But Tay and New have the weirdest chemistry IMO. On-screen their chemistry is often hampered by acting demands and weird plot contrivances (particularly in DBK). In fact, KMA had the best TayNew chemistry and the chemistry almost purely existed in hot and bothered terms. Obviously, if you've seen any of the Kiss series, you know that this is simply Tay and New acting in line with their characters. But the fact is even off-screen their chemistry seems romantic in nature. They play on (what I feel is) a natural friction between them. I could go on and on about this but for now I'll just say that Tay and New have made me question a lot.

[holly-mckenzie]

I binge watched all of bump and its so good!!! I found you via the tag cause like nobody is talking about it and they should be cause its awesome!!! Reading your s2 post, I had some thoughts. Like I'm in no way making excuses and it might just be poor writing but... some of the bits that were a bit weird I'd picked up on too at first and then thought back to when I was 16/17 at college and the friendships/relationships I had then and some of them seemed less weird??

So lachie just disappearing- I could totally see that happening. He's obviously going through some stuff and trying to figure out who he is and for a 16 ish Yr old I could totally see how olys whole thing could have messed him up and made him not want to see her. (Yeah it's about her and she's the one with the big change and stuff but from his perspective, he's not a adult! He isn't looking at this logically! He has his life sorted, happy in his relationship all that, then his girlfriend is taken really really ill suddenly one day, he doesn't know if she's OK, then she's got a baby!! Everyone thinks it's his and is judging him while he knows it isn't and she's obviously cheated on him and it's being literally rubbed in his face constantly. Then he finds out its someone who she's acted like she didn't even like all this time and they are getting all cosy (as they have a child together, reasonable, but in his eyes!!) And he's thinking who even is this girl??? Yet he still sticks by her and doesn't make a big scene and be like!!! It's not my baby!!! And then he's probably feeling a bit abandoned, oly was his best friend too and he can't speak to her as she's busy with a baby, busy with the babys dad and is maybe?? Still his girlfriend and he's having doubts about his sexuality and can't tell anyone. Obviously he dealt with it awfully but it was in a very 16 year old way tbh.

Then reema and Vince going from hating each other to having some crush thing going on- standard tbh for their age lol. I definitely did shit like that and them saying contradictory things, again standard. Her being awful to him, sorry but standard. Maybe me and my friends where just awful people as teenagers but honestly, no part of that seemed strange to me, it's a time where you are figuring yourself out and you really do swing between saying awful things and trying to be compassionate.

I get what you are saying with the Muslim non Muslim thing but honestly I don't feel in this situation its uncalled for? I've known a lot of Muslim non Muslim couples irl esp when the Muslim half of the couple is from a family where you 'practice your religion in your own way' and where the community they live in is mixed. Sometimes the non Muslim converts and sometimes they don't, with the fasting thing (lol) and a few other Nods towards it, I wouldn't be surprised if there's the possibility of Vince converting? At their age, I was actually in a relationship where my boyfriends family where all Muslim (he was atheist at the time but I was always open to the possibility of him changing his mind and becoming more religious as I'd been at varying points agnostic/ very religious/ atheist/ agnostic in a seperate religion so I got that it's something you could change your mind about) and honestly there was way less of a culture clash than media tends to make out??? When you've grown up in a multi cultural community you just kind of adapt to being in different situations and it's not that big a thing. Sure there are occasionally misunderstandings like the whole fasting thing in bump lol but I identify a lot more with how different cultures interact in bump than the big clashes I've grown to expect in other media. As in most families, my ex's family and friends all sat somewhere along the scale of not religious to very religious. I never met anyone who was openly uncomfortable with me not being Muslim because honestly had they been that against mixed cultures they wouldn't have been at the events I was at as they probably would have taken offence at my ex's and others lack of practicing before they even got a chance to meet me. I know that there where members of his family who where more strict but we didn't come in to contact as they had remained in their home country/ settled in less mixed communities because they preferred being in less mixed situations?

Considering reema is the child of a mixed relationship I don't think it's unusual at all that she might end up in one herself and considering her age i don't think it's unusual that she would have doubts about where her boundaries with mixed religious relationships lie. To me this is quite a understandable and realistic storyline? What we've seen so far of Vinces attitude towards her religion makes me think it would continue to be dealt with quite sensitively as a storyline.

The scenes with Oly at Santi's house eating dinner while everyone talks Spanish 100% gave me flashbacks lol As well as her discomfort with Santi being used to his stepmum/grandmother doing all the housework (and like she wants to help but also not be seen as helping just because she's a woman and so is trying to help whilst getting Santi to help with her, but he's less than helpful as he just isn't used to needing to be present for the prep side of mealtimes) definite flashbacks and a realistic showing of a culture clash that I've definitely felt. The kids bafflement at the food she'd prepared as well lol

I also love that they show how vince and santi have obviously grown up in really child orientated cultures and so instinctively know certain things and that having grown up in what is obviously a very nuclear family type, oly struggles to understand this. Having grown up in a very big child orientated, it takes a village, kind of family but in a place where that isn't very common, I've definitely felt the other side from Oly where my friends can't understand that it's quite easy for me to adapt to their child's presence and not find it disruptive and know how to care for kids without having my own so I liked that portrayal of Vince and santi already having this skillset without being taught

Also others reactions to men knowing/ being interested in the more practical side of child rearing (calming a baby, nappy changes, childbirth) was something that I've definitely recognised in my own life having a family where its very normal for men to do these things be 'good with kids' in a practical way not just a 'good at being there for the fun bits' but growing up to find that outside of my family this is seen as unusual

I really felt for Santi that he wasn't being automatically included and obviously wanted to spend time with J while Oly was making this assumption that he didn't want to/ wouldn't be able to look after her

I really felt for him when he finally gets to look after J himself and finds it difficult to cope and needs Olys help (which is difficult on oly as well who'd really benefit from support Santi is able and willing to give) because he hadn't been able to learn it from the start. At this point J is so reliant on oly that he struggles to calm her/ feed her without oly despite fatherhood coming to him innately in a way motherhood hadn't to oly (in no way anything against oly, I felt it was a show of oly being self defeating because of the culture she's grown up in. She's so annoyed that these patriarchal expectations have been thrust upon her that she can't see the wood for the trees and realise that actually J has a father who definitely does not expect her to have to do this all by herself. She clearly loves J so much and yet feels held back by motherhood when in reality, she really doesn't need to take that all on, Santi is clearly happy to take on the legwork so she can live her life and have the career and all but she expects him to act like her own father and so doesn't even give him a chance and then when she finally let's him take on a bit more responsibility, at that point she is the more capable parent with all her mums lessons and handholding and baby j being used to oly always being there. Because oly's been struggling on herself up until that point unnecessarily, that when she does hand over the reigns for a moment, baby j is so reliant on her (not taking a bottle, being reliant on there being a grandparent at the ready to hand her off to, that santi needs oly there to calm her)) This part in particular just made it feel so real, its such a human thing to let your preconceptions, even one's you don't agree with, become these self fulfilling prophesies. From the start, when she wanted to put baby J up for adoption, I truly believe that Santi would have raised baby j himself, but although she doesn't agree with it, oly has this preconception that no father would do that, so she doesn't even tell him he's got a kid!

That is a part that I wish they'd gone in to more deeply actually, santi obviously believed baby j was his, but they didn't show any conversation where that was confirmed. He's obviously convinced but nobody is like hey, slow down a bit (i mean vince is like yeah the timings match but that's not confirmation but other than that) I would have liked it to show a tiny bit of doubt I guess, like he goes to the house sees the baby and has a conversation with someone like no, the baby looks just like my mum, i definitely know. Why does the grandma have no doubt??? She's just immediately oh the train of 'i have a new grandchild even if the childs mother doesn't agree he's the dad lol' And I know oly has said to her parents that he's the dad but like her parents aren't even like, are you sure? And her mum is clearly not morally OK with not telling him, she should have tried to convince oly of the moral necessity of telling someone they have a child at least once right? I just feel a few steps where missed. Like it goes from santi believing the baby is his, to admiting to his grandma he thinks its his, to them just turning up like hey can we see the new member of our family and olys family just being like 'Well shucks, guess these two know' they needed to be like ok well santi thinks its his, oly agrees, yeah it's his kid. And then like just from him soothing the baby in class everyone suddenly thinks it's his??? Even his dad?? Even though nobody has even seen oly and santi talk??? What's with that? I get there being rumors but like they where acting like it was straight up confirmed after like an hour. Clearly dna paternity tests are not relevant in any of these ppls lives??? (I won't lie this bit particularly annoyed me cause I was born to a somewhat simular situation, my parents had a fling, my mum knew i was my dad's and told her family so they knew but his didn't. My dad saw me and instantly knew I was his as I looked like every baby in his family and from that point he knew he needed to be in my life properly. So I can forgive the lack of dna test but The difference being, people definitely have doubts in these situations lol. Why did nobody raise the possibility. Plus for it to happen, someone kind of needs to fuck up. In my situation my dad was the fuck up cause he didn't believe my mum at first till he caved and saw me. I can believe oly not telling him because of her preconceptions, so that's the fuck up right but why did nobody tell oly she was wrong?? Like my dad's fuck up was 100% solved cause everyone around him was like hey what the fuck is wrong with you. Ppl should have been like hey oly, you need to fucking tell this dude he's got a kid. And yeah she's traumatised it's really sudden so maybe they didn't want to upset her. But they could still have the convo behind her back? Discuss it with her after the fact?

Also after the birth why does nobody offer oly therapy. That was a awful thing to happen out of the blue. Why does nobody check that it was consensual.

In s2 I was like wow they are really playing out the whole constantly having sex thing but then I remembered being 16/17 and the first year of a relationship and yep, believable lol

I found the acceptance of her taking J in to school pretty weird but it does seem to be a really small school???

Jacinda being a cringy name, yep but oly is 16 lol so standard and Santi doesn't really have the option of kicking off about it (that would have gone terribly and he wouldn't have been able to see J) plus it's not like he's had any time to prepare, he probably has no opinion on names

Okay

[chaoticamelay]

this post is mostly evergreen and a tiny bit whatever the tumblr equivalent of subtweeting is btw

(aka i just blocked someone bc their url's colour combo matches my least favourite prof. but mostly i'm a bit mad i had to turn off my messages today bc someone i have never interacted with before saw my post complaining about the key-operated wheelchair stair lift and decided to come into my DMs to basically call me an ungrateful little cripple who should be happy with whatever i get)

people should block people more often!! idk why we make blocking into some kind of horrible action reserved only for horrible people. the block button is there for a reason. i block bigots obviously but i also block people who annoy me for reasons great or small, people who simply post stuff i don't want to see on my dash, and sometimes just because i'm hangry or in a lot of pain and their url is a bad colour combo or scratches a bad brain itch.

i run my life like a crotchety old woman who doesn't like being perceived irl and by G-d i will do it online too!! stop subjecting yourself to stuff on the internet that you wouldn't put up with offline. you don't always need to get along or agree on everything to be in community or build coalitions but curating your online experience lets you have more energy for doing what you love and sustaining the meaningful work in your community